Date: Mon, 20 Dec 1999 22:43:55 EST From: Lyndhurst Rutherford Subject: CHAPTER 5....TAD'S STORY Greetings all. Well I've finally been able to finish chapter five. This one indeed proved to be the hardest one for me to write. In the first place, I stopped smoking and the things I was writing would make the Marquis De whats his name, shrivel up. So I waited until I felt human again. Success, it has been nearly a month without those awful cigarettes. Number two, (this is going to sound really strange ),I had to stop because I found myself falling in love with my own fictional charachters. Wild to say the least. Maybe it was the nicotine withdrawl??? Anyway please let me know if I've lost it altogether when I quit or if I still have what you like to read. Love Lyndie :-) _________________________________________________________________________ The following story is purely fictional. This is a concerns friendship, love, and sex between boys. If you are offended by my work, please don't read it. If this story is illegal because of your age or locality, don't read it. This, dear reader, represents my first attempt at writing short stories. If you do choose to read on, I would so enjoy hearing any and all serious observations and critiques from you. Please feel free to e-mail me at lyndie_73@Hotmail.com. Copyright 1999, Lyndhurst Rutherford, all rights reserved. ------------ Tad Story..by Lyndhurst Rutherford...lyndie_73@Hotmail.com Chapter Five.......... "Well, there you two are!",yelled an excited Tad, as suddenly, Mother and Tad were coming up the moonlit garden path. Father and I, were sitting on the bench in the quiet of the garden, and didn't even hear the two of them sneak up behind us. Tad ran ahead of Mother, his long blond locks, flying behind him, suddenly screeching to a halt in front of me. "Samuel Hedge!", said Tad in mock scolding, with his arms crossed defiantly in front of him, valiantly trying to hold back the giggles that seemed to be bursting out of him. "We were searching all about the house for you. Now, here we find the both of you asleep in the garden! You had us worried sick!" Well, at least I could tell, by the smiles in his voice, that all was well again. He was so beautiful standing there, I wanted to grab him and hug the stuffing out of him. It seemed that, even though I thought I knew this boy, there were still so many dark shadows that were hidden in his little life. It hurt me terribly that, for an angel as beautiful as he was, he should be tormented so. It wasn't fair. Just not fair. As Mother approched, Father, ever the gentleman, rose up from his seat. "I am sorry my dear, but you seemed to be busy with other matters, and I know that you don't like the smell of my cigars, so I thought my son and I would take an evening walk." Mother, just smiled in approval. "Mother?" continued Father, "would you do me the honor of continuing my walk with me?" "Well, as long as your son doesn't mind..." "Oh no Mother, please go. I'd like to talk to Tad anyway." As Mother and Father slowly walked down the garden path, arm in arm, Tad plopped down beside me on the bench. No sooner were they out of our eyesight, when I felt Tad put his arms around my shoulders and start kissing my neck. "Asleep Indeed! We were not asleep!.... Tad, please!, they'll see us and....Ohh...., I love when you kiss me like that." Tad only giggled in my ear. I couldn't think of another blasted thing to say. I couldn't think period, as Tad was slowly nibbling on my earlobe and licking the inside of my ear with his hot tongue, making my body shiver beyond my control. Lord, for a boy that blushed as easily as Tad, he did love to take control of the loving, as I was quite content to let him. Taking one last look to see that my parents were out of sight, I put my arms up and around Tad's neck. I turned to look right into those wonderous eyes of his. The moon light seemed to be doing magical things with his already, intoxicatingly seductive, eyes. Looking at Tad at that moment took on the quality of a dreamlike effect, with the moonlight turning his face an alabaster white, and resembling the face of an angel I had seen once on a statue at the Royal Museum of Fine Art. Pulling his face in until we were nose to nose, I stared at those lovely eyes. "Sam, I...." "Shhh!...,my angel, don't talk, not yet. Just close your eyes." I watched as his eyes slowly closed and then I closed mine, not needing them any longer. Slowly sticking my tongue out, I found my lovers sweet lips and lightly licked them with the tip of my tongue. Tad parted his lips only slightly, and I took the opportunity to suckle his bottom lip into my mouth, licking around it, and my tongue reveling in the sweet taste of this boy-angel. As I released his lip, we each found the other, with Tad embracing me warmly, our lips touching lightly for a moment, then melting into each other, our tongues snaking their way into the others mouth, seeking out every taste we could gather as our bodies trembled and breath came in gasps. I was sure that our tongues would forget who their original owners were. Somewhere in the depths of my now spinning head, my senses tried to tell me that my parents might be returning shortly. I didn't want to listen, God knows, but I needed to pull myself together. Slowly I broke my lips from Tad's. "No..Oh, no,no,no,..where are you going, Sam? Oh,dear God...,do you know.....wha.., what your..., your doing to me? Please, don't let go." Tad panted, breathlessly, while planting short stacatto kisses around my face, and anywhere he could reach. His own skin burning mine with his hot desire and his arms keeping my head from leaving our warm embrace, not wanting to let me go. "Tad, they'll be back any moment.",I managed. "You rat, you started it." he said. "Me??,You little devil!" I replied and grabbed his ribs with both my hands and started tickling. "No!!!" he screamed, as he broke up in hysterical laughter, screaming for me to stop, and my own laughter getting the better of me. I stopped and we calmed down a bit, getting our breaths back. I looked into his eyes one more time and they were filled with the hot mist of fire and lust, looking at me in a way that spoke to me only, of hot love and desire. As he stared into my eyes, we heard Mother and Father getting closer. "Just you wait, Samuel Hedge. Just you wait until I get you alone.", he whispered to me with fire and smoke filling his eyes. To this day, I was surprised that his words didn't set the entire garden on fire. What have I done to this innocent cherub? What inner fire have I awakened in him, or myself for that matter. I suddenly realized that neither Tad nor I would be getting much sleep this night. Somehow, Tad and I managed to regain a reasonable facsimile of composure as Mother and Father arrived at the bench. "Boys, I'd like to have a word with you if I may?" Father said. What was he up to? He'd sounded as if this were an important matter. My mind raced