Date: Sun, 25 Aug 2013 18:15:17 -0400
From: Taylor Thoresen <taylorthoresen@gmail.com>
Subject: Taylor's Secrets - 3

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This is about a boy discovering sex with the help of his older brother and
his college fraternity buddies.  It includes totally consensual acts of sex
between them, starting when the boy was 10 and as he gets older.  If that
offends you or you are too young by the laws of your country to be seeing
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Copyright, 2013.  This is my story and no one has a right to reproduce it,
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and post something like this, so I hope it is ok. Thanks to the guys that
emailed me after I did parts 1 and 2. I really liked your emails.

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TAYLOR'S SECRETS

Part 3

Thanks to you guys that are emailing me about what I'm telling you. Sorry
it took so long to get part 3 done.  I'm done playing summer ball but I am
still working my summer jobs until school starts right after Labor Day, and
there's been some other things going on that kept me busy too.  I also
asked some more of the guys if I can tell about stuff I did with them and I
am waiting for them to say ok.  Maybe I will go ahead and start writing
those parts and if they say no then I'll take them out before I send it to
Nifty.

Before I tell you more stuff I will answer two questions I've been asked by
like more than 4 or 5 of you because I guess some of you that haven't
emailed me are maybe wondering about the same things.

Question 1 - The question I'm getting from a lot of you is What happened to
McKibben? and What do I feel about McKibben? Well like I said at the end of
part 2 Trev and I spent that Sunday afternoon and evening at home with mom.
I didn't really think about McKibben again until Trev and I were walking
back to the fraternity house that night and then I got kinda nervous about
seeing him again and what I was going to say to him or do. I wasn't really
afraid of him because I knew my brother and the other guys would protect me
if I needed their help. But I was scared just because I didn't understand
why he did it and because I didn't know what would be the right thing for
me to do.  I was also scared because I was afraid to tell the one person I
always talked to about everything, that's my brother Trevor. I was worried
about what he would do if I told him about McKibben. I also felt really bad
about hitting Matt so hard in the balls and I hoped I didn't seriously hurt
him for life or something like that.

When we got to the house I didn't see Matt's car and I didn't see him in
the house at all that night. One of the guys was going around asking if
anyone had seen him and everyone said no but that didn't seem like a big
deal to anyone. On Monday I went home after school and then when I got to
the fraternity house later that night guys were talking about no one had
seen McKibben since the party on Saturday night and the door to his room
was open, his car was gone and he wasn't answering his cell or messages
they sent him.  Then I started worrying about him again.  I didn't know
what to think.  I didn't know if I should tell someone what happened.  I
didn't know if what happened between us had anything to do with why he was
missing.  I even kinda wondered if hitting a guy really hard in the nuts
could kill him.  That was a scary idea.  Late Monday night Colin and Trevor
agreed they had to call Matt's parents to let them know and to see if they
knew where he was.  They had to do it cause Colin is the president and Trev
is the vice president and neither of them wanted to make the call himself.

Tuesday the police and his parents were at the fraternity house talking
with the guys and looking at Matt's room.  I was glad they didn't talk to
me.  They decided there wasn't any reason to think he was kidnapped or
anything bad like that so they said he was a missing person.  Wednesday the
police told his parents Matt used his bank card at an ATM in another city
about 15 miles away to get money and it took a picture of him, so he was
ok.  While I was at school on Thursday Matt showed up at the fraternity
house and took all his stuff. Most the guys were in their classes but two
guys saw him and he told them he was dropping out of college but he
wouldn't tell them why.  He said he was going home and maybe going to
community college or get a job or something.  He told them he talked with
his parents and the police and all that was taken care of.  He said he just
went away for a few days to think.  When Mike was telling me all this on
Thursday night I was really glad to know Matt was ok.  I was pretty sure he
did this because of what he did to me, but I didn't think there was any
reason to tell anyone else about it now.

So like all that was like the first week of October, and then on the Monday
before Thanksgiving, I was leaving school to walk home and I saw Matt
standing by his car.  He was looking around at the kids leaving the
building and I knew he was looking for me.  I was surprised and I was going
to turn around and go another way because he hadn't seen me yet.  But I
really wanted to talk to him and I knew I was safe with all the other
people around the school.  So I walked over to him.  He saw me coming and
then he looked kinda scared. I thought it was weird that he would be afraid
of me.  He said he was really sorry for what he did on that Saturday in
October, everything including on the ladder in the kitchen, in the shower,
and that night up in his room.  He said it was ok to hate him and he
couldn't blame me for that, but he wanted to see me for two reasons.  He
wanted to be sure I am ok, and he wanted to ask me to forgive him for what
he did.  I said why did you do it? And he said he couldn't explain it but
it was a really fucked up thing to do and he was really sorry.  He said he
went to see one of the mental counselors at the college health center
during those days he was missing and then he thought about a lot of
things. He said he dropped out of the college because he didn't want me to
be afraid of him being around me and he knew he had to get help to figure
out his fucked up life. He said there were other things too that he had to
figure out, not just what he did to me.  But he was really worried about if
I was ok or if I should maybe talk to a counselor too. But I said I am ok.
He promised that he would never see me again so I did not need to be afraid
that he would like stalk me or anything like that.  I finally said I
forgive him and I really meant it and I don't hate him for it.  He said
thanks and goodbye and he was almost crying when he got in his car and
left.  I felt really sorry for him.  I still liked him, but I didn't
understand why he did those things, but I hoped he will end up ok.

Question 2 – Did I ever tell anyone about McKibben?  Yeah; just a few
months ago I finally told Trevor about what happened between Matt and me.
So that's like almost 3 years after it happened.  Trev got really angry
like I was afraid he would.  I've only seen him that mad one other time
when dad said something not nice about mom.  I thought he was going to hit
dad.  That was about when he was 17 or 18 so he was bigger than dad and I
think dad was scared and he told us he was sorry for saying what he said.
I was 9 or 10 and it really scared me to see Trev that mad at dad.  Dad is
an asshole but he's still our dad.  Anyway it's a good thing McKibben
wasn't around when I finally told Trev.  I still like Matt and I think
about him and I hope he is ok but I won't mention him to Trevor again.

There is one other thing about Matt that I'm going to tell you guys.
Sometimes I have jacked off while thinking about what it would have been
like to touch his cock. I guess I really wanted to do that.  I think about
what it would be like to feel that extra skin sliding around when I stroke
it and what it would be like to suck it.  I am getting hard thinking about
this while I am writing this right now.  I think it would have been
awesome, and sometimes I don't know why I was so afraid that day and I wish
I had done it.  I know it was wrong for him to try to force me when I was
12, but if I was older and had more experience and understood a lot more
things like I do now it could have been really fuckin awesome to do sex
stuff with Matt.  (Sorry if this pisses you off Trevor but it's true; I
wish I had done stuff with Matt.)

Now I will start part 3.

After that Fall weekend three years ago, I started sleeping in Aiden's room
more.  Like I said before, sometimes Trev wanted to fuck a girl and he
asked me to sleep in Aiden's room. But now sometimes I just told him he was
snoring again and I wanted to sleep in Aiden's room cause of that.  Trev
didn't believe he snored like I said but I knew the only other person that
he sometimes sleeps with couldn't say anything because that was Mike.  The
girls Trev fucked didn't stay all night with him.  But sometimes after my
bro did sex with his best friend they slept together. But Mike didn't sleep
with my brother as much as I did so I knew even he couldn't really say I
was wrong about Trev snoring sometimes.

Trev thought maybe Aiden would get tired of me sleeping in his room so much
but Aiden said it was no problem.  That was funny cause Aiden liked me
sleeping in his room cause we did sex stuff every night I was with him.  I
was so totally lovin it, and so was Aiden. I stayed in his room about 3
nights a week, but sometimes 4.  He said we shouldn't do it too much or
else someone might figure out what we were doing.  And after the first few
times he made a rule that we couldn't do sex until both of us had our
homework done and he or Trev or Mike looked at mine to see if it looked
alright.  He said I was addicted to sex from the first time we did it. He
was definitely right about that.

Aiden and I kissed, licked, and sucked all over each other's bodies.  We
touched and rubbed and massaged each other a lot.  It was really hot to get
to really touch and look at another guy's body up close as much as I wanted
and not have to sneak peeks at him in the shower when he wasn't looking;
especially such a HOT bod like Aiden's.  He said I could touch him and look
at him as much as I wanted, but just not when he was studying.  He said he
couldn't study when I started rubbing and licking his thigh and stuff like
that.  LOL Yeah I liked doing stuff that I knew would make him really horny
then he would do about anything I wanted.  It was kinda like having a magic
power to make him do things and that was really cool.

I was getting better at deep throating his 7" cock. That always gets a big
groan from him.  His cock is not really fat so I can breath through my nose
when my lips are wrapped around the base of his cock.

He showed me that little bites are kind of exciting too.  The pain from the
bites was kinda like when he pinched my nipples hard and it really hurt but
it was like a spike of electricity went from my nipple to my cock.  It
really hurt so I didn't ask him to do it, but I didn't tell him not to.
And I got use to him putting his hand over my mouth to shut me up cause I
moaned real loud when he did that kind of stuff to my body. It also made my
cock harder than ever.  It really hurt, but I hoped he would do it again.

