Date: Thu, 29 Oct 2009 08:44:23 +0000 From: Tommy Evans Subject: Uriel And Jon:Growing Up Part 4 Well I posted the new addition to the story without spell checking it, and there were a few errors. I just want to apologize I will try my hardest to not be so lazy and check it next time. But again, thanks for reading and please send me comments to my email at tommy199212@hotmail.com I sat down on my bed. He sat next to me. Once again I had the flash backs. Once again I had lost that little boy. The one who had made me happy from day one. The one kid who at the short age of 11 had changed my life in a way that was unreal. He had the ability to act so mature at some things, and then the 11 year old comes out. But today, I saw a part of him that I had never imagined existed inside of him. The anger, the hate that came out of him was too much for me to handle. "Aaron, dude, not to be mean to you, but he's 11. You're 21." "I know, man. Wait I'm not 21 I`m only 17! And Its hard to explain. But I love him" "Well same difference. I wanted to focus on the fact that he's half your age and well, maybe someone else loves you MORE than he does" "Like I'll ever find that person" I said. "Maybe your just not looking" "True, but still. I think I'm going to take it easy" "No Aaron, I mean...you're NOT looking" he said. He got closer to me. Close enough that I felt his breathe on my face. "oh" I said. He moved in, I felt his lips. It was one of the most warm kisses I ever got. For that one second, he was the only thing I could think of. It was, different. Meaningful in every way you could say. But still, it was too soon. I pushed him back. "Dude, no. not now" was all I could say "Why won't you give me a chance?" "Because, I just let go of someone I thought I'd never let go of" "Dude, seriously. It'll be fine. Get your mind off of it" "Its not easy at all man. You just never been in love" "True, but I could be starting to fall for someone" "I hope you don't mean me" I said. "Why?" "We just met. It's impossible for it to be love." "Aaron, you saved me, you make me smile, you care about me. What more can anyone ask for" "Well you'd be surprised" I added. "You see, even in times of crisis you manage to make me laugh" he said as he hugged me. "Thanks JR, but that empty space, its not going to go away anytime soon" "I know I just wish it wasn't taken up by that jerk little kid" "He's just confused JR, he's not as grown up as you are" "He'll never be." "Yeah, so what do we do, I don't want to sit here and start crying or something" I said. "Let's watch a movie" he said. "Well it's almost 10 pm we can put one in and then we have to get ready for bed. We do have school tomorrow sadly" "What if we skip school?" he asked. "No, there's no reason to skip it!" "Come on dude, seriously. We could spend a whole day together and talk and enjoy it" "I don't think we should. It will be too weird." I said. "Ok fine" So we turned on the TV in my room and lied down on my bed. I was trying really hard to no think about Jon. I mean I should be used to it by now, it happens so much. I mean we hadn't really even been together for one full year. It's been chopped up by stupid incidents. But even if this whole JR thing could make me move on, it had just happened today. I can't just forget. I just can't. it would only be like the other times. How many more do I have to go through to get to the ONE. I mean, I had already been hurt by each of the people I fell for. But the only difference is that Jon is only one to have done it multiple times. Maybe it was time to finally give it up. We did share our good times, definitely our bad times and of course the awesome times. But one thing I knew for sure, I was not going to get sexually involved with anyone for a while. It was just too much to handle. I have to get used to not having sex for fun. Its just not right. I could eventually hurt someone, just like they hurt me. "Aaron, you're spacing out" JR broke the silence. "oh sorry. I was thinking" "Man, I don't know how you are going to make it through school tomorrow. I really don't" "JR, I'm tough, I can make it. You act as if it was the first time this happens" "No, but I know it is the last time" he smiled. He turned off the TV and hugged me. We started to get ready for bed. I went to the bathroom to wash my face and do my routine. Once again I had a flash back. Jon coming to me while I washed my face and when we use to brush our teeth together. I couldn't take it. I splashed cold water on my face. I got to get him out of my mind. He's gone. His voice, his eyes, everything about him today said it. I finished up and joined JR in bed. "Hey, what are we going to do about Jon tomorrow?" he asked. "What you mean?" "Well, school, how's he getting there, where is he sitting at lunch, where are you sitting?" he asked. "O man I don't even know. I don't want his parents to know whats going on" "Yeah, they would start asking questions. Do you want me to call him? I'll talk to him if you want me to?" "Um, I don't know. I guess" I said. I knew I couldn't handle seeing him, but I also didn't want him to not have a ride to school. JR dialed the phone and I listened. You could hear Jon loud and clear from the speaker. "What the fuck are you calling me for?" Jon answered. "I got a question"JR said. "You? Aren't you at Aaron's?" "Yeah I am, but he's in the shower. What are you doing for school tomorrow?" "I, um...I don't know. Skip it I guess" Jon said confused. "You're going to skip, can't you ask your parents to take you?" "Why the fuck do you care? You ruined everything and then you worry about how I get to school?" "Because I'm not a fucking ass hole. I just worry about your parents starting to ask questions" "Okay well, I don't know ok. I'll figure it out" Jon said angrily. "why don't you just come with us?" JR asked. "I don't think Aaron will let me" "Jon, he's not a jerk. He will let you go. He still cares about you" "You think so? I don't want to see him though" Jon said. "Well, it's up to you. If you find a ride to school then figure it out. If you need a ride come in the morning as usual" JR said before he clicked. "Don't freak out on me. He is just still mad. Just like you" JR said to me. "I know. I feel the same way. Like I want to see him but not really. But I don't want him to skip school either. Maybe if just don't talk to him, you know it will be okay" I said. "Yeah, let's hope so" He agreed. that's when it hit me. Oscar had no clue what was going on. I had to tell him. "JR, I got to tell Oscar what's going on" I said. "O, yeah you might want to." he handed me my phone back. I dialed Oscars' number. "whats good" he answered. "Dude, major drama" I said. "hm...Jon?" "Yeah, umm did you know JR is like distant cousins with him?" I asked. "NO! what the heck?" "Yeah, and well JR told me some stuff about Jon, like that he cheated and done stuff." "O yeah, damn that's fucking bogus. What are you going to do" "Well, we had a huge fight tonight. He said he hated me and what not. He said he never loved me" "What an ass. So now he lost his friends for good" "No, I don't want him to lose you. Stay being his friend." "I don't want to. I don't know" "Hey, he's going to need you" "Yeah, I guess. He is like family. But still what a bitch" "I know! Well I don't know how he's getting to school tomorrow." "O yeah, I'm sure he will find