Date: Fri, 9 Apr 2004 20:00:57 -0700 (PDT) From: John Harrington Subject: In the Dark by the Light of the Moon- Part 4 "You don't look so good Bobbie. Everything ok?" I asked. "Your leaking," he said. "Leaking out of me." I could feel myself turning a deep shade of red. "You're right JJ I did plan it. I wanted it to happen this morning. Are my jeans stained? I need a tampon or something." He kicked my hand away. "Don't touch me! I don't want anyone to touch me right now. Do you understand what I am saying to you JJ? Do you really understand? It is so lonely to be me. No friends and no one to love me. " He was crying now, legs drawn tight against his chest, his arms wrapped around his knees, huddled in the corner of the seat, so sad looking. "Leaking? What do you mean? Leaking? Are you bleeding?" I asked. He glared at me, stupid questions deserve stupid answers. Was he a virgin? It went so smooth this morning. Real smooth like it was made for me. I just pushed into him and went blind as my eyes rolled into the back of my head. SO hot! Does he have a boy friend or lover? Who could it be? I didn't know that it leaked out. All I wanted to do was hold him, the tears were rolling down his cheeks, eyes red and puffy, like he had been swimming for hours. "Bobbie, you have lots of friends..." "No JJ! NO!" he yelled back at me, " No I don't. You don't know anything about me or my life. Only what you see, what I show to you, mom, and dad. Who am I? Who is there for me? Who can I tell about what happened last night or today ? WHO? Nobody that's who. At least you have girl friend. You can go the movies together, kiss her, hold hands, tell your friends about her, because it's normal. It's ok with everybody. I hate being gay..." There was a tapping at the glass. Some kid pressing his face against my window. He was asking something about Bobbie and I gestured for him to move on. "Bobbie, just think about this..." What was this kid's problem? Now he was trying to open the truck door. I gestured for him to get lost. Bobbie turned to face the window, "Oh, it's Ryan. He's ok." Wiping his eyes with the back of his hand, he opened the window. "Ryan" stuck his head right in. "Hey Bobbie, let's go man! We got class and the coach wants to see us...Why are you crying? Who is this guy anyhow. Did he hurt you? Hey, you! Yeah you! Who the fuck are you man? I'm going to kick your ass pal if you hurt Bobbie," he yelled trying to climb in through the window. "Get lost punk. Who is this kid Bobbie? Get off my truck." He was dressed just like Bobbie. Same jeans, sneakers, red tank top, and swimmers goggles on his head. Good build though, that lean defined frame of a swimmer. His arms and chest were powerful but not bulky. He was seething now, trying to push himself into the truck. " Get off my truck or I'm going to shove your head so far up your ass you will be looking out your throat." I leaned over and shoved him out the window. He scrambled right back through the windows muttering about breaking my face or something. "Ryan, stop! Please stop. It's ok! This is my brother JJ. It's ok. He's ok. We're cool. He knows. Back off." He pushed Ryan back out the window and unlocked the door. "Your brother! You don't like your brother. You said he was an asshole. Why are you crying Bobbie? Are you ok?" He reached in and laid his hand on Bobbie shoulder. Pulling him back against the door he wrapped his arm around Bobbie's front. Bobbie resting one hand on Ryan's upper arm, calmly stroked his fingers on the muscle, "Down Killer. Down. JJ and I are just talking about something last night. We're cool now Ry-Ry. Everything has changed." If looks could kill then I was already dead. The animosity and hatred on Ry-Ry's faces was blatant. Everything about him said, "HANDS OFF! Private Property. Do not touch. This is mine." If Bobbie was a girl it would seem so natural, this guy stepping in and protecting his stuff. "Yeah RY-RY, we cool now so fuck off and let us finish," I said. "Bobbie go with your knight in shining armor. We'll go on and talk tonight." I reached over and brushed my hand on his cheek. Ry-Ry, what a stupid name, actually growled at me! Growled at me. I can only imagine what Bobbie had told him about me. "Ryan, enough please." He moved out of his grip and closer to me. "JJ, don't forget the meet tomorrow at noon at the country club. Promise you will come. And the movie tonight! Early show. I have a team curfew, so in bed by 10 pm. OK?" He pushed the door open and stepped out. Ry-Ry stood right beside him, arm over his shoulder, glaring at me. "See you JJ," he turned to the school and headed off for class. Ry-Ry walking beside him, flipped me the bird and pulled Bobbie closer to him. As they walked Bobbie leaned in and whispered something to Ryan. Not a good reaction from the guard dog, boy friend, swim troll, what ever