Date: Sun, 16 Jan 2011 17:44:14 -0800 (PST) From: Jake Owens Subject: Modeling for my brother. Part 4. ATTENTION: If you're not legal age or are offended by stories containing sexual situations, then please do not continue reading. _____________________________________________________________________________ => Modeling for my brother. (Part four.) [My beginning.] I couldn't believe what i next felt. Paul sighed. He was approaching my penis! I could feel his breathing on my skin. I was going to receive my very first blowjob. You know how in some movies they tell you about how those special moments in their lives seem to go in slow motion. Well, this felt just like that. It was as if Paul had been holding my penis for eternity. Slowly taking his mouth and his tongue closer and closer to my penis. No wait, that's not it! He did hold my dick for all that eternity and then he released it!! Then i heard the door of my room softly closing. I opened my eyes, sitting straight up. My head was filled with all this questions at once. I felt confused, disappointed... and then it hit me. -"I must had been speaking out loud! Shit!" And i ran out to catch him before he left. I had to apologize, say something. I didn't even bother to grab a towel. I reached our apartment's door when i heard Ryan's voice outside, talking to Paul. Somehow i managed to stop in time, having opened just a bit the door. -"Jake in?" -"Yeah... he fell asleep." -"Ohh, so that's why you're looking so sad. You couldn't have your way with..." -"Shut up Ryan!" -"It's the true and you know it. What's more. I think Jake likes you back." Paul was looking down but his head turned to Ryan after he said that. They stayed in silence for a while. I felt my heart racing. - "He's just a boy" said Paul. - "In love with you." Ryan completed. -"...yeah, right." " ... Anyway, he knows the true about you and Amanda?" said Paul after a little while. I saw Ryan slowly shaking his head. i thought. -"Alan?" Paul asked again. At this Ryan seemed upset. He faced away from Paul and again shook his head. I wanted to go out and talk to Paul but i couldn't with Ryan there, and even less after what they had been saying. I watched them say goodbye and i slipped back into my room, pretending i had just waken up. I felt so down i didn't eat anything for dinner. Not even after not having had lunch. The next morning i was still feeling very sad and Ryan could see it. I also felt very conflicted about my newly discovered sexuality, but there was no point in denying it to myself. It's part of who i am and you can't hide from yourself. That'd bring no good. -"You know, when i went to develop the films i was talking to Al, the school's guard, and i asked him if anyone was using the studio and he said no. So, i thought maybe we could like have another session? There?" -"I don't know Ryan, i'm not really in the mood." -"I can see that. But we don't know if we'll have another opportunity like this. I was thinking..." Ryan continued, completely ignoring the no-way look in my eyes. -"I was thinking of doing a shoot with a special theme. Some older brother/younger brother binding thing." -"What?!" That caught me off guard and even got me to sit straight. -"You wanna shot the two of us naked and d..doing ... stuff?" i asked. -"You make it sound like something so dirty my little brother, but yes. Kind of. I mean, yes to the naked part, and the doing stuff would be like wrestling..." My mind was already playing these scenes before they happened. My penis was already hardening. I kinda felt dirty for lusting over my older brother. -".. and maybe some more classic portraits too, that kind of stuff. But i wouldn't be your big brother. I am the photographer here." Ryan saw my face of confusion turn into pure happiness. And he smiled as he continued. -"So i've asked Paul if he'd be your older brother for the shoot." -"What did he say?" I got up as i asked. -"He said he'd do it if you didn't have a problem with all of this. I am to call him, to let him know your answer." This was so great! -"Yes! Call him!" -"Ok, i'll call him, you finish your breakfast. We're leaving in 30 minutes." He then leaned and kissed me on the cheek. I felt my heart beating faster. Guess i must had blushed deeply because i felt my face all hot and he smiled at me in a way i could almost had wished he had kissed me on the lips instead. I finished my breakfast, showered and dressed up in like 15 minutes. -"You sure you washed yourself good? That was really fast. Ummm.. I need you to take your underwear off." -"Why?" -"So there will be no marks on your skin once your naked." -"I'm not taking the bus naked!" -"No need, your