I also got use to the taste of cum. His and mine.  A lot of times when one
of us sucked a load out of the other's cock, we held it in our mouth and
then kissed and shared it.  I thought that was really hot the first time he
did it to me and I tasted my own cum on his tongue, that made me horny and
ready to start again.  His loads were a lot bigger and thicker and had a
stronger taste that I started liking a lot.  I really liked tasting his
precum too.  It is a lot different from the taste of his cum.

Nifty stories and the gay porn vids included stuff like this, but I never
really thought I'd do them.  But I guess when you are super horny you do
crazier things than you would normally do.  When I started thinking about
doing sex things with guys I just wanted to see their cocks.  Then I only
wanted to touch them.  Then I just imagined jacking off together with a hot
guy I liked.  Then I started wanting to jack them off.  Then I wanted to
see what it was like to suck their cocks.  I guess tasting cum and getting
use to swallowing a load shooting into your mouth was just the next step.
I started wondering how much else I would do.

Ok I am just going to stick something else in here because it doesn't like
fit anywhere else, but since I just told you I was getting use to tasting
Aiden's cum I will tell you this too.  I never told anyone this until now
so Trevor and Aiden and the other guys are gonna find out about it when
they read this on Nifty.  LOL I know Trev will roll his eyes and laugh and
say "What a crazy dumbfuck!"  (my bro says that about me a lot).  One night
Trev fucked a girl in our room and Aiden and I watched through that little
hole in the wall.  We got each other off as usual while we watched Trev
fuck the girl.  Then we covered up the hole and closed the closet door.
When Trev left to walk her back to her dorm I told Aiden I was gonna take a
fast shower before bed so I went to get my shower bucket and towel from our
room.  I saw the condom wrapper on the floor and that make me think about
where he put the condom after he was done. I found it in the trash can.  He
tied a loop in it so it wouldn't leak out.  Oh fuck! There was a LOT of cum
in it. My bro had shot a huge load.  I was really impressed.  The condom
was sticky but I didn't want to think about that. I was squeezing the big
load of white cum inside it from one end to the other, kinda back and
forth, playing with it, just looking at it.  It was thick, not kinda watery
like mine was back then.  My 12 year old cock got hard cause I was thinking
about this was my big brother's cum and it came out of his balls.  Well ok
this next thing is pretty gross guys.  I hope you don't think I'm like a
total sicko.  But I opened it and put my finger in Trevor's cum. I wished
it was still hot like it just came out of his balls but it wasn't.  I
smeared some of it around on my fingers. It was slick.  I smelled it and it
smelled really strong.  Ok this is the really grossest part.  I licked a
little of it off my finger.  I wasn't really thinking about it.  I just did
it.  It tasted strong too.  I dipped my finger in it again and put a little
more on the tip of my tongue.  Then I knew I wanted to suck a big load like
that right out of my 20 year old brother's huge cock.  I was really horny
then.  I was stroking my cock thinking about Trev shooting a load in my
mouth.  I squeezed some of his load out of the condom onto my hard cock.  I
wrapped my fingers around it and started stoking.  It was like it felt even
better than ever just because I was using Trevor's load to lube my cock.  I
shot off really fast.  I wasn't thinking and I came on his pillow.  After I
came I put things back so he wouldn't know, and I swapped his pillow and
mine.  Then I took a really fast shower and got back to Aiden's room and
got in bed naked with him to sleep.  He asked what took so long. I told him
I was horny again and jacked off in the shower. He laughed and said I
better be careful and not get caught.

Weird, huh?  Kinda gross and pervy I guess.  Yeah well I was a really horny
kid.  I still am.  Ok, now I will go back to telling you what Aiden and I
were doing to each other back in October and November 2010 when I was just
starting to do sex stuff.

Aiden liked to play with my ass a lot and I got use to that too.  He didn't
try to fuck me, and he didn't even talk about fucking me (much).  He
sometimes just kinda hinted about it.  But I knew he wanted to fuck me
really bad.  I guess I started to think that someday I would probably
decide I was ready and I would really let him do it to me; but I thought
that would be a really long time away.  I kinda thought he knew it would
happen someday too and he was being patient.  He liked to squeeze, massage,
lick and kiss my ass cheeks.  He pulled my cheeks apart so he could look
right at my hole and I knew he liked it cause he said stuff like, "Oh god
i'm gonna cum just from looking at that."  One time he said, "It's winking
at me, teasing me, but someday it will be mine."  I didn't understand what
he meant about winking at him and I just laughed because it sounded funny
to me, but I understood the rest of what he said.  Sometimes he blew air on
my hole and it made me shiver.  I liked the things he did to my ass, even
the little bites.  But he made sure he didn't leave any bite marks on my
ass cause that would be a problem when I changed and showered in the locker
room at school.

There were a few more times during those weeks for Aiden and me to watch
Trev doing sex with a girl or with Mike while we looked through the hole in
the wall.  We always got each other off while we were watching them.  We
only saw Trev and Mike together with a girl again one more time that fall.
Aiden said it's hard to find a girl that is cool with that.

Like I just told you, Trev uses condoms when he fucks the girls and he does
when he fucks Mike too, and from what my health teacher said, that is a
good thing to do, so I was glad.  I asked Aiden if he uses condoms when he
fucks a girl or a guy and he said, "Always."  I was glad about that too.

Sometimes Aiden said he had a date and he would be gone all night.  I asked
Aiden why he didn't bring the girl to his room at the fraternity house, and
he just said "She's shy about people knowing we're having sex."  He didn't
date and fuck girls a lot, and I knew it was because he really liked sex
with guys better.  He usually told me a little about girls he fucked, but
he didn't tell me anything about the one he went somewhere else to fuck.  I
never saw her but I had a feeling it was always the same girl but I didn't
ask him.  I figured they spent the night at her room in the dorm or at her
apartment, but I didn't ask him that stuff either.  I figured there must be
something special about that girl and I wondered if he was in love with
her; but that didn't seem right because he told me he is more gay than bi.

He told me I could sleep in his room if I wanted to whenever he was gone,
but I usually just slept in Trev's room on those nights because I like
being with my brother.

But one night when Aiden was spending all night somewhere else with that
shy girl, I decided to stay in his room by myself, I figured that might
give Trevor and Mike a chance to get together again.  I was hoping they'd
use Trev's room if they did.  I tried to stay awake really late so I would
hear if Trev left his room, or if he opened his door to let someone else
in.  But I fell asleep.  I woke up cause I think I heard some noise or
something.  It was almost 2:00 AM.  I think the noise might have been Trev
shutting his door.  I rubbed my eyes and looked through the peek hole in
Aiden's door but no one was in the hallway.  I was very quiet when I moved
stuff out of his closet and looked through the small hole in the wall.
Trev and Mike were naked and kissing.  Their big cocks looked really hard.
I was looking forward to seeing them suck each other's cock. And I was
really hoping Trev would fuck Mike again.

It was still an amazing mystery to me that getting fucked must really hurt,
but must really feel good at the same time, and I couldn't imagine a stud
like Mike letting another guy fuck him, especially one with a really big
cock like my brother.  But I wanted them to do it again.  I wanted to watch
them fucking.

I pushed my sleep shorts off and I was naked.  My cock was rock hard and
poking up in the air like the nose of a hunting dog trying to catch the
scent of what he's trained to go after.  (That's how someone else described
my cock just recently and I think it's a really cool description.  LOL)

But watching Trev and Mike that night gave me one of my biggest surprises
ever.  I was shocked when my big brother Trevor asked Mike to fuck him. It
was almost more like begging him.  He said, "It's been too long.  It's my
turn to feel a hard cock in my ass.  I really need to get fucked."

This seemed to excite Mike a lot and he said, "Fuck yeah bro. Gonna fuck
this sweet ass just like you like it."  He was squeezing Trev's hard round
butt cheeks with both hands.  Mike's ass is like kind of medium hairy, but
Trevor's ass is almost hairless.  Not totally hairless like mine still is
so far but the hair on my brother's ass is real light and you don't really
see it.  I think it's cause of our Swedish ancestry.

They made out like Aiden and I do and then took turns sucking each other's
cock for a few minutes.  Mike could only take like a little over half of
Trev's cock before he gagged.  I was thinking someday I will take that
whole cock down my throat.  Mike was massaging Trevor's ass while sucking
his cock and then I saw him put some lube on his finger and slowly push it
up Trev's hole and start moving it in and out.  I could tell my brother
liked it.

That reminded me to get the little bottle of lube Aiden kept in the drawer
by his bed. He showed me a few nights earlier how good it felt to use the
lube when stroking my own cock.  He said he doesn't usually need it when
he's just jacking off because he leaks so much precum when he is horny.
That's true; I really love it when his cock is really slick and slimy with
precum.  I like to lick the stuff off his cock too.  Well anyway I got the
bottle and put just a little on my 12 year old cock and smeared it up and
down. I almost moaned out loud.

I got back into the kneeling position to watch what was happening in the
next room, and I saw Mike was now moving 2 fingers in and out of Trev's
ass.  From the way my brother was acting, that must feel really good.  I
watched Mike's hand more closely and I saw when he started working his
third finger into Trev's hole too; he was trying to poke it in next to his
other two fingers.  Trevor stopped moving and held his breath and closed
his eyes.  I didn't want to see him get hurt and I was afraid for him but I
couldn't stop watching.  It must have been hard to get Trev's hole
stretched enough to squeeze the third finger in but it was finally in
there. Trev groaned and let out a deep breath. Mike's arm muscles bulged as
he started moving his 3 fingers in and out, fucking my brother with them.
It was so hot to see them doing this.  I was stroking my cock at about the
same slow speed Mike was moving his fingers.

