Date: Sun, 7 May 2017 14:01:05 -0400 From: Orson Cadell Subject: in-gods-love-2 This is a fictional role-play between two unrelated, 40+ adults pretending to be a father and adult (17yo) son. If that is in any way illegal for who or where you are, please leave immediately. The characters are solely the creation of the authors. All rights reserved jointly by the two authors. Do not repost or reproduce, in whole or in part, without express consent of the authors who can be reached at bradborris45@yahoo.com and orson.cadell@gmail.com. Please donate to Nifty today at donate.nifty.org/donate.html. Brad and Orson met by reading Nifty stories; this would not exist (and you certainly would never read it) if it were not for Nifty donations. In God's Love 2: Revelation ***** My Most Precious Son, I compose this on the plane as I leave you, crying in my seat to the consternation of the stewardess. The last seventeen hours have changed my life, and I pray to God that they have not destroyed yours! Our kiss when I got into the truck nearly undid me, son. Your need and fever and touch as we entered the Vestry and again as we entered my office were the greatest things I'd felt since you were conceived. I've never seen or known or imagined such need. That you turned to that unspeakable villain, Deacon Kelly, is something I now vaguely understand. Nothing, son, nothing prepared me for the way you needed me... or, to be honest, the need you kindled within me. I am still confused, bewildered, unbelieving that a person of such exquisite beauty and purity and budding-manliness would see anything in this tired, broken-down, hairy, bulky body. But it lit a fire within me that rivals the pits of the Great Satan himself. And, you know what? If that's where I end up, I will still be grateful for those hours. I will burn in the fiery torment of hell for it and I just don't care. Your touch fulfilled me, Brad. Your need affirmed me. Your scent destroyed me. Your kiss undid me. Your hand... well you know what you hand and... and your mouth did for me and to me and with me. When you exploded into your jeans at nothing more than my touch and my kiss, Brad, I nearly died with pride and power and love and desperate, gnawing need to give you more. I am ashamed and horrified that I let you... let you lick me there. That I let you do that to me. Let you take me into your mouth. Let me... I cannot think much less type the words in my shame. That I took advantage of your desperate need just to fulfill my own lust. I do not ask your forgiveness, just your understanding that it is a shame that I will take with me to the Heavenly Gate, allowing God Himself to judge me. I have never felt such, such, such ecstasy, in or out of the Lord's work. That this could be wrong horrifies and frightens me. I do not want to believe in a God who would make this a sin. We will be apart for weeks, my darling, precious, sexy, wonderful, lusty and perfect son. Please, I beg you, do not let that Monster, that Deacon Kelly, despoil you again. Pleasure yourself at the memory of what we did... I'm so sorry, at the memory of the terrible things that I did unto you. I am dying, my darling son, at the knowledge that my own joy came at the expense of your purity, innocence and trust. Please, I beg you, DO NOT forgive me. I could not take the shame. Just accept that the horrors I wrought were a twisted, terrible, unforgiveable expression of my deep and abiding love. The plane is beginning to land. Where did all these tiny bottles come from? To think that I have wept and thumb-typed for nearly three hours at this message prove how corrupt and disgusting that I am. Please son, please move on and find someone worthy of your incredible, awe-inspiring, divine love. Apologetic, Without Hope of Redemption, -Your Failed Father. ***** My Perfect Father, Just received the email from your plane ride. It brought tears to my eyes and an ache in my heart to be with you right now. The last two days have gone down as undeniably the Best of my entire life: I could not have imagined a better gift than you coming to me and opening your heart and your pants :) Though I realize I am only 17, I have never been so satisfied. Now that I have tasted the sweetness of your seed that created my very life I could never go back to Deacon Kelley. If you promise to forgive yourself and let me take the fall for it, I will keep myself only for you on the condition that we MUST continue this when you return and that you agree that you and I will go even farther than what Mr Kelley and I did, to the very gates of hell if we have to. Dad, if its not super nasty and manly then I know I will turn back to DK, thats what he provide for me in your absence. But you are 10 times the Man he is if you give yourself to this. I don't want us to apologize or be afraid. It's clear before God now that we are destined to do this and to do it in the church itself naked before God with no shame. Please let me know that you agree to this so I know how to handle my heart and expectations and cock:) Lovingly yours ***** Brad, I know it must have been torture for you these last three days without a single word from me, but I will not apologize. The bug-infested braising hell of this mission gave me something I needed, the solitude to truly, openly pray to the Lord God for guidance. I begged for the shame and guilt I knew was my due for having let my lust entice you further