to think of what he wanted to talk to the both of us about, with Mother present.I was hoping it wouldn't have to do with the way Tad and I felt about each other, but then again, Father was a man of his word, and would more than likely, not make mention of anything we spoke of. So what then? Without waiting for a reply, he continued. "Boys, I know that you both intended to go tramping about the woods, or some such nonesense, tomorrow. What I would like to ask you is, how you might like to take a small trip into London with me tomorrow insted?" Tad and I just looked at each other. "But Father, tomorrow is Saturday",I said. "You don't go in to work on Saturdays." "Yes, Samuel, that is quite true, I don't. But this is special business and I thought that quite possibly, you two little hooligans might like to see the city and maybe have lunch together? Just us men, so to speak, eh? What say you gentleman?" Tad and I just looked at each other, and by the way he looked at me, I could tell it was alright with him. "Very well Father, we'd love to go" So arrangements were made for a departure time of nine AM. Tad and I said good night to Mother and Father, leaving them sitting on the garden bench and heading for the house to go to bed. As we entered the house and walked up to my bedroom, I couldn't help but think of what Father might have in mind. It was odd because he'd never taken me along when he had to conduct business. With Father, business was business, and family was family. They were always two distinct things. Perhaps he thought I was old enough to start being taught the ways of the business world? Perhaps this,perhaps that. My mind was in a total quandry. "Samuel?....Oh, Samuel??? Do you hear me?" So lost was I that I hadn't noticed that Tad and I were now in my room, with Tad trying vainly to get my attention. "Yes, you little twit, I hear you." I saw some questioning looks in his eyes, but I quickly changed the subject. I looked about and noticed that Annabelle had set up a cot in my room for Tad to sleep in. She'd also turned down the beds and lit the oil lamps on the nightstand. I have always loved the warm soft glow that the lamps gave off in my room. Even though we had electricity, I much rather preferred them to the electric lights. As Tad headed for the bathroom,I locked the door to my room, even though I knew that Mother and Father respected my privacy, especially since I had a guest. Sitting down on the edge of my bed, I untied my boots and let them drop to the floor. Looking over at the cot, I thought of poor Annabelle, lugging that thing in here. Little did she know, I thought to myself with a sly grin creeping onto my face, how little use it will see tonight.I must remember to mess it up to make it appear as though it had been slept in. As I listened to the little noises Tad made in the bathroom, I was overcome with feelings of joy and also of sadness. The joy was for the way he loved me and how we felt about each other. The sadness was for the loss of the family he once knew, that tore at him so. It saddened me also that, at the moment, I could offer nothing but my friendship and love. That's all he really needed, you see, just to be loved. Then I wondered if anybody could love him as I did? Perhaps. But be warned, they better keep their distance. I won't give him up without a fight to the death. All this bloody wondering had me tired, and I had to pee. What was he doing in there for so long? Suddenly, his sweet little face popped out the bathroom door, smile from ear to ear, and spring in his step. "Took you long enough. I thought I would have to pee in my trousers." "Well that would have been a pretty sight, it would", he said laughing and bouncing down on the cot, as he proceeded to remove his own boots. Not even bothering to answer that smart assed remark, I got up and went to my dresser drawer and pulled out two clean pair of boxers."Here, catch.", I said, as I threw Tad a pair. I knew when I threw them, that he wasn't ready, and they landed on his head."You're not funny Sam." he yelled. "I thought it was hilarious" I giggled, as I ran and locked myself into my bathroom. As I started to wash up and pee, a wave of exhaustion suddenly overcame me. I dare say that I was yawning so much, I missed twice and wet the floor. Finishing up in the bathroom, I had stripped down and changed my dirty boxers for clean and left my dirty clothes in the hamper. As I stepped back into my room, Tad was lying on the cot where he'd first plopped, wearing only the clean boxers I had given him before. He was awfully quiet, and it wasn't until I had gotten right up to him, that I realized he was fast asleep. For a moment, I knealt down and studied this sleeping angel. How beautiful he truly was, sleeping on his tummy with his right thumb settled in the corner of his mouth, as if he'd been sucking it for comfort. As he lay there, I noticed what a warm color the light of the lamps gave his soft, warm skin, as his chest raised up and down to contented, rhythmic breathing. How I loved this boy, I thought. So innocent and mild. How I longed now to be near him, and hold his warm body close to mine. Standing up, I quietly pulled the blanket up his skinny little boy body and covered him up. I bent my head down to him and lightly kissed his warm cheek, catching a trace of his scent in my nose, and making me dizzy with desire for him. But, later, I thought. Let my darling rest now. We have our whole lives to love each other as we wish. Putting out the lamps, I made my way to my own soft, warm bed, guided through the darkness only by the bright moonlight that filtered in through the open window and the glass panels in the door that led to my private balcony overlooking the back garden. As I lay in bed listening to the crickets chirp in the night and a warm summer breeze blowing across my naked chest, I fell fast asleep, thinking of my lovely Tad and the life we could have together. I slept most of the night, or so I thought, because about two or three in the morning, something had awakened me. I don't remember what had awakened me but, realizing I was awake, I turned on my side to go back to sleep when I saw that the door to my balcony was slightly open. That was odd, I knew it was closed when I went to bed. Slowly, I sat up trying to collect enough of my senses so that when I stood up, I wouldn't fall on my behind. I got up and went over to the door and slowly, I peered out into the hot, moonlit night and saw Tad standing near the edge, just looking out into the yard. As I looked at him standing there, he was oblivious to the fact that I was watching him and seemed to be completely absorbed in thought. As I continued to look at him, dressed only in white boxers that were glowing with the light of a full moon, I sensed an awakening of my own, down low between my legs, stretching the front of my own boxers considerably. What was happening to me, I wondered? Every time I looked apon this