Date: Fri, 24 Sep 2004 02:29:58 -0400
From: dwedno smith <dwedno@hotmail.com>
Subject: The Tunnel chapters 21-24

ALL,

Well another week has passed and we are where I have been waiting to be for 
weeks. By the end of the chapters you will understand what I mean... I hope 
everyone enjoys these four chapters. In case anyone is wondering I made a 
mistake when it came to the chapters and I thought this week would only be 
three chapters but I can't add (LOL) anyway a few chapters are quiet long so 
I hope all of you find it interesting. I know by the end someone will be 
asking questions of me. Enjoy reading and once again direct comments to:  
dwedno@hotmail.com



Chapter 21.			A meeting of the minds.



I woke and turned to see what time it was since the room was lit with 
sunlight. 9:30. the clock read. Nice I slept well. I turned and I was alone. 
Guess Shawn was up already and he left without bothering me. Maybe I did 
scare him a little last night. Normally he waits or wakes me somehow. I got 
up threw on some clean clothes and took my morning leak then headed 
downstairs. It smelled like someone ate and sure enough the kitchen was a 
total mess. Dishes all over the table, crumbs and cereal all over the floor 
and spilled milk too! They didn't put one dish in the sink or bother to even 
take the full and overflowing garbage out!  It was definitely meeting time! 
I looked out and no one was there so I went back up and started checking 
rooms. The whole house was empty. Even Trevor was gone and his cot was 
messy. I was just a little upset as I moved dishes and sat to make something 
to eat. At least there was food left. They didn't clean me totally out of 
that. I ate and watched as the clock struck 10 and no one was here yet. I 
thought I told Jon to remind everyone to be home, if they were going out, by 
that time and he said he did. Just then he walked in.

"Where is everyone?"

"I don't know Tommy, geeze this place is a mess! I swear before I left it 
wasn't! I was up early and went out to do stuff and it was neat when I 
left."

"I believe you Jon but there are six other pigs that are going to get the 
riot act read to them when they come home."

Jon went to do something and I sat and waited. Ten, twenty minutes passed. 
No one came back. I was pissed!! I went to the door and outside still didn't 
see any of them. Jon came up behind me and together we searched around and 
finally went to Danny's house. We entered and I yelled for him. Nothing! We 
found him upstairs giving his brother a bath. I walked in on him practically 
scaring the crap out of him.

"Danny why aren't you by my place? Didn't Jon tell you we had a group 
meeting at 10? It's almost 11!"

"Oh yeah I forgot. I'll be over as soon as I finish washing Chris okay?"

"Yeah sure." I mumbled and shut the door as I left.

"This isn't going to be a very good meeting is it?"

"No not after I read them the riot act!"

I went back home and one by one over the next hour they returned to the 
house. I didn't say a word as they came in. Jon told them all to sit and 
wait and by 11:15 everyone including Danny and Chris were now here. I was 
ready to scream now but I looked at Jon and calm as I could I started 
talking. I wouldn't remain calm for long though!

"Boys! Welcome to MY HOUSE!" I started it. "As you can all see if you look 
it over it looks like a bomb hit it! This produced giggles and laughs none 
of which helped my cause. Okay let me put it this way! WHO LIVES HERE? ALL 
OF YOU I THINK! NOW WITH THAT SAID WHO THE FUCK IS GOING TO CLEAN UP THAT 
MESS IN THE KITCHEN? I shouted. This is not your place to mess it is my 
house and now we are going to set some rules. Anyone not liking them can 
leave NOW and don't let the front door hit you in the ass as you exit! They 
were all focused on me now. First off the next time anyone eats you clean 
up!  I am not a maid and neither is Jon! The floor has spilled milk on it 
and crumbs the table has dirty dishes and empty cereal boxes. What the hell 
is that all about? I asked everyone to be here at 10am I didn't care if you 
went out I never care if you do. But now it appears we are losing track of 
what is right and wrong! SO with that said here are the rules. As I said you 
clean up after yourself. Either you do your dish or someone else better make 
some type of deal and share the duties. Beds don't need to be made but your 
rooms need to be clean. No laundry on the floor! Pick up your shit stained 
underwear and put them some place. Each room has a hamper. If you don't want 
to make the bed at least straighten it out some. Laundry will need to be 
done now by someone. I am tired of cleaning other people's clothes and I am 
not going to anymore because I feel like I am being taken advantage of. I 
will gladly show anyone how to do it. I don't care who does the choirs 
around here if you all chip in it won't take long at all! There are now 
eight of us and that means this place needs to be vacuumed and cleaned just 
about every day. If we don't it will only turn into a total mess and I will 
not live that way. As other things come to mind I will fill you all in but 
for now that is it. Now I want all of you to get off your asses and clean 
this whole place from top to bottom and after I see it looking good you're 
all welcome to go out again and do anything you want. Finally, if we have 
this talk again I will be giving out punishments to all of you. As I said if 
you don't like it there is the door! Leave! Try to live alone or at your own 
house without food or anything for a while! See how it works! I don't mind I 
will have my house back and it will stay clean with me and Jon here alone. 
Boy's your all welcome here but not if you're going to leave it like this 
and think I am going to clean it. I am tired of seeing the cap off the 
toothpaste and toothbrushes all over. So please take a second and do what is 
right. The only other thing is I am going food shopping later since we are 
low on stuff again. I would like some help but not everyone has to go. Also 
I might go to the mall later or tomorrow to have some fun. If this place 
isn't spotless none of you will go other then me and Jon. So please don't 
bust my balls and make me hand out punishments because there will be sore 
asses! Trust me I will make your ass hurt with a few smacks on it. A few of 
you already know! NOW get this place cleaned up. Vacuum, dishes, bedrooms 
and so on! Any questions?"

Trevor raises his hand.

"Yes Trevor?"

"Are you always this mean and loud?"

"Ask the others Trevor. They will tell exactly how lenient I am. Now go! All 
of you I want this place cleaned up!"

I turned to Jon and he snickered at me.

"You think it's funny how about I put you over my knee?"

He got up really close to me.

"Ohhhh goodie, when?"

"You are such a wise ass."

"And you lover it!"

"No I love you!"

I grabbed him and brought him close and gave him a big wet one on the lips.

"Now let's watch these pigs and see if they clean as well as they mess."

Jon took upstairs and I took down and without a word everyone, all six of 
them did exactly what I wanted. Cleaned every inch of my house. Even Chris 
helped Danny. Almost an hour later after vacuuming and washing and taking 
out garbage it was almost spotless. Billy did the downstairs bathroom and it 
smelled of pine and Joey did upstairs and it smelled the same. I got asked a 
few questions by them and they both did excellent jobs as the others cleaned 
and did the kitchen and living room. It really looked good again. Other then 
a few spots on the rug it was once again clean and I was once again happy.

"Can we go out now? Asked Joey and Billy?"

"As soon as the others are done. So you can help them with the last few 
things or sit and wait, both of you did excellent jobs in the bathrooms!"

"Thanks."

They both said and they actually went to help the others finish up. I guess 
I got my point across! Shawn hasn't said a word to me since last night I 
think I might have to have a talk with him and let him know I wasn't 
serious. It was just about 1pm and the house was clean. I told them all they 
could go out and if they wanted they could come shopping with me or anything 
as long as they were home by 5pm. Shawn headed for the door as I grabbed him 
gently by the arm.

"Can I talk to you?"

"I guess so."

I walked him into a private spot since the house was practically empty now 
it wasn't hard.

"What's up with you cutie? You haven't said a word to me today and you 
weren't in bed this morning when I woke up, you mad at me?"

"No. Can I go now?"

"Yeah sure go on."

This wasn't like him. He always gave me a smile or hug or both and I hadn't 
gotten either today. He must be mad or thought I was mad last night. 
Something is bugging him. He went outside and other then Jon the house was 
empty again but super clean now. Let's see how long it lasts this time.

"You coming shopping with me?"

"I was hoping you would ask."

I smiled at him.

"Come on let's go tear ass up and down the isles for a bit and then get some 
food in this place."

We headed out to the truck and were off to the market to get groceries. I 
started the truck and got the attention of a few of them and they waved as I 
started to leave. I stopped as Trevor ran over to the truck.

"What's up kid?"

"You going food shopping now?"

"Yes, why?"

"I just wanted to know where you were going and who do I see if there is a 
problem."

"Shawn has a cell and so does Billy. If you have any problems have them call 
me I have my cell on otherwise go have some fun and we will be back in about 
90 minutes tell the others so they can be here to help carry in the 
groceries okay?"

"Sure, no problem. Can you get me a few things?"

"Sure what do you want?"

He rattled off about five things that he said he hadn't had in a while and 
Jon wrote them down and we took off.

"Where are we going Tommy?"

"To the other shopping center, this one should have a lot of choices we are 
almost out of a few things where we normally go so I decided to try some 
where new today."

"Oh okay."

Off we went. I started the short ride to the market and Jon scooted over to 
me on the seat. I didn't say anything yet since I was curious about what he 
had on his mind. He was inches away and just rested his head on my shoulder 
as I drove. I reached over and put my hand on his leg. He placed his hand on 
mine and gave mine a squeeze and we just held hands till we got there. I 
stopped the truck and broke our hand lock to throw the truck into park and 
turned and gave him a kiss on his sweet smelling head.

"I love you Tommy, he said as he attempted to hug me. You know that don't 
you?"

"Yeah, of course I know and I love you too."

I felt like something was wrong it sounded like it in his voice too.

"What's wrong sweetie?"

"Oh nothing really I just feel a little sad today it was mom's birthday and 
I have been thinking about her a lot since I woke up."

I reached over put my arm around him and gave him a big hug.

"I'm sorry you can't enjoy it with her but I am so glad you're here with me 
to remember her with me."

I gave him another kiss on his sweet smelling mop and then he looked up at 
me. We stared at each other eye to eye for a few seconds. He is still 
awesomely cute! As a tear rolled down his cheek I reached for it brushing it 
away and I moved in and gave his adorable lips a kiss. We embraced and I 
just held him for a bit. Finally I whispered in his ear that I loved him 
again and we broke our hold. I gave him another small peck on his forehead 
and opened my door. He did the same and came around to meet me on my side of 
the truck. We walked to the front door of the market with our arms around 
one another. We shopped and made small talk as we both pushed a cart and 
filled it with what we both thought we needed. Nothing else was said about 
his mom but I could still see the sadness in his face. I imagine on my 
parent's and brothers birthdays I will probably feel the same loss as he is 
today. We were almost done and both carts were full now as we were going 
down the last isle. The shelves were full here since no one had shopped here 
since the comet and we had plenty to choose from outside of the spoiled 
stuff of course. We were done and we both started to bag our carts in 
silence. It was almost a deafening silence. I finished before him and he 
wasn't watching me so I went over to him and came up behind him and put my 
arms around him gently giving him a hug from behind. He stopped what he was 
doing to enjoy the attention I was giving him for a second. He turned to me 
and again I stared at him as we had another awkward moment. I held out my 
hands as he came into my arms and I just held him for a bit. This time there 
were no tears just a tight grip that he gave me to let me know on some level 
that he was glad I was there, so I thought. We broke the hold and I helped 
him finish bagging his cart and we headed out to the truck, loaded it and he 
went to get in.

"I'll be right back Jon. I forgot something."

"Okay, I'll wait here."

I headed back inside and I went to the card section to see if I could find 
something to give to him. I searched the cards and finally found something 
to almost fit the situation we were in, like that was totally possible. The 
new `sorry you were annihilated' greeting cards weren't out just yet so the 
one I picked will have to do. I grabbed a pen signed it with a lot of X and 
O's and sealed it. I got to the truck and he had a concerned look on his 
face.

"What took so long? You don't have anything with you."

I handed him the card and he opened it and began to read the words that 
hallmark printed in it. They weren't exact to fit the occasion but I thought 
they would get my point across. He looked at me after he read it and tried 
to crack a smile.

"Thanks."

"Your welcome."

Those words in the card were special, not exactly what I wanted to say but 
they will stay between us and no one else will know of them but us. Unless 
Jon decides to share the card this is our private moment and not even the 
readers get to see this small part of my fiction.

I quickly headed home so nothing would spoil in the heat of the day and when 
I got there I was surprised to see four bodies waiting for us. Danny, Chris, 
Shawn and Trevor were out side the house. Whether on purpose or not they 
came over as we pulled up. I was met by Trevor who asked about his list.

"Yes Trevor it's all there and when we get inside you can have them."

"Thanks."

He said as I handed him two bags of groceries to carry in. With four extra 
sets of hands it took two trips to get everything inside. I looked at Shawn 
as he took a heavy bag and headed in but he didn't look back. I stayed in 
and started to put the stuff away as Jon kept order outside. I guess I got 
my point across to four of them since they stayed to help inside too and 
although I couldn't get Shawn to say anything he still did his share of the 
work. As soon as we were done I told then all they could go and thanked them 
as they left. When it was just Jon and I he spoke what was on his mind.

"What happened between you and Shawn?"

"I wish I knew Jon."

"Well I mean he didn't say a word to you even though he helped out and 
normally you have to pull him off you."

"I know we kinda had a talk last night and I think he took it wrong. I was 
kinda kidding and he thought I was serious."

"What happened, I mean if I can ask?"

"Sure you can. I don't have any major secrets from you, just stuff that 
should stay between me and the others as individuals you know.."

"Yeah I understand."

"I was almost asleep and he was in my bed like usual but I mean he hasn't a 
lot lately since I am trying to get him to use his so you and I can... well 
you know share my bed more. But anyway I was almost asleep and he wakes me 
to ask me if I think Trevor is cute. Jon started to snicker which was good 
since he hadn't had much to giggle about today. So I told him to go back to 
sleep before I beat him and send him to his room. I guess he took me 
seriously because I didn't show any joking when I said it. I was too tired 
and I just shot off my mouth to him. So I guess he took it wrong and has 
been pissed off at me since. I fell right asleep after that so I don't even 
know if he stayed the night or went right to his room. But anyway. that's 
what happened."

"That's not too bad but I guess he might have been hurt by it or scared 
Tommy. Kids are weird and sometimes the stupidest things can seem wrong."

"Yeah I know but I love him and I wasn't trying to hurt him at all. But the 
scared part that is bothering me now."

"Tommy you don't have to explain a thing to me. I know about your feelings 
for him and me. You're a very loving person and he should know that by now. 
If he doesn't it's his loss. You have given him a lot of attention, 
sometimes enough to make me jealous."

"I'm sorry Jon, I didn't mean to."

"No, no Tom. I didn't mean it that way, I mean he should know by now that 
you care enough about him not to take your words so seriously but he is only 
9 so I guess we don't know what is going through his head."

"Once again you make sense out of something Jonathan. I knew I kept you 
around for something other then that awesome face and cute ass!"

"Awww shucks!"

"Okay now its getting sappy we have to stop before the readers get ill!"

"But anyway maybe you should have a talk with him about it."

"Yeah I suppose so but he needs to cool off a bit more first."

"As long as he needs to cool off and is not worried about your words as a 
threat."

"Yeah since you brought that up now I am worried that could be it."

"When I see him I'll mention it in a way he won't know Tom. I'll see if I 
can get anything from him."

"Okay just be careful not to let him know you know or he might get 
embarrassed on top of everything else and then I will totally lose him."

"I understand."

"I'm gonna go do a few things in my room Jon."

"Okay Tommy I am gonna go over to my house for a bit. I need to feel the 
love in it some today."

"Okay see ya later."