some one. He always finds ways" "You sure?" I asked. "Positive, I'm sure he called someone right after the fight" "If you say so, well I'll see you tomorrow" I said. "Yeah" he hung up. "You see Aaron, even Oscar didn't find it all that bad" JR said. "Um, he called him a bitch, an ass, and a jerk" I answered. "True, but I mean he knows his friend. I'm sure it didn't surprise him" "Yeah, sadly. It probably didn't" I agreed. I stopped talking and he got the clue. We juts lied in bed. After a few minutes of silence, he grabbed my hand. I didn't say or do anything. I just let it be. I just lied there. Staring at the dark ceiling. I'm going to be ok, I told myself. Then after a while, he turned around and hugged me. I didn't move. He cuddled against me, I just let him be. As long as there was no sexual action, I wasn't going to stop anything. I tried to relax. I tried pushing Jon to the back of my head, but I knew it was going to take a lot. The next morning came too soon. My alarm went off as usual. We both got up and started getting ready, in a zombie state of course. We got ready in silence, neither one wanted to bring the subject up or ruin anything yet. 15 minutes later he followed me to the kitchen. We grabbed some cereal and sat down. "So..." Jr exhaled. "sorry, I'm spacing" I answered. "What time does Oscar get here?" he asked. "Should be here any minute now" I said. We sat there, quietly until Oscar appeared at the glass door. I opened it. "Morning" he said quietly. Then he just gave me a hug. "Thanks..." I said a little confused. "Just thought you would need one" he smiled. "That was cute" JR added. "So...you're his cousin?" Oscar asked as he grabbed a bowl from the cabinets. "Yeah, long story. But I know about you. Quite a lot actually" JR said with a smirk. "Wow, thanks. Kind of freaky. So he told you a lot, then he just tries to pretend you don't exist?" Oscar asked. "Yeah, I didn't exist in his world. Just you know at family reunions and through emails and text. But our worlds were completely different until now" Both Oscar and me were still a little confused about how this was possible. What a small world. The whole `everything happens for a reason' quote meant a lot more to me now. "So, do you think he's showing up?" Oscar asked. "I have no clue. Probably not" said JR. I didn't want to add my thoughts to this because quite frankly, it scared me. I just sat there and ate my cereal. Just trying to imagine how life would be from now on. I was going to graduate in a few months, 3 to be exact. After that maybe I can move into an apartment or something. I don't know if I can stay another 4 years at the academy. I don't know if I can handle being in the same vicinity as Jon and not feel like I should go find him and get him back on my side. "Aaron your spacing again" JR said as he threw an apple at me. It hit me right on the forehead and I didn't even move. Oscar started laughing like a maniac. "It wasn't that funny" JR said. "O man it was" Oscar said as he laughed harder. "yeah you're right" JR joined on the laughter. I realized that I was so spaced that I wouldn't have moved even if it was a deadly weapon coming at my face, I started laughing too. We started joking around and making fun of each other for fun. They wanted to get my mind of off things. But, just as I was forgetting, Jon walked in. We all froze. "Umm...whats up" he said. I knew he felt weird. I felt twice as weird. "Not much...cereal?" Oscar asked. "No thanks, I just ate" Jon answered. He just stood there. "So, you going to sit?" JR asked. "No, its ok" he avoided my eyes. "Listen, we only have about 4 months left of school. Lets not make it weird." Oscar added. "Ok" Jon answered. I didn't know what to do. Both JR and Oscar looked at me. I felt the pressure on me. "Dude, its just a ride. Pretend you're not in the same car as me" I finally said. "Ok" he said once again. "Okay lets get going" JR said as he grabbed the plates and put them in the sink. I followed JR to the garage and Jon stayed behind with Oscar. I don't know what Oscar was going to say but I hoped it wasn't anything mean because things were already weird. They followed us seconds later. ***************************************************************** At school things felt a little less tense. JR and I went back to our normal stuff. It felt like in class my life was ok. I mean I was always good at school, and with a smart friend like JR I felt even better because I could relate to him. We always knew the answers to the problems, and we always were thinking of how to get ahead of the class. I guess you can say we were the typical overachievers. We still wrote little notes to each other even tho we knew it was gay. We found it funny. Every once in a while I'd get a text from oscar asking me how I was. I always said good. At least until lunch. Then it would be really weird. I dreaded that time, I wanted the clock to skip that hour and go directly to the class after lunch. What was I going to do? We went through the rest of the classes without talking about what to do until that moment came. I felt the pressure again. JR looked at me as we walked down the hall way. We slowly walked to the cafeteria without talking, I was hoping he'd ask first. I didn't want to be the first. Then we bumped into Oscar at the entrance. "Um, so yeah, how's this going to work?" Oscar asked. "No clue, but follow me" JR said. We walked to a table and set our things down. I looked around for Jon, nothing. I started to panic, part of me wanted to see him, and the other part wanted to run. But either way something had to happen. "Well lets get food" JR said. We followed him. I guess we weren't going to wait for Jon to look for us. As we were walking, both Oscar and JR suddenly stopped. They pointed. I looked, and I saw Jon sitting with other people. They looked, real different. I don't know how to describe them. Even tho we were supposed to wear a uniform, there were still some things you could change about it. And I guess these guys were the ones to do it. They had weird ghetto shoes on, and the same hair cut, a weird line up looking thing. Whatever the gangsters of today are doing, they were copying. "So that's who he's hanging now? The ghetto dudes?" JR asked. "I think so" Oscar said. "Let's get food." I said as I looked away and headed towards the food line. I couldn't believe he was sitting there. Since when does he want to be part of that sort of group. Grant it he had no where else to go, but damn he could have still sat with us. We grabbed our food and went back to our table. Neither of us talked very much. It was a crazy day for us. Its weird how one relationship can hurt the relationships around it. I mean even though the rest of us were ok, both JR and Oscar knew that it was going to be tough for me to adapt to the change. JR and Oscar had a conversation about cell phones while I just kind of sat there and thought to myself. I barely touched my food. I wasn't feeling very good. I didn't want it to affect me this much, but I guess it was. Damn. After lunch, the three of us walked out and JR pushed me forward so I wouldn't wait for Jon, he knew I was thinking about it. "Come on lets go to class" he said as he pulled me. "yeah don't worry about the little idiot" Oscar added. The rest of the day was not the same. I couldn't shake it off. Now I knew why I