Date: Tue, 4 Mar 2003 17:19:31 -0800 (PST) From: Caleb Wilson Subject: Caleb (Revised) He stood in the darkened room naked except for a pair of night shorts gazing out of the window into the orange-lit streets below. Caleb _________________________________________________________________ Part I He was slimly built no that would not be accurate the boy was more on the skinny side. His head was covered with light brown hair and his face was set with large dark brown eyes so dark that they verged on black. His eyes were often the focus of attention by his mother's friends as they would make him stand sideways on so they could look at his eyelashes that were long and curled and make envious remarks about his face and eyes. Caleb Wilson was thirteen and had recently awakened to the changes taking place in his body. These he had learnt from biology lessons and also the endless discussions that took place amongst the other boys in his class that he'd overheard talking. So in the privacy of his bedroom and acting on what he'd heard the other boy's discussing he experimented with the more intimate parts of his body. The end result being that he had the most exquisite sensations from his loins that he had not experienced before and had not heard any of the other boys mention it, but reasoned that's why they discussed it. Caleb because of his size was regarded as a wimp and he knew it. Plus the fact that he kept mainly to himself and rarely spoke to the other pupils unless it was absolutely necessary, made for a very introvert little boy. Little because he stood four feet eleven and a half inches in his stockinged feet, and try as he may by stretching his neck and tilting his head upwards, he still couldn't reach the magical figure of five feet, added to which he was surprisingly thin. Although diminutive in size Caleb underneath had a stubborn streak and was not prone to giving into people if he felt they were wrong. Which had led to many an argument with his mother and with other pupils at school; invariably finding that many of the other pupils settled the argument with the use of their hands rather than with their mouths. Thus Caleb learnt to keep his opinions to himself, that way saving him a lot of pain and anguish. The boy that Caleb envied most in his class was Benjamin Williams he was everything that Caleb wasn't. Both were the same age but there the similarity ended. Benjamin was blonde 5ft 9ins with a well-developed body from having a very active interest in various sports that he seemed to excel at more than any other pupil in the class. The closest the two boys ever came together was in the assembly hall when they because of their surnames stood side by side. In class they sat at opposite ends of the room although Caleb, would have much preferred it had Benjamin sat next to him. If Benjamin's academic qualities were on a par with his sporting activities he would have been a genius but that was just wishful thinking on his part. Sadly Benjamin's mind was so involved in his sports and other events that he never seemed to be able to concentrate on what was being taught from one lesson to another. Right now during the History lesson his mind was going over the winning goal that he had scored against Manor Park Comprehensive School, and still getting a thrill at how he had scored it. "Williams are you going to answer me? "Uh! What Miss?" Benjamin replied jumping up from his seat as he and his thoughts were dragged back to the lesson. "I was asking you Williams, what you based your theory on that Richard 1st was defeated at the battle of Hastings in 1066 by William Duke of Normandy?" "Oh shit! He thought, "I knew I should have checked that out before I put it in my paper." "Um! I guess I got my names mixed up Miss." "Williams, why can't you for once hand in a History homework paper that doesn't tax ones credibility. If only you could hand in a paper half as good as Wilson's here it would be a pleasure to read." "Yes Miss Lawrence." Caleb meantime had his head bowed looking at the top of his desk not wishing to look at the boy he secretly admired being belittled in front of the class while he was being praised as a model pupil. He didn't have to look up to know that Benjamin's friends were looking daggers at him he could feel their eyes boring into his back. "While your standing Williams take these papers and hand them round the room it's the classes homework for the weekend and has to be in by Monday morning." Benjamin did as was requested of him and shortly after returning to his seat the bell for the end of school rang. The stampede for the door was the same as usual which Caleb never took part in. Knowing from past experience that he would almost certainly end up pushed to one side or to the floor he waited till the rush was over then made his way out of the classroom. One of the last to leave the school Caleb passed through the school gates and into the street. He had gone only a couple of yards when he felt a tug from behind as his backpack was pulled from his shoulder. Before he could react the boy one of Benjamin's friends threw it to another boy who dropped it to the floor and kicked it towards Benjamin. Caleb ran after his pack and as Benjamin lifted his foot to kick the backpack not knowing who it belonged to, so Caleb pushed him causing him to fall over. He grabbed his bag and was walking away when he felt a hand on his shoulder that spun him around and he was face to face with Benjamin. "I'm going to kick the shit out of you, you little prick." Benjamin said before realising whom it was. "All right don't talk about it just do it and get it over and done with so all your friends can see how big and tough you are." Benjamin was angry that he'd been knocked over by this skinny little kid in front of all his friends at the same time loath to hit him. Secretly he had wanted to become friendly with the boy he was now threatening. Not wanting to appear weak in front of his friends. He grabbed Caleb by his shirt and lifted him up so that he was literally on tiptoe and slammed him against the school wall. The force of the impact caused Caleb's head to go backwards and smash against the wall. His eyes glazed over and he slumped forward in Benjamin's grip. At once Benjamin gently lowered the smaller boy to the floor he took of his jacket and tucked it under Caleb's head as a pillow. As he turned to ask one of his friends to get a teacher there was a moan from Caleb and his eyes opened. "I'm sorry Wilson, I'm really sorry I didn't mean to bang your head against the wall are you okay?" "Just give me a minute and I should be all right." "You guys carry on home," Benjamin said to his friends, "I'll just make sure Wilson is alright and take him home I'll see you all later." His friends left and the two of them were alone the smaller of the two still lying on the pavement with the other kneeling beside him. "You want to try standing?" "Yeah! With Benjamin's help Caleb stood with the bigger boy supporting him Benjamin then retrieved his jacket and put it on. "Right stand still Wilson while I brush you down and hold onto me if you want." "Do you have to call me by my surname like a teacher?" "I don't know your first name never heard anyone use it." "It's Caleb." Benjamin stopped dusting and looked up from his position of brushing the smaller boy's trousers. "Caleb it's a nice name do you mind if I call you Cal?" "If you like." "I like." "Okay what do your mates call you Ben or Benny?" "Ben." "Can I call you Benji?" "Why?" "Because I want to be different from your mates." Benjamin now standing upright looked down at the small boy in front of him who had showed no fear when being threatened. He gazed into the boy's unblinking eyes and noticed for the first time the depth of feeling in them. He felt himself drifting off as he gazed into the smaller boys eyes and had to quickly blink his eyes to break the spell. He smiled "Okay Benji it is, now turn around and let me look at the back of your head." Caleb complied and Benjamin gently moved his hand over the back of the boy's head till he felt the bump that he knew would be there after the impact with the wall. He parted the hair to get a closer look at the lump and noticed that the skin was broken and a small amount of blood had seeped out. As he felt the lump Caleb gave a yelp and Benjamin hastily apologised and left the wound alone. Facing the smaller boy again he noticed the boy was blinking back tears of pain. "Cal I'm really very sorry I never meant for you to bang your head." "I know Benji (As he said the name a thrill went through his body momentarily blocking out the pain in his head.) You don't have to apologise if you'd meant it you wouldn't be here helping me." "You fit enough to walk to the bus stop now?" "Yeah Benji but you don't have to take me home I can make it on my own." " I want to take you home Cal unless of course you'd rather I didn't." " No I'd really like it if you don't mind being seen with me." "Why what's wrong with you, have you got some sort of disease?" Caleb looked up at his recent assailant with all sorts of emotions coursing through his body he smiled and said, "Right let's go." They made their way to the bus stop and within a couple of minutes a bus came along and soon they were seated the smaller of the two on the inside of the seat. Caleb was in heaven as Benjamin's body pressed against his as they sat together. He had feelings inside of him that he could not place and had never experienced before. The closest to this he could recall was when he was younger and his Mother used to pick him up and cuddle him. "You okay," Benjamin enquired. "Yeah why?" "You're very quiet?" "Just thinking." "About what?" Caleb was quiet. "Come on tell me." "You." "What about me." "Nothing" "How can it be nothing Cal, come on give?" Gazing out of the window Caleb said, "I like sitting next to you." Benjamin was silent for a second. "The feeling is mutual," he replied. Slowly Caleb turned to look at Benjamin as big grins split their faces. "You really mean that Benji you're not just saying that because I got hurt." "I wouldn't be grinning if didn't." As Caleb smiled and looked at him Benjamin thought "Jeez! Cal your eyes are something else." "My stop is coming up Benji we better get up." "Uh! What." "My stop get up or we'll miss it." "Oh! Yeah." Benjamin came back down to earth stood up and headed toward the exit with Caleb following. Out on the street again with Caleb leading the way the boys turned off the main road towards his house shortly he stopped at a gate saying, "This is where I live Benji, do you want to come in?" Benjamin hung his head scuffling his trainer on the pavement "No I better get home my mum will be expecting me and if I'm late I'll get a mouthful." "Okay Benji see you in school on Monday." "Umm! I could come round after my evening meal if you want is that