Date: Thu, 22 Jan 2004 20:20:56 -0800 (PST)
From: Shawn Parker <gayboysrule_2000@yahoo.com>
Subject: one night stand with my son

This is a pure work of fiction! Everything and everyone in this story are
100% made up! I in no way condone kiddy porn or sex with children. This a
ficttional story about a father and his TEEN son! And even though the
people in this story do no use condoms, I do not condone unsafe
sex. Homosexuals are still THE highest goup of people infected with HIV, so
don't forget to wrap it up!

Alos, I'm not the world's best speller, and it takes forever to do
spellcheck and writing these stories are just supposed to be fun, and kind
of like a hoby, so if they're not perfect keep in mind they're freen and
I'm doing them just fro the heck of it, not cuase I'm getting paid to do
it, or anything like that.

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The day my son came into my life was the happiest of my life. I had a
little boy who I could teach to be a man. He was my world and I loved him
so much. He became my world, my life. One of the few things my wife and I
had done right.

Any parent will tell you that when your child is hurt, it's the scarest
thing that could happen to you. Even if it's something small. When my son
Jerrmy was three I learned that for myself.  My son was playing on the
playground when an abondoned dog wondered onto the grounds. My son who
loves animals, went up to pet it, but the dog had found a half eaten hotdog
and as soon as he bent down to eat it my son grabbed him. The dog turned
around and attacked my son. I was talking to a friend who also had his
child there. My sons screams echoed in my ears and I turned to see the
horro unfolding. My son was on the ground and there was a blurl of black
fur thrashing him about. I ran to him, but it seemed like everything was in
slow motion.

I reached the dog and kicked him away. The dog ran away with his tail
between his legs, and I picked my son up, who was bleeding and in shock. I
took him straight to the hospital where he had to have stiches in his
side. He aslo had to undergo rabbies shots since the dog was never
found. My wife tore into me telling me I should have been watching him. She
was right, I should have been paying more attention. But I felt safe there
with all the other parents around. I let my gaurd down. It was tourture
having to watch him undergo rabbies shots. I hated myself for not watching
him. After a while though, he healed and the stiches came out. He was
scared for a long time after though, crawling into bed with me at night
after having a bad dream. He lay on my chest and I'd hold him and caress
his skin and feel the large bumpy scare the dog had left on his left side,
on his otherwise smooth skin. I did love my son. I may not have been the
perfect father, but he meant the world to me.

I loved him so much, but me and his mother had grown aprart. We both worked
and were hardly ever home at the same time. Most nights, my bed was empty
unless Jerrmy slept with me, which he did often. It wasn't long before my
eyes wondered to someone else. A woman that lived down the street who'd
always had her eye on me. It wasn't long before my wife found out. I don't
think I really tried to hide it. I no longer cared. But I did care what
happened one day when I came home from work. She was gone! I looked all
over the house, not a trace or her. Then to my horror I realized there was
no trace of my son either! She'd gone, and taken my boy with her! All the
plans I had for him, showing him how to grow up and be a man, showing him
how to fish, and chase woman, and talk about sex, all of that was gone! How
could she? Sure, what I did was wrong, I know that. But it didn't give her
the right to take away my child.

I searched everywhere but coudln't find them. After two years, I moved
away. I just didn't want to be there anymore so I moved into the city. I'd
lived in a small town my whole life. The city was a VERY differnt place. My
friend who lived there showed me around, took me out to clubs and things
like that. One night as we were driving down the road, two guys went across
the road, holding hands! I'm an old school kind of guy, from a time when
men were supposed to be strong or not men at all! You had to work hard all
day, chase pussy all night, and be as hard as stone. And if someone was
weaker than you, well you made sure they knew that and never forgot it!


And homosexuality...it was almost like some fairy tail (no pun
inteandead...well, maybe a samll one:). Something you hear about but never
see. Something people in some far off corner of the word did. Something
wrong, something weak and bad! Something you''re supposed to beat someone
up for if there's even a hint it might be true of them. I asked my friend
if he saw what I'd seen. He said he did. I said I coudln't bleieve two guys
would hold hands like a couple of queers. I said I should beat the crap out
of them, and things like that.

My friend laughed at me, and told me that things work differntly than from
my small town. He said I was going to have to get used to it.  I said "But
they're acting like queers." My friend smiled, and said "That's cause they
probably are, lots of guys down here are."

