Date: Mon, 3 Jul 2006 03:26:15 -0700 (PDT)
From: Jeffrey Uher <chefjlu@sbcglobal.net>
Subject: When I Knew I was Gay, Part 2

Disclaimer: If you are not yet 18 years of age
or if it is illegal to
read materials of this kind where you live, then
please stop now. This
story contains descriptions of sexual activity
between teenage boys. And is for adult eyes
only! The acts are consensual and are a result
of their love or lust for one another. This
story is completely true, all personal
descriptions, and names have been changed to
protect people's identities and privacy.
I would love to hear from you, so write me about
your experiences.



I'm a 5' 9", teddy bear, dark blonde hair,
fairly hairy, 6" cut, low-hangers with blue-gray
eyes, and mid-forties now. I have many stories
to relate about my early years of sexual
experimentation. This story relates to my
knowing I was gay.

While we were in town the next day with my
mother she stopped at a newsstand and sent us in
to get a particular magazine for her. She had to
go into another store and we were to meet up
with her at that store when we were done. While
in the newsstand Juan pointed out all the girlie
magazines. When he tried to take one to look at
it, the clerk cleared his throat and suggested
he try a different magazine, more suitable for a
youngster.

We got the magazine my mother wanted and left to
find her. Juan kept talking about all the girlie
magazines, I said don't worry we had the nudist
magazines back home. We found mom and headed to
McDonald's. Afterwards we got some ice cream and
headed home. At home we found Barry one of the
neighbor's kids waiting for us in the barn. My
dad had told him he could wait for us in the
barn that we would be back shortly. Barry was
one of my best friends; he was a year older and
only spent summers with his family at their
cottage on the lake. We liked doing a lot of the
same things. His sister was a friend of my
sister and they baby sat us when we were
younger. Barry was also a hunk to me and many
girls. He had light brown hair, deep blue eyes,
stood about 5' 7" at 11 years of age and was
developing a muscular body, he resembled his
older brother who was 22 and was one of the most
handsome men I knew!

I introduced Juan to Barry and we played a bit
of basketball before heading into the house for
a drink. My mother asked Barry if he wanted to
stay for dinner, we were grilling out some
steaks and there was plenty. He accepted and
said he had to call his mom. My mom got on the
phone and talked with her a while and when she
hung up said that it okay with his mom if he
wanted to sleep over with us that night. I lit
up right away and basically begged him to stay.
Everything was fine that evening and when we
headed out to the camper my dad reminded us to
not make too much noise as it carried out into
the woods behind the house and could be heard
down the street. I replied okay, grabbed a big
bowl of popcorn my mom had made and we headed to
the camper.

Barry and Juan got along fine and we all talked
about school and what we liked and disliked and
more. When Barry asked
what we did that afternoon Juan talked about the
girlie magazines in the newsstand and how he
tried to swipe a look at one. Barry laughed and
said not to worry; his dad had a bunch stashed
in the attic at the cottage. He could grab some
easily if we wanted. At this time (about 11:30)
there was a light knock on the door. When I
asked who it was, Tom answered he had just got
back home and saw the light on in the camper.
When I let him in he was carrying a small
athletic bag. He was startled when he saw Barry
sitting next to me. They had never actually met,
though they had seen each other at the lake park
before.

I asked Tom how the trip was and he said fine.
Juan however was much more blunt! He asked if he
had gotten more magazines? Barry's eyes lit up
and he tuned into the conversation very
intently. Tom casually opened the athletic bag
and pulled out another 10 or 12 magazines. The
top magazine showed a guy with a huge dick being
licked on his dick by a girl with massive boobs.
Barry gave out a loud "WOW" as he grabbed that
magazine and opened it to look at the rest of
the pictures. The next magazine showed a girl
being fucked by one guy while sucking on the
dick of another guy. The title of this magazine
was "Backdoor Girls".

