Date: Sun, 18 Jul 2004 22:43:44 -0700 (PDT) From: little bit Subject: Skeeter and Kyle Final Chapter A lot of you have asked me to post another chapter to my story of myself and Kyle, Well here it is. It is not a happy story with a happy ending. I am not sure where I left off on my last chapter since I deleted it from my system so this is where I will start. Skeeter and Kyle chapter 5 Kyle and I lived several years happy and content ith just one another of so I thought, To my supprise Rhonda ( Kyles Mother) Had really never known about us. The way she would talk to us about somethings and act around us along with him telling me she knew I assumed she did. Well she started to wonder about Kyle when he never called talked to or had any girls calling him at home. So his way of covering this up with her was to date a girl for awhile and then dump her. Well in time he dated a friend of mines girl friend not knowing me and him where friends and Withworth came to me and told me about him cheating on me with Michelle. That weekend he came over and I confronted him about her. He said it was all a loe and refused to talk about it anymore. So I called her on the phone and had her to come over. She arrived about a hour later. When I heard the knock at the door O let him answer it because I knew who it was. I heard the door open and heard him say oh shit what are you doing here? For which she answered him I am here to set the story right and I am a friend of Skeeters and if I had known you were with him I would have never went out with you. I called out her name and told her to come back to my bedroom. She walked in Kyle not far behind her and looked right at him and said so are you or are you two not going out? Michelle looked from me to him and said yes we are. So I turned to him and asked him how long he had been cheating on me with her and why? He turned to me and told me that his mom was starting to ask him questions about me and him. I asked him what it mattered because she knew and he told me that no she didnt know. I asked him how he figured she didnt know since she had talked to us about things more then once and he asked me if she had ever once actually said US or was she just saying gay people. After thinking for a minute it hit me that she had never not once in 6 years said anything about me and him. So I asked him well why would you cheat and he told me to cover it up. Well I did as any good guy would have done. I went off the deep end. We broke up. I took him home. I spent the next 6 months of my life crying and ralizing that him cheating on me didnt really matter much compared to the love I felt for him. After awhile I finally broke down and called him and asked him if we could meet somewhere and talk, He agreed. We meet the next day and talked for awhile and decided to give it another chance. We spent that next weekend together. It was like old times we held each other and made love for hours on end all weekend. Only one thing was different. I knew he had been ashamed of me and us and had cheated to cover it up. This was really hard for me to handle, but I did my best. Things went on for a couple of months then I learned that once again he was with a girl. This time I just didnt let it get to me. I over looked it best as I could. Finally about 2 weeks later on for birthday I had went to pick him up and he had spent the weekend with me. That weekend was very hard for me because I knew he was with Samantha. I finally broke down and ashed him about it and he told me yes it was true he was dating her. I asked him if they had ever kissed or had sex. He told me no. Well Saturday Samantha called my house and asked me if it was true that Kyle was seeing me and had been for 5 years. I told her the truth. She talked to me for awhile asking me why he had to date her and have sex with her if he was gay. Yes she said sex. I hung up. I went to him and asked him if it were true he denied it. So I called a girl named Amber Wallace she was a friend of Sam's ( Samantha ) I asked her if she could get Sam to come over and explained to her why and she said she would try. About 2 hours later Amber and Sam showed up. I had went to the door since I didnt really think Sam would want to come face her boyfriends gay lover. Well once I seen who was at the door I walked them to my room and Kyle was on the foot of the bed playing the computer. I said his name and when he turned around he just had this oh fuck look on his face. I just looked at him and asked him if there was something he wanted to say to me or Sam and he said yes there was. He looked up at Sam and told her he was gay and was with me and had been with me for close to 6 years and that she had just been a smoke screen to distract his mother. I then asked him. Well Kyle what about sex you say you never had sex with her and yet she says that you did. He looked up at me crying and said that yes he had slept with her. I asked him why and he told me he just wanted to know what it was like and thatr after sleeping with her he had decided that he was truely gay and wanted to be with me. I then turned to Sam and Amber and told them thank you and they left. Sam was very worried about STD's and asked me on her way out if I would go with her that next week to be checked out I agreed. That night me and Kyle spent alot of time talking and trying to work things out. I told him the only thing I could say honestly. I told him Kyle I so not trust you. I told him I will give you this chance but I mean what I say you cheat again that is it, its over and that I would beat the fuck out of him. That night we didnt have sex. I also wanted to be checked before I did anything and wanted to know what Sams test was going