Date: Tue, 2 May 2006 01:20:04 +0800 From: YoDawgs Bl.net Subject: Search For Conscience, Chapter 15 Come on, send me emails! I'd like to know your opinion. Two minutes of your time would be appreciated! Enjoy the story! The car pulled up on the driveway, brake pads squealing as it made contact with the Goodyear tyres. Cody winced at the sound, as he pulled himself up into a sitting position, gripping Seth's and Sean's shoulders as leverage. "Okay, I'll have to carry you in again, Cody." John said from the front. "Unless, of course, you would rather feel the freezing gravel on the soles of your feet." "Oh, yes please." Cody quickly acknowledged "Would you boys like to go first?" John asked, although Cody was sure that it was a command. The rest of the boys clambered and shuffled their way out of the car, and made their way up the pavement into the shaded area of the doorway, while Regina opened the door and strode up demurely to the door, dangling a chain of keys from her fourth finger. John exited the car, before reappearing in front of Cody, beside the left back passenger door. "Hop aboard, Cody." Cody obliged, wrapping his arms around John's neck and gripping Sean's waist with his legs. John carried him to the already opened majestic front door, and set him down, before saying, "Take care of Sean, won't you? I love both of you so much, that it hurts." He winked, before leaning down and kissing Cody on the forehead. Cody hugged his legs, savouring the moment of love. John made an about turn and returned to the car. Cody felt cold hands squeezing the back of his neck, and realised it was Regina supplying him with an affectionate cuddle. He leant back into her, and she turned him toward the direction of the staircase. "Why don't you join your companions? If you need anything at all, I'll be down here, watching the television, okay?" Cody nodded. He ran up the staircase, anticipating a game on the XBOX. He thudded down the corridor, scampering toward the oak door that shielded Sean's room from the outside. As he reached the slightly ajar door, he heard moaning and groaning sounds. He stopped, pressing his ear to the door. What in the world was going on? The moaning increased in magnitude; Cody was sure it was either Seth or Sebastian. He pushed open the door silently, the sound waves hitting him, increasing in wavelength. What he saw did not shock him in the least. Sebastian was laying face-up on one of the cushions surrounding the XBOX, chest rising and falling, face contorted in a grimace of pain. Cody knew immediately why. A new bruise had formed on Sebastian's stomach, discolouring it, and displaying a chrome of blue-black on the navel and surrounding flesh. Seth was gently pressing his thumbs into it, causing Sebastian to groan with pain every time pressure was applied. Seth lifted his fingers, examining them. His fingerprints were stained with red, emphasising the detailed lines that depicted his identity. He looked at his bloodstained fingers sadly, before rubbing them onto a piece of tissue that was fluttering on the ground beside him. Sean was booting up the XBOX, kneeling on the ground as he waited for the game to start. Of course, all of them had shed their shirts; jackets and t-shirts were strewn all over the floor. "Oh Sebastian, I'm so sorry. I didn't know." Seth wailed, as he pressed the tissue to Sebastian's abdomen. "It's alright, Seth. I didn't know as well. I guess it must have happened yesterday. Now I know why it hurt so much, when you hit me this morning." "Oh god. I feel like a damn troll now." Seth whimpered. "A troll?!" Sebastian burst out laughing, his abdominal muscles contorting with each bout. "Where did you get that from?" Seth scowled, and pressed again into Sebastian's abdomen, causing blips of blood to form on the surface of his skin. Sebastian moaned with pain. "Mnnnngh... Seth... don't..." he managed to form, before groaning again, his right hand tapping the wooden floor unevenly, and his other hand on Seth's shoulder, begging him silently not to continue. "Gently, please..." The pain had its effects on Seth as well. He winced every time Sebastian groaned with pain, and his back was dotted with perspiration, as Sebastian's torso. He sat perched on Sebastian's waist, knees touching the floor and ankles facing upwards. Finally, after testing the bruise a few more times, and receiving loud moans of disapproval from Sebastian, which in turn caused him to screw up his eyes in empathy, he gave up. "I can't do it, Sebastian!" he nearly shouted in exasperation, brushing his fingers away from Sebastian's abdominal area. Sebastian eased up, breathing altering from ragged to subtle. There were droplets of blood on his lower lip, where he had sunk his teeth in. Seth groaned with regret, and swiped the blood off with his thumb, before allowing the tissue to absorb the mauve liquid. He began toying with Sebastian's chest, and rubbing the small light-pink protrusions. Sebastian moaned softly, this time with ecstasy, his own hands playing with Seth's nipples as well. It seemed almost natural, the way in which Seth automatically began moaning in synchronization with Sebastian. Cody noticed that they were