Date: Thu, 24 Aug 2006 20:50:31 -0400 From: Dwedno Smith Subject: Dreams Chapter 3 Chapter 3. The dreams and nightmares are stronger then ever. It was just before 10pm and I called my mom to tell her the movie was over but we wanted to hang out for a while. She said okay but no later then 11pm or there would be trouble. I told her no problem I would call and tell her where to meet us by then and she said okay and hung up. "So what are we going to do we have a little over an hour to be together." "Want to go find a private place and have fun?" "Yeah that sounds really good. Only where? There aren't too many private places around here that are lit enough to feel safe at night." "Yeah good point, well lets try anyway we have nothing to lose and lots to gain!" We walked for a bit but nothing stood out as a safe place to go to be alone after dark so we just decided to walk and talk. "So did you like the movie PJ?" "It was okay but I liked what happened during the movie more than anything else." "Yeah me too, I really liked your touch. You didn't go too far but you really knew how to make me feel good all during the movie." He looked around and when he was the coast was clear he leaned in and kissed me on the lips. "PJ, like you said earlier its way too soon to know what we want from this but I know what I want." "What's that?" "Sex!" "Huh?" "What we did today was awesome and I never felt so good or came so much in my life. Do you want to come over to my place tomorrow morning and fool around and explore more?" "Yes I do so much... Awwww shit!" "What? Did something happen? What's wrong?" "I totally forgot to tell you what happened. I can't come over tomorrow morning but I can after camp." "Camp? What the hell are you gonna be doing at camp?" "Protecting Jamie." "Wait a minute what happened that you need to protect your brother?" "He got bullied today by an older kid and when he got off the bus he came over to me crying and it was the first time I was able to play big brother and it made me feel so important and he was so nice to me tonight that I felt so good..." "Yeah I can only imagine. So you are going to camp?" "Yeah..." I explained the whole idea to him and he liked it a lot. "That sounds like it will work well PJ I can't wait to hear how it went." "I can't wait to tell you how it went and I want to do that in your bedroom while we strip naked." He looked at me. "You want to just come over and get naked?" "Sure why not?" "I dunno, just that today went so well but it started off so scary I didn't think you wanted anything to happen naked for a while." "Oh I want a lot to happen tomorrow Drew. You mentioned sex... I wanted so badly today to take your cock into my mouth and blow you and lick your balls..." "Okay, okay easy man your giving me a hard-on right here on the street." "Sorry." "No don't be sorry I love everything you just said and want to do all of it with you." "Awesome! That is gonna make camp drag tomorrow I just know it." "Nah it will be okay I have a feeling." "I hope so because there is a lot riding on this." "Huh?" "My mom told me if I make this happen without anything major going down she will finally get me the cell phone I have been begging for." "Wow that is a great incentive not to fuck up," "Listen Drew the only thing that is gonna get fucked up is that eleven year olds face if he lays a finger on Jamie." "You really love him don't you?" "I guess I do. He was nothing more than a brat but something happened today when he got off that bus. He changed. I don't know if it's for good but I felt it. I felt his hug, the fear in him it just hit me like a ton of bricks! All I felt was anger that someone picked on my little brother and it's not gonna happen again I promise that." I was rambling on and Drew was all smiles as he listened and looked at me. "What?" "Damn I love you PJ, listening to how you want to protect your brother makes me wish I had one but also makes me proud to know I have something just as good." "What's that Drew?" "You silly." I blushed. "Thanks, I am glad I have you too. Hey do you have any problems meeting Josh?" "Of course not but what makes you think he wants to meet me?" "Our chat before when you came over. Part of it was about you and him having to deal with you being in my life now." "Really you said that to him?" "Yes I told him I loved you and he said he already figured that part out on his own." "Wow PJ that is just..." he got all quiet I looked at him as we walked down the block. "Are you okay?" He shook his head yes. I let a little time go by... "Drew what's wrong?" "Nothing..." He was crying. "Drew please don't cry I didn't mean to hurt your feelings." "You didn't hurt them you made me feel so wanted. You chose me over Josh and told him to his face... no one ever did something so special for me." He wiped his face. I looked at him. "No one ever meant so much to me before." Suddenly it didn't seem to matter where we were he just turned and hugged me. Thankfully no one was around. "I love you so much PJ, thanks for everything you are doing for me." I smiled. "Damn look at the time. I gotta call mom." He handed me the cell and I called and gave her our location. "She is on the way." "Okay. He said as he wiped his face again. You really are special Peter Joseph!" I