Date: Sun, 1 Apr 2001 10:42:22 +0100 (BST) From: ozy Subject: being gay/chapter 6/yf Disclaimer and Warning: The following story contains content of a homosexual nature. It is not intended for those under the legal age. If you are offended by homosexual acts, or it is illegal in your area to view such material, then stop reading and leave! I'm not sure how old u have to be to be over the legal age. I'm 17 so don't let it bother u too much. Note: This story is the property of the writer any copying in part or in whole of this document is prohibited, and will result in termination of a life force. BTW This story is based on real life events. It's true except for the little details and time structure. Emails can be sent to: soul_catcher2000@yahoo.co.uk Being Gay Chapter 6 I awoke, and immediately turned around. Ryan lay asleep beside me. I relaxed. He looked so perfect, he had the most perfect composure; his angelic face was framed perfectly by his sensual blonde hair. I brushed a hair off of his forehead and traced his delicate features gently, with my hand, he was so beautiful! He had the hint of a smile on his face and he murmured softly in his sleep. I kissed him softly on his forehead and turned, pulling the covers off of me carefully. I slipped out of bed and glanced at Ryan, he was still asleep. I glanced at the time, it was 12:30, damn. How long had we slept? I turned around, and headed for the bathroom. After showering, I headed back upstairs. Ryan sat on the edge of the bed, he looked slightly troubled. He noticed me and smiled. "Hey" he spoke. "Hey there beautiful, everything ok?" I replied. "Yeah, everything's great." He jumped up off the bed and headed down towards the bathroom. I looked at him walking away and couldn't help but feel that something was wrong. I shrugged it off and looked for my clothes, I glanced at the time again it was 13:00. Damn, I had better get home. I pulled on my trainers and grabbed my jacket. I ran down the stairs and almost crashed into Ryan. I froze, his hair was soaking wet and clung to his forehead, he only had a towel wrapped around his waist. I couldn't help but stare at his beautiful body. He noticed me staring and blushed. I laughed out loud. "Hey sexy, gotta go." I said. He smiled and blushed slightly. "Right now? You're already late, you're dad wanted you home by 11:00. Just call and tell him that you wanna spend the day with me, he'll understand. Do you want me to ask him?" That instantly made me feel good, Ryan wanted to spend time with me. I put my arms around his waist, pulling him to me. "Ok, you've convinced me. I'll call him, but first..." I kissed him gently. He blushed and kissed back quickly. He laughed and gently pushed me away. "I'm gonna go get changed." He said. I pouted and he just smiled at me. Oh well, I turned down the stairs and walked into the living room. I grabbed the phone off the table and dialled home. "Hello?" "Hi mum. Mum, tell dad I'm sorry, but I've decided to do some studying here and then do something with Ryan. Is that ok?" I asked, biting my lower lip as I waited for a reply. "It's fine with me, let me just ask you're father." I could hear some talking in the background. "You're father says it's ok as long as you guys aren't fighting. He wants to know if everything's ok?" "Yeah mum, everything's fine. I gotta go. seeya soon." I hung up. Ryan stood behind me, he smiled. "Everything ok?" he asked. I smiled back. "Yup, everything's perfect." I replied, imitating his slightly tinged British/American accent. He giggled. "Ok then, what do you wanna do for breakfast? I'll get Maria to cook up something if you like" "Nope, I'm not too hungry, think I'll skip breakfast. I need some coffee though." He laughed. "Same here." He replied. I smiled and sat down switching on the TV. Ryan went to find the housekeeper. I switched channels idly until I found something interesting, I stopped on some dopey chat show, it was funny how such trash could be so entertaining. I yawned, I still felt so tired. Ryan came and sat beside me, he looked at me, seeming to contemplate something and then relaxed and put his arm around me drawing my head to him. I smiled and lay my head to rest on his shoulders. He began to stroke my hair lovingly. I sighed, I was so content. "You wanna go back to bed?" He asked, looking concerned. "Is that an invitation?" I asked. He blushed. "You look tired, you should sleep." He replied. I smiled, but felt a little