Date: Sat, 17 Dec 2011 12:05:37 -0500 (EST)
From: buontempi@aol.com
Subject: Most Turned Me on - Chapter 7

At the end of the last chapter I wrote that I wasn't planning to write
again until after the holidays.  But, at the request of my new friend Tony,
I found the time to write this morning.

During my high school years I did all that I could to suppress my strong
attraction to boys but my penis and inner feelings wouldn't relent.  I can
still feel the palpitations in my heart and chest.  The excitement of
imagining what it would be like to be in bed naked with another friend or
even a stranger that I was attracted to was so delicous and
mysterious. Nevertheless I continued to live my life as a straight guy
always protecting my secret.

Aside from my now once or twice a week visit to the underground comfort
stations to view my "eye candy" for later on jerk off sessions and a few
infatuations with various classmates, nothing really happened.

Just after high school, because of my vocational certificate, I was able to
secure a nice job in an electro-mechanical factory.  It was a decent paying
job and all was going well.  My brother had gotten a job at the same
company so I thought that I would be protected from getting distracted by
attraction to young guys.

Man, was I wrong.  The boys that attracted me from when I was a young boy
of eight had now grown into young men and the attraction had only gotten
stronger.  I look back on my life now and I surmise that the attraction to
so many was because I would not allow myself to live what I truly desired.
I stunted my growth sexually.

At this new job there were five co-worker specifically that I began a
strong attraction to.  One was Wilfred who was a handsome, quiet, masculine
guy surely straight.  The thing about Wilfred was his beautiful bulge in
his tight gray chinos. I lusted for him so much but we never developed much
of a friendship.

Then there was Tommy also sporting a bulge.  Tommy had the habit of getting
very close to people and he spoke very softly, even sensually. Great jerk
off material.

Then there was Ray, a blond rugged Italian.  Man was he hot, but again
nothing.

There were two guys Ronnie and Ed that were close friends and the three of
us became friend. along with my brother.  Ronnie was the one that tested my
resolve to keep my lustful desires for men a secret.  But because my
brother worked with us it became all the harder to suppress it because I
wanted Ronnie so bad.

Ronnie was a very slim short dark haired Italian American, kind of nerdy
looking.  Ed on the other hand was tall, probably six-four, heavier but not
fat actually soft and desirable.  Ed and Ronnie together, which was all the
time looked like Mutt and Jeff, characters out of cartoons many years ago.

Ed , in particular was very sensual. He always wore light colored gray
pants. He must have had a huge cock and balls because when he sat on a
chair and spread his legs his bulge was huge and the light color of his
pants emphasized it.  Ronnie on the other hand wore black pants that were a
little loose, probably because he was so thin.  Although Ed was newly
married, I often thought that he and Ronnie fooled around together.

Ronnie became closer friend after our first year working together.  One day
I was in the rest room taking a dump when I looked at the shadow on the
floor of the stall to my right.  The shadow was pulsating back and forth.
Wow one of the guys was masturbating right there next to me.  I waited a
while getting a rock hard cock myself.  The shadow vibration increased and
then it ceased.  Man the guy had cum.  I quickly finished off and went to
the bank of sinks to wash my hands waiting for the guy to come out of his
stall.  It was Ronnie.

Now for the next few weeks my focus was on Ronnie and he was my main Jerk
off dreams at night.

One night after work he and I went out together. We were riding in his car.
I was holding back my throbbing cock as I sat in the front seat with him.
I needed to piss so bad so, because we were in a country road I asked him
to stop by the road side so that I could piss.  When I came back to the car
and he began to drive off he said to me " If you want something to happen,
you have to make the first move".  My heart pounded, had I been found out?.
I played dumb and said with a bewildered look " what do you mean?".  He
said you know what I mean". But we were approaching my house so it was left
at that.

Now I had to be more cautious, because I certainly didn't want my brother
to know I was attracted to guys. I tried to avoid Ronnie as much as I
could.  But he continues to taunt me as he would frequently saunter over to
my work bench and press his groin against my bench moving in and out as we
talked . One day he made his move, but I was too scared too relent.

This particular day he came over to the bench, pressed his groin to the
bench and sighed.  He asked, " why is it that every time I come near you I
get a hard-on?"  I laughed it off and said " its because you like me
Ronnie.  He said, " No its more than that, much more" then he said " I am
going to pay you the highest compliment that one guy can give to another".

I asked, what is that Ronnie?  He said " For you, I would turn queer!"

I was petrified, I want to give in to him so badly, but I knew it was
impossible.  I could never let anyone know my hidden desires, my strong
hidden desires.  As much as I want to get rid of this albatross around my
life, it just wouldn't go away.


That's it for this chapter.  The next Chapter I will write about my first
real blow job when I was a young reservist

Thank you for your responses and thank you Tony for getting me to write
sooner.  Happy Holidays to all.