jeans are kinda loose. They won't leave marks. It's just your underwear what needs to go." I had spent the previous day naked, and now i was feeling weird about stripping off my jeans in front of him. -"Paul will meet us there in one hour." -"One hour? Then why are we leaving now?" -"I forgot to pick some photos i left to be developed last week. Leave the belt really loose please." I just gave him one of my drop-dead glares. -"No marks on your skin, remember?" -"Why didn't you worked those photos yourself?" -"Wanted to compare the results of a professional against my work. Come one." And we went on our way downtown. Now at this point i'd like to share with you something i learnt the hard way. If you ever get to be in a situation like this: don't wear a belt at all. My belt is heavy, so, heavy belt worn loosely on loose baggy jeans equals to having your jeans down really easily. As i was going out of the bus i felt them going down, luckily for me my stuff stopped it from falling completely down. Unfortunately part of my butt was exposed to the people behind me still sitting on the bus. I'm sure i heard someone giggling. -"That was embarrassing." -"Oh come one. Relax, think about it this way. You've made someone's day happy." -"Easy for you to say." After a 15 minute ride... -"Here we are, could you please get the photos for me. I already payed for them. I just need to get a pain reliever. Aspirin or something." -"Sure". Ryan gave me the ticket and headed for his aspirin. I went in but there was no one. This place was big. Obviously running this kind of place worked pretty well for the owner. -"Hello?" There was a sliding door at the opposite wall. A man came out. He was tall, blond, paper white skin. He looked like he was in his mid-thirties. -"Yes, can i help you?" -"I'm here to pick up these photos.", i gave him the ticket. -"Right. A moment please." He paused and looked at me straight in the eyes. That scared me a little. -"You are Ryan's brother, right?" -"Yeees..." i said cautiously. Not sure if that was something good or bad. -"You two look a lot alike. I'll be right back with your photos." And he went back inside. It looked kinda dark inside. He came out a second later placing a stack of photos in an envelope. After him also came a girl who just stood there by that sliding door. She looked to be around 10. Maybe she was his daughter. Her face was all red and she was just smiling at me. -"Here you have. Ryan has already payed for them." he said while looking for something inside a drawer. -"Well, thanks. Have a nice..." -"Please wait!". "You know... those are really great photos." he said while pulling out papers. -"I guess. He's studying photography." i replied. -"Yes.Very artistic photos..." he said vaguely. His daughter was really starting to make me feel nervous. I saw her looking me from head to toes. -"Ah! Here it is!" he finally said. "Here. He's always shooting for catalogs, art ..., and i know he would love having you modeling for him." -"Wh..Wwhatt!?" -"Yes! And the pay's not bad. But you didn't hear that from me." he said with a bright smile. I looked at him, then at the girl. She just smiled. If possible her face looked even more red. -"Umm.. thanks." I thought i could faint at any second. It just couldn't be possible. Just then i heard the door open behind me. -"Ahh Ryan!" the owner said. -"Good morning Mr. Gordon!" -"Call me Mike please. I was just telling your brother here those are some great photos you took!" -"Oww, thank you sir... Mike." Ryan looked at me and he just smiled. I can imagine how my face must had looked like. -"Here's your aspirin Jake." -"It's my fault he's in shock. I just gave him the phone of this photographer friend of mine who would love to have him in his team." -"That would be great! Right Jake? Well, we have to leave." he said without really giving me time to answer anything. -"We're actually having another shoot at the school's studio today." -"Good for you guys! Keep up the good work. If i hear of anyone else needing a model or a photographer... i'll give you a call." -"Thanks Mike, bye bye!" Ryan had to take my arm to walk me out of the store. I was in zombie mode. -"You heard that?! Jake! I knew you could start a modeling career!" -"What? Wait! Why did you do that?" -"When i started working on the first film i really liked what we did." "Then I remembered I had heard... here comes the bus." I went in, Ryan after me, pushing my jeans back up to a more appropriate height. -"I had heard Mr. Gordon knows people in the modeling business. Honestly, I really think you can be a real model. So i thought, why not giving him the rest of the films? Maybe