into sin. I longed for His holy wrath to show my how wrong and vile and unspeakable this love is. But he ignored my pleas and denied me utterly the right to be ashamed. Everything in my heart, through every prayer, told me that this was right, needful, perhaps even holy. I will never forgive either myself or Deacon Kelly for the fact that I, your father, was not the one to bring this knowledge to you. I know myself the critical importance of a father showing his son this wondrous, special, sacred bond, and reveling in it. It is the privilege and responsibility of the father and the undeniable right of the son. I failed you, but will fail you no more. I will work off this guilt by redoubling this special love that we hold for each other. You, son, will not "take the fall" for anything. We have both been the victim of that horrible man. Your soul in this is pure, son, and there is no stain upon it. That was another part of my agony in the Lord, to be sure that He agrees. His calming Grace has made it clear, Brad, my darling and precious son, that your slate is clean before the Lord God. My sin has not been in the act, but in the denial of your need and right, both in my own pride and mixed priorities. This mission could bring a thousand souls, a million to Christ and I would deserve condemnation if I failed to help you become the man you need to be. There are times, son, that you will need to lead as well as follow. We may have to work together to find new paths toward Heaven, for I refuse to consider this journey as any sort of approach to Hell. For a start, I need to know what you mean by "even farther than what Mr Kelley and [you] did." What have you experienced, and how? What have you done to/for/with each other so far? Until I know that, son, I cannot know what I have that I can teach, or what you can help us learn together. Stay strong, my beautiful and bedeviled boy. Avoid that vile man at all costs, and resort to self-pleasure when the pressure is too great. Think on the things we did, and those that we have yet to do. For me, I will do so (yes, son, even old farts jack off) lost in three memories: The scent of your indescribably-erotic musk as I entered the truck and fell into our first true kiss; the look of amazed hunger and hope and longing when you finally realized that I was not there to punish, but to fulfill your needs; and the most selfish of all, the first, ecstatic touch of your tongue to my old, gnarled, ugly prick and the blissful moan that erupted from you at that taste. The kissing was good too. ;) I apologize for the length of my messages. As hinted by innumerable parishioners, I do tend to run on in my sermons. In this case, though, it is not to exhort the wayward to the Lord, but to revel in our private joy. With All Forms of Love, -Daddy ***** Best Daddy ever, Yes. It has sucked :) now that I've "tasted and seen that you are good [angel smiley]" I can't think about anything else. Papa, I need you in ways that I sure don't have the words for. I feel more and more convinced that this was Gods plan and He's smiling on where this is headed because he knows what I need. I would have never thought that you would be willing to be the one to provide this for me. I am sorry I ever got involved with Deacon Kelley. He was not my first choice as you now know. You always have been. I have pleasures myself usually 2-3 times a day since our "father-son counseling session" remembering your fur-covered body, the specimen of the perfect male; your thick drippin cock. I actually couldn't believe the amount of precum you were leaking. Our bed practically became a swimming pool ha ha . And we actually didn't even go very far together sexually yet. I can't imagine the places we will explore and how nasty I will get to be with my own father. You asked about things I have done with Deacon Kelly. First of all you must know that he is contacting me almost daily asking what is wrong. I keep putting him off, and I must admit the temptation to see him in your absence is very strong. He does have a type of power over me thats very dark and incredible at the same time. He and I have gone places sexually and spiritually in the church that I can't get out of my head -and probably because he is so much like you in many ways. Masculine, hairy, all man... Daddy, Mr. Kelley has fucked my ass bareback over 100 times I would guess. We go at least an hour or more and he gets very verbal and nasty calling me "son". I have held his seed in me countless times and thought i was doing the right thing until you and I talked. I have to admit I have gotten used to that kind of oneness before God. The altar has been our favorite place lately but I give you my word that my ass on the altar can only be consecrated by you from now on if you agree. When will you be home next? I need you Daddy. Please let me know your honest thoughts about all this. Waiting patiently but horny, Brad ***** My dearest Boy, The first words of your message took my breath away, as I have been praying upon that very passage for the week since we were together. It is a crisis of my faith not yet resolved. Yes, our eyes have been opened by the Fruit of the Tree of Knowing Good from Evil, and we DID see the nakedness of each other and it WAS good. But twin thoughts drive me now. Could Adam have wronged God in a very different way than he supposed? Should he have stood and said, "Yea, Father, I disobeyed