Date: Wed, 18 Jul 2018 21:36:48 +0100
From: Mark Lin <parabolic.spectrum@gmail.com>
Subject: White Smiles and Burning Youth, Chapter 5

Hello dear reader. After a little bit of a break, a new chapter is here!
After a dramatic end last chapter, this one makes for an easier reading. We
are taking a little bit of a break from both dad and Matt this chapter, but
don't worry, they won't be gone for long! As always, welcome your comments
at parabolic.spectrum@gmail.com.

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Chapter 5


Benjamin woke up feeling calm. It might have been a good idea that his dad
stopped him. Without the emotional rollercoaster and an unhelpful amount of
alcohol, he might have thought it's a bad idea too. Still, he wondered what
would have been, curious on this completely new dimension of a relationship
with his dad.

He had always considered his dad fit, and of course, from the age of 11, he
had known about his father's other gifts. But while he admired his dad, and
objectively knew he was an attractive man, he'd never really fantasised
bringing his dad into his sexual life, no matter how varied in flavours it
had been so far. Now that he had a taste, he... can't say he disliked it.

What mattered most, however, was that Richard felt like his dad again.
After all the spilled tears and all the manifestation of rage, that dark
place in his heart seemed to have gone. He heard what his dad meant to say.
It was a mistake, even his dad made those. Benjamin could have doubted him,
but for all he can tell, and for knowing the man all his life, he believed
him. The weeks when he couldn't talk to his dad were some of the loneliest,
most miserable of his life. Now, life is good.

A little smile appeared on Benjamin's face at the thought, appreciative,
content.

------

Richard, on the other hand, was a little apprehensive. He too was thankful
to have his son back, but the little something else was like a new dark
secret to bear. He didn't initiate it, and of course, ended it, but for a
few brief, drunken moments, it crossed a line.

As a father, he felt responsible. Sure, his son was now a man, but he was
still his son. He didn't feel like he was, in any way, abusing his child,
but what had happened was a complicated spin on their otherwise more than
superb relationship. It felt like a stain. He couldn't say with no caveats,
asterisks, disclaimers now about himself and his son.

What's more, he discovered something about himself. He loved his son, and
yes, the only boy in the only fling and the archetype of his darker
fantasies had a body that resembled his younger son's. But he never, ever,
even in his most decadent, depraved fantasies, thought about Benjamin that
way. But after last night, what Benjamin did, made him see his son in a new
light. His son is a sexual being. Of course he'd known what happened,
theoretically, to Benjamin after he had gone through those pubescent years,
but it was only ever how a scientist might understand animals' mating
behaviour. Now, seeing - and feeling - his son's sexual side, it was an
awakening. Now... It's different.

He felt tormented, out of control. The one time he let his dark side slip,
it all started crumbling down, one thing after another.

He's scared.

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The whole family got into the car, driving Benjamin to the airport. Even
Katie joined. She might have appeared not to care, most of the time, but
when it counts, she's always there.

Benjamin, ever the confident, adventurous, and smart boy, decided to one up
his brother by not only going to a great university, but to one
internationally great university. He'd be flying to London, and then making
his way from there to the picturesque town of Cambridge. He would be
studying sociology there, or as they call it, reading sociology.

In the car, they chatted about everything but where Benjamin was going. To
be fair, anything that can be talked about Cambridge had been on the lips
of his parents already, as much as could have for two people that had never
been there. But it was evident in the air, that they would miss him.

They'd parked, and Richard lifted his stuffed full suitcase out of the car.
They navigated through the check-in counter, and finally, they had stopped
in front of security.

"Come here Benny..." Elise fanned with her hands. She locked him into a
long embrace, her warm softness enveloping him.

"Promise you won't forget us!"

Benjamin chuckled, his head still on his mom's shoulder. He could see his
dad crack a smile too.

"I'll try my best."

"Call us often!" His mother examined his face, partly covered by hanging
locks of wavy black hair.

"I will mom." Benjamin said, smiling reassuringly.

His mom backed away, and then Katie lunged into him. Hugging his waist, she
said, "Don't ghost us, Ben. Don't die."

A short chuckle. "I won't."

With that, she pulled away, looking slightly gloom and embraced by her
mother. They both looked at him longingly.

Benjamin lifted his gaze to his dad, who beamed at him.