almost humming, both pairs of eyes shut in a meditative manner, fingers playing with tits as if they were meditation beads. Sean looked around from the single-player game he was engrossed in, and giggled softly at the twins. "They always do that whenever either one of them feels down in the dumps. It never fails to amaze me how they can actually communicate with each other by just humming incoherent words and moaning." "They're actually talking to each other?" Cody asked, aghast. Sean nodded, smiling at the incredible duo. "Watch this." He said, and crept over to the oblivious blonde twins. He placed his cold hand on Sebastian's stomach, and Cody witnessed an immediate tensing of Sebastian's muscles, along with a change in the tone of humming. Sebastian's eyes popped open in shock. "Sean, stop that." Seth suddenly voiced, eyes still closed. Below him, Sebastian was staring up at Sean and Cody, a slight smile on his face, as his fingers ran all over Seth's pleasure buttons. Both were breathing heavily, perspiration evaporating in the dry English air. Sebastian resumed his humming, giving Cody the impression that he was at peace and needed nothing else but the tender loving care of his own flesh and blood perched atop him. A breeze blew in from the open window, causing Goosebumps to form on the three topless boys. The trio shivered, inadvertently huddling closer to absorb the warmth radiated by the next peer. Cody removed his shirt and flung it on the floor beside the other adornments, feeling his front and back seizing up and forming goose bumps, running all the way down his spine and stomach. He shivered for a split second, then gripped the edge of the blanket covering the bed attached to the wall, and draped it over Sean and the twins, before crawling inside and scratching each twin on the stomach, causing them to shudder and release small "Oh!"s of surprise. "Come on, let's play the XBOX." Sean urged. Cody complied, and reached out for the black controller. He noticed that he always seemed to obtain the left player control, while Sean nearly all the time happily thrashed him with "Player 1". He wondered if the controller had any effect on his game play, which of course, he realised with shame, was very unsportsmanlike of him to think. He made himself comfortable with one of the cushions, placing it on Sean's chest. This position was possible without any visible obstructions as Sean was parallel to the television, lying at a ninety-degree angle to the screen. Cody arranged himself so that he was perpendicular to the television, and faced his feet to the device. He rested his head on the cushion, which was on Sean's chest, and after a few seconds, decided he would do without. He removed the cushion and rested his head on Sean's bare chest, enjoying the firmness of the bulges and the slight heat emanating from the bosom. He lay face up, while concentrating on the screen. To his dismay, it was HALO 2 once again. He reluctantly chose an Elite, and selected the Energy Blade as primary weapon. Sean chose the human counterpart, and armed himself with a battle rifle. To his utmost surprise, Cody outperformed Sean by a small margin in game play, much to Sean's evident astonishment. As a result, the game ended extremely quickly, with Cody leading by a small margin. Throughout the game, Cody was aware of the incessant humming of the twins, and managed to detect slight oscillations in the unintelligible music that they were producing. "Oi, that's not fair. I demand a rematch." Sean snapped sullenly, his face reddening at the obvious embarrassment of being defeated by a much less experienced player. "Sorry, Sean. I've got a tad bored of this game. Why don't we do other things?" he motioned expectantly at the twins. Sean again twitched with embarrassment, as he realised that he was not an admirable example of a audacious, courteous, host. He sidled over to the twins, placing hands on both their abdomens, as their chests were already obstructed by their tender hands. "Seth? Sebastian? Are you there?" he asked, slightly sarcastically. The twins opened their eyes immediately. "Of course we are, don't be daft." Seth responded, somewhat irritated. Sebastian's brown eyes peered owlishly from his position, blonde lashes flicking as he blinked, pupils improvising to the sudden alteration of light. He yawned, stretching his lean torso. He groaned, as gas was released from his vertebrae. Seth frowned. "Don't do that, you know it'll only make you bleed more." He nagged, while prodding Sebastian softly on his belly. Sebastian groaned in protest as he fruitlessly tried to push Seth's hands away, fingers frantically shoving Seth's palms down toward his black trousers. The attack was ceased willing by Seth, who leant over and gently planted a kiss on the blue bruise on Sebastian's stomach. "So sorry." He whispered, hugging Sebastian around the waist, resting his left cheek on the bruise. Sebastian stroked his back. "It's alright. You don't need to repeat everything you just told me." He assured Seth gently, plucking at the fine down on his brother's back. Seth sighed with evident content. Sean stroked both twins' hair, and scratched them around