Okay?" "That would be brilliant can you?" "Yeah! Won't take me two minutes to have my food and get back here and you don't live very far away from me if I go by the back streets it won't take me very long to get home." "Bye Cal see you in a bit." "See you Benji." Caleb stood at the gate and watched his new found friend walk down the road. "If he likes me he thought before he takes the corner he'll turn around." He waited anxiously watching Benjamin walk along the road. "Please God please make him look back." As Benjamin reached the turning he stopped turned and waved to Caleb then disappeared from view. Caleb was over the moon "He likes me, he likes me, Bloody stinking Hell he likes me," his mind silently shouted. He made his way indoors and quickly went to his bedroom to change out of his school uniform into jeans and T-shirt. He was still elated from the sign of affection given to him by Benjamin's action of turning and waving to him. His clothes changed he headed downstairs to the kitchen where his mother had left his meal cooked and only to be put into the microwave to be warmed and eaten. Out of Caleb's site Benjamin started running to get home as quickly as possible while he ran he thought, at last he'd made contact with Caleb. For a whole month when the boy had first come to the school he'd wanted to talk to him, but Caleb always kept to himself and never joined in any of the games or discussions that took place during tea or lunch breaks. For all his size Benjamin was a bit nervous about making conversation for the first time with newcomers. Although wanting to talk to the new boy he lacked the courage to instigate a conversation with him so kept his distance and hoped that in some way they could make contact and become friends. "Oh shit why did I have to hurt him to get to know him," he thought as he continued his run home. "Say if he'd got really badly injured then what never do that again otherwise you're in big trouble Ben no Benji boy. God he's got fantastic eyes they're almost black nearly bloody hypnotised me on the bus wonder if he can. Nah! He's too small but really nice. I wonder if he really, really, likes me he was still at the gate when I turned the corner and he said he liked sitting next to me, he must do if he said that. Shit nearly forgot will have to phone the mates and tell them I can't make it this evening. Good nearly home. Hope mum doesn't keep me long she can be a real pain sometimes anyway dad will persuade her to let me go when I've finished my dinner." His thought's racing Benjamin finally reached home and was able to confront his mother with the age-old question, "Ma can I go out after I've finished my meal." She answered with the reply that he always got "We'll see." At home Caleb had finished his meal and was sitting watching TV and repeatedly glancing at the clock. Just after five his mother arrived and after greeting each other he told her that his friend Benjamin might come around later. "That's nice what time is he coming." "Well I thought he might have been here by now I was wondering if he's been kept in. He said it wouldn't take him long to have his dinner and get back here." As his mother passed him on the way to her bedroom she rubbed the back of his head in a gesture of affection causing Caleb to yell with pain. His mother stopped abruptly asking him what was wrong. "I accidentally banged my head at school and got a bump at the back." Before the mother could question him further the doorbell rang and he left to answer it and found Benjamin on the doorstep. They both broke out in stupid grins when catching sight of each other. "Come in Benji." "Thanks." They made their way into the sitting room where Caleb's mother was waiting to further question her son about his head wound. "Mum this is Benjamin Williams my friend but I call him Benji." "Hello Benji glad to meet you." "Now Caleb, I want to know exactly how you got that knock on your head and don't try fobbing me off with an accident. I happen to be your mother and I know when you're stretching the truth." "Mum forget it will you it's not important." "If you don't tell me Caleb you'll be in trouble." "I did it Mrs.Wilson," Benjamin said, "It was an accident I didn't mean for him to bang his head." "If that's what his friends do to him I'd hate to see what his enemies would do. Look at the size of you compared to him. "Mum stop it he's my friend. Don't have a go at Benji, he told you it was an accident he didn't have to tell you he'd done it. He's the only friend I have and you're trying to drive him away so that I'll be like you always want me to be alone and without any friends." Caleb turned and ran upstairs to his bedroom slamming the door shut behind him. Mrs.Wilson with a stunned look on her face turned to Benjamin and said, "I'm sorry Benji for saying what I did it was meant to be a joke seems like Caleb's lost his sense of humour. You'd better go to his bedroom and calm him down. It's the first door at the top of the stairs. "Okay! Mrs. Wilson, but I'm really sorry for causing Cal, I mean Caleb, to get hurt I wish it was possible for me to undo what I did." "All right Benji, and calling him Cal sounds fine to me now go and cheer him up." Benjamin left and made his way to Caleb's room. Knocking on the door he waited for permission to enter. "Go away I don't want to talk to you." "Cal it's me." Benjamin heard footsteps rush to the door and open it. "Benji, I'm sorry I thought it was my mum come in." In the centre of the room the two boys stood facing each other. "Cal your mum looked very upset when you spoke to her like that, what she said was meant to be a joke." "Shittin Hell! Seems like I made a fool of myself. Well I'll tell her I'm sorry in a bit I hate having arguments with her makes me feel all churned up inside." "Will your dad have a go at you when he finds out?" "My dad died when I was about four years old my mum says he had cancer." Oh I'm sorry Cal I didn't know." "It's alright Benji it happened a long time ago I don't get as upset about it as I used to when I was younger." There was a brief silence as the boys continued to stand and look at each other. "I Um! "What Benji." "I Um! I'm glad we became friends although it was not a very nice way to meet." "Wouldn't have changed it for the world it was great having you take care of me and bringing me home." "You mean that?" Yeah Benji I do, it was great and you seemed so worried." "Well I've been wanting to talk to you ever since you came to the school Cal. Then when we had that fight and I hurt you I thought that you would really hate me and wouldn't ever want to be friends with me." "What you've been wanting to talk to me since you first saw me?" "Yeah." "Bloody Hell! Benji and I've been aching to talk to you from the first day that we stood beside each other at assembly." Huge grins split their faces as they gazed at each other and realising that each wanted the other as a friend. "How's the bump is it still paining?" "Not much as long as no one touches it." "Aren't you going to put something on it." "Such as doctor." "Well I don't know we can ask your mum." "No let me go and look in the medicine chest in the bathroom and see what there is you stay here I'll be back shortly." Leaving Benjamin in the room Caleb made his way to the bathroom and returned shortly with a bottle of Iodine and some cotton wool. "Here you are Benji," handing the Iodine and cotton wool to him, "You can swab it on." "Okay you want to sit on the chair or stand." "I'll stand." Undoing the bottle Benjamin soaked the cotton wool with Iodine then parting Caleb's hair to get at the wound dabbed the Iodine onto it. Silence then "Ahhhh! Bloody Stinking Hell! That's bloody stinging." Oh Shit! I'm sorry Cal." Putting the bottle and cotton wool down Benjamin grabbed Caleb and turned him around so they were face to face. He could see the tears in Caleb's eyes being held at bay. "Cal I didn't know it would sting that bad I'm sorry please don't get mad with me." "Why should I get mad at you when you're trying to help me Benji. It's just the Iodine stinging I didn't expect it to sting that much but it's easing off now." "God! All I seem to do is hurt you Cal I'm a real disaster where you're concerned." "Will you give over blaming yourself and you can let go of my shoulders now I'm not about to fall down." "Oh Um! Yeah sorry." "Benji you must have said sorry about a hundred times by now will you stop it and actually I liked you holding my shoulders so no need to be sorry." "I Um! I." "What Benji." "I like you Cal." "You already told me Benji." "I mean like how'd you say I more than just like you I sorta like you a whole heap." Benjamin knew that boys didn't use words like I love you to other boys you were only supposed to say words like that to girls. But ever since he had seen Caleb he had wanted to take this boy and crush him in his arms. Why? He couldn't tell you why but in telling Caleb that he liked him a whole heap it was as close to telling him he loved him as he could come. "Benji lets sit on the bed I'm tired of us standing." "You Okay Caleb should I call your mum?" "Benji, I only want us to sit down instead of standing all the time and then I won't have to stretch my neck to look up to you." "Alright, that's a bloody big bed you've got it's nearly twice as big as mine." "Well my mum bought a new bed when we came here so I had her old bed. Mine was dumped I'd had it forever and it was getting a bit rickety. The boy's stretched across the bed lying on their sides their legs drawn up facing each other the sides of their heads cupped in the palm of their hands as they rested their elbows on the bed. "I like you an awful lot as well Benji actually I've never liked anyone before as much as I like you." Benjamin sat upright "You're joking." "I'm not I'm serious." "I mean I don't know what I mean Cal I've had heaps of friends but none of them make me feel like you especially when you stare at me with those eyes of yours." "Is it my eyes you like or me?" "Its you Cal. If your eyes were like mine it wouldn't make any difference to how much I liked you but your eyes just tell me such a lot about you. "Benji can boys love other boys." "Um! I don't know. I know they talked about homosexuals in school but that's for sex and all that. Like men doing it with women and men with men or women. I don't know about the love bit that's different." "I'm not talking about sex I'm talking about like I love my mum and when she cuddles me and kisses me I feel nice all over right? Well when I'm near you and when you sat next to me on the bus I felt something like that but different." "Yeah I felt all nice when we were sitting next to each other on the bus as well but that's not love is it that's just being friends isn't it?" "I don't know Benji I'm not sure I read a book about a man loving another man so much that he gave his