just smiled. "So are you Drew... what is your middle name?" He laughed. "You don't want to know. Please don't make me tell you." "Andrew???" I said with some authority. "Okay its... no please I can't tell you it will just bother you to know." "How could your middle name bother me?" "Believe me it will." "Look nothing is going to bother me so just tell me I mean how could it be such a big deal you are acting like its Josh or something." "It is." "No way! Really? Your middle name is Josh?" "Yup Joshua." "Oh God... when Josh finds out he is gonna flip." "Then don't tell him." I started laughing. "No I think he needs to know it might even help. He loves his name." "He loves his name... that's really even too gay for me." I laughed again. "What is Josh's middle name PJ? Please don't say Andrew." "No but that would be funny it's David." "JD... great initials." "Speaking of that why don't you go by your initials?" "What? AJ?" "Yeah I totally love that it fits you too as cute as you are." "You sure know how to embarrass me PJ every time you call me cute it just makes me turn red." "But you are... you are so fucking hot and cute!" He reached out and put his hand over my mouth. "Stop...stop calling me cute it's too much..." Just then my mom pulled up in the car. Just in time I guess. "Hey mom." "Hey yourself. How was the movie?" "A little funny but okay I guess." "It wasn't bad Mrs. Phelps." "Mom AJ doesn't have to be in until midnight is it okay if we hang out till then?" "I don't know... you have to be up at 6:30 to help your brother... and since when is Drew AJ?" "It's my initials Mrs. Phelps we were talking and I told him, he said he likes AJ more than Drew." "Well personally I love Drew but AJ sounds so much more masculine." "Gee thanks now I feel like a man." We all started laughing. "Okay honey you can stay out till midnight but if you give me trouble getting up in the morning I am coming in with ice water..." "No mom I swear I won't." "All right but you have been warned." I looked at Drew... I mean AJ... He smiled. We were home quickly and mom went inside and left us alone. "I'll leave the door unlocked don't stray too far away." "I won't, thanks." I grabbed AJ by the hand and pulled him to where Josh and I were talking and then I pulled him to me and kissed him. We hugged and just made out like two dogs in heat for the next five minutes. Our hands flying all over each other. When we finally stopped we both had hard-on's and were all sweaty and hot. "Damn that was good!" Drew said. "Yeah imagine what tomorrow will be like." "Should I get some protection PJ?" "Huh, protection... what do you mean?" "Condoms? Should I get some for tomorrow?" I looked at him. "Why, are you planning on doing something I don't know about?" "No but just incase we really get crazy I thought I would ask." "First off I don't know if we are gonna go that far and second if we actually got to the point where we would need them who is going to screw who?" "I dunno I didn't think that far ahead I thought they would come in handy just incase." "Even if that happens we are both safe aren't we? I mean you can't get anything from someone who has never had sex right?" "That's what we learned in school but they always told us to be safe so I just thought I would be safe." "I guess if you want to get one or two you can. Do you even know how many come in a pack?" "Nope no clue. Do you?" "Nope. Are you sure you can buy them without getting all..." I didn't want to say it. "Good point, you know me well already PJ I might go in and get all scared or embarrassed." "Look if we get that far which I don't think we will... we are both clean and have never had sex with anyone else before so if I fuck your ass I don't think it would be a big thing." "If you fuck my ass? What if I fuck yours?" "Then I have a problem because that massive piece of meat you have in your pants will not only kill me it might choke me." He started laughing. "It won't go that far..." "I know... but honestly AJ if you stick that in my butt it will probably hurt so much I won't be able to crap for a week." "Yeah well yours isn't that small either mister so what makes you think it will go up my ass any easier?" "I don't know I just thought I was small enough to go in easy. From what I have heard it's really hard to do the first time anyway no matter what size your cock is." "Maybe PJ but you MIGHT THINK YOU ARE SMALL but you aren't believe me! I looked at that thing and even though I am bigger you are not small my man you are what I have been told is normal." "I thought you didn't know much about sex?" "I don't but that never stopped me from hearing someone at school say 6" is normal so am I right?" "Yeah as far as I know you are. I read online that 6" is average." "Then what were you so afraid of when you got naked?" I looked at him. "You are asking me that question?" "Oh yeah sorry I guess I got a little carried away. No one was more scared then I was when I stripped in front of you." I gave him another hug. "You might have been scared but I was so proud of you when you dropped your boxers... I just wanted to tell you that." "Thanks PJ that means a lot to me." "I was scared too more then you know. I didn't feel that way for too long though you made me feel better immediately