I was floored by this statment. "What do you mean?" I asked. "I mean
there's a lot of gay people around. They come here cause people don't
bother them as much as they do in places like the one you lived in." He
explained. I said I didn't like it, that someone should beat the crap out
of them for doing such nasty things. My friend shoock his head and said to
just relax and don't worry about 'em. "They aint borthing no one. And
besides, you're going to see a lot of stuff like that if you hang with me
cause I like going to the adult book stores and stuff like that, and guys
do a lot more than hold hands in there! So just don't worry about it, relax
and ignore them, or go get your dick sucked by one if you want, but if you
keep talking like that around here, you'll be the one to get the crap beat
out of you!" My friend said, laying it all out for me.

I dind't know what to say I was silent for a few monts considering what he
had said. Then I spoke up. "Yeah right, like I'd turn queer and let some
big guy suck my cock." My friend giggled, the expression on his face going
from stern to more lighthearted.

"You don't turn gay cause a guy sucks you. You just sit and enjoy it cause
he's there and willing and you're horny." My friend explained, trying to
hold back from laughing at my stupidity.

I didn't say anyting more. I'd never had an expience like this, someone
defending queers, saying it was okay. I didn't know how to react. Any of my
other friends back home would have backed me up, said I was absolutly right
and we should beat the crap out of those guys (of course we proably
wouldn't have, but we proabably would have yelled insults at them as we
drove by:) and it was horrible gross thing to do.

As the months went by I did go with my friend to adult book stores and
thing like that, and ture to his word, we saw men doing a lot more than
holding hands! Guys were sicking their dicks though holes in the walls
getting them sucked by another guy they didn't even know, and had never
seen, and proabably never would see. Guys making out while fondeling
eachother. I still had my bad comments for everything I saw now and then,
but I wasn't nearly as bad as that first time I saw it.

One night me and my friend were at a club and my friend was off chasing
some girl so I ened up by myself. A guy came up to me and started a
conversation, and we started talking about eeryting under the sun. I really
stated to like this guy. He was abotu my age, into sports and cars, and we
talked for hours. Finally I had to piss, he said he did too and we both
went to the men's room, I pissed in one of the urinals, and he used the one
a few feet away from mine. I finished pissing and was shaking the last
dropps off when he came up behind me and whispered in my ear "Let me suck
it for ya.". I was shoocked, and didn't know what to say or do. My first
instict was to turn around scearm at him and beat the crap out of him for
even thinking I might be instrested in that. But I did nothing. His hand
grabbed my cock and started strokin it. I got hard and that's when I
freaked out and pushed him away. He stood there for a momet looking at
me. "I'm sorry man. I'm just so horny. Please man, let me suck you."

My mind was racing, I didn't know how to react. I was frozen, he moved
closer to me and then dropped to his knees, my cock was in his mouth before
I knew what happened. His mouth was warm and wet and feelt so good on my
cock. I didn't push him off, didn't call him queer or try to beat him up. I
just let him suck me, and suck me, and suck me till my nuts unloaded at the
back of his throat. I thought I would pass out, but managed to stay up. I
gassped out of breath, my cock jerking in his mouth squeezing out the last
drops of cum I had left. And then reality came flooding back in. My cock
was in a dude's mouth! I'd come in a dude's mouth! I jercked my cock out of
his mouth and pulled my pants up and ran out, leaving him still on his
knees.

For a long time my mind had trouble dealing with what happened. I felt
guity and kind of dirty for a long timeover what had happened. But I just
decided to put it behinde me. But it wasn't long after that I was at
another club, again my frined had ditched me, and again, I found myself in
the restroom and I noticed this guy looking over at me. I knew what he
wanted, and at first I tried not to think about it, but something just came
over me, what had happened had already happened, and here I was and I could
let it happen again if I wanted, and since it had already happened once
before and I seemed to be the same as I always was why not?

Well that was the start of something. From then on, on those nights when I
just needed to get laid so bad, and there was some guy lookin my way, I'd
pop into the bathroom with him and have him on his knees in no time! People
sometimes came in, but then would just say sorry and walk back out. And
sometimes we weren't even the only two in the bathroom who had the same
idea!

Now don't get me wrong, I liked woman, but on those horny nights when I
couldn't controll my dick, a guy's mouth was just as good. And in time,
when I was really horny and needed more than a bj, I'd take a guy out to my
car, or even back to my place if I knew him well enough, and fuck him up
the ass. Of coruse this was years after my first male bj. Needless to say,
I had lightened up quite a bit in my attidude about gay people, or at least
that's what I thoght!

To catch up, it had now been 12 years since I moved away from my small
town. I was now without a job, and one of my frinds back home said there
was work near my old home. So I had no chocice, I moved back. Not in the
very same town but close by, it was still a much larger place than I had
come from. A little more of the city mixed in with small town livin. A
ccouple of clubs and bars here and there but no where near what I was used
to.

