Date: Thu, 04 Nov 2004 18:27:42 -0500 From: dwedno smith Subject: Chapter 32 The Tunnel. Hi all, I have to say I am sorry about the spelling errors in the last chapter. I took the time to correct everything and then submitted the wrong copy to nifty. My bad! LOL Anyway the story continues as before with emails wondering when the next chapter will be out. Enjoy.... Not much new to report for now. I don't know if any of you have taken the time to read my other stuff but if youe interested the website is at the beginning of this story and if anyone is interested at all I would gladly post more of the other stories on nifty. I havent yet since no one seems to be reading anything but this :) Take care, Dwedno. Chapter 32. Billy's back and we get ready to leave. "Billy, can you hear me?" "Yeah Tommy my hearing is fine. But I am in so much pain. What happened?" "You got burnt sweetie. Something went wrong and we found you passed out in front of our house and it wasn't good." "Burnt? How bad Tommy? How bad am I hurt?" "Easy Bill. I don't know how badly but I have cleaned and dressed everything that was bruised and probably caused you to pass out. You need a lot of rest now and you should be fine." "Come on Tommy, please don't lie to me. I want to know. Please..." "Okay, okay calm down. Most of it looks like bad sunburn and it's over your lower body and belly area. Your back has some but not as bad as the front." "My face? What about my face?" "From what I can see your hair got singed a little but other then soot I think you just got dirty and I cleaned your whole body with wet rags so you hopefully don't get infected. Your clothes were burnt pretty badly but somehow it looks like you just got pretty bad sunburn so to speak." "It hurts Tommy can I have some medicine?" "Sure pal I have something right here for you I am going to give you some basic Advil to start then if you still have pain I have something a lot stronger but I want to go slowly okay?" "Sure Tommy thanks." I held the back of his head and put a few pills in his mouth. "Swallow." "More water please." "Sure pal, no problem." He drank a good glassful and I was happy to no end knowing he was a little better. "Tommy, I have to pee." "Well other then the gauze wrappings you are totally naked Billy so that won't matter but I am afraid if you sit up what might happen to the dressings." "But I have to pee badly." "Okay I understand but you aren't going to like this. I have a pail here and I am going to have to hold it for you. Your hands are wrapped too. He lifted his gauze wrapped hands and began to cry. Relax cutie, I know this is tough but I need you to stay calm or else I don't know how you will heal. Please just relax." I wiped away the tears with a tissue. "I know this will be embarrassing but I am afraid I am going to have to hold you while you pee. I don't know of any other way to do this other then let you sit up and I don't know if you can without hurting a lot!" "Can I try?" "I guess Billy, we can try but slowly." I reached under his upper back and lifted him some. We got as far as him almost sitting straight up but he yelled about the pain in his belly and I had to put him back on the bed. "Sorry Billy but I don't know of any other way." "Its okay Tommy I can't wait any longer if I don't go right now I am going to just pee on myself." "Okay I am going to get the pail and hold your penis over the pail. I am so sorry Billy but I can't think of another way to do this." "I understand just please hurry." I grabbed the pail and gently took hold of his penis and aimed for the target for him. "Okay Billy go ahead and pee." He let go a stream that almost splashed all over me and him. That was the last thing either of us needed. I don't want to risk anything with his wrappings. He finished pissing after a bit and I shook off the last drop before letting go of his manhood. As much as I wished I could have enjoyed that I didn't give it a lot of thought since the situation is so bad. I covered him back up and he relaxed and shut his eyes. Kyle came back upstairs and called me out of the room for a second. We started talking in the room at first... "What's up bro?" "Billy is awake." "Awesome how does he feel?" "In pain!" "Yeah I bet." I took him out into the hall and we talked so we wouldn't disturb him. "I hung out for a bit and waited till it was dark. I got a good look inside after darkness set in and didn't see anything burning or even any smoke." "Great, thanks Ky." I reached out to him and grabbed him to give him a hug. I