Date: Sat, 30 Nov 2019 15:40:00 +0000 From: Andrew Passey Subject: Being a Dick Part 3 (Young Friends) The second incident, well I certainly wasn't conflicted about that. It happened just over a year ago, when I started to change my behaviour. My Dad was having a big birthday party for his 40th and I was expected to go even though I hadn't seen him for months. All the extended family was there, it was nice to see my 9 year old half brother and 6 year old half sister but apart from that I was bored out my mind. With various people staying over it was a squeeze and I was told I'd be on the sofa bed in the study with my 15 year old cousin Dwayne which I was not keen about. . He was a dick, a bully from what I could tell, full of the attitude that I now seem to have. He did however keep bringing me glasses of fruit punch throughout the party that turned out to be pretty boozy. I started to feel a bit light headed but he kept topping me up, saying he'd look after me. The party was still in full swing when my Dad said it looked like I'd had too much to drink, Dwayne said he had too so he'd help put me to bed and go to bed himself. He had his arm around me and escorted me to the study. He got the sofa bed set up and I fell onto it. Dwayne started to take my clothes off, he got me down to my pants and I tried to get under the duvet. "Not so fast little cousin, I want to see how little you actually are" he said and he pulled my boxer shorts off. "Not bad for a 12 year old, but nothing like this monster" he said stripping off and showing off his big 4 inches which rapidly hardened to over 6. I couldn't help but stare at it and he smirked as I hardened as well. He got on top of me, sitting on my chest, "suck it bitch, you know you want to" he said pushing his hard dick into my face. I didn't but he held my nose until my mouth opened and he slipped it in and pushed it in and out a few times. I gagged and he pulled out and stepped away. "should be wet enough for this now" he said He rolled me over onto my front and then climbed on top of me. I started to try and struggle, worried what he was going to do. The music was loud downstairs so they didn't hear my scream of pain as he pushed his dick into me. He started fucking me, hard, it really hurt. "You little batty boy, you're loving this" he said in between grunts as he pushed his hand under me to feel me up. I was sobbing but he didn't care, he just thrust away in me. It was so fucking painful. Finally it was all over and I felt him shoot inside me and roll off. I fell asleep on my pillow, wet from the tears I'd shed. When I woke up the next morning, my head was pounding and my arse was sore. Dwayne was always awake and smiled me at me. "You were so pissed last night, you begged me to fuck you, never had you down as a gay boy but your arse was amazing. Fancy a repeat performance?"he asked grinning. My memory of it was different to his, in my mind he raped me but he said I begged him. Did I? Was it all my fault? I mumbled "no thanks" and left it at that, I limped to the toilet and showered clean, although I felt like I'd never be clean again. After that, well once I got home I said I didn't want to go to my Dad's again and I tried to forget about what happened. I guess I developed this attitude, using it like a shield. So maybe I blamed Chris for it all, which is why I was a dick to him at times. I guess I blamed him subconsciously for sending me down this road. When in reality it was my fault for getting drunk, for making Dwayne think I wanted it. Although if my memory of the night, through the drunken haze, is true then it's all Dwayne's doing and he took advantage of me. Fuck, I'm so confused, I need to talk to someone but who? I can't tell anyone I let myself be fucked by my cousin. I'd be a laughing stock, known around school as a gay boy. All this thinking seemed to help me, I resolved to be a better person. but it wasn't long until I was being a dick again. This time after PE I walk past Chris in the shower, trailing my dick across his pants clad bum, making him jump. I put my arms around his waist and I simulated sex with him, rubbing my dick into his bum. A few boys giggled but Chris didn't. He turned round, I could see a slight tent in his pants, he blushed when he saw me noticing, grabbed his towel and angrily said "Just fuck off Lester, leave me alone" and walked back to get changed while I showered....