Date: Tue, 20 Mar 2001 10:01:31 -0800
From: Raoul Duke <Regressing@hotmail.com>
Subject: "When I Was 15" M+/m, inter

When I was Fifteen

by Paulie

 When I was 15, my stats were: 5'9", 125 pounds (scrawny), I had long brown
hair in a "shag" cut. It was the early 70's, after all. I have light hazel
green eyes and olive skin. I tan easily. I am half Irish (My Mother's side)
and half Mexican. My cocks is and was 7 1/2 inches and uncut. Since I was
little, I have been told I am well-hung by men and women.

  I snuck out of the house, as I had done so many times. I snuck into a
small porno theater on Hollywood Blvd near Western.  I had a fake ID for
buying beer and for this. There were very few men in there that night. It
was late. I sat in the back, in the corner, where guys sit when they want
to suck someone off. I had been in there for over an hour. I had been
drinking, I used to drink a lot. I always got really horny when I was
drinking and my girlfriends couldn't go out that late. I sucked off two
older men earlier in an alcove that was set back in the corner of the rear
wall. It was literally made for sucking. The plastic hippie beads hanging
in the doorway to the theater made a clacking sound when someone would
enter, giving anyone enough time to zip up (or stand up, in my case)
without being seen. It was about 4 feet by 4 feet, and in the shadows, but
the light from the movie screen lit it up enough to see the cocks in my
face. I was just sitting there in the back row, hoping the place would get
busier. It didn't. On some nights it was really busy. One Saturday night, I
sucked off 6 men in that alcove in less than an hour and one man tried to
fuck me as I was on my knees surrounded by horny adult men in a frenzy to
use my 15 year old mouth. He couldn't get his little dick in my butt
because of the angle, so he just blew a load on my ass cheeks. A Black man
came in and stood against the wall behind me for a while and I kept looking
over my shoulder and obviously licking my lips from the back row. After
that little back and forth game, he walked up behind me. He already had his
impressive Black cock out and had been stroking it. He was already hard
when I started licking it as he slid it in my mouth and all over my
face. There was always something a little extra nasty about giving head to
Blacks. I come from a family of bigots and have never had a Black friend
that I hung out with socially. It just wasn't acceptable. My neck was
craned in an uncomfortable position. After a few minutes, he asked if I
wanted to go to his apartment. Without thinking, I nodded my head yes. He
pulled out of my mouth and zipped up. I followed him out to the street. It
was about 3 a.m., I'm guessing. We got into his car and drove a few blocks
to a real sleazy part of Hollywood. He lived in a run-down apartment
building. I was nervous and excited. He wasn't that good looking, even for
a Black man, but his cock was big and hard, which was all I cared about. I
have never actually been attracted to men per se. I know that might sound
weird coming from someone who has sucked literally hundreds of cocks over
the years. It's the cocks that I am attracted to, not the men. And not just
any cocks, big cocks only. Little weenies that are about 6 inches or less
don't get me excited at all. If I had to use slang, I would say that I'm a
"size queen", but I don't think of myself as such, and I have been sucking
cocks since I was about 10 years old.

   When I was much younger, I would blow some of the older neighborhood
boys, always letting them think it was their idea so they wouldn't think I
was a queer, and they wouldn't tell anyone. I also lived in the Hollywood
Hills adjacent to Griffith Park, which was a haven for men who just wanted
to go into the bushes or off to the side of a horse trail and get a quick
blowjob. It is the largest municipal park in the country and has about 2000
square acres of cocksucking territory. When I got older, I took several
girls up there to fuck, but that's another story. Over the years many men
would gawk, wide-eyed at their good fortune as this little boy would kneel
and service their rock hard cocks. It must have been a pedophile's wet
dream! One time, when I was 13, I let this big dicked, bearded Daddy type
ROYALLY fuck my ass! He had lube and I was depressed and wanted to do
something self-destructive. I was on my hands and knees, grunting in pain
with this man's rod in my butt, when 3 young surfer dudes came out from
behind the trees and walked up to my face. The 3 new guys were amazed that
such a little boy was getting reamed by such a huge adult man! They ended
up feeding me their big white dicks as that man sodomized me for a
painfully long time. The surfers all came on my face, then the man came in
my ass. To this day that remains one of my wildest memories!

  Anyway, as we walked into the Black man's small apartment, I felt even
sleazier. It was small and dirty. The sofa bed was already pulled out and
took up most of the tiny living room. It was unmade. He put on a strait
porno video of a big-titted, young white girl getting roughly gangbanged by
about twelve big nasty Blacks. He told me to take off my clothes and I
obeyed, he was already disrobing. When he was naked, he told me to sit on
the bed and relax. He was about 6 feet tall and maybe 200 pounds or more,
not very muscular, though. I guessed he was in his 40's. He walked into
what I guessed was the bedroom, I heard him talking to someone. That made
me a little nervous because I thought we were alone. My buzz was starting
to wear off. I watched the porno movie and stroked myself for about ten
minutes, until he came back out. He lay down next to me and told me to get
between his legs and blow him slowly. I figured, "Why not? That's why I'm
here." His cock was about 7 inches long, thick and uncut. I think he had
been drinking, too, or else he had already had an orgasm that night,
because he took a long time to cum. He really made me work on and worship
his monkey dick with my mouth and tongue for quite some time. I wished he
would hurry up and get off. After about a half hour, he finally blew his
load. He came on my face and chest, a thin and watery load. Without a word,
he got up and went into the bedroom again. I heard some whispering and
snickering. He came out, threw me a towel and started to get dressed, as I
wiped off his smelly cum. As he was walking to the front door, he told me
he was going out and that his room mate wanted some of me, or some ghetto
slang like that. I was beginning to ask myself what I had gotten myself
into. He told me to wait right where I was. I just sat there naked on the
dirty sofa bed for about five minutes wondering what was going to happen.