life to save him. That's why I asked you and I feel so nice right now talking to you that I don't want you to go home I'd like you to stay forever." "Caleb Benji you two all right" Mrs. Wilson called from outside the door. The boys got up from the bed Caleb went to the door and opened it to see his mother standing outside. He wrapped his arms around his mother's waist gave her a kiss on the cheek and said, "I'm sorry mum for talking to you like that." "All right Caleb all is forgiven now how about offering Benji something to eat and drink." "I won't have anything to eat thank you Mrs.Wilson but I'd like a cold drink if you don't mind." Caleb turned to Benjamin "Okay follow me. What would you like Coke or 7up?" "7up please Cal." The boys followed Mrs.Wilson down and made their way to the fridge in the kitchen and helped themselves to drinks. On the way out Caleb called out to his mother. "Mum, we're going up to watch the television in my room." "All right boys." They made their way back to Caleb's bedroom and once inside Benjamin asked. "So what do you want to watch on the box?" "Nothing just wanted for us to be alone together." "Oh Okay do you want to wrestle?" "Wrestle you must be joking Benji, look how big you are compared to me I wouldn't stand a chance." "I'll get into any position you like Cal, and then you can hold me in any grip you want then I could see if I can get out of it and if I can't then you're the winner." "Any position I liked." "Yeah any position." "Right take your shoes off first then lie on your back on the bed with your arms above you're head." Benjamin did what Caleb had asked and when he had done so said, "Okay I'm ready." Caleb had taken his shoes off as well then advanced towards the bed then lay full length on top of Benjamin wrapped his arms around his body and said, "Now put your arms around me." Benjamin who was getting a bit perplexed by now did as he was told then said, "Is that it?" Caleb looked down at Benjamin and nodded his head "That's it he said." "It's not much of a hold to get out of Cal." "Well you can try but before you do let me tell you if you break this hold you break our friendship." "Shit that's not fair." "I think it's fair, it's the best hold in the world and you can never break it." "That's wicked Cal, never thought of that you're the winner. So how long are you going to keep this hold?" "Forever if you'll let me." "Umm I don't know about that I have to be home before nine." Caleb laughed as he looked into Benjamin's eyes then without thinking he brought their lips together in a quick kiss." Benjamin gave out a yell and sat up. Caleb jumped off him and backed away from the bed and started apologising profusely. I'm sorry Benji, I'm sorry I just got carried away and because I felt so nice lying with you it just happened. Please Benji you won't tell anybody what I did will you I'm really sorry. Benjamin looked at the diminutive figure that was trying hard to hold back the tears in his eyes. He had been shocked at what Caleb had done but excited as well and the whole time they had lain on the bed together he'd been in heaven. "I thought you were going to hold me in that grip forever he said grinning, so now who's the winner?" Caleb advanced towards his friend "You're not mad at me Benji." "No I'm not mad at you I just got a little startled when you kissed me never had another boy kiss me before." "I've never kissed a boy before but with you it was just something I wanted to do I don't know why. But when we were lying together it just felt so nice with your arms around me that I did it." "You want to get me back in that hold again." "Yeah." "Come on then let's do it." The boys resumed their places as before this time with both of them eager to do so and shivering with anticipation. "His voice faltering with the emotions running through his body Benjamin said, "Are you going to start kissing again?" "Do you want me to Benji?" "If you want to I don't mind but make it last a bit longer this time." So Caleb lowered his lips to Benjamin's but this time held it there. Both were now sexually aroused as they felt each other's loins twitching with the excitement of the moment. This only added to the excitement of the kiss, as they each felt that the other wanted it like this. Their lips remained closed but that would change with the passage of time. At this time in their lives with the first cautious steps towards sexual awareness they just relished the closeness of the other and the feelings of contentment it brought and their thoughts, Friends at last. Part II Caleb broke the kiss and looked down at Benjamin saying, "Do you like kissing." "Sort of but my dick is really hard now that you're lying on top of me." I know. I can feel it it's a lot bigger than mine Benji." "I can feel yours and it's hard as well." "Yeah feels really nice when I rub it against you." "Can I feel yours Benji, with my hand?" I dunno; only if you let me feel your one." "Okay, it's a deal." The two boys separated and sat up on the bed side by side. Tentatively, Caleb put his hand to the bulge in Benjamin's trouser and gently squeezed getting an immediate response from Benjamin. "Ohhh! That feels nice Cal," he managed to gasp, "Keep doing it it's great." "You want to feel mine Benji?" Caleb enquired, as Benjamin lost in the exquisite feelings he was getting from Caleb's hand had forgotten that he was supposed to be doing the same for his friend. "Yeah okay." And he stretched his hand to Caleb's groin to play with his erection Caleb then experienced the same pleasures that Benjamin was experiencing as they sat and fondled each other. "Can I see yours Benji?" "I dunno Cal is it all right to do that?" "Well I'm feeling it, so what's the difference if I see it. I'll take mine out at the same time if you want." "Cal will you give me a wank." "Um! Do you want me to?" "I don't mind if you do, my cock is real hard and I feel like I want to shoot." "Will you do me after I've done you." "Okay." The boys unzipped their trousers and eagerly exposed themselves. Caleb was staring at the size of Benjamin's erection it was nearly double the length of his two and a half-inch penis. "Bloody Hell! Benji, how big is that?" "About four and a half inches." "It's huge compared to mine." "Do you think so?" "Yeah and it's thick as well." "Are you going to you know what now?" "Okay." Caleb clasped what to him was an enormous penis in his hand and started the universal movements of masturbation. "Hold on Cal, do you have any tissues handy?" "Yeah why?" "I don't want to make a mess when I shoot." "Right hang on." Caleb went to a box of tissues and took a few out and handed them to Benjamin then continued with his administrations on Benjamin's penis. It wasn't long before Benjamin lay back and started to moan with pleasure. "Grip it harder and rub it faster Cal I'm going to shoot." Then suddenly he wrapped his hand with the tissues in it around the top of his cock as his hips started to thrust into Caleb's hand. "Oh Shit! Here it comes." He yelled as he erupted. His hips continued to jerk as his orgasm took control of his body till he lay back on the bed with his eyes closed and spent. "Was it okay Benji?" Benjamin didn't answer feelings of guilt washed over him now that the pleasure of orgasm had subsided he felt that what he had allowed to happen to be wrong. He rose from the bed dressed himself put his shoes back on, then turned to Caleb and said, "I think I'd better go home." "What for Benji? You said you'd do me after I'd done you why are you leaving what did I do wrong?" "I don't want to stay anymore just don't feel right." With that Benjamin left the bedroom and headed downstairs with Caleb following after pulling his trousers up, but remaining in his stockinged feet. "What's the matter Benji? I'm sorry, don't go - stay a bit longer." "No, I've got to go bye." They'd reached the front door. Benjamin opened it and before leaving it said, "Say goodbye to your mum for me." He left. Caleb shut the door and made his way into the sitting room where his mother was watching TV. "Benji's gone home, mum. He said to say goodbye for him I'm going to my room for a bit." "All right son." Caleb made his way to his room perplexed about the sudden departure of Benjamin. In his mind he was trying to figure out the reason for his friend's behaviour and had he, himself done something wrong to cause his leaving. In his room he lay on his bed and wondered if Benji would still want to be his friend. If he didn't, would he tell the other boys what they had done and then get them all to have a go at him? He kept going over what had happened and now that the fear of being exposed to other boys for what he had done was possible he was regretting his actions. His anxiety was making his stomach churn and his continuing thoughts of what had happened increased the fear of ridicule and shame to such an extent that his emotions got the better of him and he started to cry. With the crying Caleb fell asleep and so got temporary release from his fears. Benjamin made his way home and as the feelings of guilt left him so he began to realise that his leaving Cal's house in that manner was wrong. He was now becoming aware that he'd acted like a kid and his actions might have just ended their friendship before it had really started. "Oh shit! Why did I have to leave like that he thought?" When I get home I'll phone him. Balls, I haven't got his number will have to look it up in the directory hope they're in it." As soon as he reached home, he greeted his parents, then went straight to the telephone directory quickly turning to the name Wilson. His eyes popped when he saw the amount of people with the same name there were hundreds. There was no way he could look through all of them he didn't have Mrs. Wilson's first name so he could on rely on the address and where was he to start. After spending five minutes without success he gave up closed the book and reluctantly joined his parents in the sitting room to watch the box. Next morning after showering and dressing Benjamin made his way to the kitchen for his breakfast. "You going to see your new friend again today Ben?" His mother enquired. "I was going to phone him first to see if he'd be in but haven't got his phone number and there are Hundreds of Wilson's in the directory it'll take hours to check them all." "Have you got his address?" "Yes" Well give it to me and I'll get directory enquiries to get the number unless they're ex-directory." Benjamin supplied his mother with the address and a few minutes later she handed him a piece of paper with Caleb's phone number on it. "Thanks mum." He headed straight for the phone. He quickly dialled the number and was greeted by Mrs. Wilson. "Mrs. Wilson it's Benjamin Williams can I speak to Caleb please?" "Yes hang on a moment and I'll get him for you. Caleb Benji's on the phone." Caleb