didn't want to go to the same school. Its tough. Not even gym class snapped me out of it, and that's usually where JR flirts with me while he changes, today I didn't even pay attention. He didn't even bother. When the final bell rang JR dragged me to the bathroom. "Listen to me good. You got to snap out of it. He can't know how your feeling." "I know I know. I will hide it from him ok" I said. "Good" We both walked to my car and waited for Oscar to show up. I mean we figured he'd get there before Jon did. Just like we thought, Oscar showed up first. "So, yeah school was okay today" Oscar said when he came up to me. "Yeah, I'd say so" I said. "Um, so how long do we wait?" Oscar asked. "Til' he gets here?" I answered. "If he gets here. Maybe he already found new friends and new ride" Oscar said. "You think he's that good at making friends?" I asked. "No, but at being fake, yes" JR jumped in. "That is true" Oscar shook his head in agreement. "Well I got to go. My brother should be here any minute. Thanks for everything Aaron, I'll see you tomorrow" JR said as he did his hand shake with me. "Of course man" I said. "laters" Oscar said to him. Oscar and I got in the car and waited. But just like Oscar said, Jon didn't show up after 10 minutes. Then 15 minutes. Neither of us said anything. But after 20 minutes, I decided to go home and he didn't stop me, which meant he agreed. Oscar didn't say much on the way home, he probably knew I was thoughtful about what was happening. When I pulled up to his driveway, he just looked at me. "Are you going to be okay?" he asked. "Yeah I am" I said. "okay, well I'll call you later or something" he said as he walked away. I didn't know how I was going to be to be honest. I wanted to be strong, and I was strong when I was with company. Alone, I really don't know how I would fell. This was just so fast. A few days ago, we were fine. He was the best he could be, and then out of nowhere, bam, he changes. The worst part is that he's only a kid. He could change into much worse. ****************************************************************** The year went by kind of fast. It was now June, my birthday had passed. I turned the big 18. Nothing special really. JR and I went out to eat with my family and Oscar and Jon were out of town. Since Oscar did start hanging with Jon, he was having a hard time dividing his time between the both of us. Sometimes he sat with Jon and sometimes he sat with us at lunch. We didn't make a big deal out of it. As for Jon, I hadn't spoken to him. The pain slowly was going away, but was still there. JR did help a lot and did spend a lot of time with me, but he never pushed me. As of now we were just friends. We did hold hands, sometimes we would even come close to kissing, but that was all. I was sticking to my word of taking my time. I felt as if I jumped into anything, it would be just that, jumping. High school graduation was in a few hours, and I had to choose between starting the college credit classes here at the academy or going to an actual college. My parents did say it was my choice. I was still undecided. Part of me wanted to continue here so I could spend time with JR and sometimes with Oscar, but the other part of me wanted to stay away. I had met new friends, but I had kept them at a distance, I didn't really invite any new friends over, or went out to parties or anything. You could say I kind of seclude myself, but I knew nothing better. Every once in a while I'd see Jon in the hall way with his friends, he had changed. he walked differently, he talked differently, definitely dressed differently. He was wearing the shoes, the haircut, the belt, and the stupid wristband the little click had. Its amazing what a few months can do to a person. I was getting ready for the graduation ceremony with JR in my room when Oscar came in. "Sup dudes, what time is the party?" he asked. "Um, after the ceremony duh." JR answered. "Geez just asking. Hey, Aaron Jon and his friends are at my house, is it cool if I bring them?" Oscar asked. "Um I don't think Aaron even has to answer that" JR said irritated. "I don't think that's a good idea." I said. "Why man, I don't want to ditch them" he complained. "So don't, I don't mind if you get here late, or even if you don't come. Just don't bring them here" I said. "Yeah, that's just crazy to try to put that group here. They'd scare people away" JR joked. "that's bogus man." Oscar said. "Man, seriously? Right now? On my graduation day you want to make me mad?" I asked. "NO dude but I'm just saying." Oscar was beginning to push me the wrong way. I think he started spending too much time with those guys. He started talking like them. "Fine, I'll try to come when they leave." Oscar finally gave up. "Okay, have fun" I said. "Yeah I will try" he looked ticked. "why would he even try to bring that ass here" JR said angrily. "Because I'm sure he wants to fix things with me and Jon or simply bug me I don't know" I said. "But I thought he was our friend, why would he bring that now, I mean we've done so good without Jon." "I know, it really beats me I don't know what he's up to." I said. I didn't want to think about Jon today, but of course, he somehow found a way to get into my thoughts. Since we met, he said he would be there when I graduated, but he's not going to be there. I can't say that I'm mad anymore, its turning more into disappointment. I thought he was going to be something else, I didn't think he was just going to find the simple minded group of people and follow their lead. I hated how he was follower. We finished getting ready and went to the ceremony. The ceremony was way too long, but I mean it felt nice. I think I would have liked it better if I graduated it at my old school, good old public schools, but o well cant complain. This felt a little more like college graduation because it was done so fancy smanshy, I wasn't used to that. I also didn't think I'd have to sit there for 3 freaking hours! That is way to long to sit in a very uncomfortable chair. After the whole hat toss and what not I took my pictures with JR and my family. I was happy that my parents had taking a liking to JR just as quick as Jon. In the beginning they did kind of question it. I mean I can explain Jon being my neighbor, but JR was a school mate. I just told them he had every class with me and well, we just clicked. Once at home, I went to change for my party. It was big. My dad would never allow me to have a lame graduation party. He went all out. He had lots of guests and lots of drinks and music and food. I knew it was going to be crazy. He also told me that I should be able to drink now. Not that he wants me to break the law, but you know being Mexican, we are allowed to drink at age 18 anyway. I was sitting in my room waiting for JR to get ready when Uriel walked in through my door. O boy, I said to myself. "Well, hello there handsome" he said. "Hello there Uriel" I answered. "So graduation eh?" "Yeah, cant believe it myself either. I made it" "Been a while eh?" he asked. "A little..." "You okay?" he asked. "Yeah, why do you ask?" I questioned him. "I don't know, can't a guy ask his friend how he is?" "Yeah, he can. Its just I'm not used to you asking stuff like that. I'm sorry" "Well, I noticed on your website that you are still a little sad, unlike most people I figured it was because you