he was. I watched them head up the steps, surrounded by 6 or 7 other swimmers, all dressed alike, forming this wedge, as they moved into school. At the door, he turned and waved again before disappearing into the shadow. "He's right! I can't tell anyone about any of this. Who can I tell? Hey Dad, got a minute, I fucked Bobbie this morning and have a little problem.. Ma, how about some advice about my new lover, you know him pretty good... Eric, buddy, what till I tell you about last night and the guy that I gave a blow job too..." There was no one to tell. No way no how no ever. It was a secret and like all secrets covered in guilt. I was screwed. Why did I ever do it? What was wrong with me? A guy! My brother! What a nightmare. I turned into the school parking lot and there was Jen.... "Bobbie what is going on? You hate your brother! Now a movie and the swim meet? I thought that we were going to the movies tonight. Not you and jerk off." "Ryan everything has changed. Bobbie and I spent some time together last night and this morning. It ok now. We're cool..." "You did it with him didn't you?" he muttered in my ear. "You did with him! Shit! How could you Bobbie? What about us?" He slammed his hand into the locker behind me. Face inches from mine, nostrils flaring, he waited for a response. "Ryan, you are not my boy friend! I told you that over and over again. And I did not do it with him. And If I did, it's none of your business anyhow. So piss off and stop acting like the biggest gorilla in the jungle." "Bobbie, something changed with you and him and I think that you fucked him. You were talking about it the other night at my house. Remember, when were in bed Bobbie? In bed together, naked, and rubbing our cocks against each other. REMEMBER? You said, `that it would always be just us. Just you and me Ryan.' And then I gave you a blow job. You fucked him! Just tell me the truth. I can deal with it," his voice getting louder in the hallway. "Ryan not so loud man. Shut up! Get lost. So what, I wanted the blow job and you wanted to do it. We are not boy friends. Understand? I like you a lot. A real lot. I enjoy the boy sex thing with you. It's been cool and kept me from going crazy. I am so glad to find a friend that is gay. You're a sweet guy and my best friend. But I'm late for chemistry. That's the bell. Stop by at lunch. That new kid is eating with me. He's interested in the swim team and coach wants him to try out after the meet. See you later." I hugged him quick and turned the opposite way. "I know that you did it with him. How could you Bobbie? Don't go yet! I'm sorry. Sorry. I just get so messed up when I think about you and anybody else. It makes so mad I could crush your brother right now. I know that you and him did it. " "Ryan stop shouting at me. I got to go now. We'll talk about this later. After practice maybe. See you at lunch ok?" and I headed down the hall to chem. My ass was so sore. I had to be walking funny. Felt like someone stuck a broom stick up my butt. A little cramping deep inside of my stomach. I needed to take a dump. Take a note Bobbie, no more Vaseline! Works good but I think that my insides don't like the stuff. Next time get some real lube. Next time? What next time? JJ will never even talk to me again. Ryan will never touch me again. Not true I can always work Ryan however I want. "God I need to take a dump," stumbling into the lockers, I dropped my books and doubled over. "Bobbie! Bobbie! Let me help you... "Hi Jen. What's up babe?" "JJ where have you been? I called your cell phone all night and you never answered. Where were you?" What to say? With Bobbie? In bed with my brother? "Sorry Jen I was tired and went to bed early. A hard day at practice. Anything special happening? I need to cancel for tonight. My brother and I..." "Cancel our date tonight? JJ we always spend Friday night together. We're going to that party at Beau's house. We planned this for weeks. What is going on? You and your brother? Are you kidding me? You don't even like Bobbie," her voice getting louder and louder. "Jen, something came up last night and I promised him that I would take him to the movies. Cut me a little slack here. It's just one night and it's important for him. We're going to see the new Lord of the Rings movie at the mall. It's just one night. I can join you at the party about 11 pm." Did I sound like a whimp or what? Was I really asking her permission to do this? Nothing was going right for me today. "JJ, forget it. Go to the movies with boy wonder. We made a date and I want you to spend the time with me. Is he sick or something? In trouble? Are you babysitting him?" " Jen knock it off. It's just a movie and I..." "JJ, go the movies with your brother. In fact take him to the party after the movie. I don't care. You choose. Me or him." She was so pissed. I hate it