Date: Sat, 15 May 2010 12:56:27 EDT From: Bwstories8@aol.com Subject: Castaway Hotel: Grand Reopening - Book 6, chapters 13 - 14 Castaway Hotel -- Grand Reopening -- Book 6 by BW Copyright 2009 by billwstories Chapter 13 -- Another School Year. **Author's Note:** Please read the disclaimer in Chapter 00 before you read this. As September started, it was filled with a flurry of activity. First of all, Nick, Trey and Vinnie were all scheduled to take their road tests. I was a little worried about two of the three, but if they did the things we'd practiced, then they would be fine. That meant Vinnie couldn't get too aggressive, as he was prone to do, and Trey couldn't be too timid, as was his habit. However, when the day of their test arrived, everything did not go as I'd hoped. Nick and Trey had opted to ride down with Jake, in the Grand Am, since they had chosen to take their test in that vehicle. Nick went first and did very well, but Trey's attempt didn't go as smoothly. He was a little hesitant carrying out some of the requests his examiner made of him, but did each task very well once he committed to it. He was very nervous when the testing session ended, because he wasn't sure he had done well enough to pass. Once he parked for the final time, the two of them sat side by side, but didn't speak, while the examiner checked his notes. Trey was almost ready to pass out from the stress of waiting, but then his examiner spoke. "You are overly cautious," he stated, "but I guess I'd rather see that than someone who is reckless. You'll have to work on responding to situations a little more quickly than you did today, but I suspect that will come with practice and experience. You've passed your test. Congratulations." Trey wasn't sure he'd heard correctly, so he asked the man if he'd really passed. When the examiner confirmed he had, Trey started breathing normally again. A huge grin also spread across his face as he got out of the vehicle and then he happily informed Jake and I about the good news. Finally, it was Vinnie's turn to go, but he was taking his test in the 4-Runner. It suited his condition best and he felt more comfortable in it, so it made more sense for him to use it instead. That's why we took both vehicles to the test site, to ensure Vinnie would have the best chance of passing. Vinnie was doing well until he came to one particular traffic light. It was changing from green to amber as he approached and this caused some indecision on his part. At first he was planning to stop, so he hit the brake, but then he realized he was nearly in the intersection and would have to slam the brake on to stop in time. If he didn't, he'd end up stopping in the intersection, so he took his foot off of the brake and stomped down on the gas pedal instead. This sent the 4-Runner lurching forward again, but, unfortunately, the light was already red as he passed under it. This meant an immediate failure, for running a stoplight. Vinnie was heartbroken when he returned, since he never considered he might fail his test. Even though I assured him he could take it again, as quickly as the DMV would allow, he still didn't perk up. I even took him inside, so we could schedule another exam before we left, and eventually his morose demeanor began to disappear. He was still disappointed and embarrassed about being the only one to fail this time around, but it might work to my advantage. Maybe now he'll be more inclined to listen to my words of caution and less confrontational. After we put the driving test behind us, the next item on the agenda was our meeting with Judge Shay. I warned Vinnie that he should have concrete reasons and goals for what he wanted to accomplish, because this would help Judge Shay decide how to advise him about his future. Even though I had spoken with Steve in advance and told him what I could about the things Vinnie had mentioned to me earlier, I was certain it wasn't enough. Those details would only give him the groundwork to build on, so this would be Steve's turn to hear from Vinnie directly. That's why I wanted to make certain Vinnie knew exactly what he wanted and how to express his desires. Once we took seats in Steve's office, he moved his chair in front of us, instead of talking to us from across his massive desk. "Vinnie, Josh and I have talked about your conversation with him and he's informed me you don't want him to adopt you. He says it has something to do with your relationship with Kevin. Is that correct?" "Yes, it is," Vinnie confirmed. "If Pop adopts me, it would make Kevin and I brothers. The problem is, I don't think I'd feel right later, if it turns out we want to become partners for life." "I can see your dilemma," Steve agreed. "Is that the only thing that concerns you?" "No, there's more," Vinnie admitted. "I'd actually want Pop to adopt me, if it wasn't for the problem with Kevin. Pop's been really great and I love him a lot. I also love living here, so I don't know what I should do. I guess it's just me, but I can't get past the part of Kevin and me being brothers, instead of lovers." "What if I came up with a solution for you?" Steve asked. "Could you really do that?" Vinnie wondered. "Yes, I just might know a way to get around your concerns. Would that help?" Steve challenged. "I guess it