held him tightly as he did to me too. "I love you Kyle, don't you ever forget that!" "Love you too bro. I won't I promise." We broke our embrace and I kissed his head. "You know we have to leave here don't you?" "I kinda figured we would. I don't want to go." "I know Ky, but I can't live here anymore without feeling scared. I don't like that feeling or worrying about how this neighborhood looks now. I am going to take a ride over to the rich side of town and check out the mansions." "Awesome. You mean where the rich lived?" "Exactly. I think we can move into one of those huge ass houses and really live it up. Built in pool maybe even in the house and all the fun stuff. Would really be nice with winter coming soon." "Yeah I can't imagine swimming while it's snowing out. Can I come with you?" "Sure. We will go tomorrow as soon as I am sure everything and Billy is okay." "AWESOME!" "I know but moving most of this is going to be a real bitch and take a while but we have a lot of people and hopefully we can get it done in a few days." "Wow you think its going to take that long to move all this?" "Yeah I mean we have tons of food alone. Never mind everyone's personal stuff. Just the freezers alone will take everyone's help." "Yeah I see what you mean." "I am sure it will go well especially if we find a mint house and everyone gets a room and big bed. This should be fun eventually!" We smiled thinking for a minute of living in luxury and then I though about Billy and so did Ky. We were back from our temporary dream. Soon to be reality if I have my way! "I am beat Ky. I am going to get ready for bed but first I need to talk to Jon. see ya later okay?" "Yup." I went to find Jon and tell him what Kyle and I just talked about. "Jon?" I yelled out as I was coming downstairs. "In the kitchen." I walked in to meet him. "Hey I was just talking with Kyle and by the way Billy woke up I didn't tell anyone because I don't want everybody running up to bother him he needs to sleep tonight." "Don't you think you should at least tell Joey?" "Yeah when we are done I will. Where is he?" "In his room, probably cried himself to sleep." "Yeah I wouldn't doubt it. He looked so upset I thought he was going to puke from crying so hard." "I'm just glad he didn't Jon we don't need another sick kid on top of Billy and the fire." "Yeah I know, so what's up?" "I am sure you know this but we are going to move. It's not safe here anymore." "I figured as much." "I know you are disappointed but your house is fine mine is just a few feet from where a major fire was today and I don't feel safe in here anymore." "Where are we going?" "To luxury." "Huh?" "The mansions up on the hill silly. I am sure no one is there either and why not live with a built in pool and huge rooms and king size beds and so on. I am sure we have plenty of room in them and everyone will finally have their own room." "Sounds good but what about all our stuff?" "That's the bad part we have to move it all and that will probably take days." "Yuck!" "I know but imagine all the room and probably a pool table and maybe some pinball games and an indoor pool..." "Okay, okay stop I got it. So when?" "Tomorrow Ky and I are going looking." "Why can't I go?" "Because I need someone responsible to watch Billy." "Oh sure all of a sudden I am responsible." I looked at him. "All right, all right! I'll do it." "When we find a place you will be next to see it I promise. Maybe not the only one but definitely next." "Yeah sure, blah, blah!" "Hey that's not fair I can't do everything I want and neither can you we have to compromise!" "Yeah I know but I want to see new stuff first why does Kyle go? Why can't he stay with Billy he is responsible too!" "Kyle doesn't know CPR and you do. If anything happens we are screwed without one of us here. Soon he will be more stable and then you can come see. It all depends on his progress." "This sucks!" "Yeah I know it does and so do I!" "Not funny." He said as he pouted and walked away. I went looking for Kyle to see how he would react when I asked him to stay. I know he isn't trained in first aid but he isn't stupid either. "Kyle, I yelled for him... Kyle?" "Up here in my room." I went upstairs and into his room and shut the door behind me. "What's so serious now?" "Just Jon." "Let me guess. You told him about house hunting and he wants to go and you're here to tell me I can't go?" My mouth opened and nothing came out. "How did you know?" "Well duh? You two were in the kitchen and everyone could hear him cry. I was