their necks, causing them to squirm slightly. Cody leant over and gently cupped Seth's right ribs in his right hand, admiring the warm, smooth, skin of the pre-teen blonde. He moved his hand gently up and down the ribcage, taking in the ridges and the shape of the anatomy. His attention was brought to a mole just under Seth's underarm, its brown shape making its presence known on Sean's fingers. He immediately leant over and clarified that Sebastian had the exact same mole. He smiled, bringing his left hand up and gently caressing the kidney area. Seth sighed again with delight, stretching his arms upwards and gripping Sebastian by the shoulders. There was something immensely satisfying about pleasuring the two slightly older twins. Every time one of them was placed in a comfortable position, with a pleasurable sensation, the other responded to the touch almost equally, as was the case observed by Cody. Sebastian screwed up his eyes with revelry as Cody depressed Seth's kidneys with his thumbs, letting out an "Ungh!" while Seth groaned with ecstasy and ground his chest into Sebastian's. Cody could feel the vast amount of tension in Seth's back, and set himself to work, releasing as much as he could from the fibres of the blonde youth beneath him. It surprised him to discover that both of them had plenty in common with him. On the physiological side, of course. Both of them had the same hair as his; silky, whitish-blonde, and since the morning, the white streak brought him even closer to them. They were also well proportioned, near equal to his own body, with the exception of two or more factors. Both of them had "inny" navels, while he had a slit in the middle of his stomach. Unlike him, they had small, fair, pink nipples, which seemed to blend in with their physique. His chest bulged out slightly more than theirs, signifying an advancement in growth compared to their own. Nevertheless, these facts did not deter him from admiring their physique, and having twinges of jealousy strike at his chest. He continued applying pressure to the back beneath him, something that he had somewhat become familiar to in the past couple of days. And was duly rewarded with more satisfied groans and moans from both brothers. Cody smiled. He released the hold he had on Seth, and received a groan of disappointment. "Roll over." He ordered Seth, prodding him in the ribs and causing him to shy to the right, giggling furiously. There was muffled thump as Seth hit the ground, driving his elbow into the carpet. Seth ended up in the same position, but this time, he was lying face down on the carpeted floor. "Sean, turn Sebastian over as well." Sean obliged, ceasing his action of stroking Sebastian's neck. Sebastian let out a soft cry as the bruise on his abdomen contacted with the carpet. "Sit on him." Cody said. "Be gentle!" he warned, as Sean made to lever his way onto Sebastian's back by pressing his hands on the numerous bruises that covered his back. Sean reduced his pace, and gingerly climbed aboard Sebastian's waist, taking care to restrain from contact with the sensitive blue-black spots. "Okay. Massage him while I do Seth." He once again applied his fingers onto Seth's rippling back, kneading the muscles with his knuckles. Seth quickly let out a moan as Cody's knuckles rubbed against his spine. To his left, Sean tentatively pressed his inexperienced fingers into Sebastian's ribs. It produced the same effect, nonetheless. Sebastian moaned loudly at first contact, even though it was relatively mild. Sean might have been an amateur in administering massages, but the sheer compassion that radiated from the fulfilling action was more than adequate to provide Sebastian with a sense of peace and relief. The atmosphere seemed almost hilarious to Cody. Identical moans were audible from both boys, as they closed their eyes and wailed with pleasure, faces contorting with each press of the knuckles. "Waaaaaaaaaah..." both of them moaned simultaneously, as Cody and Sean pressed into their kidneys at the same moment, after a signal from Cody. Their mouths remained open after their breaths were depleted, still revelling in the incredible sensation. "Ohhh... Sean, Cody, you wouldn't believe how wonderful this feels." Muttered Sebastian, as he continued to squirm slightly under Sean's ministrations. He groaned loudly as Cody depressed the sinew behind Seth's ribs, the subliminal link impacting his consciousness. "Don't be too sure about that." Sean giggled, permitting a wink at Cody, who duly returned the gesture. "Do you want to stay the night, Seth? Sebastian?" Sean diverted from the subject. "Of course we would. But we're not sure about our parents. After all, we ARE going to school tomorrow, you know." "Of course. But we always walk to school together. I'm sure it won't be much of a hassle if you call your parents now and request permission to stay." Sebastian reached over to Seth, and produced a Motorola V3i from a black pouch that was attached to his waistband; something Cody had not noticed before. He admired the silver frame, along with the mini-display on the exterior of the flip phone. Sebastian flipped Sean off his back, and raised himself on