he could help. Besides i really wanted you to hear from someone else how great those photos are. So you would really believe it. Believe in yourself." "You're welcome." he added a couple of seconds later. -"Ryan, what if he kept copies? What would mom think?" -"He didn't. And mom should be proud of her sons." -"Ryan, i am naked on those photos!" At this point i became aware of the people around us in the bus. I guessed some of them had been carefully listening to us. And definitely the "N" word helped turning some heads towards us. -"It's not like you'd be modeling for free." Ryan whispered to me. -"He said the pay's not bad." -"There you go. Money's a good thing. Remember? And you wouldn't do it nude again. ...maybe." -"Ok, i admit it doesn't sound so terrible." -"Here's our stop. Grab your jeans. You don't want to give a free preview." Ryan said with a big smile. We arrived at his school. It was the first time i was there. It was smaller than what i thought but nicer looking than what i imagined. I think it once was a big house. It looked like it. Paul was already there. He was wearing baggy shorts and long loose shirt. By the looks of it, his butt would be showing if it hadn't been for his shirt being so long. Why didn't i think of that? -"Hey Paul! Thanks for coming." Paul just looked up and nodded. He looked at me but immediately looked down. -"Hey Jake." -"Hello." -"Well...this way, please". Ryan said. "Good morning Al!" I thought the guard would be old. But he turned out to look just slightly older than Ryan. - "Good morning Ryan and Ryan's pals. Doing some shootin'?" -"Yeap." -"Don't do anything crazy, ok?" -"Have i ever done anything crazy in there? No, don't answer." I could still hear Al laughing as we rushed into the studio. The room was big. Lighting equipment everywhere. Even hanging from the roof. -"Ok guys, you start stripping while i set the lights." It was awkward doing this after what happened the night before. I still wanted his hands on me. -"I'm sorry..." i said. Paul just raised his head looking at me with a confused look. -"...about last night..." i finished. His eyes were a mix of fear and confusion. I could see from the corner of my eyes that Ryan had stopped what he was doing. I panicked and said: -"I'm sorry i fell asleep." -"Oh, that. Yes, ummm... don't worry. It's actually flattering. Means you were really enjoying what i did to you. The massage i mean". That last part was more like for Ryan. Paul's body was by far better looking than what i had imagined. His abs were well defined, his penis was beautiful, not that long, but really thick! And i loved that tan line his shorts had given him! Guess he must spend quite some time mowing lawns or something. Oh dear Lord and his butt was just perfect! Not a bubble butt, but hard looking, muscular, but not exaggerated. -"Ok guys, i'm ready. Are you... Yes, i see you 'are' ready". Ryan had just caught me checking out Paul's body! -"Good. Please come here." said Ryan. "Let's start with something classic. Jake i want you to sit here. Paul you'll be hugging him from the back. Cross your arms around him and rest your hands in front of him, over the chair. You'll be doing some sort of censoring, covering his penis." -"This is hot!" i said without thinking. -"Smooth!" Ryan looked back, giving me a funny smile. -"I was talking about the lights. It's like you're trying to bake us." i barked. -"Oh, ha ha. Yes, they can be... 'hot'. " -"Ready. Now Paul, put your face next to Jake's. ... Yes that's it." I couldn't help but to close my eyes when i felt Paul's face touching mine. -"Ok, Paul stand straight again. Pull yourself closer to Jake. Now he'll be your censor." I felt Paul's penis against my back. Oh my goodness! -"Ryan, i don't..." -"Come on Paul!" I had been so selfish. All i had cared about was his touching me. I couldn't believe just how great touching him felt even if it was with my back. His penis felt so... hot! -"Paul, relax your face please." "Ok, now let me put this dark fabric under you. We'll simulate some wrestling." < Is Ryan trying to make us fool around with each other?!