when you didn't laugh." "Laugh? That never crossed my mind all I did was look at you and all I saw was beauty man. Your cock looked like... well like something I dreamed about having one day. It was awesome PJ." Now I was embarrassed. I paused for a bit and didn't say anything. The awkward silence made it even worse. "Thanks... AJ... by the way I haven't heard you tell me to stop calling you that so do you like it?" "Yeah actually I think I do since you started saying it." I smiled. "I do like it... a lot." He added. "Good because I like it too. So what about tomorrow, seriously if we do happen to get to anal?" "I don't know I mean I have stuck one or two fingers up my butt and it was really weird I don't know if a cock would go that far in it sounds scary." "I am sure it is especially if it were yours going in my hole. I have fooled around with a little more then two fingers though." I added. "Really what did you do?" "Promise not to laugh?" "I swear to God I would never laugh at anything this serious." "Okay but if you do..." "PJ, come on I swear... what did you use?" "A carrot. I got one from the fridge and when no one was home one day I put some baby oil on it and tried to push it in." "Wow really? That is awesome...how far did it go?" "It slid in really easy and went almost all the way in." "How long was it and weren't you scared?" "It was a small one maybe five inches, I didn't measure it. I was a little scared because I didn't know what to expect but if you think about it what comes out is pretty big sometimes so I just figured that a small carrot wouldn't do much." "Did you feel anything weird or cum?" "I didn't cum but I think I could have. I jerked off with it in there but it started to feel way too weird as I started jerking so I pulled it out and it felt even weirder coming out while I stroked my hard-on and I came really close... but I stopped because..." I paused and suddenly felt weird. "Why, why did you stop? Damn you gave me a hard-on now." I reached down and felt it. "Yup sure is hard and feels so good too." "PJ... come on why did you stop?" "Because... it's not easy to explain... I stopped because it started to hurt my head. I was getting so much pleasure and it was so strong that my head actually started to hurt instead of feel good and I got really scared. So I pulled it out and stopped jerking. That killed me even more when I stopped because I was so close my balls started to hurt." "Awww man that really sucks I would have died from getting that close and not cumming!" "I did later but I was so scared... I didn't know what the pain was and I went online to try and find out and it said something about anal sex doubles the pleasure if its done properly but that didn't change what I felt and I thought it was such a small carrot so I had a problem believing it." "Wow that's amazing." "Yeah and so was the amount of cum I got when I came later. I thought it wasn't gonna stop coming out and the feeling I got was the strongest I ever had before today when you did it to me." "Wow that sounds so awesome that I might have to try it if it's that strong." "That's up to you but I am not ready for that again yet." "So I guess that means you don't want me to do you in the ass tomorrow?" "I don't think I could, not just yet. I want you to but when I am ready okay?" "Sure PJ I understand but I might want you to show me or do me is that okay?" "Hell yeah I am getting harder just thinking about sticking something in your butt." "Me too. Damn it sounds like a lot of fun and the feeling... the way you described it makes me wonder how powerful it could really be." "I don't know AJ honestly I don't have that answer." "Yeah I know but we might find out tomorrow." "Really?" "Maybe, depends on how good it feels and how much I really want to try it." "Okay I promise I won't push you if you don't want to or get scared." "Thanks. Hey look it's almost midnight you better go." "Yeah, okay." I leaned in and gave him a nice kiss on the lips. For the first time he opened his mouth and used his tongue and it got me all hot so I opened mine and our tongues met and it felt pretty neat. We played around for a little bit and swapped some spit and it wasn't really that bad or weird. I kinda liked it. "That was neat I never frenched anyone before." "Yeah it was. I liked it too. We can try again tomorrow but you better go PJ I don't want you getting grounded over a kiss." "Okay nite lover..." "Night PJ I really do love you and thanks for everything tonight." I turned and walked home which was only a house length away after seeing him off a little of the way. I didn't go too far. I watched him to his door and then I went in after his front door shut. Thankfully no one was up because my cock was so hard I thought I wet myself again after we did all that talking and kissing. I am so beat I bet I will sleep well tonight. I headed up to bed and took off everything and got into bed naked. Then I remembered Jamie and put on my PJ bottoms just to be safe. I think I was out before my head hit the pillow. But not for long... This was different. I was sleeping or at least I thought I was but the dream in my mind was coming in clear...so far nothing new but this time I was able to do more, see more and interact better with the