might," Vinnie replied, more hesitantly than I expected, "but it would depend on what your idea is. I don't want to have to leave and live somewhere else." "That wouldn't be necessary," Steve assured him. "I've talked the idea over with my wife and she agrees with it too. If you would allow me, I'd like to explain it to you now. I think we have a proposition you might be interested in." "Okay, that's what we're here for," Vinnie acknowledge, although not very tactfully. "What if WE, my wife and I, were to adopt you instead, and then turned around and make Josh your permanent guardian? You'd still live with him and the other boys and be part of the Currie family, but Kevin and you wouldn't legally be brothers. Josh has even offered to include you in his will, but legally you'd be our son and part of our family. "I know this is a big step and I don't want you to rush such an important decision," Steve continued. "For that reason, I want you to take your time, even if you need a few days or a week to think this through. When you're ready, just have Josh give me a call, so you can let me know what you've decided. We'll proceed from there, when I have your answer." After Steve finished talking, he and I could almost see the wheels turning in Vinnie's head, so neither of us said anything. We didn't want to interrupt or interfere with his thought process and concluded he would need plenty of quiet time to think this through. Neither of us was expecting him to make a decision then and there, but we suspected some questions might pop into his mind that he'd want answers to, once he started thinking about this suggestion. If that were to happen, then we could address those issues immediately, before he forgot what they were or blew them out of proportion in his mind. As he considered the proposal, his face began to brighten and he actually began to smile. Then Vinnie turned toward us and spoke. "That sounds great! I can't think of any problems with your idea and I want to thank you and Aunt Mary for offering to adopt me. I love you both already, but now I love you even more. I'd be honored to have you as my parents." "Vinnie, I told you that you could have time to think this over," Steve reiterated, "if you want. Maybe you should take the time to talk this idea over with Kevin first, before you decide. You don't have to give me your answer now, because I want you to be certain that it's what YOU want to do." "I don't need to think about it any more," Vinnie assured him, while smiling broadly, "and it's the perfect solution to my problem. I don't know how you thought of it or why you want to do this, but I can't think of anything I'd like more. Having you and Aunt Mary as my new parents would be incredible, but you'll still be my Pop, " he added, after turning in my direction, to let me know he hadn't forgotten about me. Once he said this, he gave both of us a hug, but then he paused for a second, before he continued. "I do have one question for you, though. If you adopt me, would I then call Aunt Mary and you mom and dad?" "That would be entirely up to you," Steve told him. "You could do that, or you could continue to call us Uncle Steve and Aunt Mary. We'd have no problems with either choice. We're just glad we can offer you an alternative, to help you solve your problem." "Yeah, it's better than I hoped for. This way, Kevin and I can still stay together and we won't technically be brothers. We'll still be able to marry later, if that's what we both decide to do, and Pop will still be there for me too. Yeah, I think this will work fine." "Fantastic!" Steve exclaimed. "I'll have the paperwork drawn up and we can make it legal, as soon as everything is approved." "Thanks, Uncle Steve," Vinnie told him, while giving him another hug. "That helps me out a lot. I was really worried about how we were going to do this. Pop, is this all right with you?" "Certainly!" I agreed. "Anything that helps you and makes you happy is fine with me. We're both lucky to have a guy like Uncle Steve to help us out with these situations, aren't we?" "We sure are," Vinnie replied, before turning back toward Steve. "Uncle Steve, will you tell Aunt Mary I said thank you, but I'll come over to your house as soon as I can, to thank her in person. This is awesome! Thank you, so much." A few moments later, we left Steve's office and Vinnie couldn't wait to get home, so he could call Kevin and tell him about everything we had just discussed. Although I was pretty sure none of this would be a problem for Kevin, I felt he would also feel better that Vinnie didn't have to confront the issue of their being brothers AND lovers in the future. Now they could continue on as before and explore the love they felt for each other. My assumptions were correct and Kevin thought if was the best option too. He and Vinnie discussed the idea in great deal, while trying to see if they could uncover any hidden problems they might not have anticipated. However, after a lengthy effort, they couldn't come up with anything, so both boys were elated. Everything was progressing smoothly. Now that Vinnie's problem had been settled, and other than continuing my duties as superintendent, the next item on my plate was helping Nick complete the forms to qualify as an exchange student. He was still very