and am heartily sorry, but we DID taste of the fruit and KNOWETH now good from evil and, Father, THIS is the greatest good!" Should Adam have defended their nakedness instead of hiding it away? Should Adam have reveled in God's Grace and gloried in His greatest creation? The pure joy of being with you, of knowing you, of all we did and will do, tells me that you are right, my darling Brad: this is God's plan. But then darkness falls and I think, sin can feel good and still be sin. If so, which of us is Eve, tempting the downfall of the other? Deacon Kelly so perfectly plays the Serpent, but the idea that you are Eve is impossible to consider. I am the one to rip you from the bosom of innocence with the taste of knowledge and... other things you should never have tasted. But I always come back to the glow, the peace, the serenity it gives me, taking me further back into Genesis 1: That God looked upon us and knew our souls, "And God saw that it is good." I blushed through the rest of your letter. Where did you LEARN such words?? For SHAME, son! I cannot find it in myself to condemn them, though, for they surge through my mind and body like the Holy Spirit. Yes, son, I have always leaked plenty, but nothing like when I was with you. I cannot believe even as I write this that I'm saying it, but your touch made me pour dogwater in spurts as if tiny orgasms rocked me continually as we touched, held, communed with each other. Deacon Kelly's 'dark and incredible' power over you is at an end. He will not contact you again about anything, ever, unless I am present. Before writing this, and I sent him a note explaining the magnitude of my rage at what he has taken from me, stolen from us both. The sacred bond of Father and Son is something he violated in a way that cannot be forgotten, and only through my service to the Lord God can I find it to forgive him. If he so much as looks in your direction or speaks to you of anything outside the Lord's Work or touches you in *any way whatever*, I will visit upon him wrath unknown in the Holy Book itself. At the very least, he will never again tempt a young man... well, he might, but he will lack the equipment to take pleasure from such an act. He will also go today, this very day, and be tested for diseases he may have brought to you, brought to us both. If he has (and he does not know this and you are forbidden to say anything), Deacon Kelly will join me at this mission... briefly. I will personally deliver him to Satan slowly, in unspeakable pain, and I am confident that he will remain in the agony of Hell Itself from that day unto eternity. The remains of his body will be consumed by the infernal insects that plague this hell-hole. *I* am the only one to call you SON. *I* am the only one with whom you will feel these things until you find a wife or... never mind. *I* will consecrate our love, son, and only I. I will not have Deacon Kelly or any other Serpent defile you again. I will be home for you in two weeks' time. There is no way to arrange it sooner without arousing suspicion, and I will not suffer unto you questions or whispers among the congregation. Our time then will be short, so give thought to what you want us to do. Thanks to that demon-made-flesh, you have more practical experience. My own revelation to the sacred truths transmitted from Father to Son were not near as... complex, so you will have to guide me physically as I guide you spiritually. I am especially drawn to "fucked [your] ass bareback". How does that work, my precious child, and how does it feel? I surely cannot mean... My mind goes blank at the physically-impossible idea. I long -- no, I THIRST -- to touch you, to caress you, to hold you, to kiss you, to bring you again and again and again to ecstasy. I want to bring you the kind of pleasure -- every kind of pleasure -- known in God's creation, Brad. Help me to know what those are. One last note, my precious creation. You are committing the Sin of Onan two to three times *each day*?? A release is needful and understandable, but (not a Biblical reference), "Don't yank it OFF, Boy!!" Please do this for me: Confine your acts to once per day, Brad. At other times, bring yourself to the very edge of that ecstasy then stop, praying and concentrating on the Lord. You will gain three things, my son, with such restraint: First, you will reduce your sin and bring yourself closer to God's Grace. An understandable sin, son, is still a sin. Second, you will gain the control that a Man must have to survive the temptations of this world. If you were 14 again, I could understand it. But now you must learn the subtle, terrible and fulfilling art of self-control. Lastly, I promise the greatest possible reward. Bringing yourself to the very brink several times per day produces the best, strongest, Holiest eruption you have ever imagined, son. In Ture and Constant Love, Daddy ***** My Father-Who-Will-Make-Love; Thanks for communicating so clearly. You are simply the best a boy could ask for. Dad. I hear what you are saying about "once a day" and building up strength for our future times of making love together. And Pops, I do see it as making love..more than sex..something so spiritually nasty that we can't ever turn back. Also, this is what I mean by ass fucking: I can't wait to feel your thick monstrous cock as it slowly slides up my ass and see the look of lust like you've never experienced before. I want