Date: Sun, 6 Aug 2006 13:19:42 -0700 (PDT)
From: chefjlu@sbcglobal.net
Subject: When I Knew I was Gay, Part 5

Disclaimer: If you are not yet 18 years of age or if it is
illegal to read materials of this kind where you live, then
please stop now. This story contains descriptions of sexual
activity between teenage boys and men. And is for adult eyes
only! The acts are consensual and are a result of their love
or lust for one another. This story is completely true, all
personal descriptions, and names have been changed to
protect people's identities and privacy.
I would love to hear from you, so write to me about your
experiences.



I'm a 5' 9", teddy bear, dark blonde hair, fairly hairy, 6"
cut, low-hangers with blue-gray eyes, and mid-forties now. I
have kept a journal since I was quite young of my
adventures, as well I have a photographic memory and can
recall past events with great clarity. These are the
continuing adventures as I entered into junior high.



Summer ended and it was time for back to school. Barry
stopped by the house on a Saturday late in August to say his
goodbyes before heading home to school for the fall. I was
really going to miss him, I had a certain feeling towards
him in the pit of my stomach. Sorta like "puppy love". He
had some good news though, he said his Mom was planning to
come up during Thanksgiving and spend the week here. I told
him that would great and I would look forward to him being
here then. He asked what I was doing now, maybe we could go
for a swim. I replied no, Mom was taking my brother and me
shopping for school supplies and new clothes for back to
school. I asked if he wanted to join us I was sure Mom
wouldn't mind. He said he had to call home first. His mother
said it was fine and it would give her time to pack.

When we got to the mall my brother had to get some cleats
and some sports gear so I told mom we would head into the
department store so I could pick out some clothes. Funny as
it seems now, I had a fashion sense even at the age of ten
and my mother allowed me to pick out my own clothes usually.
When we got to the boy's department one of the sales ladies
asked if she could help and I explained I was going to pick
out some clothes for school and my mother would be along
soon. She smiled and said she would be right across at the
check-out. She kept an eye on us for several minutes almost
as if I had lied to her and was going to steal something.
Finally the manager of the store came along, who our family
knew quite well, and he stopped to talk to me and asked
where my mother was. The sales lady couldn't hear him
completely, but Barry noticed a smirk on her face and she
approached as if she knew I was a trouble maker. The manager
told her who I was and asked her to get me a key to the
dressing room. She seemed as if someone had let the wind out
of her sails and quickly got the key.

I had tried on everything and they fit fine when my mother
and brother arrived. She looked over everything and was
pleased so she gave me $10 for Barry and me to go get a
snack while my brother shopped, she would meet us in the
food court. Off we went to get an ice cream or something.
While we sat there I had to go to the bathroom, Barry said
he would keep an eye out for my mother. The bathrooms were
located down a long corridor and you had to go through 2
doors to get in. Once inside there were 3 urinals and 5
sinks along the right hand wall and 4 stalls along the left
hand wall. I didn't notice anyone else in the room and I
went in the 2nd to the last stall. There was a bunch of
graffiti on the walls. I pushed down my shorts and briefs
and sat on the toilet beginning to read about who Susie who
could show you a good time and a phone number to call when I
heard the outside door squeak open and then someone entered
the room.

Whoever it was stepped into the last stall next to mine on
my left. I saw Converse sneakers which were quickly topped
by a pair of sweat shorts and boxer shorts. He sat down and
everything went quiet. I went back to reading a limerick
someone had written on the wall when I noticed his right
foot move under the partition and tap lightly 3 times. I
paid no attention, not knowing it was a signal, shook off my
cock (I only had to piss actually) and was preparing to
leave when he whispered he would suck my cock. This scared
me as well as intrigued me and I sat back down. Suddenly I
heard some scraping noise and noticed a hole open up in the
partition just to the side of the toilet paper dispenser! It
was a gloryhole just like the one at the park, which I
should mention had been boarded up.

I leaned down and peered into it trying to get a glimpse of
whoever was next door. He had taken his t-shirt off and I
saw a hairy chest with a broad trail of hair running down
his stomach to his pubic hair above his cock. His cock was
hard and looked about 5 or 6 inches with his balls resting
on the front edge of the toilet. Leaning way down I saw his
face and was shocked! It was the quarterback of the football
team from the school in the next town over! I knew him and
his family because they belonged to the same country club as
my parents. He was 17 and gonna be a senior this year. He
also was very cute! Blue-eyed, blond shaggy hair and a very
sexy looking mouth, he wanted to suck my cock? That couldn't
be! He dated this girl at the country club from their school
who was a cheerleader and very pretty herself.