came down the stairs and nervously answered. "Yes?" "Cal it's Benji how are you?" "I'm okay." "Can I come around and see you?" "No." "Why Cal, What's the problem?" "I don't want the same thing to happen again like last evening." Caleb put the phone down not giving Benjamin a chance to answer. He went into the sitting room and asked his mother if she was going shopping and if so, he would accompany her. Benjamin at first was upset that Caleb had hung up on him. Then his disappointment turned to anger. "Shit!" he thought. "Who wants to be involved with that fucking wimp? At least now I can go and have a game of football in the park with the others. Hope his balls turn square and get rusty in the corners." "Mum, I'm going up the park be back later." "All right and mind you're not late." So the two boys spent their weekend. One with his friends playing football then staying watching TV till it was time to go home trying hard to put the image of Caleb out of his mind, but not succeeding. The other, shopping with his mother. Then later in the day reading in his room still concerned that his friendship with Benjamin had ended so suddenly, hoping that it wouldn't lead to more harassment in school on Monday. Monday morning Caleb left home a bit earlier than usual knowing that if he did he was less likely to meet up with Benjamin outside the school gates. At school assembly he purposefully stood in the wrong position so that he wouldn't have to stand next to Benjamin, then thankfully to the class where they would be at opposite ends of the room. During the morning, break he kept to himself and as far away from Benjamin and his friends. The lunch break was what Caleb was dreading there was nowhere to hide. He went to get his food as late as possible so while being served he could look around and then be able to select a seat as far away from Benjamin as possible. During lunch Benjamin looked around and saw Caleb sitting at the other end of the dining-hall alone as usual. Paul, one of Benjamin's friends noticed him looking round. "Who you looking for Ben?" he enquired "No one - just looking around." "What happened with Wilson on Friday after you bashed his head." "Nothing - he was okay, so I took him home." "You shouldn't have taken him home when you found out he was okay. The bang he got on his head wasn't that bad was it? And anyway, he's a right little weed. Anything will knock him over." Benjamin was still seething inside with the silent treatment he was getting from Caleb, so was only too glad to agree with his friends remarks. "Yeah, I should have left him on the pavement. He's over there sitting alone as usual, the wanker." "I don't think he knows how to do that, all he uses it for is to piss through," Paul remarked which brought howls of laughter around the table. They finished their meal and headed towards the exit, passing Caleb on the way. "How's mummy's little baby today? Is his pretty little head still hurting? Do you want mummy to kiss it better." The boys hurled the remarks at Caleb as they walked past amid jeers and laughter. Caleb kept his head down and ignored them, knowing that if he looked them in the eye; it was all the excuse that one or more of them needed to pick a fight. Looking at the boy with head bowed, Benjamin felt ashamed that he was partly instrumental in instigating the ridicule that was being hurled at Caleb. To cover his guilt, he hurriedly walked past without looking at him making for the exit thinking "God, why did I call him a wanker? I need to have my head examined. Shit I'm a fucking idiot. He looks so small and helpless and I had to open my big fucking mouth." After his tormentors had left, Caleb finished his meal making sure he took longer than usual. Making his way out to the playground, he kept a wary eye open ensuring that he kept well out of the path of Benjamin and his friends. With the Lunch-break over, Caleb managed to get through the rest of the school day without being hassled. When the final bell rang for the end of school he made doubly sure that he was the last to leave the classroom. Outside he waited in the school grounds till he thought that Benjamin and his friends would be far from the vicinity and finally left the school premises. He made his way along the street to the bus stop and as he neared it his heart sank as he saw Paul and Benjamin standing at the stop. As he came within earshot, Paul exclaimed, "So mummy's boy was trying to keep away from us was he." Caleb ignored the remark and went and stood at the other end of the bus stop as he waited for the bus. There were only the three of them at the stop so Caleb knew that if he gave Paul half a chance, he would pick a fight. He kept his distance and made sure to look in the opposite direction from where the two boys were standing. Suddenly he was spun around and Paul was staring at him "You're ignoring me Wilson when I'm talking to you, that's bad manners. You need to get your head slapped for that." "I'm sorry I won't do it again," Caleb blurted out. "It's too late for sorry. You're going to get it." "Paul, leave him alone." Paul turned at the sound of Benjamin's voice "Why? I've been longing to give him a beating. He thinks he's so smart in class." "He is, he's a lot smarter than both of us put together, but that's no reason to hit him leave him alone." "Oh okay. Dunno what's got into you all of a sudden." "Nothing's got into me - just leave him alone and I mean it. Otherwise you'll get my boot up your arse." "Fucking Hell! You don't have to get all worked up I haven't done anything to him." "Shut it. You never know when to stop. Here's a bus now let's go." On the bus Caleb stayed below as the other two boys climbed to the upper deck. He felt a sense of relief that they were out of sight, although he was grateful to Benjamin for stopping Paul from hitting him. When his stop came, Caleb alighted and made his way home as he neared his house he heard a voice call, "Cal wait up." Turning Caleb saw Benjamin walking towards him. He waited till they were standing face to face then asked, "What do you want?" "Can we talk before you go inside?" "You want to talk about Friday is that it?" "Yeah if you'll let me." "Benji, you left Friday evening and made me feel like I did something bad. Now, I suppose you want to ask me not to tell anyone what we did. I won't if you promise to keep quiet as well. Also I know you and your friends like making fun of me, but you don't have to call me a wanker just to impress your mates. "What do you mean call you a wanker? When did I call you that?" "In the dining-hall I was watching you. I didn't hear you but I saw your mouth form the word. Then when all your friends laughed and looked at me I knew you had said it about me." Benjamin hung his head "I'm sorry Cal, I was angry with you because you wouldn't talk to me, so I said that and other things to hurt you, but I never ever meant it. If you want you can hit me. I'll let you if it makes you feel better." "I would never hit you Benji or call you names no matter what I like you too much." "Then why wouldn't you talk to me over the weekend and today, I was feeling terrible Cal, you even stood away from me during assembly." "Because I thought that what we did had made you change your mind about me." "Cal you should know that nothing you could do would change my mind about you I, Um! Still like you heaps." "Then why did you leave so suddenly?" "After I had shot I started to feel ashamed and that I shouldn't have let it happen - that it was wrong. Only when I was near home did I realise that I'd acted like a kid and should not have run away like that. I tried to say sorry when I phoned but you never gave me a chance." "Well it's over now we can forget about it." "Are we still friends." "Sort of, but you have your own friends Benji, and they do all the things that you like that I'm not very good at." "What do you mean, Cal, sort of? You're still angry at about Friday aren't you?" "I'm not angry Benji, I'm just not sure about how things will be especially with your other friends." "What about my other friends?" "Well you can't just drop them and if you try to get me to join in with all of them, it won't work. You know how most of them feel about me." "So, I can still be friends with you, can't I Cal, and come and see you sometimes when I'm not with the other lot?" "Okay Benji, whenever you want to, you can come over. "You better get home now, otherwise your mum will let you have it." "See you at school tomorrow Cal." And Benjamin departed. Caleb watched him walk along the street like he'd done on Friday, but this time, when Benjamin turned at the corner and waved there wasn't the same elation as there had been then. As he walked home Benjamin thought, "He's not gotten over what happened on Friday what's wrong with him? He knows I like him. I should have told him that I would rather have him as a friend than any of the others. If mum lets me out for a couple of hours after I've eaten I'll pop over and see him. Yeah that's what I'll do. I'd better move it or I won't be allowed out if I'm late." As Benjamin broke into a run, so his thoughts continued as he ran, "He was still standing at the gate watching me when I turned to wave maybe he does still like me a lot." "Mum I'm home can I go out after I've eaten? I want to go and see Cal for a couple of hours. I'll be back real early. Can I?" "Wash and change first and after you've eaten, we'll see." "Benjamin groaned "God!" He thought, "Same as usual it never changes." As he trudged disconcertedly up the stairs to his room to wash and change. Inside he removed his shirt and trousers, he let his mind drift back to Friday night to the time when he was lying on the bed with Cal stretched out on top of him and their arms around each other. He could picture Cal's face as he brought his lips down to meet his own and the feelings of anticipation coursing through his body resulting in the arousal of his loins. Now as the picture formed in his mind and he could remember the feelings he got when Cal played with his erection so his penis sprang to life. He wished that he had time for a quick wank but knew that if he delayed in getting downstairs for his meal his mother would be yelling for him to get a move on. Reluctantly he cast thoughts of last Friday from his mind washed and changed as quickly as possible realising that if his mother allowed him, he could be at Cal's in less than an hour. Caleb after watching Benjamin disappear from view, went indoors changed, had his meal and waited for his mother to return from work. He had at least a couple of hours to wait as Mondays always meant that his mother would do a bit of shopping before coming home. He decided to go to his room and read his book till his mum arrived he hadn't been reading very long when the doorbell rang. Making his way down to the front door he opened it. There