"Son, you've done us proud. We are all so proud of you."

Benjamin nodded, without words. It felt hardest, especially just after last
night, to leave his dad.

Richard marched to him, and the two men swung their arms around each other
tightly. Richard patted him firmly.

"Come here a sec." Richard gestured him to go a few steps further away from
his mom and sister.

They took a few steps, and Richard's back blocked his mom and sister off
from his sight. His dad spoke in a low, quiet voice.

"I'm going to tell your mom."

Benjamin froze. His heart skipped a beat, his face drained.

"About Charlie."

Benjamin was still in shock. He wasn't expecting this, the whole damn thing
had been off of his mind the entire way to the airport.

"When the time is right, I'll tell her. What will happen, I don't know. But
it's the right thing to do." His dad said, visibly fighting back a tear.

"I'm sorry Ben. I'll make it right."

Pink eyed, his dad looked truly like a man remorseful. In those moments,
Benjamin seemed to have seen his dad's tender soul. He embraced his father,
one more time.

"I love you dad." Benjamin said quietly.

They parted, and Richard patted him on the shoulder.

"Get going now, big man. Let us know when you land." Richard stepped back
alongside his mom and sister.

Benjamin waved, smiling. He turned and walked past the gates.

------

Benjamin landed at 9am at Heathrow Airport. He'd slept a little on the long
flight, and was glad he could now stretch his legs. He'd never been to the
UK before, save for when he was much, much younger on a family holiday. He
reached the border, and was called to a counter with a rather serious man
sitting behind it. He was polite, though, and worked efficiently. He took
Benjamin's documents, stamped his passport, and handed it back to him.

"Welcome to the UK." He said with a quick smile, before looking down again.

Benjamin hopped on the airport WiFi, and sent a message to his family group
chat. It was still early morning for mom and dad, so they didn't respond.
Matt, though, was in Paris for work. He called Benjamin on Skype, checked
that everything was alright, and noted to him that he'd be travelling to
London in about a month or so, and could make a trip up to Cambridge.
Benjamin was delighted.

Benjamin still really doesn't know what Matt does for a living. He knows,
of course, the formal, fuzzy title of "International Trade Facilitator",
for a branch of the government that owns the technical intellectual
property of the CANDU nuclear reactor. It seemed natural for someone who
had a technical, engineering degree, someone like Matt, to have landed such
a job. But for certain, though, Matt wasn't sitting behind a desk building
nuclear reactors. He always seemed to be travelling, only getting the
occasional flight back home once in a couple of months.

Benjamin knew before he flew to London that he might be seeing Matt quite a
bit. Matt was in Europe and the Middle East more than he was in Canada. He
wouldn't really be alone.

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The start of term was a buzz. After being dazzled by the dream spires among
all those historic buildings, walking along stone paved alleyways, watching
punters glide peacefully across the rivers, he'd fallen in love with the
place. He lived in what looked like a fairy tale.

He had been admitted to Palmerson College, one of many on campus. In the
long corridors of his residence hall, he had met some of his new best
friends. Tanya, a red haired girl studying history; David, a slim, tall,
dark haired guy studying French; Ellie, with blue, smiling eyes, studying
biology; and Rob, a slightly shorter guy, with a beard that shows a hint of
ginger.

The first few weeks, they bonded quickly. All in a new, unfamiliar
territory, they were all eager to make friends. They went out at night to
the local clubs and pubs, initially as a part of a larger group, but
gradually grew closer and closer. Benjamin had felt a crush on little
Ellie. Her enchanting smile seemed to tease him, and whenever Benjamin felt
like he has caught it, it just danced away yet again. In clubs, with the
strobbing lights and too many shots, they had held hands on a night or two,
but she didn't seem to make a big deal out of it, as if it was as casual as
saying hello. And just like that, she did it again, tonight.

As the crowd on the dance floor started to thin, Ellie and Tanya decided to
bow out. David offered to walk with them back, but the girls seemed to
wanted to be alone, just girls, for now. David smiled at them and waved
goodbye. Benjamin's hands seemed to still feel her gentle warmth, as he
swayed with the boys, wishing the night would never die. They lost David
after a while - it's not out of character for him to have disappeared to go
home by himself. The Irish exit, as the Irish man himself called it. Rob
and Benjamin eventually shuffled their feet towards the exit, and strolled
in the cool September night.

