Date: Sat, 12 Oct 2013 03:07:15 -0400 (EDT)
From: Writersparody@aol.com
Subject: Sense and Sensuality

I felt right about it I really did. It had taken a long time and a lot of
self examining to admit that indeed I  had homosexual tendencies. But it
took my now, live -in partner  Bob, to make me feel comfortable about  bonding
with another male.
It was almost as though he could read my mind  better than I could, but he
was trained in social studies which I guess, helped.  He is indeed a lovely
guy and I am so glad I met him at the bowling club.
And  what an introduction  that was. He'd been watching me bowling for a
little  while I'd noticed and eventually, I guess noticing that I had noticed
him  staring, he came over to me and apologised.  I accepted his apology
gladly  because straight away I was attracted to him big time.
When he whispered he  loved the way I moved ass when I bowled I felt
somewhat embarrassed. This was  the first time I had been chatted up by a guy in
such a way that said he fancied  me.
I thought about it. I wanted not to push him away. I wanted to encourage
him, yes that was it. I opted to bypass me inhibitions, admit I liked the guy
 and even that I wouldn't mind being intimate with him.
I decided to smile at  him and offer an encouraging word saying that I like
to please.
"What's you  name? he asked.
I told him it was Alex and he told me his; "just plain Bob,  and you would
please me more if you let me take you out for dinner later and  then to my
place. How's that, Alex?"
He was giving me that audacious smile  again which I found hard to resist.
He was lovely and my heart fluttered one to  the dozen. He looked me up and
down and looked for all the world he wanted to  ravish  me there and then.
All at once I knew I was about to come out in  the most delightful way,
with Bob to guide me and I was thinking, how lucky I  am.
Leaving the bowls club I went home and gave myself a real good soaking in
the tub. I usually shower but I wanted to be spotlessly clean to give Bob
the  best impression . He looked a neat clean guy and I didn't want to put him
off me  by smelling bad.
Going through my mind were all sorts of wonderful fantasies  and imaginings
of how it would be with Bob.
How would we first touch each  other, who would make the first move and so
on.? The ice would need to be broken  to lure us into a brand new
relationship and for me, a first timer. I'd had it  up to here with seedy casuals.
I had the impression that Bob was well versed  in that, he seemed to have
all the confidence in the world when he approached me  and I definitely felt
I was taking the feminine roll which suited me  perfectly.
If the truth be known I had experimented dressing in girls clothes  and
liked what I saw in the mirror, but what confused me is I was never  interested
in girls real time. But playing with myself, using various items to
experiment with I had a lot of fun gradually working a cucumber into myself  given
lots of lubrication. It was difficult at first but I had the inclination
to do it, just to see how it felt. I soon found I was getting a good erection
 and knew that accepting something going inside me like that probably meant
that  I was inclined to take the female stance. I can't believe I did all
those things  and laugh about the cucumber.
All that led to browsing the internet and  finding various anal items to
thrill me; which I sent for and  had a  wonderful time buggering myself in
front of a full length mirror, placed on it's  side so I could get a perfect
viewing of what I thought was a scrumptious  ass.
I remember how thrilling it was the first time I pushed an anal  vibrator
inside. I just closed my eyes and enjoyed the thrill of its deep  slow rime
massage and briskly wanked myself into a wonderful climax .
I knew  then I was definitely gay and yearned to find a similar partner
with whom I  could safely indulge.
In desperation I had thought about hanging around  public toilets and the
like but that seemed vile to me and I was worried about  contamination with
someone unclean .
So I opted to buy the latest Japanese  anal dildo which for all the world
looked like a real time erect penis, the  appearance matched  the skin tone
right up to the blue vein running down  the middle and a beautifully arranged
foreskin to stretch back. Plastic or not  it gave the feel of something
live and, putting it first into my mouth it is  wonderful what imagination can
do.
It was also attached to a tube like  structure representing a pair of male
balls. When doing oral sex one just had to  squeeze the balls and out would
squirt whatever fluid you'd full it with. That  was nice and I spent ages
simply sucking and fantasising that this was the real  thing and it was good
to use inside too, simply pressing a button would make it  grow inside to
give one an ultimate deep thrilling sensation.