was Benjamin standing on the doorstep. "Hi Cal." "Benji come in. You got back really quickly." "Yeah, my mum let me out straight away after I finished my food." They walked into the sitting room. Caleb told Benjamin to have a seat." "Benjamin just stood in the middle of the room looking at Caleb till the smaller boy asked? "What's up Benji?" "Cal, I'm ever so sorry about Friday and for being nasty to you at school I feel like a real worm. "It's okay Benji, I told you so." "No, it isn't okay I've decided if my other friends can't accept you, then that's their problem I'm not giving you up for anybody. Now that's what I'd call okay." "Caleb smiled, "You want to wrestle?" He said, "I've got a brilliant hold that you can never get out of." "Benjamin walked over to the smaller boy, wrapped his arms around him and lifted him up till they were face to face kissed him on the lips and said, "My hold is just as good, try getting out of it." "Don't want to; it feels too nice. Wouldn't it be better if we were lying down Benji." "What about your mum? Won't she be back soon?" "No, not for another hour at least. Let's go to my room." "Have to let go of my hold Cal." "No problem, you can always get me back in it." "Or, I could carry you up to your room." "You're joking - we'll fall. I'm to heavy." "Bullshit! I'm carrying you now. You're not heavy wrap your legs around my waist. Then it'll be easier." Caleb did as Benjamin asked and was carried to his room where once inside, Benjamin walked over to the bed, turned, then fell on his back with Caleb on top of him. They lay like that looking at each other till Caleb lowered his face and brought their lips together. Again like the last time their loins became aroused this time Benjamin broke the kiss and asked, "Cal would you like me to give you a wank?" Caleb pecked his friend on the lips again and said, "You trying to make up for Friday Benji." "No, it feels really great again and this time it's your turn to go first if you want. If not that's okay by me we can just lie here and hug each other. It's just as nice." "Can we just lie like this, Benji? I feel really nice in your arms. If I tell you something you won't get angry will you?" "No, Cal, I won't what is it?" "Promise me first." "I promise, I promise, now tell me, will you." "I Um! I love you Benji." For a moment, Benjamin was silent, "Do you really love me Cal?" "Yes heaps." "Well I suppose if these feelings that I have about wanting to be near you all the time Cal are the same as you have then I love you too. But I think I've been loving you longer." "What do you mean you've been loving me longer? How'd you work that out?" "I saw you long before you saw me at assembly on your first day. You were looking around wondering where to go and I was watching you, and from the first moment I saw you I knew I wanted to be like we are right now. I've always wanted to have you in my arms. Why? I don't know why, but it's just been inside of me from that first moment I saw you Caleb." "What happened to Cal?" "Sometimes I like to use your full name. It sounds nice and I dunno, just do." Caleb brushed his lips against Benjamin's saying "I'm glad we got back together again, Benji. Squeeze me a little harder. I want to feel your arms crushing me into your body." As he gently squeezed his friend into his body so Benjamin brought their lips together in a tender kiss. Both sexually aroused they ground their erections against each other until Caleb, his hips pumping, and exclamations of pleasure coming from him, lost control and erupted inside his clothing. His hips began pumping even more violently with the onset of his orgasm and then the sudden stillness. Knowing what had happened and still holding him in his arms Benjamin asked? "Was it nice Cal?" "Wicked, Benji, the best I've ever had. Now you do it." "No Cal I'll make a terrible mess in my clothes I think I shoot a lot more than you do." Caleb disentangled himself from Benjamin's arms. "Okay stay here while I go and clean myself up in the loo then I'll be right back to do you." "Well hurry up I'm bursting to go and if you don't get back soon I'll do it myself." "Right I can clean up after let's see that monster of yours." "Cal, it's not that big and can I see yours when you're doing me." "It's all messy Benji and sticky." "Never mind I like to see it it's really cute." "Oh okay." They both proceeded to undo their trousers and expose themselves, Benjamin fully aroused waiting for relief Caleb having just ejaculated with the signs of watery semen at the end of his now flaccid penis trying not to get any of it on his hands. He quickly wiped his penis with a tissue then turned his attention to Benjamin. "Do you want some tissues Benji like the last time?" "Yeah please otherwise it gets a bit messy." "Okay here you are." As Caleb handed him some tissues then began his administrations on Benji's cock." After just a few strokes Benjamin cried out. "Oh God! Cal, that feels so nice, rub it faster and harder, faster, Cal it's coming, it's coming Oh God! Yeah, oh fuck." And Benji's cock emptied itself into the tissues he was holding, his hips bucked and his loins heaved into Caleb's hand as his orgasm sent him into spasms of ecstasy. This time there were no feelings of shame. He just felt content as Caleb gently squeezed his now softening manhood. He looked at his small friend smiled and said, "That was better than the last time Cal and this time I'm still here with you." Then lifting himself into a sitting position brought their lips together in a tender kiss. They both cleaned themselves then dressed and lay back on the bed in Caleb's wrestling hold content in each other's arms. A few minutes later Caleb lifted his head off Benjamin's shoulder looked down at him and asked, "Benji what is French kissing about?" "It's when you put your tongue into the girls mouth." "What for?" "How am I supposed to know? I've never done it." "It must be bloody awful, sticking your tongue into someone else's mouth and tasting all their spit and stuff." " I'm not sure. My brother does it with his girl friend, says it's brilliant giving her a tongue bashing. Do you want to give it a try it might not be so bad?" "I'm not sure, Benji. If I don't like it will you stop?" "Cal I'd never make you do something you don't want to." "Okay let's try it Benji." And tentatively they brought their lips together then opening their mouths to let their tongues unite briefly. Their eyes widened and a shiver ran through their bodies at the initial contact and the pleasure it brought surprised them. As they continued with the kiss, so their tongues began to explore more and more till Caleb broke the kiss gasping. "Caleb, I'm sorry, what's wrong?" "Nothing, Benji, that was wonderful, but I ran out of breath." "Yeah, I was beginning to gasp as well, but when we get our breath back, do you want to try again?" "Yeah now I know why your brother likes French kissing. Okay, I've got my breath back. Let's try again." Before they could continue they heard the front door bang and Caleb said, "That's my mum back. We had better go down." Quickly the boys adjusted their clothing and made their way to the kitchen to see Mrs.Wilson putting the groceries away. "Hi mum." Hi, Mrs Wilson." They chorused as Caleb went to his mother who offered her cheek to be kissed. "So what have you two been up to?" "Nothing much mum just talking nothing worth watching on the box." "I don't suppose you've done your homework yet." "No mum, Benji came over. I'll do it later." "Were going back to my room mum unless you want me for something." "No carry on." The boys left her putting the groceries away and headed back to Caleb's room. Once inside they quickly lay on the bed side-by-side arms wrapped around one another. They lay gazing at each other till Caleb leaned forward bringing their lips into contact then gently pushing his tongue to part Benjamin's lips. He allowed the probing tongue to penetrate into his mouth and quickly caressed it with his own. Their tongues twirled and probed in a dance of bliss and soon the two boys were sexually roused. Benjamin lowered his hand to fondle Caleb's erection who was only to eager to reciprocate in kind. As they lay experiencing feels of bliss emanating from their loins, there was a knock on the door and Caleb's mother walked in. With no time to extricate themselves from their compromising position they lay looking at her stunned and embarrassed. Mrs Wilson looked at the two boys lying on the bed in total confusion trying to extricate themselves at the same time hiding their faces from her gaze. "Alright, calm down boys I'm sorry for intruding but when you've sorted yourselves out you'd better come down to the sitting room and discuss this." She left the room and the two boys staring at each other, until Caleb broke into a grin." "What's so bloody funny, Cal? Were in big shit now and you sit there grinning." "I can't help it. You should have seen the look on your face when my mum walked in. You were petrified and your cock went soft so quickly it was like letting the air out of a balloon." "Well you didn't look all that bloody great either. Now what happens, say, if your mum stops me from seeing you again." "Don't worry Benji, I know my mum and I think when we get downstairs we're in for a right ear bashing that's about all. So come on and let's get it over with." The boys left the room and headed for the sitting room with Caleb leading the way and a very nervous Benjamin following in his footsteps. In the living room, Mrs Wilson asked them to be seated then she spoke. "I see that you boys have been experimenting sexually. Would you like to tell me precisely how far you have gone?" Caleb looked at Benjamin who was sitting with head bowed and not in anyway inclined to give an answer to the question, so he spoke up. "Mum, we were practising French kissing and we were also rubbing each other to see what it felt like doing it to each other." "Is this the first time Caleb or have you done this before with Benjamin?" "Er! We did it on Friday as well, but that was the first time." "I don't know what to say or how to advise you I know that it is quite normal for boy's to masturbate and to practise mutual masturbation. But to see you two kissing the way you were was not quite the norm. Caleb I'll ask your Uncle Robert to have a word with you and if he wants to Benji as well. I'm sure the two of you will be more at ease discussing it with a man rather than with me." "No, mum, I don't mind talking it over with you, you've done pretty well up to now and you know I don't mind discussing anything with you." "Benji, how do you feel?" Mrs. Wilson enquired. Benji his head still bowed low in embarrassment just nodded his head. Mrs.Wilson rose and walked over to where the boy was seated knelt on the carpet in front of him. Then, putting her index finger under his