Date: Tue, 6 Sep 2011 13:20:47 -0700 (PDT)
From: B Stories <bstories2011@yahoo.com>
Subject: Unconventional Therapy ch. 01

"An Unconventional Therapy"

by bstories2011

WARNING! This story contains explicit sex between a man and a boy. Do not
read it if it is illegal for you to do so, or if this material offends you.
This story is entirely fictional. The characters in it are not real. The
acts depicted in this story are not condoned by the author. Do not use this
story as a guide for how to behave in real life. Always follow the law and
use your own judgement. FURTHERMORE, I want to emphasize that the
psychological theories and therapy suggested in this story are entirely
fictional and not based on any scientific evidence. The views of the
characters do not represent the views of the author, and the advice of the
psychologist in the story should NOT be taken as real advice for how to
deal with your own desires.

All rights reserved.

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Feedback, suggestions and constructive criticism are all welcome and will
encourage me to keep writing and post more stories. Flames will be ignored.

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Characters: Gordon, a 35-year-old father; Logan, his 10-year-old son;
Dr. Perkins, a psychologist with unconventional views on incest and
pedophilia.

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INTRODUCTION

Gordon had always been attracted to boys. His desire went as far back as he
could remember, even if he hadn't always been consciously aware of it. When
he hit puberty, he thoughts for a while that he was gay, because all he
could think about were the beautiful bodies of his male friends. But as he
got older, the boys whose bodies he admired stayed the same age, or got
even younger. And if he hadn't been too comfortable with the thought that
he might be gay, the thought that he might be a pervert who lusted after
little boys filled him with genuine horror. So as much as was humanly
possible, he brushed those feelings aside and tried to pretend they didn't
exist.

In his late teens, he started dating girls. He was thankful that this came
rather effortlessly to him. He found women attractive enough and in spite
of his predilection for young boys he was able to have relatively normal
relations with females of his own age. Eventually he even fell in love with
someone and got married. Gordon didn't feel like he was faking his way
through marriage. The affection between him and his wife was genuine, and
he was happy. Once in a while the sight of a young male body would give him
a little thrill, but he didn't dwell on it. His secret desire was bottled
up inside of him so deep he had almost forgotten about it.

Then his wife got pregnant and their son Logan was born.

At first, Gordon didn't this his son's birth would change anything. He was
overwhelmed with love for Logan, but it was nothing more than the normal
love that a father feels for his son. Logan was a beautiful baby, full of
life and potential. Gordon wanted to devote his entire existence to
ensuring his son's happiness. The thought of him becoming sexually
attracted to his son barely even registered as a possibility.

But Logan was growing up. His little body was developing. And in spite of
himself, Gordon was paying attention and starting to look at his son
differently. He was fascinated by the gradual transition from toddler to
little boy, as Logan's baby fat was replaced by more defined muscles. As he
got taller, his waistline was getting proportionately thinner, making his
cute bubble butt pop out. His limbs were becoming slender and his stomach
showed hints of the muscles that would later develop and become more
pronounced. In short, Logan was turning into a sexy young boy. To top it
all off, Logan also had a dark hazel eyes and a smile that could melt
anybody's heart.

Gordon's true feelings were becoming impossible to repress. By the time
Logan was six years old, Gordon could no longer pretend that he wasn't
attracted to his beautiful young son. And yet somehow he was still able to
think of this attraction as innocent. He enjoyed looking at his boy's body,
but he didn't fantasize about doing anything sexual with him and that made
it okay. So what if he enjoyed looking at his son? He loved him and would
never do anything to hurt him. He was a good father.

For years Gordon was able to carry on like this. He saw so many broken
families and unhappy couples around him, but he had a perfect family and he
felt blessed.

When Logan was eight years old, Gordon's wife got pregnant again. It wasn't
planned, but they were both happy with this turn of event. Gordon had never
been attracted to little girls, so he was was almost relieved when he found
out that his second child would be a daughter. Little did he know that his
daughter's birth would have an unexpected side effect that would actually
aggravate his problem with his secret desires.