But of course  as good as it was, as much as I enjoyed playtime with it, at
the end of the day  it wasn't real and I started to yearn for the real
thing. And that is when Bob  came into the picture.
The other problem about using `toys' means that there  is no emotion there
and everything one does to enhance the sexual mode is  predicable, unlike
when you are sharing a sexual experience with a real life  partner. But I
guess sex toys and the like serve a purpose to dull the urgency  for sex
All I crave for now is my first emotional and physical sexual  experience
with Bob who is a real turn on. Whether it is the way he talks or  something
else I am not yet quite sure, but I guess I will soon find out. Roll  on
this evening.

Evening comes and I meet Bob at the trains station. He tells me to join him
 in his super Audi car and immediately praises me for my very impressive
appearance, saying I look a million dollars.
Then, just before he turned on  the ignition key he added; "can't wait to
strip you' and stroked my  thigh.
Just that touch made me feel I belonged to the guy already, even  though we
had not yet fucked or anything like that.
I knew that was imminent  and just a question of time.
I wanted it to be so right for both of us. Quite  frankly I could have done
without the dinner he insisted I share with him, but I  needed to be
patient . And anyway I guess dining together would be the best way  to break the
ice and get to know each other properly.
I was thinking the calm  before the storm. I don't know why but the calm
was sharing dinner with him and  having mutual conversation. And the storm
would follow later when we got back to  his place.
My heart pumped twice normal as he guided me into this flash  restaurant
and invited me to have whatever I wanted from the menu.
We both  went for Italian. Bob said already we had something in common, our
choice from  the menu.
Soft music quietly played and our table was in a private area where  we
could talk freely without the fear of being overheard. It was just as well
because we were both about to divulge in some very earthy secrets about our
past.
I told him all about my teenage curiosities and what I did in the  privacy
of my bedroom and again, when he confessed to a few things too we
discovered that we had a lot more in common as well as our choice for food.
I  felt so comfortable with Bob from the start. He said he liked me very
much but  wanted an ongoing relationship, not just a quick `flash in the pan'
he said and  I laughed.
"Let's just give each other  time to chill, get to know each  other and
take it from there. I will not take umbrage if you decide not to carry  on. I
mean that goes both ways, but I do feel something for you already so in my
reckoning that seems most unlikely Alex."
We finished our meal and already I  felt I had known him for ages. He
wanted to make certain I was  not for  just a casual . He said he had had so many
bad experiences with guys who said  they wanted  a commitment but then
discovered, because all they wanted was  sex as soon as we they were  alone
together - whether in a car, in a public  toilet or hidden in the bushes.
"They say they are for real but I have  discovered that one can tell from
the body language and the look in the eyes  that all they want is s quickie
and, because it is done just to relieve their  lust ,it usually hurts without
hardly any preparation or foreplay and I am left  with a very sore passage
for days after. That is when I realised I was not  destined to play the
female role. That okay with you Alex?."
"Perfect" I  replied. I consoled him by telling him that is exactly what
happened to me. I  met this guy on the internet and we exchanged pictures. I
guess when he kept  asking for more intimate pictures I could have guessed
that he wanted just sex  and quick gratification but I was innocent then. We
met and he took me to his  car which had blackened rear windows. He
literally raped me after a quick feel  and some oral, he did it twice, once from the
front and the second bare backed  across the back seat which actually made
me bleed. All he could say was I was  good fuck -he'd had his satisfaction
and didn't I know it - shooting his sticky  cum all over my rear. Then he
just gave me a tissue and said he had to be on his  way. It was that bad I
could hardly walk and all he did was to laugh calling me  bandy legs.
"It was horrible Bob it really was, if it was had been shared  emotionally
it would be different,  and I guess it has made me scared in  trying to find
a real relationship."
"Poor Alex, at least I can relate to  you, both of us having similar
experiences. With us it is going to be perfect,  you will see, Do you want to come
home to my place now Alex?"
"I would like  that Bob. I would like that very much.". Already I was
warmed to him and all my  bad memories dissolved. Bob had such a calm and
wonderful disposition and  driving home with him, sitting next to him in the
passenger seat I placed my  head on his shoulder and felt completely attached..
Home and in the comfort  of his lovely flat he asked whether I would like
the TV or just some music,  adding that he liked the classics if that was
okay.