boy, no matter what time of day or night, I was filled with wants, needs, and desires, the likes of which had never plagued me before. Why was he up and about? Well, I thought, why not join him, now that I too had awakened, and out I went. I remember how cold the stone tile floor of the balcony felt against my bare feet, as I padded softly across to where Tad was standing. Finally, Tad saw me coming and broke out in one of his heart warming smiles. Funny, even in the dead of night, his smile seemed to open up the light of a thousand suns. "Oh Sam, I'm sorry, did I wake you?" he said. "No, I just woke up on my own. What are you doing out here?" "Well, I sort of woke up myself, went to the bathroom, and decided to have a look over your balcony before heading back to bed. I hope it's alright?" When he said that, the look in his eyes was so delicious. He had honestly thought he'd done something wrong. I smiled back at him,with an assuring smile. "Tad, I believe that anything you would do, would be alright with me." He looked at me quizzickly and we both burst out giggling. We were both standing there, next to each other looking out into the garden, listening to the crickets, and for the longest time, said nothing. It was Tad that finally broke the silence. "Sam, I...., I have a confession to make." We looked at each other and by the look in his face I could tell it was important. "Well,?" I said. It took him an awfully long time, and I finally said, "Tad, remember when I told you that you can tell me anything?" "Yes." "Well then, come on, out with it!" "Alright then. Do you recall the other day when we first met at the lake?" "Uhhhhh, wait, let me think",I said, laughing at the absurdity of the question. "I knew it! Samuel Hedge, you're mocking me!"he said sternly. "Ok, I'm sorry. Really! Of course I remember. How could I forget the day I met the one person I love most in all the world?" Especially since it happened only two days ago, I thought. "Well", Tad continued, "It sort of, well...sort of wasn't an accident that I happened along like that." "Tad, what in the devil are you trying to say?" "Well, I, Uhh...................Well I knew you were going in there, because I followed you in. You see, I'd been watching you for a while, quite a while, I should say. It all started about a year ago. When I first noticed you, I'd see you going from class to class in school, but I was afraid, so terribly afraid of approaching you, because you were an older class mate and all, and,....and,...oh, I just didn't understand then that it was love I was feeling. You see Sam, I've actually been in love with you for quite some time, and it's just that, I suppose, I have a hard time expressing my feelings. That, and I blush so bloody easily, you see?" While Tad was speaking, it was hard for him to look me in the eyes and he was now staring at the floor. For a second we both said nothing. Picking his chin up a little with my finger, I noticed that his eyes were welling up with tears. Don't tell me, he was going to cry again, I thought to myself. As I looked at him and smiled, I took my other finger and scooped up an early tear that had started running down his now blushing cheek, and put it on my tongue. "That's a real tear." I said as I pouted at him. "Sam,are you angry with me?" Instead of answering, still holding his chin, I drew his face in close to mine and lightly pressed my lips to his. As I kissed him deeply, his eyes closed and he softly moaned under his breath, as he wrapped his arms and soft, warm body around mine. Breaking our kiss and nuzzling his neck, I whispered softly into his ear, "Silly boy, I could never, never, be angry with you. Well,not for too long anyway. I adore you too much." With that, I felt the tears roll out of his eyes as Tad put his arms around my waist and held me tightly. Tad was kissing my face all about in short little kisses. Kissing my cheeks, my nose, my eyelids, my forehead, and finally settling down softly on my lips with soft kittenish whimpers. "Oh Sam,please hold me. I've wanted to be near you for so long that I can scarcely believe my wish has come true.It's been so long since anyone at all has loved me. Oh.....My...I can barely think when you kiss me like that.....ummmm." Holding me as if he never intended to let go, Tad buried his head against my chest and continued speaking in a voice that was barely audible. "I know that sometimes things don't last forever, but please, please, please, Sam,if you ever get tired of me, please don't just off and disappear without so much as a word. I dare say I couldn't take that at all, not from you. Please, promise me right now that you'll tell me.....ohhhhh." We were so hot that we practically swam against each other in our own sweat as we held each other. As Tad held me I was greatly aware of the urgency in his voice and also somewhere else. As we held each other we couldn't help rubbing our now hardened boyhoods together, still seperated only by the thin boxer shorts we wore. "You haven't answered me yet, Sam!" Tad panted and gasping for breath."Tell me, please! I need to hear it from you." I pulled back slightly so that I could look my lover in those sweet eyes that I loved so much. As Tad looked at me I saw that the whole world revolved around what I told him, as his eyes pleaded for an answer. "Tad, if the time comes that I get tired of you, yes, yes, my dear, sweet, Tad. Yes I promise that I'll be honest with you. But, I also want you to know that I would rather die than to hurt you. Tad, I love you with all my soul." And as I spoke I felt Tad's heart beat faster against my chest as he held me. His eyes, I could see, were spinning around in his head and he started to shiver as I held him closer to comfort him. "You know Sam,when you hold me like this with your arms around me, you make me feel so protected and safe." For the longest time, Tad and I stood there, on the balcony in the pale light of the full moon, holding each other. Just, simply holding each other in the warm night air. If this is also part of being in love, then I must be completely gone, I thought to myself. At that moment I felt safe, contented, and fullfilled, all at the same time. I had all I cared for, right here, safe in my arms. And by God, I'd make sure that he'd never go to the arms of anyone else. I just wanted him in mine. Then he looked up at me and smiled in that devilish way of his. "Remember when I told you to just wait until I got you alone?" "Yes, I do." I smiled back. "Well Sam, we're alone right now! All alone" he whispered. Tad leaned his head back slightly and closed his eyes. I didn't need any further prodding. I leaned in to him, studying his soft little face. His eyes closed, head thrown back, except for some blond bangs covering his eyelids, and those full lips. Oh my, those full, sweet, lips, calling me closer. Finally kissing him, both our mouths opened at the same time, giving our playfull tongues a chance to