While he was finger fucking Trev, Mike was also moving back and forth
between sucking his cock, licking his nipples and kissing him.  Once he
pinched one of Trev's nips really hard and made Trev jump and groan.  It
was like I could almost feel the pain myself.  I started playing with my
nipples with my other hand but I couldn't make myself pinch them really
hard like Aiden did sometimes.

Trevor groaned and said, "Fuck me bro. I need your big cock deep in me."

Mike put a condom on his really hard cock and I could see he was leaking a
lot of precum.  I had to take my hand off my own cock while I watched him
slide his cock into my brother's ass.  I was really close to cumming and I
didn't want to do that yet.

He started out fucking Trev kinda slow and gentle but then he started
getting faster. I could tell Trevor liked getting fucked and I knew he and
Mike must have done this together a lot and they knew what each other
liked.

Mike was thrusting his cock into Trev's ass harder and harder. The bed
rocked each time and it sounded like it forced the air outta Trev each time
he stabbed him with his hard cock. I heard something else too and then I
saw that it was Mike's balls smacking against Trev's ass; I wondered if
that hurt him.  They were hanging down and swinging and sounded like they
were hitting pretty hard.

It was like the fuck just got rougher and rougher.  Mike was holding his
hand over Trev's mouth while he fucked him with really hard thrusts.  Trev
eyes were watering and for a couple minutes I was getting upset cause I
thought Mike was hurting him but when he took his hand off for a moment
Trev was like begging him, "Harder, harder!  God yeah!  Fuck me!"

I came all over my right hand and the floor in front of me.  I didn't even
notice I had started stroking my cock again.  What I was watching was the
hottest thing I had seen so far.  My big brother that I love so much
really, really liked getting fucked rough.

Like always, without really thinking about it, I suddenly just knew I
wanted to know what that feels like.  All my life I knew if my brother did
it, then I wanted to do it too.  If Trevor liked it, then I probably would
like it too.  Now I really wanted to get fucked like my big brother, but I
was still scared of it too.  I wished Aiden was there with me so I could
talk to him and he could help me understand these confusing feelings.

Trevor's groan was covered by Mike's hand again, but it got my attention
back to what they were doing again.  Even with the dim light in the room, I
could see the sweat shining on both their naked bodies.  It was like they
were doing a very hard workout.  I thought it looked and sounded like Trev
was about to shoot his load while Mike was still slammin his cock up his
ass.  I knew I was right cause Mike could tell it too and he said, "Come on
big guy, shoot that huge fuckin load for me."

Mike slammed his cock into Trev just a few more times and then my brother's
blue eyes got really big and he groaned loud into Mike's hand and cum
started shooting out of his big cock.  That's when I noticed both Trev's
fists were holding onto the sheets, and he wasn't even touching his cock.
It was bouncing around as Mike fucked him and it was shooting globs of cum
all over the place.

Mike slammed his hard cock into my brother one last time and groaned too. I
could see the muscles in his ass flexing and I knew he was filling that
condom with his hot load in my brother's ass.  He finally collapsed down on
Trevor.  Trev wrapped his long arms and legs around his best friend's body.
I could see Mike's cock was still in Trevor's ass and I noticed his balls
weren't hanging as low as they were before.  I knew Aiden's balls get
really close to his body when he cums, so I guess Mike's do that too.

They didn't move for a long time, but I could tell they were both breathing
deep for a while like they just ran 10 miles.  Then it sounded like they
were doing a few little kisses too and whispering to each other.  I was
glad Mike was Trev's best friend.  I really liked Mike too.  I was wishing
I was laying with them on Trevor's bed, naked and sweaty like them.  I
thought that would be a good feeling.

I watched them clean each other up with a couple towels (one of them was
mine).  Then they got on the bed together and I knew they were going to
sleep so before they turned off the light I quietly covered the hole in the
wall, put Aiden's things back in the closet and closed the door.  I climbed
naked into Aiden's bed.  My cock was hard again.  I could smell Aiden on
his sheets and pillow.  I wished he was there.  I wanted to feel his hot
naked body against mine and feel his strong arms around me.  I was jealous
of whoever that girl was that he went away to fuck sometimes like
this. Then I was thinking how much I really love my brother, and Aiden, and
Mike and even a few of the other guys at the fraternity house, like Colin.
I guess that's about when I fell asleep with one hand holding my hard 12
year old cock and one hand holding my balls.

A few nights later, after Aiden and I 69ed and swallowed each other's load,
I was thinking about fucking because Aiden had been rubbing his finger
around and over my hole while we were sucking each other.  It felt
awesome. Better than I remember it feeling before when he did stuff like
that.  So while we were laying there resting, with my ear and the side of
my face against his smooth chest, I said I wanted to know more about
fucking.  I heard his heart start beating a little faster.  He asked what I
wanted to know.

I told him I thought fucking was gross because it was dirty.  I couldn't
even really think about maybe putting my cock in some dude's butt because
of that.  I didn't want to get any "stuff" on my dick.  He said that could
be avoided and he told me about using enemas to clean yourself out and
washing really good when you were done with that.  Aiden said the handicap
bathroom stall is perfect for doing this stuff, because it was like a
little private room with a real door that you can lock and walls and there
was a sink in there and a little extra floor space I guess for wheelchairs.
No one can see or hear what you do in there. He got a small box out of his
closet. It had a plastic enema bottle in it with clear liquid and there
were pictures on the box that kinda show how to use it.  He said you just
wrap one or two of the little bottles in a towel and take a washcloth and
soap with you and in a few minutes you're all clean and ready to "play."
He made it sound really simple and not so gross.  He said after a couple
times you don't think so much about it, you just get the "preps" over with
fast because you're thinking how good it's gonna feel to get fucked.

He told me about bringing the empty bottles back from the bathroom and
throwing them away in a trash container away from the house so none of the
guys saw them.  I thought that was pretty smart and sneaky and I was glad
he told me.  He also told me he would be glad to provide all the supplies I
needed like the enemas, lube, and condoms. I said thanks.  Then I thought
about why he was willing to do that and I started laughing and I said, "You
just want to fuck me."

He was laughing too and he said, "Ok; I confess; yeah I want to fuck
you. How'd you figure that out?"

While he was talking he slipped his hand down my back and I felt his
fingers slide into the crack of my bare ass and over my hole.  One finger
stayed there, going around my hole really slow and then pushing right on it
a few times.  I wiggled my ass a little and pressed it back against his
finger.  I don't know why I did that but it was feeling good.

I said, "Cause you are always talking about fucking and you like to play
with my ass a lot."

He said, "If you could see your ass you'd want to play with it too."  Then
he petted my hole some more with his finger and he said, "Do you like
that?"

I was honest; I said, "Yeah, it feels awesome."

He didn't say anything.  He just left his finger there.  Moving really
slowly back and forth over my hole.  I know he could feel my cock get hard
against his thigh.  I licked his chest and his nipple.  I looked up at his
face and he was smiling.  I really like my friend Aiden.  I rolled on top
of his body and we kissed.  He kept his finger gently touching my asshole.
His mouth still tasted a little like cum.  I felt his 19 year old cock get
hard as our kissing continued.  I started moving my hips up and down a
little to rub my hard cock against his bigger hard cock.  He started
leaking precum and our cocks were getting a little slick from it.  And I
realized the way I was moving was also pushing my ass against his finger
and that felt really good too.

We stopped kissing and I was hugging his neck with my face buried in his
pillow.  Aiden whispered in my ear, "We should both be sleeping; we both
have school in the morning."

I kept moving my hips and whispered back, "Not yet. Please, Aiden. I want
more."

He turned his head on the pillow and looked at me.  Our noses were
touching.  I like being this close to a guy I really like.

"How much more?" he asked.

I thought about that and figured out he was asking me if I was ready to get
fucked.  I was still nervous about that, but I was also very horny and
curious.  I decided to trust my friend Aiden.

"I don't know. You know more about sex than I do. I trust you Aiden," was
my answer.

He kissed my cheek and then stared in my eyes while he was thinking.  Then
he rolled us both over so I was on my back and he was above me on his hands
and knees.  He kissed my forehead and said, "Be right back."

He pulled on a pair of basketball shorts and took a washcloth and towel
down to the bathroom.  I noticed he was holding them in front of him in
case he saw someone so he could hide his hard cock.  He came back with the
washcloth wet with warm water. He closed and relocked the door, and then
dropped his shorts and rejoined me on the bed.  We were both still hard.  I
was wondering if he decided he was gonna fuck me now.

"See anyone?"

"No; I think everyone's asleep," he said.

Aiden tossed the towel on the floor by the bed and then got between my legs
and gently washed my cock and balls.  I moaned.  He was talking soft to me
and saying nice things like why he loves me as a friend and why he thinks I
am special, and that I am really amazing for my age.  He also talked about
how hot I am and he said dozens of guys look at me every day and wish they
could have sex with me, and he is the really lucky guy that gets to do
these things with me.  He talked about my body and the things he really
likes about it.  He said he really wants to help me learn how to use my
body for my pleasure and to give pleasure to others that I like and want to
give a very special gift to.  I liked the things he was saying.  And he was
gently kissing and licking my chest and stomach and cock and balls while he
said this stuff.