"That was a good night." Said Rob, the dim glow of street light
illuminating their path.

"Yea..." Benjamin said with a slow smile, the world still spinning a little.

"Remember that guy who started dancing like a maniac by himself at the
corner?" Rob said, trailing with laughter.

"Yea.. Hahaha!" Benjamin erupted with laughter. "He did it for like a solid
5 minutes as well!"

The two young men laughed loudly in the silent night, the echoes of the
laughter the only sound they could hear. They stumbled and held each other
up, walking with arms over each others shoulders.

"Mate, these few weeks are legend." Rob said after a while, and then looked
at Benjamin with a smile. "I'm glad I met you."

"I love you too buddy." Benjamin smiled back, rubbing Rob's beardy face
playfully. There was just a spark in Rob's half closed green eyes, his
eyelashes casting a gentle shadow over his eyelids.

A short walk later, they arrived back at the residence hall. They walked
more silently than they did before, and lowered their voices. Benjamin
slowly pushed open an old wooden door.

"You had a good time with Ellie, didn't ya?" Rob asked as they stepped past
the gate.

"Uh... I don't know. She seems interested but then not. It's driving me
crazy. Maybe she knows and is playing me." Benjamin said.

"Ah." Rob said quietly. Benjamin turned his head around, and saw Rob
looking down.

"Hey... Did you guys, uh... I'm not in the way of anything am I?" Benjamin
asked, worried that he could have already screwed up a close friendship.

"Oh no, no! We aren't not, I mean I'm not, uh..."

"You looked... I don't know, disappointed, ha. Thought it was Ellie."
Benjamin continued on, and arrived at his room's door. Rob's is just three
doors down.

"Ellie, no, disappointed, maybe." Rob looked at Benjamin and then looked
away.

Benjamin paused, trying to decipher the message. He tightened his brows.

"What do you mean?"

"Well, you... Never mind, it's stupid, ha!" Rob smiled, brushing it off
with his hand in the air, starting to make his way past Benjamin towards
his own room.

"Hey, you can tell me." Benjamin put his hands on Rob's shoulders, lowering
his head, trying to catch his green eyes.

Rob paused, his smile wiped away. Then he turned his head, and looked back
into Benjamin's eyes. "I guess I feel the same way about you as how you
feel about Ellie."

The two young men stood facing each other, gazing into each other's eyes in
the softly lit hallway. Rob looked up at Benjamin, with a nervous
anticipation. Benjamin was frozen in place, his hands still on Rob's
shoulders. The two were silent.

Then Benjamin broke his gaze. Without a word, he turned to the right, and
took out his key. He stuck the key into the lock, trying to get into his
room. Rob's heart fell.

"Benjamin I'm sorry, maybe I..." Rob started, and stopped. Benjamin cast a
glance at him, before turning back to the door. Rob fell silent as he
watched his friend's back.

Benjamin pushed open the door, and stepped in. He flicked a switch, and
turned on the light in his room. Rob stood outside the door, still in the
same place Benjamin had left him. Benjamin half turned his body, and looked
towards Rob.

Then he extended his hand, waiting for Rob's.

Rob was surprised, for just a moment ago, he thought he'd made the stupid
mistake of lusting after a straight guy and telling him about it. He slowly
extended his hand and gripped Benjamin's. Benjamin's hand led him inside,
and then closed the door softly behind Rob.

The room was silent. Rob could hear nothing, save the sound of the two
young men breathing. They stood face to face again, their faces close.
Neither said a word. Their eyes darted up and down, unsure of what's to
happen next, carefully, nervously judging how the other reacts.

Benjamin lifted his left arm, as Rob's eyes followed its movement. It
stopped at Rob's elbow height, and his hands slowly closed around Rob's
arm. Rob turned back took at Benjamin's eyes, pausing. Rob then inched his
head forward, stopped, and then pulled back a little, waiting for Benjamin
to do something. Benjamin lowered his head, his face now so close to Rob's
their noses could touch. Rob could hear Benjamin's breath close to his ear.
Benjamin could see Rob's heartbeat pulsing through his neck. He closed his
eyes, and touched his lip on Rob's.

