Chapter 15 of
Oh Yes Travis
I looked at his face as he said, "You know that we've been together for not very long, right?"
"Yeah," I said.
"Well, I know you love me, but I don't know or even think I love you anymore. I don't know why," he said so coldly.
Tears started welling up in my eyes.
"But, you, you said that we'd always be," I said.
"That's what I thought. I just need time to think this over. I'm sorry," he said.
"All you've done is use me! That's all you ever wanted. The sex. That's it. Just sex. You fucking asshole! Get out. NOW!" David screamed at me with tears raining down his face. I ran out of the bedroom and went to the kitchen. I picked up the phone and dialed my mother. I fumbled with the phone and dropped it. I picked it back up and re-dialed the number. She picked up.
"Mom, I need you to come get me."
"I just need you to come get me. David and I are mad at each other. He and I got pissed off at each other and he's ready to kill me. Just come get me please."
"Okay, honey. I'll be there soon."
I walked into the living room and slumped down on the black, leather couch. I put my hands on my face and sighed. I lied down and waited for my mom to get me. About ten minutes later, I heard her car horn honking. I ran outside and got in the car.
"So what were y'all arguing about?"
"Nothing, mom, it was just an argument."
"Well, it had to be something."
"No, mom, don't worry about it."
We drove back home and I open the door and went inside to my room. I collapsed on the bed and began to think. So many things have happened between David and I in the past three years, but we've only been together for about a week. I can't believe that I don't if I love him or not. I've always felt that he was "the one" for me. I think he might be. I know he's hurting right now, but I have to think this over. It's something that I can't even explain. I just need a few hours of straight thinking to work this through. I love him... I think. What would I do for him? Lots of stuff. Like what though? I don't what I'd give up. I'd give up all this, all these things I have. I'd give that Porsche. I'd give all the electronics in my room. I'd give up all of this, but I wouldn't give my life. Why? If I loved him enough, I'd give my life. But I think I love him. What is love anyway? I don't even know. This is so confusing. I just need to think more...
Why did this happen? Why did he just tell me that? It has to be a joke. There's no way he's serious. I can't even begin to think that he doesn't love me. He hurt me so much by doing that. He just fucking used me. That's all he did. He used me for my body. All he wanted was sex. He doesn't know anything about love. It's all sex to him and he's learned how to fool people. I still don't understand what he did that for. I know our sex is good and wouldn't want to leave that. I can't believe I gave up my virginity to someone who doesn't love me. I can't believe this...
I will be updating this a lot now. It ISN'T what it sounds like. I love Najla, Aaron, and Rich. Najla the most!