He put his hands behind the knees of my spread out legs and lifted them up
and folded my legs back to my chest.  I realized he was probably going for
my ass.  I was a little nervous but I was looking in his eyes and I trusted
him.  I knew Aiden wouldn't hurt me.  He told me to hold my legs up on my
chest like that.  Then he rolled me way back onto my shoulders.  My neck
was really bent and my ass was pointing straight up at the ceiling.  He
scooted up right behind me on his knees so my back was resting against his
bare thighs. I felt his hard cock rubbing on my back.  I was looking up at
my body that was above my head now cause I was mostly upside down.  My cock
was hard and pointing down at my face and I knew if I came my cum would hit
me in the face.  I could see my balls, and beyond them was Aiden's face.
He looked down at me and smiled and then bent lower and kissed and licked
my balls real gently.  Then he looked at my ass and I knew my butt cheeks
were spread wide open in this position and he could look right at my hole.
I wondered what my hole looks like and realized I didn't know.  He touched
my hole and I felt my butt flex and move a little.  Aiden groaned and said,
"Ohmygod, Taylor you have the most awesome virgin boy ass.  Your hole is so
little; must be so fucking tight.  It's the most perfect ass Ive ever seen
this close."

I decided I would use a mirror and look at my ass soon.  I never thought
much about my ass but now I wanted to see if I could tell what he was
talking about.  Since we started doing sex stuff and he started playing
with my ass a little whenever we were together, I guess it made me curious
and I started looking at other guys' asses, mostly with their pants on, but
a few of them in the shower at school or at the fraternity house too.  But
I didn't think mine was anything special.  I really liked Aiden's ass and
Colin's ass; maybe cause they are swimmers and really lean and fit and
their asses are really round, but their asses also look lean and tight like
the rest of their muscles, not big and bulging like weightlifter guys.
There was a guy at school that was older than me that I liked looking at
his ass too.  I didn't know why I was starting to be attracted to looking
at these guys' asses, because I still didn't think I would ever want to do
anything with another guy's ass.  And I didn't know why I liked looking at
some guys' ass, but not the asses of other guys.  So I started thinking
about how some asses were different from others.  Since we started doing
sex stuff Aiden has let me look at his body and touch it and do anything I
want.  And I liked rubbing his round butt cheeks and feeling how hard his
gluts were, but I guess I never thought about spreading his cheeks and
looking at his hole.  I guess cause I was hung up on that idea that it was
dirty.  I certainly didn't want to touch it.  At least not so far.  I knew
I would have to think a lot more about asses and figure out some of this
stuff.  I liked finding out new stuff especially if it is connected to sex
and feels really good.

Aiden used the damp washcloth to wash the back of my thighs, my butt
cheeks, lower back, and the crease of my ass.  We had just showered before
we 69ed and I always wash myself really good, so I knew I was not dirty
back there, but it felt good and I liked what he was doing.  He ran the
cloth around my hole several times and over it, and then it felt like he
poked it into my ass just a little bit like maybe with the tip of his
little finger. He did that a couple times.

He looked down in my eyes and I knew he was wanting to know if what he was
doing was ok.  I tried to nod my head yes but my neck was bent too much and
I couldn't move my head. I just said, "Feels good."

He smiled real big and said, "Awesome!" and I felt his hard hot cock kind
of jerk on my back and some precum musta come out of the tip because I felt
it on my back. It was wet and warm and it slid real slow down my back and
felt like it stopped between my shoulder blades.  I wished I was behind
myself so I could lick it off my own smooth skin, and slide my tongue up my
back to where his cock was touching me and then lick his cock head too so I
could get all his precum.

Aiden was looking down into my eyes and he said, "It's time for a big step,
Tay.  Not the really big step; I can tell you're not sure you're ready for
that, so we will wait until you are sure.  This is kind of a medium big
step.  But I know you'll love it.  You're a really smart guy and you like
to think about things.  This will give you lots more to think about."

I think he meant he didn't think I was really ready to get fucked.  I was
kinda relieved, and that told me he understands me and really cares about
me a lot.

Just as I was starting to wonder what he was going to do, his head moved
down to my open ass and I felt him kiss me right on my hole.  I was
surprised and I held my breath as he raised back up and smiled at me again.
Now I knew what he was going to do to me.

The Nifty stories told about guys doing this to each other and a lot of the
gay videos I watched on the net showed guys doing this.  I knew Aiden was
going to rim my ass.  I always thought this was so gross that I skipped
over those parts of the stories and videos.  I was still holding my breath.
I thought for just a second about saying no, but I was trusting Aiden and
thinking maybe it won't be so bad as I thought.

Aiden was staring at my ass and he said, "Tay, I've been wanting to do this
since the first time I met you last year.  Relax boy.  You're gonna love
this as much as I will."

I closed my eyes when he started lowering his mouth to my ass again.  I
guess I didn't want to see it, like I didn't watch those parts of the gay
videos.  But he was only kissing and rubbing my ass cheeks like he has done
before, so that was ok.  I liked that.  I relaxed but kept my eyes closed
and moaned a little.  But then I noticed his tongue kept getting closer and
closer and closer to my hole.  It was like teasing me and making me wonder
more about it as it slowly got closer to really happening.  When his hot
wet tongue finally licked over my hole, it was real fast and then it was
gone and he was putting more little kisses on my ass cheeks again.  His
tongue only hit my hole for a moment, but I was pretty sure it felt good
for that moment.  He got closer and closer again , and I was wanting him to
do it this time. I wanted to see if it did feel good.  This time when he
got to my hole he licked all around the edge and I moaned kinda loud cause
it really did feel awesome.  I heard him laugh a little.  He said, "You
gotta stay quiet, bro."

He blew on my hole and it felt funny cause it was wet now from his licks
and it kind of tickled.  I liked that.  He started kissing and licking my
ass again, but this time he got to my hole faster.  He licked over it and
around it again. Then I felt his lips kiss me right on my asshole and he
started licking my hole more.  His tongue felt really warm, wet, and smooth
when he was licking my hole.

Aiden was right. I loved it.

All of a sudden it felt like he was trying to bite my hole. It was like he
was attacking my hole with his mouth and being kind of aggressive.  Now I
know why they call it "eating ass." It felt like he wanted to eat my hole.
But the feelings I was getting were infuckredible (I got that word from
Mike).  I realized I was pushing my ass up at his face, like I wanted him
to eat it for me.  His hand was over my mouth to try to keep me quiet.  His
other hand grabbed my hand away from my cock, so I started jackin with my
left hand.  I couldn't help it.  But then he had to use a hand to keep me
balanced in the upside-down position so he let go of my right hand and kept
his other hand over my mouth.

He was stabbing at my hole with his hot, wet tongue and it felt like it was
starting to go a little bit inside my ass.  My right foot cramped cause I
had my toes curled so tight, but I didn't care about the pain.  I wanted
his tongue to keep going, further; anywhere he could get it to go.  I
opened my eyes.  I wanted to see him eating my ass.  I wanted to see
Aiden's tongue in my hole.  But I couldn't see any of it, only feel it.
And it felt fucking awesome!

I felt him rubbing his hard cock against my bare back while he kept eating
my ass, and it was slick so I knew he was leaking lots of precum like he
does when he is super horny.  I didn't last very long.  When I started
cumming I groaned and bit the palm of his hand that was over my mouth.  My
12 year old boy cum sprayed down on my face and his hand.  It felt like my
hole clamped down on the tip of his tongue when I started cumming.  He
groaned into my ass and I felt the vibrations of his groan, then I felt his
hot cum load shooting out of his cock onto my back and running down to my
shoulders.  When he started cumming he raised his face from my ass and
threw his head back and I thought he was going to howl, but it was like the
noise he made was deep down in his throat and chest.  He was trying hard to
keep it quiet.

He kept sliding his hot slick cock against my back until he was drained,
then he slowly let me unfold my body so I was laying flat on my back again.
My back ached.  We were both breathing hard. He laid down next to me.  I
saw he had a lot of saliva around his mouth and chin.  It looked like
eating ass must be kinda messy.  I squeezed my ass hole muscle and it kind
of tingled.  I knew I wanted more of that feeling.

I turned my head and Aiden was laying there looking at me.  He said, "You
ok?"

I just said, "Ohhhh man!  Bro that was fucking amazing!"

Aiden kinda laughed, and said, "I'm glad you liked it.  I liked it too."

Then he said, "Will it be alright with you if we do that again sometime?"

I said, "Yeah.  Anytime you want.  How bout now?"  He laughed at me, but I
was serious.

I could tell Aiden was really happy I liked it.  He said, "Next time, if
you can control yourself and keep your hands away from your cock, we will
both last a lot longer and I bet I can make you cum just by eating your hot
ass."

"You mean without me stroking or you sucking me?

"Yeah.  I bet you'll pop a load without touching your cock.  Especially if
you liked it as much as I think you did."

I thought about seeing Trevor's big cock spraying his load on its own when
Mike was fucking his ass.

"Awesome! Can we do it tomorrow night?  Maybe we can come up here to your
room as soon as I get here tomorrow.  We can tell the other guys we gotta
study, or we're sick, or something like that."