 Then another naked Black man, who looked to be in his 50's, casually
walked into the living room. He was about 5'10' and fat. I guessed he was
about 250 pounds. He had a lot of kinky body hair. He looked almost bored
as he stood up on the sofa bed and stood over me. The metal springs creaked
loudly under his considerable weight. I could see his big cock hanging over
my head like a Black snake ready to strike. He knelt down and straddled my
chest and started slapping my face with his big cock. It was what they call
a "coke bottle" cock. It was only about 6 inches long, but it was super
thick. It was circumcised. He still had not said a word to me or looked me
in the eye, and it was pissing me off. He had an angry look on his face as
he pushed his thick Black dick in my mouth and started pumping in and
out. I remember thinking that he was one of those, "Get even with Whitey"
kind of Black. He took a big whiff of "Locker Room". I hoped this ghetto
scumbag would cum quickly, because I was uncomfortable and wanted to
leave. Suddenly I heard another voice asking something like how I sucked or
how is he, or something. The coon using my mouth rudely replied that I was,
"Better than jerking off". I know from the many compliments (and from the
practice!) over the years that I give fantastic blowjobs, so I knew that he
was just being an asshole. He swung one leg off my chest and made room for
this third man, also Black. He looked much like the man who was just
sitting on my chest, but less fat. His cock was about 9 inches long, medium
thickness, dark black and uncut. It was drooling pre cum. The two obnoxious
Blacks knelt on each side of my face, so both of their cocks were right
over me. They gave me hits of Locker Room, and as I alternated sucking one
cock and then another, I was lost in a huge head rush. This went on for
about 20 minutes, back and forth. The whole time they spoke to each other,
but not me. They talked about me like I wasn't even in the room. The 3rd
man then got off the bed and went into the bedroom. The room mate lay down
and told me to kneel between his legs and continue blowing him, just like
the first man had done. He kept making me sniff Locker Room, so I wasn't
exactly aware of anything but the thick Black cock stretching my
mouth. After a few minutes, I felt the 3rd man (at least I thought it was
him) applying what I guessed was lube around my ass. The overall mean and
dominant attitude of these big men told me I better not object or resist, I
didn't want to get fucked in the ass, but I didn't want to get beat up,
either. I felt the mattress sag as the unseen man positioned himself
between my legs and then slowly work his Black dick into my ass. He
grabbed my slim hips with his large hands and held on tight. It
hurt like hell, but the guy I was blowing held the back of my head firmly
with one hand and kept the bottle of Locker Room under my nose with the
other. I couldn't go anywhere! If I moved forward, a thick cock would gag
my throat. If I moved back, instant impalement. Once again, I thought to
myself that I just hope it is over with quickly. It wasn't. My eyes were
tearing. They both took their fucking sweet time and leisurely used my
tired mouth and aching ass! I felt so disgusted and powerless. I reached
down and started jacking myself off with my free hand, to ease the pain and
try to concentrate on something pleasurable. I stopped before I came. I
almost never cum when I am servicing a man. After an excruciatingly long
while, the anonymous man in my ass started pumping faster and more
urgently, and eventually shot a really big wad inside my ass. He must not
have cum in a while because it was an incredibly huge load! There was so
much, and it was so warm that I got goose bumps when I felt it shoot inside
me. He just stayed buried to the hilt inside me as he went soft and his
buddy guided my head up and down his shaft by my ears. A few minutes later,
the scary man with his dick in my mouth forced my head down even further
and came in my mouth, something I almost never allowed, but it wasn't like
I had a choice. The guy in my ass then pulled out slowly as I pinched my
sphincter to avoid any mess. I felt him get off the bed, and he must have
gone back in the bedroom, because I never saw or heard from him again.

 The man who had fucked my mouth called me a faggot and told me to get
dressed and get out. He then walked back into the bedroom, leaving me all
alone in the dirty, smelly living room. As I was dressing (quickly), I
heard them laughing at me and I smelled them smoking freebase cocaine (it's
called "Crack" now). I got out of there fast, stealing their poppers as I
limped out. I think the whole experience took about two hours, something
like that. Not counting the theater and the drive over. That was maybe the
3rd or 4th time I had been fucked in the ass. I did not bleed as I had done
once before, but my ass was really sore for about 4 days and I was
constipated. There was no mess because I had been drinking most of the day
and night, and I had not eaten so my bowels were empty. Anal sex just hurts
me too fucking much, so I prefer using my mouth on men. That is usually
enough for them. When I got home, I jacked off in my bathroom, sitting on
the toilet, as I inhaled more poppers and re-lived the whole experience. I
came a giant load that had been building up all night, all over myself just
as I got a major head rush. I twitched as I came down from the head rush /
orgasm combo.

 Everything I have told you actually happened. I have many more true
experiences that I have remembered while I was writing this. I look forward
to hearing from you and hearing your comments or ideas.

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