A feeling of an electric current ran through Rob's body, and Benjamin felt
it too. Benjamin pulled back a little, looked into Rob's eyes, and then
pushed his lips to Rob's again, this time more certain, more forceful.
Rob's right hand moved up to Benjamin's chest, resting on his pecs.
Benjamin could feel Rob melting into him, the curly, dense beard rubbing
his face. He could smell the subtle hints of a man's scent, hiding behind
the gentle fresh smell of soap. His hands travelled up Rob's sides,
exploring his small torso, while he felt Rob's fingers press into his back.

Benjamin lifted up Rob's shirt, over his head. He took in the sight for a
moment. Just a small tuff of ginger red chest hair, on a pale, creamy white
body. He saw those soft green eyes looking at him, and held Rob's face
gently in his hands.

"You sure you want to do this? You know this is probably just going to be
some good fun, but not much more than that." Benjamin said quietly.

Rob nodded gently, not breaking his gaze.

"I'm serious... I don't want to hurt you, but having a boyfriend and
getting a surrogate baby with my husband, that's not me. I can have fun,
but I don't do this often at all. I'm not like-"

"You don't have to explain yourself," Rob stopped Benjamin, saying softly,
"I can take care of myself. Relax." He smiled.

Benjamin smiled back, and held Rob's hands. He stepped a few steps
backwards, and sat on the side of his bed. He guided Rob slowly into him,
and felt Rob's kiss once more. He leaned back slowly, flat, onto his bed,
as Rob climbed into his lap. He took off his own shirt, and Rob moved his
kisses lower, to his neck, to the back of his ears, to his shoulders, to
his chest, and then, to his nipples.

Benjamin let out a soft moan as Rob teased his nipples with his tongue. He
saw Rob's eyes look naughtily at him. He put a hand on Rob's head, grabbing
his messy curly hair. Rob bit his lips, and Benjamin felt Rob's hands
tugging at his trousers. He felt the button being undone, and the zip
sliding open. He lifted his hips, and the bulge of his semi poked at his
white briefs.

Rob smiled out of the corner of his mouth, sitting upright on the bed on
his heels, looking down at Benjamin in his briefs. The smile was
infectious, and Benjamin soon found himself smiling back at Rob, in a
manifestation that was simple happiness. It was a carefree smile, free from
judgement, free from definition, from worry, from guilt. A smile like when
he and Matt were together. A pure, unadulterated, white smile.

"What are you laughing at?" Benjamin said as his smile cracked even wider,
as he lifted his upper body up to meet Rob's. They kissed passionately,
their tongues exploring each other's mouth, Benjamin's hands around Rob's
face. They fell back onto the bed, their lips still on each other's.

Rob slid down towards Benjamin's legs, planting his kisses on Benjamin's
inner thigh. Benjamin could feel himself grow harder, his cock eager for
the pleasure to come. Rob's beard grazed against the fabric of his white
briefs, on his growing erection.

"I think you got a surprise for me under there." Rob said softly,
teasingly. His teeth bit onto the top of the elastic band, pulling it
gently down. Benjamin moved his hands, and shoved his underwear down. His
nearly fully erect cock sprung out and slapped back onto his abs.

"Wow." Rob paused to marvel at the meaty member before him. He lowered his
head, resting it on Benjamin's thighs, his eyes trained on the manhood
before him. "You must be... Like 8 inches?"

Benjamin smirked, remembering the truth handed down to him by his brother
not so long ago. "Seven and a half."

"Hmm..." Rob hummed as he lifted his head up again. His tongue travelled
the entire length up Benjamin's cock. Benjamin felt a shot of pleasure
ripple through him.

Benjamin felt the warmth of Rob's mouth on his manhood. He felt the tongue
that teased his own just a moment ago now dancing around the tip of his
hard dick. It caressed him, and he could feel his cock pushing to Rob's
throat. He watched as his erection disappear behind that thick, curly
beard. It's been a while since he's had any sex, and man, this felt good.
He could feel his cock growing in Rob's mouth, engorged by lust, his ball
sack nuzzled by the beard. He propped himself up, and rubbed his hands on
Rob's back.

"Take yours off."

Rob complied. He unbuckled his belt, and took off his jeans. Benjamin put
his hands around the waistband of his stripped underwear, and pulled them
off in one sweep.