coming downstairs and I heard it and just went back up here. I figured you would be up as soon as he was done preaching his side of the `I want to go too' story." "Very funny but I came to ask you if you would feel safe watching Billy? I mean eventually he is going to come with me when I am sure Billy won't relapse. But I promised you and I want you to go with me." "Honestly I don't know what I would do if something did happen and he stopped breathing." "I kinda figured that." "Who is with Billy now?" "Danny wanted to see him so I made him put on clean clothes and take a shower and then he could be with him. I don't want anyone causing an infection and I really don't want anyone at all in there but he needs to be watched and I am not sitting there forever. We have too much to do." "Yeah, I know. So its me and you right?" "Yes." "Awesome!" "Just don't rub it in Jon is pissed already." "I know I will be good." "Okay see ya later. Want me to send up Shawn to keep you company?" "Nah I'm tired I am gonna hit the hay." "Okay, nite love you." "Nite Tommy, love you too." It was barely after 8pm but it was a tough day with him fighting the fire and all the heavy hose. I can't blame him I am beat too. Just wish I had a bed to sleep in. Maybe I'll sleep with Shawn tonight, hehehe. Jon can have the other side of the bed and watch Billy he won't mind. I gave him time to cool off and approached him. "Jon?" "What do you want now?" "Easy Jon it's not the end of the world. I just want you to sleep with Billy tonight and make sure he is okay." "Why, you can do that." "Jon... why are you being so tough to deal with tonight? It's been a bad day for everyone." "Okay fine I will do it." "Jon? We all have to chip in we have a very sick boy and a lot to do tomorrow." "Where will you be sleeping?" "With Shawn." "Oh sure... I know what's gonna happen in there." "You know what Jon. I'll sleep in the fucking truck okay? Is that better?" I turned and left him and headed back downstairs. I headed outside and slammed the door and walked to the truck in disgust. I got in the truck put on one of my favorite tapes in the player reclined the seat and closed my eyes. I tried but I couldn't sleep so I opened my eyes and sat up. At least there wasn't anything burning tonight close by. I looked down to the end of our building at the eerie burnt out shell of what used to be someone's home even if they were gone. All this shit started by someone no doubt that gets his hard on from lighting fires. Look what he did to Billy! Hell look what he did to all of us! Ruined our neighborhood forever and scarred a friend. I closed my eyes hoping it would prevent them from tearing up. It didn't. A few tears ran down my face before I changed my thoughts. I tried to put a positive spin on it by thinking that at least we were all back together. That none of us were missing. Finally I dozed off only to be awakened by someone tapping on the truck window. Not sure what to expect these days I cracked my eyes and saw Jon standing there. I sat up not wanting to play baby games this time and not pretend I was still sleeping like I might have done before. I powered the window down and looked at him. "You still mad or did you come out here for another reason?" "No I'm not mad anymore and I really wasn't mad at you. I was just pissed off because someone took our neighborhood away from us today and now even though we will probably move to a nicer place we will never have this to call home anymore." I opened the truck door and got out. "Jon, first of all unless it totally disappears this will always be home for us. It's scarred but its still standing and it's still ours. Second no one is telling us where to live in a way; this just made what would have happened eventually happen sooner. There isn't enough room for all of us anymore Jon. We need to spread out. Yeah I think it sucks big rotten smelly ass too but this was coming sooner then later." He moved to me and put his arms around me and held me. "Just hold me Tommy. Don't let go. This is probably one of the last times we can do this in our own neighborhood and still have everyone here." We held each other tightly for a while with the only thing breaking us apart being the light drizzle that began to fall. I still don't trust the rain totally but I suppose it's safe. I am just not ready to accept it as totally free of comet dust or anything else just yet. "Come on Jon lets go back in our place for the night." I put my arm around him and we walked the few yards back inside as a bolt of