his elbows, abdomen forming a six-pack as a result. Sean lightly ran a finger over Sebastian's bruise, and the twin shuddered with discomfort. Cody returned his attention to the sleek mobile phone. "Cool." He whispered in awe. "Yeah, isn't it? Dad bought it for our birthday. An early gift." Seth added, while Sebastian toyed with the phone. "He was supposed to give us one each, but since we're together all the time, we figured we didn't want to waste that money. Besides, sharing is different. I can't exactly describe the feeling, but I feel complete, sharing the phone with my brother." Sebastian completed Seth's line of thought. He must have located his parents' number; for he held the phone to his ear, resting his upper body onto the ground, Sean knelt by his side, caressing his ribs. "Hello?" Sebastian's crisp voice was absorbed by the fabric of the blanket. "Hi, dad. It's Sebastian. I'm just calling to ask if we could stay the night in Sean's place. He invited us, and since you're already out, we thought it best to call you and let you know first. So can we?" he asked, with a hopeful raised eyebrow. "Why not?" he shot back, immediately, face falling. There were a few seconds of pause before he spoke again. "But we always walk to school together. It'll be fine. I promise." He begged, his voice breaking. "John's there. He'll tell you it's alright." He continued, in the same pitiful voice. He frowned with uncertainty for a few seconds, before his face brightened up once again. "Oh, thanks, Dad! I love yo... we love you so much!" he bubbled, a wide grin spreading on his cheeks. "Okay, we'll see you in awhile... Bye!" he pressed the kill button on their phone. "I'm the master of manipulation." He announced joyously, smiling amiably at Seth. "Oh, shut up, you flippin' show-off." Seth grabbed the mobile phone back, and carefully replaced it in the black leather pouch, buttoning the cover to the body of the container. Cody sighed. What a dreadfully long weekend, he thought. A multitude of things which he would have never thought possible in his entire lifetime happened in the timeframe of two days. And tomorrow, a drastic change would occur in his life again. He would be going to school with his foster-brother, and the twins, which he had taken a great liking to. It was never like this, however. Before his parents' demises, he never really had many friends; they tended to be affiliates, never buddies, or partners. If anything... dare he mention it... good, happened as a result of their deaths, it was that he now had three friends, who stuck to him like adhesive tape on glass. He was content; something which had somewhat eluded him for the past three months in his search for peace. He no longer felt guilty for the deaths of his parents. He did not exactly believe in fate, but somehow, he knew that all of this was meant to happen. A soft sigh penetrated his sub-consciousness and transported him back to reality. He realised that he was still atop Seth's stretching back, and was idly scratching his bare ribs, causing the blonde youth to throe slightly with elation. "Stop torturing me, you sadist." Seth cried out desperately. "Either tickle me, or don't! Stop hovering between half and half." The skin on Seth's back was identical to Sebastian's with the obvious exception of the bruises that covered Sebastian's body. Cody was now free to cross-examine the near-perfect body of the prepubescent beneath him. He inched forwards until his face was but a few centimetres from the orange-white skin of Seth's back. He noticed the pores which the fine down sprouted from, and appreciated the dispersion of occasional freckles along with the moles that dotted the preteen skin. He blew on the bare back, watching with awe as the fine hairs responded to the stimulation. Goose bumps suddenly appeared as well, as Seth squirmed again, giggling softly. "It feels different from when we're touching each other. It feels... better." Sebastian murmured from his side of the blanket, sense of judgement marred by the intense pleasure that he was experiencing. Sean grinned, and gently stroked his chest, causing little moans of ecstasy to be emitted from the mouth of the youth. "Do you wanna talk about today?" Seth suddenly asked. "Seth!" Sebastian said in a shocked tone. "No, it's alright. I was planning to tell you anyway." Sean calmed Sebastian down. "Seth, Sebastian. I did not fall asleep in the tub. I tried to end my life." The twins looked shocked, from wide-eyed Sebastian to open-mouthed Seth. "Why?" Seth inquired. "Oh, it's dumb, really." Sean tried to deviate. "No. Tell us." Sebastian said directly. Seth altered his position, facing upwards, while using his arms as pillow. Sean sighed. Cody knew that he could not stray from the truth, no matter how hard he tried. "Alright, alright. I told Cody how much I loved him, and how much I wanted him to love me back. He went out without a word. I felt horrible. So I did what I did." He said, bluntly. Seth's jaw dropped. "Cody, why didn't you just tell him what he wanted to hear?!" he demanded. Cody remained silent. He definitely did not want anyone to know exactly why he had left Sean in the bathroom, without a