Aiden said, "Nah, that wouldn't work, and you know it.  So we just gotta
wait until everyone goes to bed."

I asked him if this is what getting fucked feels like.

He said no, that's a totally different thing.  He said you get these really
great feelings when someone plays around with your asshole like we just
did.  He said the feelings when someone is playing around INSIDE your ass
are different, but you get use to them and really like those feelings too.
He said the best thing about two guys fucking is combining the feelings
outside and inside your ass.

He looked at my face while I was thinking about what he said.  He said,
"You'll see."  Then he added, "When you're ready."

Neither of us bothered to clean up.  He just pulled his sheet up over us
and I snuggled into his strong arms.  For a moment I thought about how this
ass sex stuff maybe isn't so bad after all, but I went to sleep pretty fast
and didn't finish wherever that thought was going to take me.

Aiden was right.  The next night I just couldn't keep my hands off my cock
and I stroked myself off again while he ate my ass.  But the following
night he stuck the corner of my pillow in my mouth and told me to bite down
and keep it there to keep me from moaning too loud.  That way he could hold
both my hands and keep them away from my cock.  It was awesome as the
feelings got stronger and just kept going on a lot longer than the first
two times.  It was like my cock was screaming to cum but I couldn't reach
it.  It was right above my face and I could see it throbbing and jerking
like it was trying to cum.  Then I knew for sure I was feeling the tip of
his tongue going in and out, just inside the rim of my hole; like my hole
was getting looser and letting him inside.  I was thinking in my head,
"Fuck me with your tongue. Fuck me Aiden!"  Then my balls exploded and my
cock spit my cum all over my face. I opened my mouth to groan and the
corner of the pillow fell away from my cheek and I shot some cum right into
my mouth.  It was fucking amazing.

Aiden let me unfold my legs and lay flat.  He straddled my body on his
knees and leaned down and licked my cum off my face and kissed me.  I must
have had some weird look on my face that made him laugh a little.  Then he
looked serious and kissed my lips real gentle and said, "Taylor, you are so
fucking amazing.  I really love you little bro."

I was thinking Aiden was the amazing one because of how he made my body
feel.  But I also knew I love him as a best friend.  But I didn't know how
to say all that so I think I just smiled at him.

Then I felt some of his hot precum drip onto my stomach.  I looked at his
hard cock and realized he didn't cum yet.  I said, "Can I suck your cock?
Please?"

Aiden just laid down on his back next to me.  I got on my knees between his
legs and started sucking his 7" cock.  But I was thinking about something
else too.  I stopped and pushed his legs up to his chest like he did to me.
Then I got down behind his butt and looked at his hole for the first time.
I got really close.  It wasn't scary or gross like I thought it would be.

I said, "Can I touch it?"

He chuckled a little as he said, "You can do anything you're ready to do,
Taylor.  I hope someday soon you'll be ready to fuck it with your awesome
cock."

That surprised me.  I knew he had been fucked by a guy before, but I never
thought about me fucking him.

But I was only brave enough that night to just run the tip of my finger
around his hole a few times.  I didn't really touch it.  But I knew I kind
of wanted to.  I sucked one of his big balls into my mouth and circled his
hole with my finger again.  Aiden moaned.  I liked finding ways to make him
moan.

I put his legs back down and went back to sucking his awesome cock and he
came pretty quick.  I kept his cock in my mouth and swallowed as fast as I
could but some came out around my lips and slid down his cock.  I licked up
all his cum and then we kissed and snuggled.  I fell asleep with his warm
hand on my ass again and my hard cock pressed against his hip.

After he rimmed me those first few times that week I couldn't stop thinking
about rimming and fucking.  Using mirrors at home, I looked really close
for the first time at my own ass.  I didn't know it looks round like the
ones I like to look at.  After looking at it naked, I put on different
pants and shorts to see what it looks like when I am dressed.  Then I got
naked again and got a hand mirror, laid down on my bed, and pulled my legs
back to my chest and held the mirror where I could see my hole really up
close.  I watched my hole twitch when I ran my finger over it real lightly.
Now I understood what Aiden had meant about it winking at him.  My cock got
hard.  I ended up jacking off while I ran my finger around my hole and
pressed on it.  It felt really, really awesome and made me cum harder than
usual.  I decided I really like my ass; the way it looks, and the way it
feels.

After that, I started wearing the pants that show off my ass more often
than the pants that didn't show it so well.  I also started using the tip
of my soapy finger to wash a little bit just inside my hole when I
showered.  I was thinking about how much I liked feeling Aiden's tongue
going there.

Now I'm going to tell all of you about something else crazy that I did, and
you guys will probably think I was a real fucked up kid back then.  I was
still afraid of the idea of a guy really fucking my ass with his cock,
mostly because I knew hard cocks on guys my age and older were all bigger
and harder than Aiden's tongue or the tip of my finger.  I was starting to
understand that getting fucked by a cock up your ass is something you have
to get use to, and after that you really start to like it.  So I was really
curious to find out what it feels like to have something hard up in my ass.
I figured that was the first step.  I wanted to find out what Aiden meant
about it feels different but good.  And I knew I had to start with
something smaller than a real cock.

One evening after school mom and I were eating dinner at home and I was
thinking about what getting fucked must feel like.  I was horny and my cock
was hard so she didn't have to remind me to put my napkin in my lap.  I had
it spread out to cover the front of my pants.  While I was trying hard to
pay attention to what mom was talking about, I noticed the tall white
candles on the cabinet in the corner of the kitchen.  They've been there
like all my life but now I was thinking about maybe I could stick one of
those up my ass and see what it feels like.  My cock jerked in my pants.

After I helped mom clean up the kitchen and wash the dishes, she went to
bed for three hours like she always does before she has to go to work all
night.  That's the time when I usually do my homework cause it's easier to
study at home than at the fraternity house, and getting my homework done
before I get there gives Aiden and me a little more time to do sex stuff
before we have to go to sleep.  But this night I got one of those candles
out of the box of extra candles in the hall closet, and took it to my room
and locked the door.

It had a plastic wrapper around it.  I took that off and put the wrapper in
my book bag to throw away somewhere else.  (I was learning how to be
sneaky, like Aiden.)  I looked at the candle really close, and ran my
fingers up and down it like it was a skinny cock.  The wax was very smooth.
My cock was hard again.  The candle was not very thick but maybe close to
about 10" long.  It was thinner at the tip with the little string you
light, and got a little thicker as it went, but it still wasn't as thick as
my cock at the bottom of the candle.  I decided the candle would work for
the first step.

So I started thinking about how to do it.  I decided I should cover the wax
with something.  I figured the best thing would be a real condom because I
knew they were made to be stuck up your ass so they must be safe for that.
I also knew I would need some lube, and I decided I should clean my ass out
first with one of those enemas Aiden told me about.  I didn't have
everything I needed, so I was disappointed I couldn't do it that night.
But stroked out a load just thinking about doing it soon.

When I got to the fraternity house a later that night I thought about
telling Aiden what I was going to do, but I would have been too embarrassed
if he laughed at me.  I took 2 condoms out of the box in Trevor's drawer in
our room; it's a big box so I knew he wouldn't notice them missing.  I
thought I would take Aiden's little bottle of lube but then I thought he
might notice it was gone and he would know I took it; it would be ok with
him but he would ask me what I was doing with it and I would be embarrassed
to say I'm sticking a candle up my butt.  So I wasn't sure what to do about
getting some lube and one of those enema bottles.

At school the next day I was nervous and excited all day.  I kept thinking
I was going to feel something in my ass when I got home, but I was also
nervous about having 2 condoms in my book bag so I kept it with me all day
to make sure none of my friends opened it and saw them.  I was also anxious
about getting the lube and enema.  During a study period used my laptop to
do some fast research about lube and the enema stuff and where to get them.
I found out there is no age law about buying the lube, like there is for
beer and other adult stuff.  I totally forgot I had made plans for a friend
to come home with me after school and we were going to study and then play
video games, so when he said something about it I told him I wasn't feeling
very well and we should plan it for another night.  He was cool with that.
I sent mom a text and said coach was having a meeting after school so I
would be a little late.  She replied ok.

I rode my bike to a small old drug store in a different part of town.  It's
not one of the big drug stores that everyone goes to nowadays and it is in
a quiet part of town where mostly old people live.  The little parking lot
only had two cars in it and the store looked almost empty.  I was glad to
see that cause I was really nervous about what I was going to do.  There
was an old lady working at the checkout when I went in.  I got 2 batteries
I needed for my wireless mouse, then I got one of those small green boxes
with the little enema bottle in it like Aiden showed me, and then I went to
the aisle with the condoms and lubes.  It was easy to see a small bottle of
the kind of lube I saw on the website, so I grabbed it as I walked by the
shelf and I didn't have to stop and look at things there and I don't think
anyone saw me.  But when I got back to the checkout there was a young guy
working at the counter.  He was maybe 17 or 18.  At least I was lucky there
was no one else around the checkout area.  I put my three things on the
counter and pulled two $10 bills out of my pocket while the guy was
scanning them. I looked up when he was putting my stuff in a small plastic
bag and he was smiling a little.

As he put the lube in the bag he looked around and said real quiet, "That's
good stuff. It's what I use too."

