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This is the final episode of Pockeful of Stars. Thanks ganymedestx, Jayne and Papyrophile for editing and providing moral support. Thanks to all the readers who took the time to write with their thoughts and comments. I read and respond to all emails.
At this time I do not have a sequel planned.
Pocketful of Stars
By Nick Archer
I was riding my bike up to Troys house. I always have to pedal hard to get up the hill.
Out of breath, I paused at the top of the hill to look out over the lake before I went inside his house.
Its been a pretty quiet fall. The sun is shining brightly and it makes the lake glitter. The trees surrounding the lake have turned all sorts of colors - red, yellow, orange and brown. It will be my first winter in Williams Bay.
School is going good. Williams Bay High is a small school. Course, Williams Bay is a small town once all the tourists go home for the winter.
Anyway, it took some getting used to. But I like it. The teachers all know me, even if Im not in their classes. You can actually talk to your teachers because they have time for you. Theres even one teacher sort of like Mrs. Blaisdell.
Living with dad is great! OK, I lied. Its good, but he can still be a pain in the ass sometimes. He has to do all those dad-like things they teach in Parents School like nag. But I still love him. We still have a great time together. He has promised to teach me how to ski and maybe hell send me to snowboarding lessons.
I worry about him sometimes, though. It cant be easy being gay in Williams Bay. Its not like theres a lot of bars or places to meet other guys. Dad always tells me not to worry, "being single is OK at this point in his life." I wonder about it. But then, if he was dating or seeing someone, he would have less time for me. So I guess I wont press the issue too much.
I miss my mom, but I talk to her pretty often. Shes driving Cindy and Carrie up for the Columbus Day weekend to visit. Im actually looking forward to it. I get along better with Cindy and Carrie more now than I ever did. Maybe its because we dont live under the same roof anymore. Or maybe its because Im looking at them from a different perspective.
Mom told me that Josh turned into a big druggie. Hes like a major stoner now. He wears all black and those super-baggy jeans (that my dad will never let me buy.) He even got his nose pierced! Thats sick! What happens when you sneeze? I always wanted to know that.
Anyway, she says (and this is confirmed by Carrie, whos in eighth grade now) that hes a major freak. He dropped out of all athletics. I feel sorry for him. I wonder what would have happened if I had gone back to Bloomington. Would I have been able to help him?
Ruth told me that I probably wouldnt have been able to help him. Yeah, I see Ruth once in a while - maybe three or four times, tops since August. Shes excellent to talk to because she doesnt make me feel guilty and because she talks to me like Im an adult even though Im a boy. I just go once in a while when I need someone to help me sort stuff out. Like Dad says, "just to polish off the rough edges." She helps me out a lot.
I think about Paul, too, sometimes. Mom says he pretty much keeps to himself these days. She said hes moving to another apartment at the end of the semester. I miss him a lot, but when I think of him I get this sort of weird feeling in my stomach. I hope he figures out what he wants in life.
I never talked to Dennis again. Hes at St. Lukes as we speak, and I never hear from him. I hope hes OK. I hope theres someone who can help him. He has a lot of potential. Hes like a star ready to explode into a supernova. If he ever works through all his problems, hell be brilliant.
And then theres Troy. I always wanted a brother. And now I have one. Troy is my brother even though we have different parents. Were like twin stars rotating around one another.
I love Troy. Just between you and me, sometimes I fantasize about what it would be like to have Troy as a boyfriend. Hes handsome, and caring and sexy and funny. And he lets me hug him. But only if no one else is around. Sometimes, he even cuddles with me.
But, he made it very, very clear to me that we are never going to become an item. He told me that he loves me like a brother but not as a lover. At first I was hurt and disappointed, but then I figured it was better to have Troy as a friend than not at all.
Troy defended me once in school. This asshole junior was going to beat me up, but Troy defended me. I owe him a lot.
Hes always trying to fix me up, too. Well be sitting in the cafeteria at school, and hell point out guys to me. "What about him? Hes cute." Or, "John keeps looking at you. Maybe you should ask him out." If only it were that easy! Like I said, Williams Bay is a small school, and I dont think theres anyone else here who is gay. Unless you count Lester Biggs. Hes a senior and hes a flaming queen. I mean major, extra-alarm flaming queen. Im not attracted to him at all. I punch Troy in the arm when he jokes that I should ask Lester for a date.
Its OK, I dont mind being single. I can spend more time on my studies. I want to get into the University of Chicago, and you have to have really, really good grades to do that. So, Im OK with not having a boyfriend. Really.
You want to know if Troy and I are doing it? Man, are you nosey! Thats none of your business!
OK, I admit that Id want to know, too. Yeah, we do. But only once in a while. Its only happened a couple of times.
Im looking out over the lake. Because its October, the sun sets about six oclock at this time of year, and its just about that time now.
I see a streak of light across the eastern sky. Its a shooting star. Of course, I know and you know that its not really a star. Its a meteorite. The brightness comes from the flames as a piece of interstellar rock and ice burns up in our atmosphere. But, to me, its still a star. Plus the song Catch a Falling Star just wouldnt sound right as Catch A Meteorite or Catch A Falling Piece of Space Junk.
When you look at things too closely and too clearly, it ruins the romance. Thats another thing I learned this summer. Sometimes, its look at things a little out of focus. That way, they still sparkle.
I held my hand out toward the sky, pretend to grab the shooting star, and tucked it in my pocket.
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