to feel the heat of you bare skin feeling like a iron rod plucked straight from the fire moving into me. I want you to see my look when the head of your 8 incher hits my prostrate for the first time. I will probably shoot right then and there. I have dreamed of this for so long. Many time as Mr. Kelley would be plowing my ass I would lean back and close my eyes and see you. Now it will be a reality and we will experience a oneness of the spirit together and what God has joined together let no man separate! Amen!! This is what every boy wants from their earthy Father...to be known and loved through filling them up with their cocks in the most intimate way possible. Something we aren't ashamed of and would lay in the middle of an arena filled with 1000s of Christian men and let them watch us consummate our love as they consecrate our act with their rivers of cum. This is the good life Dad. Next, I'm not even sure how to ask this. By what you implied in your last response, did something happen at some point, well, _sexually_ between you and grandpa? Surely not Grandpa has been a holiness preacher for years and one of the most God-fearin that I know. The picture of what might have been makes me want to run straight to the bathroom to relieve this enormous pressure in my balls. What happened or didn't happen, Dad. Please tell me EVERYTHING. I need to hear real stories as it will help me to withstand the lure of Deacon Kelley in my thoughts. I must displace those heated nasty times with memories that are much nastier with you. What do you think? Lastly, I have an unusual request. When we meet in a couple of weeks and take things to a new level (please be thinking and planning, cause even tho I have more experience i NEED you to lead for my dicks sake): I would like you to not have showered for at least two days. I'd like you very sweaty, musky, cum-stained and ripe. Is that ok? I hope that doesn't gross you out and make you change you're mind. I need a man who smells like sex and smells like a man. Please if you don't have one already get a pair of running shorts that become your "cum rag" and use them to clean up your cum every time. Don't wash any away and don't wash the shorts. Exercise in them, get them as cum stained and sweaty-ripe as possible. Hide them away. I'm doing this as well, I have a pair I haven't washed in a year. It is the most intoxicating smell ever. I love you Daddy! I can't wait! ***** My Lusty, Lovely, Lascivious Son, I'll start with the end of your letter because it made me laugh out loud. As I was waiting to leave IAH, I spotted a sportswear store and grabbed a pair of compression shorts and donned them in the restroom. I wasn't sure at first with the way they grabbed, um, *everything*, but by the time I got to Tegucigalpa I loved them. On that flight, reliving our night while writing you that guilt- and lust-drenched message set me on fire, and the compression shorts wicked away (and locked in) every bead of sweat, every surge of dogwater. I have only taken them off to bathe since, and they reek wonderfully. Until you showed me, I never knew how intoxicating man-musk could be. Now I can only sit, desperate, waiting to smell you again. I have a confession to make. When we got dressed that morning, you seemed confused then decided you'd gone commando the day before. I, um, well... I took the boxers you blew your load into before you got undressed. I've sucked on them whenever I've needed to relieve (or relive) the tension, and they are my, as you put it, 'cum rag'. I'm blushing so hard at that I can barely stand it. I just spent ten minutes fighting with myself over deleting this whole paragraph. But I promised to be open and honest. Sigh. Just to be perfectly clear, you are saying that you want me to take my manhood and somehow insert it up your behind? You cannot *possibly* be saying that. It could never fit! Or do you mean between your thighs, or (oh, God, I almost came at the thought) sliding up and down between your clenching buttocks? Also, son, you'll have to help me with another point. I've had a prostate exam at the Doc's, but what can that have to do with sex? I am not (I didn't think) naive, but I'm having trouble making sense of the, well, mechanics. As to your other question. You must never breathe a word of this or hint in any way that I have told you. I somewhat regret my promise of absolute honesty, son, but you put pieces together that I didn't realize I'd written. Yes, Reverend (then Pastor) Cadell, your grandpa, taught me the mysteries of becoming a man. He *is* a holy man and *is* a 'God-fearin' preacher. He was also a much better father to me than I've been to you. His was the second erection my hand ever touched (mine was the first and yours the third), and his was the first hand upon my manhood other than my own. He taught me to 'make beautiful music' with a wife by, um, by 'chorus practice' with our bodies and voices as instruments. He taught me how to enjoy myself, how to control myself and how to pleasure another. Tempo, force, melody, rhythm. Hands and mouths, though, were the only instruments he taught me to play. We practiced that music for about four years, 13 to 17. That is why I weep at my stupidity. You seemed so innocent and soft and precious that I, well, I tried to pretend that you would not need my touch and my guidance. Had I given you the 'gift of music' when I should have started, that vile