He put his finger up to the hole and ran it around the edges
whispering to put my cock through the hole. I stood and
pushed my cock through the hole and felt him stroke it a
couple of times. He asked how old I was and when I said 10
he mumbled something about me being too young. Next I felt
my cock surrounded by a warm wetness and realized he was
taking my cock into his mouth. He sucked on my cock moving
up and down on it for a couple of minutes when I felt ready
to cum. I felt my orgasm begin but couldn't tell if I was
shooting much of anything. When I stopped spasming I pulled
my cock back and squatted down motioning him to put his cock
through. He whispered that my cum tasted sweet and he was
surprised I shot anything, as young as I was.

I saw his cock coming through the hole which really turned
me on, but more intriguing was the sweat odor coming off of
it and from his crotch. He said he was pretty ripe, been
practicing and hadn't showered, so if I didn't want to do
him that was okay. He didn't want me to do anything I didn't
want to or like. I didn't reply, I just attacked his cock
and took deep breaths of his maleness! We heard the outside
door squeak and we both sat down. It was Barry and he said
my mother was on her way he could see her down the way. I
said okay, I'd be out in a minute.

Once he left I was back at the hole when I slipped and asked
Jim (his name) to put his cock through. He got down at the
hole and with fear in his voice asked how I knew him. I told
him and apologized and he got a worried expression in his
voice about how I couldn't tell anyone! I told him not to
worry but I wanted to finish. He pushed his now soft cock
through the hole and I started to work on it again. He
couldn't get it to get real hard and told me he was too
scared of being caught. I stopped and pulled up my shorts
and stepped out of the stall to wash my hands. He came out
as well, slipping on his t-shirt. What a sight, he was about
6' 1" with those clear blue eyes, hair popping out over the
collar of his shirt and the hairiest damn legs I think I had
ever seen. He again mentioned telling no one and I assured I
wouldn't. He grabbed me in a hug and kissed my forehead then
walked out.

I went out and my mother and brother were getting a soda
before we headed to the car. Walking out Barry asked me what
I was doing in the bathroom. I told him about sucking a
guy's cock leaving out the bit that I knew him or who he
was. His eyed widened and he asked incredulously, "Really?!"
I nodded yes as we got to the car and he said he wanted to
know more! We were back home in 15 minutes and I told my
mother I was going to walk with Barry back to his house to
her reply that dinner would be ready at 6:30.

I related what happened at the mall in a bit more detail as
we walked to Barry's house and I was sure Barry was getting
hard cause he kept picking at his shorts. At his house his
mother mentioned he needed to finish packing his things. She
asked if we wanted something to drink and fixed us some
lemonade. We went up to his room to pack when we passed his
brother's room. Craig was taking a nap lying on top of his
bed in only a pair of briefs. I couldn't help but stare!
Barry sort of giggled and told me to stop it, I looked
silly. We went on to his room. We talked some more and he
said he was a bit confused whether he liked girls or boys. I
told him how Juan had explained being bisexual and that some
guys like both! He said maybe that was him. What about me?

Without hesitation I replied I knew I liked boys and that
girls didn't turn me on. He looked at me and asked how I
knew that? I didn't act like I hated girls. I told him I
didn't hate girls, they just didn't do anything to my cock.
In the magazines we had I liked looking at the guys and when
I did my cock got hard. When I looked at the girls my cock
did nothing. He said the pictures period turned him on and
he didn't really notice the girls or the guys in particular.
I laughed and said "See - you're bisexual!" He wasn't sure
he said and maybe at some point he could talk to his brother
about it.

His brother had woken up by now and came down the hall to
Barry's room, still in just his briefs! He was scratching
his balls through his briefs and asking his brother if he
needed any help? I, true to nature now was staring at Craig
getting a hardon. I could smell his man scent and it was
turning me on! Barry wasn't paying much attention stuffing
clothes into his suitcases, but before Craig turned and
walked away he reached into his briefs and readjusted his
cock and gave me wink. When he turned and left I could have
dropped and taken a bite out of his ass! It filled those
briefs to bursting and his cheeks were so firm that they
just snapped up and down as he walked away. Barry turned and
looked at me and with a big grin on his face whispered I
looked like a dog in heat!