I'm sure he needs to go do his thing alone for a bit, whether it's laying on 
his parents bed or just being alone for a good cry or whatever... everyone 
needs to be alone sometimes. I headed upstairs and went to my room. I 
entered and shut my door and went to lay down for a bit. I was bored and a 
little tired from the shopping and aggravation of this mornings mess. I 
quickly dozed off and was awakened sometime later by the slamming of the 
front door of the house. It was hard enough to shake me awake and I got up 
to see who was trying to knock down my house. I walked to the top of the 
steps and yelled down.

"Who the hell slammed the door so hard?"

No answer so I headed down. The only person I could see was Shawn. I was a 
bit surprised by his actions.

"Shawn was that you that just came in like that?"

"Yeah so?"

Wow. The attitude? Complete anger. I just turned and headed back upstairs 
without saying a word to him. I got to my room and kinda slammed my door 
shut to get a little point back across and lay back on my bed. I just 
thought about things for a bit and dozed back off to sleep eventually. I 
woke again and it was getting dark outside. I must have slept well this 
time. I looked and it was nearly 8pm. It will be interesting to see who is 
here and not here. I got up and headed to the bathroom to wash my face and 
then I headed downstairs.

"Hey sleepy head, how ya feel?"

"Tired, as I yawned. Who's here Jon?"

"Everyone but Shawn Tommy I was getting worried and if you didn't wake soon 
I was gonna come get you."

"It's dark and Shawn isn't home? That is scary. He hasn't been out alone 
after dark since his attack. Now I am worried."

"Yeah me too, where do you think he went?"

"I wish I knew. But what about you? How are you now that you had some time 
to yourself?"

"Oh I'm okay I did need to be alone for a bit though. I feel better now and 
I still have you so if I get to feeling bad again you will be the first to 
know."

"Kewl!"

"So what are you going to do about Shawn?"

"Go out and look for him I guess."

"He must be mad Tommy I didn't think after his attack that he would ever go 
out after dark alone again,"

"I know Jon it might be a good thing but right now I doubt it is."

"Yeah, so let's go."

"Ya know what, I think I know where he is so let me do this alone okay?"

"Sure Tom I understand. Take your cell just incase okay?"

"Sure. I'll call if anything comes up if not only call in an emergency."

"Right, got ya."

I headed out towards his house where I hoped he was. I couldn't think of 
anywhere else he would go especially after dark. As I approached the lights 
were on and it figured he wouldn't be alone and in the dark. Poor thing he 
really must be upset. I just don't get it though I really didn't say 
anything that bad. But maybe he just took it wrong. I approached the house 
and peaked in a window, this wasn't going to be easy. No matter how I 
approach it I am going to scare him. I walked up and knocked on the front 
door. I heard scrambling inside but not towards the door. I knocked again 
and yelled that it was me and told him to come to the door. Silence.

"Please Shawn, open the door it's only me, Tommy I want to talk to you."

I waited a few minutes and finally gave up. I turned and headed back to my 
place. I got about fifty feet away and he opened the door or I thought I 
heard something so I stopped and turned towards his house. The door was 
opened. I could only tell because I saw light but not him. I headed back 
towards his house and climbed back up the steps to the open door.

"Shawn?"

"Shawn??"

"I'm in here. You coming in or not?"

I entered and he was standing in the door way to his parent's bedroom.

"Why did you come here Tommy you didn't seem like you wanted me last night 
why are you here now?"

"Ya know Shawn that's a very good question and I don't have an answer, but 
for you I have this to say. I don't have a clue what has gotten into you. 
You have been miserable and nasty all day and then you take off tonight and 
did not tell a soul where you are going so besides worrying us to death you 
just decided to go on your own. So that's fine you stay here alone all night 
all by your self. I am going back home!"

I turned and left slamming the door and walked away. I was mad, I was pretty 
darn mad! I heard his door open again but he didn't say anything. I wasn't 
sure how I wanted this to go but for now this will have to do. Maybe a night 
alone will change his wise ass attitude. I didn't look I just kept walking.  
When I was sure I was out of site I stopped and turned to look back. His 
door was still opened and even though I couldn't see much I could see light 
coming from the doorway. Finally it shut and I turned and went home. I got 
back to the house and opened the door and slammed it shut getting everyone's 
attention. I didn't stop or say anything I just headed up to my room and 
slammed my door shut too. A few minutes later there was a knock on it. I 
knew it was Jon. No one else would have the balls to bother me.

"Come on in Jon."

"How'd' ja know it was me?

"Who else would bother to come up besides you?"

"No one I guess."

"Exactly."

"So I guess you found him?"

"Yup, he was in his house and acting stupid. Not much to say so I left him 
there."

"Aren't you worried about something happening to him?"

"Yes and no. Yes because I love the little dumb ass and no because we are 
probably alone and no one is around to get him or really bother any of us. 
It's been almost two months now and the only contact we have had with anyone 
is Trevor and a car that zoomed by one day a while ago. So I am pretty sure 
he will be fine in a locked house where no one really knows he is there in 
the first place. I mean his lights will probably burn all night but still I 
am sure there are lights on all over the place if we went and looked."

"Yeah I guess your right but still you have to..."

"Honesty Jon not to interrupt you but I don't have to do anything. He left 
on his own and you know the rules. No one has to stay only if they want to 
and it appears that there are six others that either want to be here or 
don't have the balls to leave for some reason. I don't care why Jon I like 
the kids and love the thoughts of a full house of people even these guys. I 
would rather have just you but if they want to stay for whatever reason its 
fine."

"Okay Tommy I get your point."

He came over by me and sat next to me on the bed.

"I still love you though."

"I love you too my handsome prince."

I reached out to grab him and pull him to me. We both fell back on my bed 
and I rolled towards him. We both lay looking at one another on my bed. It 
had been a while since we had time like this in my bed. Not for anything but 
just time to relax and enjoy one another. I reached out to him and he 
brought his hands to mine. We locked fingers one hand at a time. And we just 
stayed that way for a bit till our arms grew tired. I let go first and then 
he moved closer to me.

"I like this Tom."

"Yeah me too, quiet, alone and you!"

He smiled.

"How did I ever get so lucky?"

"Huh, what do you mean?"

"Well, you and I like this, alone, no worries or cares outside of course of 
losing our families. I got to keep you. I got the one thing I always wanted 
when everyone was around and I couldn't have then. The boy I had the biggest 
crush on. The one with the cute face, awesome fucking smile and body that 
kills when you look at it. Not to mention the mop of hair on his head that 
makes me jealous every time I see it. Because it always looks great. I can't 
think if a time when your hair doesn't just fall into place. I mean unless 
it's wet in the shower. You have the world's most perfect hair and you're 
all mine!"

He was blushing with all the things I was saying about him.

"No!" he said.

"No?"

"Yeah, no! You're all mine!" He said.

I got closer to him and looked him in those gorgeous brown eyes. He didn't 
say a thing and I just stared at his cuteness for a while.

"I think I could look at you forever! Don't ever get old on me! I love you 
just the way you are."

"Does that mean you won't love me when I get old and yucky?"

"Yucky?"

"I don't think you can get yucky. But if you do or when you do get old I 
will still love you from here to here and then some."

As I pointed from his rag mop hair to his balls.

"From where to where?"

I could tell he was egging me on now to touch him. I showed him again this 
time with contact.

"From here.. As I touched his hair. to here." As I touched his shorts at his 
balls.

"Do that again?"

"What touch your hair?"

"Come on, you know!"

I reached for his balls. Just gently touching the outside of his shorts.

"This?"

"Yeah!" he softly squeaked out.

Again my hand brushed him there.

"Awesome! He said. That still sends chills up my spine when you do that. No 
one else has ever touched me there and when you do it just makes me jump 
like a shock you get from the carpet."

I touched him again but this time a little closer then last time. I wasn't 
looking at what I was doing I was looking into his eyes as he was to me. I 
moved in closer to him not that we were that far apart to begin with. Slowly 
I crept closer till we were inches apart. I could feel his breath as he 
exhaled. Our lips almost touching. Finally they met and even though we had 
done this so often before it felt new tonight. I didn't know why nor did I 
care why. It was electric. We held lips as I moved my body closer to him and 
we tried to become one. We fit together like hands into gloves as we broke 
our electrifying kiss and made it into a hug. Both of us lying on my bed 
together feeling good and feeling each other. We made out for a bit and I 
wanted to get a little more serious but as I went to break us apart to start 
to strip the doorbell rang. I looked at Jon and we both said it together.

"Shawn!"

Ruined the whole mood! We both got up and headed down to see who it 
obviously was. It wasn't too late about 11pm now but the door was locked and 
everyone was asleep or in their room when we entered the hall and looked 
downstairs. No one got the door fast enough so the bell sounded again. Now 
bedroom doors were opening as we sped up our flight to the noisy bell before 
it chimed a third time. Trevor was closest but I knew he wasn't going to 
answer any bell at this hour or ever, so it was up to Jon and me to get it. 
I was a little surprised everyone had turned in already but I suppose they 
were bored or had private ideas and followed whatever they chose. I unlocked 
it and opened it up to find Shawn standing there with tears rolling down his 
cheeks. I turned to a rather disappointed Jon and he knew right off as he 
rolled his eyes that I needed to have time with Shawn.

"Sorry sweetie."

Was all I managed to get out before he turned and headed back up to his room 
mumbling something about another night without getting any. Well that's what 
I think he was saying. I turned my focus back on our late night sex crasher.

"Well you coming in or you going to heat the house from outside?"

"Am I welcomed?" He said in a teary voice.

"Of course you are. Come in, please."

He walked past me and I shut the door and turned to face him. With tears 
still streaming down his face he ran to me and buried his face in my shirt 
and started crying enough to make Trevor moan something stupid that I really 
didn't hear. But I thought I knew what he said anyway. I picked him up and 
carried him up to my room shutting the door behind. I sat him on the bed and 
backed off and knelt on the floor in front of him.

"Why all the tears Shawn?"

"Because you don't love me anymore."

"Why would you ever think that?"

"You came over and you didn't make me come with you after I left so I 
guessed you didn't want me around anymore, then when you walked away without 
saying anything I got really upset and I, I, just stood there hoping you 
would come back for me but you didn't."

"That doesn't mean I don't love you, it means you left and I gave you the 
space you wanted by leaving. I told you just like the others you're welcomed 
here anytime but I can not and will not force anyone to stay. So when you 
left I wasn't about to make you come back it's my rule and not fair to force 
anyone!"

"So you do want me here and you still love me Tommy like before?"

"Of course I do. That never changed and never will! Why would you think 
different?"

"Because you yelled at me the other night when I was in your bed and told me 
that you would beat me and send me to my room."

"First off I wasn't serious and you should know that by now and second you 
woke me to ask me that question which was not only silly it wasn't called 
for at that hour of the night. That's why I said what I did."

"So you weren't mad?"

"I was tired and half asleep. I wasn't mad I just wanted to go to sleep, 
what do you do when someone bothers you when you are sleeping or almost 
asleep?"

"I dunno? I guess I get mad."

"Well there you go! You said it yourself didn't you?"

"Yes I guess so."

"So was I mad? NO just tired, understand?"

"Yes sir. I'm sorry."

"For what?"

"Being bad and slamming the door when I came in this afternoon."

"Why did you slam the door then?"

"I don't know, I guess I was mad that you were mad at me."

"Oh I see. And that made you feel better?"

"No, not really?"

"Then you slammed the door just because you felt like it?"

"I guess so."

"So I guess I can smack your bare ass for being bad then?"

"If you have to sir?"

He was now overdoing the sir thing and it was getting irritating.

"I don't have to but if you don't stop calling me sir I am going to."

"Sorry si...  sorry."

"Okay so you feel all right now?"

"A little better, I guess."

"Good then why don't you go to your room and turn in?"

"What about my smacks?"

I took him by the arm and brought him close to me.

"Shawn, I love you like a brother. I don't want to hurt you or smack you. 
You are a cute, good boy who got confused today and I am not going to punish 
you because you are 9 and misunderstood me. So go to your bedroom and get 
some sleep okay?"

"O-kay!"

He gave me a big hug and kiss on the cheek and then I gave him a pat on the 
ass as he took off to his room. Now I just have to find Jon and hope he 
isn't too upset. I went to his door and knocked softly.

"Come in Tommy."

"Sorry. You okay?"

"You done babysitting Shawn?"

"Yup and he is back in his room. So. you coming back to mine?"

"I don't know. you think we can finish what we started?"

"You won't know unless you come back, will you?"

"All I know is my dick was just getting hard when that doorbell rang."

"Yeah well mine was too so don't feel bad. So let's go try again?"

"Yeah but what if the phone rings?"

"Don't be a wise ass; you know I hate it when you do that."

He giggled as we left his room to go to mine. I smacked his ass as we talked 
there.

"Hey! Do it again!"

He turned and smirked at me.

"Quiet smart ass or you won't get blown tonight!"

"Yes sir, yes sir, I will be good I want my dicky sucked!!"

"I bet you do smart ass!"

I don't know if we can get back to where we were but I am gonna try really 
HARD to. We entered my room and I shut and locked the door. The horny boys 
club is now in session. Jon went to get on the bed and I grabbed him 
stopping him.

"What?"

"You're still dressed."

"So? What's the big deal?"

"New rule right now for tonight, no clothes allowed on or in that bed."

He smiled as he got the point of my madness.

"Oh okay I got it now so you want me to take off my clothes?"

"No. I want to do that."

"Kewl, do I get to do you?"

I looked at him. He didn't get what he said. I just let it go.

"Sure. I wanted to make up for the Shawn thing before and this is how I am 
going to try to do it."

"Fine by me."

I smiled at him as I reached for his shirt pulling it over his head leaving 
him bare-chested with the new beginnings of chest hairs the only thing left 
on his upper half. I reached out to play with the few small hairs that were 
there.

"Stop it! That tickles."

He yipped at me as he covered over his chest.

"Why, I want to play with your little chest pubies."

"That's no fair it tickles too much."

"Okay I'll stop. Lift your arms for me."

"Why?"

"Just do it. please?"

He slowly lifted both arms above his head as I moved closer to him.

"What are you doing?"

"I wanted to see how much pit hair you have. Most kids get that before chest 
hair and I was curious."

With that I expected him to quickly lower his arms out of embarrassment or 
shame but he seemed comfortable with my explanation and asked me what I 
thought of what he had.

"It's sweet Jon. Your filling in nicely just like below. You are gonna be 
hairy soon enough."

"Like you?"

"I guess so. It's not like I'm an expert or anything I just wanted to see 
all of you tonight for a change."

That made him a little red and he lowered his arms folding them across his 
chest as some level of discomfort set in.

"I'm sorry Jon. I didn't mean to make you think I was examining you like a 
piece of meat. I just love your body; it's perfect in so many ways and 
exciting to be able to see a teen body mature."

"Didn't you see yourself?"

"Yeah I did but it's not the same."

"Why not Tommy?"

"Because Jon when it's your own body I think you are so used to seeing it 
that it doesn't keep you interested after a while. I don't really know if 
it's just me or any other guys that feel the same way. I just think it's so 
awesome to see another boy's chest and body develop. I wasn't trying to make 
you an experiment or anything I just really think its kewl to see boys 
naked. Don't you?"

"Yeah I did. I mean you just made it sound so dirty."

"Huh?"

"I don't know how to explain it but you turned it into something freaky all 
of a sudden."

"I did? Gee I'm sorry I didn't mean to."

"Just forget it Tom it's getting too weird now talking about it."

"Okay then what do you want to do?"

"Get back to you stripping me. That was exciting."

"Okay. Sorry we got side tracked. Can I do one thing first?"