> -"Paul lay down, Jake you go on top of him. Your big bro is making you believe you're wining." I lay down on top of Paul feeling quite awkward about feeling his naked body under mine. I put my right leg between his legs. My knee on the floor, so i had my right tight carefully resting against his penis and balls. I felt it move under me. We just couldn't look at each other. It all was just too sexual. I felt like i really had to make a big effort not to cross the line and start kissing him right then and there. I wondered about his thoughts. Specially now that my penis was hardening against his chest. Guess they were happy thoughts. I could feel his penis growing too. - "Come on guys, make me believe it!" I tried to relax and smiled a bit while pretending to be holding Paul by his shoulders. Paul placing his right hand over my left arm. - "That's better." "Paul, you'll take revenge and now you've switched places. Jake, you lay on your front. Paul will be on top of you." -"Ryan, i'm gonna hurt him if i lay all my weight on him." said Paul. -"You won't be laying all your weight. Use those strong-looking arms of yours to support your weight. Remember we're just pretending." I got up and we both noticed all the precum i had left over Paul. It was so embarrassing and exciting. I lay down on the fabric and waited for Paul but nothing. I looked up and saw Paul with a full hard erection, but he was also doing pleading faces to Ryan. Ryan saw me looking and before i could say anything he said: -"No Paul, i cannot join you guys. Someone has to take the photos. Now go get on top of your lil bro if you please." I felt the warm of Paul's body coming closer to me. And oh I still get so horny just by remembering how amazing it was to feel Paul's penis pressing against my body. -"Ok, stay still. There." "No, don't get up just yet. Stay like that.I just want a couple of extra shots from different angles." -"Paul, could you give a little kiss to your brother please?" There was a brief moment of silence and Ryan came from behind his camera with a look on his face. -"A kiss on his cheek.", went back behind the camera, but almost immediately came out again adding: - "His head's cheek." I felt going all red. Paul softly kissed me. If you ask me... it was like electricity on my face. Any more of that and i'd be cuming right then and there. Ryan was driving us crazy with all of this. -"Ok. Stand up guys. I want you two hugging. Paul you'll be looking at Jake. Jake you look at me." -"Ryan could we wait till ... till i'm soft again?" Paul said, almost whispering the last part. As if i weren't right under him. -"Don't worry, you'll be hugging. Your penis won't be showing if you hug close and tight." -"Brother's binding thing... So, i suppose this means you two hug naked all the time?" -"Yes Paul, sometimes we even make out and more, so prepare yourself for what's coming. Now please..." We followed his instructions while he took shots at different angles. Suddenly i was aware of something. Paul was really getting into this. I felt his left hand softly touching my arm. It was so tender. Paul's hand lowered to my waist. I was starting to wish Ryan wasn't there. Paul kept brushing me, kinda massaging where his hand rested. -"Uhhm... Paul could you kneel down?" Paul knelt, placing his hands on my shoulders. I put mine on his chest, it was so soft and hard at the same time. I looked at his nipples. They were hard. As I brushed them he closed his eyes and i felt his body tense up a little. It was so erotic feeling his hard penis against my legs. I moved my hands up, feeling his skin, moving towards his arms. They were gorgeous like everything in him was. I reached his shoulders, and moved my right hand further upwards towards his neck, and then his face. There he opened his eyes again. I ran my hand through his hair while looking straight into his eyes. I couldn't help it. I didn't want to prevent it. I just leaned closer and kissed him on the lips. I closed my eyes while i continued to brush my lips against his. I wasn't really thinking until i felt him kissing me back. His right hand stroking my back and his left resting on my butt. We broke our kiss looking again into each other. But i saw the look in his eyes changing, they were moving from love to fear and that was scaring me. He suddenly stood up and said: -"Sorry, i can't do this. It's ... it's wrong!" -"WHAAAT?!" Ryan reminded us of his presence with a high-pitched scream. He looked at Paul in disbelief, then gave me a "You're gonna let him leave" look at which i just looked down. -"Ryan, it's obvious what you were trying to do, but no. It's wrong. He's too..." But before Paul could finish Ryan pushed Paul so hard he fell to the floor. I jumped to were Paul was. -"Ryan! What's wrong with you? Listen..." i started. -"NO! YOU TWO LISTEN TO ME! For over a year now i've watched the two of you exchanging glances. Getting closer, then pulling apart. Over and over! God! Jake, i didn't want to say anything cos i was waiting for you to realize about your feelings on your own! I didn't want to push you. But i see you love him. You're gay, so what! Big deal! If you're afraid of what people will think of you then let me tell you