Tom moved over and sat on the bunk next to Juan,
and by now everyone had a magazine in hand and
was intently taking in the photos and words if
there were any. I didn't really care about the
women all that much, but found myself staring at
the dicks, balls and asses of the men. There was
such variety I noted to myself! Some dicks were
long and fat, others not as long, some were cut
others were not and the balls varied also. Some
balls hung down in their sack others were pulled
up tight to the base of the dick. Some were
hairy while others were smooth. The men's asses
were just as much a turn on with some hairy and
others smooth and looking almost clean shaven. I
loved the photos from the rear when a guy was
fucking as it spread his cheeks open and really
showed off his ass, ass crack and asshole! My
dick was hard as a rock and when I looked around
I noticed everyone rubbing his crotch and
pulling on his shorts or pants.

Every so often I heard someone offer a comment
about some girl's pussy or her tits and even
sometimes mentioning how they would like to be
in some guy's place. I knew better than to
mention my admiration of some guy's cock or ass,
but my awareness was wide open! I liked guys!
Not only did I like guys, but I had 3 horny guys
here that I would love to see naked and have my
way with them! It was now close to 1am and Tom
remarked he had to get back home. He left the
magazines and said he would be back tomorrow
night for some late night fun.

Once he was gone Barry asked what he meant by
that? I told him about us having a circle jerk
the night before. He said he was trying to think
of a way to suggest that tonight as he was
horned up now. Juan laughed and said to him,
"Well whip it out and start beating your meat!"
No more needed to be said as Barry pulled off
his shorts and briefs in one tug revealing his
hard dick and began furiously stroking it. After
about 15 seconds he stopped and looked at both
of us and said, "Well?" We joined him and we
were all so horny it only took about a minute
for all of us to shoot.

During all the rush I hadn't had a chance to see
Barry's dick hard and took a moment to enjoy the
sight as he wiped his cum off of his chest and
stomach. His dick was longer
and fatter than Juan's, but cut neatly at the
head. His pubic bush was coppery brown, fairly
thick and I already knew when he was soft did a
good job hiding his dick as it only hung about 2
or 3 inches. His balls though were amazing! They
were size of a lime and his sack hung low
between his legs, maybe 5 or 6 inches down in
his crotch. He caught me looking but didn't say
anything, just gave me a quick wink as he pulled
his briefs back on.

We were ready to go to sleep, so Juan stashed
the magazines with the other ones and crawled
into bed naked. Barry remarked about that and he
said what difference did it make, it was just us
guys. We all chuckled and Barry and I slipped
off our briefs and crawled into the rear bunk
together although we had separate blankets for
each other. I know Juan didn't think anything of
it and I didn't think about it as being strange
either. Barry and I had slept in the camper
together (on separate bunks) and in tents
together next to one another when we went
camping with our families.

Tonight however proved a new awakening. I was
having trouble falling asleep as my mind was
flooded with images of dicks, balls and asses
and I was still horny. The camper smelled like
cum and sex from our earlier jack-off session
and I couldn't stop thinking about having sex
with Barry. Juan was asleep, he snored slightly
and you could here the relaxed rhythm of his
breathing. Barry had his back to me and appeared
to be asleep, as he was not moving other than to
breathe. I was scared to reach out to him,
although I wanted to pull that sheet blanket off
of him and see what his ass looked like. I was
scared he'd haul off and punch me! As well as
end our friendship. I turned on my back and
closed my eyes in an attempt to fall asleep and
then something happened.

I could feel Barry turning in his sleep. I was
afraid to look, but I sensed coolness on my
shoulders, chest and stomach. Someone was
lightly pulling my sheet blanket off of me. My
dick was hard and I felt a warm moist softness
surround my dick. Then I felt and up and down
movement and sucking on my dick. I couldn't help
but moan lightly which caused the movement to
stop although the mouth stayed wrapped around my
dick. I opened my eyes and Barry was looking up
at me from my crotch with my dick in his mouth!
I wasn't just surprised - I was shocked!

Barry let my dick out of his mouth and gently
moved up over me moving his mouth near to my
right ear. He whispered he was sorry and that he
would stop, but please don't tell anyone. I
turned to face him with a smile on my face and
told him it was fine. It was nothing compared to
what I wanted to do to him! He leaned in to kiss
me and I felt his dick harden along stomach and
crotch. I told his Juan was probably cool with
everything but straight. We began rubbing our
crotches together and very shortly I felt him
shooting his load into my pubic hair and I too
shot a small amount to mix into his juices. He
grabbed a nearby towel and cleaned us up and we
went to sleep under our respective covers.