lightning flashed across the sky making us both jump. We began to laugh at being scared that way and we entered the house laughing our asses off. "Well that's the last thing I ever expected." Kyle said to Shawn. "Yeah Ky, what's that?" "To see those two boobs coming in together laughing." "Yeah I know what you mean Kyle... kids! You can't live with them or without them!" That drove us into more hysterics. He somehow managed another beauty. Leave it to Shawn to come up with something that priceless. I walked over to Shawn and looked straight faced into his eyes. "What? You mad at me now? I didn't do anything wrong, did I?" I picked him up and lifted him up in my arms. "No you silly goose you didn't do anything wrong. You are perfect just like this!" I gave him a kiss and put him back down. "Thanks Tommy. I love you too." I turned to Jon. "And you won't let me have any of that. How dare you." I started laughing again. He just shook his head and said I give up as he went into the kitchen for something. "I thought you went to bed Kyle?" "I did until you slammed the door and then I came down and so did Shawn." "Sorry. It hasn't been a good day." "Well if it's going to be quiet I am going back to bed. Good night." "Nite Ky." "Nite Tommy." "Nite Shawn." I went upstairs to relieve Danny from Billy sitting and check his dressings, I am sure they need to be changed now. "How is he Danny?" He was quiet Tommy. He moved a few times but didn't wake up once while I was here. "Okay thanks. I have to change his dressings so you have to go so I don't risk infecting him with anyone else in the room. I don't even want to be here for this." "Okay. Joey came by and said he wanted to stay with him tonight. Something about owing him that much." Just then Joey walked in. "Your guys talking about me?" "Not really Joey and there are too many people in here, Billy is trying to sleep. Let's go everyone out!" "You don't owe me anything Joey. It was my own choice to leave you didn't make me." "BILLY!" He shouted. I could tell he so wanted to hug him but he can't, not yet. "Hi Joey. What's new?" I snuck outside the door and took Danny with me so they could talk alone. Not that it stopped me from listening. But it gave them a little privacy. Danny walked away, I didn't. "Oh Billy I didn't mean to chase you away and I really didn't mean to talk about your private parts either. I am so sorry... can you ever forgive me?" "Sure I can. All I have been thinking about while I lay here is you. I was wondering where you have been and why I didn't see you right away." "I'm sorry but Tommy wouldn't let anyone see you because of infection and he wanted you to rest too. How are you feeling?" "I am in a lot of pain Joey. It's killing me and I can't do anything about it but rest. I can't even take a piss; look at my hands Joey I look like a freakin mummy!" He began to cry and that started Joey too. "I wish I could hug you Billy. I really do. I am soooo sorry this had to happen to you." He fought back the tears as I heard him sniffle. "I'm not giving up Joey so don't you worry! I'll be back as soon as I heal and then you and me are gonna have some real fun that is as long as you don't mind scars." "I will be waiting for the day Billy! I can't wait to hold you again. I am sorry I let go last time and you left without me stopping you and telling you how sorry I am but I was only joking and that was why I didn't go to you. I just figured this would all blow over but I never thought you would leave." "I was stupid too Joey for leaving. I went home and slept in my bed for the night and it felt pretty good having my bed back." "I am going to talk to Tommy maybe we can get it back after we move." "We're moving?" "Yeah Bill. They said something about not having enough room here anymore and tomorrow Tommy is going with Kyle to look at the mansions up on the hill." I walked back in figuring I gave them enough private or semi private time. "Hey Tommy Joey told me we are moving. How are you going to move me?" "We aren't. You are going to stay here alone." He looked at me like I was nuts. "Are you serious?" I cracked a smile and then he did. "No silly why would I do that to you? But I thought the look on Joey and your faces was priceless." Joey punched me lightly in the arm and Billy started to laugh. It was nice to see something other then pain on his face for the first time in a while. "Okay Joey let me change his dressings and see how he feels and then you can have him all night if you want." "Okay, I'll be waiting downstairs. I