word, cold as ice. He knew he was cornered, however. "I... I... thought that I would surprise Sean when he came out. I wanted to tell him how I felt as well. When he didn't come, I went in and found him like that. Can you imagine what that feels like? Just walking in and finding someone you love just... just sprawled out on the ground like that." he said, his voice breaking slightly. "Well do you?" he asked again, feeling slightly annoyed that the twins were staring at him as if he was some foreign being. "Of course I do." Seth replied softly. "All the time." He continued. "I fear that one day, I'll wake up and just see Basti just lying there on the floor, lifeless. I don't know what I would do then. All that therapy at the hospital, all that torture he's undergoing, I just... I just can't bear to let him go through that. It hurts me so much." He finished, covering his eyes with his hands. "I think what you did was horrible. But, I also think that Sean should have gone out and spoken with you instead of just making rash decisions like that." Sebastian voiced, looking straight into Cody's eyes. Cody looked down at Seth's torso, which was contorting with grief. He looked at the stomach expanding and contracting with the silent, but thick sobs that Seth was producing. There was a slight whispering sound as Seth released the grief that was implanted in him. The sound that you usually hear when a boy cries. Not the bawling sound, but the half whisper, half exhaling sound. He placed a hand on Seth's solar plexus. "I know what it feels like, Seth." He assured the crying preteen. "I lost both my parents three months ago. That's why I'm here in the first place. I don't think Sean ever told you that, did he?" he asked. Seth shook his head, tears flowing out from the sides of his face, eyes still concealed by his fingers. Sebastian looked over at Cody. "Oh, I'm so sorry, Cody. I never knew..." he started. "Save it." Cody cut him off. "I've heard that same phrase so many times that it hurts." He rubbed Seth's chest to comfort the weeping blonde youth. Sean stared from his position, obviously preoccupied. "Okay, will this do, then?" He suddenly felt Sebastian's warm hands around his chest, and felt the twin's face nuzzling into his neck. "I'm sorry." The twin whispered in his ear. "It's alright." Cody replied, patting the arm that was across his chest. Sebastian released his hold, and crawled over to Seth, who had a tiny pool of tears beneath his head. "Seth. Don't worry; I'll always be with you." He reassured his twin. "No, you won't." Came the muffled reply. "Yes, I will. No matter where you go, no matter what you do, even if you can't see me, I'll always be here." He patted Seth's breast softly. Obviously, these words made Seth tear up even more, Cody observed. Seth gave a great shuddering sob, and hugged Sebastian as hard as he could, moaning his anguish into Sebastian's shoulder. "No, no. That won't happen. You can't go! I need you." Seth cried bitterly. All this time, Cody was surprised that Sebastian had not shed a tear, let alone allowed any sign of his grief to surface. However, Sebastian was clearly distraught, and suddenly let out a gasp of pity and grief for his brother. "Shhh... Seth, it's okay. I'm not even gone yet, you know. Silly!" Sebastian laughed slightly, kissing his brother on the neck. The sympathy seemed to spread. Cody was aware of tears flowing down his cheeks, as was Sean. Instinctively, he moved closer to the twins, to offer them support, emotionally. He was aware of Sean duplicating his move. Together, they placed their hands on kneeling twins' shoulders, rubbing the flesh beneath, while the brothers wallowed in their mutual self-pity. Cody heard the handle of the door turn, followed by the creaking of the hinges. He was certain that Regina had come in. The blanket was pulled off their heads. His assumption was indeed correct. Regina's face was visible above them, as he looked up. She slowly knelt down. Cody was aware that she was devoid of her plaid coat. "Oh, I'm so sorry, boys." She uttered. "I wish I could do something to help you, but I can't. No amount of money will ever substitute beautiful life. There's still hope, though. The chances of remission of Sebastian's cancer are about sixty-one percent. Do you know what that means?" For the first time in his life, Cody did not know the definition. He shook his head, like the rest of them. He wondered how Regina knew exactly what was going on. Mother's instinct, as he would find out later. "It means that Sebastian has a sixty-one percent chance of survival, if they continue treatment in this trend. There's still hope." She answered, scratching the weeping twins' heads. Seth looked up, his brilliant brown eyes matching Regina's green irises. "Thanks, Regina. You don't know how much this means to us. To me." He said softly, clutching Sebastian's body with his hands. "Oh, I think I may have a clue." She replied, chuckling a little. "I just came in here to tell you that your parents have arrived, and your father's brought your clothes, whatever that's supposed to mean." Her eyes glinted. "You didn't tell me something, did you?" she asked jokingly. Cody smiled.