I was surprised to vist an adlut book store and find people doing what they
did in the city! Glory holes in the walls, guys sucking cock. Surely this
kind of thing wasn't going on just a few miles away when I still lived
here...did it? Oh well, it didn't matter.  It was here. I was looking
through some porn there one day when a boy came in. He looked to be about
14, maybe 15 wearing just a pair of old cut off blue jean shorts small town
boys wear, in the summer, no shirt or shoes. He had short brown hair, and
deep green eyes, a cute face and a nice teen body that was well definded,
but not quite adult looking. He kept staring over at me. I knew right away
this kid was gay. Not only that, he was checking me out! I could tell he
was gay, not cause he was checking me out, but because after being around
gay guys so long, you start to learn who is and who isn't, not that their
girly or anything like that, I mean some are, but even the guys that you'd
think were straight give off this vibe, it's hard to describe, but anyone
who's been around a lot of gay guys for a long time, knows what I'm talking
about!

It kinda felt nice, a young thing like that checking me out. Of course at
35 I wasn't exactally a disgustiong old man! I was still in great shape for
my age, and still had a young look to me. I could still hold my own with
any 25 year old. It was nice having this little guy looking me up and
down. I glanced over at him and waved, he blushed and dropped his head to
the floor realizing I'd seen him.  I went about my bussness. I saw the kid
go into the gay section. The gay stuff is right beside of some of the
straight porn and I ened up near him. I said hello, and he squeeked out a
"hi" in that voice boys have when they're truning to men that's soft, yet
still sounds so male. I asked him if he was too young to be in here, and he
said he was friend's with the owner.  I asked him if he lived near by, he
said no, that he used to but he didn't any more, his uncle was sick and his
mother had came to vist him. I told him I was sorry to hear that, but he
said it was okay, his uncle was doing fine and they'd be leaving town in a
few weeks.

Me and the boy talked for a long time before he finally said his mother
would wonder where he was and left. I left shorty after, a load of porn
under my left arm.  I came back a couple of days later, and found the boy
tehre again, we talked some more, and I learned he was called JC. I teased
him about being in N'Sync, and how he'd fit right in with those pretty
boys. He glared at me and gave me a half smile. He asked what I was looking
for in the store. I told him just some porn. "Oh" he said. He paused for a
few moments, then asked me what kind of porn in a nervious tone. I smiled
at him, "Men and women" I said.


"Oh, so you're..." He started saying

"Straight?" I finished his question for him. "Yeah."

"I thought so, but I wasn't sure." He said. "I just wasn't sure if maybe
you were like starying in the straight stuff for now so people didn't see
you looking at other stuff. In a town like this, guy aren't really open
about stuff like that."

"Yeah, I know kid." I said. "I used to live here years back." I said.

I thought to myself "Years back? Man do I sound old!".

"It's too bad." He said.

"Why's that?" I asked.

"Oh, never mind." The boy said, sounding scared. "Forget I said that, I
don't know what I was saying."

I smiled at him. I knew what he was saying! Was this kid really interested?

"Aw, you don't want an old man, I got cob webs on my cock." I said, teasing
him.

His eyes got really wide, realizing I knew he was gay, not only that he was
gay, but that he liked me! And he probably also realized that I was not
gay, not in the club, so there was no need for me to keep his little
secret, ot to not beat the crap out of him!

"Oh, I didn't mean..." He started, not being able to finish what he was
saying.

He started blankly at the floor as if wishing he could just die. WIshing
the floor would just open up and swallow him.

""s okay kid, don't worry about it." I reasured him. "Truth is I've been
know blow my load on a guy before, and if you's a little bit older, I might
even consider being with you."

He looked back up at me, his eyes wide. "Really?" He asked.

"Yeah." I said. "But I ain't lookin to get arrested." I said, and smiled at
him.

"I ain't gonna tell on ya." He said.

"I'm an old man kid, go get yourself a nice 14 year old." I teased.

"I'm 15." He said.

"Well, whatever. My point is you don't need no old man." I said.

"You don't look so old to me, I think you're hot." He said, his eyes
growing wide in the aftermath of what he'd said. His face turned blood
read, and looked at the floor blushing again.


My mind began to wonder, this kid did want me! Sweat little guy. Shy and
cute, and so differnt from the guys that usually blow me off, or take my
dick inside their ass. And it'd been sooo long since I got laid, I needed a
good bj. But this kid was so young, I just didn't know. I wasn't a child
moloester or a phediphile. I never even fucked a young girl, or let her
give me a bj. I'd been with younger people before, 18, 19, 20, but 15!
Never! Not that he was a little boy, but he certainly wasn't a man! But
something about that apealed to ne. My dick was in bad need of action! Was
it really so bad?