determined to do this, now more than ever, and the emails from Ricky just seemed to strengthen his resolve. Even though Nick was currently in his junior year in high school, he was definitely planning far beyond his current situation. Along this vein, Nick had signed up for an extra heavy academic load for the current year, which mildly surprised me. Nick was not what I'd call overly ambitious or the extremely studious type, so his taking on additional work wasn't what any of us would have expected. In addition to the typical junior year coursework, he had also enrolled in a senior English class and honors Spanish. This would be a tough schedule, but if he's able to complete it successfully, he won't have to worry about coming back from the exchange program and taking extra courses just to graduate. Boiling it down to the basics, this meant Nick would be taking two English courses, along with math, science, history, honors Spanish and an advanced computer lab. It was going to be a tough year for him, but it didn't seem to dampen his spirit or deter his ambition. It was obvious the extremes he'd go to in order to fulfill his dream to go to another country and still graduate on schedule. As Nick jotted down his ideas for the essay about himself, and while he attended an assortment of meetings with the various screening committees, he began to focus on going to Brazil. I wasn't certain how he had narrowed his choices down, so I thought it would be best if I discussed this with him, before he finalized his selection. I just wanted to make certain he had considered all of the appropriate variables first and it was what he really wanted. When I pressed him as to why he had chosen Brazil over all the other options, he explained he'd been told that Brazil was the most likely place to have openings. In turn, this also meant it would give him the best chance of being selected to go. He had even taken the time to research the country, by using the school library and various search engines online. He knew about the country, the schools and a little about the people. After hearing this, I concluded he knew what he was doing, but I thought I'd be remiss if I didn't check out exactly how much he understood. "Did you know they speak Portuguese in Brazil, and not Spanish?" I asked. "I thought they spoke both," he told me, "but I've heard they're kind of the same. It's sort of like the English the Barstows speak and how we talk." "Well, some people might speak both languages, but Portuguese is the official language," I told him. "Although there are similarities with Spanish, it IS a different language and not quite as close as you're implying. Now that you know this, do you think you might want to change your mind?" "I don't know," he admitted, honestly. "Let me talk to my Spanish teacher and see what she has to say about it. If it's not too different, I don't think it will be a problem, but if it is, I'll have to think about it more." "That's a smart approach," I confirmed, "but did you also realize that because they are south of the equator, their seasons are the opposite of ours. It's the same in Brazil as it is for Ricky in Australia? That might mean you would have to leave right after our school year ends, like Ricky did, so you won't get a summer vacation. Are you all right with that?" "Yeah, I've already thought that might happen," he assured me, "but I think being in another country will be like a vacation in a way, even though I'll still be in school. I know it's not going to be easy, but I really want to do this, Pop." "Okay, but I want you to call your parents again and get their input too. If all of you agree, then I don't see any other problems." "Thanks, Pop. I'll do that." True to his word, Nick spoke with his parents and also checked on the differences in the languages with his Spanish teacher. After doing both these things, he decided he would be able to survive and communicate with the people there, although it might take a little extra work on his part. In fact, he was even kind of excited about learning a third language. Man, this kid is just full of surprises. Just when I thought I had Nick figured out, he goes and fools me again. On a totally different front, Cody was a little easier to read. He was fitting into the family quite nicely and the growing bond between Graham and him was becoming quite apparent to everyone. Graham had spent nearly every night, since Cody had arrived, sleeping in Cody's room. They were also taking showers together and Graham was fussing over him like a wet nurse. When I questioned Graham about his views on all of this, he told me that he was really beginning to like Cody a lot. Even though he thought of himself as being bi, not just gay, he might be tempted to try a gay relationship, for Cody's sake. He said they had so much in common that he couldn't think about being away from Cody for very long. He also told me he felt he needed to be there for him all the time and when they weren't together, he felt like a part of him was missing. When I asked him if they had been doing anything sexually, he told me they hadn't done much, just jacked each other off a couple of times. I told him that was fine, as long as they both agreed to it, and he told me it was actually Cody's idea. Graham explained he