Gordon remembered that after his son was born, he and his wife didn't have
much time for sex. They were too stressed out and exhausted from having to
take care of a newborn. But as their life settled into a new routine, their
sex life soon returned to normal. When their daughter was born, it
didn't. They continued to have sex once in a while, but it was like his
wife's sex drive never recovered.

This didn't really cause too much tension between them. Gordon found that
he didn't mind only having sex with his wife once a week, sometimes even
less frequently. His penis did demand some extra attention, but he was able
to take care of it by getting back into masturbation, something he hadn't
done on a regular basis since getting married.

Gordon was almost surprised by how much he enjoyed jerking off. Sex with
his wife was still good, even if it was only occasional. It was intimate
and affectionate and tender. But when he was alone with his cock, he could
let his imagination run wild and it resulted in some very powerful orgasms.

At first he tried to focus his jerk-off fantasies on other women, or
sometimes men, sometimes while looking at porn for inspiration. But the
more he let his mind wander, the more it drifted toward boys. For the first
time since he'd been a teenager, he started to think about young boys while
jerking, and once the floodgates were open the fantasies just kept pouring
in.

He made efforts not to include his son in his fantasies, focusing instead
on the memory of a random boy who'd caught his eye on the street or a cute
actor he'd seen on TV or even pictures of boys modelling underwear in the
flyers. These were all fine and provided him with many great orgasms, but
it was difficult to ignore the living, breathing, sexy young boy that he
spent so much of his time with. Inevitably, Gordon started to imagine his
son's mouth around his cock, or playing with is little penis until it got
hard, teaching him about masturbation, introducing him to anal play, etc.

His sexual fantasies about his son made him feel incredibly guilty. By the
time Logan turned 10, Gordon felt like was on a downward spiral of
perversion, guilt, anxiety and depression. His lust for his son just kept
getting stronger and stronger, and he'd gotten to a point where he was
becoming afraid of what he might do.

It was at this point that he decided to seek professional help.

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CHAPTER ONE: First session with Dr. Perkins

After Gordon had made up his mind to go see a psychologist, he did some
research online to find one in his area that was qualified to handle his
case. Thankfully he had enough disposable income to afford the expense and
his work schedule was flexible enough for him to be able to make it to the
appointments without his wife ever suspecting anything.

He did some research online and finally settled on someone named
Dr. Perkins, whose website said that he specialized, among other things, in
sexual deviancy, incest and pedophilia. There were enough other items on
the list of the doctor's areas of expertise to put Gordon's mind at ease
about people automatically assuming he was a pedophile if they saw him walk
into the clinic. When he booked the appointment, he simply cited
"depression" as the reason for which he was seeking help.

At their first meeting, Dr. Perkins asked a lot of general questions about
his childhood, his career, whether there was a history of mental illness in
his family, etc. Gordon wasn't really revealing anything out of the
ordinary, so finally Dr. Perkins asked if there was a more precise reason
why he was there, any specific issue that he wanted to explore.

"Well," Gordon started, "there is one thing. I've always had, um, certain
urges that you might consider unnatural. I've never acted upon them, but
lately they've been causing me a lot of stress."

"What type of urges do you mean," asked Dr. Perkins. "Be as specific as you
can, Gordon. I'm here to help you, not judge you."

"Well, sexual urges," Gordon answered. "Toward, um, children. Boys,
actually. I've never molested anyone. They're just fantasies."

"You don't have to convince me of your innocence, Gordon. As I said, I'm
hear to help you. What you tell me is strictly confidential. I'm not going
to report you to the police or punish you or think any less of you. I deal
with similar cases all the time. I'm sure that I can help you, but the
first step is for you to learn to trust me and to be completely honest with
me. How long have you been aware of those desires?"

"Since I was a teenager, at least. It seems like it's always been a part of
me."

"And you've never had any sexual contact with children?"

"No. Well, not since I was a boy myself. You know, I experimented with
other boys my age, like a lot of kids do. Nothing serious. Just comparing
and a little bit of touching. The other boys quickly lost interest in that
sort of thing, but I didn't. I still think sometimes about the boys I
played with as a child, and I wish I could go back in time and do more
things with them."

