Date: Tue, 12 Jul 2022 13:35:00 +0100 From: Andrew Passey Subject: Coming Out Part Twenty Eight (Young Friends) Unlike my outing where it seemed the whole school knew the day Oscar decided to tell people, Jamie's spread slower. Maybe he was just so popular people didn't believe he'd go out with someone like me. Maybe all the boys who bullied me felt bad about it and didn't want to be mean to Jamie? Not that you'd want to be mean to him as everyone loved him it seemed. Of course luckily for me I was the only boy he loved! You can't control what people think of you when you come out. You being honest about who you are, about your true self might seem threatening to some people. Some people might be nice to your face but slag you off behind your back. Homophobia is still rampant let alone biphobia. I knew from what I'd been told that a lot of boys just assumed Jamie was gay and couldn't admit it. Absolute bollocks of course but unfortunately biphobia is a very real thing and male bisexuality in particular just seems to be misunderstood. Jamie didn't seem to mind too much though, he was just happy he no longer had to lie about us. He no longer had to worry about what people would think when they saw us together. We were out and proud, to a point anyway. Also it was an all boys catholic school we weren't exactly shouting it from the rooftops or snogging in the corridor. But it was just nice to be able to hold hands under the table at lunchtime without worrying we'd be seen. Of course not everyone took the news very well when they found out and unsurprisingly one of those that didn't was Henry. It was getting on for two weeks after Jamie's party and I was walking across the playground at lunchtime to meet Jamie. I was lost in my own world and I didn't see Henry or his friends until it was too late. He grabbed me by the arm as I walked past him, stopping me in my tracks. "Well if it isn't the dirty bum fucker. Although I supposed I should say bumfucked as I imagine you let Jamie make you squeal like the little bitch you are!' "Fuck off Henry," I replied as I struggled to break free. "Not so fast, you don't just get to drag Jamie's name through the mud and get away with it." "I'm not dragging anyone's name through the mud. YOU'RE the one making homophobic slurs." Henry grappled with me as I still tried to break free. A bit of a crowd had gathered around us and I started to feel uneasy. "You're a fucking pervert! It's not my fault I'm just telling the truth about you. Go on then, deny you let Jamie fuck you." "What is wrong with you?! Why are you so fucking obsessed with what I get up to in my private life!?" "YOU are what's wrong. You're an abomination, a freak. Everyone knows being gay is wrong. I bet Jamie isn't even your boyfriend. You're just spreading rumours to make everybody think you're not a fucking waste of space." The word stung even though I knew they weren't true. When you've been bullied before for your sexuality like I had, it's easy for those feelings to come back when you don't expect them. I tried to think of something to say but I couldn't find the words. "See everyone! I said it was just lies, why would anyone go out with a sick weirdo like him?" Henry shouted triumphantly. "Because I love him!" Jamie said loudly, pushing through the group to stand next to me. "Sam is the nicest, kindest, gentlest boy in the world and I'm lucky to call him my boyfriend." "Oh great, another fucking gay boy!" Henry said but I could tell the mood in the crowd had changed. "I'm bisexual Henry, not gay. Anyway why are you so obsessed who and who isn't gay? Are you jealous? Do you wish it was you about to do this?" Jamie asked as he leant in and kissed me in front of everyone. As coming out scenes go, well I don't think anyone could be in doubt Jamie wasn't straight anymore! There were a few wolf whistles and Henry looked like he might explode before Mr Franklin turned up to see what the fuss was about. I guess he thought there was a fight going on which wasn't the most irregular of things at our school. "Shows over boys. Jamie, Sam, come with me." He said but not particularly sternly. I wasn't exactly an expert on school rules but I didn't think kissing in the playground was the worst offence. Anyway at this point I didn't care, I was on cloud nine that everyone knew about me and Jamie. Yes people might treat us differently but we were being our true selves and that comes with a happiness you can't describe. "Well you two certainly caused a stir!" Mr Franklin said once we were in his office. "Yes sorry sir," Jamie said although he didn't sound particularly contrire. "Henry was making homophobic remarks at Sam. He's been an idiot about it for ages and I'd had enough. I just wanted to show any boys here who felt like I did there is nothing wrong with being gay or bisexual and that they should embrace it. Like me and Sam did." "That's a laudable aim but please don't make a habit of it. The last thing I need is a riot or the Diocese on my back. This is still a Catholic school even if we're more relaxed about things than the people at the top might be. But nothing to worry about. You can go Jamie but I'd like a quick word with Sam." Jamie left and Mr Franklin smiled at me, "Are you happy Sam?" "Yes Sir, I am very happy. The happiest I've been for a long long time." "Excellent. Who knew when I signed you up for SPB that I was actually a matchmaker without me realising?! What I really wanted to say was well done. I've seen the growth in you as have other teachers. It seems being honest about who you are has helped. Then again I guess being in love is also a positive! Cherish that feeling, it's the best in the world and it's something everyone deserves to find whoever they are. Now off you go and while I know it's hard not to sometimes, but please try not to snog your boyfriend in the middle of the playground again!" "Don't worry sir, it won't happen again!" "Never say never! As for Henry, well hopefully the humiliation was enough for him but I'll have another word in his ear. Enjoy the rest of your day." I left the office and Jamie was waiting there with a smile. "So much for not wanting to announce it all in front of the whole school? You literally snogged me in the playground!" I said, smiling back. Jamie shrugged, "Well it seems some people didn't quite believe it so I wanted to make a statement. I think it's safe to say we did and that our kiss will go down in school history!" "Mmm I like the sound of that. Sam and Jamie, the school's first public kiss!" After that, well everybody knew about us. Most people were great about it, some were arseholes but then that's life. But we were happy together and didn't care who knew. As the weeks moved on things just got better and better. We just had so much fun together. Thanks to internet our sex life went up a notch as well. To my surprise Jamie had gone all in on our sex life and the internet helped play a role. Everything you want to find information wise is so easy to find with just a bit of googling. It seemed every week Jamie found a new position we should try. Sometimes they were just too challenging and we fell about laughing at our inability to make it work. Other times we'd discover a position that would quickly become a favourite. We were like kids in a big ice cream shop of gay sex positions wanting to try every flavour going! However what we have is so much more than that. It's weird. The sex is amazing, like really fucking amazing. But I sort of feel if we never have sex again then it would be okay. What we have is stronger than that. It's two soul mates, two souls linked as one. Whatever happens I don't think anyone or anything can come between us. Our love is stronger than anything. I know there are challenges ahead but we'll meet them together.... The End Thanks for all the kind messages as always! I might well revisit Sam and Jamie and their story in the future. I did actually have a time skip to their possible future in this last chapter originally but decided to take it out so I can explore their story more in future..I think I might have a break from writing for a while as life is getting pretty busy and it's hard to find the time but fingers crossed I'll be back with something soon..