hadn't planned on doing anything unless Cody brought it up first, so he had played kind of dumb where sex was concerned. When Cody eventually mentioned doing something, Graham said he gave in quickly, because he wanted to do those things too, almost as much as Cody did. A few hours later, I had an opportunity to ask Cody about this too. "Hey, Cody, how are things going?" "Great. I really like it here a lot." He was smiling and truly seemed to mean what he said. "I see you and Graham seem to be getting close, wouldn't you say?" I followed, while looking him in the eye. He was still smiling, but beginning to look a bit apprehensive as to where this conversation was going. I think he was a little unsure about what my reaction was going to be concerning what he'd been up to. I think he figured I had somehow learned about his activities with Graham, and even though he'd probably heard stories from some of the other boys about things I did and didn't allow, he still appeared apprehensive. "Yeah, I really like him," he admitted, coyly. "I think we're going to be good friends." His smile faded slightly and I could tell he was trying to figure out if I was going to drop this or continue. "And I think he likes you too. Do you agree?" I followed. I was trying to reassure him that he wasn't alone in his feelings, while exploring the topic further. However, now he began to eye me suspiciously and was a little slow to respond. "I hope so," he finally admitted, before eyeing me some more. Finally, I guess he decided it might be better to confront the issue head on. "Is that okay with you?" he asked. "Sure, as long as both of you are happy with the situation. Have you boys done anything together?" I pressed. I think this question caught him totally off-guard. "What do you mean?" His eyes were nearly popping out of their sockets at this point and his mouth was agape. "You know, have you done anything of a sexual nature. It's okay, you know, as long as you were both willing. I just don't want anyone to be forced into doing things he isn't ready for or doesn't want to do." "We both wanted to do it," he blurted out, and then stopped, after realizing he had said more than he had planned. Now, he had a look of fear on his face, like he was waiting for me to explode or to punish him for what he'd said. "Hey, it's all right, really," I told him, as soothingly as I knew how. "I suspected you might have done something, like masturbate each other." "Done what?" he asked, unsure of the term I had used. "You know, jacked each other off… wanked… given each other a hand job." I had kept going because he didn't seem to understand what I was saying. When I finally caught a spark of recognition in his eye, I continued. "Masturbation is the correct term to use, when you stimulate your penis, or someone else's, to orgasm with your hand." There was a look of disbelief on Cody's face, like he was shocked that I had brought up such a thing. After he got over his initial surprise, he finally responded. "Uh, do you talk about things like this with all your boys?" I chuckled. "Actually, I do," I confirmed. "We're very open about things around here, even sexual topics. I hope that doesn't bother you." He looked thoughtfully at me this time, while studying my facial expressions and body language. When he was convinced I was serious and sincere, he answered me. "No, not really. It just kind of surprised me," he admitted. "Well, maybe I should tell you about how we do things around here then," I suggested. "Let's sit down and I'll try to explain it to you." We went into the family room, which was empty, and I closed the door behind us. I sat in my favorite chair, and to my surprise, Cody was in my lap almost immediately. I thought he might be apprehensive about doing it this time, due to the topic, but that didn't seem to faze him. Unfortunately, though, he was also doing his bouncing and squirming routine and managed to crush my old nads yet again. I let out an "umph', and Cody turned toward me, with a look of horror etched on his face. "I'm sorry, did I hurt you again?" he asked. "It's all right. I'll just start wearing a cup when you're around," I teased. He looked shocked when I said this, but after I laughed, he began to laugh to, and then he hugged me. "I really do like it here. I like it here a lot," he confirmed, before he started to relax. He settled down and put his head against my shoulder, making himself comfortable. I then went on to tell Cody about how we were honest and open with each other and how I was willing to allow most things, as long as no one was hurt or coerced into doing anything they didn't want to do. I also told him about how we did things as a family, including our last vacation and the nudist camp. Hearing this, Cody lit up. It seemed he thought that was the neatest thing he had ever heard. "So you all went around naked together?" he wondered. "Yes, we did," I confirmed. "Graham and the others told me they did that at home, but I didn't know you did it in front of other people too," he stated, amazed. "Will I be able to try it some time?" "If you wish," I told him, which earned me another smile. I could tell he definitely wasn't going to be shy when it came to his body. After we were done with our talk, I think he was more comfortable with the