Date: Tue, 5 Jun 2007 16:53:20 -0700 (PDT) From: Dutts Stadler Subject: No Guilt I had an unusually early puberty. That, combined with a complete lack of guilt (which I got from my dad) allowed me learn allot about boys and what feels good. When I saw hair first grow around the sides of my penis, I became interested in different ways to make it feel good and jacked on it all the time but wasn't sure quite why. It seemed my penis was always stiff but no matter how much I played and beat on it, no sperm came out.. I wondered if my friends penises were growing hair too, and it they jacked on it all the time like I did. It was maybe two years between jacking on my penis and the very first time I made sperms come out. Wow, I had no idea how much your cock made your feel really really good. I was in fourth grade and had been at it for a long time. Sometime I would take a bottle of white lotion and squeeze some of it in the tip of my hard penis. It at least looked like the white sperm I'd seen coming out of my big brother's cock when he jacked in front of me all the time. It only burned my pee hole, and I was never satisfying, only frustrating. I was always playing and beating on it when it got hard though. My big brother and I shared the same bedroom and he jacked off all the time in front of me. His cock was alot bigger and real hairy. He always told me when his sperm was about to shoot, and it was thick and white. I really wanted to be able to shoot sperm too, it would just never happen. He would be all tensed up, toes pointed, face red as it squirted all over the place. I think I sensed that something really good was eventually going to happen when I finally learned, I just didn't know what. After seeing his sperm all the time, It seemed like it would feel really good. He would always say that it felt really good. I wished I could make sperms too, but was not quite sure why. It was still about a year and a half until I was able to masturbate myself and have an orgasm. That's a long time when you're only eight. Finally after what seemed like an eternity of jacking, I figured out how to make my own sperm shoot out, and I'll never forget it. The first ejaculation a boy has, can be overwhelmingly intense and unforgetable. This seems to be my experience. I remember I was in the fourth grade, coming home from school and walking up to my bedroom because my penis was all stiff. Earlier that day I had gotten several hard-ons at school and was embarrassed because I thought someone might notice the bulges in my pants. Later, when I went to the boys room, I noticed some clear sticky stuff at the tip when I went to pee. I rubbed against the head of my cock a couple of times and got an unusual jolt of pleasure. I never expected what I was later going to experience. When I finally got home from walking what seemed like ten miles, I went upstairs to my bedroom, pulled my pants down around my ankles and laid on my bed. I pulled my underwear to the side and wrapped a couple fingers around it and started jacking. As usual, nothing. Then it got different all of a sudden. It got alot harder and bigger and I felt a warm sensation begin to heat up in my muscular legs and balls. It started to feel better and better like never before. I had no idea what I was in for. As I continued to jack, it felt so good I got worried that someone might come in my room. My legs were getting really stiff and my head was whirrling. I was afraid someone would walk in and see me, so I pulled up my pants and went into the bathroom and locked the door with the square end of a spoon because the lock was broken. At first I tried jacking on the toilet, but I kept sliding off or against the wall because my body stiffened up so much. It would start to feel really really good, my toes would point and my body would go rigid and I couldn't control anything but my hand sliding over my super hard penis. Then fall to the side. It was feeling so good but I couldn't get comfortable, so I pulled my pants all the way off and took off my shirt too. For some reason It made me feel really good being totally naked. It made my cock and low hanging balls feel good too. I laid a towel down on the black and white checkered vinyl floor and laid down. I started masturbating . The good feeling started up again immediately, but the towel was too small and wouldn't fit my whole body. It was a small one and only stretched from my head down to my butt. That seemed to be OK because when my body was all rigid, only my head and butt and heels touched the floor. This was the most comfortable I could do. At first it was awkward, and every time I started to jack my penis, my body stiffened all up and I didn't have a pillow. I couldn't see my penis either. I liked to look at my penis when I jacked on it. It was difficult, but it felt so good I didn't care. Besides, I didn't seem to have any control over what I was doing. It seemed like it had 'me'. I started to jack my erect penis and everything started to change. It felt really really good, and my jacking seemed to happen automatically. My body stiffened more and more. So hard, that my right arm and fist started 'locking up' and my facial expressions were all weird. I started to feel hot all over. My legs were locked up solid, and I couldn't keep from pointing my toes. I began thinking; this is what my big brother always felt when he made his sperm come out, and that's why he did it all the time. It felt really, really good. I thought to myself, my sperm just might be ready to squirt from my penis this time. My breathing got deeper and deeper as my body spontaneously grew more and more rigid. I was just a little kid, and didn't really know what was going on, but at the same time I couldn't control myself or stop. I was like an animal, out of control and jacking for my very first time, and sperms were finally going to ejaculate from my penis! It began to feel more and more intense than anything I could have ever imagined. It felt better, and better. My legs started feeling really, really warm and intensely good as I quickened my beat. My little fist was wrapped around my cock, my toes pointed and head rigid and locked back. I jacked with two or three fingers on my penis as I slid the foreskin up over my cock head. I developed a rhythm. It was feeling incredible, and getting more and more out of control. My brothers cock was bigger and harrier and he could fit his whole fist around his penis when he jacked. I jacked my cock, resting the other fingers over my ball sack which had yet to grow hair, but had begun to swell over the last few months. Probably because I was beginning to make sperm cells, and was getting ready to become a man. My brother said that a man could shoot sperm inside a girls vagina, and told me my penis was to make a girl have a baby. I just didn't know it would feel this good! I started to vibrate and grunt in rhythm. Every other