am hungry and going to make something to eat. Billy can I bring you something up to eat?" "Sure Joey thanks. Anything is good." Joey took off downstairs. "Well I guess if he is going to feed you then I shouldn't offer to jerk you off." "Why not asked a suddenly perked up Billy. You can do that anytime." I laughed. "I bet I could. But don't you want your friend doing that for you. I mean after all he is willing to spend the night here with you." "Yeah he is probably doing it out of guilt and nothing more. Tommy we aren't that close and if I had to choose between you and him there isn't a choice. I like you a whole lot more then Joey. But I do have feelings for him just not as strong as I do for you." "That's good to know let's see how you feel after we go through this bandage changes and then we can talk, not that I expect you to hate me but I expect you to be in quite a bit of pain after this because I am going to be aggravating all of your hurt skin." "Ohhhh gee thanks for cheering me up!" "Sorry, I am not an expert on this but I have a feeling it won't tickle." "Well if it helps at least I want to see my hands and maybe I might even be able to use them now. It's been a whole day now hasn't it?" "Yup and some since we found you. Since I don't know how often to change these I guess now is as good a time as any. I am going to go wash with alcohol be right back." I went into the bathroom and washed with soap and then with the rubbing alcohol. I need to get some rubber gloves from the pharmacy. I didn't think about that. I was done and I headed back in to see him. I shut the door and locked it so no one would bother us. I got all the bandages and salve and put it next to him on the bed. "Ready?" "No... but go ahead. Do my hands first okay?" I took his left hand and started to unwrap it. He was sitting up some with pillows behind his back so he could watch. I got the wrapping off and removed the gauze and it smelled some but it looked okay. "How does it feel?" "Funny, weird like." "Any pain?" "No not yet but this hand doesn't look bad. I don't even see blistering or red now." "Yeah maybe we can leave it off? What do you think?" "Well I don't know why we can't Tommy. There isn't any blood or open wounds so wipe the salve off some with clean gauze and see if it hurts." I did as he asked. "Any pain now?" "No, none and it looks okay too. Are you sure this hand was burnt?" "Not really Billy maybe I saw something and just wrapped it to be safe for you." He moved his fingers and made a fist. "I don't feel any pain at all Tommy this hand is fine." "Well that's good and bad." "Huh?" "You jerk off lefty or righty?" "Ummm, I can use either but mostly I use my right hand. Why?" "I was going to tease you about it but if you are righty more then lefty it would matter but now you can jerk yourself off and eat or do anything you want to as long as you can sit up this much." "Yeah and I can pee by myself too now." "Yeah I know." I frowned as I said that. "Awwww poor Tommy did you enjoy helping me pee?" I looked at him but didn't answer. "You did, didn't you Tom?" "Maybe. Does it matter? I was doing it for you not to satisfy me." "Well if I didn't know better and I am not saying this is true but if I didn't trust you I would think maybe you wrapped both hands so you could do that for me." I gave him a how dare you think that way look. "What? Do you really think I would take advantage of you Billy? I mean geeze if I wanted to while you were passed out I had total control of you why would you even think that?" "I knew you were going to go off the deep end when I said that. I didn't mean anything by it honest! And yes I do trust you and no I don't think you wrapped them both on purpose but I wanted to see if you would fly off the deep end. You did!" He started laughing. But I wasn't that amused. I guess I asked for it a little with the frown after his pee comment but ouch, that stung a little. "Other hand please!" He stopped laughing as I unwrapped the other hand. He winced some. I pulled off the wrapping and it was red but nothing more. "This one hurts doesn't it?" "Yeah it stings a little but doesn't hurt like pain." "Should I wrap this one?" "Yeah I guess." I cleaned it as best as I could and put a new dressing on it. "We'll check it tomorrow mean while you can jerk off lefty!" "I thought you were going to... oh you aren't going to now are you? You're mad at me for busting your balls over the... Tommy I am sorry I was really kidding with you. Don't do that to me please? You know I would