chin lifted his head so that they made eye contact. "Benji, you have done nothing to be ashamed about, now keep your head up and let's talk, shall we." "Okay, Mrs.Wilson, but I have to be home by nine." "Oh, I don't think we'll be talking that long. We should be finished long before that." She moved back to her seat then looking at the two boys she asked, "Do either of you want to say anything first?" Caleb cleared his throat then looking at his mother said, "Mum, in school we've been learning about the reproductive system in men and women and how it takes place. But, mum they don't tell us anything about what's going on inside of us and the feelings we have towards one another. I see lots of boy's start going out with girls and behaving all soppy with them. But I don't feel like that mum, I've only wanted to be with Benji and when he's with me, it feels like I just don't want him to leave." "That's right Mrs. Wilson I've never felt the same with a girl as I feel with Caleb. From the first day I saw him I wanted to be with him. I was too shy to start talking to him at the beginning, but when we did make contact on Friday, I felt, I can't explain how I felt, it was just Brilliant." Mrs Wilson looked at the two boys, paused for a moment then began speaking. "Boys, you're thirteen years old and the feelings you have for each other I can't say will remain with you till you reach adulthood. It is not unusual for boys and girls in your age group to have these feelings towards friends of the same sex and have a relationship with each other. But lots of them do when they're older go on to marry and have children. That does not mean that you both will go the same way I'm just informing you what does happen in many cases. So don't read too much into your feelings right now and start thinking that you are both homosexuals. Give yourselves time to grow and if you still want to experiment with each other try to be a bit more discreet. You know what will happen if your friends in school find out, the torment you'll both have to go through will be unpleasant to say the least. In a year or two, if the two of you still feel the same way towards each other, then we'd have to inform Benji's parents as well." "Benji, I would advise you not to mentioning any of this to your parents until you are more sure in yourself about your feelings for Caleb, or any other boy for that matter. But, if you feel that now is the right time that you wish to discuss this topic with them, then go ahead and do so. If you would like my assistance in helping you to tell them, then I'd be only too willing to help you." "Now I suppose you're both fed up of hearing my voice. So if you have no questions I suspect that the two of you would like to talk about it between yourselves in Caleb's bedroom " "Caleb rose from his seat went to his mother and after kissing her said, "Thanks mum." Benji stood saying, "Thanks for the advice Mrs Wilson and for not getting mad with us." The boy's made their way out and headed for Caleb's room. Inside, they made for the bed and sat down beside each other. "That wasn't too bad Benji was it? Are you going to tell your parents about this or not?" "No, Cal I think I'll wait till I'm older and more sure about things." "Aren't you sure now Benji?" Benji looked at Caleb smiled and said, "Not really, but if you get me into that ungetoutable wrestling hold of yours, I think I'll be able to make my mind up." Caleb grinned, "Thought you'd never ask." Part III "Hi Cal ready for school." Caleb grinned with pleasure on opening the front door and seeing Benjamin standing at the gate as usual. Since they first awakened to their feelings for each other six months ago, he was always there in the morning and Caleb never tired at the sight or the greeting. "You been waiting long Benji." "No just arrived would have been late if my mum hadn't made me get a move on." The two boys walked down the street towards the main road to catch a bus that would take them to their school. Benjamin his now 5ft 10in frame seeming to tower over the diminutive figure of Caleb, who in the last six months had attained the magical height of 5ft exactly and had proudly told Benjamin of his achievement. At the bus stop they waited till the bus arrived then with much pushing and shoving with Benjamin protecting Caleb they managed to get on the bus. Inside with no seats available they had to stand Caleb holding onto Benjamin for support as the bus made its way towards their destination. "Ben" Came a shout from the back of the bus. Glancing in the direction of the voice Benjamin saw Paul another of his school friends gesturing to him to come over. Shrugging his shoulders and indicating the crowd between them he stayed where he was. As the bus swayed and braked throwing the standing passengers around Caleb hung on to Benjamin to keep from falling at the same time relishing the contact with his special friend. When they finally reached their destination there was a mad scramble for the exit as the bus literally emptied itself of passengers most of them being school pupils. As the two of them walked towards the school gates they were joined by Paul "Why didn't you come over in the bus Ben?" "Couldn't it was blocked to many other kids in the way. Anyway what did you want?" "Are you and Cal coming over for soccer practice after school this evening? The football season is only two weeks away." "I'll be there, I don't know about Cal though, he doesn't play and to just sit and watch isn't all that great." "No I think I'll go straight home after school Benji." "You can join in if you want Cal you never know you might like it." Paul said not too convincingly. He had come to terms with Caleb and Benjamin being friendly. At first he was puzzled as to why, but when Caleb had informed him that he was helping Benjamin with his homework and his lessons in general he and the others accepted the explanation. For although Benjamin was the star on the sports field so Caleb with his academic abilities was the star in the classroom. Paul and the others tolerated Caleb only because of his friendship with Benjamin. The star of the sports field could have any friend he wanted it would be all right by them, but underneath they simmered with resentment and a bit of jealousy that this wimp could replace his affection for them so completely. They knew that Benjamin would not tolerate any animosity towards Caleb in any form whatsoever so wanting to keep Benjamin's friendship they treated Caleb like one of them. After school that day Benjamin quickly took Caleb aside "Cal just say you don't want me to go for football practice and I'll cop out of it." "You're joking Benji and what are you going to do while they practice?" "I could be with you." "Not all of you Benji, part of you will be on the football field." "No it won't Caleb, when I'm with you I don't think of anything else." "Benji if you don't go I'll go in your place how's about that." "Shit! I'll see you after practice then Cal." "Okay Benji." They briefly held hands then Benjamin turned and went towards the sports field while Caleb left the school to go home. At home Caleb did the usual of changing and eating then settled down in front of the Tele. until his mother came home at 5pm. After greeting each other his mother enquired "No Benji?" "No he's gone for football practice said he'll see me after but hasn't turned up yet." "Caleb he does have a home and family besides you. Give him a chance he'll be here just as quick as he can. It wouldn't hurt you to go and watch him play and give him some support I'm sure he'd appreciate it." "I can't stand football mum just don't like it." "I'm sure there are a lot of things that Benjamin has to tolerate that he doesn't like just because of you." "Such as?" "Such as going to watch Henry V do you really think Benjamin likes that sort of movie he only went to please you, and Caleb, your trying to teach Benji chess is farcical do you really think he'd want to play given a choice." "Oh Shhhhh! Blast, do you really think so mum." "It's a good guess Caleb, I know Benji will do whatever you ask of him but I seldom see you letting him make a choice. I think you should start altering that so that he has more of a say in what the two of you do." "I promise I will mum. I never thought I was being so bossy." "Not bossy Caleb just a little thoughtless." "Mum can I talk to you about Benji and I." "Is this to do about your feelings for one another?" "Yes mum, It's I don't know how to really put it. I know I love him and before you question that I mean it. The same as I love you only differently. You see when Benji isn't with me I feel sort of empty and keep thinking of him all the time, and I'm scared that he may not feel the same way too. I want to ask him but I'm worried that he might think I'm trying to make him decide what he wants to do. He is very popular with all the other boys and girls and I know that if he wanted he could go out with whomever he pleased." "Caleb stop a minute. You say you love Benji but you're not sure about Benji loving you. Let me ask you? Before you met him who was he going out with?" "No one" "Precisely and for the month you were at school before you became friends was he going out with anybody on a regular basis?" "No" "So why did he choose you, were you the most popular boy in the class or was it for some other reason." "Never thought of that. Mum anyone ever tell you you're a genius" "Caleb, Mum's don't have to be told that they're a genius they already know it. Who do you think solves all the problems in the house?" "Okay mum, I'm going to call Benji to see if he's home yet." "Why phone Caleb you can go over and see him. It would make a change you don't go to his house very often." Giving his mother a kiss on the cheek he said, "I'm on my way, see you later genius." And left the house. On his way Caleb began to think about what his mother had said and realised she was perfectly right. Benjamin was prepared to do almost anything that he suggested without question where he on the other hand did not. Arriving at Benjamin's house after ringing the bell the door was opened by his mother. "Come in Caleb Ben's up in his room I'll give him a call." She went to the foot of the stairs, "Ben Caleb's here." "Send him up to my room mum Benjamin shouted down I'm nearly finished changing." "Go on up Caleb." "Thanks Mrs. Williams." And Caleb made his way towards Benjamin's room. Knocking on the door it was opened and they stood looking at each other. "Come in Cal what brought you around." " If that's the attitude you're going to take," Caleb said walking into the room, "I'll leave." "No Cal I didn't mean it like that I'm sorry you know." "Shush!" Caleb cut him short saying, "I was only joking Benji and why are you always apologising? If anyone should be saying sorry it should be me." "What for Caleb you haven't done