Date: Thu, 12 Jun 2014 12:51:41 -0500 From: Miroslav Curren Subject: Kiss Around Midnight Ch. 8 ****************************************************************************** Writer's note: This story is about what me and my friend went through and what we are currently living through. This is pretty much the way our life is. Why did we decide to write this? Because love has no gender, we cannot help but to love guys, we did not choose this life, but now that we have embraced it we love it. We changed the names of people and the location because there are a lot of nuts out there and we really do not feel like being stalked. There is plenty of cursing because us and our friends curse like sailors, it's that simple. We want to thank you Miro for all the help we know you thought we were nuts for wanting to write it but thank you anyways. Enjoy and write Miro if you want to make a comment. Editor's note: I was approached by "Kieran and Caleb" not too long ago about writing this story after they found a couple of the Nifty stories that I had saved on my desktop. I was very apprehensive about them wanting to share their life and struggles with the general public. I made it clear to them that I thought it was a bad idea but they insisted on sharing it. They would like to help anyone out there struggling with their sexuality to be true to themselves. This story is pretty much how things went and how things are going for them, like all gay teens they have gone through some struggles but they have jealously been protected by us, those who care and love them. I have taken what they wrote (mostly Kieran) and expanded it to make it more entertaining. The sexual content within this story was extremely difficult to edit because it is something that I believed should ONLY be between the boys and no one else, they wanted to add it and with reluctance and after much thought I obliged. With that being said I guard their true identity with absolute jealousy, it is something that I have been entrusted with and I do not intend on breaking my promise to their parents or to them. I welcome all comments, I will not entertain any strange requests, so please don't even send them, thank you. Mirocurr@gmail.com ****************************************************************************** A KISS AROUND MIDNIGHT Chapter 8. Kieran stared at the phone desperately wishing he could take his words back but it was too late, he had pushed Caleb away. His anger left him almost immediately after he uttered those words, he didn't mean a word he said, it was purely out of anger, anger that he felt when his integrity was challenged. He prided himself in being trustworthy and when Caleb doubted him it sent him into a mind state that he immediately regretted. He couldn't stop looking down at his phone, he had to call back, he had to make things right. He frantically dialed the number, his hand shook as he held the phone to his ear. Caleb wanted the earth to open up and swallow him, he walked down the same street that he walked with an injured Kieran after he was jumped on by Jeff and his friends. The lump in his throat was suffocating him, it was an unbearable reminder of what he lost. His phone rang making him snap out of the trance like state he was in, he didn't bother to look who it was, he didn't care. "Yeah?" he mumbled into the phone. Kieran's tongue stuck to his palate, the words escaped him, tears were now streaming down his face. "I-I love you...I don't...I don't want to let you go" he sobbed into the phone, his head was spinning, he desperately tried to gather up the strength to continue talking. Caleb froze when he heard that familiar voice, his heart fluttered, he couldn't believe it was Kieran, it couldn't be, it just couldn't. "Kieran?" Caleb asked in disbelief "Yeahhh...I'm sorry bubby!" Kieran cried into the phone. Caleb's whole body tingled, he thought that his mind was playing a cruel trick on him, his feet couldn't move, his whole body was frozen in place. "I love you Kieran, I love you so much!" Caleb cried out. His heart was racing, tears were streaming down his face, he didn't care who heard him, who saw him, all he wanted at that moment was Kieran, he wanted his boyfriend more than anyone in the world. They both did not speak, they couldn't, their quiet sobs said it all. After a couple of minutes Caleb found his strength and began to mindlessly walk to nowhere in particular. "We need to talk" Caleb said. "Yah, just not right now okay? Can I ask you something? And be honest okay?" Kieran asked. "Okay..." "Do you love me? Do you really love me?" "Of course I do!" Caleb responded immediately. "I love you too...now please trust me when I say this but let's talk tomorrow not today okay? We should hang out with other people today..." Kieran suggested wanting things to cool down before they spoke again. "Okay but I don't