way we did things and I was fairly certain he would be more open with me in the future. He continued to sit with me a while longer and we talked about school and many other topics. The time we spent together was important and I felt we were beginning to form a bond, as I had hoped. Castaway Hotel -- Grand Reopening -- Book 6 by BW Copyright 2009 by billwstories Chapter 14 -- A Time to Remember, Celebrate and Worry. The next event on our calendar was the September 11th memorial activities. These events began a few days prior to the actual date, because the country had been put on alert that other terrorist attacks might occur on that date. Consensus was that those responsible for the initial attack might plan some sort of follow-up on the same date. Therefore, it was felt it would be safer if the activities were spaced out, with only the final events being held on the actual anniversary. We sat down and discussed our various concerns as a family. We did this by talking about what had happened on 9/11, what might happen if something else occurred and what we could do as a family to memorialize those events and honor the memory of those who died in the attack. After quite a bit of debate and compromise, we finally agreed on what we thought would be appropriate. Now, all we had to do was to wait for the appropriate day to arrive. On the morning of 9/11, we all went outside before the boys went to school. As we stood on our front lawn, I offered a prayer for all those who had perished on that day, including Vinnie's parents. When that was completed, we spent another minute in silence, to afford the boys the time to address things in private and in their own way. Once that moment had ended, we all left for school. I understand many of the boys watched the national memorial services on television, in their classrooms and under the supervision of their teachers. After those activities had concluded, they also discussed what they felt, both then and now, and I was pleased with the way the whole topic had been handled. Later that night, after dark, we all went outside on the lawn again. I had passed candles out, so everyone had one, and at 9 p.m., I lit all of them. We stood holding the candles in front of us for about ten minutes, to honor of those who had died. After we extinguished the flames, the boys went to their rooms and plugged in the electric Christmas candles we always placed in our windows for the holiday. We left them glowing for the rest of the night, as another attempt to recognize the suffering of a year ago. I guess in retrospect, I might have also been thanking God that what happened didn't take place on the day we visited the World Trade Center. We had gone to that site before the September 11, 2001 attack and the boys had very vivid memories of our visit. Maybe it was due to that episode, and knowing Vinnie's parents had been on one of the planes that crashed into the World Trade Center, that we were touched more personally, and deeply, than most of the rest of the country. With the exception of the friends and family of those who had lost loved ones or the lucky one who had survived the disaster, we felt a particular closeness and loss concerning those events. Later that evening, we watched a show talking about the families left behind and the sixty-one children who lost one or both of their parents that day. That's when Cole came over and sat on the arm of my chair, put his arm around my shoulder and spoke softly to me. "Some of us never knew our fathers, while still more of us lost them somehow, but I'm sure glad we ended up with you as our dad." I was touched, so I put my arm around his waist and hugged him to me. I didn't know if anyone else had heard what he said, until I felt Cody bouncing around on my lap, managing to crush my nuts once more. "Are you going to be my daddy too?" he wanted to know. "If you decide that's what you want, then it will happen," I told him. "When we reach that point, it will be totally your choice." "Really?" he squealed, before he hugged me too. His reaction made me realize that was exactly what he wanted to hear, to ease his concerns and put his world in order once more. Before they went to bed, nearly every one of the boys approached me. Although what they did or said varied slightly, it all boiled down to the same message. They wanted to thank me for giving them a good home, a future and plenty of love. I told each of them it was my pleasure, since I had received much in return, although most feigned a look that suggested they didn't believe I had received just compensation. Whether they agreed or not, I have. Since Vinnie is the only one who was directly affected by the attack, I made my way to his room, once the others had departed. I felt it was important that I talk to him about this in more depth. It was too bad Kevin was away at college, because I think he would have been able to help calm Vinnie down, but we have to deal with the hand that's dealt us. When I knocked on his bedroom door, he didn't respond, so I knocked again. This time I heard a weak, "come in," in reply. When I opened the door, I could see Vinnie sitting on the bed, with tears streaming down his face. I moved in and sat beside him on the bed, before I spoke. "Would you like to talk about it?" I asked, to get