when she acts like this. Like she owns me. Like I have no personal life. "Fine Jen, see you around then. I am going to the movies with Bobbie," I snarled at her. "I prefer him anyway at least he's happy to see me. You are such a bitch sometimes Jen." She stomped off towards the school. I can't believe this! I just broke up with a beautiful girl over my brother. I was going to spend the entire summer with her. My last summer before college. What is wrong with me? I just chose my little kid brother over a gorgeous blond with great tits. "Jen, wait up a minute!" She never turned around. "Fuck you JJ!" How did I ever get into this mess? I'm going to kick JJ's ass. This morning was a nightmare. At first it seemed so cool. He was lying there, all soft and warm, pushing back when I pushed in. So different than doing it with a girl. He was moaning so loud. I clamped my hand over his mouth. "Bobbie be quiet! Mom will hear you man." He nodded his head and started licking my hand with his tongue. "It feels so good JJ. I can't help it. SO good." He leaned up and bit me on the shoulder. What a bitch! He bit me right on the bridge where my neck and shoulder join. Bit me hard and was shaking his head back and forth. It was so wild. I felt his ass start to clamp down on me. "JJ, I'm going to shoot now. I can't help it. It's coming. My balls are boiling over and here it comes." He buried his face in my neck and started to moan. He was such a fuck animal. Wrapping his arms around me and squeezing me so tight. His ass clamping down, his legs twitching in the air over me. I was losing it too. Everything was turning so dark. My eyes shutting, my breathing getting faster and faster. I thrust deep into to him, my cock was so slick, gliding in and out of his hot hole. Every time I pulled out completely, his box would shut, and I slid it back into him. It felt so great. He moaned again and started to squirt. Warm liquid shooting up between us. I was going deep into blackness, my mind just numb with pleasure. "Bobbie, Bobbie, I going to fill your ass with my cum. You are so hot boy. I love the way that my cock feels in you. " He moaned again, opened his mouth, and bite me hard again. His teeth digging into me, his lips sucking at my neck. My head seemed to explode. My cock was pumping juice, the stars in my head were a million different colors, all flashing at different speeds. I arched up and thrust once more. Once more, my hips pushing back and forth, his legs dancing around me, welcoming me, forcing me to finish this mad passion to possess him. "BOBBIE," I roared into the bright light bouncing in my head, "BOBBIE!" He clung tight to me like a monkey, riding me as I pushed deep into him. Sweat running down between us, that slapping sucking sound bodies make when humping each other in the hot summer, a constant back ground noise to the moaning and gasping coming from us. I collapsed onto him. Slipped my hands beneath him and pulled him to me. "Jesus Bobbie that was so wild!" I whispered, struggling to catch my breath. "So fucking wild. You are a great fuck. I love you so much brother." I kissed his cheeks and chin. Licked his eyes and stared into his hidden boy world. "Where did you learn to do this? It was so fantastic. Was it good for you? Bobbie is everything ok?" "JJ that was awesome man. I never felt anything like that in my life." He nuzzled me with his lips and I turned my head to kiss him. A light kiss, filled with tenderness, he shifted beneath me, his legs wrapped around my ass. It felt so natural to be here with him. So warm and right. "I loved it when you pushed into me. Your cock is so big and hot. I never did this with anyone else before. I wanted to do it with you first. I wanted to celebrate my..." "You talk to much brother!" I interrupted him, "Kiss me again, it seems so strange to be here with you and so good." I brushed my hand over his back and moved my fingers down to stroke his ass. "JJ, move over a little. My crotch is getting crushed." I pushed off him and slipped next to him. He buried himself against me. His hands rubbing my chest. I pulled him close and kissed him again. "So strange to kiss a boy, so different than a girl. I wonder what it is about this whole gay sex thing." My hand was following his valley and pushing into his crack. i felt a tingling sensation down there again, in my crotch. It started to move, to get hard and expand. "Bobbie, I want to do it again with you. Man I want to put in you and find that fucky fuck feeling again." I began to push him into position. A nice spoon fuck, his ass was so sweet and firm. I wanted to kiss it a little, to lick it, and smell him. "JJ tell me that it was good for you. I never did this before and it ..." "Boys! Boys are you up yet?" asked mom from the hallway. "It's late and you'll miss school." She turned into the room and stopped.