"Sure what is it?"

"Well you might think it's messed up but I trust you and would only do it 
with you."

"You're scaring me again Tommy."

"Okay forget it then."

I could tell he was a little freaked now and I wondered if we could get back 
to the excitement we experienced before Shawn came home. I know I was damn 
soft now and I didn't see any bulges in his shorts. Even with him standing 
half naked it seemed like the feeling was gone now. I went over and sat on 
the edge of the bed.

"What's wrong Tommy?"

"I think all this freaking stuff has spoiled the mood."

"Awww please don't tell me that, please! I was looking forward to getting my 
cock sucked tonight."

"I'm sorry Jon. I freaked you out and then you stopped me from doing what I 
wanted and I kinda lost what little bit of hornyness I had left."

"Shit! That's just fucking great!"

He grabbed his shirt off my bed and stormed out of my room slamming the door 
open against the wall as he left as I stood there feeling empty and foolish 
with my hands on my hips and my ego deflated. Now I was upset too. I grabbed 
the keys and took off slamming the house door as I stormed out. Mostly mad 
at myself for fucking this whole thing up. I got into my truck started the 
engine and screeched the tires as I left. I assumed by now everyone was up 
but I didn't care. I drove for miles before the night air calmed me enough 
to slow down but now I was lost. I didn't pay attention to where I was 
going. Fuck! It's too dark to figure it out now I might as well sleep in the 
truck off somewhere on the side of the road. This was sure to freak them all 
out; I didn't even bring my cell with me. I mean its not like I can't pick a 
phone in any house and call, let them stew a little without me. I was tired 
now anyway so I pulled over, locked my doors and reclined my seat. Before I 
knew it was fast asleep.



Chapter 22.			Trying to keep things from coming apart.



I woke with the morning sun blinding me as I opened my eyes. I slept so well 
I forgot where I was until I moved and felt my body stiffen up from laying 
in the seat all night. Then it hit me as hard as the sun did that I was 
still lost. I sat up to get the sun out of my face. I was thirsty and had to 
piss rather badly. I scoped the area and it appeared to be empty of people 
like most of the area now is so I opened my door got out whipped out my cock 
and pissed right on the ground in front of me. It felt so good too. I shook 
off the last droplet and looked around for a place to get a drink as I 
tucked myself back into my shorts. I was in unfamiliar territory and wasn't 
sure where to go for a drink. I looked down the road and it appeared like a 
store was about half a block away so I took a walk. It felt weird walking 
around an unknown neighborhood but I didn't feel scared, just alone. I knew 
I needed to get back home but I didn't feel I had to rush just yet and I was 
sure I would find my way back one way or another. My balls itched for some 
reason maybe it was lack of sex after wanting it for so long last night or 
maybe I just needed a shower. I feel bad for Jon but I suppose my fetish got 
the best of me and freaked both of us into this. All I wanted was to smell 
his arm pits but now I guess he would have totally lost it if I told him 
that. Everyone has something fucked up about themselves I guess this is my 
thing. Like having little boys around and seeing them naked and wanting to 
fuck them isn't wild enough.

I was now standing in front of some type of country store. I cracked open 
the door and looked around. It was quiet inside except for the refrigerator 
compressors that were running to keep the cold stuff cold. I looked for milk 
but most of it was probably spoiled now. It has been over two weeks now 
since we stopped getting deliveries.  Another way to say how long it's been 
since the comet hit. This milk was older then that for some reason. I guess 
they were expecting a delivery soon. Who really cares it doesn't matter. I 
am just thinking about stupid things to keep my thoughts off my family back 
home probably wondering where I disappeared to last night. I grabbed one 
anyway and opened it. I took a smell and it didn't smell badly. I didn't 
want to take a chance so I took a coke and twisted off the top to play it 
safe. Ahhhhh, ice cold! At least that was working. Soda would probably be 
good for a while yet. Can't wait for powdered milk! Yippie I thought to 
myself. It was still early so I doubt many of them are even up yet. Should I 
head back or let them wonder where I am. if they even know I am gone. I 
think I'll stay away a little longer. I'm gonna find the mall and walk it 
for a bit. At least I have my gun so I will feel somewhat secure while I am 
in there. I walked back to the truck fired it up and took off looking for 
something familiar. After driving for twenty minutes mostly in circles I 
finally saw a sign for the parkway and I felt better. I got on the parkway 
and headed towards the mall. It didn't take long to get there and feel 
comfortable once again back in my own territory. I got inside and grabbed 
myself an ice cream cone not caring if it was 9am or not, one of the few 
nice things of being in charge. Now no one can tell me what I can eat and 
when I can eat it. I finished my cone and found some candy at the attached 
food store where we normally shop. I stuffed myself on that and walked the 
mall looking for something to occupy my mind. I found a few things and 
before I knew it time was closing in on noon. I decided the `game' was over 
and it was time to get back and see if I was missed at all. I headed out to 
the truck wondering how much of a disaster the house would be in when I got 
back. I actually got mad thinking that they might make the house back into a 
pig pen since I was away. As I got closer I just hoped I was missed and as I 
turned onto our block I was wondering if anyone even noticed I was gone. 
Well I got my answer. Before I could even get out of the truck the whole 
gang was out the door heading for me. All but Jon so it seemed. I was 
bombarded with questions about where I went and I told them all to let me 
out of the truck first and I will answer them.

"Okay guys I needed time alone and I am sorry if anyone missed me but I had 
to go away for a little bit and get my wits about me. I am okay now."

Shawn came up and hugged my very hard while I was telling them the rest of 
my story how I got lost and so on. I held tightly onto him and let the 
others know I was thankful that they cared I was gone. We headed into the 
house I was expecting a mess and Shawn was still attached to my side. But to 
my amazement my words stuck from yesterdays bitch session. Not one crumb or 
dish in the kitchen and other then a few small things it was nice and neat. 
I turned to them and they were standing there as if they knew what I was 
about to say.

"Thank you for this boys it's nice to see that you heard me."

"Yeah we heard you Tommy. Said Joey. I know I won't let you down again and I 
am sure the others feel the same."

"Yeah, said Billy. We thought you left because of us and when Jon left this 
morning we felt alone and had a meeting. The rest of us sat and talked about 
what you said yesterday."

"I thought when you left last night you weren't coming back. Added Danny. I 
know I missed you this morning and I don't want to see you ever leave us 
again."

"Thanks Dan that's sweet." I said to him as I rubbed his head.

"Thank you, all of you guys. It's nice to be missed. I was starting to feel 
used and abused a little."

"Yeah we know, Joey said. We really had a good talk this morning Tommy. When 
Jon left without saying a word and you were gone I know I got scared. If you 
and Jon aren't around we don't have anyone."

"But he is your age Joey I mean what is a year?"

"That's not it Tommy he is your..." his voice trailed off. I walked over to 
him.

"Its okay Joe I know what you mean and its sweet of you to understand it. 
Okay you guys I see that I can trust you again so that is a good feeling now 
don't let me down anymore. I know you are all kids and so am I, kids do 
thing that are wrong and things get messy but I am sorry guys we have to 
grown up a little quicker now. So again I thank all of you for this. How 
about a little later we will all go to the mall? How's that as a present for 
all of you doing so well?"

A collective cheer went up with my words.

"Okay let me get a few things done and then in a bit we will pile in my 
truck and go."

They all went to do whatever and Danny came over and gave me a hug and then 
Shawn who hasn't left my side since I got home put his arm back around me 
again and was clinging to me like I was going to leave him again.

"Okay Shawnie I need to do a few things so go find something to do for a bit 
and I will see you shortly."

"Okay Tommy you are going to look for Jon aren't you?"

"Yeah smart guy I am. I need to see how he is feeling."

Off I went knowing exactly where my lover/cutie was at. I walked to his 
house and I turned the handle to his front door and it was unlocked. I 
opened it and called his name. I got no response. So I went in and called 
him again. Still nothing. I headed to his room. I checked that door and it 
was locked. Obviously he was here.

"Jonathan please open the door!" I yelled.

I jiggled the door handle a bit and waited some and finally I heard 
footsteps and the lock unclick. I opened the door and he was back on his bed 
facing away from me. I walked over and sat next to him on the edge of the 
bed. I reached for him touching him gently on the shoulder. He coldly pulled 
away while barking something I couldn't understand at me that sounded like 
leave me alone.

"Come on Jon! I didn't come all the way over here so I could leave without 
you and if you didn't want me here you never would have opened the door for 
me!"

Again I reached for his shoulder. This time he didn't pull away. Softly I 
turned him towards me and could see by the red eyes and fresh tear stained 
cheeks that he had been crying. I got closer, I wanted to comfort him but he 
stubbornly turned back away. I wasn't sure if he was mad or just being 
unreasonable now. I started rubbing my hand up and down his arm.

"Stop it! I'm still mad at you and you're not allowed to try to make me feel 
better yet."

"Yet? Oh well I'll leave you alone then to be by yourself and miserable. You 
don't need my help with that you seem to be doing a fine job of that alone!"

I got up and headed for the door.

"No! You can't leave either!"

It looks like we are going to play a little `pity me' game.

"Okay then if I can't touch you and I am not allowed to leave what other 
choices do I have?"

"None!" he barked.

"Well that's just not acceptable. I am leaving. Bye!"

I turned and headed out his bedroom door. Like a whiny three year old he 
started yelling for me to come back in a squeaky childish voice. I hesitated 
for a bit and wondered how he would handle a little more rejection if you 
count my dealing with Shawn and making him wait. Then I turned around and 
decided I had enough.

"Jonathan Thomas McAlister I am done playing this baby game with you! You're 
thirteen and I am not going to play three year old games with you! So either 
you turn over and talk to me or I am leaving! I wouldn't put up with this 
from Shawn and he is nine why should I put up with it from you?"

"Because I love you and mean more to you then he does!"

"Really? Not the way you're showing it, not when you act three years old! So 
come find me when you grow up!"

"Wait Tommy, please. I give! Please come sit by me I don't want you to go."

"NO!"

"Tommy!"

I walked back to his bed and sat. I thought for a few seconds if I should 
make a move again or wait to see what he was going to do. then once again I 
took hold of his shoulder and turned him towards me. I went in to kiss his 
sweet lips and this time he let me. When I broke our embrace and opened my 
eyes tears were running down his cheeks again.

"Please don't do that to me again Tommy. I love you too much and I don't 
want you leaving like you did last night. I didn't know if I would see you 
again or if you were hurt because you didn't come home all night. I was so 
worried about you and I blamed myself all night long. I finally fell asleep 
around 5am and I got up at 8am and left so none of them would see me cry 
over this."

"And you think that a few tears and an apology will make me spending the 
night lost and in my truck cause all my anger to go away?"

He didn't answer but he was listening.

"Jon I fell in love with you because of whom you are not much else mattered 
and still doesn't. But the way you're acting it makes me wonder if I made 
the right decision. I don't have a choice with the kids. sometimes I have to 
be stern and I have to be a baby sitter because they are too young to know 
it all just yet. It's something I don't take easy or really want 
responsibility of. Sometimes I would rather just go find my own little piece 
of land and live alone without having to worry about the six other kids 
under my roof. Notice I didn't include you in that number because your 
usually responsible enough to help me rather then hinder me and lately some 
of them have been looking to you too which should make you feel good. Now 
this shit might change all that in their eyes Jon I don't know. What I do 
know is when I got back there were six kids worried sick about me and they 
came running to my truck when I pulled up. You were no where to be found and 
even though I knew we were fighting I expected you might be there. They were 
thankful I was back and I felt needed. That is why I won't leave. I love 
Shawn and he needs a little extra help since he was raped. You were too but 
you seem to be over it now which makes me proud of you but he is nine and 
isn't quite as mature as you and he needs me more then you sometimes. I am 
sorry for that but it's how we live and how things are now. We are lucky in 
so many ways and fucked in just as many other ways. What I am saying with 
all this crap is simple. I need you in the same ways that they need me, 
especially as a lead thirteen year old not as a crying thirteen year old 
that I have to handle like this. I don't ever think I could stop caring or 
loving you because I need you as much as I think you need me but your 
jealousy of Shawn makes it tough. Now I need you to start thinking with this 
head (as I pointed to his brain) instead of this one (as I grabbed gently on 
his shorts) and help me with these boys instead of being one of them! Can 
you do that?"

"Yes."

"Can you also understand that I am kind of a parent too and need to stop at 
the worst times to baby these kids sometimes too?"

"I guess."

"Good because I didn't like stopping and losing my hard on last night 
anymore then you did but I have to take care of the boys, there is no one 
else Jon. It's me, you and them. So far that is all there is."

He looked at me like I was actually making some sense. He has been quiet and 
totally focused on me so far and I feel like I am just babbling away. Maybe 
I am making some sense after all.

"What do you have to say?"

"I love you and I am sorry if I am jealous?"

"Jon?"

"I don't know what to tell you Tommy. It's hard for me too for the reasons 
you said. My ass still hurts sometimes and I don't make a big fuss of it and 
I am still scared because of it too. Maybe I have grown up a little but I am 
still a kid and its taking me longer then it has taken you to but your 
almost seventeen, I am barely thirteen Tommy I AM still a kid."

"Okay Jon I think we beat this thing up enough now lets just put it behind 
us and try to get back to where we were yesterday when I was looking at you 
naked on my bed and we had growing cocks okay?"

He smiled and a snot bubble shot out his nose as he laughed. That made him 
laugh even harder and it was good to see that again.

"Do you want me to check your butt Jon? I know it's been a while but if it's 
still hurting you I should take a look and make sure you're healing 
properly."

"I don't care Tom, you can look at anything you want you know that. I don't 
have any worries when it comes to you seeing me naked."

"Well let me see then so we can know your getting better. I mean geeze I 
want a piece of that soon."

He looked surprised when I said that.

"Don't you want me to be able to make you happy in all ways?"

"Yeah, of course."

"Then why are you looking so shocked when I said that I wanted your butt 
soon?"

"I don't know it sounded weird I guess."

"Oh okay. Let's see how you're healing."

He dropped his shorts and got up on his bed then spread his cheeks for me so 
I could see his hole. I got in close and looked for any signs of damage but 
other then still being a little red it seemed to be healing better then I 
ever thought it would when I saw it the first time after that monster 
attacked him. Plus it smelled like he hadn't showered in a while too which I 
am going to ask him about now.

"Okay I am done its healing nicely but Jon when did you shower last?"

"I dunno two days ago I think."

"Two days? No wonder your ass smells like shit. Nothing personal Jon but if 
you have the balls to let me look at you that close don't you think you 
should be clean? Plus you have to keep that clean so it can heal properly!"

He got all embarrassed and red.

"I think this is different Jon. I wouldn't just say that to anyone and I am 
sorry if I embarrassed you but its you and I here no one else. If I can't 
tell you that then who can? Besides do you think that if we did have any 
type of sex last night and I went to suck you and found you dirty it would 
have been a good thing?"

"I guess not."

"Damn right! I wouldn't expect you to suck me off if I hadn't showered at 
least a few hours before that. It's just wrong unless it's something you 
happened to be into."

I leaned over and took a sniff of his armpit. It wasn't nearly as bad I 
guess he doesn't stink all over but I don't need to get into this.

"What was that for?"

"I wanted to see if you smell all over."

"That's rude!"

"No rude was letting me stick my face into a smelly ass like you just did."

"Well I thought you wouldn't care since you love me I figured you would 
accept whatever you found."

"I understand you but it's not the same Jon. Everyone needs to be clean when 
your having something done like that it's just the right thing to do."

