Close to
the Heart
By:
Hal
(Copyright 2007 - 2008 by
the Author)
Editors: Radio Rancher & Str8mayb
The following is a complete
work of fiction. Any resemblance to
characters and real life persons is completely coincidental.
The following story
contains violence and erotic homosexual situations
and content. If it is illegal for you to read this, please leave now.
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not copy or distribute this story without the author's permission.
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"Isn't there anything they can do? I mean, you're in a hospital for f**ks sakes." Tom was
riled now. He didn't like to see anyone suffer.
"They are doing the best that they can. They have made it tolerable so far." Ian looked at the concerned look on Tom's face. There was real worry behind those grey eyes.
"Are you sure? Looks to me like they could be doing more..." Tom didn't finish his sentence. He didn't know what to think about Ian's health. He just didn't know what to think.
"Can you drop it please? I'm not feeling like talking about it." Ian turned his head and stared at some invisible spot on the wall.
"Sure, guess so." Tom looked at Ian, and couldn't even fathom the depth of pain that he was in.
Tom couldn't get the blood to leave his cheeks. He nodded his head instead.
Ian looked around the room, and then surveyed Tom. Was this safe for him to do?
Ian crawled out of bed. He immediately grabbed his stomach as the spasms hit him.
"You okay?" Tom sputtered out at the sudden movement.
"Yeah. Just give me a sec to get there." Ian caught his breath, and took his time crossing the room.
Tom tried to reach around to grab the table, while he kept a close eye on Ian.
"Go ahead, grab them. I'll get there." Ian took baby steps to Tom's bed.
Tom scooted over to make room for Ian to sit down. He twisted his body and grabbed the top two presents.
The two small boxes seemed just to be the right size to open the day before the holiday.
"You go first." Tom scooted up the bed, and tried to sit up.
"No, you first." Ian blushed as he watched Tom move.
"Let's do it at the same time then." Tom placed the small box on his lap and waited.
"O-okay." Ian turned and sat with one leg bent. This was a new experience for him.
"Alright, on three. Ready? One...two...three." Tom watched Ian's eyes grow large as saucers as the paper began to rip.
"Oh wow!" Ian looked at the hand held game like he'd never seen one before.
"Kewl. I always wanted one of those." Tom couldn't hold back his enthusiasm.
"Hey, you cheated. You didn't open the one you have." Ian's smile fell as he watched Tom.
"Oh, yeah." Tom opened the package. His eyes lit up as it was a bonus pack for the game that Ian held.
"Oooh! That's soo neat!" Ian got excited. He'd actually never seen or been able to play with the new games.
"Looks like we'll have to share, huh?" Tom winked as he noticed the grin plastered on Ian's face.
Ian stopped smiling. He placed the game on the bed and turned to get up.
"Hey, where you going?" Tom reached for him.
"It was a nice gesture, but ..." Ian stood up and stopped.
"But what? I can't share with my friend? My only friend?" Tom sat upright, with his hands at his sides supporting his body. His eyes watched the impression where Ian sat fade as the blankets moved.
"They are your gifts. These are your presents..." Ian couldn't turn and look Tom in the face.
"No. You're wrong." Tom had a sly grin on his face as he looked at Ian's back.
"What? What're you talking about?" Ian turned and faced Tom.
"That was my present to you. My new best friend." Tom smiled like the cat that just ate the canary. He wanted to do something for Ian, and it dawned on him.
"What? You're just gonna give me this?" Ian picked up the game and stared at it.
"Well, friends do special things for each other. I decided you needed a present, so I gave you one of mine. It's just the luck of the draw." Tom watched Ian's face change from one of hurt, to an overly joyous smile.
"Y-y-you sure?" Ian couldn't take his eyes of the game.
"Yes. I've never been more sure in my life." Tom scooted the accessories across the bed towards Ian.
"I-I –I don't know what to say..." Ian sputtered out as tears ran down his cheeks.
"A simple thank you, would work. Or a hug..." Tom didn't care. He was happy to bring some joy into Ian's life.
Ian almost dropped the game. His eyes peered over to Tom.
"A h-h-h-hug?" Ian's body began to tremble.
"Is there something wrong with a hug? I used to hug Derek and Jeremy all the time. There's nothing wrong with it. Friends hug each other." Tom tilted his head and watched Ian. He'd never seen anyone react like that. He held his arms apart, in hopes of getting his wish.
Ian's brain tossed it back and forth. There wasn't any touching allowed in his family, especially since ...
He couldn't help himself. If a simple hug was the payment for this wonderful gift, he was willing to chance it. He stepped closer to Tom, and tried for a quick hug.
"Oh no you don't." Tom grabbed Ian and made the hug count.
The emotions rose, the good and the bad. Ian couldn't help but cry as he was held by Tom.
"It's okay. Everything's going to be okay." Tom whispered into his ear. Without thinking about it, he gave Ian a small peck on the cheek.
"No, you can't do that." Ian jumped back, and tried to wipe the kiss off.