In the morning as we woke up the smell of sex
and cum still hung in the air. Juan made a
comment that it smelled like a whore house and
we opened a couple of windows to air it out.
Barry asked if my dad had hooked up the water so
we could shower in the camper, and I replied
yes. I got some cereal, milk and juice out to
eat while we all took showers and cleaned up. As
it was Sunday we were expected to attend
church, and then mom always fixed a Sunday
dinner. Being summer we didn't have to dress up
too much although Barry opted out, heading home.
Juan mentioned what a great guy he was and I
concurred.  Just before we pulled out of the
driveway Kyle came over and asked what our plans
for the afternoon were. I said we didn't have
any really, maybe a swim in the lake after we
ate. He asked if he could join us and I said
sure. Come over about 4pm and we could finish
the chores in the barn and then go for a swim.
When 4pm rolled around, Kyle was there right on
time. The three of us finished the chores in
about 15 minutes and headed to the park for a
swim. Dad said he would be down to get us in a
little over an hour. For a Sunday the park
wasn't particularly busy that day as it was a
bit cool out, only 70 to 75 degrees. That never
stopped me so into the locker room to change. I
had to go to the bathroom and took the end
stall, out of 5 on the right. After I sat down I
noticed something I had never noticed before. In
the partition between the next toilet there was
a hole about 4 or 5 inches in diameter, written
in pencil above it said "put cock through for
blowjob". As I was sitting there finishing up
someone entered the other stall. It was an man
about 30 or 35 I guessed as I carefully looked
through the hole to see if I knew who it was.

I of course learned later that this was a
"gloryhole". I had no idea what it was at this
stage. However, with careful maneuvering I could
look through this hole and see the other guy's
crotch, part of his stomach and his legs without
him seeing me. Or at least I thought so. I
forgot to acknowledge that he could see me the
same way. As I sat there stealing a glimpse of
his dick and balls I also started to read the
graffiti on the walls. There were pictures drawn
of dicks, naked girls and dicks in mouths as
well as descriptive notes to call a number for a
good time, blowjob, fuck or other activity. One
said "show hard for action", another said "tap
three times for knob job". I was getting turned
on by the writings and lost track of time. Juan
yelled something about hurrying up and they were
headed to the beach. I yelled I would catch up.

About 15 seconds after I could hear them leave,
I noticed how the door squeaked quite
prominently a large, hairy and very hard dick
came through the hole into my space. This was a
big as some of the dicks in those magazines and
it was certainly bigger than anything I had seen
in person before. The hole was big enough for
this man to pull back slightly and push his
balls through the hole where they along against
the partition about 3 or 4 inches below a dick
that seemed to be a foot long. I stared at this
dick for a few moments when the man next door
whispered to me to go ahead and rub it some.

I reached out and grabbed onto this dick, just
able to wrap my hand around it. I began jacking
on it like I did my own and noticed a pearly
drop of liquid appeared at the end. I don't know
why, but I stuck my tongue out and licked this
up. The man moaned and whispered "that feels
good". His crotch smelled a bit different than
Juan's had the other day, a bit sweatier, gamey
actually. My dick was hard in an instant and I
pulled it out of my bathing suit and began
stroking it along with stroking this man's dick.
I leaned down and licked at his balls, which
were in a nearly hairless sack. He moaned again
and I heard him say "suck on them, please". I
could only fit one in my mouth at a time,
but it was an immense turn-on! The sack tasted
salty with sweat and I could smell a faint odor
of urine as well.

I began to notice that his dick was dribbling
liquid out of it in a small but steady flow. I
liked the taste of cum and put the end of his
dick in my mouth cleaning this sticky fluid off
of dick and eliciting more moans. He began a
light but steady pumping motion trying to push
more of his dick into my mouth. I was afraid it
would get stuck in my throat if I let him do
that and just sucked on the end. I felt his dick
swell a bit and harden even more when all of a
sudden he began cumming in my mouth. It was so
much I couldn't swallow it all at one time and
it was leaking out around my lips. It tasted
different from Juan's, a bit tangier and much
thicker. When he was done shooting he pulled his
dick back, whispered a "Thank You" and left the
locker room. As I was about to leave I looked in
a mirror and noticed cum on my face, thank God!
I rinsed off and ran out to the beach. Barry and
Juan wondered what had happened and I said I ran
into a couple of friends from school and we got
to talking. When I got into the water Barry
grabbed me in a bear hug from behind and I could
feel him nestling his half-hard dick into my ass
crack. He leaned to my ear and said I should be
careful walking around on the beach with half my
nuts hanging out of my bathing suit!