It was getting near dinner time and even though I would have
loved to get my hands on Barry's cock I said my goodbyes and
headed home. Barry's mom reminded me about them coming up
for Thanksgiving. She would call my mom and see if we might
"co-cook" Thanksgiving. I told her I would mention it to mom
and headed home. The next few days were uneventful and I was
getting impatient waiting for school to start. Finally Labor
Day passed and school was on!

We were getting a new scheduling layout for classes in our
grade, a kind of experiment. The class was being divided
into four groups and we would move between 2 classrooms. One
classroom was English, History, Language, etc. and the other
would be Math, Science and the like. The first grouping was
done by simply working down the class list assigning 1,2,3,4
repetitively to names. Within a week this proved to be a
poor way to split the class up. It didn't work well to level
boys & girls within the groups, and in one case, my group;
of the 24 of us in the group we had all but one of the top
ten grade point average students in our group. Finally one
of the teachers suggested dividing the top 16 evenly among
the groups and then rounding out the groups with the
remaining students. This worked perfectly!

I certainly approved of the new grouping as it put with a
whole bunch of guys I wasn't real friendly with and didn't
hang around much. Since we had gym classes by groups I would
get to see a whole new bunch of guys in the locker room I
had never seen before. It also was a real plus when the
assistant principal gave a bunch of us tutoring assignments
to work with particular people to help them out in their
studies. I was assigned to tutor math to two guys who had
failed fourth grade the year before. The first guy's name
was Robert. I knew him in passing and that was about it. He
was pretty good looking, but had a bad reputation in school
and out. He smoked (at 12!), had red hair, green eyes, and
was tall and thin. He had 5 brothers and sisters and they
were all "problem" kids for the school. The other guy was
Peter and he was very good looking, with black hair, brown
eyes and dark complexion. He was tall and muscular at 13 and
I didn't know him at all, only by pictures and seeing him in
a line here and there. He was supposed to be in 6th grade,
but was held back after spending a year overseas with his
family. He really had smoldering good looks and bedroom eyes
- I realized this later, not then, I just knew he was
extremely good looking, like a model! I also was told he was
way behind in Math and just didn't grasp things well.

As much as I found the locker room exciting, checking out
other guys cocks, asses and balls it was far too confined
and watched over by the teacher for anything to happen.
Besides I didn't want other guys realizing I was looking at
them, so I developed great technique at getting glimpses and
looks. What I didn't expect was for my tutoring to develop
into what it did. Peter was the first to make a move and I
can say I wasn't sure what was happening at first. It was
after about 3 weeks of tutoring him. We had stayed after
school to work on some problems and were sitting in a small
room by the library to secure a quiet and private place. I
noticed him moving closer to me but thought it was so he
could see the worksheet better. Next he put his hand on my
thigh which moved on to massaging my thigh. I was getting a
hardon when his hand moved into my crotch and he rubbed my
cock. I was scared to look at him as I could tell he was
staring at my face.

Next he leaned on my arm and began kissing my left cheek. I
couldn't help myself, I turned and looked into his eyes
while asking him what he was doing? He said he liked me and
could tell that I liked him as well. I can say I really did
like him; he was a very sweet guy. A lot of the girls I knew
always asked me what he was like. They said he was very shy
and hard to talk to. I can say I never felt that around him.
When we took breaks he talked about his family, his
interests and what he wanted to be - a jet fighter pilot. I
can say up until this point I stayed a bit guarded, he did
have a bit of a temper (his sister warned me) and I didn't
want him to beat me up.

He didn't say anything more, just leaned in and kissed me on
lips. I had only dreamt of this happening and now here it
was happening. I closed my eyes for a moment when I felt him
move so that he was sitting on my lap facing me with his
arms over my shoulders. When my eyes opened he smiled and
gently placed his forehead against my forehead. I was going
to tell him we shouldn't be doing this where we were when he
placed his right index finger against my lips and said
"ssshhhhh". Then he kissed me again and when he broke the
kiss he told me he had wanted to that the first day we met.
He moved closer to me and I could feel his hard cock in his
pants pressing against my belly.

I moved my hands and placed them on his butt and leaned
against him pushing his back against the desk and placing my
head on his shoulder. He turned his head and asked if it
might possible that he stay at my house overnight. I told
him usually my mother only allowed sleepovers on Friday and
Saturday nights. He said he would ask his parents but didn't
think it would be a problem. Pretty much my parents wouldn't
have a problem with it. He hugged me tight in a bear hug and
kissed me again before returning to his chair. I asked him
if had any experience and he shook his head "no". He looked
at me and I said yes, I would tell him later.

