Date: Sun, 5 Mar 2006 06:04:06 -0600 From: Timothy Stillman Subject: g/m young friends "Song of a Scarlet Evening" "Song of a Scarlet Evening" by Timothy Stillman (for Thomas; I've not forgotten) We met on a scarlet evening. The air was soft summer. The night was deep. And he took his hand in mine, for we had need of each other. And it was as it should be. He held me and I held back, and he whispered, and I came closer, just a bit, and he said there was nothing to worry about, and there were wings of diaphanous around him and they were silver gold and they shone like the sun. And he was proto-human. Proto-boy. Younger than springtime in this summer night with the moon playing dancing shadows over his limpid eyes. And the heart of him was more than enough to sing me. And the heart of mine beat against his thin little chest. And he smelled of moon dust and star light and the first dream I ever had, which I have never forgotten, and have told no one. He knew. And he became that dream. And we dusted our pollen against each other and we were in the sky and in the sea azure it was, and we were the night and we were the tattos of hearts beating for the world, keeping it alive, and we were significant, and we were naked. He made the word of that poetry. He made the word of that majesty. And we never had clothing. We were boys together. And we were soft spoken and our skin was milk shake and our homes were resting in the bodies of him and me. And everything was tumescent. Everything was moving home and he was home and he was night and he was penis and nipples and neck and chest and slender legs and slender more waist, and his penis was a little bridge of hope to me and he put my hand to it. Warm it was, like a wash cloth of warm water, when a little child, having your own bath for your first time on your own, and aware of your body for the first time, touching it, looking at it, unashamed, for that would come later, and the wash cloth of water warm and soap and how you massaged it round your penis and the coral ridge rose, and you felt that giddy laughter deeply inside you, and you lived there for a long time until the diaphanous winged boy came to you at gentle evening and you and he were off and away. He was everything you loved, as he touched your hand with his penis, and you both lifted off from earth, and began to fly; and he was everyone you loved, and he had small dreams and the small dreams included you and were of you, for planets interact, planets intersect, and lives become dreams sometimes, and sometimes dreams become lives, and you and he danced without a floor in the night of dark. And you and he danced, as the star light cascaded round you both, and made your own wings begin to sprout, as you leaned over and kissed so willingly, so gladly, so sexily, the mouth of an angel boy, the mouth of an angel boy who was ringed with golden dusted diadems in his long golden hair, and there were curves around his hair that was full and thick and you felt the moments of other lands in them. You felt the moments of other dreams in them and the sky was a dance hall a long time ago, and the songs were the ones you heard in your memories long before you heard the songs. This distant dream. Once and future and for all time. This endless interplay, two sky children, at hope and in the sand box of darkness that was bested and waylaid by his light glowing cascading from his wings and from his body, and you held him and you touched him in your mid flight, and he lay back and presented his body to you, boldly, assuredly, and you held his chest and felt then his groin, soft, sweet, hairless, pure smelling, and his penis, lingeringly, and his tiny balls and there was robin egg sac and there were the movements of his sighing being as his wings flapped and as destiny called and he looked up at you from reclining, as you stroked his little boy legs and kissed their kneecaps, then lay back in the multitudinous sky. And you touched between his legs soft and downy, and rubbed your finger like soft glow of a firefly, down the ridge between his legs, as his body shifted sharply as if with sudden electricity, and you masturbated him and saw what he did not see, as his legs came round you, scissors cut paper, and held to your waist tightly, and you said his name over and over again, and he was the name and the boy who once owned that name totally and completely, and you put one hand to your tiny penis and felt yourself gravitate to his hand which touched you, and his lips moved into a sweet little boy curl and he watched your hand as it touched him there and it made it jump and yours jumped as well. As nothing was taken for granted. And happiness increased by swift gradations. For you were both learning not to fear anymore. Your lives had been ruled by it. But now that was over and you both forgave those who did those things to you. And forgot them instantly. Knowing they were no longer, or never really, worth your time. No longer back there^ืthe way it was, with a human of any time and kind because they could always destroy you and most often did. But here you lay your face on the reclining boy angel's chest and held his penis warm to you. And it was first time and he came surprising you and he came without sperm and you held his hard on as it clicked and clicked, his tender endlessly fascinating boy gun, and the skies opened and the fates peered in and pronounced it good and he reached up and leaned up and embraced you and said he loved you and the talk was not human talk. The talk was from somewhere else where things and people did not exist the way they existed where you had done your time. And now time was cookies in your mouths and chocolate milk and that is what his little still hard penis tasted like, in a safe warmed by a stove kitchen of a winter's day, with snow and cold