"What you're describing is not uncommon, Gordon. A lot of men who have
similar urges to yours become fixated on early sexual experiences. One way
to overcome them is to replace them with new experiences. How are your
relations with your wife? Would you say you have a healthy and satisfactory
sex life?"

"Well, it's healthy, I guess. But the past few years, we don't have sex as
much as we used to. Not since the birth of our daughter two years
ago. That's when I started to fantasize more about boys."

"I see. And in addition to your daughter, you have a young son, too, is
that correct?"

Gordon's heart started racing at the mention of his son. This was the main
reason he was here, but he wasn't sure he was ready to say it out loud, to
admit that he was lusting after his son. It made him feel so ashamed and
dirty. At the same time, he felt surprisingly comfortable with
Dr. Perkins. Something about his tone of voice and line of questioning
reassured him. Dr. Perkins had accepted his initial confession as though it
was completely normal. There was no hint of disgust or judgement in his
voice.

"Yes," Gordon said finally, "I have a 10-year-old son."

"And are you sexually attracted to him?"

Gordon took a deep breath, then he said, "Yes." There was a rush of
adrenaline as he realized what he had just confessed, followed but a
feeling of relief, like a burden had been lifted off his shoulders. For the
first time ever, his secret was no longer his alone. He had someone to talk
to. He wasn't even an hour into his first session and he already felt like
therapy was working!

Dr. Perkins's next question took him by surprise.

"Could you describe him to me?"

"You mean, like a physical description?"

"Yes, What does your son look like? What it is about him that you find
arousing."

Confessing his desire had been a relief, but having to describe it in
detail was not something he'd expected. The feeling of unease returned.

"Well, he's got brown hair. It's a little bit shaggy but not too long. I
don't like long hair on boys. Somehow it doesn't seem, um, boyish. He has
really intense and serious-looking hazel eyes. It's like you can tell how
intelligent he is just by looking at his eyes. But at the same time he has
a wonderful smile."

"What about his body? Can you describe it?"

"Um, he's about average height for his age. He's thin, but not overly
skinny. Like, you can see his developing muscles, but you can also see his
ribs. He looks healthy and strong and youthful."

"He sounds like a very attractive boy. Do you often see your son naked?"

"Yes, I suppose. Like any father would. He's old enough to wash and dress
himself, but we're not overly modest about nudity in our household. I see
him naked once in a while."

"Can you describe his genitals?"

Gordon hesitated. "Seriously?"

"Yes, of course. Go on."

"Well, it's very small. I'm assuming normal size for his age. He's
uncircumcised, so his extra foreskin kind of bunches up at the tip."

"Have you ever seen it hard?"

"No... Actually, I have, but he was only a baby, then. My wife was changing
him and she was surprised when she saw that he had an erection. She pointed
it out to me. We didn't even know babies could get hard. We thought it was
funny. There wasn't anything sexual about it for us."

"You weren't attracted to your son when he was a baby?"

"No. I only started to feel that way when he was about five or six."

"And you've never seen him hard since then?"

"No, I haven't."

"But you've thought about it? You've fantasized about what it would look
like hard?"

"Yes, I suppose I have."

Dr. Perkins looked at the clock on the wall and said, "Gordon, I'm afraid
we've run out of time for this session." He looked at his appointment
book. "If this time is good for you, I'm going to schedule you for weekly
meetings and we'll continue to explore this issue together. Is that all
right with you?"

The sudden shift in the discussion made Gordon feel disoriented. He could
hardly believe everything he had just admitted to this man, much less that
he would return here every week and continue talking about it. He realized
that he'd gotten hard while he was describing his son's body, and he now
shifted uncomfortably in his chair, trying to hide it.

"Uh, yeah, this time's good for me."

"Excellent. Next time, I'd like you to describe your fantasies about your
son to me in as much detail as possible. This is a very important part of
the therapy. Before we can help you figure out what to do about those
desires, we have to understand them. It's also why I asked you to describe
him physically. I wasn't interested in what your son looks like, but in how
you perceive him. It was also a way to get you accustomed to talking about
him that way. Next time, you're going to have to be very explicit about
your fantasies, so you should prepare for that."

"Okay. I'll, uh... I'll do my best."

"Great. Then I'll see you next week."

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