:"Okay, come into the back with me,:" I whispered.

He looked up, jerking his head suddenly, "You mean it?" He asked.

"Yeah, I mean it, but hurry up before I change my mind!" I said.

We rushed to the back, some guys were in one of the rooms getting their
dicks sucked. We went in and I pulled my pants down. The other guys in the
room had their dicks poked though glory holes, letting guys on the other
side suck them. JC got on his knees and pulled my undies down. He started
sucking my throbing dick before I knew what was happening, it fetl so hot
and warm inside, so wet and nice. But he bumped his teath on my cock a
couple of times, I told him to watch his teeth and he said he was sorry,
that he'd only done it a few times.

By I few I fiugured he proabbaly meant like 2 if even that! He sucked me
good and hard, I was getting so exited and so turned on by this hot young
kid at my cock! I loved it, and so did the other guys getting their loads
off in the glory holes!  He was making me so hot, and it had been so long
since I'd had any action but my own hand, I decided I needed more than a bJ
today! I needed a fuck!

"Mmmm, get up kid, huh." I said, panting.

JC stood up and looked at me as if asking if he'd done something wrong with
his eyes. I gave him a big kiss on the lips, some I rarely do to guys. "I
want you to come home with me." I whispered as I pulled out of the kiss. He
stared at me, as if unsure what to do or say.

"It's okay." I said. "I don't live far so we can just walk there, as in out
in public with lots of people around, and I live in an apartment so there's
lot of people around, I don't live in some sucluded cabin or something." I
explained, trying to put him at ease.

He smiled, knowing I knew what he was thinking. But I understand. The kid
just needed to know he was going to be safe, who could blame him? After
all, I was a strange man he just met, who was older and clearly stronger.

"Um, okay." He said

We walked to my place, wich usually takes about five minutes, but this time
, it only took about two at the pace we were moving! Neither of us said
much on the walk, we just wanted to get there. We came through the door of
my place and he reluctantly walked in, still unsure of the situation.

"It's okay, little guy." I said, trying to reasure him. "You don't have to
do anything if you don't want."

He grined at me, and said he wanted to go through with it, he was just
nervious. I guessed he hadn't had much experince, if any at all! I felt a
bit guilty, he was so young and inoccent, but my dick was saying something
differnt! I needed a good fuck! I led him through the tiny apartment. We
went into my bedroom, where I locked the door behind us. I'm not really
sure why I did, I live alone, but then you can never be too carful. I
looked at him again, and again he seemed very shy and unsure, looking at
the locked door behinde us, so I told him once again, if at any time, no
matter what we were doing, he could say "no" and I'd stop. I'm not usually
so reasuring to guys, most of the time they're just as horny and ready to
go as me. In fact most of the time, I'm the shy unsure one! Most of the
time guys are forcing their tounges down my throat and just wanna fuck,
which is good, but this was refreashing, an angelic little teen who needed
so much resurance, and understanding..

He smiled and seemed a little more relaxed. Just then I heard the sound of
my neioughbors upsairs returning home and coming through the door. I looked
at the kid in front of me, he seemed uneasy again, I told him not to worry,
it's hard for them to hear everything goes on down here, they'll just think
I've got a friend over if they hear voices. I told him to try not to make
too many sounds that are too lound. I after all, didn't want to anounce to
the neibiours that I sometimes enjoy more than friendly things with guys!
He smiled at me, and I said we should get started. I told him to go down on
me like he did in the bookstore.

He slowly sank to his knees. With a saking hand he unzipped my pants and
pulled them down and then my underwear. My errect 7 inch cock stood out
proud in font of me, begging for attention. JC slowly moved foward, his
libs barly grazing my dick. The touch of those soft lips sent shivers up my
spine. Oh, this was so hot!

JC puckered his lips around the head of my cock and slowly began to suck it
into his mouth. As I felt the wet inside of his teen mouth I was in heaven!
This kid was making me so hot! He moved farther down on my cock, sucking
gently and being careful not to hit it with his teeth this time. His tongue
licking the underside where it's so sensitive driving me wild and causing
me to thrust a bit into his mouth even more. Soon I reached the back of his
throat and the boy began to gag a little, I whispered to him to relax and
take it slowly. After a few moments he got the hang of it and was sucking
me off like one of the pros! I went all the way down his thoat so that his
tonsiles where tickeling my dick as it went down. This kid was swallowing
my dick and I loved it!

I grabbed the back his head with both hands and began to face fuck him, I
looked down at him, he was staring up at me so longinly, so into me. I was
lovin it! That's one thing I love about queers, they like it! When girls do
it it's like it's this big favor, but guys want it, they love sucking you,
they want it just as bad as you do!