When I got home that night I mentioned about Peter sleeping
over and Dad said there should be no problem, let mom call
his mother and make arrangements. Mom talked to his mother
and everything was set. At school the next day Pete was all
smiles when he came up to my locker and mentioned about
Friday & Saturday. I agreed it would be a lot of fun and
maybe next time I could come to his house. Well the next two
days went by so slowly I was sure it would never be Friday.
Finally Friday came and when Peter came up the hall he had a
duffle bag with clothes and that big smile! We lived near
the school so I walked usually, but I told Peter that my mom
would pick us up. She had to run to the mall, my brother had
a ball game and dad had a late meeting. My sister was going
to meet us at the mall and we could go to dinner then. He
said fine and the slowest day of my life began.

I'll skip the in between as nothing pertinent happened and
we finally got to our house about 8:30. We took Pete's stuff
up to my room. He was surprised I had 2 beds in my room and
I told him we used it as a guest room for visiting family
and I would sleep in the TV room on the fold-out couch. My
father called and said he and my brother would be late, they
had stopped for pizza with some of the team after the game.
Peter and I went out to barn to play awhile and I told him I
had a surprise for him.

In the barn we talked about our feelings and what we had
done. Peter was intrigued by my stories and got real excited
when I took out some of the magazines I had stashed away. He
was full of questions, all he had done is jack off with a
couple of guys he knew from the youth center. He asked if
there was anyone around the area we lived that I had done
stuff with. I told him about Ryan and Tom and he said he
knew Tom, but that he was a jerk. I can't say I hadn't
thought that way about Tom before but I pressed him about
what he meant. He said he thought Tom wanted to fool around
once and when he tried to kiss Tom, Tom punched him! He said
it happened towards to end of school last year.

It was about 10pm and I said we should head inside, we could
watch a movie or something before going to bed. He wanted to
take a couple of the magazines with him and I explained I
kept them well hidden out here. In the house my mom was
watching a movie and asked if we wanted some popcorn? We
said yes and she asked what kind of movie did we want to
watch? When we said a horror movie she laughed and said we
could watch it in the TV room. My dad and brother got home
finally and after a shower my brother went to bed. Finally
my mom and dad said goodnight and we stayed up watching
Dracula or something. As we lay on the floor watching the
movie we began an intense make out session, kissing and
rubbing each other. I could feel Peter's hard cock through
his shorts and I know he could feel mine.

We both agreed it was better to do this in my bedroom which
is at the back of the house and can't be heard in the front
of the house where my brother's and parent's bedrooms were.
My sister had her own apartment and only slept in her old
room once in awhile. Once in my room we stripped off our
clothes and grasped each other in a hug. I grabbed a hold of
Peter's ass cheeks and rubbed and squeezed them. They were
muscular, firm and I could feel a light bit of hair on his
lower back. We kissed each other several times and I began
to notice Peter's scent! He had just the beginnings of hair
around his nipples and a small patch growing in and around
his navel. His legs were covered in black hair that led up
to a thick patch of pubic hair surrounding his cock. His
underarms were thick with black hair also and when he raised
one arm I noticed the wetness from his sweating that clung
to that hair.

He rubbed my chest while I reached down and felt his hard
cock. It was about 6" or a little more, but quite thick.
When I brought my hand off his balls and sniffed at it, it
had the musky, sweaty smell only a man can produce. I put my
arms around his waist again and began playing with his ass,
running my fingers through his ass crack and feeling the
hair growing at the base of his crack and around his ass
hole. When I brought those fingers to my nose to sniff, I
heard him sniff at my fingers as well. The intense muskiness
made my cock stiffen. He giggled and looked at me and said
he loved the smell of his ass when it was sweaty. When he
jacks off he runs his hand through his ass crack and then
closes his eyes smelling himself while beating his cock!

I told him I did the same, but with him here now I had the
real thing to sniff and play with. He giggled again and we
lay down on the floor on our sides with our faces in each
other's crotch. My first move was to place my nose in the
crevice between his inner thigh and ball sack and take in a
deep breath. Oh he smelled good! Peter had grabbed a hold of
my cock and was licking at its head like an ice cream cone.
He stopped and told me he had waited too long for this.

 I engulfed his cock in my mouth and began giving him a true
blow job, his first! After a couple of minutes I released
his cock and began licking his balls. This set him to
moaning and he spread his legs wide and pushed his pelvis at
me so I could lick even more of his ball sack. As I moved to
lick at the backside of his balls I got another whiff of his
ass! I grabbed at his legs and rolled onto my back pulling
him over with me and putting his ass within easy reach of my
tongue. He was now alternating between sucking on my cock
and sucking and licking my balls.