something: people will always talk no matter what you do! If you're trying to please people, you'll waste your life. Don't give me that look! Ma would understand. It's YOUR LIFE to live!" "And Paul! He kissed you first! You are not tricking him! You're not forcing him in ANY way to do ANYTHING! You want this to happen and still you don't go for it because you care for him more than you care for you! To me that's THE proof that you do love him too. And... you both want this! And... Ohhh! You two!" And he left the room leaving the two of us speechless sitting on the fabric. -"You think he's ..." Paul started to say but i was already at his mouth. I wasn't sure what his reaction was going to be, but he did started kissing me back! Slowly but eventually we were kissing like there was no tomorrow. Slowly he started moving his lips to the side of my mouth, then to my neck. It's great having a boyfriend who is a masseuse! While his tongue played with my neck his hands were playing all over the rest of my body. I felt him stroking my back, then my ass. A finger brushing my asshole, then back up towards my head, brushing my hair with his fingers. And suddenly i realized that during all this kissing we had somehow switched places and now it was me the one laying on the floor. Paul was good! And now he was lowering his head. I never imagined it would feel so great to have someone's tongue on my nipples. I was so excited to feel him lowering, and lowering. I knew where he was going at last. But if you think he next took my penis into his mouth, you are as wrong as i was. My guy knows how to tease and build sexual tension. He skipped my penis and went for my balls. I moaned like i had never in my life. After a while, then he did reach for my penis, taking it in slowly. Then out and using his tongue to play with it. All of what i had lived since yesterday, the things my brother had made us do, and all of what Paul was doing to me was just too much, i couldn't hold it any longer. I came in his mouth. -"Oh thank you, that was awesome!" i said. -"Too bad it ended so quickly." -"Sorry, it's just that i was kinda needing that since yesterday. You know. When you left me all horny in my bed." -"Ha ha, thought you were sleeping." -"I thought you'd go for it if you thought i was asleep. Never mind, i promise next time i won't cum so soon." -"Next time. I like how that sounds." -"There's... something i wanna do... this time." i said. -"What?" -"Lay down and close your eyes." He did it with a big smile on his face. I lowered my head and gave his balls a gentle squeeze. Following my new boyfriend's teachings i massaged his balls with my right hand while i stroked his tights with my left hand. I was still very horny, so i soon grabbed his dick and started licking it. I loved hearing him moan like that. This was going to be fun. He's a moaner, and i had just discovered i was too. We were going to have problems hiding this. Lol! i thought. It was weird having another guy's penis in my mouth. Good weird. I was so fascinated with this new "toy". There were moments when i didn't know what to do cos i wanted to have it in my hands, feel his skin, his penis, explore it, memorize it. I was so excited i felt like wanting to know how it would feel to have it against every inch of my body. I loved having it inside my mouth even thought It hurt my jaws a bit. I had to open my mouth a lot. He's sooo thick. -"Wait.. wait. Please. Or i'll come and i don't want to just yet." I looked up and he said. "Now, there's something i'm dying to do to you. Your turn to lay and close your eyes." It was so great. I couldn't believe i hadn't done this sooner! I was loving this "wanna try this" game. i thought as i closed my eyes. I could hear him moving. Keeping my eyes closed was so hard. I couldn't stop smiling, i felt so happy. And then it came. The last thing i expected. He took my left foot and started licking my sole. It tickled so much i almost couldn't stop my feet from accidentally hitting him. I couldn't believe he was doing that. He moved up my foot and started licking my toes. After a while i sort of got used to it. Don't get me wrong, it still felt great. And of course he didn't want my right foot to feel left out. But then... -"Lay on your front sweety." Paul said. Again i didn't feel anything for some seconds, then i felt his warm hands on my buttocks. i thought. He massaged them a bit, feeling my flesh on his hands and then he gently pushed them apart. I wouldn't had been prepared to feel that, not even in a hundred years. He started licking my asshole! I kept jumping, it tickled so much! I was really hoping he wouldn't want me to do that