anything." "That is precisely it Benji I haven't done anything that you like. I never go to any matches you play in, be it football or cricket just because I don't like them. Yet you will go with me or do anything I want to, bit of a shit aren't I." "No Cal it's not like that I don't mind really if you don't want to come and watch me play. How can you call yourself a shit?" "There you go again making excuses for me. From now on I'm going to watch you play in every match." Benjamin grinned, "Do you really mean that Caleb?" "Yeah can I have a hug now or is your mum likely to come into your room." Benjamin walked over to the smaller boy picked him up in his arms and swung the both of them around. Suddenly stopping he brought their lips together in a quick kiss then set Caleb on the floor again." "Bloody hell Benji what got into you?" "Just happy that you're going to watch me play in future." "If I knew that was the kind of reaction I would get I would have come to watch you ages ago." "Cal" "Yeah Benji." "Can we go over to your house for a bit?" "Why?" "I thought you were supposed to be the smart one Cal you should know why." "Okay Benji let's go." The two boys made their way down, Benjamin telling his mother that they were going to Caleb's house then the two boys saying their goodbyes and leaving. They both knew that at Caleb's house there was a privacy they could enjoy which was not possible at Benjamin's. Mrs.Williams watched the two boys from the front room window as they walked down the path and onto the pavement. When they reached the street her son lifted the smaller boy and swung him around pausing to look into the boy's eyes he then gently lowered him to the floor. She smiled and nodded her head as she watched the two boys disappear from sight. Reaching the house they both greeted Caleb's mother Caleb then told her they were going up to his room if it was all right with her. "It's all right by me son but you were supposed to have gone to Benji's house what happened. "Nothing happened mum we have more privacy here. So is it okay for us to go to my room." "Before you go this is a bit of a delicate question to ask but I have to ask it. Have you boys practised any other form of sexual stimulation other than masturbation?" "What do you mean mum? The two boys looked at each other a bit perplexed. "Caleb I mean anal or oral sex." "WHAT." "I Oh! Never mind go to your room." "Okay mum, lets go Benji, and the two boys left. Inside Caleb's room he was the first to speak. "Benji I never thought about doing what mum said. I'm happy just feeling and rubbing our dicks against each other is that okay by you." "Cal, when I'm with you all I want is to have my arms around you and feel your body against mine. Oh! And the French kissing as well." "That's how I feel as well I think we'll leave the other stuff till were older is that okay by you Benji. Or do you want to do the other the stuff now." Benjamin smiled "Why don't you stop yapping Caleb and get me in that special hold of yours." "Right then get your clothes off." And both boys started to strip. They were both fully aroused by the time they got on the bed. This time instead of Benjamin lying underneath Caleb, they lay on their side's arms around each other. They rubbed their erections together and as their lips met so they opened their mouths to let their tongues unite. They moaned and groaned as their loins desperately sought for that exquisite of pleasures that they strived to reach. Benjamin rolled over onto his back not breaking the embrace pulling Caleb on top of him. Now they both started to thrust their hips and groins ever faster against each other. Till Caleb threw his head back and erupted his body jerking uncontrollably with the onset of his orgasm. Benjamin feeling Caleb erupting also spewed forth his semen and hugged Caleb ever tighter to his body as he bucked and thrust with the feelings of ecstasy coursing through his body. Spent they lay still Caleb his head lying on Benjamin's shoulder. Slowly he lifted his head and looked down at his friend. "Benji." "Yeah Caleb." "I love you." "I know Cal you've told me about a hundred times already." "That's not it Benji I love you isn't enough I don't know how to say it I think I more than love you I need you, without you I don't know what I'd do. It's like if anything happened to my mum I'd be I don't know what I'd be and I feel the same about you." Benjamin was staring back into his friend's eyes with a glazed look; he'd hardly heard what Caleb had said, he just lay gazing at Caleb. "Benji" "Uh what." "You didn't hear a word I said did you." "Uh yeah I did you said you loved me." "And." "Umm Uh Oh! Yeah, you're going to watch me play football." Caleb lowered his head giving Benjamin a fleeting kiss and said, Never mind what I said Benji just having you here is enough." "Cal I'm sorry I don't know why but when I stare into your eyes you know what happens." "Yeah Benji you've told me before but there is nothing different about my eyes except that they're nearly black." "Cal you don't know what you do to me when you stare into my eyes I just look back at you and start floating away and feel really nice. Like I was drifting and just want to keep going as long as your arms are around me it's like I dunno how to explain it." "Okay I think I'm going to wear dark glasses in future when we're together." "Cal?" "I'm joking Benji I'm joking. Now I think it's time we cleaned ourselves." "No Caleb please, let's lie here a bit longer can we." "You want to do a bit more kissing." "Yeah, but first tell me what you were saying that I didn't hear." "It's not important Benji." "Caleb please tell me." "Oh okay." And Caleb repeated what he had said earlier. Benjamin looked at his friend "You'll never be lonely Cal." "What do you mean?" "You don't know Cal do you?" "Know what." "You have no idea why the other boys don't like you." "I do it's because I've been the top in every subject in the classroom and the other boy's are jealous of it." "Then why aren't the girls jealous." "Uh! I don't know maybe they don't care as much." "Cal the boys are not jealous of your brains well maybe a little but it's your face Caleb." "Bloody Hell! Benji what about my face." "Cal your beautiful don't you know it. Most of the boys in our class would love to be as good looking as you me included." "Bullshit! Benji, you're much better looking than I am. Look at you compared to me the girls would fall over to get to you." "You don't happen to mix around as much as I do and you don't hear the comments the girls make that I do." "Well I don't care what they say or want. All I want is to be with you, the other's can just go whistle. You love me Benji don't you?" "You know I do Cal what's got into you all of a sudden asking me these questions." "Benji I've never had a friend like you before. I've had other friends where we used to live but none that could make me feel like you do. Which makes me frightened just thinking what would I do if you weren't here." "I'm not going anywhere Caleb unless you're going too. Don't you remember me telling you that I saw you first and from that moment I wanted to be like we are now. I intend sticking so close to you that you're going to get sick of me after a while." Caleb lowered his face to Benjamin's and gave him a peck on the lips saying, "I could never get sick of you Benji not even if you were with me every minute of every day. Actually it would be brilliant if you were." "Not possible Cal have to be home by 9pm and it's nearly 8pm already." "Shit! Benji it can't be we've only just got here." "Feels like it don't it. But look at your bedside clock two minutes to 8pm." "You want to have another one Benji before you go?" "Yes only if you do Cal." "Thought you'd never ask." There lips came together then slowly parted to let them taste each other. There loins sprang to life fully loaded ready to bring the pleasure that they both desired and once again they began their ritual of love. So the two boys lives progressed. Going to school playing in and watching sports. Their birthdays came and they were now fourteen-year-olds, making them feel that bit more grown up. Mostly they looked forward to the moments they could be alone together which they relished with a hunger as if they had just met for the first time. Caleb entered the house and was surprised to see his mother already home waiting for him. Greeting his mother with a kiss he asked. "Your home early mum?" "Yes Caleb I have to talk to you so come into the sitting room will you." Making their way in they both sat down then Mrs. Wilson began. "Caleb I've been offered a higher position with the company I work for which will mean a lot more money. But there is a catch the job is in Birmingham." Caleb was too stunned to speak at first then he blurted out. "No mum no you can't go what am I going to do without Benji. I've never had a friend like him and you know it." "I know son but this can mean so much for us financially." Caleb burst into tears and through his sobs blurted out, "Mum please mum no, you can't make me leave Benji, please mum I'm begging you please don't go." And he stumbled forward to his mother wrapped his arms around her and buried his head in her bosom and sobbed. She gently stroked his head and said, "Caleb I know how you feel about Benji but I also have to consider our future son. Going to Birmingham will mean you won't see Benji every day but you could still phone him and see him during the holidays. You could even see him at the odd weekend it's not that far from London." Caleb disentangled himself from his mother stopped his crying and said, "Mum if you take me to Birmingham I promise you that I will never do as well in school as I'm doing now. I can guarantee you that I will fail in every subject." "Caleb are you threatening me." "No mum I'm not threatening you I would never do that. But without Benji to see and talk to I just wouldn't be interested in anything to do with school or anything else for that matter. Mum besides you Benji's the most important person in my life how do you expect me to be able to carry on without him." "Well we still have a month before I have to make a decision and that will give you time to get used to the idea." Caleb left and went to his bedroom picked up the phone and dialled Benjamin when Mrs. Williams answered the phone he asked to speak to Benji and waited. "Caleb I was coming over later why you phoning." "Benji I've got really bad news he said while still sniffling." "Cal what's wrong and why are you crying?" "Benji my mum wants to move to Birmingham because of her job and the extra money she'll get." "Oh Shit! Caleb. What do we do now this can't happen it's not fair?" And he started to cry as well. "Benji can you come over please as soon as you can will you." Caleb sobbed. Through his tears Benjamin managed to blurt out, "I'll be there