rather have you do that for me anytime. Pleaseeeeee????" I didn't say anything but I did look at him for a second before I applied new salve and finished wrapping it. I went on without answering his cutting comments about the other stuff. He was just looking at me and then at the dressings. Probably waiting for me to give him an answer. "Okay now your belly and lower body are the worst so I don't want you looking if it is going to make you sick." "I'll be okay just go slowly." I pulled the gauze off and then the dressing and got a look at his lower belly. I looked at him and he seemed a little queasy but he swallowed hard and looked at me again. "It doesn't look that good Tommy does it?" "Not really. It's really red and a little blistered Billy. This is probably going to take a while to heal." "Yeah and it hurts now too since you were moving stuff and all." "I figured it might. Here take this. It will probably knock you out but at least after I am done you will be able to rest without a lot of pain. I still have your legs to do and they are like this too." I handed him a Vicodine and he popped it into his mouth and then some water which he was able to drink himself. I pulled back the cover exposing his naked body and didn't give him a look but I could see he was looking at me. I went on and finished the rest of his wrappings totally ignoring the fact that he had a small erection and probably wanted me to touch him or more but I didn't. He had some pain but nothing that caused him to yell out right. I guess that is a good thing and maybe he won't scar that much. At least he should be okay since I didn't see any major burns on him now that he has had some time to heal. "Okay I am all done and how do you feel?" "It stings a lot but the pill hasn't kicked in yet." "I am sure it will. I'll send Joey up with your food so you don't sleep with that pill on a totally empty stomach." "Thanks Tommy but..." "But what?" He pointed to his cock and the tent in the covers. "Aren't you going to help me out with that?" I looked at him, then at his tented covers and back at him. "No I don't think that would be right. I would be taking advantage of a semi drugged boy who is asking me to jerk him off when it could be the drugs talking and not him." "Tommy I told you I was sorry and the pill hasn't done shit so far. I have a hard on and I am begging you to please jerk me off. Okay I said it I am begging you!" He was practically screaming now. "Lower your voice or everyone will hear you and I don't need that kind of thing now. The others will definitely think I am taking advantage of you then." In a lower tone..."Please Tommy?" Knowing I wanted to and that I was a totally horny bastard when it comes to boy cock I reached out and touched it over the cover. He gasped and jumped a little. "Oh yeah!" he said. His cock jumped with my touch. It was truthfully the first time I had touched him in weeks. Again I touched him with the cover as a barrier. I watched his cock jump as I toyed around with it still under the cover. He was growing now too and the tent was bigger then before. I ran my finger all around it as he put his head back in the pillows and closed his eyes. He let out a deep breath and a partial smile was on his face. I took hold of it thru the cover and gave it a little tweak. He opened his eyes to watch me. Now I grabbed the sheet and pulled it off him and he was almost totally erect. About a good 4 inches if not more. I wasn't sure how much more he had if any to become fully hard. I reached out to him and grabbed the head of his cock. Already a droplet of precum had formed on top of it. "How long has it been since you came?" "About four days I think." "So you are really ready aren't you?" "You have no idea. I think if you keep playing with it I am gonna blow before you have time to jerk me off." I took the whole thing in my hand and again his eyes closed. I began to slowly jerk it up and down and he gasped again and let out a big exhale of air. "Ohhhh yeah that feels so good." Was all he said and then he grew quiet. I slid my hand up and down his sweet cock all the time watching his face. He went from contorted to calm as he seemed to continue enjoying my masturbating him. I continued this for another minute and his face was unchanged. I wasn't sure what was going on now with him so I stopped. He didn't move or complain. I got in closer and the little prick fell asleep on me. I could only guess the pill kicked in and knocked him into a deep sleep. Between that and my pleasuring him he