He was so cute down there sucking on my big cock! But I wanted more! So I
stoped him and told him to stand up, I removed his shirt, and pulled down
his jeans which he then stepped out of as well as his shoes and socks. He
stood in front of me in just his tighty whites. Which had a rather
impresive bulge in them. I'd guess the kid was probably about 5 and half or
6 inches, not too large, but not very small either. He had a small build,
but just like his cock, not too small.

I asked him to remove his underwear, which he did slwoly and reluctantly. I
watched as his cock sprang to life from his undies. I was right, about 5
and a half inches, kinda small even for a kid his age, but that didn't
matter to me! He was a beautiful creature. Nice tan, smooth all over, kind
of skinny, but he had enough muscel so that he wasn't a thin neardy type.

I instrucked him to lay down on the bed. I stepped out of my jeans, which
had been around my ankels the whole time, and stepped out from my shoes and
socks as well. I undid my shirt and flung it to the side with his pile of
cloths. JC was laying on the bed now, and I joined him. He began to kiss
and suck my nipples, and the rest of my chest, which is lightly covered in
hair (very lightly). I lay the enjoying this attention. I hardly ever do so
many intamte things with other males. It's usually just "Suck my cock would
ya?" and then he does and it's over. But this kid had caught me in mood
today, or maybe it was that he'd put me in a mood, either way, today I
wanted way more than the standard blow job!

The kid went down my body, and I thought he was going to start sucking my
cock again, but to my surprise he skipped right over it, and lefted up a
little and started licking between my ass checks! No one, male or female
had ever done this for me! I didn't know what to do at first, but then I
just started to relax as the feeling of pleasure ht me. I began to moan and
writh around on the bed, and then his tongue hit my hole, waves of please
ran through me and I was loving every moment of this! I had no idea you
could get so much pleasure from your ass! No wonder guys loved it when I'd
finger their asses, or shove my dick up there! As his tongue began to
petrude a bit into my ass hole, I wondered if maybe it would be so bad
having a dick or finger up there. The feelings were so amazing and
wonderful, being a queer might not be such a bad thing! Of course, this was
only a fleting thought, I was straight, I am staright, and theres nothing
that can change that, but this sure was a lot of fun!!

He sucked on my ass, and put his tounge in and out of my sweaty hole for
what seemed like hours, (but was probably closer to 5 minutes if even) till
I finally stopped him. He'd gotten me so hot I was afaid I might cum just
from having him licking my ass!!! I pulled him back up to me, and he began
to kiss and lick me up and down while moaning and making longin noises like
some kind of an animal in heat! He even licked under my pits, and sucked my
toes!

I rose up from the bed and pulled him down I hesitated but figured what the
fuck, I was so horny and he was sooo good that I sucked his little teen
dick for a while. He moaned and squirmed around while sucked his
dick. Then, I rolled over on top of him and whispered in his ear that I was
going to fuck him now. I looked into his eyes, and that look of nevervious
fear and reluctance was there again. I whispedred "First time?" and he
shook his head "yeah.". I whipsered that was okay, I'd go easy, and I told
him to remember, whatever we were doing, or in the middel of doing he could
always say "no" even now if he wished. He said he understood, and wanted to
try.

I pulled a tupe of KY liquid out of my top drawr. I opened the tube and
smeared some on my dick, and then I lifted his ass and smeared some on his
puckered hole. I worked my index finger in and slowly worked him over,
geting his ass to relax, then another, and another. He moaned and said it
felt weird, but good. I smiled, thinking to myself, how I now knew how he
felt.

I put throw his legs over my sholders and lined up my dick with his hole. I
asked him he was ready and he nodded a positvie responce. I began to
inseart the head of my dick in slowly, now I am very long, but I'm not
extreamly thick, but soon he was squirming and said it hurt a little I
asked if he still wanted to keep going, and he said he did, so I went
slower and slower, againizingly puting in each inch over what seemed like
an eternity, (but again was probably more like 5 mintues) till finally my
bush hit his ass checks and with a final push, I was all the way in! He was
so tight! And he was so hot and wet inside, it was heaven for a big dick
like mine!

His dick had gone limp from the pain, and was about 2, possibly 3 inches
when soft, but now started to rise again, I told him to relax and just lay
there while ass adjusted to my dick inside him. After a few moments, I
began to move my dick back and forth, fucking him slowly and softly. I
didn't want to hurt him. He began to moan and asked me to do it harder,
which I was more than happy to do! I fucked his ass harder just as he
asked, taking longer strokes, till my dick was coming all the way out and
slaming back inside him. He was moaning and enjoying himself quite a bit!
He began to moan and yell loudly. I whispered for him to try and keep it
down and motioned with my heat to upstairs. He whispered sorry, and I
smilled at this inoccent little thing, that was letting me fuck him. Not a
boy, not yet a man, to coin a Britney Spears phrase! He just enough of a
man that I felt okay fucking him as hard as I could, still so inoccent I
wanted to be gentail and nice to him.

