Newsgroups: alt.sex.masturbation,alt.sex.first-time From: an277329@anon.penet.fi Reply-To: an277329@anon.penet.fi Date: Thu, 15 Jun 1995 19:37:45 UTC Subject: Early Masturbation Experiences (Male-Male) An Early Experience -- Buzzy was my best friend. We grew up together, at least until I moved away at the age of 10. He lived next door to me, so we used to play together a lot. I liked him a lot because he was muscular, slender but muscular and well defined, even as a child. He wore a crew cut, a "buzz cut" as we used to call it -- hence his nickname of "Buzzy." His hair was blond. I was about a year and a half older than he was. And we went to different elementary schools. He went to a public school; I went to a private school for boys. Thus we didn't see each other at school. However, since he lived next door, I used to see him after school, and we would play some crazy game or get into mischief, as kids are wont to do. Even at a young age, oh, eight or so, I remember being attracted to men, physically attracted to them. It was not explicitly sexual at that age. I don't think that I really knew about sex as such until I was several years older. But the attraction existed. I wanted to be around men; to feel their muscular bodies. I especially liked handsome men. Buzzy was not a man, but he was male, and very handsome. :-) At the age of eight or nine, we used to compare "pee-pees," both soft and erect. Ours were about the same size. I would hold my hand under his balls. I knew he liked the feel, the heat from from hand, for his cock would get hard, and I could feel the balls in his scrotum start to move around from the touch and heat of my hand. Sometimes, we would piss a little into each other's hand -- just a few drops. It was exciting to "let go," to feel the piss start to come up. Of course, when we started to piss, we would laugh like crazy! At those times, I could feel a real closeness to Buzzy, a kind of blend of energy, an intimacy that I shared with no other. After I moved, I used to return at times to the city where I grew up, in order to see Buzzy. And several times he came to the town I had moved to -- in order to "stay over"! The first time that he came to visit, I was about 12 and he was 10. I had bunk beds in my room. I slept in the lower one, so he was given the top one. Neither of us had pubic hair at that time; we were still kids. However, I was beginning to feel the sexual attraction to males that comes to a gay kid who is approaching pubescence. The heightened sense of attraction did not center in my cock and balls, as it would later, after I had reached puberty. It was, rather, a generalized excitement, with rapid pulse and heart beat, with rapid, short breaths, with a kind of nervous anticipation, and with a definite desire to see Buzzy naked and to touch his body. However, I was also scared -- or not exactly scared, but hesitant to be so "forward" with him. I guess that by that time I had learned that males were not supposed to be attracted to other males, but I wasn't really aware of this consciously. Nevertheless, this, I guess, subconscious wariness of possibly offending another male by doing things which the straight society in which I was growing up considered taboo kept me from expressing my desires to Buzzy (or any other male) outright. However, we were still great friends and loved to kid around. So it happened -- I can't quite remember how -- that while he was there during that first visit, one evening when we were getting ready for bed, we started comparing cocks again -- to see how much each of us had grown during the year or so that we had been apart. Then one of us -- I forget who -- got the idea that we should lie together on my bed and rub together, just to see how it felt. So I lay on top of Buzzy and starting rubbing against his body. My cock and balls were pressed against his. And we both were extremely hard, our cocks standing erect as they never had before. The sensations as we rubbed our smooth bodies together were indescribable! I had never before felt such physical pleasure. We kept at it for about a half hour (which is pretty long for kids of our age, who tend to have short attention spans and turn from one activity to another in rapid succession). We switched positions, with him lying on top of me, and continued rubbing. We were both giggling and having a great time. Sometimes we would go real fast, and other times we would go at it real slow. We were learning how it felt to be together like that. And lemme tell you, it felt terrific! I didn't have a dry orgasm, as some kids do, and neither did he as far as I know. At least, he never told me. But I remember that my body felt hot, hot, hot, and afterwards I noticed that I was sweating a little. Also, my cock just wouldn't go down. Neither would his. Finally we just grew tired of our "play" and lay there, resting. While we lay there, I got a brilliant idea (to me, it was brilliant, anyway ). "Let's put some hair down there," I said. So we cut off some strands of hair from our heads and taped them above our cocks on the pubes with Scotch tape! LOL! Now we were "grownup men," we thought. And we resumed our "humping," my body on top of his, our stomachs together, our cocks rubbing away, with our "false hair." Well, that didn't feel too good, because the Scotch tape scratched our skin, so we