Yet another thing we had  in common, This seemed too good to be true.
He offered me some sherry which,  yes we both liked and said that would
help break the ice. I joked saying I don't  like it with ice and he laughed and
came right back at me: "What do you like it  with then?" and the look in
his eyes said it all. But he had a sense of humour  which meant a lot and
talking about our likes and disliked any inhibitions were  quickly dispensed.
"For me Alex; I simply love to build a relationship  we both know we want
-simply removing all our clothes and standing close to each  other. Not
touching but just feeling the heat and excitement building in our  bodies. If it
is to be something more we will soon know it and then will be the  time for
body and mind exploration. Would you go with that Alex"
He smiled so  warmly I felt how could I resist and answered his question by
way of first  removing my shirt and then everything else after, the last
item being my boxer  shorts.
Bob did likewise. .We then just stood  there facing each other  with
mutually admiring  looks and from that moment I just knew he was for  me, he was
divine, slender yet well built with strong muscles and perfect  thighs.
Without a word he prompted me to swing around, he wished to see ( his
words) if I looked as good at the back as at the front and when I did, when I
did a couple of twirls and faced him again, his face was calm yet flushed and
he  announced that I was simply perfect - which built my confidence
dramatically
"Now we just stand awhile in silence and feel our bodies  respond" he
added, and we did.
It was wonderful and I was  on a  completely new learning curve in as much
as it felt really sexy, being with Bob  like that. Just looking deep into
each others eyes, then closing simultaneously  and feeling the heat of our
bodies, so close yet not touching .
Then he  asked if he would like for us to kiss. I had never done that with
a guy before  and quite frankly never imagined I could ever do that, yet
with Bob I wanted  that. When I felt his lips so softly touch mine it was easy
to close my eyes and  feel the tenderness of his lips begin to gently mould
mine.
The kiss lasted a  long time and by the time it was finished we were both
very much on  heat.
Again. Looking down he smiled and complimented me on my stance, as he  put
it - and I did the same.
It was almost like he read my mind because,  moving my hand downwards he
nodded his head to whisper: "no, not yet. But we can  touch each other
elsewhere and discover the areas we both most like to be spoilt  and touched." All
this was equally endearing as it was sexual. Bob was teaching  me some
eastern fundamentals in the art of foreplay
"This is so very nice,  so very different. It is a different ball game to
anything I have done before  Bob." And I meant it.
"Not too hasty now, the ball game comes later" he  grinned. (That sense of
humour again)
I laughed with him until his finger  tips touched my lower spine and then I
stopped because of the wonderful so  soothing sensuality.
I felt a warmth never experienced before of another  touching me. It was
sort of like being out there in the severe cold, coming home  and jumping
under the duvet with a warm hot water bottle. I told Bob how I felt  as his
finger tips - instead of lightly scratching , changed to slow evocative
circular motions and he so sweetly replied "later you will have your very  own  `
water bottle` to warm you completely inside and out.
He continued  to spoil me with those slow caresses and I wanted him to
touch me there, because  I was so very ready. "All in good time, Alex."
I discovered he loved me to  tease his nipples, slightly pinching them too.
It seemed almost he was  teasing me but it was all part of the learning
phase and so the constant  touching, the stroking of everywhere except the most
intimate parts, continued  and I felt like it was a dream and I was
floating aimlessly into space - my body  feeling so warm and wanting and very, very
loving of this new guy in my life  .
He helped me to simultaneously caress him like he did me and all the time,
the way he responded to different touches, the more I discovered about the
way  he liked to be touched and where.
It was all in the touch, the sounds and  body responses.  I discovered the
most sensual touch was when he smoothed  his fingers in the area each side
of my scrotum and then down between my ass  cheeks. That is when I really
craved for his full touch everywhere.
"Now  Alex, let us just lay on my bed shall we?, let us learn just to lay
there facing  each other but not touching save those growing pulsations which
 seem to  have a  mind of their own, brought on by the sheer love and
ecstasy of what  we are about.
And of course the lust to be complete with each other which is  the
ultimate reward. Something that will; be so much the better because of   what we do
now.