I fucked him harder and harder picking up the pace, I knew I'd cum soon. I
didn't know if he was close or not. Sometimes guys cum just from being
fucked, but some need a little extra motion on their dick. Sometimes I lay
really close to a guy while I'm fucking him, so his dick rubs my stomack
muscels while I'm fucking him in and out till he cums. I pressed myself
against him, and fucked him harder and harder.

"You ready?" I whispered.

"Yeah, I'm gonna cum soon." He moaned.

I smiled and said, "Me too."

I started pumping him harder and harder, I wasn't sure if I should pull out
or not before I shot my load, but I knew I didn't want to I wanted blow my
load up inside of this hot young thing! "Cum for me boy!" I shouted, not
caring if the neibours heard or not! "Cum on, I'm gonna blow my load up
inside you little guy!" I shouted again. "Oh yeah, please harder, I'm
almost there!" He yelled.

I pressed down harder on his dick, and fucked him as hard as I could,
pumpming him deeper than I thought I could! Finaially I could hold it no
longer. "Aw fuck kid, I'm gonna cum!" I shouted. And with that I thrust as
deep inside him as I could get,and I unloaded deep inside his gut! I could
feel him throbing inside as I was cumming, and I knew his cum was making
it's way to his dick! It erupted a faction of a second later from his piss
slit going all over us both!

He kept cumming and so did I! Hi coming out in jets at first, spuing all
over us, then slowing down to gental spurts that ran down his dick to his
pubic hair (which was still fairly light). The whole time he was milking
the cum from by dick!

I collapsed on top of him. And I'm sure if he wern't laying down he would
have collapsed as well! We laid there for a while, just slwoly coming back
to reality. I slowly pulled out of him, and rolled over on my side facing
him. I caressed his soft skin down. I didn't really know why, but this kid
just made me feel so protective over him. I carsed his chest as we lay
there smilling at eachother, and then I looked him over. He was covered in
cum, little white strips of it all over him. Then I noticed what I thought
was cum on his left side, a white streak, but this curved differntly than
the way the cum should have been spraying. That's when I realized it was a
large white scare, nearly covered by his golden tan. One would hardly
notice it unless they were looking very closely at this boy.

It seemed familure, in fact, this whole situation seemed familure! Laying
next some someone caressing their skin, looking at their scare! It was just
like the time when I layed beside my son Jerr... Oh my God! Jermmy!! J
stands for Jerrmy! My last name is Coner! JC= Jermmy Coner!!!

My eyes grew wide and JC...Jermmy knew something was wrong. The smile on
his face dissappeared. I got out of bed and stared at the wall leaving
Jermmy in bed by himself. He said something about how guys get like that
after he sucks their cocks, but I'm not sure what he said, cause I was in
my own little world or thought! "How could this happen?! My son, my own
son! I fucked my son. And oh my God, all that stuff we'd done, the stuff
I'd tought about him, thinking to myself how his dick was so tiny, thinking
about him being a...a queer, how when I first saw him I KNEW he was gay for
sure. All it was my SON! Wait, maybe not, maybe it's just coincidence. Oh
who am I kidding, it's him, I know it's him!"

"I'm going to go ahead and go then." JC said, and got up from the bed.

"Uh, yeah okay." I said not paying attention to what the kid was saying.

I was still thinking about everything in my head. "My son, my own little
boy! Oh my God, I'm a horrible man! My son is the boy I fucked!" Then it
hit me, "My son, is the boy I just fucked." He was here my little boy was
right here, and then I realized he said he was leaving! "Snap out of it
man, you can't lose him now!!"I thought to myself.

"WAIT!" I nearly screamed out loud!

The boy jumped and turned to look at me. He looked scared, and of course he
should, he was in, what he assumed was a strnager's apartment, and this
stranger was suddenly acting very strange. "Get it together, you're scaring
him!" I thought to myself. He handn't even got his underwear on yet. I
tried to think of what to say next. I had to do or say something. I
couldn't just let him walk away. I had missed him too much to let that
happen now. The time had come, finally! It was time to reclaim my son, time
to reclaim that missing piece of my soul!!

"Um, uh..."I started out. "Please, I didn't mean to act like that. Please
don't go." I said, after rexlazing a bit.

"That's okay, I know when staight guys cum after being with a guy they
don't like you to hang around." He said.