stopped pretty fast. But it *was* very exciting, pretending to be all grown up. I'll never forget the smoothness of Buzzy's skin, how great it felt as we rubbed together. And ever since that time, frottage has been one of my favorite ways of having sex -- even with clothes on. I guess the "imprint" (as psychologists call it) of my "sexual" ("pre-sexual"?) experience with him has remained to the present day. A year or so later, Buzzy came down to visit again. Well, talk about being excited! I was 13 at the time, and he was 11 1/2. I had a paper route and used to ride around on my bike delivering papers every afternoon. Well, *this* day I was so excited at the prospect of seeing Buzzy that I ditched the papers and buried them under a pile of weeds in a vacant lot and rode on my bike straight to the train station where he was to arrive. God, it was good seeing him again! He had grown and become even more physically fit. He told me that he worked out at the YMCA, swimming and doing gymnastics, etc. His voice was starting to change; mine didn't change until a year later. I really wanted to see him naked. While we were talking, the subject of jockstraps came up. He told me that he had to get a jockstrap to use at the Y. I had seen men use them before, when I would swim at the local outdoor pool, one of my favorite activities at that age. But, of course, I had never worn one myself. So I was very curious about them and wanted to see Buzzy wear one. I wanted to see him wear one because I wanted to see how big his cock had grown. He had changed somewhat; he was less playful about things pertaining to his cock and balls, and somewhat reluctant to talk about them. I had noticed this before in other friends, too. Some of my playmates with whom I had been great friends at school, sharing good times together, grew distant after they reached puberty. They no longer liked me to look at their cock when we pissed together in the school lavatory. They seemed embarrassed by the big size that their cock had grown. They became more private, and they began hanging out with other kids who had also reached puberty while avoiding me and other kids like me who were still pre-pubescent. I guess they thought that we were still "children" while they, on the other hand, were now "men." Of course, I was even more curious to look at their cock and balls, to see how big they had grown. And I felt left out and somewhat hurt by their change in attitude toward me, from very close friendship the year before to this cool distancing at the beginning of the new school year. Just one summer could bring about this change. It amazed (and saddened) me at the time. But, back to Buzzy and his visit. I was really amazed that he now had hair under his arms (not much, but a little), that his voice was lower, that his body was more mature, more muscular, more manly than just a year before -- amazed, and puzzled, too, because here I was, a year and a half older than he was, and I was still a "child" physically speaking. So all these changes in him aroused my curiosity (and my envy) as well as exciting me. I wanted to see his cock and balls. I knew they would be bigger than before, because I had seen other guys' at school, in PE class, in the locker rooms; I had seen the changes they had gone through. So I joined in Buzzy's talking about jockstraps with great enthusiasm, for I thought that if I saw him try one on, I would get to see his cock close up (under the pretence of examining the jockstrap, of course). God, was I excited. My breath felt tight in my chest as we talked, and my skin was flushed. We began talking about where to buy one, and decided that a local drugstore would be a good place to go. Well, Buzzy had no money, and I only had a couple of dollars. I was *very* willing to part with this carefully hoarded stash (my allowance for two weeks), if I could get to see Buzzy's cock, and maybe even feel it! -- and maybe even lie on top of him again and rub my cock against his, or, since he was now bigger than I was and "more adult," he could even lie on top of me and rub against me! I was curious to see how much hair he had down there and wondered what it would feel like brushing against my smooth skin. The problem was -- that there was also a horror comedy playing at the local movie theater, one that both of us wanted to see desperately. And if we bought the jock strap, we wouldn't be able to see the movie. So we debated -- actually, I debated with myself, for I was the one with the money. Buzzy didn't really seem to care one way or another. *I* was the one who was all excited and breathless at the thought of seeing him in a jockstrap. God, what a decision! I agonized over it for all of 15 minutes. A long time for me to "agonize" over anything at that age! Pre-pubescent lust vs. a kid's natural desire to pass the afternoon at a movie he had longed to see for weeks and which he had saved up his money for. Which would win out? Well, I finally decided that I might be able to see Buzzy's cock before we went to bed that evening -- even without the jockstrap. So the movie won out. :-) That night I did get to see Buzzy's cock and hairy balls. Huge! He really did have a big cock; it must have been about 8" and very thick. Cut but with some foreskin left. I was extremely excited. He seemed very nonchalant about the whole thing, rather