to say. The next morning was Sunday and the day he had to go home. I refused to take him so I had a friend take him home for me. As I had said this was my birthday weekend. Crystal got back home from dropping him off and said he wanted her to play a song for me, it was Nelly's Delima. I didnt see or hear from him again. This was when I gave up. I took a bottle of sleeping pills about a week later. I woke up in the hospital it seems my little brother had came in and found me. I spent the next month in Piney Hills in Barnsville Georgia. They finally let me out and had me on meds for depression. I honestly dont remember much of the 1st 6 months I was out. I was on alot of meds. My mom finally noticed that I was no better just in a zombie state and trashed my Rx's. Once all the meds had worked thier way from my system I started to get better and heal from the lost I wish I had not lived through. My life went pretty much same old same old boring shit for about 10 months. I had made some new friends one above all else was Jessica. Her and I had become like family. We had been spending almost everyday together for about 3 months when she told me she had feelings for me. I just simply and honestly told her I was gay and my heart still and allways would belong to Kyle. She took this very well. She never said another thing about how she felt. About 2 months later I was at her house and had just hung up the phone with my mother and went down stairs. I was talking to her Dad a REAL redneck when she called me up to the 2nd floor and told me I had a call. I figured it was just mom wanting to ask me something she had forgotten to ask me just a minute ago. I answered the phone and heard a guys voice. After several seconds it hit me it was Kyle on the phone. I really didnt know what to say. So I just spoke. I really couldnt tell you what I said, I really dont know. All I can remember is him telling me to tell Jessica thank you for him. Awhile later I told her what he had said about saying thank you and asked her why he had said thank you to her. She told me that she had been talking to him since the day I told her my heart would allways be his. She had called him after I got off the phone with mom to let him know I was there and he asked to speak to me. This was April 15th of this year. The following weekend Jessy( Jessica ) was going to spend the weekend with me. On our way to my house she called someone. Found out a minute later it was him when she handed me the phone. He asked if I would come by and get him so we could talk and get to see one another. I reluctantly agree with alot of pushing from Jessy. About a hour later the three of us got to my house. Jessy called her boyfriend Ricky to come get her leaving me alone with Kyle even after me beging her not to. Kyle and I talked for awhile then at some point we ended up back together again and having sex, first time in 10 months for me since I couldnt bring myself to have sex with anyone else other then Kyle by this point. Things were great we spent every weekend together. He asked me to marry him and wanted to fly out to vermont as soon as we could afford to. The next weekend I had Danny call him to see where he was since he had not showed up yet. His mom told Danny he was at his brothers house for the weekend. I didnt think much of it since he had allways spent a weekend at his brothers every now and then. The next weekend came along and he showed up on time as normal. Jessy called me about 2 hours after he showed up and asked me where he was and I told her he was right here with me. She told me to leave the room so she could talk to me. I walked outside and asked her what was up. She told me she had found out about 2 weeks before that Kyle was seeing a girl named Deanna. I didnt believe it at first was what she said then she told me she had seen them together last weekend and that he had begged her not to tell me because he really loved me and it would hurt me alot if he told me about Deanna. I screamed and cused for a few minuted at her for not telling me then hung up and went in and told him I knew. I broke down crying. He called Deanna and broke things off with her and told me that if he had to choose one or the other I would be the one he wanted to be with. This was the first weekend on June this year. He went home the next day and I have yet to hear his voice or see his face. It is now almost 3 months later and I still sit here crying at the very thought of spending my life alone. For those that dont speak to me on email or yahoo IM this will explain why I say the rest of my life alone, I was told right before Kyle and I got back together this last time that I had cancer. I have been fighting bone tumors all my life and we thought I had beaten it. Well at my last check up I was told I have another tumor wrapped around my spine that they cannot remove. I was given 18 to 24 months. There is really only one thing I have to say about Kyle and I at this point. Thank you Kyle. If I can say nothing else on my last day I can say that atleast during my life I truely loved someone. To my dearest Kyle if you ever stumble across this site and read this story I want you to know you are still my world and my last breath and thought will be of you, Forever yours Skeeter For those that have never read this story. This is a true shortened version of my life over the last 6.5 years. As allways I can be contacted at elizbit54@yahoo.com. May you all find the one thing that eludes us all, True love and may it last for the rest of your days. Best wishes and love to all. This is my final post, simply thinking of him hurts. I wish we had many more years of our lives to post, but God did not have that in my plan.