people in the dream. I felt weird like I wasn't supposed to be there but I was. I was suddenly in the middle of town... all the other times I never knew where I was. I was back where my mom picked us up and it was dark out. I didn't see anything but outdoors so far and as I looked down I didn't see myself. I turned to look into a glass window to see if I could see any reflection and nothing was there. I was scared but I didn't feel scared if that makes any sense. I was next to the movie theater now and there was a door with double locks on it. I went through it with ease and started to climb... well float up the steps. I felt awake but I knew this was nothing that I could do while I was awake. I went through the door at the top of the steps and now I was inside someone's house. It was dimly lit. I headed for the door and went through it. So far I didn't have much or really any control of this I was just following along. In front of me was a bed and a boy was sitting on the end of it. He was crying. This is weird I never dreamed so vividly before. Everything was so real I actually felt like I was there for real. I focused on the boy and couldn't make out a face then the door to his room opened and lightened the room. I now recognized this boy. It was a kid from school in my grade that I knew and kinda liked but he was quiet and hardly said anything to any of us. Greg... Greg Elter. That's who he is but what am I doing here and why am I dreaming about someone I hardly know? Anyway this decent looking boy my age I think was sitting in his boxers with a tee shirt on and like I said crying or he was crying before. Now that the room has lit up he looked at whoever was behind me. A look of fear came across his face. "No, not again..." he said. I turned and looked at the other person and didn't know who it was. It was clear that neither of them could see me but I was able to see them. So far that is all I know. Suddenly the man who towered over Greg swung and smacked him across the side of the face and head knocking him to the mattress. He quickly covered up and started to cry again. "No more! No more!" he screamed out. The man stopped after his swing left his mark on Greg. "Then you will do what I ask next time and not tell me no! Is that clear?" He looked up from the bed at the man and shook his head yes. The man turned and walked out slamming the door behind him and darkening the room and all I could make out were shadows once again. I wasn't sure what was going on or why I could see it and all so well like I was really there. I wanted to go to Greg but so far nothing was allowing me to move. I watched for a bit and he suddenly sat up and rubbed his head from what I could make out in the darkness. Out of no where I moved closer and was now inches from his face with him in front of me to my left. I couldn't smell or feel anything at the moment but he stopped rubbing and looked my way. I was inches from him and if this were real I could feel his breath on me but I didn't. None of this makes any sense so far but as I watched something has spooked Greg to stop rubbing his head and he is looking right at me. I spoke to him but he didn't answer. "Greg... Greg its me PJ can you hear me? Can you see me?" He looked like he could but he didn't say anything or move again. Then just as quickly I backed away and went from inches to feet from him and then I was out the door and back into the street. I sat up in bed sweat pouring down my head and I looked around the room. I was now awake and that dream was too real to be fake I thought to myself. I got up and opened my door and went into the bathroom once again like I have been doing every night, every time something like this happens. This time it seemed real. It seemed like I was there. Was it real? I had to know! I wet and washed the sweat off my face and shut the light off and headed back to my room. I kept thinking and wondering why this was so strong. Why I almost felt like I was there for real this time. I was scared, confused and excited all at the same time but most of all I was worried about Greg. If this was real and he is in trouble I need to do something. I sat on the edge of my bed and looked out the window. The darkness was fading and I looked at the clock and it said 5:08. Great... I have to be up in about an hour to get ready to go to camp with Jeremy. I need to know about Greg though. I need to find out if this is real or just a dream gone out of control in my head. I just can't do it now. I put my head down to rest and what seemed like seconds was suddenly the hour and my alarm was going off. I reached over and shut it off and rolled back over as I felt the bed move and Jeremy was awake above me. I watched as his feet dangled over the side and then he turned and started to come down the ladder from above. He hit the floor with a small thud. "You awake PJ? You are gonna come with me today right?" I looked at him. "Yeah I am awake and yes I am coming with you." "Good I was scared that you might change your mind and I wasn't gonna go if you did." "Its gonna be okay Jer..." "Thanks." He took off and headed out of the room before I finished getting his name out... probably to the bathroom was my guess. I sat up and put my feet on the floor. It was brighter