want to lose you..." Caleb whined. "You won't, we will figure it out okay we just need time to relax" Kieran replied trying to comfort Caleb. "Okay..." he sniffled. Kieran got up to walk out of the garage, he opened the door and was met by a serious looking K.C, for a second Kieran panicked but realized that he had to come clean, he had to tell K.C what was going on. "What's that about?" K.C asked Kieran sighed and moved aside to let K.C in "We need to talk bro" Kieran said. K.C was dreading what Kieran was going to say, he was nervous that something serious was going on, he immediately assumed that Jeff was planning to do something so he immediately began to think about ways to get even. "Look...I don't know how to tell you or how you're going to take this..." Kieran began, he wasn't nervous or afraid, he felt odd telling his friend he was gay but he thought it was only fair for his best friend to know "I'm gay and me and Caleb are going out". "Oh shit" K.C said leaning on the wall for support, he looked as if he was going to pass out. Kieran began to blush "What?" he asked defensively, he was expecting Kieran to leave or call him hurtful names. "Nothing, I just thought you were going to say something else" Kieran replied sounding relieved it wasn't bad news. "Wait...so you don't care?" Kieran asked surprised that K.C was not upset. "Not really...I mean I do but it's no big deal dude...I honestly thought you were going to give me some bad news" K.C. replied as he smiled at Kieran. "Okay so you don't care that I'm gay? You don't think I'm weird or a fag or whatever?" "Whoa dude, don't call yourself that and no I don't care if you're gay...I kinda had a feeling anyways...why do you think I bug you so much about Vicky?" K.C giggled. "You asshole! I knew you were just fucking with me!" Kieran replied as he punched K.C on the arm. "Ow! FUCKER!" "HA! You deserved it!" "Okay I need food!" K.C said as he made his way back to the kitchen. *************************************** Caleb walked slowly back to Karlan's house he wanted to be alone but he also knew that he made a promise to Karlan and didn't want to break it. As he rang the bell Karlan's mother Becky answered. "Caleb! Hey sweetheart, come in, come in!" She cheerfully said as she ruffled his hair. "Hey Becky, how are you?" Caleb asked trying his best to smile. "Aww, what's wrong sweety?, is something bothering you?" She asked noticing that Caleb wasn't his normal self. "Yeah, life sucks is all" He choked fighting hard not to cry in front of her. "Come here" She said as she pulled him into a hug, feeling her motherly love he broke down and began to sob again, she rubbed his back trying to calm him down. "Let it out sweetheart...no shame in crying" she whispered in his ear. Karlan was watching his mother comfort Caleb and realized that something was truly wrong with him, he had never seen him cry this way before, he said nothing, he let his mother comfort his best friend as tears began to flow from his eyes. Becky gently broke her embrace and looked at Caleb in his eyes while still holding him by the shoulders "Feel like talking about it?" she softly asked. Caleb just shook his head, he didn't want to reveal his secret to her it was much too embarrassing. "Hey bub want to come up to my room?" Karlan finally spoke as he walked down the stairs and placed an arm around Caleb. He let Karlan guide him into his room. "I gotta tell you something so please lock the door" Caleb suddenly said. Karlan did what Caleb asked and locked the door, he sat down on his bed facing Caleb intently listening to what his friend was going to say. Caleb took a breath and sat down on the chair that was next to the bed. "I don't know how to say it, and I'm scared so please when I tell you just tell me if we are still friends or not and if we're not I'll just leave okay?" He said, his voice was shaky and barely audible. "Dude, we're always going to be friends, promise!" Karlan said as he fought back tears. "I helped Kieran out last Friday when Jeff jumped him" Caleb began "I walked him back home and we just kinda got hella cool, I've been wanting to talk to him for a while but the times that I did he kinda blew me off" he continued, Karlan nodded as he intently listened to what Caleb was saying. "Well when I took him back home we just became hella cool right? Well anyways I asked him why he blew me off those times I tried to talk to him and he said that it wasn't like that and that he had been wanting to talk to me for a while now so I was like yeah me too" Caleb said taking a deep breath "I slept over and we had a good time right? Well during the night he..." Caleb paused immediately beginning to blush "He grabbed my dick and at first it freaked me out but I didn't stop him". Karlan intently listened to his friend as he recounted the night that it all began interested in every