don't talk to Jon." "What, you figured that out all by yourself?" I asked with a smile. "Yeah! I'm not stupid. Well, I can be at times, but I'm still a little smart" "Ok I give you credit. Yeah I'm still shaky about that. But um, I'm good. Made a new friend, I'll introduce you to him later. He's cool as heck" "New friend? As in friend? Or what exactly do you mean?" he asked. "Friend. You do know the definition of friend right?" "Yeah, I do. But I was just wondering what kind of FRIEND you made" "OH, I see where this is going. No its not like that man. Geez give me a break, I'm not a horndog...well not anymore" I said. He sat next to me on the bed. His hands kind of touched mine, I moved mine. He put his arm around me. "Listen, I know you told me that you didn't like me anymore, I'm okay with that. But I'm not okay with you completely shutting me out of your life." he said as he pulled me in towards him. "Umm...you have your arm around me?" I said confused. "We're friends right? Like bros? its normal" he explained. "I understand that, but its hard man. And I'm sorry I kind of forgot you. With everything in my life going crazy, its hard to keep up sometimes. But I do miss my buddy" I said. "But tell me, whats it like being 18?" he asked. "Whats it like being almost 14?" I asked him. "umm the same, really just got a few more hairs where there used to be nothing" he chuckled. "Well for me, its almost the same as you. Except, I'm graduating and I'm allowed to drink" I said. "So whats wrong?" "It's, the fact that I don't know what to do. I don't know if I should go to regular college, or take college credit classes at my school" "Which one is cheaper?" "My school, but not by much" "Well then um...which one is farther away from Jon?" "Regular college, but how do you know that's the problem?" "Because if it wasn't, you'd stay at your school without a problem" "So you're saying follow my instincts?" "No, don't run away from the problems, but also don't change your life to deal with him. He doesn't run your life" "I know Uriel! But dude, its hard ok. In just a year and half, he changed my life." "Yeah, well I've been your friend since like...I don't even know. You were always there since I can remember. And you don't change your life around me do you?" "No, but that's different..." I said confused. "No its not. You're just too attached to this kid. Let it go. He doesn't even fuck with you" "Yeah..." I said. "O my god. He does! I get it now!" he yelled. "What...no!" "Stop trying to hide it. Your face, your reaction, the way you said it...you guys were dating weren't you!" "stop" I said. "No...this is what's keeping you like this. You're confused. You let yourself fall for a kid. And look at what's happening to you. Aaron we need to go drink downstairs" he said as he hugged me. I never knew it was going that easy for him to handle. I thought he would freak out or something. Maybe even feel bad or betrayed, I mean I would if I was him. But no, he just hugged me. He felt bad for me, he worried. Now I was starting to feel like I made the wrong choice months ago when I chose Jon over him. What the heck was I thinking? Or why wasn't I thinking. I looked at him. I saw the eyes, those beautiful hazel eyes. My little uriel was still there, I was just too blind to see him. Just then JR entered the room. "Aaron how about we", he stopped when he saw me and Uriel, "oh hi. You busy?" "Just talking. Uriel meet JR, JR meet uriel." I said. "Sup JR" uriel said. "What up. So you're the famous Uriel eh" Jr said. "You know me?" Uriel asked. "I've heard stories" "Aaron?" Uriel looked at me. "No...don't look at me. I haven't told him anything" I said. "No, not him. From Jon" JR said. "What? Why? How?" Uriel asked. "I'm sure we'll have plenty of time to get acquainted and talk about this" JR said as he walked to us. "Can we go drink then?" Uriel asked. "Im...not sure about that" I said. "Come on Aaron lets live life!" Uriel complained. "Uriel, you're only 13" I said. "Soon to be 14 I tell you" he fought back. "Ok well I don't know man. Lets just have fun ok" I said as we headed to the door. "For the record, I think we can drink and have fun and not get stupidly wasted you know" JR added. "So, where did you get this kid with such an amazing vocabulary?" Uriel asked. "School" I said. We walked to the backyard where guests had arrived and everyone seemed to be having a good time. There was lots of food, music, drinks, all the ingredients of a good night. JR and Uriel followed me to a table where we grabbed some food and sat down to eat. People would walk by and congratulate me, some people would give me cards, some with money, some with other stuff. Then there was the random tips on college and growing up. I felt pretty darn special getting all these random things. Uriel and JR were having small talk, they seemed to get along quite well, which was good for me. I didn't want to deal with anymore fights or anything of the sort. "Hey aaron do you think oscars going to show?" JR asked. "I don't think so. I mean, I don't know what he's up to with those kids" I said. "Umm...not fighting with him too are you?" Uriel asked. "No, we're good. But he's starting to hang with Jon and his new crew" I said. "Its stupid and annoying I tell you. He's changing and I don't even know him that well yet. I can tell you that Jon's not going to be same, ever again" JR said. "I'm still confused about how you come into play into this crazy web of friends and foes" Uriel said. "Well your vocabulary isn't that bad either there mister." JR said. "Thanks, my simplicity is just a cover up for the genius part of me" Uriel joked. "Right...simplicity" I laughed. "Shut up Aaron. You know I'm smart" Uriel said. "I know I know. But sometimes, you just slip" I said. "Ha, anyway, Jon's my cousin. He didn't tell Aaron about me. I wasn't supposed to meet him, but life just put all of us at the same school. Then, everything exploded, and well, I find myself being friends with one of the coolest dudes I've ever met" JR explained. "Dude, you need to get out more" Uriel joked. "HEy!" I said angrily. We continued to talk about little things and sometimes the occasional big thing, but what I liked the most was the chemistry. It wasn't a boy trying to fight for attention or trying to impress anyone, it was just 3 dudes talking about whatever and having a good time. We even started drinking a little bit of wine here and there. Before we knew it we were laughing and even started to talk to a couple of young ladies that were hanging around us. Our table had been filled up with teenagers. It was something I wasn't used to. I was usually just with a close group, having small talk. Usually the people in the group didn't really like each other. But today, it was just teens having fun, and I liked it. My parents were doing their own thing with the other guests and we were just having a blast on our side of the party. The drinking got a little crazy, but no one seemed to be crazy drunk, not just yet. The music started and all of us began to dance and have a blast. I hadn't lived life like this, and I was starting to like it more than I thought I would. Time was flying, I was having fun, Uriel was hilarious, JR was helping Uriel be hilarious, and I was just talking to everyone and dancing of course. I think we had gone through at least 2 bottles of alcohol