"Why? Did it feel bad or something?" Tom was surprised at Ian's reaction.
"No." Ian kept trying to rub his cheek.
"Sorry. I didn't mean to offend you. I just thought..." Tom lowered his head in embarrassment.
"It's not that I don't think you're cute and all, it's just that..." Ian wanted to let him know, but couldn't bring himself to.
"Can we still be friends at least?" Tom glanced up, and caught the blush that was a surely a Kodak moment.
"Well..." Ian tried to hide his excitement. He watched Tom like a hawk, for any signs that he was going to try something else.
"Okay, how bout we just try out your new game, and no touching then." Tom scooted further to the opposite side of the bed.
Ian nodded his head in agreement and sat down on the side of the bed.
The two boys opened the packages, and had parts and pieces spread all over. Once they figured out how to put batteries in, and decided which game to start with, that was all it took.
They were laughing and giggling the rest of the night. Ian had to sit closer to Tom, so he could watch. True to his word, Tom kept his hands to himself.
They didn't watch the time, or care about it. It was their time to have fun. Sheila poked her head in the door a few times, to check on them. She noticed how much fun they were having, and left them alone.
The night was getting late, and Sheila had to tell the boys more than once to be quiet.
The final time, around 10pm, it was med time. The boys groaned, but they were reminded that tomorrow was another day.
Ian winked at Tom, and gave him a quick hug and peck on the cheek before he tried to walk back to his bed.
He was almost to his bed, when his knees began to buckle. Sheila was at his side, and helped him into bed.
"I knew you were getting too tired. It's way past your pill time, and you need rest, young man." Sheila tried to scold him, but enjoyed watching the boys have fun.
"Yeah, yeah. And you always say, tomorrow is another day... what happens when..." Ian stopped when he looked at Tom keeping an ever watchful eye over him.
"We'll cross that bridge, when the time comes. Now, your pill." Sheila didn't want to spoil the mood either.
Sheila made sure Ian swallowed his meds, and then went to Tom's bed to give him his pill. The doctors wanted to make sure he got sleep, and prescribed something to make sure it happened.
"Now boys, get some rest. It's already late." Sheila watched them as she backed out of the room.
"Thanks Tom. That was the best gift anyone has ever given me." Ian sniffled as tears trickled down the side of his face.
"No prob. And thank you, Ian. You made this a wonderful day." Tom watched him, as the look on his face changed.
"Oh, the pills are making me feel sick again." Ian rolled on his back and started to rub his stomach.
"You want me to call the nurse?" Tom tried to sit up, but the excitement had worn him out, and the pills were fast acting.
"No. I think it will pass soon." Ian let out a loud yawn.
"If you say so..." Tom tried to resist, but sleep was coming to claim him. He closed his eyes, and was lost to the world of dreams.
Tom woke to noises in the room. It wasn't Ian moving around, but nurses moving the bed.
"Where's Ian? What happened to him?" The panic in Tom's voice was elevated.
"Sorry dear. But... here, this is for you." Sheila was crying. Her eyes were red and puffy, like she had been crying all night.
"What's this?" Tom accepted the notebook, and the game almost slid off the top.
Tom stared at the worn out notebook. Ian had scribbled on it over time. Tom looked at Sheila as she tried to leave.
"Ian... is he..." Tom choked out.
"He wrote you a letter hon, read it." Sheila couldn't help herself as she broke down in tears and had to leave the room.
Tom centered his attention on the spiral book in his lap. He sat up and tried to clear his mind. What was going on?
He opened the book with enough care as if it might crumble in his hands. Tears began to fall as he started to read.
To Thomas,
If you are reading this, then it was time. Time for me to go someplace that doesn't have the pain that I've been put through.
I told you I was sick. I didn't lie.
I was diagnosed with HIV, some months ago. I contracted it through a tainted blood transfusion. And since, everyone except you, has turned a blind eye towards me.
You are one true friend.
For that, I'm the luckiest kid alive.
When my parents won the lawsuit against the parties involved, they too, left me alone. I think they are sitting somewhere on the beach, drinking to their hearts content.
I'm so sorry, things couldn't have worked out. I started too really like you.
Don't be sad, this is what God had plans for me to do.
Just like His plan, of me meeting you.
Thanks, for being a friend.
Ian Carlson
Ps, I had to add to this, after you went to sleep.
Your sharing your presents with me, and the hug and kiss (which was REALLY nice, btw) made all the suffering I've gone through worth it.
Thank you so very much, for making my last day, so special.
Well, I've fought off the meds for too long. I think in some weird way, I knew it was my time.
Thank you for making this short life of mine, worth living.
And don't be sad, my suffering is over. I will never forget you. NEVER.
And thanks for loaning me the game to play.
Every time you play it now, you will think of me.
Take care of yourself Tom.
Hugz Ian
Authors note: This story is tied into Sean's Angel, my other story posted here. Please give it a read, if you haven't already.
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