taste of one another, yet again. I recall noticing how hot his mouth and lips were, sending shivers down my back. Good lord, please, I need air. Much to his protests, I had to come up for air. Still, so hot was Tad that he searched for anything, any part of me that he could reach with his hot lips. I heard his breathing and it was also coming in great gasps, but he seemed not to care, and neither did I. Moving his head down, he began his kisses with my soft chest, finding my nipples almost at once and practically swallowing one whole. All this time, his arms tightened their grip around me, his hands kneading the muscles of my back and shoulders and also making sure that I couldn't get away from him. I closed my eyes as my knees went weak. Tad stopped and looked up at me, giggling sweetly. "Is there something wrong with your legs, pretty boy?" he cooed at me talking in a baby talk kind of voice, fluttering his eyes. "You know damned well what made me wobble you little devil."I whispered, barely able to catch my breath. "I can fix that! he chirped. All of a sudden, like a bolt of lightning, he flew out of my grasp headed back for the bedroom. Needless to say, I stumbled backwards and had to keep myself from falling on my behind, by grabbing the railing of the balcony. It was then that I realized that Tad ran totally on impulse. It was going to take some doing on my part to keep up with this rascal. Where in the hell had he gone, leaving me like that. Just as quickly, Tad came running back, this time with the blankets and pillows from the beds. In no time he had them spread out on the balcony floor. "Well, what do think?" he said. "Think? Tad I can't think." I said half angrily, my mind still reeling from being cast aside so rudely. Standing in the middle of the blanket, surrounded by the pillows, Tad just stared at me. I made myself look out over the garden and ignored him. For a second I heard nothing. Then I thought I heard a rustling of some kind, but I continued with my little game. I wasn't really that angry, just thought I'd have a bit of fun with him. Then as I stood looking out at the garden, Tad called me again, but this time was different. This time it was, hot, and demanding. I felt that I dare not refuse. Besides, I needed him back in my arms again. "Sam..Saaam..Sam, look at me, Now!" I turned to look at Tad who stood in the center of the little love nest he'd prepared for us, naked in the moon light with his arms outstretched and his penis at attention. He resembled a sweet little angel standing on his cloud. So beautiful was my sweet Tad when he was naked. "Saaam?....please Sam. Won't you come to me? Please??? Sam please come to me, I need you to hold me. I need you now!" he purred and all my resisitance crumbled and faded away like dust in the wind. It was only a matter of a few steps to reach him, but it seemed that it took an eternity. I remember not even feeling the steps I took, just the pounding of my heart as I seemed to float to still outstretched arms. As I reached him, I was totally enveloped in those warm arms, as they locked around me and drew me into his velvety softness."Sam...Ohhh..,my Sam, mmmmmmm. You're still wearing those dreadfull boxers. I want you as naked as I am, please. Ohh...please let me feel you against me again." As his body was plastered to me like a second skin, shedding my boxers would prove to be an accomplishment to say the least."Tad, I think you've got to help me a little. You've got to let go of me, just a touch." "I'm never going to let go of you." he hissed at me. "But I can help just the same." As these words left his lips, Tad started sliding down my body, leaving a trail of wet kisses and kittenish licks down my chest and my tummy. After a second, he was on his knees in front of me, still kissing my tummy and licking my navel. I recall how hot his cheeks felt on my skin. He must be blushing again, or perhaps the excitement of our playing does this to him. As my hands had found their way into his soft long hair, stroking those golden locks, Tad's hands had found their way to the waist band of my boxers, slowly pulling them down while kissing any part of me that became exposed. As they came loose, Tad let them drop to the ground, as his hands became consumed with other matters. Tad let his arms go, slowly around me again, while continuing the love making that his lips knew how to do by themselves. As his tongue slowly licked and kissed about all the soft areas surrounding my now rock hard boyhood, I closed my eyes and abandoned my body to this boy, my sweet lover. He knew that I was his, as he had my penis trapped against his hot face, as his strong hands kneaded the cheeks of my little boy behind. Soon, my knees shook, as his wet mouth found my hardness. Slowly, deliberately driving me crazy with desire, his tongue licked it's way completely down the underside of my penis, making me shudder and gasp. I had completely lost the use of knees as they gave way under me, not that I cared. Seems as though if a tree had fallen on me at that moment, I wouldn't have cared either. What surprised me is that I didn't fall to the ground. My Tad, my wonderful, sweet, Tad, had kept me from falling. He now held me up by my waist and kept on enjoying himself as if it were nothing. It shocked me to realize that he was much, much stronger than he looked. I shuddered to think of the wonderful man he would grow to be. "Tad...Ohh..yessss,yes,yes,yes. Ohhh, God, Tad....mmmmmmm, I.. I,...h-h-have to lie dd-downnnn.Uhhhhh. Please,Please,Please." "Uhmmmmmmm,but Sammy, ohhh you taste so good,mmmmmm. Too good for me to let you go. But if you promise me I can still suck you when you lie down then I guess I'll have to let you." he said as his tongue swirled around the entire head of my hot little penis. God he was driving me insane. By the time I was ready to get the words out, the head of my penis was already in his hot sucking little mouth. How could he expect me to answer him. He wasn't playing fair at all. "Ohhhh god , god , yyyeeessssss.. ohhhhngh, yes I ppppromise......" Dear God I was practically shrieking these words, not even scared that someone might hear me in the dead of the night. My mind was spinning around and around, and everything, light, time, day, night, even my very existance, became a total hot blur as I collapsed, finally, unable to stand any longer. I don't even remember hitting the ground. I knew only the intense love that Tad was bestowing on me. Squirming in passions I had never realized. All this time, Tad never relinquished his prize. Holding on with both hands, now plunging the entire length of me deeply into his hot,wet,sucking mouth, coming back up, only to drive me to the brink again, and again, and again. "Ahhh...Sweet Tad, unnn...too much, ohhhh your driving me insane" I couldn't stop moaning or control my own spasms, with my hips surging upward to meet every hot, downward plunge of his hot mouth. Suddenly, and quite