word that he was saying "I liked it dude, so the next day he was playing some music and I kissed him" Caleb said as tears began to flow again. He sniffled and continued to recount his story "He thought I didn't mean it so I kissed him again but we got caught by his mom and dad, I freaked out and ran out but he followed me and told me to go back and I did, we talked about it and they asked me if we were going out and we both said yeah...So that's what I wanted to say, me and Kieran are going out and I am gay" Caleb finished as he buried his face in his hands and continued to cry. Karlan was stunned, he didn't know how to react, the news that his best friend was gay and had the same feelings he did stunned him, he regretted not having said anything to him sooner because now he had lost him to Kieran, he saw how much Caleb was hurting so without second thoughts he got off the bed and hugged Caleb tightly. "Dude I love you...I love you so much and I don't care you are gay you should've told me before all this man, you know you could trust me with anything right?" Karlan said as he gently pushed up on Caleb chin so that he could look him in his eyes. "Yeah but it's not easy...you don't understand how hard it is bro" Caleb said "If Micah finds out I'm dead, and if mom and dad know? Shit, they'll think I'm nuts!" "Bullshit I don't know...I'm bi or gay or fuck I don't know but I feel the same way dumb dumb" Karlan blurted out. "What!?" Caleb asked shocked at his friend's revelation. "Since when?". "Fuck I dunno umm since birth?" Karlan giggled "So yeah I kinda know how hard it is, only thing that sucks is that I can't have you now". Caleb blushed a deep crimson but said nothing, he smiled at his friend and hugged him tightly leaning his head on Karlan's chest. He loved hugging his friends this way because he was able to hear their heart beats, he thought it was very special to hear another person's heart. "I love you Karlan" Caleb sighed. "Me too...so do you feel better now? Karlan asked. "Well not really...I had a fight with Kieran because I caught him spooning with K.C and I thought that maybe they had something going on before me and yeah I told Kieran I didn't trust him much so he got mad and he said we broke up..." Caleb replied "but we kinda made up...he wants to talk tomorrow and today he kinda wants to just hangout by ourselves so we can just think about stuff". "Dude K.C and him have nothing going on...TRUST me when I say that" Karlan said trying to assure Caleb. "How do you know that? Has he said something to you? Caleb asked. "Promise you won't say anything?" Karlan said looking very serious. "Promise". "Okay well last year when he came to sleep over we were watching this movie and we both got boners and yeah so we started talking about jacking off and we did" Karlan whispered. "So wait you jacked him off?" Caleb said sounding shocked. "Yup, well more than that we kinda did more" Karlan proudly replied. "Yuck! you butt fucked?" Caleb giggled. "Maybe...but trust me after it was all done he told me he would never do it again and we still talk and stuff but whenever I talk to him about it he says he loves me like a friend but he is not gay...I guess I helped him that way...and remember when Jeff said he was butt fucking Kieran in the locker room?" "Yeah?" Caleb asked curiously. "Well I fucked with him after that and reminded him that he said he would never do it and he had broken that promise but he said it wasn't true and that he would never fuck a boy in his life...so there you go, Kieran is all yours". "Ugh! I'm so fucking retarded dude!" Caleb moaned feeling terrible for the way he had been acting. "One thing I've learned about all this...I'm not alone" Karlan happily said. "Yeah but you can't tell anyone...no matter what you can't even tell your mom and dad okay?" Caleb begged as he began to panic about Karlan's loose lips. Karlan unfortunately can't keep many secrets, sure he keeps some but when he thinks it's too juicy to keep well he "accidently" blurts it out, his friends have gotten on to him about that but the boy can't help it, it's just a flaw he has. "yeah okay dude I'm not THAT stupid" Karlan replied a bit annoyed that Caleb had to beg him. "So does Chloe know?" Caleb asked. "Fuck no, are you nuts?" Karlan replied. "Well don't you think she should? Do you even love her?" Caleb became curious about their relationship, he wanted to know why he was even with a girl if he thought he was gay. "Yeah just I dunno man I guess I wanted to try going out with a girl before I said I was bi or gay, hell I still don't even know, I like guys and girls all the same so that makes me? Bi I guess huh?" He asked Caleb trying to get help from his help to figure things out. "I dunno man I'm confused even more than you, just a few days ago I was single now I'm with someone, a guy!" Caleb replied, saying