I turned bright red from embarrassment and asked
if anyone else appeared to notice? He said he
didn't think so and let me go so I could adjust
myself. We swam for a while before heading in
the change and get ready for dad to come pick us
up. Barry said he was headed home for dinner and
maybe he would be by later. Before we left the
locker room Juan used the toilet and discovered
the gloryhole. When we were outside he mentioned
it to me and I feigned ignorance, which was
partially true. I didn't know what they were
"officially" called! He said they were all over
in places around the city where he lived. He
said a lot of guys used them when their girl was
on the rag or the wife stopped putting out.

Well more news and information to take in. "On
the rag"? What did this mean? I now knew I was a
homosexual (gay was not in use at this time
quite yet) and I had someone with a veritable
encyclopedia of knowledge on sex. We had just
had sex education in school and the information
was so clinical and presented so sterilely by
the gym teacher that no one dared ask a
question! Juan was filling in the blanks quite
well, at least with the street language and
action.

We had dinner and headed to the camper. When we
opened the door Tom and Kyle were waiting
inside. They were playing cards and when they
saw us announced it was time for strip poker!
After a few rousing hands we were all basically
naked. It seemed that the game was losing
interest when I suggested Juan show our guests
how his brother played dare poker. He got out
the small paper that described the rules and how
it progressed. The first couple of hands weren't
too bad, but on the third hand Juan won and
dared everyone else to lick his dick. Tom
immediately balked at this saying he wasn't a
fag! Juan calmed him down and said he wasn't
telling anyone he had to go back home in a
couple of days, his brother wasn't telling
anyone and I too promised I wouldn't tell
anyone. After all, you need to promise not to
tell about me or Kyle.

Strangely this worked and Tom walked over to
Juan, who was standing and with the quickest
lick I've ever seen kneeled down and licked
Juan's dick. Kyle and I didn't linger much
either, but I could tell it didn't bother Kyle
that much. The next hand was won by Tom who now
had a chance to make up for the prior hand.
Everyone had to suck his dick head. Nobody
balked, not even Juan, though he took his shirt
and wiped off Tom's dick head before putting the
head in his mouth for a couple of seconds.
For some reason the game ended at this point and
Tom and Kyle headed home. It wasn't that late,
only about midnight and we were watching a movie
when Barry popped his head in the door. I was
surprised, but he said he had snuck out when he
knew his parent's were asleep. He noticed the
cards and suggested we play "21". Of course this
turned into strip blackjack and quickly moved
onto sex blackjack. We progressed from jacking
off each other to sucking on each other's dicks
to kissing balls when Juan hit a natural 21 and
Barry and I busted trying to match him. We had
pulled out some of the nudist and sex magazines
and the one showing the guy getting his ass
licked was on top. Juan turned around, spread
his legs a bit and said we had to kiss his ass!

Barry got down on his knees and kissed Juan's
left ass cheek on the side. Juan said that
wasn't enough, you have to really kiss my ass!
You basically kissed my leg. He reached back and
pulled his ass cheeks apart revealing a smooth
ass crack. Well Barry was trying to be a good
sport and leaned in, kissing his ass at the top
of his crack. He quickly stood and sat down
saying that was as good as it gets! Juan wiggled
his ass in my direction and said, "your turn".

I was down on my knees staring at Juan's firm
brown skinned bubble butt when Barry said, "go
ahead, it's clean!". Well I was going to do the
same as Barry and went to kiss the top of Juan's
ass cleft, when he suddenly pulled his ass
cheeks wide open and pushed back against my face
causing me loose my balance and planted his
asshole right on my mouth. In the suddenness and
surprise I not kissed his ass but licked out at
it! I quickly pushed him off of my face and
called him an asshole, which elicited a laugh
from both of them. In my mind the sensations
were sparking untold reactions. The intense male
smell of his sweaty ass, the taste (it was
clean!) and feeling of his reaction to my tongue
were sending my mind into an erotic fog! I
wanted to try this again, but how?