painfully, Tad stopped sucking. I opened my eyes to look at what had made the sweetness stop. Oh god those eyes, those eyes of his, looking right into mine, right through me to my very soul, with this smokey glazed passion. Tad was totally in control of me, my body, and my mind, yet lost to his own drives as well. Both of us lay panting on the blanket, a hot tangle of two naked, young bodies. Yearning, longing for one another, and tasting for the first times in our young lives, the final hot bliss, we alone could bring ourselves. Before I could utter a syllable, it was my sweetness that broke the silence. "Don't say anything yet, my lover. Lie there and let me take in the sight of you. So beautiful are you before my eyes, that I say here and now, Samuel Hedge, before you and God, that I will never love another, as I love you, here, this moment. Perhaps it's the fact that you've proven to be more of a friend and companion to me in these last few days, than I have ever had in my entire life. I would be more than honored to spend the rest of my life with you". For the first time in my life, that I can recall, I was speechless. I was unable to utter a single word in resonse to Tad's decleration of his love for me. Aftr all, what does one say to this? I didn't know. What I did know, is that I never wanted to let him go, ever. "Sam...sweetheart....." He said those words and blushed the deepest red I've seen thus far. He was so lovingly innocent. How could I not love him? "I have something for you. Something I would give only to you, and you alone. I do so, adore and love you, my Samuel." Tad still had hold of my penis and was stroking it lovingly while he spoke so I was still as hard, and as captive as ever. Then, taking me again, slowly, deep into his hot, wet mouth, my body shuddered in sweet ecstacy, as Tad's tongue lubricated my entire length with his saliva. Through half closed eyes, eyes that barely had a grasp on this mortal earth for the moment, I watched in wonder as Tad lifted himself up, and into a crouching position over my hips. With one hand leaning on me, to keep him from falling, he used his other hand to gently grasp, again, my hot, boyish, hardness. As he used his hand to brush my penis back and forth aainst his hot, silkenly smooth neather region, between his bum hole and those sweet testicles, I moaned, uncontrollably, over and over, calling his sweet name, and professing my love to him again, and again. It felt as if my mortal world was gone, with only sweet electric shocks to carry me to an ecstacy I never imagined, existed. ` His sweet hand, lovingly, softly,squeezed and stroked my already over sensitive penis, as he started taunting me with sweet words of love yet again. I wondered exactly how much of this I could stand before permanantly losing my mind and exploding all over myself and his hand. God only knows, my lover had me on the brink, time after time. Oh sweet release, I crave you now.................. "Oh Sam, ooohhhh..., you're so hard and you feel so good in my hand. Ummmm...., Oh sooo big, my baby. Don't you dare finish yet Samuel. Not yet my sweet lover.Ohhhh.....hold on....." All I could do was pant. I didn't have enough mind left to answer him. As it was, he totally owned me in body and spirit. Finally, when he knew I could take no more, Tad positioned the bloated head of my penis at the entrance of his anus. I had no conception of what delights he had in store for me. Sweetly, he spread his cheeks with his free hand, trying to keep his balance while squatting above my hips. For a moment I opened my eyes to view what was about to transpire. The scene before me was so beautiful, whith Tad's clean, sweet thighs spread wide before me, the head of my penis lay trapped between the soft cheeks of his anus, feeling every hot little squeeze each time he moved. His own lovely penis stuck out from his body waiting for me to take hold of it in my hand and caress it to fever pitch. I was in total paradise, when suddenly, my darling love, lowered himself down, with a hot high pitched squeal,oh, so slowly and the wet head of my penis popped into the hot entrance to his yet unexplored anus. My head was spinning out of control, faster and faster. I knew I was no longer on the planet with the rest of the human race. I didn't know quite where I was, only where I was going with my sweet darling. "OOOOHHH GOOOOOODDDD!!!!, OHHH SAM,SAM,SAM,SAM. OH.....HOW I ADORE YOU SO. OHHHHH GGGGOD, MY GGOD, OHHHHHOOOO, HOW YOU'RE STRETCHING ME........" With that, Tad lowered himself slowly, ever so slowly, down, down, down, and impaled himself on my penis. I dare not move for fear of hurting him. Ohhh how I loved him. Finally, there was no more of me to enter him, as he sat on me, fully impaled on my hot penis. I opened my eyes for the first time since he started his desent. I saw a different Tad. A Tad that was no longer connected to the earth, but floating through ecstatic rapture with eyes tightly closed, head thrown back and blond locks dangling behind him, as his head swung from side to side and breath came in short urgent gasps. I recall how his face shown in the moonloight with all the streams of sweat pouring down his face. "Ohhh Samuel, mmmm my looove...... Now, nnnoww..ohhhhh you are mine. All mine!!! And I am now, forever yours. Now we are forever one person. Ahhhhhhhh....ma..ma..mah..mahay ggggooooodd. ohhhhhaooooooooo..So big iiinssside meeee..ohhhh....filling mee up ssooooo much..Ohh!ooooohhh..don't stooppp." It was an amazing feeling. Tad's anus muscles seemed to tighten around me as he slowly slid himself up and down in short little movements. Slowly at first as he got used to my invasion of his hot insides. Gradually he relaxed enough to pick up his speed and settle into a steady rhythm, gripping my penis tightly going up and down and sending ecstatic shock waves through the both of us, while we both slowly savored the feeling of being one. Neither of us rushing to end it. "Oh.. Tad....I love you soooo. I don't want to hurt you, but this feels....feeeeels, ahhhhhhh...ohhh soooogoooooood..ummmmmmm.So, sooo hard t-to hold onnnn...ohhhhh, yessssssssssss, soo tight iinsiiiidde........... ...........sooo hott." "No...no...Sam,...Ohhhhhh Goddd...my darling love. Hurting me is the last thing your doing. Oh, I just wish that we could stay joined in this way forever, with you deeply inside me. Oh.. how I needed you inside me, filling me with your sweet hardness. Now, sweetness, my love for you is completely satisfied. I thank GGGOOD that my body bbbelongs too to too you....OhhUhnn." I then decided that I had been denied the pleasure of touching him long enough. Slowly, I sat up and at the same moment, tucked my legs underneath Tad, Indian style so that Tad now sat in my lap. Tad immediately brought his smooth legs around my back and locked his ankles behind me. Throwing his arms around my neck, he began to kiss my face and mewing like a kitten, professing his