"Um, no really, uh stay for a little while." I said. "Maybe we could talk,
or watch tv or something."

He looked a little concerned. This look of "What have I gotten myself
into?!?" croseed his face! "Uh, I think I'll just go." He said, and turned
away trying to put his undies back on.

I had to say something. But what? What do I say?

"Wait Jermy!" I yelled.

He turned and faced me. He looked kind of scared now. "How did you know my
real name?" He said.

"Oh God, it is him!" I thought to myself. "It's really him, no doubt about
it now!" Oh why did I have to fuck him? WHY? But again, I realized this is
not the issue right now. Getting my son back is!

"You're Jerrmy Coners? You were attacked by a dog when you were a little
kid?" I asked.

"How did you know that?" Jerrmy asked. "Who the fuck are you man?"

"I...um...I..." I stummbled over my words. How could I tell him? But I had
to tell him or lose him. "I'm you're dad, Jermmy." I finally got out.

A blank look crossed his face. He stood there and his golden tanned skin
turned pale and white as a ghost. He stared at the floor thinking for a
moment. And then looked back up at me.

"You're a fucking lyer!" He screamed, tears starting to roll down his
checks.j

"No I'm not, I promise you." I said moving closer to him.

He jerked away like a scared animal when someone tries to help it, but it
doesn't know why their their or what they're trying to do. He was giving me
a "Don't come near me look" as I tried to manover closer to him. I wondered
how I could prove it to him, then I remembered that all the men (or nearly
all, have a mole in exactally the same place on their right shoulder, and I
looked at Jerrmy and noticed he did in fact have the family "birth mark".
"Look I got mole on right shoulder and so do you." I said, showing him the
mole on my shoulder and pointing to his. "Every male in our faimly always
has one." I explained.

He looked at his shoulder and at mine. He looked scared and confused. "No,
you're not my dad. My dad wouldn't have fucked me up the ass like you just
did!" He yelled, so lould that I'm sure the neibors heard, but I didn't
care at this point.

"I didn't know, till just a few mintues ago." I tried to explain. "I didn't
know who you were till I saw your scare, and by then I'd already...already
fucked you." I said, whispering the last three words, still finding them
hard to comprehend.

Jerrmy looked at the floor, confused and tears coming out of his eyes and
rolling down his checks. "No, you can't be my dad!" He said, weakly trying
not to cry. "My dad's a big strong man, they've told me about him, he hates
queers, he beats 'em up. I'm gonna be a strong man for him when I meet him!
He's not gonna know about all this." Jerrmmy said crying, sounding so weak
and upset as if he was facing the end of the world. Like he'd just given
up.

"Yeah, I did used to be that way Jerrmy. But you gotta know, I woudln't
ever hurt you." I said.

"Oh God, it is you isn't it?!?" Jermmy asked (or more like stated). "It's
you and you know, oh God, you know everything, I did all that nasty stuff
with you! You know what a pervert I am!" He said, crying and sliding to the
floor, his back against the door, his undies still only at his ankels. "Oh
God, uh huuuu...it's over! It's just over!"

I stood there for a moment not knowing what to say. I'd come a long way,
but the whole gay thing was still something I wasn't sure of. I'd never
really had any gay friends, or anything like that. My only expericne with
gay people was...well fucking them, or letting them suck me! And now I'd
found my son, my little angel, and he was one of them!! From what I'd
understood, he was hoping to meet his dad...to meet me someday, and he
imagened I'd be proud of him, and he'd be this big macho man that he
thought I wanted my son to be. To be honest, I'd sort imagened the same
thing over the years. When I imagened my son and what he might look like
now, I'd picutre a strong, tall, young jock, a footballplayer with wide
shoulders, or maybe just a tall think basketball player, something to be
proud of. I looked at the small, sort of weak, crying, sniffeling, and
yeah, even queer, boy sitting there on the floor, and I hated myself for
ever wanting that "other" son I'd made up in my head while this beaustiful
kid was out there waiting for me, wanting me to love him. I just wanted to
throw my arms around him and tell him, I didn't care. And that's what I
did!

I sat down beside him and told him I didn't give a crap about any of the
stuff we did, or what he was or wasn't. "You're my son, my little boy..." I
started, finding myself starting to cry now too. "...I don't care! I don't
care!"

I held him for a long time, the two of us, both still naked (execpt Jermmy
had his tighty whities pulled to half way up his ankels:) and crying like
babie, just like we were two new born babie! My son was in my arms that's
all that mattered. After a while we stood up and he asked why I left. "Oh
my God, his mother told him that I ( 'I' in big BOLD letters) was the one
who left?!?"