must have fallen asleep. Too bad I was getting into it and by the looks of his now softening cock he was probably close to cumming. He is dribbling precum all over now. This was an absolute first for me and if he wasn't on the medication I would really be upset. I grabbed a tissue and wiped him clean and covered him back up. I felt pretty good that he would be okay now the only thing I wasn't sure of was if he would be scarred or not. I went over and unlocked the door and headed down to get Joey. "Joe..." "Yeah Tommy?" "You can go back up now but don't bother to bring him food he fell asleep. The pill for the pain kicked in." "Oh, okay." He headed back upstairs and out of sight. I thought about telling Jon about what was happened but I decided it was best left a secret. One that only Billy would know of if I remember to tell him in the morning. It was after 9pm now and I was tired. Now where am I going to sleep? I went over to Jon. "Jon I am beat I am going to bed are you sure you don't care where I crash?" "No Tommy I will sleep on my side of the bed tonight like you asked and if you really want to sleep with the little critter be my guest." "And you won't be mad?" "No, I'll live." "Good, that's where I'll be then. Nite!" "Good night Tommy." I headed up and knocked on Shawn's door. I didn't get an answer so I walked down to Kyle's room and knocked on his door. I heard some rustling and then Kyle yelled one second and he came to the door. I found this strange until he opened it and let me in. Shawn was on his bed. The first thing I thought of was are they doing it? I looked at Kyle. "Do you want something?" "Well I did before I realized you were busy. I was going to ask Shawn if I could share his bed with him tonight but I see he is in here and I will find some place else to sleep." I didn't wait for an answer I turned and left. If Kyle and Shawn are suddenly closer then I realized then it's their business and I won't get in the middle of it. I heard a little ruckus coming from my room now so I headed in. "Hey what the hell is going on in here? Billy is sick and sleeping and you and Joey are making enough noise so that I can hear you down the block!!" "I asked Joey to leave so I could sleep with Billy like you asked. He told me you said he could stay with Billy tonight. So what is it going to be? If he stays I am not going to sleep with him laying over us." "Okay... I have an idea. Joey you really want to be here all night?" "Yes or I wouldn't have asked." "Okay fine. Jon why don't we both sleep in their room and that will settle it okay?" "Sure as long as we change the sheets. I don't care anymore I just want to sleep now that I am in the mood. What did you say? We??" "Yes `we' will sleep together tonight." He had a look on his face but I wasn't going there. I headed back into Joey and Billy's room and made their bed up, took my pillow and got in bed next to Jon after I washed up. Before I could settle into a good position the door opened a crack and Shawn popped his head in. "Tommy can I talk to you?" I got up and slid my shorts on and walked out into the hall. "What is it Shawn?" "Not here please I want privacy." This was different. "But there isn't a private place in the house Shawn." "Then let's go outside, okay?" We headed down and to the front door. Trevor was on his cot and under the covers and other then that everything else was totally out of whack tonight. "What is so important that we have to come outside to talk Shawn?" "I...um, well I just wanted to tell you that nothing happened upstairs Tommy." "Nothing happened? What are you talking about? Ohhhh you mean when I came to the door and you and... Oh Shawn you don't owe me any explanation." "Yes I do and Kyle wanted me to tell you anyway. We weren't doing anything sexual Tommy we were both on his bed playing play station and he asked me to rub his back. I was a little weirded out at first but he said just my back Shawn nothing else. So I did. Just after that you knocked and he got up and went to the door. I couldn't tell what you said but when you left and he came back looking upset I asked him what happened. He told me you looked at him like we were messing around and left. Tommy I love you and I care a lot about Kyle but honest we weren't doing anything but the back rub I swear." He ran into my arms and hugged me. Then he broke away and looked up at me. "You believe me don't you Tommy?" "Yes I do Shawn. I believe you 100% I don't think you would lie to me ever and I love you too cutie." We hugged again and