out now with the sun up even though I wasn't totally awake and it wasn't shining in our window yet. A few minutes later he came back into the room looking awake and a bit more refreshed. I was out of bed as he came over to me and gave me a hug. Another surprise. "Thanks for doing this PJ. I promise I will never be bad to you again after you help me today." "Thanks little man but don't promise me something like that okay. I know you and that might be a tough one to keep." He just smiled and went to get his clothes. A few minutes later I heard my mom's bedroom door open and out came my father and he headed into the bathroom to do his morning thing. Almost like it was planned he came out and my mom headed in next. I watched this not seeing it in a long time since I was always asleep when they got up. Jeremy was now dressed and he walked past me and out of the room. A few minutes later my mom came out and looked in on me, saw I was up and said good morning and turned to go back to her room without waiting for a reply. I got up and headed into the bathroom. Now I had to pee. I was still thinking about what happened or what I dreamed about last night as I flushed the toilet and washed up before leaving the bathroom. The rest of the time went by quickly and before long we were getting ready to leave for camp. Dad kissed mom goodbye and looked at me giving me the thumbs up before going and I kinda shrugged it off like a typical teen does to his parent most of the time. As he pulled out to go to work mom rushed us out the front door and got into the car with us as the clock approached 7:30. We made small talk and I mean very small talk on the way there. About fifteen minutes or so later (I wasn't counting) we pulled into the parking lot of camp. Jeremy got out and I opened my door to leave and mom called for me to wait. "Go ahead Jeremy let your brother stay here for a second I want to talk to him about when I have to pick him up." "Okay momma, bye." He waved goodbye and headed off towards the main building which was on the other side of the parking area. When he was far away Mom turned back to me. "You all clear on this thing?" "Yeah mom its gonna be fine. I talked it over with Jeremy and we have a plan." "Good. Just remember how important this is." "I know mom." "All right I'll be back around 11:30 to get you." "Okay I'll meet you right here then." "Okay good bye dear." I got out of the car and waved to her as she drove off and I headed in the same direction that Jeremy went. It was my first time here and I didn't have a clue where anything was. I ran into a camp counselor and told him that I was there to see how things went here so I gave her my name and she checked his clipboard. Mom told me she called ahead yesterday so they knew I was coming and would be allowed in. So I finished telling her my lie about why I was there and that if I liked it enough whether I was going to stay or not. That was their policy so she understood my side and filled me in on things for a few minutes and then told me where to go for breakfast and so on. I was there no more then fifteen minutes and I thought I saw a ghost when I looked and saw Greg Elter no more then twenty feet away from me. He was standing there looking at what seemed like a group of boys playing off in the distance. This is gonna be interesting. I walked over and tried to see if he was bruised or anything but he had now his back to me. I reached out and tapped him on the shoulder and he nearly jumped out of his skin. "Easy Greg, take it easy man it's only me PJ." He turned and looked at me. "PJ, wow man you scared the shit out of me." I didn't say anything as I looked at him and saw a mark on his face right where that guy slapped him. "PJ? Yo PJ?" "Oh sorry man I kinda drifted off for a second." I said to him trying to cover what I was really looking at. Greg is about two inches smaller then me and skinny. I think he is the same age as I am but I never asked. He has big brown eyes and short dark brown hair that ends at the tip of his ears and is just touching his forehead. He has a dimple on his chin and a small perfectly round birthmark on his left cheek that just adds to his fine looking face. His mouth is small and lips very fine and no noticeable pimples or acne yet. He is wearing a green shirt and tan shorts right now with really short socks that just stick out above his sneakers. I would love to know what is under those shorts but... so what else is new. He is marked in the exact spot where I saw the contact last night and although it's upsetting it hasn't really hurt his cuteness much. "That's okay I didn't mean to jump out of my skin you just startled me." "That's kewl, so what are you doing here?" A few kids walked by and he waved to them and said what's up then he looked back at me. "Funny I was going to ask you the same. You never came to camp before or at least I have never seen you here before." "Yeah I know I am here to check it out and see if I want to come everyday but Greg I can help but wonder... what happened to your face?" I said changing the subject back to him and away from my brother and me being here. "Oh nothing...he shied away from me. It was just an accident last night." Now I was faced with letting him lie or opening my mouth and