I began to lick and lightly "nip" at his "taint" which was
thick with black hair and slowly worked my way up to his ass
hole. I took one broad swipe with my tongue up into his ass
crack and over his ass hole and he almost screamed out,
burying his face in a pillow so as to muffle his cries of
joy! I pulled back and out for a second and he turned
looking at me, almost pleading with me not to stop. It felt
so wonderful he said, "please lick my ass again". I dove
back in and kissed his ass hole feeling his whole body
shudder and feeling his cock which was trapped between my
chest and his belly pulsate. He grabbed at my thighs and
pulled them back opening my ass up and I then felt his
tongue lave against my hole. Then he just buried his face in
my ass and licked at my asshole driving me to near insanity!

He kept rubbing his cock on my chest as I kissed, licked and
sucked on his ass. He went between sucking my cock and
licking my ass and soon I felt his cock harden and began
shooting his load on my chest and on his stomach. When he
stopped shooting he lifted up and apologized, to which I
said no apology needed! I licked on his softening cock
tasting his cum. He went back to work on my cock sucking on
it and stroking it until I began shooting my load. He then
took my whole cock in his mouth, and nursed on it coaxing
out as much cum as possible.

He turned around and moved up and over me kissing my
stomach, chest and finally my mouth. I could taste some of
my own cum as he kissed me. Then he lay atop me as we just
cuddled for a few minutes. After some time we cleaned up and
as I got into bed he remarked that I slept naked? I said
sure nobody will bother you. He slipped off his briefs and
crawled into bed. Just as I was falling asleep I heard him
get out of bed, bathroom trip? No, next I felt him slipping
into my bed snuggling up to me placing his arm around my
waist. We slept the rest of the night that way.

We had a great time on Saturday and a repeat of the night
before on Saturday night. This night we were able to stretch
things out a bit as we were less tense than the night
before. We moved into a "69" and spent a long time sucking
each other's cock and eating each other's ass when Peter
shifted around and got on the floor at the foot of the bed.
He coaxed me down the bed with his head at my crotch and
began to play with my cock and balls. He jerked it for a
while, then would lick my cock some, then sucked on my balls
before repeating the whole thing over again. At one point he
just engulfed my cock in his mouth and swirled his tongue
all around the head causing me to shudder. At the same time
he began fingering my ass. Then he let go of my cock and
pushed my legs up towards my chest exposing my ass fully to
him.

He began by kissing my ass cheeks before moving in to kiss
my ass hole. He began licking at my ass bypassing my hole
for over 5 minutes and it was driving me insane! I had my
head propped up on a pillow looking into his eyes and
whispered to him to put his tongue in my ass. I couldn't see
his mouth but was sure he had that big smile on it when I
felt his lips reach out to my ass hole and give it a sloppy
wet kiss. Then I felt his fingers circling my hole before he
placed his thumbs on either side and tried to pull my hole
open!  I felt a coolness on my hole and realized he was
lightly blowing air on it. Then I felt the flicker of his
tongue as he licked at my hole. I relaxed and tired to open
my hole to best I knew how when I felt his stiff tongue
penetrate my hole. The sensation was incredible! He pulled
out and spread my hole open again while he pushed his tongue
in as far as he could.

He sat back a second and told me my ass tasted great. I
wasn't prepared for his next move, nor do I know how he knew
to do it. He pulled my hole open and pushed his tongue in
and then began rapidly pushing it in and out by snapping his
head back and forth! The tongue, the movement and his lip
covered teeth hitting at the rim of my hole when he pushed
his face in was too much! I began to shiver and felt my cock
orgasm shooting out a load onto my chest and stomach. He sat
back panting for a breath before moving up on the bed and
giving me a big sloppy kiss. He was amazed I had shot
without even touching my cock, I mentioned the same thing.
We lay in bear hug for 10 minutes or so when I told him he
hadn't got off yet, how did he want it? He said something
about me fucking him and I wasn't quite ready for that.

He then confessed that he had stuck several things up his
ass and fucked himself when he jacked off at home. He really
liked the feeling of getting fucked. I told him I wasn't
sure, everything I read about getting fucked in the ass
talked about it hurting. Secondly I wasn't into shit and
didn't want to get my cock dirty up his ass. He got off the
bed and went to his duffle bag and brought back this
cylindrical object. I asked him what it was and he told me
it was a vibrator. We could use this to fuck with all we
needed was some lotion to help it go in. I had a bottle of
Vaseline Intensive Care and he put some on the vibrator. He
told me he wanted to play with my cock while I fucked him so
we got back into a "69" and he began sucking cock while I
began licking his ass first.