As he took my money and was giving me the change he could tell I was
nervous and it felt like my face was red.  He said, "Don't worry about
it. No one knows but me. You're ok."

I said thanks and started to leave, but he said wait a minute so I went
back to the counter.

He was still talking low, "I noticed you can see the box through that thin
white bag, let me fix that for you."

He took the bag and put it inside 2 more bags and tied the top of them shut
so nothing would fall out.  While he was doing that he said, "Dude, I've
gotta tell you, you've got bigger balls than I had at your age."

He was smiling and acting real casual and that made me start to relax a
little with him.  I smiled back at him and said, "Never done this
before. Thanks for being cool about it for me."

I finally looked up at him more and I saw that under his white shirt he was
wearing a tee that said something about lacrosse.  I said, "You play
lacrosse?"

He looked surprised, but then he saw I was looking at his chest and I guess
he remembered what he was wearing.  He said, "Yeah, I play at __________"
and he said the name of the private high school in our city.

I said, "Cool.  I play too."

Then another customer came to the counter and I started to leave but he
said, "Hey hang for a few man."

So I waited while he took care of that customer and then another one.  I
was looking at him more now and he was a real good looking guy.  He glanced
at me a few times and always smiled.

The older woman I saw at the checkout when I arrived came back to the
counter with a customer and got something from a shelf for her and started
scanning her stuff.  The cool guy that waited on me told her he was taking
a break for a couple minutes.  Then he walked outside the store with me.

He asked where I play lax.  I told him the name of my middle school and he
looked surprised.

He grinned and whispered, "How old are you bro?"

I whispered back, "12."

He grinned really big and said, "Bro you are too cool man.  I thought you
were like 14.  Shit I thought it was awesome that you had the guts to come
in and buy the lube, but I did man, I thought you were like 14 or
something."  He was still grinning at me, but he also looked around to be
sure no one could hear him.  And he added, "But 12?  Fuck!  Dude you've got
my total respect!"  He patted my shoulder and left his hand there.

I didn't know what to say.  I finally said, "I wasn't sure what to buy.  Is
this kind pretty good?  I never bought any before.  I saw it on the
internet."

He was talking quietly again and said, "Yeah, this is really good stuff. I
was serious; it's what I use."  He looked around again and then he said,
"Tell you what bro.  If you need anything else like this, come about this
time and I'm usually here.  I'll take care of you.  No need to be
embarrassed just between us man.  I mean we're lax bros.  Ok?"

That made me feel good and I really liked him.  I asked him what year he
was at his school.  He said he was a senior.  He asked about me and I told
him 7th grade.  He laughed and shook his head, then asked what position I
play and I said I am a middie and he said he is too.  So we talked about
lax for a little bit.

Then he said, "Hey, heres a better idea bro.  If you need anything like
this again, just text me or call me and I'll get it for you.  I can bring
it to you wherever you say except your house; I don't want to have to
explain anything to your parents." We both laughed about that.

I said, "That would be cool.  Thanks.  I was so scared coming in here."

He said, "Dude you sure didn't show it.  Well, not much anyway.  Hey let me
give you my number."

I pulled out my cell and opened the contacts list and gave it to him.  He
typed in his number and handed it back.  I hit save and looked at what he
typed.  It was his number and his name and the name of the store.  I said
"Thanks for being so cool, Rick. I will remember you even if you didn't put
in the name of the store."

He said, "That's my last name; my dad owns the store."

I was impressed.  So then I gave him a hit so he could catch my number too.
I know he didn't ask me for it but I had a good feeling that Rick was ok.
So his cell rang and he saved my number, then asked what name he should put
in for me.

I said, "My real name Taylor Thoresen." and I spelled my last name for him.

While he was entering my name Rick asked, "You any relation to Trevor
Thoresen?"

I was surprised and smiled real big and I said, "Yeah; that's my brother."

He told me his older brother is the same age as Trev and they hung out
together at lax camp one summer when they were in high school.  Rick was
there on the younger side of the camp, but he met Trevor too and said he
was great at the game and a really cool guy.  I remembered Trevor going to
that camp and I was unhappy that I couldn't go with him, but I was too
young.  He asked where Trev went to college and told me his brother was a
junior at a big university far away.  I said I would tell Trevor that I met
him and what his brother was doing now.

Rick laughed and whispered, "So you're going to tell Trev that I sold you
some dick lube?"

I thought about it and started laughing with him.  "I guess I better not
tell him that way.  But I'll make something up and send it to you so we
have the same story."  Rick nodded his head and said ok.  I was anxious to
ask Trevor if he remembered Rick.  Rick said he was 13 when they were at
the camp and our older brothers were 16.

Rick had to get back to work.  He said it was nice meeting me and it would
be great to see Trev again sometime.  I was a lot later than I told mom I
would be so I had to call her as I rode home.  I was feeling great about
making a new friend with a hot guy who was also a lax bro, and I almost
forgot about my big plans for the night.  But during dinner and while we
cleaned up I was thinking more about fucking myself with the candle than
about Rick.

When mom went to bed I waited until I figured she was asleep, then I went
to my bathroom with the enema and did like it said on the instructions.  It
felt kinda weird but not in a bad way, and it sure felt like it cleaned me
out.  I put the empty bottle and box back in the store bag and went to my
room and locked the door.  I got the candle from behind my desk.  I cut off
that string thing on the tip of it.  I opened the condom wrapper and
unrolled it onto the candle.  It was really loose because the candle was so
thin, but I figured it would work ok.  I measured 6 inches from the tip and
I wrapped a rubber band around the candle at that point to hold the condom
on it and so I would know when I had 6" inside me.  I kind of doubted that
I would get that far.  I got naked and started to lay on my bed, but I
thought it squeaked too much so I laid on the floor.  I tried to figure out
the best position to do this and finally decided it would work best if I
lay flat on my back and pull my legs up to my chest.  At first I put way
too much lube on the condom covered candle and had to use 3 Kleenexes to
wipe it off.  There was still enough on it to make it super slick.  I
figured that would work.  I got in position on the floor and reached back
to find my hole with one of my fingers that was slick from the lube.  I
rubbed my finger over my hole and got it slick too.  It felt really good
and I almost moaned.  I got my finger a little slicker and did it again.
It was almost as good as Aiden's tongue.  I pushed a little more and more
on my hole and the tip of my finger went inside.  My hole was tight and
inside it was really warm.  There was no pain to any of this so far; it all
felt great and my cock was really hard.

After I poked myself with the tip of my finger several times, I picked up
the candle.  The pointed tip slipped in pretty easy.  I knew I should
probably do this slowly.  I slid in about a half inch to an inch and moved
it around a little.  It felt weird but didn't hurt.  I moved that little
bit in and out several times and rotated it a little.  Very slowly I pushed
about another inch inside my hole and did the same thing with it.  I added
some more and noticed that I could feel just a tiny bit of pain around my
hole cause it was getting stretched wider but it didn't seriously hurt.  I
moved it around and in and out.  Aiden was right about it feeling
different.  But it didn't really feel good or bad.  Just different.  I
pushed in a little more and did the same thing.  I just kind of kept it
there for a while to get use to the feeling.  My cock was still hard and I
stroked it a few times with my left hand.  I squeezed my ass on the candle
and felt a little more pain when I did that, but it still wasn't like a
killer pain.  I moved it around a little more and then pushed more in.  Now
there was enough inside me to start feeling it more when I slid it in and
out.  Sometimes it slipped all the way out, but I carefully slid it back
in.  I was surprised when I slid in a little more and I felt the rubber
band with my fingers.  I knew I had 6" of a hard thing in my ass.  My gut
felt full, and I think it wanted to automatically push it out, but I held
it in there and started moving it in and out and started stroking my cock
with my left hand again.  I kind of rotated it a little and bumped
something inside my ass that sent a feeling up my spine to my brain.  I
wondered what that was.  I moved it around again and did it again.  It made
me cock jerk too.  I started jacking my cock and moving the candle to
sometimes hit that spot.  It felt really weird, but not bad.  I figured
this must be what Aiden meant.  Maybe you get use to this weird feeling and
like it.

I thought about feeling Aiden really fucking me with his cock.  I slid the
candle about another inch into my ass.  I felt the rubber band pass my
hole.  I was thinking about Aiden's 7" cock.  It would be hitting about
where the tip of the candle was now, but it would be a lot thicker and that
painful feeling when my hole was stretched wider might be a little
stronger.  I was bumping that spot inside my ass more often with the
candle.  I kept stroking with my left hand and moving the candle with my
right.  When I started cumming I definitely felt my asshole squeezing on
the candle each time my cock throbbed and shot a little more of my boy cum
onto my stomach.  My hole hurt a little bit when it squeezed like that.

While I cleaned the cum off my stomach and wiped the extra lube from around
my hole, I was thinking this wasn't so bad.  It wasn't so gross as I
thought, and didn't hurt very much.  There was something inside there that
I kind of liked to feel get bumped.  I guessed maybe it was the prostraight
thing I saw mentioned in some stories.  I decided I would google that
later.  While I was moving around, cleaning things up and hiding the
candle, lube, and extra condom, it was like I could still feel it inside my
ass.  I could definitely tell something had been in there.  I wondered how
long this feeling lasted.  I stuck the tip of my finger in my hole again
and realized I must still have lube in me.  I wondered what would happen if
Aiden starts to eat my ass and stick his tongue a little bit inside there.