before it was even midnight. Since our parents were too busy drinking and dancing themselves, it was all good for us. At about 1am, I went inside to freshen up. I was in my bathroom looking in the mirror. I liked what I was doing. The whole having fun with random people, and meeting new people. I had spent a lot of time enclosed in that little Jon/Oscar bubble that I had let go of the fun side of me. I hadn't looked at my phone at all for at least 2 hours. I checked it. I had a missed call from oscar and a handful of texts. I read one from oscar. I'm sorry I didn't go. I was with my friends and when they left they invited me to sleep over. Sorry. I shrugged it off. O well. I saw it coming anyway. I didn't even bother replying. I mean I cared about him, but we were starting to talk less and less. Yeah we were still cool and I trust him, but I could sense that he was becoming more interested in the bad habits and the dumb people in his little group. Then I looked at the next text. It was from Jon. Dude I kno u didn't want me at your party. I kno I promised I would be there. Just wanted to say good luck. I didn't forget. I stopped breathing for a second. I didn't imagine he'd try to communicate at all anymore. I didn't know if I wanted to reply or not. Part of me did, part of me didn't. If I texted him, he'd probably get the idea that I'm thankful that he remembered and that I'd like to keep talking to him. I don't want that. I'm tired of going back to him after he messes up. If I don't text him, he'd probably be sad or mad about the fact that I ignored it and he'd probably avoid me. I chose the second option. I've been doing well for the last few months, and after the fun I just had, I think I'd be fine. Well that's what I told myself anyway. I went back outside to the party. My new friends and of course JR and Uriel were still having a good time and were waiting for me. I walked over to my mom to check in and what not and I found myself getting hugged by Jons mom. She gave me a box and told me Jon wanted to be here but he had to do something. I just smiled and told her I understood and what not. didn't want to freak her out of course. I took the box inside, I went to my room. I was really not expecting anything crazy but for some reason I wanted to be in my room when I opened it. The box had a framed picture of me and Jon. She wrote a note on it. thanks for everything. Thanks for taking care of my son. You're a great role model. We all wish you the best of luck. I was stumped. The note, the picture, the memories, it was too much for me. I sat down on my bed to think. Then I looked in the box again. There was a book about growing up. Nice thought, should be good. And then there was a watch, good looking watch. I took my new watch to the dresser and the book to my bookshelf and as I was putting the book in an empty slot, a note fell out. I opened it up. It was from Jon. It read: Aaron. Im sorry I missed your graduation. Thanks for everything. JON It was the shortest, most simplest note ever, yet it hit me. Why on earth would he even bother doing this? Is he trying to mess with my head? Did he really mean that? I thought I could handle almost everything, but this was not on that list of almost everything. What the heck am I supposed to feel? Is it my fault that all this happened? Should I have gone out of my way AGAIN and chased after him and made him stay with me? No, that's not right. I didn't know what to do anymore, I wanted to just go out again and drink until I passed out, yeah, I think I might. I made my way down the stairs and I bumped into Uriel on my way outside. He was leaving the bathroom. "I washed my hands I promise" he slurred. "You're drunk" I said. "You're crazy" he answered. "How much have you drank?" "Not as much as you, come on lets drink" he said as he pulled me. I followed him outside. Everyone at our table was laughing and joking and still having a good time. "Where have you been at?" JR asked. "O you know doing some things" I answered. "He was in his room living in the past again" Uriel added. "Umm...thanks for your great support" I said. "Anytime" Uriel said as he drank another shot of tequila. "Umm...how many has he had JR?" I asked. "Plenty, apparently our parents don't care as long as we stay HERE" he answered. "Yeah, I hear you" I said. I grabbed 2 cups of tequila and downed them both. "Woah! Hold on there man! What are you doing?" JR asked. "Getting drunk" I answered. Then, everything got crazy. We started playing jokes on each other and then started making bets. The dancing started again, the girls were going crazy, I heard both JR and Uriel say things I'd never really thought about and of course I got a little out of hand too. I thought I was doing fine, I was dancing and drinking and laughing. But I also started to space off and do things I wouldn't normally do. My parents were also having a good time and my dad kept saying `that a boy' every time he saw me take a shot of anything. All I wanted to do was have a good time and forget about all the stupid things in my head. Once I started to loose control of all my senses, I vaguely remember flirting with lots of girls, and of course with Uriel and JR. I don't know why I was doing everything I was doing, all I know is that I liked it and it was fun. Eventually we stopped drinking and little by little, people began to leave, but it was also really late when that happened. I think the time was like 4am or something like that. By no means did the party end though, sometimes it last until the next day. So Uriel, JR and I kept talking with our newly met friends, which were mostly just girls, the guys weren't all that cool. "Aaron, I think this is the first time we party, and man do your parents know how to throw a party" Uriel practically had to yell for me to hear him. The 20 speakers around us were still blasting music so loud you could probably hear it blocks away, but that's okay because we had warned all the neighbors and invited them over to party it up with us anyway. Although we were in a big tent, I'm sure sound was still coming out. The party went on until about 7am. Not even I could handle that much. The three of us were sitting at the table half awake, half asleep. "I think we should try to make it to bed now" Uriel said, very slowly. It was hard for him not slur his words after everything we had drank. "I second that" JR added. "I think you mean I thirdly that cuz I see three of you" I said. "I think your drunk Aaron" Uriel laughed. "no shit! Lets go to bed" I said. We stumbled our way to my room. Man it was hard, I don't think I've ever seen that many steps on my stairs, I think someone came in and added more. When we got to my room I shut all the blinds and the curtains, it was dark. Not as dark as night, but still dark enough to sleep. We tried changing into pjs but it was hard. We ended up in boxers and under shirts. "So, where we going to sleep?" Uriel asked. "I don't know but im going to my bed" I said. "I'm with him" JR added. "Fuck it, me too" Uriel said. "Okay" was all I could say before I crash landed on my bed. To my surprise I was not in the middle. I had enough senses in me to know that this was probably not a good idea, but I didn't care. Uriel was the one in the middle this time. "oh aaron, can you hug me please I'm cold" Uriel said. "or u could use the cover" JR