"For I feel you are touching me, without touching me; simply  by the growth
and uprising of what we are soon to gratify. The touch of your  erection
meeting mine. Feel it Alex, do you feel the utter magic as our beings,  our
cocks touch head. It seems they have a mind of their own and we are so
concentrated in the wonderful sensations we are receiving of each  other.
"Feel them touch now, Alex, isn't it so nice, feel them throb as they
touch and tease ,so good and so lovely, the feel of yours and mine beautifully
in cohesion and now I feel the need to link and initiate our new
relationship in  other ways and now our cocks have touched, that's the  opening of our
need  to relieve the lust and the craving and I need and want to suck you
as much as I  know you do me .
"So we can initiate that now Alex. Let us really breath in  the sweet smell
of sex  and the taste of honey, but remember, nice and slow  does it, there
will be ample time later to let ourselves go."
"Suck me now  Bob" I craved feeling him begin to touch me there, his
fingers circling and  squeezing my stem, teasing down the foreskin and revealing
the head of my  throbbing  orifice and licking like it was a cherry to be
tasted and  sampled.
And as we found a suitable position he made it easy me to access him
there, so we could both mutually enjoy the thrill, the scent and the taste of
sweet, sweet oral manipulations  and I felt so fine that first time I  tasted
him, and felt it so beautifully moving in my mouth, as I felt him suck me
more, feeling the utter joy of that, of being sucked and enjoyed like he was
me,  his head bobbing joyfully up and down as he took my length further and
further  into his mouth and I saw that he was deep throating me. It felt so
good. I knew  I must do the same. And anyway I wanted to. I closed my eyes,
took a very deep  breath and went for it, not hand touching this time, just
finding it with my  mouth. I felt it actually entering my throat and the
sounds Bob made were so  special. I sucked it right in to the girth and now my
eyes were closed and I was  full of him in my mouth and in my throat and he
too was the same.
Then it was  impossible to suck because the whole girth  filled the opening
of my  throat, it was fully immersed and I managed to hold my breath and
experience the  full joy of pure unadulterated cock .
It was earthy and pungent - it was the  new taste of cock I had not known
and I liked very much.
I felt as it was a  lodged there that soon it would fill me beneath and
that would be the ultimate  experience in our wonderful new relationship, when
we would at last enjoy the  magic and benefits of the fuck.
I wanted that now. I was ready for it, It was  as if I was wet there like a
woman is wet when she is ready.
"Please ,please  now?" I pleaded. " I need and want you now and even
though I had come away I  tasted the taste of cock still there my throat and the
sweet scent of it in my  nostrils, now I wanted it inside me. I was so ready
I was. "Please, please,  Bob?"
"Turn over" he said and I felt his cock stiffen,  I waited for the  feel
of it saunter between my cheeks, waiting for the feel of it starting to
approach my special place for it to lodge and fuck me deep inside.
But even  now he teased me with just the touch of its head there, rimming
and rolling and  then his finger staring to rim me, and then his face between
my cheeks. I knew  then he wanted to taste me there too, all the stretching
there and the feel of  his tongue rolling and rolling around its rim.
Even then, still he was  waiting, he said he wanted to enjoy me in every
conceivable way and right now he  was fully concentrated and emerged enjoying
the contours of my hind.
It was  wonderful and I was thinking just how much more can our lust take.
I was so  craving for it, the way he was sucking me up and rolling my as
cheeks between  his face, teasing, kneading and lightly nudging which made me
flare up and  demand his fuck!
"That is better Alex" he yelled and the next thing at last  he was there,
deep inside me and it all happened so very quickly because I was  so ready
for him..
But even then he took his time to fuck me, to relish me by  taking me in
different stances.. He really went to it hammer and tongue doggy  fashion, he
said my ass was made for fucking   and  where had I  been all his life
.
He paused inside me, letting  us both enjoy  the throbbing of cock in ass.
I helped work him inside me, rolling around and  feeling the wonderful
different sensations inside.

The joy of being with Bob I knew would last and last.. He fucked me sound
and when he'd  done he was still sucking up the residue of the perfect
climax. He murmured he had lots of ideas a for us - he'd like to dress me in
just sheer silken underwear and spoil me crazy.
But for the present it was  time to move in. We had made it together and
our relationship grew.