embarrassed in fact by my excitement. He had seen lots of guys at the Y, where all the men swam nude in the same pool, so he had gotten used to seeing cocks of all shapes and sizes, and they didn't interest him much any more. This I couldn't understand, for I was very interested and very excited -- and more than a little disappointed that the Buzzy I had known was changing, was "disappearing" right before my eyes as the years passed. (In two or three years he would become sexually active with girls, but of course I didn't know anything about that at the time.) Anyway, Buzzy put on his pajamas and popped into bed. By then I had separated the bunk beds into two beds, one on one side of the room, and the other on the other side. So he was no longer above me, but a few feet away. I thought to myself, Is this it? And I began thinking of ways to get to see his cock again and to "lure" (a word not in my vocabulary at the time) him into bed with me so that we could rub against each other again. So I began talking about sex, and we started chatting away about "growing up," etc. All this time, unbeknownst to me, he was jacking off, rubbing his cock under the blankets. I could tell that he was become sexually excited, because his voice changed and his breathing was more rapid. Well, I thought that that was because of the sex stories we were telling each other. Little did I know that he was masturbating; in fact, I didn't even know what masturbating was. I had never done it, nor seen anybody else do it. No one had told me about it or talked about it. I was very naive at the age of 13. All of a sudden he gave a grunt, and his body jumped a bit on the bed. And he said, with a touch of embarrassment, "Oops, I jizzed!" And he drew back the covers and looked at the lower sheet. He had been lying on his side, facing me, while we were talking. So he had been jacking off with his right hand and his cock over the lower sheet. I don't think that he had intended to cum, for he was honestly surprised at what had happened. But I think that he had just gotten so excited as we were talking that his body just "took over" and he suddenly spurted. The amount of cum was small, and his orgasm hadn't been that powerful, since I guess he really hadn't had time to work up to a big one. It looked as if he had just "let go" in a kind of pre-orgasm excitement. This has happened to me, where I'll just get so excited that I'll cum a little bit (not precum, but actual semen) in a kind of pre-orgasm. Then if I keep jacking off, after a bit I'll usually have a whopper of an orgasm, with jets of cum shooting out over my head. I was very excited, though, and curious about what had happened. I examined the spot of cum excitedly and asked him lots of questions, for this was the first cum shot I had ever seen. I asked how it felt. "Feels good," he said. And how often he did it. "Every night." And when he had started. "About six months ago." Although I was very excited and really wanted him to come over to my bed, he started to feel that "post-cum" drowsiness and wanted to do nothing more than go to sleep. Boy, was I ever disappointed! No rubbing together, that night! -- Or ever again, as it turned out. Buzzy went home the following day, and I didn't see him again until I was 16 and he was 15. This time I happened to be in the town where I grew up and decided to drop in for a visit. Although we talked about old times, we were rather distant from one another. By that time, I had reached puberty and was "suffering" from raging hormones and lustful feelings that ran rampant through my body 24 hours a day. I was hoping that maybe we could jack off together. So I began talking about sex. He had been seeing girls and having sex with them, so he was a lot more experienced in that area than I was (still with "cherry" intact). But I began talking about girls, too, -- not that I was interested, for I wasn't -- but in order to get him hot and aroused so that I could see his magnificent cock and balls once more. He did have an erection in his pants as we talked. I asked him what his favorite way of getting off by himself was, and he told me by lying on a pillow and rubbing his cock against it. So I suggested that we do that together. He laughed and said no, that he was afraid that his mother would come home from work and catch us at it. I tried to persuade him, saying that it would take only a few minutes. Besides, it would feel really good. He did seem tempted, but I think he was a little embarrassed at the thought of us jacking off together, as well as being legitimately worried that his mother might walk in on us. So we never did. I left soon after that, realizing that my childhood friendship with Buzzy (now calling himself "Buzz") had ended, that we had little in common any more, and I never saw him again. I've enjoyed sharing this experience with you. :-) Perhaps you would enjoying sharing an experience with me. I especially enjoy hearing accounts of "first" or early experiences of jacking off. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- To find out more about the anon service, send mail to help@anon.penet.fi. If you reply to this message, your message WILL be *automatically* anonymized and you are allocated an anon id. Read the help file to prevent this. Please report any problems, inappropriate use etc. to admin@anon.penet.fi.