said. "I know but I think aaron warms me up better" "I do know. I have that power" I chuckled. "yeah, he does" JR said. "What?" Uriel said surprised. "Nothing, we're all drunk. Nothing makes sense. We should sleep" I said. "or we could fuck" Uriel said. "We could, a threesome?" JR asked. "Umm...I don't know about you guys, but there aren't any girls in here" I said. "Who needs them!" Uriel said. "exactly. I won't tell anyone, just keep it between us" JR said. Just then Uriel rolled over and ended up on top of me. "You see, just like old times." he whispered. "Hey don't leave me out of this" JR complained. "What come on, guys please" I said. I didn't want to mess up anymore. Not anymore. "Aaron, come on. Stop being a baby. Enjoy it" JR said. Uriel began to kiss me while I felt JR start to feel up between me and uriel's bodies. "You know Uriel if you get off him this would be a lot easier" JR complained. "I'm sorry. I've never really done this in a trio. Its usually just me and aaron" "What? This happened before between you two?" "Umm...you see why I said it was a bad idea?" I said. "Yeah, actually, I agree, I'm wasted, I'm horny, this could be bad" JR agreed. "As much as it hurts to say this, you both are right" Uriel said as he got off and lied next to me. "Did we just pass up sex?" I asked. "Yes" both Uriel and JR answered. After that, none of us said anything, but during the whole getting on top one another and what not, I ended up in the middle. I hugged Uriel, and then JR hugged me. That's how we fell asleep. I woke up at 3pm. I looked around me, shook my head a little and then realized what had happened. Even if I was drunk, I remember everything. Good thing I'm not a forgetful drunk. I thought about how the night was crazy, about how I ended up in my bed with 2 boys, almost had a threesome, but passed it up. Who would have imagined that? I hoped they didn't remember too much of that. Don't want to really talk about that with them when they wake up. I thought about the note, about the text, the picture. What was I to do now? I thought about my options, I thought about the cons, and the FEW pros. I think that the best thing would be to move on. I had already chose to not sleep with anyone for a while, just to recover a bit and not get attached to anyone. Besides, I'm 18 now. Got too many things to worry about. I looked at Uriel. Still sleeping. 13 going on 21. I could tell he was going to be a handful as he gets older. I don't think I ever met anyone who could drink that much at that age. Although he was already just a few inches shorter than me, which meant he is going to be tall. JR, who is 15, is pretty much perfect, but he was connected to Jon and it was just too weird for me. Both make good friends for me, but nothing more. Having sex with them would only make things complicated and weird of course. The whole growing up thing, yeah its going to suck. I got up, changed, and headed downstairs. I started doing a little clean up. Some of the cleaning clew were still cleaning up but mostly everything outside was clean. Only a few things left inside to take care of. I sat in the kitchen with a bowl of cereal. I was so glad I didn't have a hangover, or any guilt about having a threesome. I looked at the stack of presents and cards, it was pretty big. Its amazing what people give you just to feel like they've contributed to your life. I then started to space out again. Uriel walked into the kitchen and smiled. "Hung over?" he asked. "No, you?" "Nope" he giggled. "Damn you can drink you little devil" I said. "Yeah, but I lose control. Don't remember much" "Good" I said. "What do you mean? what did I do?" he asked. "Ahh, well I don't remember either, but can't see it being good" I joked. "very true. Man I'm hungry" he said. "Join me" I said. "Yeah. What time do you think JR will wake up?" he asked. "No idea. We partied hard" "I only woke up because you were gone" "Sorry, I was just thinking" "You think too much. Just live. Enjoy life. You only get one" "If only I got a retry, I'd take it" I said. He sat down next to me with his bowl of cereal. Just like mine, a mixture of everything. I watched him. He was like me in so many ways, yet I had failed to recognize it. "What would you change?" he asked. "Few things..." "Like?" he asked. "O well stuff.." "Like being with me?" he asked. "Something like that" I answered. "You are. You're my bro" he replied. "You are correct..." was all I could say. I smiled at him, and ate. At this point, smiling was the easiest thing to do, surprisingly. "Well, I don't even know where my parents went to be honest. don't know what time the left or anything" he said. "So do you know when you got to go home?" I asked. "Probably soon, I have so many things to do" "YOU? Busy?" I asked. "Yeah, I now its crazy" he smiled. I missed that smile. Just then JR ran into the kitchen. "I got to go. My brothers here to pick me up" he said. "Well good morning to you too" I said. "Sorry, he just called...and did we all sleep in the same bed?" he asked. "Yeah..." I answered. "Weird. Did everything go ok?" he asked. "Yeah why wouldn't it?" Uriel answered. "I kind of remember something, or was I dreaming?" JR said. "Probably dreaming. You both knocked out as soon as we got to the room" I said. "You remember?" Uriel asked. "Yeah, it was quite funny" I answered. "Damn, we were wasted. Can't drink for like a year now. Well thanks a lot Aaron" JR said as he gave me a hug. "I'll talk to you soon" I said. "Yeah, later Uriel it was cool partying with you" JR said. "Yeah, super cool. And sleeping together, we should do it sometime soon again" Uriel joked. "Of course. Later guys I think my bro is outside now" JR said as he pretty much ran outside. "Fun kid. Cute too" Uriel said. "yeah..." I kind of choked. "Ok relax. I was just kidding" "No I don't mind. You do what you got to do." I joked. "Yeah, no. I'm good. Going to be normal for a while" He said. "Good luck with that" I told him. We finished our bowl of cereal and went to watch some TV. We kind of cuddled on the couch. It wasn't like a horny thing though, it was more for comfort. We laughed at the stupid shows on TV and kept small talk. It was really awesome. Hadn't done that with him in a while. Every once in a while he'd look up at me and smile, that's when I saw the brother part of him. Can't imagine him when he grows up, but for now, he was pretty much amazing. "So whats the plan for Jon and Oscar?" Uriel asked. "I don't have one. Just go with the flow. I don't talk to Jon nor do I want to. And Oscar, well I'll just wait to see what happens" I said. "Sounds good, plans suck anyway, they always go wrong" he said. "I can't believe you're only 13" I said. "Soon to be 14!" he reminded me. "Yeah...that" "You act so much older man. Can't imagine what you'll be like when you're 16" "Don't think you want to know Aaron" he joked. "You might be right" "So, college?" he asked. "Ummm...I'm going to stick where I'm at for now. No need to leave you and JR for now" I said. "Good, I'd miss you" "Like you don't know how to survive without me" "I've learned, but its nice to have you around" he said. We continued watching TV and then fed ourselves some left over food. My parents didn't want to wake up anytime soon. After getting changed went through my gifts and counted my money. I had received close to 600 dollars in gift cards