disappointed. "Nah. wanna stay here with you instead." I kissed him and he smiled back at me. "Ok then, if you want that, then so be it." He kissed me on my forehead and we shifted so my head was laying on his chest. My eyes felt so heavy, I let them close and soon drifted to sleep. I felt a slight shift in my senses and I opened my eyes. I looked around, I was alone on the sofa and the TV was still on. I got up, where was Ryan? I switched the TV off and went to find my boyfriend/friend. hmm... what was he to me? I pondered that for a second and then he jumped on me. "Hey!" he shouted and giggled like a kid. I smiled at him. "Feeling better?" he asked. "Yeah, lots better." I stared deep into his eyes. He blushed and turned away. "Wanna go shopping?" he asked. It was almost a tradition of ours to go shopping every Saturday and each time we always went clothes shopping. "Sure, I'll just go wash up." I replied. Ryan was leaning back on the door looking at me sexily, tilting his head back slightly exposing the soft, tender flesh of his neck. I looked at him hungrily, I felt like a vamp. Was he doing that on purpose? Or was it just me? He smiled. "I'll just call dad and let him know. I'll be in the car." He turned and disappeared around the door. I felt confused for some reason. Again, I just shrugged it off and headed for the bathroom. An hour later we were both seated in Ryan's car. Ryan was relaxed and chatting away, not paying much attention to the road. He always scared me whenever he was driving. "So I got like 6 modules to do this June. I hate exams, its like 6 hrs continuously all in one day. Oh yeah, did I tell you? Lena's coming this weekend." "Really?" I asked. Lena used to be Ryan's girlfriend from back in the states. They broke up when Ryan moved back to the UK. She was a really sweet girl, she was so alike to my ex- girlfriend. It'd be good to see her again. "Yeah, isn't that great? It's been so long, I can't wait to see her." He said alive with enthusiasm. I smiled but felt slightly bothered by Ryan's enthusiasm, I was feeling protective. I mentally kicked myself, I was being silly. Ryan wasn't even my boyfriend, or was he? I needed to know. "Umm... Ryan? I umm... need to ask you something." I looked at him, scared. I didn't know if I wanted to know what his answer would be.He looked at me curiously. "Go ahead... shoot." "Ok. umm... are we, umm... I mean are you and I, umm... a, a couple?" I stuttered. He smiled at me. "Sure we are, we do everything together. We've always been a couple." "No, I mean are we boyfriends?" His smile faded, and he looked a little trouble. "Umm... I love you Oz, but I'm not sure yet, you know? I need some time. Let's just see how it goes, ok? Is that ok?" I felt a little relieved; I wanted to know how he felt. I wanted him to honest. I didn't want to trap him in a relationship or make him feel like he had to try. "Yeah, that's fine. I just wanna know how you feel about it all. I umm... I love you too." He smiled and leaned over kissing me softly on the lips. For a minute we both forgot about the road and the car swerved sharply. Ryan pulled back and swerved back into the right lane, regaining control of the car. He laughed devilishly. I smiled at him; I couldn't take my eyes of him, I relaxed and felt happy just to be in his presence. But was that enough? I wanted more, would I be able to live without having more? I didn't know and didn't want to think about it. I laid my head back and looked out of the window watching the scenery passing by in a blur. We got to the large shopping complex and headed straight for our favourite store - Selfridges. We were like a pair of women when it came to shopping; we had an obsession with buying new clothes all the time. After hours of trying on new clothes and buying some, which we would probably never wear, we decided to grab some food. We got a booth at a nearby fast-food restaurant outlet and ordered as much greasy food as we could stomach. Ryan seemed so alive; he hadn't stopped talking since we had gotten here. Things were good. Our food arrived and I suddenly didn't feel so hungry. I just had a weird feeling, which I couldn't figure out. "Hey, what's up?" I looked up; Ryan was looking at me, looking really concerned. "Oh, nothing. just tired is all." I smiled at him. He smiled and climbed around the table so he was sat directly beside me. He took some fries and directed them to my mouth. "Come on, open wide" he