heaped outside, and you and your best friend forever together, at the kitchen table, with cookies and chocolate milk to ease your tummies and make you feel good inside and out, when you put it in your little boy mouth and he turned his whole attention to you, as though his penis was a key and your mouth was the lock and the safe, and features of his face looked determined, looked so sweetly, laughably resolute, narrowing down on your mouth and his body, lifted by his wings, turned a full circle, as his penis formed an O in your mouth, then round again. As he opened you to furtherness, to cascades of sex and love and being young and not being afraid, and the gifts beyond, that you and he would never wake up alone again, and his penis moved our of your mouth to your eyes, touch, seal with penis kiss, to your chin, touch seal with penis kiss, and to your chest and then further and further down all touch seal with a penis kiss, and you would never be scared to ask him, do you love me?, for he will say a million times over and not get tired of it, I will love you forever. And he turned from you and showed his diaphanous silver golden wings and you eased them apart like heavenly curtains, and your eyes became big and round as you saw his buttocks, as he turned his head, and smiled keenly and devilishly and slyly and unashamed, and daringly at you, as you looked at the little loaves of fresh boy bread, and you kissed them and you put your stiffy against them and you held to them and you held to his wings and you found they were sexy too, they were made of boy as well, as were your own growing wings, they were sexual and they were touchable and they went tickly as the rest of your bodies did. As he pushed back into you. So warmly. So companionably. And was quite a handful too. And squirmy he could be, as could you, as well as dancing with nobility and grace and delicacy of butterfly wings patterns come to life. Life being the both of you. And you then let go and you brushed his shoulders with a kiss that emitted moon dust sweet and tasting of white chocolate and promises to keep, and then you and he were off into the distance. Were off into the sky of golden glow, and you flew with him and you gripped tenderly his penis as he gripped tenderly yours and you had never felt so enlivened, never felt summer loved you or cared about you at all, and here, and here, there was something that made you whole and that made him whole as well, and thus the two of you needed each other, and thus the two of you and his hands whispered over your buttocks, between your larger and larger wings that trembled excited at his touch, and there was no destiny other than what lay in his eyes. And then you held each other round the shoulders. Friends. It is okay now to look. To feel. To be. He's back with you again. And all that other stuff and other people did not happen. Who did not count. Never happened. The country road in his eyes, all red dust in nostalgic sunset, with a friendly quiet white light at the end of it, down which you would run and fly and be little boy young and there was nothing in the world, no one in the world, but this angel, not of flaming sword or might or censure, but something, someone, you could believe in, and who could only live if you believed in him. And the sky was pallid and dawn was moving up and the night was azure and the night was sea and the night was the little boy on wings beside you and you were both on your way to the Moon, and you both would carry back the jewels of time to the place of earth and grant all beauty that was there within to burst forth the shackles and to extend atom to atom of total and utter grandeur, and life smiled and his pale milk body and his penis hanging down as he flew and your hand underneath it, supporting it, and he coming again and he leaning his head drowsy against your shoulder, knowing he could always find it there, and you would never desert him or hurt him in any way, even in the slightest. As you both coasted through the sky that was becoming light, and you were heading to space and you were heading to each other's arms and you held him and he, you, in standing positions as you drifted dreamily upward, and his hands played with your belly button, and yours played with his tiny hard nubbed tits, and you and he sucked on each other and kissed each other and licked each other all over. Your bodies were miracles and you felt and he felt so open so free so totally aware with every single pore of your angel skins and you were his song and his first dream, that he never told anyone, but somehow you knew and made it you and come true, and there were words of music from the both of you now. Love was beyond words. Love can gone deeper and more meaningful and more endless and more timeless than it had ever been before for any humans. And you and he, one, closed your eyes and wrapped your wings, yours now as large as his, covering the entirety of your back that a single kiss could move away and easily, to touch each other's buttocks and the giggles that way, for there were many of those, and much laughter like silver rain, and you folded your wings round each the other. As in good night, sleep tight, after the fairy tale is over. But this time you are both in it. And shall never need sleep again. But love. All that you and he could manage. And all the time there was. And you held tightly and you saw up ahead and you saw behind, never, and you rushed to the stars and the Moon and you rushed with him, and you and he would never be alone, even together, again. And the sunrise said golden. And the angel boys' bodies said more golden than you can imagine. And the sun was ashamed of itself for the shadow it was to be hidden in now, by comparison. And the angel boys went home in the morning. And a happy time up ahead. Without end. Amen.