Date: Thu, 21 Oct 2010 05:09:15 -0700 (PDT) From: Cailen Vature Subject: Raven Chapter 18 PLEASE READ THESE DISCLAIMERS: This story is a very long work of gay erotic science fiction. There are some scenes of man on man action but it will not be a dominating factor in this story. So if you are looking for something to get off to you might as well turn around now. The names and places in this story are entirely fictitious, any relation to persons or events are entirely coincidental. HOWEVER: they are based off of real places and events to make the story seem more plausible. If you are underage, or this is illegal where you are, then please do the right thing... (Whatever that may be...) This story is copyrighted, ©2010. To me the author and it is therefore illegal to copy or use any part of this story without my written permission. Which leads me to: If you have any desire to get in contact with me for comments, directions to a good Beta, pictures, or music relating to the story, or for permission to use my story (for lord only knows what...) You may contact me at my email address: cailenauthor@yahoo.com Thank you: Cailen Chapter 18: There's only us, there's only this... I had a rough next few days as I tried to not only complete my mountain of school work thanks to the sadism of Tim Driscoll. Jay had really helped me this week, but also practicing for the swim meet which thankfully I seemed to be back to my former glory, and lastly trying to find a good costume for the dance. Thankfully a breakthrough on Thursday came to me when at lunch Colin asked if he could borrow my old gymnastic gear because he wanted to go as a gymnast. I asked if I could borrow his football gear and it was settled I was going to go as a football jock for Halloween. The thought still made me smile. Saturday morning finally rolled around and Dad brought me to the school to wait for the bus. "Good luck champ we'll be there cheering for you" my dad called to me as he pulled away. I walked to the bus as some of the guys were climbing in and I moved towards the back and I saw Colin sitting down "Can I sit with you?" I asked "Can you find your own fucking seat?" he asked then cracking a smile "oh fine!" he sighed dramatically getting his bag and pushed it into the overhead rack "Thanks, I know you suffer so for my benefit" I said sitting down "No shit" We sat there in silence as everyone chatted amongst themselves when Ian got on the bus taking a seat in the very front. My heart clamored in my chest again. "I honestly don't know what that fucking idiot is thinking" Colin said "he's got to be the stupidest brick on the planet" directing to Ian "Well I really wish he'd figure out what he wants" I said "Did you tell him you're going to the dance with Jay yet?" Colin cracked a very evil smile "NO, and don't you dare tell him" I hissed "And ruin all my fun?" Colin's evil smile grew wider "No... so you don't ruin the shocked look on his face when he see's us dancing, please bring a camera" I said giving my own evil smile in return and Colin burst out laughing "Man after my own heart" Colin laughed and we enjoyed the rest of the ride to the meet. We got into the school and were directed to the practice pool so we could warm up before doing our actual runs. The coach ran us through our paces and I felt pretty confident about our ability. I was getting out of the pool when I heard coach's voice break over the other's "You need to get your head out of your ass Holiday!" Coach Clarke snapped Ian was getting read the riot act and had his head down looking ashamed We were then called to the starting area and we were waiting against the back wall waiting to be called to the starting platforms. I looked and saw Ian next to me. I took a few steps over to him and saw he looked upset. "Ian" I said "Dustin" Ian said looking up at me "Ian I need you to listen to me for a second, can you do that for me?" I asked Ian nodded "I'm sorry I hurt you, I want you to know that I love you, if you need me to be your friend I'll be that, if you want something more I'll be there for you. I understand why you'd be scared and why you wouldn't want to be with me" I said Ian looked like he was about to say something but I interrupted him "When we're out there, you're in your focused place there is no gay or straight, when we swim, we swim together! There is nobody else, there is only you and me, there is only us, you think of me and... and I'll think of you. In the water there are no boundaries or complications only a straight open path before us. Will you do that for me?" Ian seemed to be caught up in a wealth of emotions and I finally saw a spark light behind his eyes that I hadn't seen since I broke up with him. He nodded before throatily whispering "I'll think of you Raven" "Good" I said A whistle was called in the distance "That's our cue" I said turning around making my way up to my platform and stretched. The world dissolved away the crowd faded to black and in front of me and there was a clear narrow path of water. To my left I saw Ian give me a smile and we both crouched down. The same chill I had felt many times now spread over my body and as I fell into my trance time seemed to slow and the crowd faded away and even the pool seemed to fade into darkness. The only sound I could hear was my heartbeat. I heard the blast somewhere in the distance and we blasted off the starting platform with blinding speed... though for me everything seemed to be passing me in slow motion, but my brain was in overdrive. Only the water ahead... Only Ian... Breathe... Almost there... The crowd must have watched as two swimmers swam ahead of the pack and into the lead. In my peripheral vision I saw Ian and I were almost neck and neck as we swam faster and harder than I had ever before. My heart was racing as I pushed myself beyond anywhere I had ever been before to the point where