I copied some of the stuff he had done to me, using my
thumbs to open up his ass hole and poking my stiffened
tongue up into his ass. God, this was hot! His ass tasted
great and every time I pushed up into his ass and wiggled my
tongue around I could feel him shiver. I began working a
finger in and soon had 2 then 3 fingers moving into and out
of his hole. His ass felt quite relaxed and I grabbed a hold
of the vibrator and brought it to his hole. I pushed lightly
watching the tapered head enter his ass. As I pushed more
into his ass I could feel him tense up some and asked if it
was hurting him? He said "not really" and I asked just what
that meant? He told me to just leave it where it was so he
could used to it. After a minute or so he said okay push it
in some more. Another inch and he tensed up again. He told
me to turn on the vibrator by twisting the end. When I did
it came alive with a buzzing noise and I could feel it
vibrating in my hand.

He began moaning and told me to begin fucking him with the
vibrator. I miscalculated and it slipped all the way out and
I could see his ass hole snap shut and pulsate, almost as if
in relief. He told me to push it back in, all the way right
away. He shuddered as I did but began moaning and wiggling
his ass in my face a bit, telling me to fuck his ass. With
better control I began a slow but steady in and out motion
as the vibrator buzzed him into oblivion. His cock was hard
and he began a fucking rhythm of his cock on my chest. He
said he was cumming and had to grab a pillow to bury his
face in as he shot his load, almost screaming. When I felt
his orgasm subside I turned off the vibrator and pulled it
from his ass.

His ass hole didn't immediately close up and the rim of his
hole was slightly puffed and red. I couldn't help myself as
I leaned in and began lightly licking at his hole. He buried
his face in the pillow and screamed out pushing his ass
against my face so hard I couldn't breathe! I pushed against
his ass cheeks and he pulled away. He said his ass was on
fire and my licking it was the most incredible sensation he
had ever felt! He leaned back on his haunches and his ass
hovered over my face. I went back at his hole, kissing it
and pushing my tongue up into it. His hole was still puffed
up and I found it easy to begin a slow rhythmic fucking of
his ass with my tongue. It turned him on so much he began
talking to me, telling to "kiss his hole", "lick my butt
hole", "right there, stick your tongue in" and more. All
through this was also moving his ass back and forth, up and
down and even reaching back and pulling his cheeks open even
further.

I was lost in the moment and so totally turned on by
everything I didn't notice when he pushed out on his ass
opening his hole up and begged me to push my tongue up his
hole so he could "ride it". He pinched my right nipple to
get my attention and told me to stay still with my tongue
stuck up his hole. He then began "bouncing" on my face,
fucking himself with my tongue! At the same time he began
jacking his cock and it was all too much for me. He reached
out to jack on my cock and just as he touched it I began
shooting another load! Then I felt his cum hitting my
stomach and legs as he began shooting his second load.

He rolled onto his side next to me before moving up and
kissing me all over my chest, neck and face. He had that big
smile turned on and told me that was incredible. We stayed
up for quite awhile rubbing each other's bodies and kissing.
He looked me in my eyes at one point and "thanked" me. I
asked what for? His reply was "I want to thank you for just
being here. I was beginning to think I was the only guy who
felt about other guys like this. I've been beat up being
called a faggot for looking at other guys and ever since Tom
punched me I've been petrified of him telling people at
school. You don't seem to let that bother you!"

I told him that I thought about the same things and was
always afraid of getting caught staring at other guys, and
getting picked on or beat up for it. My only help was my
brother who as a jock gave me access to certain situations
and also gave me some credibility with other jocks and in
the locker room. My brother is also a big guy and some guys
were probably scared of him if they did anything to me. I
told him I was surprised at how he came onto me and how did
he know I wouldn't punch him?

He said he just had a feeling about me. Somehow I was like
him and wouldn't do anything even if I wasn't receptive to
him. I was always easy-going and relaxed around everyone. I
told him I had hopes when I saw him but would never have
done what he did. I would have chickened out. I was afraid
he would beat me up. He told me he almost chickened out, but
figured the worst that would happen is that he would lose me
as a tutor. He was now glad he had gone through with his
plan.

This is the beginning of Junior High and I was looking
forward to a lot more adventures!

Next the encounter with Rob...