beat, caused a rush of increasing intensely. really good feelings in my legs, balls and penis. My sperm was in the first stages of shooting out. I lost sense of where I was and what I was doing.. My eyes were squeezed shut so hard and face so contorted I couldn't see or hear anything but my grunting and the "slap, slap, slap" of my penis being jack harder than it had ever been before. I didn't know it, but I was about to ejaculate semen and orgasm for my first time. My head was whirling and I started to hear a low pitched hum begin to climb in pitch. I was jacking and jacking and didn't know or care about anything. I was out of control and it felt really good! The pleasure was building so much I couldn't muffle my grunting. The pitch climbed higher and higher until it reached the point that I don't think I could hear anything. All of a sudden I was in another place. Fist clenched firmly over my cock, I beat with all my might and energy. It was time for what every boy learns about how important his cock is. With about every fifth stroke, an intense twinge of pleasure flowed over my whole body and it would stiffen up real hard, then relax a little bit. I beat harder and harder. Now about every third stroke my body tensed real hard, then relaxed. I seemed like the underneath area of my cock head, controlled this feeling. I would stiffen relax, stiffen relax, until finally I got stiffer and stiffer until I got stuck there in a totally locked position. Then it started. A euphoric sensation flowed from my legs, over my cock and balls and my red face. My neck strained against the cold floor and my body arched as I 'seizured' and trembled ejaculating sperm for my first time. My arm nearly froze on my cock I was so stiffened. I struggled to keep it whipping on my penis, straining as clear streams of semen blasted from my purple engourged head, showering my neck and face. Some flew over the towel and onto the floor. I was thinking " I finally can shoot sperms! WOW! Contraction followed contraction as I struggled to stay 'concsience' during my first sperm ejaculation. I couldn't have stopped even if someone had been watching me, it was so out of control. Colors flashed in my head in black and white and then color. The loud humming blocked anything else that I might have other wise been able to hear. The towel only covered my butt up to my neck, and I could feel the hard cold floor on the back of my legs and feet as I struggled, twitching and grunting like an animal to keep my sperm shooting. Gooey clear boy sperm was squirting in every direction all over my stomach and chest. I seemed to blast for several minutes, and it left me completely exhausted. It had felt so good that I'm sure I didn't know what to think at first. Confused, I laid there on the floor covered in sweat and sperm gasping for air. My semen was completely clear and hadn't started to turn white yet because I was still a boy. I was too young but I had finally figured out how to make my sperm come out of my cock, and it felt really good. And I'd learned at a real young age. At last. The secret was solved. It was just a matter of a few more hairs growing around my cock, and my balls maturing a little more so I could have an orgasm with semen. I wasn't even ten years old. Only nine, and I'd figured out how to jack my cock and squirt my sperm. All during this first time, I could feel the wetness, but wasn't really sure what was happening. I had a good feeling what it was though having watched my brother ejaculate all the time. All I knew was that I couldn't stop. I couldn't see anything because the intensity kept my head locked, rigid against the bathroom floor. >From then on, I was always making up situations so I could see other boys penises during sleep overs and camp outs. I would fixate on how much more intense it would feel if we could all jack our erect penises together all naked. I figured that It's bound to be much more of a good feeling to squirt sperms together watching each other, rather than alone in my room and squirting it all over my stomach alone. I was always curious and willing to experiment. This allowed me to, what I've come to realize, was prolific boyhood sex life. I was the one who always started things off. I asked my friends about their cocks and if they got hard- ons. They would always laugh or deny it but I would tell them that I knew how to make it feel really good, then start to show them how to masterbate. Most of them knew how to already although they didn't let on until both our pants were down and we'd be stroking our cocks furiously sitting next to each other on the old couch in my basement. They always eventually joined in, and the look on their faces when my sperm would shoot out was incredable. Then they would eventually shoot theirs, then we'de thak a nap. I liked to play a game to see who could shoot their sperms the quickest. Sometimes after school when I was in the sixth grade, there would be three of four of us together in my basement. Pants down, cocks rigid, beating off in a circle. Bodies straining, faces contorting, we'd masturbate for only about two minutes until the first guy's semen started to squirt out. Then the rest of us would start shooting too until the floor was covered in streams of gooey semen, It just took seeing the first guy's face start to grimmice and his sperm to start shooting, untill the rest of us started to shoot off too. I was the first one to really let go and get into it too. I taught the other guys it was OK to be natural, and grunt and moan right when they felt their sperm was about to ejaculate. Like they did at home alone in their rooms. To be natural when they had their orgasms. You could smell the sperm sometimes all over the house. I'd just wipe it up with the dirty clothes pile and everyone would split. One friend Randy, had a huge cock and his sperm was already white when we shot off. He could grow sideburns in the seventh grade. I remember seeing his cock grow from about five and a half inched from when we were in the fifth grade, to over eight inches when we reached eighth grade. An inch or two fatter too I loved the feeling of that huge warm soft penis in my fist, then seeing the expression on his face when he's start to have an orgasm. He'd grunt and stiffen up so tight and breath real hard. I always slowed my stroking down after the orgasm started and almost all the sperm contractions were over with, otherwise it's too much sensativity on the head of your penis. All guy slow down their fist's on their cocks, once the sperm reaches time to shoot out. I would tell my dad about it too. He'd just laugh and say he did it when he was my age too and that it was just natural. So I never learned to guilt myself. I had no idea other boys were no different, and thought at first I was the only one who jacked off. I think my dad liked to hear my adventures and felt proud I was becoming a man.