"Sorry." He bowed his head.

"Don't be sorry, it's okay to be a little dirty sometimes we all are but Jon 
it's me not the whole world with my nose up your ass. Don't worry too much 
about it. Besides it's not every day someone has to stick their face in your 
ass so really it's your choice if you bathe or not but it is the proper 
thing to do."

"I know!  Can we please change the subject I am embarrassed enough thanks to 
you and your cleanliness!"

"Okay, okay I got you. How about we both shower together here now?"

"I'd like that a lot, would you wash me too?"

"Hell yeah!"

"Good then maybe we can finish what we started in your bedroom without 
anyone coming in,"

"Yeah but we should lock the doors first because any of them could come 
looking for us and we don't need that scene."

"You go lock the doors; I'll go start the shower, okay?"

"Sure. Be right back!"

I started the shower and before I could get the temperature right he was 
breathing down my neck.

"That was quick. Your must be in a hurry to get your squirt on."

"Huh?"

"Cum!"

"Oh well that is part of it the other part is I just want to get clean after 
you made me feel so dirty before."

"I'm sorry Jon. I guess my words came out wrong. I was just trying to make 
you understand that unless you're looking for some kinky kind of fun not too 
many people like dirt or smell. Sometimes it turns me on Jon but mostly it's 
gross especially if it gets too bad. I'm not trying to make you feel like 
shit or anything like that but I am sure growing up your parents taught you 
about all this so there is no need for me to go into it anymore. I didn't 
want to or mean to hurt you I just want to make sure what your parents 
instilled in you stays there now that they are gone, even if it is a shower. 
Now come on sweetie speaking of showers ours is ready."

I stripped down to my underwear and then turned to him.

"Do the same Jon."

He did as I asked.

"Okay now let's have some fun."

I got in, he watched.

"You coming?"

"Like this?"

"Trust me I have a plan."

"Ohhhh, sorry I got ya now."

He stepped in with his underwear on and we both took turns under the shower 
head. I actually like his shower he has that massage thing and it comes off 
and stuff so I have plans there too. This is gonna be fun and interesting if 
he goes along with it. We both were wet now and it was time to start to 
play. Hopefully the hot water will last. I took the shower head down and 
started wetting Jon. I motioned for him to turn around and I started wetting 
his underwear. They easily became see thru and then I told him to face front 
as I wet the front making it easy to see his package. Now I handed the hose 
to him and he did the same to me. He still seemed puzzled at what I had in 
mind and although it wasn't a brainstorm it was going to be better then a 
normal shower would be.

"Okay now if it starts to get to be too much just tell me and I will stop. 
Trust me?"

"Yes so far."

Wonderful answer. I wanted to do something with the water jets but I can't 
risk hurting his ass hole so we'll have to try something else. I turned the 
head to massage and the jets started to spit out water a bit faster.

"Turn around."

He did as I asked as I focused the streams of water on his ass.

"That feels weird but good."

"Good just don't open your ass cheeks I don't want to hurt you there."

"Okay. Don't worry I have done this before Tommy I know how it works and I 
have done a lot more then just this. I just haven't had someone do it to me 
and that's the difference so far. It feels a lot better."

How interesting he's one step ahead so far.

"Yeah but have you done this in your underwear?"

"No that I haven't tried and I have to admit it's different."

"Good or bad?"

"Neither really just different."

"What else have you done with this?"

"Well some of its embarrassing so I don't really want to share it but I have 
tried to use it to make me cum."

"Did it work?"

"No the water got cold before I got close enough but it helped get me 
close."

"Kewl! I gotta try that sometime!"

"It feels great Tommy it really does. Why don't you try it now?"

I lowered my soaked underwear and with Jon watching I turned the jet stream 
of water on my already semi hard cock and he was right. As it hit my sweet 
spot the shock flew right up my cock to my head and I was in heaven. But I 
could see what he meant it wasn't enough to get you all the way just a 
tease. But he will do that for me.

"You ready to help finish me off?"

"Hell yeah!"

"Okay well I can't get much harder then I am so be my guest start sucking my 
cock."

With that I dropped the water massager and fell against the wall as he 
grabbed hold of my hard cock and started stroking it.

"Oh Jon that feels so good, take a finger and stick it in my ass too."

I pulled apart my ass cheeks so he could get in without having to stop 
stroking me and before I knew it he had a finger half way in me and was now 
sucking me. It felt awesome. I haven't cum in two days and no doubt I needed 
to blow my load badly before we got started. The build up and his hot mouth 
made me close in a few seconds and the finger in my ass was just too much. I 
was ready now!

"Jon I am ready now it's the only warn.warning I can give you! Stick your 
finger all the way in and watch out I am gonna blow!"

My breathing got heavy and my balls felt like they were gonna explode. He 
shoved his finger in all the way, rather roughly and it did the job. I felt 
the ecstasy as my ball felt like they were exploding! I don't know how much 
he took but all I know is I began to blast load after load into his mouth 
before I felt him pull off me and out of my ass. I let out a loud moan as I 
reached my climax I grabbed for my cock to milk the rest of my orgasm out of 
it and whatever cum was left in it too. I could feel him holding my legs to 
steady me as the extremeness of the orgasm flooded my head with emotion and 
joy combined with one of the best feelings a guy can have. The unexplainable 
feeling that goes with cumming. Oh my God it was amazing!  Finally it was 
over and I opened my eyes and looked down to see a smiling cute boy rapped 
around my legs.

"Hey sweetie that was totally fucking awesome! Thanks for helping me get 
it."

"It's the least I can do after yesterday. Let me tell you Tommy I have seen 
and felt you cum many times but never have I heard you moan and look so 
relaxed before. More then you did this time. Man I never thought you were 
gonna stop cumming. I swear I got 4 shots in my mouth before the next 3 hit 
me on my body. You must have been in another world man!"

"I was! I can only remember one other time that was better then this one and 
that was the first time I ever came. I was scared and filled with feelings I 
never had before and all that rolled into the warm jets of cum that flew up 
onto my chest and chin. It was totally awesome that time! I will never 
forget it. This time was almost as good! Thanks for keeping me from falling 
you did good!"

"Now please help me up Tommy my legs are almost numb."

"OH, sorry Jon, please grab my hand."

I pulled him up and helped steady him.

"I think there is enough warm water to get you thru yours too Jon. You 
ready?"

"Yeah but what was the purpose of wearing our underwear?"

"I just wanted to try something different but I really can't do much because 
you need to wash first, sorry pal so why don't you soap up and I'll do your 
back and then I will give you what you gave me."

He dropped his draws and soaped his pits then his ass and finally his crotch 
and then let the soap fall as he rubbed the soap into his skin and washed 
each area little by little. I did his back as he turned and even gently went 
down his ass crack which caused him to jump and let out a small moan.

"Oh man that felt good it's been a while since you did that."

"I would do more but I am afraid I might hurt you and I would feel terrible 
if I did."

"That didn't hurt that's for sure and I think you should do it again right 
now!"

I did as I was told and ran my now soapy wet finger down his butt crack 
again.

"Don't stop!"

I reached back and repeatedly started running my finger up and down his ass 
crack. I did this for about a minute or so and he seemed to be off somewhere 
enjoying it. His eyes were closed and cock rock hard as I seemed to be 
getting him off by the crack of his ass. I had to steady him with my free 
hand so he didn't move or fall. Finally I took his cock into my mouth since 
it has been staring me in the face for a while now and started to suck him 
while I played the ass game. I heard his head thump against the wall of the 
shower and immediately began to taste precum as it flowed freely out of him. 
I guess he was as needy as I was after waiting so long and by the sounds of 
his breathing I knew it would be just a matter of time before he was gonna 
blow. I slide in a little more risking that I could hurt him but figuring he 
was healed enough to be okay. After a few strokes on both his cock and in 
between his cheeks he was ready. I heard the signs. His breathing was 
getting quicker and the usual moans he gave out before time were sure 
telling me he was there. I sped up a little with my lips and he let fire his 
first jet of love seed into my mouth. More and more followed as he filled me 
up. I stopped all contact other then holding him steady as he let the last 
bit of cum dribble off his cock onto my leg. I wanted to get up since I was 
cramping but I didn't want to ruin the end of his orgasm. Finally as the 
tingle ran through my legs to my feet he came back from never, never land 
and smiled.

"Help me up I am almost numb down here."

He did as I stumbled to my feet restarting some circulation back to them. I 
moved in for a kiss pinning him to the wall as I took some of his cum and 
gave it back to him from my lips. I hadn't bothered to clean my face and it 
ran down my chin some. After that we cleaned off as the water was cooling we 
rinsed for the last time and got out. I dried off first and was heading out 
to get my shorts back on.

"You coming, I want to get back before they wonder where I am again."

"Yeah give me a second I will come back with you okay?"

He hurried and dressed and we walked back together. Shawn greeted me at the 
door as I opened it and the rest of them were playing games or scattered 
around the house doing things. It was kinda hot today so no one appeared to 
be interested in outdoor activities so far.

"I forgot to tell you. I promised them a trip to the mall so we should go 
load up now since it seems like everyone is here. Are you up to going?"

"Yeah I'm okay as long as you're with me and you have your gun I will be 
fine."

I grabbed him and brought him up close to me.

"I can be this close or as far away as you want when we get there you tell 
me."

He just smiled as I let go of him and I let it go at that. I turned my 
attention the group.

"Okay guys as I promised if you are all ready we can load up and head to the 
mall."

Cheers went up even before I could get the words out. They knew it was time 
for some fun. One by one they headed for the door as I stood and waited for 
the house to empty so I could lock the door. It was Jon and myself as he 
left I followed and locked up. I decided to take the scenic tour which was a 
little more round about way of getting there just to be able to enjoy 
everyone's company a little longer.

"Everyone comfy?"

I got various answers and one no. Jon turned around from the front seat to 
see who had the problem.

"There should be plenty of room for everyone. This thing holds eight adults. 
Who's complaining Jon?"

"I'll give you one guess."

"Trevor?"

"Good guess."

"Trevor, what's wrong?"

"I'm all alone all the way back here."

"And your point?"

The truck grew quiet as everyone waited for his answer. He was all alone on 
one seat that can sit three. He should be happy not bitching.

"I am all alone back here."

I just looked at Jon.

"So? What could possibly be wrong with that?" I said as I looked at him thru 
the rear view mirror.

"It's lonely back here."

I thought to myself. if you weren't such a baby maybe someone might want to 
sit with you. I was just about to say something that might have pissed him 
off but probably set the whole truck laughing when Danny spoke out.

"I'll sit with him Tommy. Just let's go before I throw him out for you."

Again I looked at Jon and he was laughing. I was too but I was laughing at 
his comment while I think Jon was laughing at just how stupid his complaint 
was. With everyone set I started the truck and we took off for the mall. I 
drove past a few places that I never took note of before and knew I would 
have to go back when I was alone of with Jon sometime. One was a sex shop 
and I started to wonder what goodies might be in there and the other was a 
hobby or game store. I know we can get plenty of games for the guys to play 
in there. First we'll see what they find at the mall.

"Everyone have their cells?"

"I got mine said Shawn."

"Yes Tom, me too." added Billy.

I knew Jon had his even if he didn't need it.

"Good then maybe we can find a few more so everyone can have one."

Those without liked that as I expected so we will have to find more cell 
phones now.
No big deal, it's not like we have to pay for them. It didn't take long to 
get there and as we pulled up I was watching Jon for any kind of reaction. 
Although he didn't show any out loud I could see his knuckles turning white 
on his left hand as he held tightly to the seat, I parked and the others got 
out. He turned to open the door and I grabbed him to stop him.

"What?"

"Shut the door."

He shut it.

"What about the others?"

"They will wait. I want to be sure you can do this."

"Yeah I can as long as you are with me. Besides I have been back before 
there isn't anything new about this time."

"Okay I just want to be sure, that's all."

"Yeah. I'm good, let's go."

We got out and joined the others who waited patiently for us.

"What was that all about? Asked Billy.

"Nothing!" answered Shawn rather harshly.

It was apparent Shawn hasn't forgotten what happened here. I caught up to a 
now puzzled or should I say dumbfounded Billy and in a quiet voice whispered 
a few words into his ear as a reminder and he quickly got the point as the 
light came on in his head.

"Oh, sorry." He said.

"Come on lets go." I added as we headed to the mall door.

I kept an eye on Jon as we approached he didn't seem to be in a hurry as we 
got closer to the door. The others entered without incident. Finally it was 
his turn to enter. I was behind him as he stalled at the door. I waited 
behind him in silence and as I was about to say something he opened the door 
and slowly entered.  The guys were all smiling as he came in and he joined 
them in a smile. He got encouraging pats on the back as he walked up to 
them. I followed with a hug from behind as I put my arm around him softly 
giving him a half nelson and kiss on the back of his head before letting go 
and starting to walk into the mall.

"Come on we are going the other way."

We all stuck together as we browsed at first and then as time passed some 
wanted to go off on their own and as long as a cell phone and partner was 
involved I was okay with it. Billy and Joey went one way and took Trevor 
with them and I went on with just Jon as Shawn in a surprising move paired 
up with Danny and his brother to walk into a gaming store. We walked a bit 
more and I wanted to check out some clothes so Jon came in with me. I found 
a nice pair of shorts and stripped off mine and tried on the new ones right 
on the spot. I looked at Jon as I did this and he just shook his head and 
laughed.

"Your gonna get in trouble if the lady comes out and sees you in your 
boxers."

"Oh yeah you're right."

I said to him as I dropped them and stood there totally naked for a second.

"How's this, any better?"

I added as I grabbed my cock and waved it at him.

"Only you would strip naked in a store and grab hold of yourself."

"Who cares? No one is here but us!"

I pulled my boxers back up and tried on the shorts. They fit well and I 
decided to keep them. I found a few more I liked and grabbed them before we 
left to move on to the next store.

"Aren't you taking those?" as he pointed to the shorts I left on the floor.

"Nah. I am gonna leave them here as a reminder that I shopped in here for 
the next time we come back."

"Okay it's up to you not me but you might want to at least grab the truck 
keys."

"Oh yeah, thanks I am such a dumb ass when I shop."

"Where is the gun Tommy?"

"I didn't take it this time. I am pretty sure we are safe in here."

"You didn't take it?"

He said in a scared shrill.

"Relax, I have this. I said as I reached into my sock and pulled out a small 
pistol. I was just teasing you. I don't fully trust this place now or ever."

"But that's so small Tommy how would it protect anyone?"

"Very simple worry wart the bullets in here are so small that when they 
enter the body they bounce around inside and rip things up inside causing 
almost as much if not more damage then bigger bullets."

"How do you know that?"

"Remember my father was an expert Jon, he taught me a lot about bullets and 
what certain ones do. I haven't forgotten a thing he said. I can still hear 
his voice in my head. It's about all I have left now."

"You have those memories, his guns and the pictures in your room Tommy you 
will never forget."

"Yeah. its okay I know I won't but it still sucks big time!"

We walked the mall and picked up stuff we wanted. Eventually we found a cart 
and loaded it with what we were carrying which was a relief since it was 
starting to get heavy. We ran into Billy and Joey then shortly after into 
Danny his brother and Shawn. We were all one group again.

"How about some ice cream?"

My favorite line that always went along with a loud cheer and a quick bolt 
to the store right afterwards. We headed over and I started scooping. 
Shortly there after everyone had full cones or cups as we enjoyed our sweet 
treats. As always most of the afternoon flew by and I was almost ready to 
go. I am sure the others who now had loaded up on their own sweets still 
wanted to shop more but I didn't. I decided to stay a little more but as a 
group only.