grinned at me. I couldn't help but laugh, I took the fries into my mouth and chewed on them. He took his hand back and looked at me, his bright blue eyes glistening in the artificial light focused from the overhead lamps. He stared at me intensely, mentally destroying my defences, slowly he moved his face closer to mine, inch by inch and I waited for the kiss. It came so gently yet so powerfully. He gently pressed his lips to mine and kissed me softly, he pressed on, massaging my upper lip. I sighed slightly and kissed back. After the kiss was over Ryan drew back and looked at me with that look. It spoke volumes; I could see all his love, all his warmth in that look. No, I could feel it, it radiated from him and I could feel it washing over me. Ryan took my hand and we got up slowly. "Let's go." He said, his eyes never leaving my face, I blushed. I felt exposed whenever he looked at me like that. It felt so good; it felt like he was mentally caressing me. I was so lost in his love and I knew there was no turning back for me. He turned and pulled me along with a slight tug. Hardcore rap blared through the speakers around us. I could feel my headache return. I hated rap. I turned and headed for the top 40 section pulling Ryan along with me. We'd been holding hands since we'd left the restaurant. We'd been getting a few looks from strangers, but Ryan had brushed them off and had squeezed my hand whenever I tried to pull away. He melted me with that look and from then onwards, I couldn't let go. I heard a voice call out from behind me. "Ozy!" I instantly let go of Ryan's hand, and turned around. "Hellooo!" It was Cath, a friend from college who worked at the counter here. "Hey!" I replied. She hugged me briefly and I hugged back, she was a really sweet girl. "Been a while, big guy. Where you been hiding?" "Ah... You know me, just been here and there. Busy with college stuff. How about you?" "Yeah, yeah. Pretty much the same, college and this job. Nothing much else. Good to see you though. Who's that cutie?" She pointed to Ryan who had wondered over to the rock section. He was browsing through the records and I found myself staring at him. "Hello?" She teased. I turned my attention back to her and blushed deeply. Cath looked at me curiously and then smiled. I muttered a reply. "Oh, he's just a friend." She raised an eyebrow. "Hmm... a very close friend, I'm guessing, from the way you were staring at his ass." She giggled and tapped me lightly on the nose. "Catch you later Ozy." and with that she bounced away leaving me with a shocked expression on my face. I wasn't looking at his ass! Shit, maybe I was, I had to be more careful. She'd seem me looking at him! Damn. Ryan came upto me and slid his arm around my waist. "Hmm... who's that? Huh? Got sommat you wanna tell me? Hmm?" He asked, looking suspiciously at me with a smile on his face. I gently pushed him away hoping Cath wasn't watching us. "Nah, just a friend from college." I saw flashes of a hurt look on Ryan's face, and then he instantly covered it with a pout. I punched him gently and pulled him with me to find my CD, reminding myself to make it upto him later. I paid for the CD and went to find Ryan; I felt a hand on my shoulder and turned around. He was grinning at me. "Ready to go?" he asked. "Sure. I umm. I've got sommat for you." I replied. He looked at me curiously. I pulled the CD out of the bag and handed it to him. It was an S club 7 single, I hated their music, but this one song always played in my head whenever I thought about Ryan. It was called - Never had a Dream come true. It had so much meaning to me. Ryan grinned and then blushed. He looked directly into my eyes with that look and I melted. I almost thought for a second that he was gonna cry, but he surprised me even more. He reached up and pulled me to him kissing me softly and deeply on the lips. It was all over in a matter of seconds, my knees felt weak and I was afraid I was gonna collapse. Ryan smiled at me with so much love in his eyes; I was so lost in his love. "Lets go." He indicated towards the exit with a slight tilt of his head and we headed out. We passed the counter as we walked out and then I noticed Cath. She was looking at me with a weird look, a look that kinda said: "What the heck is going on?" I looked away, avoiding her stare but I could feel her eyes on me. Shit, she must have seen me kiss him. 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