and cash, then of course the regular gifts. Had lot of new things. I even got a box of condoms, who knew I needed those? Uriel laughed his butt off when he saw those. At around 7pm his parents came to pick him up. We said our goodbyes really quick because it was really out of nowhere. He thought he was going to stay again, or at least he wanted to. "hey, I'll try to come over tomorrow" he said as he walked out the door. I just smiled. It was nice to have him back just as a friend. We did have a connection. I walked up to my room again, its always real hard to go back to being alone after spending time with people you care about. I sat down, looked over at that house. I felt that guilt, sadness, and anger again. Damn. He really got me good. I was 18, and still tripping over an 11 year old boy. How was that even remotely possible? In my world, I guess anything goes. I lied down on my bed and just turned on my music. I knew that would help me. I fell asleep again. ***************************************************************** The next month I enrolled for my college credit classes at The Academy. I found out that the campus was separated from the regular K-12 part of the school and that it was pretty much an upgraded community college. Not bad. I chose the classes and talked to the counselors about my future, which I had no idea what I wanted it to be like. I agreed to take the regular pre req classes. All the "FUN" stuff, as they call it. To me it just sounded like more of the same stuff with fancy names. Since it was July I still had plenty of time before school started again though. I had no idea what I was going to do with myself with that much time in my hands. As usual, Uriel was in Mexico. He wouldn't be back until 2 weeks before school. But by then I'd already be in classes. The cool thing for me is that I don't have early classes. I wanted to enjoy sleeping in so my earliest class was at noon. I thought that was very cool. JR was busy with summer school, he wanted to get ahead as usual, and with summer sports. It seemed like everyone was busy with something while I pretty much sat at home and went shopping for fun. But I liked it so I can't complain. I hadn't heard much from Oscar. As the days went by, I heard less and less from him. Just the usual small talk. We even hang out from time to time, but it usually gets cut short by a text or a call. At one point it stopped bothering me and I only waited for the end. I had become really good at closure I suppose. I did start working more and doing a bit more of exercise. Just wanted to keep busy. I walked into my house at around 5pm after my usual mall visit, this time I had only gotten a few garments. Nothing crazy, to my surprise. I was getting real weird with shopping though. Buying things just for fun, not really liking anything, just buying to not leave empty handed. But with the whole working a lot more, I didn't mind. I wasn't really shortening my bank account. I got a text from my mom saying they were going over to Jon's for dinner. By now I had learned to speak with my parents as if Jon and I were still talking. Once in a while I'd go over with my parents for dinner but Jon was never there. But since our families had connected so well, they never even noticed. They just saw it as another change in the growing up process. Parents sometimes know so little about what goes on in our lives. I ordered some pizza for myself since I didn't feel like cooking anything. I was bad at cooking. I figured I'd eat, watch a movie, then go for a jog. I really wanted to look ok and kind of change for college life. I heard it's a fun process. The doorbell rang. I ran to the door. Pizza awaits me, can't make it wait too much. When I opened the door, I saw one of the most beautiful girls I've ever seen. She had shoulder length black hair that seemed to shine with the sun, the most amazing brown eyes, and a really cute smile. "Hi" she said. "Um...hi" I answered shyly. "I'm sorry my dog kind of ran into your backyard and I just wanted to ask if its okay to go back there" she asked. Her voice felt like music to my ears for some reason. I've never felt like this over a girl, and it was freaking me out. "Um yeah go ahead" I said confused. "O yeah, I'm Sylvia, I just moved in across the street" she said. "Nice to meet you, I'm Aaron" I said as I put out my hand. She shook my hand then pulled me and gave me a quick kiss on the cheek. "Where I come from we do that" she said. "O, must be a nice place" I said. I didn't really know what I was saying. "So, can you walk me to your yard, I mean I don't just want to walk back there" she asked. "Yeah of course" I said. I walked out there with her. She kind of took the lead. She kept talking about her dog, but I couldn't pay attention I was just amazed by her. I don't know why. I didn't even know how old she was but she was so cute. She grabbed her dog and smiled as the dog jumped at her. "Gosh you are such a trouble maker" she told the dog. I just stared. "Well thanks a lot Aaron. I'll see you around" she said as she walked to me. "Yeah" I said. "You don't talk much do you?" It took me a while to answer. I didn't know what to say. "Yeah, I do." I finally blurted out. "Umm...okay. How old are you?" she asked. "18" I said. "You are a man of so many words" she smiled. "I'm sorry. I'm really out of it." I finally snapped out of it though. "I can tell. Well I'm 17. But people tend to think I'm older" she said. "Yeah I can tell" I said. "What do you mean?" she asked. "I don't know. I'm just talking" "Aaron, you are something else." she giggled. "Thanks, well...glad you found your dog" "Yeah, you have a beautiful house by the way" she said. "thanks. Yours is nice too" "have you seen it?" she asked. "No, but I'm sure its nice" I said confused. "O I get it. You think I'm hitting on you" she said. "No...not at all. I don't get hit on much anymore" I said. "What okay...I'm just going to ignore that because it didn't make sense" "umm...sorry?" I said. "Yeah, well thanks again. I'll see you around" "Of course" I said. She walked away. But I was still confused. SO confused. Since when did a girl cause this reaction in me? What was going on? I had no clue. Yet I liked it. Finally, someone who caught my attention. But she was so pretty. Like she was taken out cover of a magazine. I watched her walk away happily with her small dog, then headed back inside. Later on while I was in bed my mom came inside. "So, I hear there's a really cute girl that just moved in" she said. "yeah I actually met her today" I said. "Really, nice. How'd you like her?" she asked. "She's really pretty." I said. "I know, I invited her family over for dinner tomorrow" "Umm...why?" I asked. "New neighbors, I always do that" "No you don't" I said. "Okay, maybe I want new friends" "Why?" I asked. "Or maybe I want you to talk to her" she smiled. "She's too pretty. Way out of my league" I said. "You are my son. And I will not let you say that. You are handsome" she said. "Yeah, every mom says that, can I get back to my movie now?" I asked. "Yeah, yeah, but I'm sure inside you're wondering what to wear tomorrow" she said as she smiled. "umm...I wont be here. But nice try" I said. She looked at me confused but then walked away. I couldn't handle that. No way. No one but, well I wont say who, had ever made me feel like this. It just