On the way to the fraternity house I decided to tell Aiden not to play with
my ass that night cause I was nervous about it again.  When I really told
him that, he looked really disappointed and that made me feel pretty bad.
I guessed he thought I was making progress but now I was going backwards
maybe.  I gave him my best efforts to deep throat him that night because I
felt guilty.

Before I left the fraternity house for school the next morning, I took 3
more of Trevor's condoms. After school I stopped at one of the big drug
stores on the way home and bought a box that had 3 of the enema bottles in
it.  I told the lady at the checkout that my grandma asked me to get them
for her.  She smiled and said that's ok, don't think anything of it.

I fucked myself with the candle again while I jacked off.  When it was
about time to go to bed with Aiden that night I asked him if I could try
one of those enema things to see what it's like to clean myself out like he
told me about.  He looked really happy cause I wanted to try that so he got
one of the bottles and showed me the instructions again.  I went to the
handicap stall in the bathroom, locked the door and did it.  When I got
back to the room Aiden wanted to know if I was ok and if I had questions
about it.  He didn't hide his hard cock in his shorts from me.  I told him
it went ok and was pretty easy to do.  While he was eating my ass that
night he asked if he could put his finger in my ass and I let him.  I liked
it a lot better than a candle.  I also felt his tongue go a little further
into me.  I liked that too.  I didn't think about it being gross.

I was noticing how huge the condoms were that I took from Trevor's drawer.
I put one on my cock and it was really loose.  So I researched on the web
and found information about condoms coming in different sizes.  Trev's was
like the biggest size.  I guess most guys like Aiden would use the medium
size and I would probably need to smallest for a while until my cock grew
more.  (I use the medium size now in case you want to know.  LOL Someday
I'll fit in Trevor's condoms.)

If I was going to keep fucking myself every night with the candle I was
going to need a lot more condoms and enemas.  Trevor would probably start
noticing the missing condoms if I took that many.  And I knew I couldn't
have a case of enemas shipped to my house from the internet.  I researched
enemas and decided I could reuse the little bottle 2 or 3 times if I washed
it really good and sterilized it before refilling it with just warm water.
For rinsing the lube out I would use one of Aiden's enemas since he always
wanted to play with my ass and he said he would provide those supplies.
LOL Well, I didn't really end up fucking myself with the candle every
night, but usually about 3 times a week.  And I realized it was better if I
didn't fuck myself on the nights I slept with Aiden, just on the nights I
was going to sleep in Trevor's room, so I didn't need to worry about
cleaning out the lube so Aiden wouldn't notice it.  But I still let Aiden
finger fuck my ass sometimes.  He only used about half his finger.  I was
starting to want him to use more but I didn't tell him that.

I was really nervous about it but I texted Rick, " hi bro.  can you get me
condoms?"

He replied, "i was expecting this.  lol sure. no prob.  what & how many?"

I sent back, "how much is a 12 pk of regular trojans at your store?"

Rick replied, "12!  damn bro!  lol i can get them for you at our cost. $4"

I said, "cool. thks rick. pls get me 2 of those; 24"

He obviously thought it was pretty funny that a 12 year old guy was buying
24 condoms.  When I left school the next day Rick was waiting in the
parking lot of a store that I went by everyday on my way home.  He gave me
the package and I gave him the $8.  He laughed and said this was kinda like
doing a drug deal.  He had to tell me he was joking and he doesn't do
drugs.  We talked a few minutes but I didn't want to be later than usual or
mom would ask questions, and Rick had to get to work.  Riding home I was
glad Rick never asked me about the lube, enema, and condoms.  I started
thinking it might really seem a little weird to him.  I hoped not.

I started thinking I needed to fuck myself with something thicker so it was
more like a real cock.  It seemed like the pain I felt so far was from
stretching my hole open wider, so using something thicker would probably
hurt more than the thin candle did.  What did I have that was thicker,
long, straight, and I wouldn't have to explain why it was in my room?  I
looked over in the corner of my room where I had four lacrosse sticks.  I
started laughing at the crazy idea of fucking myself with one of my sticks.
But yeah; I did it.

The butt end of the shaft has a big rubber stop on it and I knew that would
never fit up my ass, so I took the head off one of the sticks I don't use
anymore and figured out how to do it.  The shaft is not really round; it's
an octagonal shape so it has ridges so your hand doesn't slip around on it.
The head attaches to the top of the hollow shaft with a screw.  I got a
candle that was a little thicker than the one I'd been using and I pushed
it into the open end of the shaft. I used a knife to round and smooth off
the candle and make it kind of pointed.  It almost looked like a cockhead
on the shaft and stuck out about an inch and a half before the metal shaft
started.  I made sure there were no sharp edges anywhere.

At first, I used the candle as usual and I realized I was getting use to
feeling it up my ass while I jacked off and I was kind of liking it.  After
I used it to open myself up and make sure there was some lube inside me, I
put a condom on my lax stick dildo, put the rubber band around it at 7",
and started slowly working it up my ass.  Now I discovered more pain.  The
head wasn't tapered so small as the first candle.  It was more rounded with
just a little taper, so it got fatter faster.  And it got a lot thicker
than the first candle.  Stretching my hole open wider hurt, but I was
really slow with it and I knew I could deal with it.  I only got about 5"
in me the first time.  I think I was worried about doing too much.  When I
twisted it around I felt the ridges on the octagonal shaft rubbing on the
edge of my asshole as it turned, and that made my cock jerk a little.
After I came with my new toy and was cleaning up and putting things away,
the feeling in my ass was way different and lasted longer.  There was some
pain if it squeezed my ass muscle.  I knew putting thicker things up my ass
would take more getting use to.  I hoped the pain wouldn't be too much
worse than this.  But whenever I thought I better not do more, I remembered
how Trev's huge cock slides in and out of Mike's ass and how much they both
love it.  I knew I could do whatever Trevor and Mike do and I would
eventually like it too.

Life seemed a little tougher at school, at the fraternity house, and even
at home.  I was almost always thinking about sex. I was like mega horny a
lot because I was just thinking all the time about the stuff Aiden and I
did to each other and thinking about what I would do to him next time I
slept in his room.  Also I kept remembering what I saw Trev and Mike do
together.  And I couldn't stop thinking about the feeling in my ass when I
was fucking myself with my lacrosse stick, and for a while after I stopped.
I was getting hard a lot at school and at home and hanging around the
fraternity house.

One Saturday in November Aiden was going away on a date with the shy girl
and Trev had a date he wanted to fuck after the party in our room.  I told
Trevor mom didn't have to work that night so I was going home and would
spend the night there with mom.  (yeah, I lied) I knew he and mom didn't
check with each other about stuff very often so I was counting on neither
of them catching me about this.  It worked.  I spent the night at our house
by myself, sleeping in my own bed.  And I fucked myself and jacked off
three times that night.

I got back to the fraternity house on Sunday night and when I came in the
back door I saw Colin in the tv room watching a basketball game. Colin
always looks really sexy to me.  No one else was in the room so I went in.
He smiled at me and said "Hey whats up TJ?  Sit."  And he smacked the spot
next to him on the couch, so I sat there and dropped my duffle and book bag
on the floor between my feet.  I sat down closer to him than I meant to
cause our thighs and shoulders were touching.  Guys don't like to touch
other guys like that.  But secretly I liked Colin a lot and I liked
touching him.  I thought he would move away or push me away and make a joke
about it but he didn't do any thing and didn't say anything either.  So we
just stayed that way.  His body felt warm.

The game on tv wasn't very interesting to him or me so we just talked about
normal stuff like our classes.  I asked how the party was Saturday night
and he said he didn't go.  He said Ashley went home for the weekend so he
just hung out with another friend someplace else.  He asked why I didn't go
to the party.  I said I went home and mom didn't have to work so I stayed
there.  He grinned at me and said, "So you spent the night jacking off?"

He was kidding me like some of the juniors and seniors in the fraternity
do.  The guys about Trevor's age are pretty good friends with me and they
like to tease me to see if they can make me feel embarrassed.  A lot of
times the joke is something about sex.

I tried to keep a straight face and said, "Yeah, I finally had to stop
after shooting six big loads cause my wrist started cramping. You shoulda
been there to blow me Colin. I coulda hit it for number 7 with your lips
around my cock."  I wasn't really joking about wishing he would suck my
cock but I knew he would think I was.

Colin was trying not to laugh or smile and he said, "Fuck! I'm so sorry I
couldn't be there to help you out little bro.  Make sure you call me next
time."  Then he exploded with a loud laugh and hugged me close to him with
his strong arm around my shoulders and rubbed my head and messed up my hair
with his other hand.  He said, "You little horn dog! Gonna be just like the
big guy!"

He meant like my brother Trevor. I was proud of his compliment.  Colin
knows I like it when he says I'm like Trev.

Colin's cell rang and he let go of me to pull it out of his pocket.  He
looked at it and rolled his eyes and said, "She's back."  I knew he meant
his girlfriend, Ashley.  He smacked me on the head as he stood up.  They
started talking and he walked into the other room.

