Date: Wed, 4 Sep 2002 00:02:09 -0400 From: mr. axl Subject: for t.j part 2 after that dream i became even more attracted to T.J. i spent all my free time with him and less with my girlfriend. i wanted to be his protector. one day when we were playin ball at his house;T.J. myself,Bill, and his step-brother. i picked a fight with his step-brother, just to get back at him for T.J. but T.J. begged me to stop so i did i only pushed him down. one night at a show we were all slammin' when this dude pushed T.J. down, so i walked up kneed him in the gut then broke his nose. T.J. freeked i then figured that as feerless as he was, he was not mean not an ounce. i learned that in reality he was feerless on the outside but a very frightened boy on the inside. he was afraid to be hurt by someone else. If he fell off his board then that was his fault,but if someone else does it... i wote a song called "step on this" for T.J. about being the unwanted step son. by that time i had also taken over wearing his hat(a yankees hat with spikes driven through it) he was goin out of town to see his dad in chicago,and i had a dream all i saw was a turned over car,ambulances and a bloody yankees hat. he called me the day before he left wanting his yankees hat, but i told him i had no way out there(a Lie) i just could not give the hat back,i cant explain it but maybe you understand. when T.J. got back i was thrilled. my folks were goin outta town so i threw a small bash. me and my girlfriend,Bill and his,also T.J and this new boy Bill met that was only twelve named shannon,he was cute but kinda full of shit. we played quarter bounce and drank tequila,ofcourse shannon was the first to get sick but it was funny 'cause my girlfriend was in the bathroom at the timeand he walked in on her she slammed the door in him and he ran through the house and right through the screen door. what a fuckin trip? anyway after doin our thing with the girls. Bill's girl had to be home. i didn't wanna leave so i told him to take the car and my girl home. T.J wanted to stay. Bill was gonna come back by in the morning to work on some music. i don't think T.J. wanted to miss that. we were really drunk and i decided to push my luck. we fell asleep in the floor i woke up in the middle of the night. i reached over and lifted his white shirt. then undid the button on his white shorts. he didn't move. i unzipped his pants a pulled down his boxers and there it was. the object of my desire. i rubbed him and he bacame instantly hard. i took him in my mouth smelling his musty boy smee,so sweet. and i liked him,he stirred, i pulled away but never let go of him. he settled and i rubed him to climax,and readjusted his pants,but not before tasting a bit of him. i fell asleep with the taste of him on my tongue and a yearning for more. the next morning he acted kind of offish so i knew he had been awake. i took my shower and came out in only a towel. he took his and i faught the urge to join him. when he came out i finally had worked up the nerve to confront him. "about last night, you rnot upset are you?" "why would i be?" "it don't make you fag you know?" "yeah" "look T.J. i may never get this chance again and i would like to finish what we startedif you want to,you don't have to if you don't want to" i then pulled him close and kissed him when i felt his hardness i led him to my room. i pulled his socks off, then pulled his pants and boxers down, i couldn't even wait til they were off before i had him in my mouth. i liked him as i rubbed his hairless armpits,then worked my way up to his lips and kissed him. he had no experience kissing so it was awkward so i went back down. i brought him to climax this time in my mouth and i taseted all of his sweet juice. "do me now"i said as he recovered "o.k but dont cum in my mouth" and he began to suck me off . i came quickly and could have gone again but after he rubbed my cum into my belly for a min he got up and got dressed. i took another shower and realized that i was wrong all along. i felt so much guilt and regret i can only imagine what he felt. 3 Bill came over we made some music and i took T.J home. after that things started to phase out he was always busy. Bill told me T.J. was puttin together a band, i was happy for him. our band took off over the next coupla years i'd see T.J every once in awhile but he always seemed uncomfortable. Bill was always the one to keep in contact with everyone,and when we had our biggest gig yet ,he contacted T.J and everyone else we had a great turnout. we through a party and everyone came even T.J with some goth chic. i talked to him briefly but he seemed uncomfortable so i let it go. that was the last time i ever saw T.J. i wish i had talked a bit more or pushed harder to talk. Bill called me last month,his usually every 6 months call. he used to keep me up to date on T.J and the rest of our friends from those days. he told me that he ran into T.J.'s step brother and that apparently, T.J. was killed in a car accident, he flipped his blazer... so i guess this is goodbye T.J. i will miss you.