Rob was already fully hard. He was a lot smaller than Benjamin, maybe
around 5.5 inches. It was delicately pale with spots of pink, protruding
out of an almost fiery looking bush. Rob had a cute bum, almost boyish,
with two perfectly round globes.

"Oh, man..." Benjamin placed his hands on Rob's backside, "I think I got
lucky tonight!"

Rob smirked, and came for another kiss. Benjamin could taste just a hint of
his own cock. Rob continued to suck on Benjamin's cock, while Benjamin laid
back, moaning appreciatively from time to time. He felt a strength build up
in him, getting hornier and hornier, feeling stronger and stronger that
innate, primitive desire - to breed.

Benjamin pulled on Rob's curly hair, lifting Rob off his manhood. "You
ready for me?"

Rob nodded, and turned around on the bed. He arched his back, on his knees,
his butt pushed back, waiting for Benjamin to enter him. Benjamin grabbed
some lube, and put on a condom he'd received from orientation. He pulled
the condom over his cock, feeling himself stretching it a little as he put
it on. He slapped his cock on Rob's arse a couple of times, giving Rob the
mental thrill of what's to come. He placed the tip of his cock at Rob's
waiting hole, and then gently pushed in.

"Hmph..." Rob gasped, planting his face into the mattress. "Fuck. Mmmhh."

Slowly, inch by inch, Benjamin sank his cock into Rob.

"Fuck you're big. Mmm!" Rob breathed deep, still adjusting to Benjamin's
manhood deep in him.

Benjamin leaned forward over Rob, his long locks of wavy black hair draping
his face. He kissed Rob behind his ear, and whispered, "You like that?"

"Yea. Oh yea. Oughff--" Rob let out a cry as Benjamin gave a quick hump.
Benjamin smiled deviously, and started fucking Rob rhythmically.

Their two bodies collided again and again, as Benjamin entered Rob from
behind. His length disappeared entirely into Rob, and then back out again.
His balls swung against Rob, turning Rob on even more. Benjamin held Rob's
body. It felt like he could almost break him, this delicate, beautiful
figure of a young man. His hand occasionally reached underneath, grabbing
the small hard prick, and giving it a tug in the same rhythm that he thrust
into Rob. He found Rob's hands on his  lean, muscular ass too, feeling,
searching, and almost there so that he might never pull out from behind.

"Turn around, lie on your back. I want to look at you." Benjamin said after
a while, his body glistening from sweat.

Benjamin climbed off the bed, and lifted Rob's pale legs up, his feet over
Benjamin's shoulders. Benjamin caught a glimpse of himself and Rob in the
reflection on the window pane. In some way, he was reminded of what he saw
that night, with his dad and Charlie. Just this time, the thin legs are
Rob's, and Benjamin was doing the fucking.

Benjamin's cock pushed into Rob again, as he watched Rob's face twist in
pleasure. He picked up the pace, sliding in and out of Rob's tight little
arse. He held Rob's little prick in his hand tightly, jerking him off,
while his own manhood slammed into Rob.

"Oh fuck, I'm going to cum!" Rob whimpered as Benjamin mercilessly banged
into him, not stopping. Rob's balls tensed up, and his abs contracted. It
came out in shots as Benjamin continued to pump into Rob, as if he'd pushed
ropes of cum straight out of Rob's body. Rope after rope shot out, mostly
of it landing on Rob's body, while one landed on his beard.

"Fuck, that's a lot of cum. You must be really excited..." Benjamin smirked.

"Well, just keep doing what you are doing!" Rob smiled contently, biting
his lips again.

"Fuck you are tight. I'm gonna ruin this ass. I'm gonna fucking breed you."
Benjamin hissed. He leaned forward, his torso pressing down on Rob's
thighs, and pumped his hard pipe furiously into Rob.

Rob's hands travelled up to meet Benjamin's sweaty torso. His fingers
pinched on Benjamin's nipples, and sent him over the edge. Benjamin lifted
his head, screaming silently into the air, the veins on his neck bulging as
he exploded inside Rob. His manhood pumped hard, his seed shooting through
his shaft, as he emptied himself into the young man pinned beneath him. He
breathed heavily, as he quivered from the intensity of the orgasm. He
withdrew from Rob, and laid beside his friend, the condom full of cum still
on his erection.

Benjamin breathed out loudly. He turned his head to face Rob.

"Why don't you sleep here tonight?"


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To be continued!


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