man could never have lured you. It is my fault, my sin, my failure, and this is my chance to redeem myself at least in part. We will make symphonies, my darling Brad, to make the Great Masters hang their heads in humility. Since I am already blushing so hard mosquitoes are crying to get through the screen: You asked for a 'real story' and I'll give you one that was not only nasty but potentially disastrous. I was 15, and I was playing a breathy tune on Daddy's one-note flute as he sat in that huge leather swivel chair (the same one, yes, that's in his office to this day). There was a knock on the door but I was just getting started. I scooted under that massive desk, spun the chair and never let him out of my suckling mouth. That's when I heard The Voice. You never met Pearl Bessel. Imagine Mrs. Stanton but add a nasal, bitchy voice to the wrinkled old hag. Smelled of rosewater and skunk and had a hard, ratty handbag that hurt like hell when she whacked a kid with it for, oh, I dunno, breathing loud. So in she storms in high dudgeon and starts to harangue Daddy about Satan only knows what while I am busily trying to suck Daddy's rattles out through is skin-flute. I added some fine finger-work to his fret while strumming his maracas with the other. Daddy's voice went up and up until finally he yelled, "GOD BE PRAISED!" and unloaded into my suckling, selfish, needy, greedy, dirty little mouth. Miss Pearl jumped a foot and then said, cool as ice, "I'm glad to see you understand the severity of the situation and plan to make appropriate changes," before sweeping out. Daddy couldn't decide whether to strangle me or give me a present. He split the difference by locking the door and tying my hands to the chair, where he brought me to the knife's edge of crescendo seven times before allowing me to end my little begging-concert in a screaming finale. Your grandfather is an amazing and loving man, my son, and the father I wish I was. I will think on other stories. Perhaps when he first showed me what my manhood was for, or the first time he let me taste his own Holy Water. But for now, son, I hope that is enough to tide you over. As I mentioned, I am working to arrange more "home time" but don't have news on that yet. Stay strong, stay pure, stay horny and stay wonderful, my precious, incomparable, unbelievably-sexy Brad. Leaking About You Constantly, -Daddy ***** Daddy, Sorry, I know this is the middle of the night (and hopefully you'll end up reading this in the morning at a normal hour) but I just woke up from a crazy dream that is really bothering me. I am wondering if it was a prophetic dream from God? you remember when you and the elders and Deacon team went away to the General Assembly (mom and us kids stayed at home) 4 years ago??? In my dream you and Deacon Kelley were sharing a room and I walked in on you two engaged in oral sex. You just looked at me and gave the most lascivious grin and told me to get out. Dad, be honest did something happen at some point between you and Deacon Kelley. It felt very real to me. Don't be mad:) I love you with all my heart, mind and cock, Brad ***** My Loving Son, I long to lie to you, to deny things that I am ashamed of. But I cannot do so and still demand your own honesty when revealing things that shame you. Nothing like what you describe ever happened. However... When Deacon Kelly first came to our Ministry, he was a vibrant and enthusiastic leader and took the youth groups well in hand. I found out two years later that it was true in far more terrible ways than the phrase intends. I literally walked in on him and a boy of 15. He had locked the door to my office, but I had assumed it would be locked anyway and unlocked it and went in without the 'jiggling the knob' he probably expected as an early warning. That viper had his manhood down the throat of that poor, innocent boy. Deacon Kelly had taught the lad to caresses his balls as he took his pleasure from the boy's mouth. I arrived at the perfect/worst time, just as that monster was preparing to defile the child with his seed. I yanked him back so hard the boy fell forward, the man's cock popping out with the sound of a plunger. The child cried out in terror and humiliation, but Deacon Kelly was too far gone to notice or care and began to spew his filthy ejaculate across the floor, the boy and my own desk. The child, mortified by what he saw as his own sin, fled, sobbing hysterically. No, don't even try to guess his name, I will not confirm it even if you already know. I spent a year with that child, trying to heal the damage Deacon Kelly had done. Like you, he was utterly convinced that he was the aggressor, the blackmailer, the transgressor, the monster and he flatly refused to lay witness against the Deacon. That left me with no actual choice. I could not remove him or have him arrested (and never would done the latter as it would have destroyed that innocent child). I had to force the viper to mend his ways. I moved him out of all youth activities where a boy might be enrolled and demanded weekly reports of all contacts with the youth of the congregation. Sadly, that did not put a stop to his villainy, but that is a different tale. As part of the boy's healing, I allowed him -- once and only once -- to use me to relive the things that monster had made him do. This was simply to show that there could be goodness in physical love, not only the shame, humiliation