love for me again and again, with hot cheeks burning my face as I wrapped my arms around him and roughly pulled him into me. I was going to take back control of this situation and make his head explode with lust. I was determined to show him just how much I could also love. I managed to catch is face, grabbing his lips with mine and forcfully kissing his sweet lips with all the unbridled passion that I could, running my hands through his soft hair with one hand, rubbing all the naked flesh I could find with my other hand, and pulling him onto my penis slowly and keeping him there while I drove myself into his insides, making my love squirm his bottom down onto me with hot desire. Then finding his own sweet little penis and taking it's lovely hardness in my hand, making it mine as well, stroking it with all the love and tenderness I could. Holding him so close, I was also able to smell his sweet boyish scent mixed whith the scent of his behind as my penis cleaned out his inner depths. God, I loved the way he smelled. So delicious, so boyish, so hot and sweaty. "Ohhh...good Lord, Sam, wha...what are you doing to me? Ohhhhh my love...your making me see starrs....Ahhhhhhhrggh,...yessss Oh, Sam, yessss, push it into me that way!!!! Oh God yesss. mmmmahhhgh, harder... yesss harder...and deeper...please push deeper, I want all of you to love me...........Ohooooo......." Tad started humping his behind against me faster and harder, sceaming and whimpering into my ear with passionate delight. His arms holding on to me for dear life, scratching and clawing my back, rubbing his soft boyishly smooth chest into me, setting me on fire with the heat of his body. He loved the way I held on to his own sex, and pushed himself through my hand, again and again, as I kept up my stroking, pulling, and teasing, all up and down his sweet shaft and cupping his soft testicles, massaging them into my hand. "Oh, God , yesss Tad, oh I can feel you clamping down on me eeeach...eeach ttimee...ohhhch time you slide down on me with that sweet, slippery behind of yours.. Ahhhh...sooo hot, so hott....mmmmm can't last much longer... love you,love you,love you,love you,love you,love youuuu........Ahhhhhrgrhhhhhhh." That was all he needed to hear. Knowing that he had me at the gates of heaven itself drove him on like a boy possessed. "Oh Sammmm...I love you sooooo... give me your love now... please, don't hold back, not from me, not from meeee...Ahhhhh. Please finish...Ohhhh god finish inside me and make me your love forever." From deep within him came the strength to lock on to my penis and rock, clamping on and squeezing until I imagined it would break off. Tad had no intntion of letting me go until he was done wringing me dry. God, he was too much for me, too much. His insides were so hot and tight it wasn't long before I knew I was going to lose it all inside him. Oh... how I wanted it not ever to end. To remain throughout time, locked into an eternel embrace, naked and holding my darling angels soft, sweet body. But suddenly, the end was near. Sensing this by the movements of my body and my breathing, my darling spurred me onward. "Ohhhh yessss. Give it to meee, Sammm,Uhnnmmmm. COME ON....COME ON...YESSS, YESSSSSS.....OHHHH HOLD ME TIGHT....NOW...NOW...NOW...NOW...AHHHHHHHHHH.LOVVVVVVVVVEEE YOUUUUUU." As he screamed, his own lust overtook him as well, throwing his head back, eyes squeezed shut. I rocked and shuddered as my world exploded with his in a firey blast, that had me leaving my seed deep inside the insides of Tad's anus. Wave after wave of earth shattering ecstacy overcame the both of us and at that moment in time, Tad and I became one being, forever sealing our love in earth shattering proportions. As Tad squeezed and pumped me of all the love I could possably leave inside him, so to did my sweet love give up his love to me, as all his sweet seed shot out between us and into my hand and into my lap. As our passions subsided, little by little, we both could feel our hearts beat against our chests as one. Never, after this time did I feel I was a seperate person again. Forever, until I die, this boy, this, soft, blond haired, sweet tasting angel, would forever be part of me. Without him I would cease to exist.Without him, I did not want to exist. Slowly we fought to regain control of our ragged breathing. Still holding each other as tightly as before, neither of us wanting to let go of the sweet warmth created between our bodies. After a moment or two, I lifted my hand, still dripping of Tad's boy juice, up to my nose and inhaled the pungent smell of him. Sticking my tongue out, I tasted of my lovers sweetness. Never in my short life, had I ever been as happy and at peace than I was at this moment with this beautiful naked boy in my arms. With our noses and cheeks still together we shared kiss after sweet kiss, not ever satisfied and needing to taste each other again and again. After quite a long time of just holding, cuddling, and kissing, we finally tried to open our eyes. Dear lord, to look into those sweet eyes is the best reward to my senses, sending deep shivers through my entire being. Lovely, beautiful, sensuous, and soothing. Something about his eyes had always held me a willing prisoner, for all of my life. Finally, there came time to share words between us, as Tad broke the silence. "Don't you ever forget, Samuel Hedge." "Forget what?"I asked. "YOU BELONG TO ME!!!" said Tad,while dropping the smile and seriously looking me in the eyes. No reply by me was needed, I felt no need to reply because it was true, I did belong to Tad, mind, heart, & soul. Tad unlocked his ankles and I lay back on the blankets with Tad slowly disengaging himself from his impalement, and stretching out next to me, wrapping his arm around me and cuddleing his head under my arm. The other blanket was within my reach and I managed to get it over the both of us. Tad was perfectly willing to lie , protected by my arms in our warm little nest, as I lay back to catch my breath and stare up at the full moon, the only witness to our sweet love making. It had to be close to dawn as my eyes opened again. It took me a moment, but I realized that Tad and I had fallen asleep on the balcony. The morning sky was just starting to brighten up the balcony and Tad was sound asleep, arms and legs, warmly wrapped around mine, head on my chest, breathing contentedly. I didn't have the heart to wake him, not just yet anyway. Slowly, with my free hand, I played with those soft blond locks that surroundded his sweet face. Funny, we had spent the night loving each other as adults, but still, my angel slept like a small child. With his mouth open, he ws drooling on my chest but I didn't care. Slowly I bent my head down and took in the scent of him. From under the blankets, I was rewarded with the heady aroma of little boy sweat and the musky sweetness of our combined sexes, warmed through the night. Sweetly, I kissed his forhead to try and