Date: Sat, 18 Apr 1998 09:31:56 -0700 (PDT)
From: gay_dad@yahoo.com
Subject: My Sexual Awakening 

It was Saturday evening and I was meeting my 26-year old son at his new
condo.  I looked forward to seeing him whenever possible.  My wife, his
mother had passed away when he was just a teen and since he was my only
child, I felt a special closeness to him.  I had lent him $5,000 so he
could buy the condo a year earlier and he had agreed to give me partial
payment tonight. I didn't want the whole amount back, just half of it as
agreed.

I rang his buzzer and he let me in the hall entrance.  I walked to his door
and knocked.  The door opened and there was my son looking happy and
healthy.  He was such a handsome young man!

I sat down and he made himself and I a vodka gimlet and served me some
appetizers.  We chatted for awhile and had a few more drinks.  Then came
the confession.  "Well dad, I am sorry to say that I do not have the money
to give you. I've been careless with saving money and I apologize. I will
try to get it to you soon maybe in a month or two. I just wish there was
some way I could make it up to you."

I asked my son what he had spent the money on and he told me that his
recent vacation to Key West had been more expensive that he had thought.
He looked so upset and about to cry so I reached out and pulled him to me,
giving him a big hug.  "Don't worry son, it's no big deal," I whispered.

"Oh dad, I will pay you back eventually, I promise and he began to cry."
"Please don't cry son!  Is there anything I can do to make you feel
better?"  He looked at me with a clever grin.  "I think I know a way to
make it up to you that will make us both feel better - it could be a first
installment so to speak" he said.  "When I was young dad, you spanked me
many a time for being careless or misbehaving. As an adult I often think
about those times, and to be honest I really get off on it."

I could not believe my ears!  What was he saying?  Was he telling me he
wanted to be spanked now?  Did he mean that it sexually satified him?  I
was confused.  In the back of my mind, I had suspected that he might
secretly be living a gay lifestyle. I mean, he had never told me so, but he
was a very good looking man and never had a girlfriend so I put 2 and 2
together.  I didn't care if people were homosexual or heterosexual because
to me it was all about something that a person liked and enjoyed.  And I
was certainly in no positon to judge anyone especially since I had
experimented myself with gay sex with a friend of my son's father a few
years after my wife passed away.

He took my hand and brought me into his bedroom where he sat me on his bed.
For some reason I was following his lead, it seemed ok. He took off his
belt and trousers. I had always spanked his bare ass as a child, but had
never seen him naked as an adult and he had not seen me naked since he was
a kid.

He took off his underwear and unleashed one of the biggest erections I had
ever seen.  Alot of bigger than any I ever had!  Wow, my son is quite a
stud I thought.

I couldn't help but think back to my son when he was in his teens - I
remembered that after the age of 12, he often had an erection when I
removed his pants to spank him.  I had once even used the opportunity of
spanking him to examine his uncut penis and to explain about washing
properly and the normality of erections.  I wasn't an abusive parent and I
never spanked him hard - I used it as a disciplinary measure because he was
always getting into mischief.

Suddenly, his hands were at my pants. Would he?? Yes, he would! He unzipped
my pants and released my own stiffening cock. One of his hands cupped my
balls.  He wouldn't!! Yes, he would! He was playing out the old scene!  He
then pulled of my briefs and gently took hold of the shaft. "Spank me dad,
now!" he ordered.

I pulled him over my knee. Slap!! He bucked a bit. Slap!! Slap!! Slap!!
"Oh, yes" he cried.

He got up and said "That was your first installment dad. Now how about some
of what I always wanted you to do to me when you spanked me." He hugged me
as I stood there naked and kissed me on the mouth. I was being kissed by a
man and that man was my own son, this was a totally unpredicted
experience. I never knew he wanted me sexually and I never wanted hm
sexually until this very moment. As he held me in his arms I could feel his
cock pushing against my groin. The his hand came from around me and grabbed
hold of my cock gently.

"Oh dad," he whispered in my ear, "If only you had shown some interest in
me then."

I was still in another world. This was drawing me along like a steam engine
out of control. I had not had sex with anyone for awhile and this was my
own son!  But I knew in my heart that this ok, he was an adult now - he
needed this from his dad.

He left the room and reentred with a white tube of lube. He came up to me
again and glued his mouth to mine. At last he let go and pushed me into a
sitting position on the end of the bed. He took my head gently in his hands
and pulled it towards his cock. I inhaled his clean aroma and moving
forward tongued the tip of his cock.

Suck my own son's cock? Had I ever thought about it over the years? I
didn't really know but it seemed ok. Did other fathers and sons do this? I
wondered

He pushed my head to his private area and his cock stared me in my face.
It had been a long time since I had sucked cock but I think I remembered
how.  I gently sucked his cock as he wanted. I had my son's cock in my
mouth! I took his balls in one hand and gently kneaded them. Suddenly, I
felt his precum in my mouth and then he withdrew his cock from my mouth.
He pushed me back onto the bed and lifted my legs over my shoulders. I was
helpless, vulnerable, but ecstatic.

"Hold your ankles up for me, dad" he said as he lowered his head to my
groin area. I immediately felt his wet tongue on my balls. He gently
mouthed them one at a time.  He moved his hands to each of my ass cheeks
and spread them apart. As his tongue went into my crack, I let out a large
moan.

His tongue was now where nobody had ever been. He licked my tight hole and
moaned in delight. I tingled all over from it. I could not believe that
this was happening to me.  Perhaps a whole new life was beginning for me.

He withdrew his tongue but and replaced it with his index finger. He was
more forceful now an more intrusive! I felt him push his finger past my
sphincter. The only time anyone had done this to me was when I had a
physical and my doctor bent me over for a rectal exam.  Further in and
deeper his finger probed.

He withdrew his finger and reached for the tube of lube.  He pushed the top
of the tube against my exposed hole. It was cold and slippy.  He squeezed
it and worked some lube inside of me.  He fingered me some more - opening
my anal cavity, preparing it for the inevitable. Oooh, it felt wonderful in
a way I never experienced.  Then I felt his cock at my entrance. Suddenly,
it slid in and I winced as he pentrated me.  Looking deep into my eyes he
slowly entered me. Once fully in me he rested and and kissed me. I could
feel his balls against my ass.

"Daddy, oh my daddy" he moaned. You never realized how I longed for this
moment. You took my pants off, examined my cock and balls and then spanked
me and sent me to my room. You never knew how I longed for your loving
touch. Well, that has all changed now hasn't it?" he said. His tongue slid
into my mouth and his cock started to slide in and out of my ass, massaging
my prostate and bringing me close to climax.

"No, son. I never realized how you felt. And even if I had, would I have
done anything about it? I think not. But this is different, you are a adult
and we were choosing to do this together." I replied.

I moved with his thrusts and then he roared with a loud sound of orgasm -
he tensed as he shot his hot jism inside my ass. The feeling was so intense
and I was so excited that I also came all over my stomach.  He slowly
withdrew and moving me up the bed properly he laid beside me, where we
kissed passionately.

"Dad I love you," he said and took me in his arms.

We awoke the next day and he thanked me for sharing myself with him.  I
thanked him for one of the best sexual experiences of my life and waking up
my sexuality.  I am now living a gay life and I have never been happier!
As for my son, well, I still haven't been paid back and I recently told him
to forget it.  What he gave me was worth every penny!