a dialogue started. He merely nodded in response, because he was still sobbing. "Okay, tell me what you're thinking," I prodded. "I miss them so much and I just can't understand why they had to be on that damn plane on that particular day," he responded. I could feel both sadness and anger in his reply. "No one ever really understands why something like this happens," I told him, "and maybe it's better that we don't. What is important is that you miss them. That means they are still in here," I said, while placing a finger on his chest, over his heart, "and that means they'll also remain in here," I added, now placing my finger against his head. "But it's just not the same," he sobbed. "I do miss them, but that's just part of it. I also feel a little guilty about it, because I'd never have met Kevin and never come to live with you, if they weren't on that plane. I have a feeling that might be part of the reason it happened to them, but why couldn't I have met Kevin some other way, without my parents dying?" I was glad Kevin wasn't here to hear Vinnie say this, since I believed he would have somehow felt responsible for Vinnie's parent's deaths too. "None of us has the answer to that question, nor are we responsible for it in any way," I told him. "There is another way to look at this though. God might have felt so badly that your parents were taken from you that he gave you Kevin to help heal the pain and give you a reason to go on. It may not have happened SO you could meet Kevin, but maybe it was only something that resulted BECAUSE it had happened." "I never looked at it that way," he told me. "Why do you think it might be that, instead of what I said?" "Well, someone had to give Graham those visions about you after 9/11," I explained, "so I just concluded it was God's way of letting us know you needed our help. I just had no idea at the time that Kevin would be involved, but since that's what has happened, I've based my conclusion on those facts." "I guess I can see it your way now too," Vinnie told me, "so maybe I was wrong hating God and thinking it was his fault. If he gave me Kevin to make me feel better, he sure knew what he was doing." I could tell he was serious when saying this, so I gave him a hug of support. It would have been better coming from Kevin, but since he wasn't here, I stood in as proxy. Although things did settle down after our discussion, we talked briefly a few more times during the week. During those talks, Vinnie asked me many questions, to clarify my position or to help him deal with the loss, but the week ended with Vinnie coming to terms with his parents' deaths and accepting the idea that he was then guided to us for love and support. The following weekend was not as dramatic or emotional, but it wasn't uneventful. A few weeks before, I had suggested we hold Andrew's twelfth birthday party that Saturday. I hadn't even considered 9/11 when we made that decision, so I hoped we could keep in upbeat and fun. Andrew had asked if he could invite several friends and, of course I agreed. I knew who each of them were, once Andrew told me their names, because they had all attended my school. Not only were they all good kids, I also knew they also wouldn't create any problems. It also made me glad that Andrew felt close enough with each one to ask them over. Sometimes I fear my boys get too bogged down with each other to make friends their own age, so this was definitely a good sign. The party turned out to be our typical birthday bash, although some of the activities were toned down and geared to twelve-year olds. In the end, they all seemed to have a good time, especially Andrew, and another milestone had passed. Other than those occasions, most of the rest of our time was spent at school and traveling to various events. There seemed to be many special activities the boys wanted us there for, both locally and those away at college, and Jake and I were eager to show our support. Outside of the smaller functions, our first major dilemma arose for events happening two weekends later. Unfortunately, three of the colleges had scheduled parents' weekend on the same day and put us in somewhat of a bind. This left me to try to figure out how I was going to be with Frankie, Brandon and Kevin at the same time. Yes, Jake and I would split up, if need be, but that still left only two of us to cover three different locations. This was not going to be an easy decision. Since I wanted to get their input on this matter, I called the college boys and discussed this with them. I came away from those talks with a couple of alternatives I had not previously considered. While speaking with Frankie, he offered to forego our coming to his campus, as we had been there for parents' weekend the year before. He felt we could just come up some other weekend to spend time with him and he'd be just as happy. I thanked him for his offer, but told him I wouldn't be able to advise him what I was going to do until I spoke to the others. He said that was fine, so I called the next boy on my list. When I talked to Brandon, he informed me his parents had called to tell him they were going to fly up for parents' weekend, so I didn't have to worry about being there. He said, although he'd miss us, it would be better if Jake and I spend our