I was gonna pick up my stuff and go upstairs to our room, but I saw a piece
of paper that musta fell out of Colin's pocket when he pulled out his cell.
I looked at it and it was a receipt from the Scotia Motel.  The motel is
really old and mom said one time it is a cheap little dump and she would
never recommend it to anyone.  It's in the village on the north side of the
river, about 4 miles away.  There are lots of nicer hotels in town and
closer to the college.  I wondered who stayed there and why Colin had the
receipt.  Then I read what was on it.  It had Colin's name in the blank for
guest name.  It showed he checked in at 3:30 pm Saturday and checked out at
11:30 am Sunday (that day).  It said there were 2 people. It said he paid
$84 cash. And it said Room # 6, king bed.  So I knew he must have spent the
night there with the friend he was hanging out with when Ashley was away.
I thought that was really weird.

Colin didn't go very far away, he was pacing around as he talked with
Ashley and when he came back in the tv room he saw what I was looking
at. He smiled held out his hand and I gave it to him.  He said "Thanks"
with his lips but not out loud so Ashley would hear him.  He kept talking
on his cell but I saw when he walked past the trash can he wadded up the
paper and threw it away.

While he was talking with Ashley I saw Colin grab the front of his pants a
couple times and he rubbed or adjusted his cock and balls for just a
moment.  Not like he was really playing with hisself, but just kinda like
guys do sometimes.  I think he knew I saw him do it the first time, and
then the second time I watched him do it I looked up from his pants and he
was looking right at me.  He just smiled and kept talking to his
girlfriend.  It didn't sound like they were talking about sex stuff but I
wondered if Colin was getting horny.

I changed the channel on the tv a few times but there wasn't anything good
to watch.  I thought again about going up to our room but I liked Colin a
lot and since he wasn't going upstairs to his room to talk with Ashley I
wanted to hang out with him more so I just acted like I was watching tv.

They got done talking and he put the cell back in his pants pocket.  I
watched his hands do that and the right hand kinda rubbed across his junk
bump again, and I was thinking about how his cock and balls made a bigger
bulge in his pants than his cell.  I was thinking some guys cell phone is
bigger than their cocks and I almost laughed about that idea.  I was glad
Colin wasn't one of those guys.  I thought about seeing him naked in the
shower.  He's really a sexy guy.  I felt my cock starting to get hard.

"Hey! Earth to TJ."  Colin's loud voice made me jump a little. I realized I
was like daydreaming and thinking about his cock and I guess I had still
been just staring at the front of his pants since he put his cell phone
away while I was thinking these things about his cock.  He was standing
right in front of me.  I looked up at his face and he had one of those
smirk kind of smiles on his face. I was really embarrassed he caught me
just staring at his crotch.

"You see anything good TJ?"  he asked and sat down next to me... touching
like we were before. I could feel my face was really hot and I knew it was
red.  Then he said, "I mean did you see anything good on tv?"

I was holding my breath and trying to think about what to say until he said
he meant on tv.  Then I finally said, "Nah, just the usual shit. Nothing to
get excited about."

He laughed really hard and he looked from my face right down to my lap and
I realized it was easy for him to see I was hard.  He said "Really?  Looks
like something got you excited.  What caused that?"

I was really embarrassed and I pulled my book bag up from the floor to hide
it.  He was smiling and he kind of nudged my shoulder with his and said,
"It's ok TJ.  Happens to all of us.  I wont say anything around the other
guys."

I said "Thanks. I don't know what caused it. Happens a lot, with no good
reason sometimes."

We talked a little while longer, then we went upstairs together.  As he
followed me up the back stairs he said real quietly, "In case none of them
have told you TJ, Ashley says all the girls like your tight little ass."

That made me think maybe he was looking at my ass as he followed me up the
stairs.  I remembered I was wearing a pair of pants that shows it pretty
well.  I laughed like I thought what he said about the girls as a joke.

We got to his room and I stood in his doorway and talked a little more. He
slowly took his shirt off while he was watching me.  He knew I was checking
out his chest and abs.  But I couldn't help it.  When I moved the book bag
in front of my pants, I think he knew my cock was hard again.  He slowly
rubbed his thumb across his right pec and nipple.  I looked up and he was
watching me watch him.  I was confused about what I was feeling and things
just seemed kind of weird between us, and he was kind of looking at me in a
weird way.  I never felt that way with Colin before.  We were always chill
with each other but this was feeling really weird.

I said I better go get ready for bed too, and told him goodnight, then I
turned to go down the hall to the room I share with my brother.  But I
thought of something else I was going to ask Colin and headed back to his
room.  He didn't know I was coming back and just before I got to his door
he closed it.  I was about ready to knock on it but I heard him click the
lock and I heard him kind of mutter to himself on the other side of the
door, "Ohmyfuckinggod, TJ." There was a little pause and then I heard him
say to himself, "Aiden you sonofabitch."  That surprised and worried me.  I
must have done something wrong.  I wondered if he was mad at me.  I
wondered why he would be mad at Aiden too.  I turned back around and went
to my room.

Trev and I talked as we got ready for bed.  After we were in bed I couldn't
stop thinking about Colin.  After I thought my brother was asleep and
figured all the other guys were up in their rooms and probably asleep too,
I started to get up off my mattress.  Trevor asked if I was ok. I told him
I had to go to the bathroom.  But I went back downstairs and got that motel
receipt from the trash.  I wasn't sure why I wanted it, but something about
it didn't make sense and I was curious to figure out what it was.  I didn't
see anyone else, but when I was headed back to my brother's room I thought
I heard a slight moan as I walked by Colin's room.  I hoped he was ok.

I had been starting to think about doing sex stuff with more guys besides
Aiden.  I really liked doing things with Aiden, and I knew he was safe, but
I was curious about hooking up with other guys.  Who would want to do stuff
with me?  How could I know that?  Would sex be different with other guys?
There were a LOT of hot guys around; some at my school, and a lot at the
college.  I thought about Colin and Rick.  I certainly thought about Mike
and my big brother.  But I didn't seriously think any of them would be into
it with me, so I wanted to know how to figure out which guys would be ok
with it.  I knew enough to not just go up to a hot guy I liked and say I
wanna suck your cock. But otherwise I was clueless about this.

I asked Aiden about how to know if another guy wants to do sex stuff with
you.  He said he wondered when I'd get around to this.  He wanted to know
if I was serious about wanting to do sex with other guys, or if I was just
fantasizing about guys I saw, or if I was just curious.  I said maybe yes
to all three of those.  He laughed and was cool about it.  He said it was
ok and normal to start thinking about this stuff.

Aiden said there is a look that I will learn.  A way that a guy looks at
you, that sometimes means they are sexually interested in you.  He said
I've probably seen the look a lot because a lot of guys would want me.  He
said he knows he's seen guys look at me that way.  But he said they could
probably tell I just didn't know what it was all about, and my innocence
probably just made them want me more.

He tried to describe the look to me.  But I was frustrated because it
wasn't easy to understand.  He said it will take time, but I'll learn it.
He said but then you have to know what to do if you see the look, and
you're interested in the other guy too.  He said you also need to know what
to do if you are NOT interested in the other guy.  And he said "the look"
is also not a guarantee they will really do something with you; so you have
to be really careful.  This stuff was sounding very complicated.  He just
smiled and said, "You're a very bright guy Taylor, and you're really good
with all kinds of people.  You'll get this figured out faster than any
other 12 year old on earth.  Don't worry about it."

A couple nights later, after he rimmed me and then we 69ed and swallowed
each other's load while he was fingering my ass a little, Aiden wanted to
know how serious I was about starting to do sex with other guys.  He asked
if he wasn't keeping me satisfied (it was a joke).  He said he understood
my curiosity and desire to experience sex with others.  He said when I
started getting experience with more guys I would learn a lot more about
sex and about what I like, and I would also improve my sex skills and learn
to do more things with a partner.  All that sounded good to me.

He talked to me about being really careful so I didn't do anything to get
myself hurt, and about safe sex.

I hugged him and kissed him and told him thanks for being my friend.  I
also promised him I would not be ready to try sex with anyone else until
after I did that last really big step with him first.  That made him really
happy and we hugged and kissed some more and then fell asleep together.

The next morning when Aiden was gone to shower and I was getting my shit
together to go to school, I saw Aiden was using a take-out menu from a
Chinese restaurant for a bookmark.  It got my attention because mom and I
ate at that place once and we agreed it was terrible.  It wasn't anywhere
near campus, so I wondered why Aiden went there.  I had my coat on and was
ready to leave when he came back in the room, wearing clean underwear and
drying his hair.  I stopped in the doorway and asked how he liked that
restaurant.  He said he didn't, but it was handy and they were hungry.  He
said he had dinner there with a friend last weekend.

When I was almost to school I remembered that Chinese restaurant is right
next to the motel where Colin stayed last weekend.  That seemed like a
really weird coincidence.  As my first class started, I was thinking it
would have been funny if Aiden and Colin ran into each other up there.  I
wondered if I should tell them they were right next door to each other last
Saturday night when they both skipped the fraternity party.  But then I had
to focus on my class, and the sexy guy sitting in front of me.

Well, I'm going to stop here because some of you said hurry up and post
more.  LOL So, I hope this is ok.  I really like writing about this stuff
but I know some of it isn't really sexy stuff to some of you.  Sorry.  I
also know some of it is really really weird.  (Like sticking a candle and
lax stick up my butt to see what it feels like.  Yeah.  Pretty sick; no?)

You can email me if you want to.  taylorthoresen@gmail.com

Later guys.

Taylor