From: MarkO Subject: My First Times (mm) Date: 3 Sep 1995 22:28:22 GMT Organization: Loyola University Chicago Here's the usual warning: This material is only for the use of adults 18 years or older. If you are not 18, you cannot read this. If you are over 18, but offended by sexually explicit material, hang up now! Fantasies of Ray My first time happened during the summer just before I turned fourteen. I had recently moved to a new home just across town, and was eager to meet other boys my own age. To my delight, I soon discovered that in my new neighborhood there were about six boys, with ages ranging from twelve to fifteen. I became quick friends with this one boy who was twelve. His name was Shad, and he was a few inches shorter than me, with short blond hair. One day, we were in my basement just playing around when we discovered a loose board behind one of the walls. Being curious, we pulled the board out to find a small space than contained two copies of Penthouse. Shad was especially intrigued by our find, as he had never seen the magazine before. I had once seen a copy so it wasn't a new thing for me. But what was new was one of the pictorials, as well as the discovery of Penthouse Forum. The pictorial I was most intrigued by featured two women having passionate sex with each other. But the two of the forum letters were even better. One was also about two women, best friends, having sex with each other for the first time. I got excited reading about how the two of them laid on top of each other, kissing and rubbing against each other until they came. The other letter described two couples who paired off man to man, woman to woman, after they met each other having sex in the woods. The description of the two men sucking each other off was entirely new to me. Shad just liked the pictures however, so I gave him the centerfold, and kept the rest for myself. One night, while I was reading the first letter and masturbating, I suddenly got the idea of putting myself in the place of the narrator. Naturally, because I wasn't a woman, in order to really put myself into the story, I had to imagine that I was with another guy. For some reason, the image of another friend of mine, Ray, suddenly popped in my head. This got me so excited, I couldn't believe it. I also got the idea that in order to make the fantasy more realistic, I'd lay on top of of one of my big pillows like I imagined laying on top of Ray, and rub myself against the pillow, as I imagined rubbing myself against his naked body. But that was all I imagined at first, but I was so excited by this, that I managed to do it three times in about an hour, each time until I came. I was a little scared, since I had never imagined doing anything with a boy before. But I just couldn't stop, My fantasies became more and more elaborate, involving us slowly undressing each other, and going from rubbing against each other to masturbating each other and even sucking each other sometimes. But that was all I knew how to do. At about this time, my older sister lent me her copy of the Hite Report for Women, and I read the section on lesbians with great interest. The idea of people having sex with the same sex really interested me. But it wasn't until I found the Hite Report for Men at the local library that I really found out what guys can do with each other. Though the section on gay men was the most explicit, the section I liked the best was on Sexual Intimacy Between Boys. One description, of a fifteen year old with a seventeen year old, swimming nude and feeling each others penises under the water, then coming out and laying next to each other and kissing and sucking each other, just sent me over the ledge. Even though I fantasized about Ray all summer, I didn't see him until school that next fall. But when I did see him, I was too scared to approach him. The closest I came was one day when we sat together in class, I touched his foot with my foot and just held it there until I thought I'd burst. Still, we never did anything and I thought there wasn't another boy around who was like me. Until the next summer when Shad introduced me to a porno flick he found in his brother's room. Shad and Me The next summer, I started spending more time alone with Shad. One day we were in his basement, when he went to the VCR and started a porno movie. It wasn't that good--it looked liek it had been filmed in large warhouse, and especially from the sound quality. But Shad kept mentioning how hot it was. Then he asked me if I ever beat off beofre and I said yes. He then produced a large vibrator (one normally used for massages and shaped to placed in one's hand, and asked me if I'd like to use it to beat off. I said sure, if it felt good. He told me I could use it after him, and proceded to pull his pants down. But to my disappointment, he covered himself with a blanket. After a couple minutes, he started moaning and I could tell that he had just come. He then got up, pulling his pants on, and handed the vibrator to me. I decided I was not going to give him a free show, so I covered up with a quilt. But after a minute, he walked over and pulled the quilt off me and watched me I started to come. After that, I tried to get him to repeat the performance by giving him copies of Playboy and Penthouse that I had. But he masturbated only one more time, still covering himself. One day, we were hanging out in my room, and he asked if I wanted to beat off. I answered yes, and he went into the bathroom and returned with the soap dish. He proceded to pull his pants down and soap himself up. I thought my chance had finally come, and quickly undressed. Unfortunately, he cam much to quickly, and I was left to finish alone. Though he urged me to cover myself, I knew he really liked watching me. After this, my fantasies of Ray were replaced by Shad as I tried to figure a way of getting him to do something. He kept asked me at various times if I was gay, and that should have been a clue to me, but I was too scared to admit anything. Then one night we were hanging out and heard that my sister were going to have a seance down in the basement, We thought it would be really fun to hide downstairs and scare them. So we went down to this crawl space under the stairs where it was dark, but not too dark. After a while, it became clear that they weren't coming down, so we just talked. Shad soon mentioned that he had recently been at a birthday party where he and these other guys played a form of spin the bottle. It seemed that they were all naked at some point, since Shad remarked that the birthday boys dick was the same size as mine. Then Shad confessed that at one point he had to kiss the boys butt. For some reason, I didn't catch on. and just kind of teased Shad a little. A little while later, Shad started rubbing my chest, saying "You would let me rub your chest," only he didn't stop. He slowly moved his hand down my chest down my stomach, and hovered at my waist just above the top of my jeans. "What would you do if I didn't stop?" he asked. Now's, my chance, I thought. "Well. I'd do the same for you, if you want me to, " I replied. With that, his hand eased it's way passed the waistband