"Okay guys we will stay a bit longer but as a group."

After a bit of arguing we decided to head to the other end of the mall and 
check out what was there. This place is huge and I haven't been on that side 
yet so I was a little cautious about it and I brought the gun from my sock 
to my waste band when no one was watching. I felt a bit safer knowing I 
wouldn't have to reach far to get it. There were a bunch of new stores all 
waiting for us to raid and it didn't take long to get into each one and see 
more good stuff that I wanted. Before long we were loading more junk into 
the cart and without a doubt it was a successful shopping trip. Finally I 
was ready as were the others. Fatigue was starting to show on all of us now 
after walking practically the whole mall over about a five hour trek. I was 
glad to get back to the truck and sit. I let them load the back with all our 
junk and as soon as everyone was seated I started it up and we headed home.

"Everyone satisfied?"

Seemed to be. I didn't hear any complaints. The ride home was made into a 
detour as we discussed dinner and stopped at a sandwich hut. All of us were 
hungry now and I figured we might as well pig out before going home. The 
food that was refrigerated was good to eat and there was plenty to choose 
from in this store so each kid picked what they wanted and we all sat with 
food and soda made small talk and ate. As it began getting dark we piled 
back in and headed home. Just as we got on our block and pulled up it began 
to rain. We all grabbed something and made it inside in one trip as the rain 
began to get heavy rather fast. As I shut the door a loud clap of thunder 
shook the house and made the lights blink. I heard the kids all clamor as 
the sound from the thunder quieted. Apparently none of them liked the fact 
that we almost lost power. I know I didn't.

"I'm scared Danny!" said his brother.

"It will be okay Chris we are all safe in here and Tommy is here to protect 
us."

Gee make me feel good and bad at the same time why doesn't he. I am just as 
concerned if not worried too, just not about the thunder more about losing 
power. I don't know what we would do if we did.

The power stayed on but the storm continued to make noise outside and let us 
know it wasn't going anywhere for a while. The rain became heavy which was 
nothing new for a summer storm here but we had been lucky so far with the 
weather since the comet hit we haven't had that much bad weather. This was 
the worst so far as nightfall combined with the dark clouds from the storm 
created an eerie feeling as the rain continued to pound the house and 
occasionally hit the windows as it was swept along by gusty winds. In some 
ways it was awesome but it was also a bit scary too as I said. I took a seat 
on the couch and decided to ride out the storm in the living room rather 
then in my bedroom knowing that I wouldn't get much privacy as long as it 
was bad outside. It didn't take long for the couch to fill up with kids as 
Shawn sat on one side and Danny on the other with his brother in his lap. 
Jon was close by but these storms didn't really bother him as much as the 
others.

Another loud crack of thunder shook the house and echoed outside; for a 
second time the lights blinked but stayed on again I started to worry about 
what we would do if we lost power. The wind was growing pretty strong now as 
I wondered about how bad it was going to get, if it might be a tornado or 
just a bad storm. My main worry was if we lost power because lines went down 
we were totally fucked. There was no one to fix them. I was hoping that it 
wouldn't get worse but it wasn't getting any better. It began to hail as I 
heard the big thumps hit the roof and siding of the house. I wondered how 
much damage the truck would have not that there was anything I could do 
either way. The hail was brief which I was thankful for but I now had all of 
them either hanging on me or within a few feet of me including Jon which was 
a surprise. Shawn was on one side with Trevor next to him and Danny had his 
brother in his lap with Billy next to him. On the floor next to me was Joey 
on one side and Jon on the other. All eight of us were together almost in 
one another's lap as we waited for the storm to end. It had been a while 
since I could remember one this bad. More thunder and lightning outside lite 
up the now almost dark sky and flashed inside the house as I watched thru 
the living room window. I was waiting for someone to start to panic but so 
far they have all behaved. No one has said anything and I could almost swear 
I hear someone's heart beating in their chest. After about ten to fifteen 
minutes of solid heavy rain and lightning it began to calm. I took a deep 
breath as the rain was letting up some and knew we survived a pretty good 
storm this time. A few more claps of thunder and flashes and it grew quiet 
outside. The once full couch was now slowly emptying as the panic was ending 
in the house. Before long the couch was empty of everyone but Shawn and me. 
I didn't feel like getting up and it appeared Shawn wasn't going to leave me 
that easily either. I lay on the now empty couch and Shawn joined me. I was 
tired but he decided I was going to stay awake for now with or without my 
choice in the matter as he lay almost on me. I figured if I couldn't sleep 
at least I could have some fun. I began to rub him. First on his back and 
then down lower and lower. Finally I reached his ass and he didn't seem to 
mind one bit. I slid a hand inside his shorts and groped his cheeks and then 
ran a finger between his cheeks. There were others around which made it 
interesting but no one could see where my hand was because of the position 
we were in. the idea of getting caught made it all the more fun not that 
anyone could or would even say anything based on how things are in the first 
place. I would think the only one who might comment would be Trevor. I 
didn't even see him in my line of vision.

Focusing back on Shawn I now slide my hand in a bit farther and my finger in 
too. As I found his hole he jumped and I pulled away remembering the rape 
and not wanting to hurt him. I whispered sorry to him.

"Its okay Tommy you didn't hurt me I am almost healed. I jumped because you 
hit my hole and it felt weird. You can do it again I am fine with it."

I went back inside his cheeks and again found his butt hole. It was warm and 
felt a little weird almost like he hasn't washed but I didn't want to think 
about that I was having fun and I can always wash. I looked around to make 
sure we still weren't being watched and then with my free hand I reached 
around for just a second and felt to see if he was hard. He was rock hard. I 
focused back on his ass and started running my finger over his hole. He 
began to breathe a bit heavier as I rubbed my finger over and around it 
steadily but carefully making sure I didn't hurt any spot that might still 
be healing. Someone called my name causing me to jump and immediately pull 
my hand away and out of his shorts. The fun was over for now. I heard him 
sigh but I sat up to see who wanted me. It was Jon.

"What's up Jon?" I said with a touch of anger in my voice.

"Nothing. I just wanted to see if you were still awake."

"Yes I am."

He went about his business after that. I knew what he was doing. He wanted 
to bust me because he knew me and probably thought I was doing something I 
shouldn't be doing. Well at least in the living room. I whispered to Shawn 
to go up to my room and I would follow. I wanted a drink of water first. He 
got up and adjusted his cock so I guess no one would know he had a hard-on 
and I went to get water while he went upstairs. Jon was in the kitchen.

"That wasn't necessary you know!"

"What?" As he played innocent on me.

"Yelling to me when you didn't want anything."

"Oh that. Well I knew you were up to something over there and I felt like 
busting your balls."

"I'll remember that next time you're doing something."

I turned and walked out with my water. I was a little steamed and he must 
have got the point as he yelled sorry to my back as I headed upstairs. I got 
to the top of the steps as he called me. I stopped and turned around looking 
at him at the bottom of the steps.

"What is it Jon?"

"Honestly Tommy I am sorry I didn't mean to ruin that for you."

I turned without saying anything.

"Tommy!"

Again I turned back at him.

"I mean it. I really am sorry."

"Okay Jon I got it I forgive you."

"Thanks. He said. It won't happen again."

He walked away after that and I headed to my room. I entered it to find 
Shawn sitting on my bed waiting for me. I put down my cup of water.

"What happened out there?"

"Nothing, don't worry about it okay?"

"But I heard you and Jon yelling about something."

"Its all right Shawn, we just had a disagreement while I was in the 
kitchen."

"I hope everything is okay Tommy I don't want to cause any problems between 
you two."

"Okay look I am going to explain this to you so you understand."

I sat next to him on the bed.

"First, Jon and I will not always agree on things neither will you and I but 
that's what happens when people live together. Things get loud and messy 
sometimes, Second, Jon knows where he belongs in my life and he is very 
important to me. I reached out and took hold of his hand. As do you. I love 
both of you and he is. well he is my closest thirteen year old friend and 
you are my closest nine year old friend. He knows this and now you know too 
so there will be no more problems when it comes to what we do together or 
what I do with him okay?"

He shook his head yes.

"So that leaves one question that I have for you."

"What's that Tommy?"

"Did you enjoy what was happening on the couch downstairs or not?"

He smiled.

"I might be nine but I'm not stupid. Yes I enjoyed it and yes I want more 
too but I want you and Jon to be together too."

"We will smart guy, when we need to be just like when I need to be with you, 
like right now. So it's okay if I share you with Jon sometimes?"

"Sure I like that a lot as long as Jon does."

"Jon will be fine with that."

I let go of his hand and patted the pillow behind us. He immediately lay 
down on the bed facing me. I got up and moved to the other side of the bed 
and got on it next to him. I got up close to him and without either of us 
saying a word I took up right where we left off downstairs on the couch. I 
slid one hand right down his shorts and found his ass crack. Immediately I 
took a finger and slid it between his cheeks and ran it up and down them.

"That feels so good Tommy."

I ran my finger up and down the entire length of his ass and he seemed to 
almost whirr like a cat in heat the whole time. I went in a little deeper 
and again ran the same route between his cheeks. As I did on the couch I 
reached around front and checked and sure enough he was rock hard just like 
before. I pulled my hand from his shorts causing him to turn towards me. I 
sat up and looked at his little tent jut from his shorts.

"That just won't do!"

"Huh?" he said.

I pointed to the tent.

"That isn't going to work trapped inside like that."

"Ohhhh."

I took hold of his shorts and tugged them down and off freeing his sweet 
manhood and allowing it to snap back and stand straight up at attention.

"Now that is much better." I said.

He giggled.

"Okay back down on your side like you were."

He got back down on his side and I was now staring at the cute little butt 
that I was playing with under the shorts before. Now I had no restrictions. 
Again I took my finger and stuck it between his cute cheeks and began to run 
it up and down his butt crack from top to bottom. Occasionally I would slip 
down between his legs and give his nut sack a little tickle causing him to 
jump or gasp. I stopped sat up and looked over him to get another look at 
his sweet cocklet that was still rock hard. He would grab at it every so 
often but just for a second. Finally I was tired of just playing with his 
ass and decided it was time to move on to more. I rolled him onto his back 
and got between his legs. I lifted one and he followed with the other 
leaning them both against my shoulders and giving me total access to him. I 
now had access to his stiff member, tight little nut sack and the lower part 
of his ass. I looked into his lovable face and he was beaming a smile at me 
as I took my hand and once again started by sliding it between his cheeks 
and running it up and over his sack to his hard cock. I started massaging it 
between my thumb and index finger and his eyes immediately closed. I 
continued to play with it slowly stroking it from head to his body with just 
my two fingers. I took my other hand and started running my finger up and 
down his ass crack with it but deeper then before almost touching his hole 
each time I passed over it. Any fear of hurting him was now gone since he 
wasn't complaining about it at all. I sped up both knowing he couldn't last 
much longer by the expression on his face. I knew he wouldn't be able to cum 
but I knew he would have some type of orgasm if I kept doing this. A few 
more strokes up and down his ass crack and strokes on his little love tool 
and he was there. He took a deep breath and let it out in a gasp as his eyes 
tightly shut and his hands grabbed the bed spread on either side of him 
tightly. I stopped touching his ass and stroked him a few more times before 
his eyes opened briefly as if to say I could stop now. I did just watching 
his cocklet quiver as some kind of dry orgasm apparent flooded his senses 
with that overwhelming feeling we all get as the juices normally flow. I 
just took it all in knowing I caused this cute boy to get something that 
would one day cause him to shoot wad after wad of cum all over the place. I 
let his legs down to the bed slowly as his eyes opened and a mile wide grin 
came across his face. He sat up and gave me a huge smothering type of hug 
followed by a kiss on the cheek afterwards. Then he quietly spoke to me. He 
was still glowing from the excitement he just experienced.

"I don't know much about what you just did to me but I have to tell you 
Tommy if this is what is going to happen every time I am really gonna enjoy 
it a lot!"

"Yeah Shawn if its anything like what I get then I would have to say yes you 
are going to enjoy it a whole lot, especially if you get someone that means 
a lot to you to do it to you."

"I already do." He immediately said back to me.

I smiled at him.

"I mean a boy friend or girl friend of your own to do that."

"I know what you meant Tommy but like I said, I already do. I got who I 
wanted to do that to me, you! I don't think I ever want anyone else to touch 
me like that but you."

I was speechless. A first? Probably on some level.but I didn't have a 
response for him. I just smiled. Finally after a long pause a thought came 
to mind.

"So you don't want anyone else touching your penis like that?"

Ugggg, I actually called it by the proper name what am I doing?

"I don't know if I can answer that yet Tommy but I do know that you are the 
only other person that has ever touched me there and when you do something 
happens that makes me feel really weird and even when I try I can't make it 
feel the same way you do. I mean I get it to feel good but not like you do. 
So maybe I am too young to say so but right now I don't want anyone but you 
touching me like that."

I felt honored, too bad Jon wasn't here to hear that. He would flip for sure 
knowing he had competition for me. Just as the same time I felt like I was 
totally taking advantage of a nine year old too. But I don't really have 
positive feelings about that either.



Chapter 23.		Making love to the boy.



As I entered he was sitting on the edge of my bed.

"You sure you want to do anything Shawn, you don't have to ya know I won't 
be mad."

"No Tommy I do want to. My butt is almost totally healed now and it felt 
awesome before when you ran your finger up and all around it. It made me so 
hard it was just awesome."

"Yeah I know you were. I felt it."

He smiled.

"Why did Jon bother us? Did he know we were doing something? Were we doing 
something wrong Tommy?"

"Okay Shawn slow down a little. I shut and locked the door. First off we 
weren't doing anything wrong as long as you were okay with it, second he 
probably thought we were doing something and third who cares!"

"Good. He got up and started to strip off his clothes. Is this okay Tommy?"

"No. slow down champ. This isn't a race and we aren't in a hurry."

"Huh? What do you mean?"

"I want us to enjoy this cutie okay? Nice and slow."

"You haven't called me that in a while."

"What? Cutie?"

"Yeah, I was starting to think something was wrong that you might be mad at 
me."

I walked over and sat next to him. I leaned over and kissed him on his head.

"I love you a lot, nothing is wrong and I am not mad at you, just have a lot 
going on around here lately. But I love you very much and as much as I want 
to fool around with you I don't want to."

"Huh? You're confusing me."

"Okay let me explain it to you. I have a problem with the age difference 
between us and it bothers me that even though I am not forcing you to do 
stuff and you know this that the others might think so or even worse you 
might think you owe me something and I would hate it if you ever felt 
pressured to do anything sexual with me. Understand?"

"But I don't feel pressure I want to be with you Tommy I love you very much. 
You saved my life."

"See that's exactly what I mean cutie. Just because I saved your life you 
don't have to do anything with me or even have to remind me what I did for 
you."

"I know that Tommy, I'm not dumb. I want to be with you because you make me 
feel really good and special. I am not doing it for you I am doing it for 
me."

Well that certainly puts things in perspective and even stings a bit but 
it's what I guess I need to hear to put this fear to rest in my head.

"Good I feel better knowing this."

"Besides Tommy no one makes me feel the way you do when you do that finger 
thing to me. Do it again? Please?"

"Sure cutie anything you want."

He got back on the bed I sat next to him, he laid down then I laid down just 
as we were when we were on the couch before. Once more I started rubbing his 
back and quickly brought my hand down below his shorts and to his ass. Again 
I took my finger and softly stuck it between his cheeks and ran it up and 
down.

"That feels so good Tommy don't stop."