I headed back inside with him and right up to Kyle's room after locking the downstairs door. Kyle was sitting on the edge of his bed apparently waiting for us to come back to his room. "Is everything okay bro?" I walked over and sat next to him while Shawn stood by the door. "Yes Ky, everything is fine, you could have waited until morning to tell me all this but I thank you for doing it now. I was upset but I believe Shawn or you would never lie to me so it's all good. Now why don't you two go back to whatever you were doing. I would prefer bed for you since we have house shopping in the morning." "We are, I mean I am and Shawn is going to his room and sleep now too." "Okay bro, good night." I leaned in and kissed him good night. We hugged when I got up and then I headed out. Shawn said good night to him too and we left together. Now I had to decide where to sleep but I was going back to Jon. "Get some sleep cutie; I'll see you in the morning. Good night cutie." "Nite Tommy." I turned to go to back to Jon. "Tommy?" I turned towards him. He ran to me and hugged me almost knocking me over. "Please sleep with me tonight. Please?" I paused for a second to think it over. "Okay Shawn. I'll be right back." Great now I have to tell Jon. Here we go again. I walked in and over to him. "Jon I..." "Don't worry about it Tommy just go... I told you its okay, go sleep with Shawn." "Thanks Jon." "Don't thank me you owe me big and I want a GOOD blow job as soon as we are alone next time." "You got it Jon. Good night." I smiled and shut his door as I practically floated down the hall to Shawn's bedroom. I knocked as I entered. Shawn was sitting there waiting for me to come in. "How did it go with Jon?" "Well you can say I owe him big." "Then why don't you go back and sleep there tonight?" "Do you want me to do that Shawn?" "No. I want you right here with me. It's been too long." I walked over and sat next to him on the edge of his bed. "Yes it has been too long." Shawn immediately leaned on me swaying from his sitting position to me by falling almost like a tree. I caught him and held onto him. "Can we sit like this for a while Tommy. I like it when you hold me." I answered with my grip as I tightened it on him. He put his head on my chest as we sat up and I felt what I had been missing for the past week plus since I had Jon back in my room with me. Indisputable love, but it is different though. Almost impossible to explain, when I am with Jon I felt love but not really loved. Even though I know he does love me it feels like he is saying it to be heard rather then saying it because he means it. But when I am with Shawn I feel it like he loves me not so much for who I am but for what I am. Its too bad he is so young. I enjoy his actions and attention much more the Jon's most of the time. After a while of this I got up and slid into bed and Shawn joined me as soon as I settled in. "Tommy?" "Yeah cutie?" "I'm glad you are here with me tonight. It's been a really bad day for all of us and having you here makes it seem better and I feel safer too." I leaned over and kissed his mop of hair. "I know it has Shawn and being here with you makes me feel good and needed too." "I need you a lot sometimes Tommy but you have so much to do I don't know whether I should come find you or just do what I usually do. He paused. Wait until I see you alone or see you doing nothing and try to talk to you." "Why do you wait? If you want me just come up to me and if I am not too busy I will listen to you." "I know Tommy but you have so much to do and all of us to care for and I guess I just want..." again a longer pause like he was trying to think of the right thing to say. "Want what cutie?" "I want you all for myself sometimes. Like now when no one is bothering us and I can snuggle up to you and smell the soap or your shampoo and feel safe." I smiled as he rested his head on my chest up against my chin. I held him tightly as a tear ran down my cheek. How could I be so lucky? Neither of us said anything else and after a little bit I heard his breathing change and his sweet body go limp and I knew from the past he was sleeping. I reached behind me and straightened out my pillow and closed my eyes wishing this moment could last forever but knowing as soon as I fell asleep morning would be here and it would be over. I drifted off to sleep taking in Shawn's boy smell and for the moment anyway...not having a care in the world except for the one that was attached to my side. Dwedno@hotmail.com Copyright Dwedno 2004.