wake him. Slowly, eyes started to flutter and body parts stretched in sleepy awakening. Slowly Tad started to open his eyes. For a second, I could see in his face that he didn't remember where he was. But just as quickly, felt another body under his arms and turned his head to look into my smiling eyes. "Good morning sleepy head." I said. Tad smiled this dreamy little smile at me, closed his eyes again and started kissing my face again. "Tad, we've got to start getting up you know. We're supposed to go to London this morning." "Uhmmmmmm.....NO. I don't want to go. I want to stay right where I am. Naked next to you. Uhmmm....all day." he said sleepily as he stretched out, cat like across my body and lay on top of me, still kissing any part of me he could get those sweet lips on. "Oh God Tad, your starting to get me hard again. I don't think Father would appreciate that." "I'm starting to get YOU hard? Silly boy, what do you think your doing to me?" he said as he started to rub his now hard penis on mine. I was begining to forget all about London, and father and... oh God he was getting to me. Well, after all, it was still early! Still lying on top of me, Tad was happily sucking on my right nipple as I wrapped my arms around his sweet warm body once again. With all of my strength, I pushed Tad onto his back while he still had hold of my neck, kissing my lips and teasing my toungue with his. But I got the better of him, starting to massage his tummy and legs, playing with his navel and rubbing the soft underside nearest his groin. I then massaged up to his velvety smooth thigh from skinny boyish knees, making his behind squirm about the home made bed. Tad was bouncing his hips up towards my massaging hand, hoping I'd get the message and start massaging those sweet, warm privates of his. I had other things in my mind. I had to have something to "eat" this morning. Something, "sweet to eat." I managed to get my head out of his grasp, and disappeared under the covers. "Where are you going, silly boy? Get back here so I can kiss you again." said Tad. But I was now interested in doing some kissinng of my own. I felt his body shiver as I found the soft skin of his belly and teased it with my tongue and my lips. Lord if he were any hotter he'd have burnt off my tongue. As I kissed his body, I drank in the sweet boyish scent of him once again. Slowly I worked my way down his soft groin to the base of his penis. I brought both my arms under his behind and massaged his cheeks while my tongue slowly bathed his hardening boyhood. With my arms holding him, it was difficult for the little devil to squirm about, but he tried, oh God how he tried. I could feel his hands on the back of my head through the blanket and I knew what he needed most. I found the head of his sweet penis and sucked the head into my hot mouth, swirling my tongue around the head, making him start to buck his hips up to try and get all of him into my mouth. For a while, I just teased his head, refusing to allow any more of him into my mouth, while I slowly worked my right index finger into the entrance to his anus. "Ohhh...you area naughty boy, Samuel Hedge...Uhnnngh..yessss, ohhh sooo naughty......ahhhhhhyyyyesss...Oh please, I need you so badly love, take me in........Oh God how I need to feel your lips around me." Well, the truth was that now I was as excited as he and before I knew it, the little devil had seen my hardon on the other side of the blanket, near his head. Suddenly I felt my hips being pulled and my entire penis was engulfed in the hot vacuum of his mouth, sucking on me with wild abandon. Not wanting to be outdone, I plunged my mouth down on his sweet hardness and gave him the ride of his life. It didn't take the two of us long to finish in each others mouths, but I did make sure that it was my love that did first as he bucked his hips into my face, I cold feel his body tense up. By the urgent squeals of passion and love words that came out of his mouth, I knew it was I who had won the race as Tad filled my waiting mouth with a rich creamy breakfast. Then it was my turn as Tad sucked all the love I had to offer right out of me and into his thirsty mouth, swallowing all of me with a wicked smack of his lips. After I had caught my breath, I crawled back up to him and caught my first real breath of air in quite a while. We both just lay there collecting ourselves and staring at each other. Tad leaned up on his elbows and looked at me, again with a sadness on his face. "What's wrong, Tad. Did I do something wrong?" "No, silly, it's just....don't you wonder how I knew that I could put you inside me last night? After all, at our ages, how much are we supposed to know?" The question caught me off guard. I hadn't really thought about it until now, but he was right, how did he know? Finally I had to say to him, what I thought might hurt him. It was a hard thing for me to say since I loved him so, but to be surprised every day with new details about someone I was this close to was not fair. "Tad, every time we're together, I find out a little more about you, but for me, it's not enough. If you love me as you say you do, and if you believe me when I tell you how in love with you, I am, then once and for all I want to know everything. Don't you see that I can help you? But if I am your lover and best friend, you've got to trust me. I've got to know all that makes you sad and troubled. Tad, I've earned the right to know, don't you think?" Tad just stared at me for a few moments, deep in thought. It was then that, as I looked at his face, the cold gray light of the early morning seemed to wash away the warmth of the night. Father had always told me that daylight had a nasty habit of reminding us that reality still existed, and try as we might, there was no total escape. Perhaps the night offered only momentary refuge, but life still had to be faced sooner or later. I reached a hand over and brushed the blond locks out of his eyes as he stared at me. "Tad, whatever is wrong, please, I love you, I'll always love you, let me help you. You're not alone anymore." As I searched his eyes for some indication that he'd heard me, I saw the beginings of the dam begin to spring a leak, as one singular, solitary tear, formed at the corner of his eye and made it's desent to the bottom where it grew to such proportions that it quickly fell off and plopped on the end of his nose. Lord,I loved this boy so much, how it hurt me to have to drag this out of him. But, if I did love him,it was the only way to help him. Suddenly with the creation of one tear, came another, then another, until the tears fell like a sumnmer rain, fast and furious. I gathered Tad up in my arms and held him, rocking him gently back and forth, stroking his hair, the way I had seen mother do it. When the tears subsided, a little voice said, "It was him." "It was who, Tad?" "It was him, he hurt me!" "Tad, who was it? Who hurt you?" "Wi...W....Wwithersp...." "Tad? Are