Was what he squeaked out before becoming silent on me. I went deeper and 
found his hole and started swirling my finger around it. His shorts were in 
my way so I whispered I was going to take them off and he nodded in 
agreement. I slid them off him and he was now just wearing a shirt and 
socks, nothing more. I stared at his totally cute bubble butt for a second 
and then reached out for it without restrictions this time.

"Roll on your belly for me."

He did so without comment. I stuck my finger in and began searching for his 
hole. I found it and starting the motions I began shortly before once again 
continuing where I left off. I was now rubbing his hole and all around it as 
I spread him as much as I could with my free hand. He spread his legs to try 
and help. I wet my finger on the other hand and slid it into his hole just a 
little bit.

"Ohhhh yeah Tommy that's awesome."

He put his head back down into his arms as I pushed a little farther into 
him. I got in about a half finger and slide it out. It was tight and I 
reached for some lube so I wouldn't hurt him. I lubed my finger and slid it 
in with ease this time almost all the way. I slid it out and then back in 
and began going a bit faster. But not too fast just yet. I stopped and 
slicked up my middle finger and then warned him I was going in with two.

"Its okay it feels great so far and there is no pain."

I started to work in both fingers and he jumped a little. I stopped 
immediately.

"What's wrong?"

"I thought I felt pain but its nothing keep going, please!"

I started again and although there was a bit more pressure to get both 
fingers in him he quickly loosened up and after a few tries I was in half 
way with two fingers. I warned him and then pushed a bit harder.

"Ahhhhh that's so weird!"

"Want me to stop?"

"No its weird but it doesn't hurt keep going."

I pushed a little harder and they both slid in the rest of the way with a 
little plop. I must have passed his sphincter muscle or something because it 
loosened up and there wasn't resistance anymore. I was able to slide in and 
out freely now and he wasn't saying a word. He just lay there enjoying the 
finger fucking he was getting. I reached through his legs and tried to grab 
a handful of his balls but he was laying on them and I didn't want to hurt 
him.

"Wait its okay I will move so you can grab them too."

It was too easy all I had to do was grab something and it was suddenly mine.

"Okay I want you so try and roll over on your back but slowly."

He did as I said and I had to pull out of him it became difficult to stay in 
with him turning. He was now on his back and looking at me. I slid back in 
with both fingers without a problem and began finger fucking his ass again 
as I watched his facial expression for some type of acknowledgement, pain or 
pleasure. Now I could see his rock hard little cock and I began to stroke it 
slowly with my free hand. His eyes closed and eventually his breathing began 
to speed up some. I got in closer and I began to suck his little cocklet 
now. He let out a gasp as my hot mouth touched his sweet cocklet. I started 
bobbing up and down on him as I fell in rhythm with my fingers in his ass 
and starting doing both together. Suddenly he began to speak out of the blue 
and I stopped out of fear for just a second I might be hurting him

"Tommy I am getting a weird feeling like I have to pee you better stop so I 
can go."

"Don't worry about it cutie you are about to have a feeling of joy shortly 
that will probably send you to another world. Let me finish and you will see 
what I mean."

Silence now. as all that I heard was his shallow, quick breathing and the 
sounds of my fingers rubbing in and out of him but nothing more. I started 
sucking his almost four inches of boy cock quicker as I pushed deeper into 
him with my two fingers. I could tell he was almost there by the squirming 
his body was doing now.

"The feeling is getting stronger Tommy!"

I sped up what I was doing as fast as I safely could and he seemed not sure 
what to do.

"Ahhhhh, Ahhhhh, Ahhhhh Tommy it's happening."

I could taste a little odd taste before I stopped sucking on him. I got off 
him and watched his face contort and tighten up as the dry orgasm struck his 
little body and he shuddered almost violently. He must have been in that 
other world we go to now too because he appeared to suddenly be as relaxed 
as one can be. About a minute passed, I continued watching his joyous 
expressions that were changing again.now his eyes weren't as tight as 
before, the awesome feeling must be passing. But it's only my guess. Finally 
he opened his eyes and smiled at me.

"How was it?"

"I can't explain it Tommy it was the strongest feeling I ever had before and 
at the same time it was like someone took all my good feelings in my body 
and threw them all together at once and they shot them into my head, then 
they exploded!"

"I know exactly what you mean cutie!"

That was a pretty good explanation!

"I want you to feel that same thing now Tommy it was so great. Can I do that 
to you?"

"Sure why not?"

"Another thing too."

"What's that?"

"Well I want you to stick your thing in my butt."

"I don't know if you are ready for that just yet sweetie, I don't want to 
hurt you."

"You won't. You just had two fingers in me didn't you?"

"Yes."

"Well that didn't hurt it felt awesome. So would you at least think about 
it?"

"Sure I will."

I don't know if I am ready for that yet!

"Awesome!"

I guess it's my turn now. I took his spot on the bed it was all warm from 
his body just being there. He reached for the lube. Kid's pretty smart!  He 
rubbed it all over his fingers and then looked at me. I was on my back so I 
spread my legs and opened as wide as I could for him. He tried to spread my 
ass cheeks but had trouble doing it so I reached around and pulled them open 
for him. I felt the cool gel as his finger touched my hole and rather 
roughly slid in.

"SLOW! Go slow cutie or you will hurt me!"

"Sorry."

My yelling caused him to pull out and jerk away from me. Once again he 
approached and slowly touched my ass with his finger and this time then 
slowly slid in. It felt good even though his finger wasn't quite long or fat 
enough to make anything happen other then the feeling of pressure in my 
butt. He began to slide in and out trying to copy what I did to him by feel 
I assumed. It did feel good but sadly he wasn't long enough to reach my 
prostrate or even my sphincter and apply pressure. Poor thing was banging 
the hell out of my ass with his finger and getting no where. I didn't have 
the heart to tell him he wasn't doing much for me.

"Try two fingers Shawn that should really make me feel good."

I was lying but he didn't need to know.

"Take your other hand and start jerking me off too."

He did as he was told. At least this will keep me hard and maybe even make 
me cum if he is good enough. Not that I needed a lot of help to blow a load 
right now!  Sure enough it wasn't perfect but between his anal probing and 
jerking me I started to feel like I was getting there.

"Okay Shawn now start to suck me off."

Without questioning me he did as I said. He pulled out of my ass and 
starting to put his lips on my cock. He seemed quite unsure of exactly what 
to do since he just didn't have enough experience and I knew he would try 
but I didn't know if he could actually get me to cum. He had me wet and was 
trying to take my hard cock in his mouth all the way but it was just too 
much for him.

"Just suck the head cutie that will be fine."

All these interruptions I wonder if I will ever finish. He mumbled something 
and started doing what I said. It felt better and after a little practice he 
got the hang of it and I was starting to feel something. He was so bad at it 
that he was actually teasing my cock head with his lips to the point where 
he was making it work. The stimulation was good and I was starting to get 
close.

"Something tastes funny Tommy."

Yeah I know I thought to myself, finally I am leaking and you are stopping 
again!!!

"That's okay Shawn that's precum. Keep going!"

He gave me a look of disgust but went back to sucking. I was sure he wanted 
to please me more then he cared about the taste. I think. I was almost there 
now and if he thought precum was bad he had a surprise about to hit his 
palette.

"Shawn I am gonna cum soon. This is the only warning you are going to get."

I barely got that out when I fired off the first round. He took it like a 
good scout but the second and third streams got him. He pulled off me and 
began to cough. I guess it was more then he could take. I was enjoying the 
pleasure but not his struggle. Even so I watched the last blast from my cock 
smack right into his cute face as he struggled to get his breath. I didn't 
want to laugh and thankfully the orgasm distracted me enough so that I 
didn't. Finally I closed my eyes and let the feeling take over. After it was 
over he was just about done coughing too and I looked at him. Now I laughed 
but he didn't know why. He had this puzzled look on his face. A stream of 
cum was lying across his right cheek. I guess in all the confusion he didn't 
even realize it. I reached out to him and wiped it off with my hand.

"What was that?"

"My cum. You had it on your cheek."

"I did? Kewl! I didn't even know that."

"Sorry you choked Shawn I didn't mean to make you do that."

"Its okay Tommy it was more then I even thought you would make."

"Yeah well I don't know what is going to happen most of then time cutie."

He smiled.

"Come on we both need a shower."

I got up and he followed as we walked together naked into the bathroom. No 
one was even around. I shut the door and started the water. He brushed up 
behind me and I felt his hand reach between my legs and then he gently 
grabbed my hanging balls.

"These are so neat Tommy. The way they just hand down so low like that."

He continued playing with them like they were ping pong balls. At first it 
felt okay but now it began to hurt.

"Ow, ow. easy there Shawn that's my nuts and they are very sensitive!"

"Oh sorry Tommy I forgot." He said as he pulled away quickly.

"Its okay you just have to be extra careful. When you get older you will 
understand what I mean but at your age they aren't as sensitive as they are 
when you get older. Besides after I cum like that mine get very sensitive 
and well you'll see when you're older."

The water was fine and he was suddenly on his best behavior after my little 
scolding.

"Come on get in with me."

He followed me in. My cock was still begging for more attention since I blew 
my load practically without much of his help. I mean he did something but I 
really just let fly on my own.

"Soap up your hands Shawn."

He did as I said.

"Okay now give me a hand."

He reached out his left hand and I took it and placed it on my semi stiff 
cock.

"Okay now stroke me."

He began to jerk me off with his soapy hand and before long I was rock hard 
again. I knew if he did this right I could cum again and he was hitting the 
right spot this time.

"Faster!"

I fell back against the wall. I was ready now and seconds away from blowing 
another round.

"I'm gonna cum again Shawn but this time when I say so just let go and let 
me enjoy it."

"Okay Tommy."

He continued to stroke me with his soapy hand. The feeling was awesome as 
the soap did the job as good as any lube could and there was nothing but 
pleasure with his hand rubbing my cock. I didn't warn him until I was about 
to cum and the first shot flew out and nailed him in the stomach startling 
him and causing him to let go automatically. I grabbed my soapy cock and 
finished myself off knowing exactly what was needed to get the best orgasm 
from this. It was much better this time even without as much cum flying 
around as usual. I didn't really care I just wanted the strong feeling to 
take over my brain again like other times and it did just that. After a bit 
I opened my eyes and Shawn was standing there just looking at me.

"Was it good Tommy?"

I smiled at him.

"It was awesome cutie!"

It was okay but I didn't want to hurt his feelings so I kinda lied a little. 
I reached over to him and gave him a kiss on the lips. It was the first time 
I think I did that to him. He smiled as I pulled away.

"That was nice Tommy. Thanks."

"No thank you cutie."

I reached out and grabbed him and brought his warm naked body to mine. It 
felt really good to have another body close to mine with the little chill 
that was in the air when the warm water wasn't on me. Our wet embrace caused 
my cock to tingle again and even this soon I began to rise again. The body 
heat made it feel nice. I held him for a while and he didn't seem to want me 
to let go. When I finally pulled away he grabbed tighter. I was fine with it 
and we held on a little longer. Finally I let go and he did too this time. 
As we separated he looked up at me.

"That really felt good Tommy."

"I know I enjoyed it too."

"I love you Tommy. Thanks for taking such good care of me."

I leaned over and kissed his wet head and then once more quickly on his 
lips. He didn't say anymore after that as I began to soap up. He just did as 
I did. We washed each others backs in pretty much total silence and then 
rinsed off and got out to dry off while saying little and just taking in the 
moment together in almost total silence. It was eerie the way we finished up 
but there wasn't much to say. We just finished up and enjoyed each others 
company. I opened the door and headed out first, back to my room to get 
dressed or at least some underwear on. After I was dressed I went back to 
hang my towel and he was gone. apparently to his room to dress too. It was 
late now so I decided to just go down and check the house before turning in 
myself. I headed down in just my boxers and the only one there was Trevor in 
his cot and under the covers. The lights were still on but that was about 
it. At least they turned the TV off after they finished playing X-Box. I 
checked the door and then started turning off lights. I walked over to 
Trevor leaned in on him and checked him. As I did he turned over and looked 
at me.

"You want something Tommy?"

"No Trevor I was just checking to see if you were okay."

"I am, how about you?"

"I'm okay. You getting used to this yet?"

"Used to what?"

"Living here and sleeping on the cot?"

"Kind of. I don't really like the cot its too tight and I can't roll over 
otherwise I am getting used to all this stuff slowly."

"Stuff?"

"Yes, you know the gay stuff you guys all do together."

"Together? I don't remember doing anything `gay' in front of you lately."

"Well what about you and Shawn on the couch before and then you two went 
upstairs when Jon interrupted you on the couch right?"

"Well Jon interrupted us but there was no way anyone could see what we were 
doing. Even you and Jon could only guess if you were watching we were hidden 
by the couch."

"I'm not stupid Tommy. I might be young but come on, you and Shawn on the 
couch together something was happening even if I didn't see it."

"Okay, okay I understand. But you know what happens in here and we have been 
through this already. Nothing is going to change and you are just going to 
have to accept that. You aren't gay so that's fine but you have decided to 
stay with us rather then be alone so you are going to have to get used to 
us. Whether it's Billy and Joe or me and Shawn or me and Jon."

I was starting to get mad and if he continues with this I might show him 
some GAY things myself.

"So look Trevor you better get used to this I am getting tired of it. I 
totally understand your sleeping situation and I will see what I can do 
about making it better for you but everything else is just too bad. Suck it 
up and deal with it after all its not that bad."

I reached out and touched what I thought was his ass through the blanket 
covering him. He immediately pulled away from my touch.

"See that wasn't that bad was it?"

"Don't touch me I don't want to get gay!"

He sat up and turned to face me.

"Get gay? What the fuck does that mean?"

"Just what I said, I don't want to catch anything you might have."

"Well excuse me! What do you think I have koodies? Aids? Something that 
would kill you?"

He shrugged his shoulders. I was pissed off now.

"So you think if I touch you you're gonna get some disease from me?"

I reached out to him. He was sitting up on the edge of the cot now with the 
blanket laying behind him in just a tee shirt and his boxers. I went right 
for the piss slot in his boxers and made sure I made some contact with his 
cock. He went to jump away from me but he wasn't nearly fast enough and I 
got a good grab of his dick. I could have sworn he was hard or semi hard but 
the boxers hid him well.

"Cut it out! That's just wrong and I don't like you touching me especially 
there. That hurt."

"Hurt? I touched your dick how could it possibly hurt?"

He stood up I looked closer but I couldn't tell since he wasn't that big if 
he was really enjoying this or just being a big baby.

"Oh come on Trevor I know what you have and you have to know that we don't 
have anything wrong with us and you can't catch anything by touch in the 
first place! But I do have to admit that little piece of you I got felt 
pretty hard. Are you sure your not making all this up and you really do 
enjoy another guy touching you?"

He shot me the finger.

"Now that's not nice."

He was standing all of three feet from me now and his finger almost hit me 
in the nose when he gave it. I reached out again and this time I wasn't 
going to come up empty. I grabbed a good handful of him and he sure felt 
stiff. He squealed a high pitch shriek as I got a good piece of his cock 
this time and backed off almost falling over his cot.

"You are so fucking gay!"

He screamed at me. I knew it wouldn't take long for the others to come to 
the top of the steps so I reached out to him and yanked down his boxers all 
the way to the floor. Just then I heard a voice from the top of the steps 
and I turned to see Jon standing there.

"Everything okay Tommy?"

"Yeah, just Trevor having a gay fit you can go back to bed if you want."

"Hey Trev, nice little cock ya got there."