and guilt that Deacon Kelly beat into the poor child's conscience. Both of us were stunned at the power of that act, and it was oft-discussed but never repeated. So, in effect, Deacon Kelly and I are sexually connected, through the child he molested and that I helped to heal. As for any idea that I might touch that villain or allow him to touch me, it could, would, will NEVER happen. He uses the glory of sex for lust and denigration; I use it for teaching, healing and love. I will dedicate myself to showing you the difference, my loving, perfect, pure boy, if it is my last act on this Earth. In God's Love, -Daddy ***** [ED NOTE: Pastor Orson's response and Brad's next letter crossed in the ether, as such things often do.] Daddy dearest hunk of man alive:) You can ignore my rambling email from the middle of the night if you feel like its inappropriate. It just freaked me out because of how real it felt, and next thing I knew I was emailing you at 3:30 in the morning. But here's what I can't get out of my head today: YOU & GRANDPA! The most fucking hot thing I have ever heard. It's so hard to believe because of who grandpa is. But now that you have shared that story I can see if in my mind. What an incredibly beautiful thing. Please describe everything, how often, how intense, how did it start, EVERYTHING :) But most of all, why did it end, Dad? Why didn't it keep going? Does that mean you and I have to end soon? Help me understand. From what I have experienced, I will never wanted to come to an end. And to be perfectly honest the thought of you, I and grandpa all in bed together enjoying the pleasures of fami'y, me being squished between your two naked bodies...wow. I remember seeing grandpa naked on several occasions at the lake house when he would change in the guys outdoor shower area with me. I was impressed, though afraid of staring at such a holy specimen; He is the only man I know who is actually hairier and has a bigger cock than you, Dad. What an amazing discovery. It gives me a lot of hope. All that said, Dad are you for real that you don't know what anal sex and man fuxcking is? Haven't you ever watched at least "bi" porn and two guys fuck? If not, please start going on Pornhub (it's free) and watch videos under "Dad and Son" or "Pastor". That will catch you up to speed quick lol. Yes literally stick your cock slowly into my asshole. It's better than a pussy as it's very tight and will grip your cock. Once you get used to it, it's like it was made to go together. Dad, i swear on the Bible that it will be the most enjoyable experience of your life. I want you inside of me, leaking your dog water and then exploding a pint of cum inside me. I need this daily from you. I don't want any distance ever again. Speaking of the Bible, I need to ask you a question about your willingness to do certain things in the church such as cumming together on a Bible, how open are you Pops? As far as your new shorts and my boxers, DAMN, who are you and what have you done with my dad lol. ???? I am dripping a river just thinking about those shorts and how manly you must smell. Please keep going with that; it drives me wild. You know I am all yours. I can't think of anyone else at all (except for maybe grandpa now:)) I'm obsessed with you, Man of God! Teach me, disciple me, instruct me, shepherd me.... With all my love, Brad ***** Father, There's a reason why I've delayed in responding since you shared your last message with me. This is not easy to say, but you made me promise to be 100% honest with you. You are a man of integrity, so I know this will never be confirmed as you said. I'm sitting in my room in a puddle of tears as I write this, shaking and afraid. For some reason my heart broke reading your last response. I didn't even know that I could experience jealousy like this. Or what it would lead me to do. You see, I know the young man was Paul. As you most likely remember, Paul and I have never gotten along well. We are both competing to be valedictorian and have been competitive in sports since elementary school. Well we don't hate each other, but we are not friends either. I would describe us as classic "frenemies". Several years ago, Paul walked up to my locker and with a cocky grin on his face said, "Youe dad for sure likes me better than he likes you, His own son. He proved it last night." It Just sounded ridiculous to me, so I just rolled my eyes and shrugged it off. Now I understand the context. He was mocking me and our lack of closeness. It's almost like he could see how lonely I was for attention and just poked on that bruise. That, Dad, is not the hard part to tell you. The next part is... I was so devastated putting all this together that I called Deacon Kelly asked if I could meet with him at the church. We met this evening at 5:30 after everything was locked and everyone was gone. I must be honest, it was the most incredible explosive three hours I have ever participated in. It was the nastiest sex, but it was revenge sex, and I didn't even realize. I am so so sorry, Pastor Orson, Father, Daddy. I am prepared for the consequences. I would not blame you if you cut off all relationship with me and never speak to me again. It is what I deserve. I have never been good enough, nor will I ever be. Not good enough to be your son, Bradley ***** More coming soon. bradborris45@yahoo.com - Brad Borris, author orson.cadell@gmail.com - Bear Pup, author