Date: Tue, 10 Jul 2001 17:06:54 -0000
From: Matty Boy <mattyboi36@hotmail.com>
Subject: Nate

He was quite small. Around 5'4 with dark eyes and brown curly, almost wavy
hair.  I knew right from the start of meeting him that I wanted him. To
kiss and cuddle. To love forever. To caress his beautiful chest with my
hands and rub an invisible cream which any lover loves to use when the time
comes.

	NEE NAWW NEE NAWW NEE NAWW!!!

The buzzer woke me from class and I forgot my foolish daydream. I grinned
sheepishly as I realised my friend Jamie was looking at me curiously through
his sunglasses. "hey weiredo" he mused as I got up from my desk. "umm hi...
.. sorry I was just thinking" I grinned again and tried to live upto my name
as a typical dumb blond. Man being 14 was hard .

"it's cool" he said smiling.
Jamie had to be one of my best friends. I had known him all the way through
pre school and now we were going through high school together. He had always
been there in a lot of ways. He was a slim guy, with brown hair and brown
eyes. Pretty smart for his age. VERY SMART for his age I guess. He was way
ahead of me in class. This was pretty good though because he would always
help me with something I didn't understand and sometimes I found it hard to
be without him there in class beside me whispering the answer into my ear. I
grinned to myself and thought about how cute he was with his shades and his
amazing smile and his wonderful... "MATT?!!?!?" he shouted and I almost
jumped out of my skin. "wha..... what?!?!" I said trying to raise my voice
too. "sorry I just thought you were ignoring me, anyway as I was saying I
really think Tammy likes me. She was smiling at me all the way through
history and her mom is pretty good friends with mine." I drifted off again
into la la land because talk of girls completely bored me. I looked around
to see if there was anything interesting guy to look at and a football
caught me off guard and ended up landing on my head. Everyone in the
corridor burst out laughing at me and so did jamie. I scowled at him and
rubbed my head "ouch man that hurt" I whimpered as everyone continued on
their way and my friend listened intently as if I had something interesting
to say.I looked forward and my eyes glazed over as I saw him... it was the
guy from my dream.

I wouldn't have noticed him on normal circumstances. But he was too perfect
for words. His beautiful tanned skin made my heart leap with joy and his
very short curly hair made my heart melt.

"Wh-Who is that guy?" I said almost in a hopeful manner which kind of
startled my friend "oh him? You don't wanna get mixed with that guy, he's a
fag. He goes out with some guy in my science class. Brian I think his name
is. I don't know about that guy's name though. Just the one in my class. My
heart sank.. he was so beautiful I knew it wouldn't be true.. I knew he
couldn't possibly mine... ever. "a--are you sure you don't know his name?" I
said hopefully, at least hoping I could know this boys name..

"umm lemmie think... ummm Nate I think.. yeah that's his name. Nate."

I went back into my day dream and thought about this beautiful boy wondering
weather I stood even the slightest of chances with him. I better not do this
in front of jamie though.. I don't want anyone to know im.. I'm gay.

More to come hopefully. I will write the next part as soon as possible.
Please give me any feedback and I will love to reply iron_matt@hotmail.com