I laughed as Jon said that. Trevor couldn't get his boxers back up quick 
enough. I was wrong he wasn't hard but he wasn't totally soft either but who 
knows what he was doing under the covers before I looked in on him. Maybe he 
was mad because he thought I caught him stroking it. Anyway he was beat red 
now and I made my point. He got back into bed and covered himself with his 
blanket as I turned to go back up to my room. I turned off the remaining 
light and headed up. Jon was still at the top of the steps as I yelled out 
to him to come join me in my room for a butt fuck just to piss Trevor off a 
little more.

"You really mean that?" he whispered to me.

"No I just said it to piss him off more but you can come in with me anytime 
you know that."

He went back to his room and shut his door and then came back to me.

"Go on in I just want to check the others."

"Okay, he smiled. don't take too long."

I smacked his ass as he walked by and he let out a playful yelp as I headed 
down the hall. I opened Billy's door just a little and enough light shown in 
to see he was in bed with Joe. How interesting I thought. I didn't know they 
slept together. Neither of them moved so I shut their door quietly and moved 
to Danny's room. Both he and his brother were asleep. Last stop at Shawn's 
room. I opened the door and crept in. He seemed to be resting nicely. I 
looked at him for a second with the hall light shining on his cute face and 
then turned to go.

"Tommy??"

I stopped and turned.

"I thought you were sleep."

"I was, the light woke me."

I walked over to him.

"Sorry I just wanted to check on you."

"That's okay come sit with me."

I sat next to him and put my hand on him and began to rub his back.

"Will you stay and do that for a while?"

"Jon is waiting for me cutie but I will for a minute."

He smiled as I ran my hand over his back and down to his butt just to tease 
him. I leaned in and gave him a kiss on the head.

"You still smell like shampoo."

He was still smiling. He sat up and I got a hug. I never saw anyone who was 
so affectionate before. I liked it but it almost seemed strange. I patted 
his butt and got up.

"Night cutie."

"Night Tommy."

I walked out shutting his door most of the way and down to my room. Jon was 
on my bed in just his boxers and no shirt.

"Looking for a little fun tonight?"

"Maybe. how about you?"

"Always."

I sat next to him and grabbed his nipple and tweaked it.

"Owwwww, what was that for?"

I smiled.

"Because I can."

"That hurt!"

"Sorry, I was only playing."

I leaned in and kissed it.

"Feel better?"

"No you ass hole."

"Awww! Poor baby!"

I grabbed a handful of cock and balls thru his shorts and started rubbing.

"That feel better?"

He nodded yes.

"Good, lift your butt."

He lifted and I slid off his boxers and moved in closer. He always smelled 
good after a shower and this time wasn't any different. I took his dick into 
my mouth and started playing with it.

"Ohhhh yeah that feels really good! My nip suddenly doesn't hurt anymore!"

I sucked on him and started playing with his balls. I looked up for a second 
and his head was back and eyes closed. So I went back to him. I took each 
nut into my mouth one at a time I sucked each one in. Each time he let out a 
deep sigh and shuttered. I did this a few times while my free hand jerked 
him off. He was rock hard now and I went back to sucking him off after that.

"I'm getting close Tommy."

Was all he said as I began to taste precum. I continued sucking him a bit 
longer and he let out a moan and blew a wad into my mouth. I took it and all 
the rest swallowing as fast as I could. I got off him and let him enjoy the 
rest of his big "O" finally a smile came across his face as he opened his 
eyes and appeared to be coming back down to earth.

"Just remember that the next time you have any doubts about me okay!"

He nodded yes.

"Good!"

I went in close and again grabbed a nip but this time I didn't hurt him I 
just rubbed it as I leaned in to kiss his sweet lips. We met and he opened 
his mouth and then our tongues met. We kissed and made out for about five 
minutes before I broke for a good breath of air.

"Why did you stop?"

"Just came up for air, no reason."

"Oh okay I thought something was wrong."

"Nope, not a thing,"

I leaned in to him and gave him another kiss and lay back on my pillow.

"Want me to suck you off now?"

"Nah, that's okay, I owed you big time anyway so don't worry about it 
tonight. Maybe you can wake me that way in the morning if you stay with me 
tonight though."

He smiled at me. There was a knock at my door, I got up and opened it. It 
was Trevor.

"Can I help you with something?"

"No I want to talk to Jon."

I walked over to the bed totally naked even in the dark he had to see 
something and I told Jon it was for him.

"Huh? He wants to talk to me? He said in a low tone.

"Yup, you're up. Go see what he wants."

Jon sat up and slid on his boxers and walked to the door. He went outside 
and I heard nothing so I got up and walked over to the door to listen. I 
couldn't hear a thing so I opened it up and they were gone. I walked over to 
the top of the steps and I saw Jon and Trevor sitting on the couch 
apparently talking about something. Well at least he feels he can trust Jon 
so I turned and headed back to my bedroom and got into bed. About five 
minutes or so later Jon came back up and into my room.

"What was that all about?" I asked as he got into bed with me.

"Look I don't want to piss you off but if it's okay he wanted to tell me 
something privately and asked if I would not share it with you or anyone."

"Sure Jon, no problem."

I put my head back down on my pillow and closed my eyes. He must have done 
the same and I left it that way and fell asleep. Morning came and I expected 
to be wakened to the blow job Jon promised last night. I knew I was an early 
riser so I thought I might wake before him and turned towards his side of my 
bed to gently wake him only to find him missing. I thought something was 
weird about that so I got up and slid on my boxers and went to the top of 
the steps. It was quiet downstairs so I went down and Trevor wasn't in his 
cot. Even stranger. I searched and came to the conclusion that whatever they 
talked about last night had something to do with both of them missing at the 
moment. The sun was out and the clock said 7:02 so I opened the front door 
and looked out. My truck was there but no signs of either of them. I was 
worried but at the same time I trusted Jon so I won't let it get me upset. 
Not yet anyway. I shut the door and went up to take a leak. After I finished 
in the bathroom I headed down and made some breakfast. I ate and started to 
clean up as I heard some pitter patter upstairs. Then the front door opened 
and Jon came in, alone. He walked over to me.

"Hi." I said, nothing more.

"Aren't you going to ask me where I have been?"

"Nope, last night you told me some things were private and I will respect 
that and not butt in."

I went back to clearing the table and I glanced over at him and he was just 
standing there looking weird now.

"What? Did I do something wrong?"

"No, I just thought you would poke and nag at me until I told you where 
Trevor was but you didn't so I didn't know what to do next. All I thought 
about on the way back here was excuses to give you and now you don't want to 
know anything and I am confused why."

I walked over to him.

"Because I trust you sweetie."

I leaned in and gave him a kiss on the cheek and turned back to cleaning up 
my breakfast mess. Again he stood there looking dumbfounded but I wasn't 
going to get into his private matter with Trevor and I knew this was making 
him mad but he couldn't say anything to me without contradicting everything 
else. I can wait and let him stew in his own privacy. Besides if Trevor left 
with Jon he can only be in one of two places, Jon's house or someone else's. 
My guess is Trevor asked Jon to find him a safe place away from me where he 
wouldn't feel so gay! I looked up at Jon who was about to say something as 
someone came down the steps behind him. We both turned to see who it was.

"Morning guys." He said.

"Morning Joey, you're up early."

"Yeah I couldn't sleep and I was hungry so I got up and came down. I figured 
I can eat and get a head start on that new game Billy and I are playing and 
maybe I can beat him. Last night he was kicking my ass and it was both of 
our first times playing it."

"Oh I see, I said. Well good luck Joey I know what it means to kick ass at a 
game."

Actually I didn't have a clue but I wanted to make him feel good about his 
comments and also let Jon's issue linger a bit more. Since I was finished 
listening to Joe I turned to go upstairs.

"Where are you going?" Yelled out Jon.

"Upstairs for a bit, why?"

"Well I wanted to umm. never mind you can go."

I turned and headed upstairs smiling all the way knowing he was struggling 
with right and wrong, knowing he wanted me to beg or at least ask about 
Trevor and that me not doing that was driving him insane on some level and 
he can't just come out and tell me since he probably promised Trevor he 
wouldn't say anything to me. I went in and just sat on my bed because I 
didn't have anything else to do now too. After a minute or so Jon poked his 
head into the room and looked at what I was doing.

"Whatcha' doing?"

"Nothing just hanging out and thinking about a few things, I might take a 
ride today or something I am bored. What about you Jon?"

I looked right at him as I said that and he looked away.

"What's the matter?"

"Nothing Tommy why, should there be something wrong?"

"No, not at all, I just thought you wanted to say something but I guess I 
was wrong. I think I am going to take that ride now, do you want to join 
me?"

"No thanks I can't, I mean I don't want to you can go alone."

He was stumbling over his words, which was different for him.

"Okay, see ya later then, if anyone asked I went out for a ride and I have 
my cell so they can call. See you later."

"Bye Tom."

I turned and headed downstairs. I stopped and briefly told Joey I was going 
out and not to worry anyone else since I would be gone and he nodded as I 
turned to leave. I thought Jon was coming down the steps as I shut the door 
and started to walk to the truck. I didn't stop or look back until I 
unlocked the door and no one was there so I got in and fired it up. I waited 
an extra minute but no one appeared so I backed up and took off down the 
road. As I got almost out of site I saw the door open in the rear view 
mirror but I couldn't see who it was. I just kept going and turned off the 
block onto the other road. Another turn and I was on the parkway heading for 
something to occupy my mind. Actually I was looking to see if I might find 
someone else around but I didn't let them know that. I was driving for about 
thirty or so minutes and my cell rang. I grabbed it and it was Shawn.

"Hi Shawn, what's up?"

"Where are you?"

"I went for a ride; I have a few errands to run."

"Oh okay, is everything okay?"

"Sure is, why?"

"Because I was talking to Jon and he told me that."

"Hang on Shawn; I don't want to know if this has anything to do with Trevor 
okay?"

"How did you know I was going to talk about Trevor?"

"That's not important, right now I can't talk about him, okay. Its nothing 
bad its just that I don't know anything and I really want Jon to tell me 
first so do me a favor and keep what information you have to yourself."

"Oh okay Tommy no problem."

"Where is Jon?"

"Standing a few feet from me watching me talk to you."

That rat, he was using Shawn to get around his promise to Trevor I bet.

"Okay Shawn don't worry you didn't do anything wrong, I'll be home in a few 
hours so go play and I'll see you then."

"Okay Tommy, bye."

"Bye cutie."

He is something. He can't tell me so he thinks if Shawn spills the beans to 
me its okay. Nope not gonna let that happen, it's not fair. Besides this is 
kinda fun. I let that thought slip my mind as I focused back on the road. I 
was passing the mall now and the road ahead was all new territory for me. 
Guess only time will tell if I find a new friend or enemy..



Chapter 24.			Looking for friends?



Now I was never one to go looking for trouble on purpose but for some reason 
that I can't quite explain or even figure out I suddenly had grown tired of 
the group of boys I am with. Now that doesn't mean I don't want to be around 
them anymore. I guess I am just bored with them and this ride is supposed to 
represent the search for anyone that might be alive outside of our 
neighborhood. I know this could bring lots of problems and maybe even 
trouble but things are getting so repetitive everyday. Get up, eat, wait for 
the others to awaken, find something to do all day and then night falls and 
go back to bed. Simple but boring! So this ride might make things a bit 
interesting and maybe there will be a new beginning of sorts. I had been on 
the parkway for an hour now and have decided the next exit will be my turn 
off. The sign read Pottersville and all I could think about was that Colonel 
on MASH a show I always used to watch on TV.  I got off the exit and it 
looked like any other town minus the people of course. A few cars crashed 
but no one in site so far. I even beeped my horn a few times as I drove 
slowly down a few of the blocks but no one appeared and nothing happened. I 
found a food town store and pulled up to the front door and with hand on gun 
entered. As before it felt eerie but I still felt safe to a degree. I walked 
the isles checking food and outdated milk cartons and so on. It was pretty 
easy to see on one had been in here since most of the shelves were still 
full and by now if anyone was using this place there would be some level of 
mess around. I grabbed a few things I thought I would need and that I hadn't 
noticed in our local store and bagged them while I looked out the window for 
signs of life. My cell suddenly rang and totally scared the shit out of me. 
After a second I regained my wits and checked the caller id. It was Shawn.

"Hey kid, what's up?"

"I was lonely and felt like calling. Where are you and what are you doing?"

"I'm in a town called Pottersville; it's about an hour's ride away from us 
75 to 80 miles I would guess."

"Wow you're sure far away. See anyone yet?"

"Nope, not a soul, no one and nothing I have seen so far has given me any 
idea that people are alive here. I am in a supermarket getting a few things 
we don't have by us and just getting ready to bring it out to the car. 
What's going on there?"

"Nothing, I haven't seen Trevor yet and Jon said that."

"STOP!"

There was silence on the other end of the phone.

"Sorry cutie I didn't mean to yell, its just that if you were going to say 
anything to me about Trevor and it came from Jon I can't let you tell me 
because Jon is supposed to be keeping that a secret for Trevor I think."

"Huh? Oh now I get it. So you think he told me something that you don't know 
and he is hoping I will tell you so he won't get in trouble from Trevor, 
right?"

"Exactly, if I am guessing right. So I am not mad at you but you can't tell 
me what is going on over there since its really private and Jon shouldn't 
have told you either but since he did he is probably hoping you would tell 
me and then he is off the hook with keeping it all private you understand?"

"Now I do. I won't say anything and besides what I was going to tell you 
wasn't that big a deal anyway. But I will wait for you to come home and work 
it out with them. When are you coming home?"

"Well by the looks of things probably soon. It's so dead out here it's 
boring and other then seeing a new place I haven't been before it's kinda 
eerie and weird of you get me. Too quiet and almost scary."

"I get you, please be careful Tommy I don't want you getting hurt or killed 
if you do find someone and they are like those others who hurt me and that 
guy at the mall who was so strong. I would die if you didn't come back so 
pleaseeeeeeeee be careful."

"I will, talk to you later and if I get delayed I promise I will call, 
okay?"

"Okay bye Tommy."

"Bye cutie."

I got up off the end of the checkout table and grabbed my three bags of 
stuff and headed out to the truck. It was hot out and coming from inside the 
cold supermarket made it feel even worse. I went around to the passenger's 
side and loaded the stuff in and shut the door. I headed back around to get 
in and I heard a loud crash like something fell or got knocked over and it 
sounded like it came from the other side of the building. I got in and 
started up the truck and hauled ass around the building to the rear but saw 
no one. I slowed down to see if I could tell what made such a big bang. 
someone had to be around to do it. I stopped the truck and locked the doors 
just in case as I looked to see what it might have been. I still saw 
nothing. I rolled up a few more feet and saw a dumpster turned over and 
guess it must have been that. Only problem is who ever did that was either 
sickly strong like that guy that raped Jon or it was a group of people. If 
it was a group how safe was I and where are they? I didn't see anyone and I 
suddenly felt unsafe even locked in here and with a gun at my side. I took 
off down the length of the building and got to the end and stopped. I looked 
out my mirrors but whoever it was still was out of sight. I turned and 
decided to take another spin around the building but before I did I checked 
the .45 I had to make sure it was full of ammo and it was so I headed back 
around for another check. I know someone is here now but they are hiding and 
then know I am here and probably know I am alone too. But they don't know I 
have a gun and I don't know if they do either. I sat in the truck some 
distance away from the overturned garbage dumpster and thought about what I 
wanted to do. I wished I had someone else with me and another gun but I had 
neither so I had to decide if it was worth a risk getting out or just hoping 
someone would have the balls to come out and greet me.