it out loud made things very real for Caleb, he wanted to be with Kieran but it was still weird for him to think about being gay. "So how big is your dick?" Karlan suddenly asked. Caleb began to laugh "You've seen it you idiot you know". "Yeah but at least it made you laugh" he replied back. *************************************** K.C and Kieran were in the living room eating some pop tarts and watching television, they both hadn't spoken in a few minutes and Kieran was beginning to worry that K.C was perhaps weirded out by the fact that he was gay. He didn't want to ask just in case that caused some strife between the two but the silence was killing him. "Umm why are you so quiet? Are you sure you're okay with me?" Kieran finally asked. "What? Yeah of course why wouldn't I be?" K.C replied obviously distracted by something. "Cus you've been acting kinda weird since I've told you, if you got a problem just tell me about it!" Kieran pressed. "I guess I do but not with you, I don't care if you're gay or not it's just that I'm worried about what people will say when they find out" K.C replied. "Oh, guess I haven't thought about that, actually I really don't care, people will talk shit behind my back and to my face no matter what I do, I could be the next mother Teresa and they will still find something stupid to talk about" Kieran said. "True, but I dunno I just don't want to see you hurt...AGAIN!" Kieran laughed, he really liked how K.C always cared about protecting him, he had always been very helpful in comforting him when people used to get to him. Back when they were in elementary school things were tough for Kieran, he wanted to do things that were not popular for boys, he liked to play with the girls and was too gentle to rough house with the boys, he liked playing pretend with the girls but didn't play any sports with the boys. This painted a large target on his back that K.C always tried to get rid of. "Look you don't have to fight my fights, I can defend myself if I need to" Kieran tried to assure him. "Yeah that's my point! You need to start fighting back!" K.C impatiently said. "And if I promise you that I will then will you stop worrying about me?" "That wont happen, I'll just worry a little less is all" K.C smiled. "Well okay I TRY to fight back, I just hate to fight and you know that". Kieran responded. "So what the heck are we going to do today?" K.C asked as he got up from the couch and stretched, "We need to get into something today, it's too nice out to not do anything" "Yeah good point, feel like going to the beach?" Kieran replied. "Hell yeah, got shorts I can borrow?" K.C asked. Kieran and K.C gathered some things in their backpacks for their day at the beach, Kieran told his parents where they were heading off to and left his house. They slowly walked to the beach enjoying the rays of sun that were now warming the day up. They had nothing special planned for the beach but there was usually something they could get into, they had many people that knew them especially the beach bums that always had a drum circle going. When they arrived at the beach sure enough the drum circle was already beating away, Kieran always liked to join them but K.C never did, Kieran didn't understand why he was so uptight at times and would always suggest that he relax and enjoy life. Kieran guessed it was because he was so vigilant about keeping his cool points that he just wasn't enjoying life as much as he should be and in a way Kieran pitied him and other people who worried too much about what people thought of them. This time though, when Kieran saw the drum circle he didn't head straight for them, instead he walked towards a group of high school kids who had set up a volleyball net and were intensely playing a game. K.C was following closely behind, they set up their towels and took their shirts off and lay down to enjoy the warming sun. *************************************** Caleb and Karlan decided to walk around town to see if they found something to do, Caleb was engrossed in his thoughts, almost losing Kieran had made him realize that he did care about him, that his feelings were real. He was relieved and glad that things between Karlan and himself were back to normal, well as normal as it can be after learning that his best friend was also struggling with his sexuality. As they were walking on Neptune Dr. they heard a honk from a car, at first they kept walking but when it kept going they looked up to see who it was. "MIRO!" both boys yelled as they ran towards the car. "Move you jackasses, I gotta park" Miro said as he maneuvered the vehicle over to the closest parking spot he found. Both Caleb and Karlan were excited to see Miro, he always seemed to cheer them up no matter what. He defended Caleb from Micah constantly so Caleb had a special bond with him. Both boys impatiently rushed