Chapter 16 of
Oh Yes Travis
How did it get like this? I can't believe I just did that. What the hell was I thinking? What is wrong with you, Travis? I do love him. I do. I just, don't know why. Why do I? Well, I think I know why. It's because he's him, but what makes him, "him"? His personality of course, but there's more. The way he laughs, the way he holds me when we go to sleep, the way his lips feel on the back of my neck, the way he whispers "I love you", the way his eyes look when I stare into them, the way he is so sensitive, it's everything about him. Everything. It's everything. That's why, because he's everything I need. Everything. He's everything I need and I just left him. I can't believe I did that. I need him back now. I need to feel his lips on my lips. I need to feel his arms around my neck. I need to feel his love penetrate through my heart and warm me. I need his love so much now. I need him now. He's not too far from here, I think I can ride my bike there. It's about a mile. Yeah, I think I can.
I walked out of my room and went to the garage. I got on my bike and rode out into the street...
He used me. He just used me for my body. For what's in my pants. I thought he loved me. I thought he cared. I thought we'd always be, that we'd always be in love. I thought wrong. All those times he whispered in my ear that he loved me were lies. They didn't sound like lies. There's no way they could be lies. They sounded so damn real. But, David, they were lies. They were. He just left you for nothing. He left you. He left you here and now you're crying. You're crying over the guy that you love so much who used you for sex. He probably doesn't even know what love is. He's just learned how to fool people. A con artist. He's a con artist. How can he just throw me away like I was just nothing? I know that when we fooled around, it was good. It was really good. It was so incredibly good. And it was even better because I loved him, and I thought he loved me, but I was wrong. I was so wrong. He never loved me. He never cared. He never wanted anything but sex. He never wanted my love.
I heard a knock at the door and I went to answer it.
"David, please don't go anywhere. Just listen to what I have to say," Travis said to me.
"Okay," I replied with my arms crossed.
"David, I love you more than anything in this world. I know this is going to sound weird, but I had to think for hours about why I loved you. It's everything about you, your laugh, the way you hold me at night, the way you kiss me, how you're so sensitive. It's everything. I was just very confused about "us". Please, please try to forgive me for what I've done. I love you more than anything. More than anything. Anything at all. Please, baby please," he said.
I stepped forward and kissed him.
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