Juan turned and sat down, apologizing for what
he did. My reaction to cover myself was anger.
He said it wouldn't happen again, let's put the
cards away and watch some TV. Barry said he had
to get back home anyway, before someone noticed
he was gone. Several minutes after he left Juan
called over to see if I was awake. I replied yes
and we began talking. He said he really was
sorry for doing what he did, but was doubly
surprised by my licking his asshole. I said that
it was an involuntary reaction, something I
didn't intend or consciously do. He then asked
me if I wanted to try it again.

I didn't respond for a minute or so and he
repeated the question. I asked him why he wanted
to know. He brought up the gloryhole at the park
again and told me he saw the person in the stall
next to me and that the reason I took so long
was that I had given the guy a blowjob. I told
him yes I had played with the guy's dick and
sucked on the head. I told him it was a real big
dick, like in the magazines and he told me the
guy was probably 35 or 40 years old. He asked if
I enjoyed the encounter and I replied I did,
even though I was scared. His response than was
to tell me I was either homosexual or bisexual.
After he explained the difference in his own way
I had to admit I liked dicks, balls and ass on
men and liked being around men.
He got out the magazine showing the guy getting
his ass licked and opened it to several pages
showing me the things that guys did with each
other. I was horned up and turned-on again which
he noticed and mentioned. He pulled off his
briefs and showed me his soft dick, showing me
how it did not turn him on to see this like it
did me. However, since his brother's friends had
sucked his dick and licked his ass before I
could do the same and learn how to do it right
when I got around to having sex with another
guy. I replied fine, show what your brother's
friends do.

He got on his back on my bunk and told me to
start sucking his dick. After a couple of
minutes he told me to move down to his balls and
to be gentle, like they're your own, and lick,
suck and fondle them. Since he had been swimming
not long ago his crotch was very clean and had
little sweat. I didn't mention it to him, but
that sweaty, musky crotch smell was a real turn-
on. As I was sucking on his balls he began
pulling his legs back to his chest and rolled
his ass up into my face.

What a sight! This position naturally spread the
cheeks open exposing his hole to my gaze and the
view made me drool. I began licking the area
between his balls and asshole watching his
reaction. As I flutter licked down to his hole,
it involuntarily winked at me twice, pushing in
and out inviting a lick, a kiss even a light
suck. I began to pick up a bit of that male musk
smell as I worked my way up and down his ass
crack. It drove me to attack his ass and asshole
with renewed enthusiasm. Licking one cheek and
lightly biting at it before moving over to the
other cheek. Then giving one long lick from the
top of his ass cleft all the way up to hole and
further on to his balls, lightly nipping at the
root of his dick.

Then I move back to attack his hole directly
sucking lightly on his ass lips, even nibbling
lightly on his puckered hole, before driving my
tongue up into his hole. The more I worked his
hole directly the more relaxed it became, even
opening up like a flower bud welcoming my
stabbing tongue! He was moaning and writhing in
ecstasy, telling me to do it more, telling me
not to stop and actually working his ass against
my tongue eagerly seeking it out to tongue fuck
his asshole. I made love to that ass for almost
an hour when he moaned he needed to shoot a
load. He shot an intense load of cum on his
chest, face and in his hair rolled up in a ball
as I felt his ass hole clench and release in
pumping rhythm around my tongue. As he uncoiled
he reached for my dick telling me he would jack
me off, only to find I had already shot a load,
albeit a small one, earlier without even
touching myself.

He looked at me and told me I was a natural
cocksucker and ass licker. I didn't take that
too well until he explained it was a compliment.
I was better than most of his brother's friends
and some of them have been at this for 5 or 6
years. He gave me a big hug and suggested we go
take a shower. When we got dried off and back in
bed I realized he had to go home in 3 more days.
I wondered if he could stay longer.

More to come.....

I now realized I was a cock sucking, ass
licking homosexual