time with Frankie and Kevin. After talking to him about this some more, I told him we'd do that, but we'd all come out to see him a few weeks later. He said that would be fine and I felt he liked the idea we weren't going to forget about him completely. We ended up deciding that Jake would take some of the boys and go visit Frankie, and I would take the rest of the boys to visit Kevin. We let everyone choose where they wanted to go, and Cole, Pat, Nick and Shannon decided to go with Jake. That meant Vinnie, Cody, Graham, Sammy, Andrew, Trey and Dion would go with me. I knew it didn't split evenly, but that was fine and now we could iron out the details for our trips. Jake and I decided to leave on Friday, after work. Since the first part of our trip would be in the same direction, we would stop for a brief break and say our good- byes before we split and went our separate ways. Leaving early also meant we could avoid most of the rush-hour traffic and wouldn't have to fight the last minute rush to get there on Saturday. We'd be able to spend Friday night enjoying the prearranged festivities and then spend the night in a motel. We'd stay over Saturday night as well, so we would be rested and relaxed for the ride home on Sunday. Friday night, we not only took Kevin to dinner, but we also asked Jeff and his mother to join us. Kevin and I wanted them to get to know some of my other boys, even though I only had the younger ones with me. After they accepted, we had a very nice meal and all of the boys did a lot of talking. They answered all of Jeff and his mother's questions about what it was like to grow up in such a large and varied family. I take it they noticed that Vinnie was handicapped, Dion was black, and Sammy and Andrew were oriental. (I say that with tongue in cheek.) The boys were very open and honest with their answers, maybe too much so for Jeff's mother. She seemed surprised to learn that some of the boys considered themselves to be gay, but it wasn't because she hated gay people. She was merely stunned to learn that boys this young would know and talk about such things. If only she realized that her son's roommate was one of those gay boys and Vinnie was his lover, I wonder how she would have reacted then? I also introduced them to Cody and explained he had only recently come to join us. They asked him a little about his past, which he answered without reservation, and when they asked him if he was glad he came to live with us, he gave a resounding "Yes!" Needless to say, they were impressed by his positive reply, as well as taken in by his angelic demeanor. Jeff's mother spent a great deal of time with the youngest boys and seemed to take great pleasure doting on them. Even though the boys generally felt they didn't need assistance, they happily let her do whatever she wanted for them, which in turn pleased her. I think most of them enjoyed a mother's attention for a change, especially Cody, so I didn't interfere and merely watched in fascination. Following dinner, we took a stroll around the campus, with Kevin and Jeff showing us around. Along the way, the pair introduced us to a few of the friends they'd made so far, as well as to other classmates and dorm residents. We were even included in a dorm party that was being held and I was pleased to see no alcohol was being served. It may have been because there were numerous parents on campus at the time, but I hoped that was the norm and not the exception. On Saturday, after taking everyone out for brunch, including Jeff and his mother, we all went to the football game together. Even though Temple lost, we still enjoyed ourselves, although it would have been much better if they'd won. Once the game ended, we took a walk, to check out the surrounding community. It wasn't quite as small town as I was used to, but it was still geared toward meeting the needs of the college community. There were small shops and eateries catering to the students, and a few bars that were happy to entertain those old enough to drink. I think we were fairly impressed, yet still had a few reservations about some of the things we saw. Later that evening, we went out to eat together again and then we went to the huge campus social being held, complete with entertainment. The entire day flew by quickly and we were all quite tired when it ended, so we turned in after that. We planned to meet early the next morning for a final meal together and then we'd be on our way home after that. We had a nice breakfast and then attended an interdenominational church service together. It was a very predictable event, with the minister welcoming the students and their parents first, and then going on to deliver a pretty standard sermon after he finished. Once the service ended, we said our good-byes to Kevin, Jeff and Jeff's mother. This was the roughest time for Vinnie. He had enjoyed being with Kevin again and was upset because he had to leave. Noting this, I worked it so he could have some time alone with Kevin before we left. I wanted to give him a chance to give Kevin a special good-bye, hoping it would placate him. Even after having this opportunity, Vinnie was still reluctant to part from his lover. I did try to console him by mentioning the fact that Kevin would be returning for Thanksgiving, but it was