right away Cal." He hung up shouted to his mother "Mum I'm going to Cal's house." And ran out of the house before his mother could answer. Five minutes later Caleb's mother let him into the house. "Come in Benji Caleb's in his room has he told you about the move to Birmingham." Caleb his emotions now under control answered, "Yes Mrs. Wilson. Is going to Birmingham so important for you, can't you and Caleb be happy over here." "We are happy here Benji but I'll get a lot more money if I were to go and work in Birmingham." "Do you think the money will make you and Caleb happier." "I hope so, and I'm sure Caleb will settle in once he gets used to the new house and school." "Mrs. Wilson you know Cal doesn't make friends easily actually it was because of a fight that we became friends. If it wasn't for that I'm sure he'd still be without any really close friends. Even now although he talks to the other boys and girls I've noticed that he only does it when I'm with him. So I don't think he'll get on too well in Birmingham." "Thank you for telling me Benji but I'm sure that he'll adapt once he gets himself settled into his new surroundings." "Okay Mrs. Wilson, if you don't mind I'll go up and see Cal now." And leaving her he made his way to Caleb's bedroom. Knocking on the door he entered to see Caleb lying on the bed. When he saw Benjamin enter Caleb rose from the bed walked to him and put his arms around him lay his head on his chest and cried. Benjamin stroked his head then lifted him into his arms and carried him back to the bed. Laying Caleb down he then lay down beside him then wrapped his arms around him and drew him in close. Caleb lifted his face to bring their lips together then snuggled down into Benjamin's arms and lay still. "I had a talk with your mum just now Cal it seems that her mind is made up about going to Birmingham, don't see how anything is going to change it." Caleb didn't answer he just snuggled deeper into Benjamin's arms then slowly drifted to sleep. Benjamin feeling the regular breathing pattern of his friend closed his eyes also and joined Caleb in slumber. So temporarily their troubles were driven from their minds as they slept arms and legs entwined content in the closeness of their bodies. Two hours later Mrs. Wilson went to the bedroom knocked lightly and walked in. The room was in darkness but by the light from the hallway she saw the two boys wrapped in each other's arms sleeping. She stood momentarily watching them then turned and silently shut the door and made her way downstairs. Sitting down she thought back to her younger days, when she had first met Caleb's father. The anguish she went through when they couldn't be together and how every minute away from him seemed like an eternity. Then the shock of his death and the utter loneliness that followed only made bearable by the presence of Caleb. Thinking back and remembering the sweetness of their romance and the intensity of her love for Caleb's father, she realised it wouldn't be right to take Caleb away from a friend that he had become so attached to. Returning to the bedroom again she entered to see the boy's still sleeping. Softly she walked to the bed then taking Benjamin's shoulder she gently shook it to waken him. Benjamin stirred then jumped up which woke Caleb as well, when he saw Mrs Wilson standing at the bedside. Returning to the door she switched on the light then turning to the boys she said, "Benji it's nearly time for you to go home but before you do, the two of you had better come and see me in the sitting room." The boy's rose from their bed tidied themselves, and then with Caleb leading the way they went to join his mother. Inside she asked them to be seated then said, "Caleb and Benji I'm sorry for being so selfish. I never gave a thought to your feelings for each other whether it's love or just friendship I should have been a bit more thoughtful before making my decision to go to Birmingham. It was only when I saw the two of you sleeping together did I realise my mistake and decide that even mothers can be wrong. So now the two of you can stop worrying living here isn't such a bad idea." Caleb and Benjamin looked at each other jumped up and hugged one another. Caleb broke off went to his mother kissed her and said. "Thanks mum you've made me so happy you're right you are a genius you solve all are problems." "Well if Benji doesn't get home very soon I'll have another problem to solve with his parents." Mrs. Wilson if I phone my parents and they say yes, can I spend the night here please." By all means Benji but you don't have to speak to your parents I think it would be better if I spoke to them." The two boys waited nervously in the sitting room while she talked to Benjamin's parents. After what seemed like a lifetime she returned saying, "That his parents were in agreement but he would have to go home for his nightwear and some clothes for school tomorrow. So if the two of you are ready I'll drive you over and Benji can collect his things." Half an hour later they were back in the house and after having a snack and a drink the boys went to Caleb's mother kissed her wished her goodnight and made their way to bed. Upstairs they took it in turns to shower then got into bed. Neither of them had bothered to wear their night-clothes and lay naked in each other's arms. "Benji I just hope that we are friends forever and that you never go away." "You must be joking Cal, go away never in a hundred years. I'm in that ungetoutable hold of yours and I think I'm going to use the same hold on you." "Benji can we just lie like this without doing anything till we go to sleep. It feels so nice and safe in your arms. "Okay Caleb I feel the same way but can I have just a little kiss." Caleb lifted his head and brought their lips together they opened their mouths and their tongues came together, swirling, thrusting, and caressing, as they tasted each other's very essence. Ending the kiss with little pecks on the lips the boys settled down to sleep. Arms and legs entwined safe in the knowledge that their time together was no longer threatened and they could live and grow in each other's company. So Caleb and Benjamin slept the sleep of peace and contentment, dreaming of the most splendiferous things that only young boys dream of. Epilogue He stood in the darkened room naked except for a pair of night shorts gazing out of the window into the orange-lit streets below. His mind wandered back to times past when Benji at sixteen had left school. How devastated he'd been the thought of going to school without Benji was frightening, but he prevailed. Then Benji's coming to live with them after telling his parents of his feelings, which had been no surprise to either of them and he left with their blessing. The day Benji walked into the house with his suitcase and belongings was one of the happiest days of his life. Now he was frightened again how could he do it? His thoughts were brought to an abrupt end, as a pair of arms encircled him from behind and drew him back, a head was lowered and teeth gently nibbled the lobe of his ear. He lifted his hand and stroked the face turned his head slightly and whispered, "Benji." "Why so sad Caleb." "Not sad Benji, frightened." "What's to be frightened about?" "University Benji, I don't want to go, I want to stay here with you." "We'll talk about it later Cal, come to bed." Drawing the curtains and switching on the light and taking Caleb by the hand he led him to the bed. They lay side by side arms entwined gazing at each other Benji stretched his arm to put the light out, "Leave it on for a bit longer Benji, I want to talk awhile." "Okay Cal, what you want to talk about." "Having to go away Benji. I know it's not for another ten months but time goes so quickly when you dread the approach of a certain date. You know how I feel about being away from you I don't think I can go through with it. Benji, are you listening? Benji." "Caleb, look into my eyes?" Caleb was startled but did as he was asked he gazed into those sky blue eyes then he was falling. He awoke frightened he was on a grassy plain not a tree in sight, not a cloud in the sky. He whimpered then sensed someone approaching. He turned, and his heart jumped there was Benji, arms outstretched running towards him. His fear left him, he ran as fast as he could towards Benji they meet and their bodies merge into one. Gently they swirl like a benign whirlwind, then from the very heart of their union a burst of light brighter than any sun, shooting into the very heavens. "Caleb, where are we?" "Haven't the faintest Benji, but its really nice here." "Cal I'm inside you." "No Benji, were inside each other, we are one." "I never knew how much you meant Benji, when you said you loved me heaps. Heaps, is not the word Benji, mountainous more like it." "Cal, now I know why you need me near you so much of the time. I can feel you in every part of me your love for me is I can't begin to explain it, it's beautiful Caleb." "Benji, do you think we can stay here forever?" "No Cal we have to go back your mum is calling." "No Benji, let's stay here." "Cal my parents have each other and my brother, your mother has only you we have to go back, for her sake." "You're right Benji but can't we stay for just a little longer." "Come Caleb we can't delay." "Caleb, Benji, wake up, I'm not going to tell you again." "Okay mum we'll be out in a bit." "Benji." "Uh huh." "What happened?" "I'm not sure." "When you told me to look into your eyes it just sort of happened from there." "I didn't tell you to look into my eyes Cal." "You did." "Can't remember that. Do you think we died Cal?" "Don't think so Benji. We couldn't have been dead for nine hours then come back to life again." "Nine hours, bullshit! We were only up there for a few seconds." "Benji we went to bed at 11pm its 8am now that to my reckoning is nine hours." "What was that all about Cal?" "Not sure Benji, but I think we were given a glimpse of what will happen in the Afterlife" "You really believe that Caleb?" "Yep, and it's made me feel a whole lot better about going to University knowing how much you love me. You don't realise how strong you are Benji and I mean mentally not physically. You brought me back when I wanted to stay and now when the time comes I think I can handle being away from you. All I have to do is think about this night and I know you'll never be far away." "Do you really think I'm going to let you go off on your own. I can get a job in the same town and with your grant and my salary I'm sure we'll be able to afford our own flat. Like I said I'm sticking close to you like glue Cal, and nothing is going to get between us." "Benji." "Uh huh!" "Can I get you into my ungetoutable hold." "Thought you'd never ask." The End If you wish to express your opinion on this story then please do so to: - cable4uw@yahoo.com