"I never left you!" I said, nearly yelling. "I would never have left!"

"But mom said, you left us for another woman." Jerrmy said.

I stopped for a minute, that wasn't really too far from the truth. "Okay,
listen Jerrmy, your mom and I weren't getting along very well the last few
years we were married, but I never ever would have left you." I
explained. "But you're right, there was anotehr woman, and that was wrong,
and if I had known you're mom was going to take you, I never EVER would
have done that!"

"So mom left you?" Jermmy asked.

"I guess you were too yong to remember." I said. "I came home and you guys
were gone."

"I kind of remember packing up my toys, and mom saying you didn't want us
no more." Jerrmy said.

"That's not ture, I did want you baby!" I said, nearly yelling to the top
of my lungs. "Oh God, you were my world, my everything! I just didn't want
HER anymore!"

"Do you hate her? Jerrmy asked.

I had to think for a moment. The answer surprised me. "No, I don't hate
her. She's took good care of you, and I know I did her wrong, she had no
right to do what she did, but I know I was really, REALLY wrong too."

Me and my son went to the living room, we didn't even bother to get
dressed. We lay on the courch, him laying on top of me while we watched tv
and talked about everything. I kept asking him if he needed anything,
chips, soada, love. Okay, I didn't ask him about that last part, but that's
really what I meant everytime I asked him:)

We lay there talking the whole day, and whole night. He said he could
remember some thing he and his dad...me used to do together, but he
couldn't remember his face or what he looked like or sounded like. He said
maybe he kind of knew it was me, and I said maybe he was right, and maybe I
kind of knew who he was too. I realized this kind of thing probably isn't
new, after all fathers and their children are seprated all the time, and
lots of older men love younger guys, or girls. I'm sure worse than this has
happened. And all things considered, it's not that bad.

We lay there talking all night, and then I felt this little stiring between
my legs. I realilzed Jerrmy was getting hard again. He looked up at me, and
looked very scared. I told him not to worry about it. After all father's
and sons experment sometimes. I told my father showed me how to jerk off on
a private moment. He never touched me, and he deffantly never FUCKED me,
but what we'd done wasn't so bad after all.

He went home and we exchanged phone numbers. The next day I came to vist
him. Boy was his mother surprised!! I gave her a good chewing out, and told
her to get herself a good lawer! But it never came to that, Jerrmy was a
big boy now, and he wanted to be with his dad, he told her he'd run away
and live with me werther she let him or not. So after that I got summers,
weekend, and holidays with him. Believe it or not, his mother only took him
about two hours away from our old town, but no one knew where she was. I
love my son and he stays with me often now, and I think my whole attitude
towrd gays has improved quite a bit! I did end up having a few more times
like the one we had that day when we were just two males, and not father
and son! It was quite a differnt expercince after knowing! Not that all we
do is have sex, but we love eachother a lot, we've only had sex a few
times, and played some sexual games with eaother, like jerking off together
and mostly tame things like that. Sometimes we just love laying together in
bed like the old days that we had taken from us.

He's spending a lot less time in my bed these days and a lot more time in a
nice young guy's bed by the name of Mathew. Matt's a sweat kid and if
things go well, I couldn't ask for a better son in law. As for me, I don't
spend much time at the book stores now, I also found someone knew, and we
now have little named Mike. This time maybe I'll get it right.

I live in a big house now, and I even asked Jerrmy, who's 18 now by the
way, to move in help me out, and even to bring Matt with him he wants. All
in all, I glad things happened the way they did. I mean, I wish I could
have had those lost years with my son, but if I did I probably would have
been trying to turn him straight like his mother did. That's where all the
stories about his homophibic father came from. She wanted him to be
straight, and told him what his daddy would think of him. She'd known he
was gay since she found a gay porn mag in his closet when he was 12! Poor
little dude. But she also happy now too with her husband. She doesn't say
anything about Jerrmy spending all his time with me now. After all, she had
all those years with him, and I didn't, and besides, he's 18 now and can do
what he wants.

Anyway, that's my story. Hope you enjoyed it.

THE END

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Well that's all folks! I hope you enjoyed the story. As I said before, I in
no one condone sex with children. In fact I wanted to make the son 18 but I
realized by doing that the father and son would have very little time left
to be father and son instead of just two adult guys who are realted. I
wanted them to be able to have years left to get back some of what they'd
lost. That's why I made him 15 instead of 18. And aslo, I wanted a pretty
young father who was still attractive, and if the son was 18 the father
would have had to have been a bit older. If you have any commets good or
bad you can e-mail me at gayboysrule_2000@yahoo.com or if you have yahoo
messenger, it might be a good idea to just leave me an offline message at
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