Date: Fri, 17 Feb 2012 16:13:38 -0500 (EST)
From: buontempi@aol.com
Subject: Most Turned Me On  Chapter 9

This is the last chapter that I will post in the "Young Friends" section as
it takes me from the age of 23 to my fifties.  I will follow up with
subsequent writings for the "Adult Friends" section.  These are my true
stories and are not to be copied or used in any way without my permission

After my wonderful experience in the movie theater in Manchester, NH I went
back to the theater a couple of times hoping to find that handsome young
man but I never did.  The company that I was working at with Ronnie moved
out of town so I lost contact with him and all the other guys.  I was
getting older and I had only had a few dates with young girls and woman and
I was beginning to get pressure from the family about looking ofr a nice
girl to settle down with.  With the continued fear of my homosexuality
being found out I started to frequent dances and clubs and dated this one
girl for almost a year.  We had a scheduling conflict for our Christmas
Party one year so we went separately to our own party.  That is when I met
the lvoe of my life, who became my wife a couple of years later.

I was so scared on my honeymoon because I was still a virgin and I wasn't
sure that I could perform.  Fortunately my wife was also a virgin and
becuase we did had a strong emotional and spiritual love we managed to make
love sucessfully after our third try.  I am large and she was small so
having the excuse, although very true, of not wanting to hurt her helped to
mask my fear.

As I said, we had a wonderful emotional and spiritual love so our sex life
grew to be wonderful and rewarding for both of us.  For the longest time I
thought that I was "cured", but then the thoughts kept coming in.  I was
for the most part able to be faithful throughout my 30 year marriage, but
that didn't mean that I didn't have temptations along the way.

The first came a bout five years into my marriage.  I was working in food
services and my wife and I became friends with a co-worker and his wife.
They had two children as did we.  He was a smaller red haired young man.
Many times when we would change into our uniforms in the locker room he
would prance around in his white briefs, coming over to me to talk with me
while I dressed.  On a couple of occassions I thought I he had at least a
semi hard on.  While wokring at the bench he would press his groin against
the bench and mention to the boss and I that at least we were taller and
didn't have that problem.

We had a close relationship and discussed a variety of subjects but never
got into sex.  He introduced me to the play Jesus Christ SuperStar and both
of us loved the music.  One day after he had given his notice he called me
on the telephone and sked me if I was near my record player.  Then he asked
me to put on Mary Magdeline's song and listen line.  I did as he asked and
then he said " that is how I feel about you".  The line was " I don't know
how to love Him" and paraphrasing it went on I have loved so many men
before, Should I let him know, should I bring him down, etc.  I then asked
him" Red what are you trying to say" he said " I am not going to say it but
you know what I mean.

Once again, I was torn between my two selfs, I needed to and wanted to
protect my straight life, but I also wanted to meet with Red and hold him
in my arms. Torment continued.

Another time I went on a religous retreat with the younger brother of my
wife's best friend.  During the weekend I became in lust with him and that
continues for a couple of years.

Another time I went to a company sponsered conference and at one of the
banquets I sat with a group of guys and the one next to me truend his chair
at the table towards me to speak directly with me.  While chatting I
noticed that he was spreading his legs wide and down the left leg of his
pants was this huge long hard on bulging out.  He began to come on to me
and asked me to come up to his room to " see the view"

The temptations persisted but I only gave in a couple of time on business
trips and got blow jobs in XXX bookstores.  That was before the era of HIV
and AIDS.  I was ignorant and lucky.

My wife died when I was 54 years old.  It wasn't until around a year after
that that I began to experience what I had a deep seated longing for.

I will end this story here and as I said I will start a new storyline in
the adult mens section the next time I write. I will notify anyone who
provides feedback when that is posted.  Thanks for your interest.