you telling me that Mr. Witherspoon hurt you in some way." "Yes....that's how I knew about putting you in my backside." All at once I felt shamed that I had also hurt him.Tad must have seen the look on my face."No...no Sam, No, sweet Sam" he said, while he covered me in tear stained kisses."Don't think that you hurt me. You could never. I did that. I did that to give myself to you, all of me. I did that because I love you so. Oh Sam, if you'd only believe me" It was I who was crying now. "I believe you sweetheart, my lovely boy. I do. Please go on ." After a minute to catch his breath, Tad told me how one night after his mother had married Witherspoon, after Tad had gone against him with the judge and refused his name, he caught Witherspoon beating his mother. Tad told me how he'd attacked him, but being a small boy, could do nothing. After Witherspoon knocked him down to the ground he raped Tad. "Mother was only half consious, bleeding and severly frightened, cowering in a corner. Her eyes were open, but I don't think she could understand what he'd done. I couldn't do anything because he held me down. Besides, he only did it a little and didn't put that skinny little thing of his in all the way because he'd made a mess, sooner that he'd wanted to. After it was over, he told me that if I told anyone, he'd kill mother, then me." After he'd gotten done telling me this it was quiet. Neither of us said a word. I had been stunned by what I'd heard. I was just a boy. Never yet had I heard anything so frightening as this. To think that my angel, my love with the sweet eyes that made me melt, had endured this indignity already in his short life. I couldn't imagine how he managed to keep from going crazy, with all the pain he'd suffered in his life thus far. He was just a boy....just a boy. "Sam? Samuel...say something. Sam...please." he said as his words gave way to a fresh torrent of salty tears. Again , I took him in my arms, kissed his face and dried his tears. "I love you Tad. I won't let anyone or anything hurt you, ever again, as God is my witness." "You won't tell anyone, will you Sam? He'll kill mother!" "Tad, you've got to let me talk to my father about this." "No...NO NO...HE'LL KILL HER ! HE'LL FIND OUT ABOUT US, AND I'LL LOSE YOU" "Tad, trust me, and please calm down. In the first place, father is an adult and he's the only one I can trust. He's a good man Tad, he'll help you." "But....Sam...he'll find out..about us, what we've been doing." "Are you ashamed of it Thomas Winslow?" Tad grabbed me and wouldn't stop bestowing little kisses on my face, telling me how I was the best and sweetest part of his life. He'd never be embarrassed to be with me. He was just afraid to lose me. "Tad...you won't lose me, I swear. Trust me." I couldn't very well tell Tad the story Father told me of his youth, it might be too much right now, but he had to trust me. Tad looked me deeply in the eyes, melting me again."Sam,I'll follow you to the ends of the earth if you but ask me. So if you ask me to trust you... I..I will, with all my heart and soul, I swear it." By the look in those sweet eyes, I knew my angel was telling me the truth, he would trust me. "Tad, is this it? No more ghosts in the shadows?" Tad started giggling and crying at the same time. "Yes Sam. That's it. That's all in the sordid life of Thomas Winslow. I swear it." I knew Tad well enough by now to see in his face that he was telling me the truth. He just stared at me after making that short speech, waiting for me to say something. As I looked into those sweet eyes, I saw the face of, not only my best friend and lover, but also someone that was crying out for help. He was crying out to me, and as God was my witness, I would not let that cry go unheard. Damn that Witherspoon! It was burning me inside that he should be able to hurt Tad and get away with it. I had to find a way, any way, to make certain he was punished for what he did. If he were here at this moment, I surely would have found a way to kill him. Perhaps there would be a better way. I must find the right time to speak to Father about this, and quickly. How, I thought, can I allow Tad to go back home, to HIM, knowing what I know now? Instead of answering, I simply leaned in and kissed those warm lips. Our eyes closed, and we shared, perhaps, our last kiss of this morning. I put my arms around him and hugged him tightly. "Don't worry Tad, It will all be alright, I swear. Now then, I suggest we get washed and dressed. Wouldn't want the world to catch us here. Not just yet, at any rate." Tad and I cleand up the balcony, and then took our morning bath. The one mistake was taking it together, because we had a devil of a time keeping our hands, and mouths, off one another. I was seriously tempted to forget London entirely. We came out of the bath and put on fresh boxers, when there was a knock at the door. "Yes. who is it?" "Master Samuel, may I have a word with you?" It was Annabelle. "Just a moment." I said while I put on my bathrobe. I wasn't used to having anyone knock at my door until after I was dressed for the day. As I finished tying my bathrobe, Tad hid under the blankets of the cot. When I opened the door, there stood Annabelle with a suit of clothes in her arms. "Good morning master Samuel, I trust all went well during the night?" "Yes Ma'am. What is that your bringing me. I have clothes." "Master Samuel, your father has asked that you put on your very best suit, the nice black one in your closet. This suit in my arms, is one of your old suits that you've grown out of. I just know that it will be a perfect fit on your lovely little friend." It hit me then that she was correct. I hadn't thought of it, but Tad didn't have a clean stitch to wear. "Annabelle, you are a peach. If I were but twenty years older, I'd ask you to marry me." "Oh! heavens, the things you say. Go on with yourself now, both of you. Breakfast in twenty minutes." I took the suit from Annabelle and closed the door."OK, you can come out now scardy cat". I said. Tad threw back the blankets and, from the bed, struck a seductive pose and cooed,"Sure you wouldn't want to join me here and forget breakfast?" "Thomas Winslow! Get dressed this instant." As I threw the suit at him, Tad and I erupted in volumes of boyish laughter. "Get dressed Tad, before I do join you." Tad pouted but we both got ourselves dressed. Before walking out my door, we looked at each other. Tad looked so sweet and handsome in my old suit. I almost made him stay home for fear that someone else would find him attractive. That's just bloody wonderful, I thought. Now I 've got to deal with my own jealousy. As we stood at the door, I put my hand on the knob and Tad grabbed it. I was about to ask him what he thought he was doing, when I looked once more in his eyes. Instinctively we both put our arms around each other and shared one last, sweet, kiss. Without a word, I opened the door and out into the world we went.