to him. It felt awesome, but I didn't know if i could do it. Not surprisingly my penis was hard again. He stopped just in time before i came again. -"You liked that huh?" -"Yeeeeah!" We stayed like that for a couple of minutes. Me laying. He stroking my legs. -"Umm... I'm not sure if i could..., but... you think we could try... doing it?" i said. He didn't say anything. His hands just stopped moving. -"You know... instead of your tongue..." i said again. He didn't say anything, just a couple of seconds later he got on top of me, not letting all of his weight fall on me, just enough to gently squeeze me with his body. I felt his hard penis against my butt. His mouth kissed my neck, then his tongue on my ear. I loved how that felt. Got me goosebumps. And then he softly said to my ear: -"I care too much for you to risk hurting you." He played a bit more with my ear and then added: -"But I have a better idea." And he got up and got on all fours besides me. I just stared at him, not understanding. -"You do me." said Paul. -"Me do you!? I mean, you do want me to... fuck you?!" He just winked at me. i thought. And i got behind him. -"Wait! I need something to lube." -"Use Ryan's oil. It's over there. Who knows what he was planning for us later." I lubed well and got to my place behind Paul. I placed my penis at his asshole. -"Here i go..." and i started to push. Now i have a long penis, but at that age it was not that thick so it went in without much troubles. -"Oh wow, i never thought it would feel like this!" "Wait! Shouldn't i be using a condom?" -"Prolly, but i'm pretty sure it's your first time, right?" said Paul. -"Right." -"It's my first time too. so i'd say we're safe." -"It's your first time? Really?" I asked. -"Really." he answered with a shy smile on his face. "Go on." he added. I slowly started taking my dick out till it was almost all the way out, then pushed it all the way in. I just loved how Paul never wasted any second. When i got to be all the way in he had one of his hands ready to brush my balls. He came before i did. But not that much before, cos his asshole tightened around my penis making me cum inside of him. It was the best moment of my life so far. I pulled my penis out of him and we lay there on our sides. Paul spooning me, brushing my arms with his hands. -"That was awesome." i said. -"Worth the wait." -"Ha ha, Ryan's gonna have a hard time cleaning up this fabric." -"Ha ha yourselves. YOU are going to clean it. You owe me more than that you two." said Ryan. We looked up and we saw him by the door, standing next to the guard. Both of them with big smiles and big bulges on their pants. -"You two pervs were looking at us all this time?" said Paul half laughing. -"Al said we should give you some privacy and stay by the security camera's monitor, but..." Ryan said while pointing at the camera. "... i thought that since you were in a public place...". "Oh don't worry, we'll take the tape with us." And that's the story of how my modeling career got started, and of how i got to have my first and current partner. Eventually my mother came to know what we did. Mr. Clark may had been really drunk, but he knew what he saw and everything was confirmed when she found the photos. Lol, her high-pitched screaming is a lot like Ryan's. She didn't have problems with me modeling. It was the nudity what she couldn't stand. Whatever. I've never gotten to do nude modeling again anyway. And she practically fainted when i told her about me and Paul. For many years she disapproved our relationship. And many times she even threatened with calling the police if she ever saw Paul with me. Paul used to say i should wait at least till he got a steady job just in case she wanted to kick me out of the house. But, she do loves me and she didn't. And as i grew older she relaxed about us. Nowadays they fight every now and then, but it's over cooking recipes. ; ) ______________________________________________________________________________ This story is a mix of things that did happen to me when i was younger, things that i wish had happened to me when i was younger and things that happened to me now that i am much older. In my story i could had written i was any given age, but I chose thirteen not because i'm trying to encourage sex with young boys. No, that's not my purpose for writing this story. I chose 13, because that's how old i was when i first fully realized my sexuality and when many things started to happen and change in my life. I wrote this story for fun and to share my experiences with others. If you feel like sharing your thoughts about my story with me, please write me at: jake.owens29@yahoo.com