didn't make any sense. None at all. I had to tell someone. I dialed JR. "Whadup dog" he answered. "JR! I just met this girl" I said. "Ok, good?" he sounded confused. "She's cute" "great?" again he sounded more confused. "I mean, I've never felt weird about a girl, til now" "So your surprised? Shouldn't you be glad your not gay?" he asked. "I don't know. But I don't know how to take this in. what do I do?" "talk to her?" "I freeze. I panic" "Shit, this is real." he said. "What do you mean?" I asked. "I mean, its real. You really like her. Its not just a cover up" "Why would I need one?" I asked. "To appear to be normal?" "But I'm Aaron, I'm not normal" "True, okay go on, what happened" So I told him the story. He was still kind of amazed. I liked the fact that I could tell him anything. "So, did u get horny?" he asked. "NO" I said boldly. "Good so its not just like a fetish. You like her" "I figured that. But I just met her. How do I even talk to her?" "Well she talked to you. She made the first move" "She was looking for her dog" "But she still stuck around longer than needed" "True, but still. I don't know. I don't think I can, she's so pretty" "You're hot too." he said. "Thanks, but,...your opinion is different" "it is not!" "okay its not but still" "Aaron give yourself credit. You're funny." "Thanks, that really means a lot to me" I said. "So, tomorrow? Dinner?" he asked. "yeah, I don't know if I'm going to be there" "You have to. it's the first girl that gets you going. Why don't you take a chance?" he asked. "I don't know. Maybe because I don't know why this is happening" "So you can finally forget about Jon for good" "Great, you had to bring him up" "Well, its true isn't it?" "no, I'm sure she's not here just for that. If she is, its a waste because I've been forgetting him on my own" I said. "Good, now go pick your outfit for tomorrow" he said. "Thanks" "anytime." he said. "How'd you know what to say?" I asked. "I didn't. but I listened. Isn't that what friends are for?" "Yeah, and I couldn't have a better one" I said. "She better be real hot if you like her better than me" he joked. "She's a goddess" I said. "That's pushing it. But we'll see" he said. We said our goodbyes and I literally jumped on my bed. I was happy! Again. Weird. So weird. I was excited for tomorrow to come. I hadn't been excited for something like that, for a while. I went out for my jog. I had more energy than I usually have. It was great. I felt great. On the jog path I thought about what I could wear, or not wear or why I was worrying about it. Again, I had never worried this much about looking good. Then out of nowhere, I saw a kid fall off his bike pretty bad. I stopped. I looked at him. "Don't laugh" he said. He was real cute. O boy, another surprise, I thought to myself. Today was great. He looked to be about 14. Pretty tall, brown hair, brown eyes, and from what I could see was slightly filled in. for some reason, this kind of boys attracted me. Damn, I'm becoming a perv. But then I remembered Sylvia and smiled. I was somewhat normal, I told myself. "I'm not. Are you okay?" I asked. "Yeah, my chain just got jammed. Happens a lot" he said as he got up. He had a cut on his elbow. He smiled. Woah! Almost the same smile as Jon. Didn't want to compare, but I swear almost the same. "Might want to get that cleaned up." I said as I helped him finish getting up. "No I'll be okay. Like I said, it happens a lot" "Then you need a new bike" I said. "That'd be nice. Can't afford one. My mom's too busy buying boos and thongs" "Um...too much info. But that sucks. How do you live here then?" "In this subdivision?" he asked. "Yeah...I mean...nothings cheap" I said. "Well, my mom gets help from my uncle but its just enough" he said. "Well, welcome to the neighborhood" I smiled at him. "Thanks" he said. "I'll be going my way" I said. "Hey, whats your name?" he asked. "Aaron, and you?" "Adrian" he answered. "Well nice to meet you Adrian" I said as I shook his hand. His hands were so soft. "Same. How old are you?" he asked. "old" I answered. He laughed. "I just turned 14." he said. "I kind of guessed around that age" I said. "What? Really? What are you a psychic?" he asked. "Something like that" I smiled. I was just too good at these ages I guess. "Well you look like your 16" he said. "I wish. I'm old. I'm 18" I said. "Naw!" he said surprised. "You could buy me cigs" he said. "No...you're 14" "I know I just like the look on people's faces. But really you look young. Cool" he said. "Yeah, well I got to keep jogging. See you around" I said. "Yeah...I guess" he said as he looked down. "You okay?" I asked. "Yeah, just feels weird you know. Just moved here, first person I meet is 4 years older than me" he said. "Well I'm sure you'll meet others. There's plenty of kids around here" I said. "Yeah...where do you live?" he asked. Since he just moved in I figured he wouldn't know. If he can't get a new bike he must live in the small apartments at the entrance of the subdivision which is a little separated from where I live. But I pointed at my house since you could see it from far away. "Woah you live there? Damn you're loaded" he said. "No...I'm not." I said. "Well no shit dude. I live right in front of you" he said. "Really? You're Sylvia's brother?" I asked. "you know her?" "met her earlier. Guess your dog decided to visit my back yard" I said. "Woah...sorry. He does that. Yeah she's my crazy sister alright." "Well cool. that's nice. She's cool" I said. "Let me guess you think she's hot" "No no no. she's your sister" "So?" he said stumped. "I mean, no I just met her and I'm not just a typical guy" "Why?" "You sure ask a lot of questions. Aren't you past that stage?" I asked. "No, I also don't have pubic hair" he joked. "Um...interesting." I said. "I'm kidding. And I'm sorry, I guess I do" he said. "it's okay...well I really must go but umm...see you tomorrow" I said. "Really? How?" he asked. "Well, my mom invited your mom for dinner" I said. "O that's your mom?" he asked. "Yeah why?" "She's real nice. Nice car too" he said. "Hm...your cool kid. We'll talk tomorrow" I said. I really didn't want to continue talking to him more. Today was too much. In a good way though. Adrian was really cute and Sylvia, wow. Great family to meet. Both are really nice kids and seem really easy to talk to. I was really excited for tomorrow's dinner now. I started jogging away. "Hey Aaron!" he yelled. He caught up to me. "yeah?" I asked. "This is going to sound weird but, can you not have liquor tomorrow. I don't want my mom to embarrass herself and me" he asked. "Sure kid. Wouldn't want to embarrass you" I said. "Don't want your parents to hate my mom already. We just moved in!" he joked. "That wouldn't happen. But I'll take care of it." I said. "Okay, nice to meet you and thanks for the help" he said. "Anytime" I said. He rode his bike away and I couldn't help but to feel great. Like I said, anything goes in my crazy life. I guess life is really full of surprises. Thanks a lot for reading. Please send me comments and thoughts to my email Tommy199212@hotmail.com I worked on this chapter for a while. But I am planning to keep the chapters coming. I appreciate all the emails I get, thanks to all those who have emailed me and to those who have asked me to keep writing. I'm no pro but I will try my best to keep going. Thanks again =D