over to where Miro was parking his car and waited until he got out. "What's going on?" He asked them. "Nothing, bored as hell!" they replied in unison. Miro offered to drive them around town, the boys jumped at the opportunity without even thinking twice, they were tired of aimlessly walking the streets trying to find some fun. They made small talk as they drove around. Caleb was able to forget his heart ache and began to enjoy the day, he smiled when he thought about how things had changed for him in a matter of days. Miro's phone rang interrupting the conversation they were having, Miro looked to see who it was and shouted "It's my babe!" the boys snickered because they knew full well who he was referring to. Miro had been out of the closet for several years now and they respected him for it. Caleb had always wanted to ask him questions, to figure things out with him but the opportunity never presented itself. As he heard Miro speaking to Luke so lovingly on the phone he was resolved to tell Miro everything about him, he wanted his cousin to know the truth, he wanted the support that so many had given him. He intently waited until he hung up the phone occasionally snickering whenever Miro spoke sweetly to Luke. "I need to tell you something" Caleb said the moment that Miro ended the call. Miro didn't respond he just nodded his head. Both boys were sitting in the backseat and the moment that Caleb told Miro that he wanted to tell him something Karlan immediately panicked because he knew what he was going to reveal. Karlan desperately tried to get Caleb's attention but he was ignored, he knew that Miro was gay but he didn't want people to know he was, he was nervous. "I don't really know how to tell you but I think I'm gay" Caleb finally said stunning Karlan, he buried his face in his hands and closed his eyes, he wanted to disappear and knew that he was turning several shades of red. Miro said nothing, he didn't know what to say, how to feel, he was in shock to hear his little cousin say that he was also gay. Caleb began to worry he didn't know why Miro was so silent, he wondered if he had made a mistake by letting him know he was gay. "Are you sure?" Miro finally asked. "Uh...yeah I'm very sure, I'm going out with Kieran" Caleb replied. "Kieran? I was expecting you to say Karlan, but okay what makes you say that though? Why do you think you're gay?" Miro asked wanting to figure things out. "I just have always liked some of my friends, like...I dunno I think some are cute and sometimes I day dream about them, well lately it's been one and now we are going out...he makes me feel really weird but not in a bad way, just hard to describe –" "- Like he completes you" Miro interrupted. "Yeah exactly it's weird but he does make me feel like he completes me" Caleb smiled. "Well I'm here for you, does your mom and dad know?" Miro asked. "Hell no! and please don't tell them anything okay?" Caleb begged. "Nah I won't, you don't gotta worry about that I'm not an asshole you know?" Miro chuckled. *************************************** Caleb and Kieran had now come out to their best friends, Caleb had even told his cousin Miro who he knew would understand what he was going through. They were facing the reality of possibly being taunted by their peers but at this point all Caleb and Kieran cared about was making up with each other. As they hung out with their friends they constantly thought about ways to make things work. They were both determined to make their new relationship be a successful one no matter how hard they worked. Miro was secretly proud of Caleb but was afraid of the many challenges that he would now face, he worried that his friends would abandon him or tease him. He was protective over his cousin and just didn't want him to be targeted by homophobes or people that might think he was weak and an easy target. The rest of the day was uneventful, Caleb, Miro and Karlan enjoyed the rest of the day with each other, they spoke about many things, Karlan was especially glad that Caleb had not told Miro that he too was gay, he wanted to come out to people when he was ready and wanted Caleb to keep a secret. K.C and Kieran also had a great day hanging out, the boys needed time to let the hurt and anger leave their heart, as night approached they were both relieved in knowing that tomorrow they would once again reunite and talk things through, they both hoped and wished everything would go smooth but they were also prepared for the possibility of a permanent break up. ********************************************* I once again have to apologize for the poor quality this chapter ended up in, again, I am finishing school up and well I'm almost done, the next chapter I'm working on is coming out MUCH MUCH better so you will soon enjoy the boys finally having sex. Just a friendly reminder to donate to Nifty!