I waited impatiently for a few minutes constantly checking my mirrors incase 
they wanted to sneak up from behind but there was no one. Finally out of 
curiosity and some level of fear I drove back to the garbage dumpster and 
rolled down my window and beeped the horn a few times then I yelled out I 
was going to leave if they didn't come out and quickly shut my window, 
waited a few seconds and then started to roll the truck down the lot slowly. 
I got to the corner of the building and stopped for a second looking in the 
mirrors and then finally I drove off to take another spin around the 
building and decide what else to do. I came around once more and stopped as 
I turned the corner. I thought I saw someone but if I did it was so fast I 
couldn't tell size or shape. I looked around and saw a rode on the other 
side of the gully across from where I was. It looked like there was a small 
stream between me and the other side so I slowly drove down the length of 
the building once more and when no one appeared I took off and drove out of 
the lot and in the direction I thought would take me to the other side of 
that gully. After a few wrong turns I finally saw the building, turned down 
that street and drove to the end. It was the right spot because I could see 
the overturned dumpster from here and just about everything else I saw from 
the other side too except any people. I threw the truck in reverse and 
nailed it going about 40 mph backwards out of the dead end and slamming on 
the brakes at the end to make enough noise to get the attention of whoever 
was hiding from me. It was starting to go from exciting to boring now since 
the coward or cowards weren't showing their face. I looked at the clock 
radio and it was almost 4pm and I was ready to eat and sure by now that the 
others were too. Sadly this will have to wait and if I can find this place 
again I will try to come back with one or two of the others next time. But 
first I am going to take one more run around that store and then head home 
probably empty handed of people that is. I found my way back to the store 
and headed to the rear of the building once more. I rolled down the window 
again and yelled out once more.

"I am leaving now if you have any balls and want to meet me come out now or 
else you lose!"

I shut the window and waited. Still nothing. Finally I gave up and took off 
heading for home but ever so slowly as I approached the exit just in case 
whoever it was finally decided to show themselves. I waited at the exit for 
another minute and then I left the lot and headed back to the parkway and 
home. I decided to see how fast I could make the ride home without killing 
myself and I gunned the gas pedal pinning the truck needle at 100. It was an 
awesome rush of adrenalin as the white lines were dots as I approached each 
next one. I noticed that I was down a half tank of diesel which wasn't a big 
deal since I did do a bit of driving today. About 20 minutes later I finally 
slowed down enough so the speedometer was actually reading a speed again and 
then as I approached my exit I slowed to normal. I made the hour or so ride 
there back home in 30 minutes. Safely too I might add. I stopped and filled 
up the tank which took a few minutes as it took almost 15 gallons of fuel. I 
beeped the horn as I turned onto our block and was greeted by several of the 
guys as I parked and got out.

"Didn't find anyone I see." Said Shawn.

"Actually I did but they didn't want to come out."

"Huh? You found people?"

"Maybe, I think someone was at this place but they wouldn't come out and I 
got tired of waiting so I finally left."

"How did you know there was someone there Tommy?"

"I could only guess Dan, as I was about to leave I heard this loud bang and 
I drove around to the rear of the building and found an overturned garbage 
dumpster. That thing is heavy so unless it was my imagination it would have 
to take at least four or more guys to do that. Which would mean there were 
that many or more people hiding from me as I checked it out or it was 
overturned a while ago and whoever it was is long gone and that noise could 
have been anything."

"Are you gonna go back again?"

"I would like to Billy next time with one or two more people and guns just 
in case there is trouble. If someone else is alive over in Pottersville I 
would love to meet them."

I got a chorus of `I'll go' as I said that to them. So now if or when I do 
go back I have to pick and choose who goes. More pissed off kids I suppose 
when they all don't get to come along.  I headed inside to look for some 
food. I wasn't in the mood to make anything big so I grabbed a big TV dinner 
and threw it in the microwave.

"What about us?"

Someone yelled out. I turned to face them.

"There is plenty of food here and downstairs and in the garage. Go look and 
choose what kind of TV dinner you want or have a bowl of cereal I am not 
cooking or in the mood to drive to some place and cook."

Grumblings went out as they all started to search for food. Shawn came over 
to me and got in my face as I watched the timer on the microwave. I tried to 
ignore him but he quickly became a ball buster as he did anything he could 
to stick his face into my view. Finally I started to crack a smile and I 
turned to him and grabbed him with both hands by the ribs and started 
tickling him. He let out a loud screech and fell to the floor like putty. As 
I continued to assault his ribs with my hands he started to turn red from 
the laughing and squirming he was doing. He began to beg and plead for me to 
stop and I could tell he was starting to lose his breath so I stopped. He 
just lay on the floor breathing fast trying to catch his breath. Slowly the 
red started to go away as he returned to normal.

"Did you have enough?"

He smiled and shook his head yes.

"Want some more?"

I said as I leaned over to him. He screeched and tried to slide away from me 
on the floor but wasn't getting anyway fast. He turned and tried to roll to 
get to his knees and as he got up I grabbed a handful of his shorts stopping 
him. He tried to run out of them as I saw nothing but his ass but he wasn't 
going anywhere. I pulled him back to me and when I had him close enough I 
grabbed him from behind by the ribs and again he let out a squeal. I didn't 
tickle this time I picked him up and with every ounce of strength I had 
lifted him as high as I could over my head and then back down to his feet.

"Awesome!"

He said as I let go.

"I thought you were gonna tickle me again, good thing you didn't because I 
have to pee and I would have gone on you and me."

I smiled evilly at him and went to grab him but he ran away. Probably to the 
bathroom. It didn't matter my food was ready as the microwave dinged. I took 
out my food and Billy came over with his stuck it in and set the timer.

"It sounded like you killed him from the other room." He chuckled.

"Nah, just enough to make him beet red."

"Yeah I kinda figured that as I saw him run out of the kitchen."

"He said he had to pee. I supposed he couldn't help that after the attack he 
just took from me."

"Yeah I bet. You really care a lot about him don't you?"

"I care about all you guys but I have a special place for him I guess."

I walked a few feet over to him.

"Your all my family now and we are all there is so you better believe I care 
a whole bunch."

I reached out to him not knowing how he would react I gave him a hug. He put 
his arms around me and squeezed back. We broke our embrace and he looked at 
me.

"I haven't had a hug like that nice my mom gave me one a long time ago. I'm 
sorry I stopped getting them from her. I felt like I was too big and I guess 
now I don't think that way anymore."

He smiled at me and I got up close to him.

"You can have one anytime you want, all you have to do is ask."

"Thanks Tommy. I just might do that."

Shawn came back into the room and Billy stopped talking about it immediately 
and checked the time left on his food. I looked at Shawn.

"I guess your okay? I didn't damage anything did I?"

"Nope, but I am hungry."

"Well go pick out a TV dinner or something and you can join me."

He scooted over to the fridge and looked for something. After about a minute 
he moved a few things around knocking one or two on the floor and found what 
he wanted and turned to hand it to me. I took it and opened it. He picked up 
the other two meals and put them back in the freezer. Billy's food dinged 
and he took it out so I put Shawn's in and started the timer and went to the 
table to set it for us.

"Get some glasses and drink Shawn." I yelled into the kitchen.

"Okay." He said.

A few seconds later Billy came out carrying some of it with Shawn behind 
him. Joey caught wind of what we were doing and finally broke from the TV 
and got up and came over to the table.

"Finally done killing the bad guys?" I asked.

"For now, I'm starving,"

"Go pick out a dinner and put it in the microwave when Shawn's is done."

"Okay."

He headed inside. It was beginning to appear like everyone was suddenly 
hungry because Danny and his brother came down from their room and the only 
one's missing were Jon and Trevor. Come to think of it I haven't seen Jon 
since I left this morning. Danny said something about food and I pointed to 
the kitchen as I took a bit of my food that was now almost cold. Shawn did 
the rest and told him to find something to eat and without much prompting he 
offered cereal to his brother who turned it down.

"I want peanut butter and jelly." He said.

Danny looked at me and I pointed to the kitchen.

"You know how to make it big guy help yourself."

Shawn and Billy were now sitting with me as I finally was able to enjoy some 
of my food. Joey came out as I took my last bite.

"Anyone see Jon or Trevor?" I asked.

I got a lot of head shakes and then I looked at Shawn.

"You know where Jon is?"

"I think he is at his house."

"So I guess that means Trevor is there too since they are both missing."

He just shrugged his shoulders.

"I thought you knew what was going on."

"No I don't you were so loud with me on the phone earlier when you cut me 
off that I didn't bother to tell you that the only thing Jon told me is that 
if you wanted him he would be at his house. He never said anything about 
Trevor to me."

"I'm sorry Shawn I didn't mean to bite off your head I just wanted to hear 
it from Jon instead of you. I thought he might use you but never mind its 
not a big deal anymore."

"What's going on with Trevor Tommy?"

"I'm not real sure Billy all I know is last night Trevor asked to talk to 
Jon in private and then Jon started to act all weird and he was gone this 
morning when I woke up. I haven't seen him since. I have a feeling that he 
is trying to help Trevor live without anything `gay' in his life and that's 
fine but the rules don't change for him anymore then anyone else. You live 
here you eat here and so on. I just hope Jon doesn't suddenly become 
Trevor's puppet and think he can bring our food to him at his house. That's 
not the rule."

"I know Tommy but."

"But what Joey?"

"If the kid is hungry and we have plenty of food what's the difference where 
he eats?"

I looked at Billy and then the others and finally at Joe.

"You of all people asking me that? You know my rules. Anyone here eats you 
leave you are on your own. No exceptions otherwise it would be a free for 
all with everyone eating here and living where ever. This place would just 
become a restaurant and its not!"

"So what are you going to tell Jon Tommy? If he wants to feed Trevor and he 
is at his house?"

"The same thing I would tell you Dan. You live at your place you get your 
own food."

"Good thing I live here then." He said with a smile.

He looked at his brother who was slurping down cereal. I guess he decided 
peanut butter and jelly wasn't what he wanted after all.

"I don't think I could take care of Chris alone. I'm glad I have you and the 
others."

"Well you won't have to worry about that Dan."

"Yeah I know. Thanks."

Just then Jon came in looking like he had been working all day or something. 
He looked beat. He didn't say a word just headed right upstairs and into his 
room I guess. I looked at the others and they looked as puzzled at I was. I 
got up and headed upstairs. As I hit the steps I heard Billy say; this 
should be good. I thought the same thing as I climbed the steps. I got to 
his door and knocked. He opened it with a towel and change of clothes in 
hand.

"You care to tell me something about where you have been all day and why you 
are all sweaty and reek?"

"Can it wait Tommy? I really need to shower and get back to my place for a 
bit."

"You couldn't shower there?"

"I suppose I could have but all my stuff his here."

He shut the door in my face and then I heard the water start. I was confused 
and a little mad especially since I was usually invited in for a shower and 
on top of everything else he shut the door in my face. but I'll give him 
some rope and hope he doesn't hang himself because I love him so much but he 
better have a good reason about what he is up to especially since Trevor is 
now gone. I turned and headed back to the kitchen. Just about everyone was 
done eating now and had cleaned up their mess. I went into the kitchen and 
they were even putting the dishes in the dishwasher.

"Geeze no complaints tonight about dishes, WOW. I am impressed what's the 
special occasion? Usually I have to beg someone to put the dishes away."

Danny turned to me.

"You have enough on your mind Tommy we will take care of the dishes 
tonight."

"Thanks Danny but I don't really have a lot to worry about just want to know 
what that boy is up to in the shower and where Trevor is. I am not going to 
let it get to me though how about everyone gets in the truck and we go for 
ice cream?"

Cheers as usual.

"Okay we'll leave shortly. Make sure everything is clear and clean."

I went back up to my room and hung out waiting for the bathroom door to 
open. The water stopped a bit ago so it shouldn't take long for him to come 
out. Five minutes passed and finally he came out in his boxers and a tee 
shirt. I yelled down the hall to him but he either ignored me or decided he 
would see me after he got dressed. I had enough and headed downstairs and 
told everyone to go get in the truck. They flew out the door and I followed 
making sure I slammed it loud enough so he wouldn't miss the noise and then 
I headed to my truck. I got in and no one said a word. Finally as we were 
pulling up to the ice cream store Shawn spoke up.

"You mad at Jon Tommy?"

"A little, mostly because he is being so secretive about whatever is going 
on."

"But didn't you tell me this morning that you didn't want to know what was 
happening if it was private?"

"Yes I did Shawn but this has gone a little past private since Trevor is 
missing and Jon was gone all day and then he comes in and doesn't say 
anything but he smells like he just got done digging a hole in shit all 
day."

That brought a round of laughs and giggles from the truck. I really didn't 
mind after all why should I let this ruin every ones night. I ended it at 
that and opened the door and they followed as we headed in for ice cream. As 
usual we all ate and filled up on our favorites and twenty minutes later we 
were all full and most of them looked like they were wearing more then they 
ate.

"You guys look like a mess! I exclaimed. I mean look at you. I pointed at 
Joey. You're old enough to at least get it in your mouth. The others started 
laughing either at what I said or because his shirt had about four chocolate 
stains down the front of it. Good thing I don't have to wash your clothes."

I got up and washed my hands since they were a bit sticky. At least I got 
mine in my mouth and just my hands got dirty.

"Okay no one gets in the truck until at least their hands are clean. 
Everyone wash up!"

After ten minutes of washing finally we were all in the truck and I made an 
announcement.

"We have one more stop before we go home."

I didn't say where but I had their attention. I drove past our turn and down 
the block pulling into the store with the Nintendo sign in the window.

"Okay guys go knock yourselves out inside."

They flew out of the truck and into the store. No hesitation here. I was 
pretty sure the store would be clear of any dangers so I followed with my 
hand on my gun but since no one was screaming I assumed it was clean. I 
entered and they were going crazy looking at all the games and toys. It even 
had a comic book section that I took notice of. That was one of my favorite 
things. I grabbed about two dozen comic books as they grabbed all sorts of 
games and whatever else wasn't tied down. Everyone got in the truck with 
some kind of gadget in their lap.

"Everyone happy?"

A big cheery yes went up as I started the truck. We drove back to our house 
and I parked the truck. We got out and I noticed the door to the house was 
wide open. Now I trusted Jon to do the right thing and if not lock it at 
least shut it but something seemed wrong here. I turned to the others.

"Stay here and wait a second."

I pulled out my gun as I entered my house. I searched room by room but 
nothing was out of place or messed up. Finally I came out and told them all 
to go inside that it was clear. I could see the worry on their faces as I 
came out but I didn't have answers just questions as to why Jon would be so 
foolish. He could have at least closed the door when he left. I had enough 
and told them to go inside and lock up I was going to Jon's house. I walked 
over and knocked on his door. There was no answer so I tried the handle and 
it was locked. I rang the doorbell a few times and walked around to the 
back. He never locked that door but it was locked this time. Now I was a 
little worried and mad all together since it was becoming a bit strange that 
this was happening. I pounded on the back door and listened. It was quiet so 
I tried once again and this time I heard someone coming. I couldn't see 
inside but it had to be either Jon or Trevor I guessed? The door opened, my 
eyes bugged out and I gasped and took a few steps backwards. Then I lost my 
footing and fell to the ground.



TO BE CONTINUED..... This is going to be a long week.... sorry for the cliff 
hanger but we all need some excitement in our stories.... by the way if 
anyone wants to take a guess who is at the door I will be glad to let 
everyone know next week if anyone got it right. Sorry no prizes I am poor. 
Take care, Dwedno.