Date: Fri, 25 Apr 2003 10:14:38 -0500
From: eddie thebum <eddie_the_bum@hotmail.com>
Subject: Meeting taylon pt3

 Wednesday came without any warning up at the alarm and the day began. I
washed without thinking and actually had enough time to tend to my teenaged
needs. Of course Taylon was on my mind and on my body...in my dreams. I
entered school and headed for my locker. To my surprise he was waiting on
me and we greeted each other with a smile. He asked me what my plans were
for the weekend and I told him I didn't have any. He said him and the
sportys were going up to the lake for a camping trip. I was interested and
scared to death at the same time. Why would he want me to be there with him
and his friends was this the moment I'd waited for or the moment I'd
feared? I pondered the possibilities and decided that I would ask mom about
it when I got home. I wondered the halls and heard first bell ring so I
headed to my class. I really couldn't concentrate and just muttered through
the lessons and the droning of the teacher.

 Ah, gym thank god I could see my Taylon again. We dressed and I found out
that we were doing the physical fitness testing you know climbing the rope,
how many pushups you can do in a minute, shit like that which meant that I
would have to team up with someone for these stupid human tricks. I waited
patiently and then a tap on my shoulder awoke me from my thoughts. Standing
in front of me was Thom, he asked if I would team with him for the testing
and I reluctantly agreed. We moved to our space on the floor and I told him
to go first. Thom was good looking and while he was no Taylon he was very
attractive. He was a bit more muscular than the rest of the class and I
started noticing him looking at me. During his first set of sit-ups he
started talking about the camping trip I told him that Taylon had invited
me and he became almost giddy about it. He told me he hoped I did come with
them because it's just them and the wilderness. He asked if I had any
camping gear and I told him no that I had never really ever done
camping. He said he had lots and if I needed anything just to ask. I told
him that I wasn't sure if I was going to go or not yet and that I had to
ask my mom. He said he'd be willing to have his mom call and tell my mom
all about it. I became a little excited about this I had never had anyone
let alone a group want me to be around like these guys did. It was like all
of a sudden I was wanted. We finished our test and hit the showers. I
noticed Taylon and Thom talking about something and again they were
laughing. Taylon walked up to me and said that Thom had told him about our
conversation and that he would come home with me to ask my mom about this
weekend and that way if she had any questions he would be there to answer
them and contact his mom if needed. I thanked him and we finished dressing.

 The rest of the day was filled with questions and most of them went
unanswered. My mind was a whirlwind of thoughts. I couldn't get focused for
anything. I was elated when the final bell rang and I headed for my locker
to get my book bag and headed for the door. A boys voice behind me yelled
something about being stuck up and forgetting about our date and I was
suddenly in shock and thought to myself how mortifying it would be to
finish the year with everyone knowing I was a fag. I turned slowly and
there was Taylon giggling like a schoolgirl at me his captivating smile
lighting up the whole hallway. He walked up to me and punched me in the
shoulder and we started for the door. He asked me if I was ok and I said I
was just deep in thought. He asked who she was and again I reminded him I
wasn't really interested in anyone...not exactly a whole truth but he
patted me on the shoulder and repeated his statement about in time.
 We walked home slowly talking about normal boys things. When all at once
he dragged me into a wooded area and looked at me with those dark eyes. He
spoke softly and directly. He assured me that if I could go camping that he
would make sure none of the others would pick on me. When I asked why he
was being all protective all of a sudden he simply reached up and hugged
me. I felt myself becoming hard and we held each other for what seemed an
eternity. He pressed harder into me and I thought I heard him start to sob
slightly I pulled back and he was crying. I asked him what was wrong and he
shook his head and said he'd tell me later. I hugged him again and we
walked on to my house. When we arrived my mom was not there and he asked if
he could use the phone I said sure and showed him where it was. I went to
my room and changed out of my school clothes and re-entered the kitchen. I
asked if he wanted something to drink and he said anything was fine. I
returned with a couple of sprites and we sat down and started talking. I
asked him what was wrong in the woods and he looked down at his can and
started to tear up again. I got up and walked over to him and put my hand
on his shoulder and told him it was ok to just let it out. I had no idea
what was eating him but I was determined to find out. He started to speak
and coughed a couple of times to clear his throat.