even the water I was in had disappeared and there was only Ian in front of me with his arms wide I felt my arm connect with the side of the pool and popped my head out of the water as the world came back into his vision and suddenly I heard an announcer yell over the microphone "THAT'S IT, IT'S A NEW RECORD!" And like the sound of a jetliner revving its engines life seemed to return as a roar of the crowd suddenly filled my ears. I looked up at the score board and saw that not only did I break the old record by over a tenth of a second but Ian had crossed it as well by three-one hundredths of a second. I turned and looked at Ian who seemed to be caught in a wealth of emotions "C'mon Ian we got to get out of the pool" I said getting out and reaching down and giving Ian a hand who jumped up and gave me a bear crushing hug lifting me off the ground and spinning me around It was a special moment with Ian at my side as we finished the meet and we were presented our medals. For that moment there was only me and Ian and for a moment the world didn't matter. We got into the locker room and took a shower and got changed. Ian and I had finished for the day and we were the only ones in the shower room. "Dustin?" Ian asked me "Yes?" I asked "I wanted to talk to you" Ian said "What did you want to talk to me ab...?" I was suddenly cut off when Ian attacked me with a searing kiss I wrapped my arms around Ian and held him tightly and for the first time understood what love was. My feelings up until this point in my life were lust and a jumble of hormones and moments. For the first time I felt love and loved it in return as I held onto Ian and rubbed his back "I feel these feelings and I don't know what to do... I'm scared it's showing I'm afraid of everyone knowing I'm afraid of my dad finding out." Ian said "I'll protect you" I said "I wish I was as strong as you" Ian said "You're kidding... you kicked Cory's ass for me... you're my hero" I joked "I love you" Ian whispered breaking the kiss "But I need to tell you something important and I don't know how to tell you this but you need to know something... I've been hiding this for so long and you... you're a..." Ian didn't complete the thought as the door suddenly crashed open "Well well look at this" I whipped around to see Colin and Danny looking at us `Oh shit' I thought I turned to look at Ian who looked shell-shocked "So Ian what the fuck do you have to say for yourself" Colin said giving me a smirk I was shocked because here I was kissing Ian when I was supposed to be going with Dan's brother to the dance in just a few hours and he's just seen me doing it. I wanted to crawl under the floor and die. "Dustin its okay" Dan said coming forward and giving me a hug I don't know why but I started crying as Dan held me and Colin stood and watched looking decidedly uncomfortable. "I'm sorry" I sobbed into Dan's shoulder "Dustin look at me" I looked up into Dan's eyes and he very firmly held my shoulders "Feelings are funny... they never really go away, you only get new ones." He said quoting exactly what Jay had said to me yesterday and hearing his words calmed me somehow I looked up to look at Ian and realized he wasn't there "Where's Ian?" I asked "He left here about the time you started crying like a sissy" Colin said and I gave him a good punch on the arm for good measure. "Fuck you too" Colin laughed I realized Ian had run away from me again. I felt the pain in my heart again but realized this time it didn't hurt as much, I wondered briefly how many times it would take him to break my heart before I didn't feel it anymore. It was a very subdued trip home in silence even though we had swept the meet and had exceeded all expectations. I nearly ran off the bus and into my parents car. I didn't know if there was going to be an after meet gathering but I didn't care as dad drove us home. As soon as I was home I went up to my room and cried for a bit more before composing myself and took another shower and after getting out I put the base of my Halloween costume on; Jock, pads, pants, cleats and a tee shirt. I save the jersey and shoulder pads until I was ready to leave. I also settled the rest of the costume by adding the black lines under my eyes and I opted to let my hair down from its normal ponytail. I went downstairs and my parents were in the living room watching tv. "Hey champ" my dad said getting up and giving me a hug and a smile Despite how bad I felt he managed to put a smile on my face "Hey dad, thanks for coming to the meet" I said "Wouldn't of missed it" he smiled "your mom and I picked you up a Halloween present" my dad smiled `Oh god!' I thought My mom stood up and came over to me "Since we knew you were going as a football jock we thought it'd be a good joke to perhaps represent yourself a bit better" Mom said picking up a box and handing it to me I opened the box and looked down to see a football jersey done in the exact same style and color as our schools. On the front it had our school and logo. I turned it around and on the back it said `Gay Pride' and the numbers were 00 but instead of zero's they were man symbols. I couldn't help it and I laughed. I laughed and laughed as tears formed in my eyes as I was looking at this obscene jersey. "I don't know if I could wear this" I said looking it over "it's too funny though" I said "Well we thought since you're out that it was time to `represent' if you know what I mean" my dad said giving me a smile "Alright I'll wear it, so long as I can bring the other one if things get dicey" I said They acquiesced and I put on my pads and they helped me get the jersey on so they could take a couple of pictures before Jay came to get me. I finally hear the sound of tires outside followed by the sound of a horn. I grabbed my spare jersey and after giving both my parents a hug, for better or worse I was out the door.