still weeks away and not soon enough for Vinnie. Eventually, I did manage to drag him away, but he sulked all the way back. Once we returned home, I compared notes with Jake and the other boys about their weekend and discovered it was very much the same as ours. Now, we could get ready for the next event on our calendar. The following weekend was spent at Dustin's college, because it was parents' weekend there. The weekend after that we spent at Penn State, with Danny, doing basically the same thing. Honestly, I was grateful when all these weekends came to an end and the feelings of déjà vu were behind me. Near the end of October, something else came up. It all started when Graham came to me one night, looking quite concerned. I wasn't sure what to expect when he began to speak. "Dad, I think we have a problem," he told me. "And what sort of problem might that be?" I asked. "It's about Cody and I don't know what to do." I wasn't sure what he was referring to, but I definitely wasn't ready for something like this. "Okay, what kind of problem are we talking about?" I pressed, wanting to get to the meat of the matter as quickly as I could. "I don't know how long it's been there, but I'm seeing a gray shadow around Cody," he informed me. "Not like with Brent, but more like what you had, just not as dark." "And when did you first start noticing this?" I followed, trying to pin this down. "It might have been there the whole time, but I guess maybe I was looking at something else. I was too busy noticing how cute he was. I guess I was also surprised when he picked me, over Sammy or Andrew. They're really closer to his own age." "Well, maybe he is into 'older' guys," I quipped, but quickly got back to the point. "So, what else can you tell me?" "Not much, but the other morning I was watching him sleep and that's when I realized he had a gray shadow around him. Maybe it was because we had those real white sheets on the bed at the time, so it stood out more. I'm sorry I didn't see it before, but I think you should take him to the doctor and have him checked out." "That sounds like a great idea, and I'll follow your suggestion," I assured him, "but I want to talk to Cody first, to see how he's feeling. In the meantime, I don't want you to tell him or anyone else about this until we're sure." "Okay, I'll keep it a secret," he agreed. "I don't want him to get mad at me because I haven't told him about my 'gift.' I wasn't sure he'd be able to understand it and didn't want to scare him away. I've also asked all my brothers to keep quiet about my ability too. I don't want to lose him. I like him too much." "Okay, Graham, I'll be discrete, but I will investigate this further," I confirmed. "I trust your perceptions too much to ignore a warning like this." I left Graham thinking about the implications this could have for us and then waited an appropriate amount of time before I approached Cody. I did that to make sure Cody didn't realize Graham had tipped me off about this. When I found him alone, I asked him to take a walk with me. He looked confused, but did as I requested, and we took a walk in the woods. "I just like to pull you boys aside every once in a while, to find out how things are going," I offered, as way of explanation. "How have things been going and how have you been feeling?" "Fine. Why?" he replied, still confused. "I was just curious and a little concerned about you," I told him. "We've been doing a lot of things and I haven't had much time to sit down to talk to you, so I just wanted to make sure nothing seems to be troubling you?" "Well, sometimes I do feel extra tired, and sometimes I have trouble catching my breath when I'm playing," he offered, "but it's no big deal." "Well, what if we just make sure it's not a big deal?" I asked. "Would it be all right if I set up an appointment for you to get a complete physical. I just want to be sure you, like all of my other sons, are healthy. I generally do this when someone new comes to live here, so is that okay?" "Sure, I don't mind," he agreed. "Great! I'll let you know when it is then," I replied. I was relieved I would get to the bottom of this before long. We continued our walk, but it was mainly so I could observe him. It also gave me a chance to show him more of our property. As we took our stroll, I had flashbacks to when I took Ricky for this very same walk, just after he first came to live with me. The feeling of déjà vu was overwhelming, but this time it evoked a favorable response, unlike the repetitive parents' weekends. Although I knew this was a different boy and different circumstances, the similarity was uncanny. Maybe these feelings were influenced by the physical similarity between the two at this age, but it was almost as if I had been allowed to take a walk through a time portal. I didn't notice anything unusual about him while we were out, so I secretly hoped Graham was wrong this time, but Graham's track record with predictions was too impressive to ignore. I would now make the appointment with our family doctor and express my concerns. E-mail responses to the stories, story suggestions, or other 'constructive' comments or advice may be sent to: bwstories8@aol.com - but please put the story title in the subject line, so it doesn't get deleted as junk mail.