 He began slowly to explain how all his life he had been alone and that he
never had, despite having people around him all the time, had a real friend
and that for the first time since meeting me he felt close to someone. I
thought to myself about how we'd only just met 2 days ago and here he was
sitting here basically telling me that I was his best friend. He continued
saying that he'd always known he was different and that he was confused
about why he felt the things he did. I was lost what was he talking about
what ever could be "the difference" he was talking about my mind once again
starting reeling. He went on to tell me that he had always thought he would
grow out of feeling this way and that now he was sure he wouldn't. I
stopped him and pulled him up and slightly hugged him he didn't pull away
he in fact melted to me and started crying more. Then he did something that
to this day surprised the hell out of me. He looked up at me and gently
moved forward, I wasn't prepared for happened next...sometimes in life
something happens that makes you not only wonder but also think about how
small and insignificant you are. This was one of those times. I stood there
wondering why, how, what, and where. I was stunned and shocked and excited
and mesmerized all that the same time...He kissed me not a peck not a small
smooch but a full-blown total lip full on open-mouthed kiss. Our tongues
wrestled and fought for dominancy we embraced and I felt him run his hands
down my back he stopped just above my waist and then broke our kiss. He
looked down and mumbled something about having to go. I grabbed him and
asked him what was wrong. And assured him that I wasn't freaked out or
anything. He started to really let loose now and told me how he'd worried
about this since he met me. How he didn't want to be gay and how he thought
he'd always be normal. I looked at my love and told him he was normal to
me. I took him by the hand and led him to my room I kicked some things off
my bed and sat him down. I started slowly and told him of my plan how I
didn't mean to knock him out or have him hurt but that I just wanted to
meet him and how I had made the decision that no matter how it turned out I
was going to meet him.

 We sat for what seemed like hours and talked about our feelings and about
how hard things were going to be and that we would be friends forever. I
felt closeness to him even more so than before he apologized for the kiss
and I told him not to worry about it and that I really did enjoy it. He
explained that he'd wanted to tell me about him since that day in gym when
I knocked him out. I told him that I understood and how I also had wanted
to let him know. So we reserved ourselves to the fact that we were both
alone but now we were together in our loneliness and that no matter what we
would be there for each other. I heard the front door open and mom called
out for me I handed him a tissue and he wiped his eyes I told him to go
wash his face and I'd go in and prep mom for our question. I was determined
now to go camping even if I had to sneak out to do it. I entered the
kitchen and mom was making a cup of coffee. I greeted her and she asked
what was on my mind. Mom always knew when I was up to something and I told
her about Taylon and the camping trip and how I really wanted to go. She
was absentmindedly looking over her cup at me when Taylon walked into the
room. I introduced him to her and she gave me an odd look I would have
sworn she knew he had been crying. She spoke and asked where and when and
how long all the normal mom questions. She said she'd think about it and
Taylon spoke up and said she was welcome to call his mom and ask her about
everything. She asked for the number and dialed and began to speak she
introduced herself and began asking questions. A lot of uh huhs and thank
yous later she hung up the phone and said as long as there were going to be
parents there she didn't mind and that as long as I was good the rest of
the week I could go...I think Taylon and I both would have lit up a black
hole with our smiles. He said he had to go and I asked if I could walk him
home and mom said yes asking where he lived and said to hurry back for
supper. As we left my house he told me how happy he was and that he was
glad we could talk but that he wanted to talk some more before the
trip. When we approached his house he hugged me and said he'd see me
tomorrow at school and disappeared into his house...I walked home almost in
a dream I was going to spend 3 glorious days with Taylon and I needed to
prepare for that...my mind was filled with questions about what to bring
and what to do first...I entered my house and mom called that dinner was
about done and not to get into anything I sat and switched on the T.V. and
waited for dinner my mind consumed with thoughts of Taylon, the trip and
mostly the kiss...where would this end up what would happen this weekend?
God I think too much...