really making things worse and probably scaring him half to death. I thought for a second. Maybe I can make this work but I have to be really careful or he will freak. "Look Greg I really don't know you that well other then seeing you in school but I think I know that wasn't an accident." "What the hell do you mean and how could you know whether it was an accident or not?" He went from friendly to angry in seconds flat! "Take it easy Greg, I'm sorry man, I am not trying to be cruel or anything." "Yeah well you don't know what happened to me and I don't think you really have the right to say anything about it or even guess and I am not going to listen to anything else you have to say about it because it's private!" He turned at headed away. I looked at him and without thinking just blurted out the wrong thing. "Why did he hit you like that?" He stopped dead in his tracks and turned around and looked at me. "What did you say?" I walked towards him. He backed away from me and looked a little pale like he was going to faint or something. "I said why did he hit you?" He swallowed hard and looked at me. "No one hit me." I stopped about three feet from him and looked into his eyes. "Why did he smack you across the face like that Greg?" I said in a low tone. He didn't answer. "Greg is ok man why did he smack you across the face?" A look of shock and fear came across his face when I repeated my question once again. "I don't know what you mean or how you know that but I don't want to talk about it!" He gave me a nasty, scared look and turned to walk away. "Greg don't go man...I want to help." He slowed down but didn't turn around. "Greg no one knows do they? That guy is abusing you." He stopped. I headed towards him. I stopped a few feet from him but he wouldn't turn around. Thankfully we were alone. "Greg, I said in a low voice... I don't know what happened or what is happening to you but I am here if you want to talk. I am sorry about all this but I swear I won't tell anyone what I know but if you need to talk to anyone you can talk to me." He turned and looked at me. "And what are you gonna do about it? You are the same age as me and not much bigger." "That's not the point Greg. I don't know if I could do much but at least I can talk to you about it and maybe make you feel better." "Look, I don't know how you know this much or anything at all but it's none of your business and if he found out you knew he would either kill me or come after you." "I'm not scared of him Greg." "Then you are stupid. He would kill you and me if he even knew we were talking about this." I put my hand out and grabbed his shoulder. He immediately pulled away. "Look PJ this isn't any of your business and you can't help so please stay away." He headed away from me without saying anything else. "You looked right at me last night Greg." He stopped and turned around. "You can't be serious. You want me to believe you were there now on top of everything else you just said? Get real PJ I didn't see anyone but him and you weren't there and we are done talking about this." He turned to walk away once again. "If I wasn't there how did I know he smacked you? How did I know he was tall and you were sitting on your bed crying seconds before he came in? How could I know you were sitting on the end of your bed in a dark room before this guy came in?" He looked startled and amazed at what I just said to him. He didn't speak immediately nor did he turn to go. He gathered himself and finally spoke. "You couldn't have been there PJ; I didn't see you how could you know so much? You are making this all up!" "You said no not again to the guy." A look of horror came across his face as I repeated his words from last night. "No you couldn't know that, how? Where...? PJ please tell me you are just making this all up?" "Look, its not easy for me to explain any more, hell I really can't tell you much more but all I know is if you are being hurt or beaten then we need to get you help Greg." "You can't and please don't try he will kill us." "Look Greg I don't want to butt in but you are a decent guy and even if we didn't get to know each other in school I think I can help." "How?" he snarled at me. "I don't have that answer yet but if you trust me maybe I can help." What the hell am I saying? How can I help I didn't even know how I got there the first time? "Tell you what PJ since you seem to know so much if you can help then show up again and this time show me you are there and then I will believe you otherwise just forget it. I don't know how you know so much but honestly just stay away unless you can really help." "I'm sorry Greg I wish I could tell you more but I promise..." "Don't promise anything. Just prove to me you can help." "I'll see what I can do Greg. I promise I will see what I can do." "Yeah well since you know so much I will wait and see but right now all I can do is live this way and hope you are right. Bye PJ and please don't say anything to anyone including me for now." He turned and walked away. I didn't know what to do or if I was really able to help. All I did know is that I saw that last night and I couldn't explain it to him or even to myself yet. OH shit...Jamie... I totally forgot about him and what if that bully already found him. Damn it!