Date: Mon, 27 Mar 2006 08:00:11 +0000 From: Tommy Evans Subject: Uriel and Jon 12 The next morning when I awoke everyone else was still sound asleep. I was still hugging Jon and our lips were almost touching. I sort of backed away so that I wasn't breathing straight into his mouth, not that it would bother him at this point. I felt something poking me in my ass after a little while and I noticed it was Uriel. He was also spooning with me and well...he had his dick positioned right between my ass crack. It wasn't too big, but I could still feel it. I started to wonder what I was going to do when they woke up. I had the three of them with me now and it was going to get complicated because now the three had spent time with me and they were each expecting something different from me. I lied there until Jon began to stir. It was common sense because he slept a little more than the rest of them did. I knew Uriel was going to be knocked out for a while since he was exhausted from what had happened before he fell asleep. Jon squeezed my hand a little to check if I was asleep and when I squeezed back he knew I was awake. He lied with me and let me hold him and then when he felt Uriel waking up he slowly let go. One by one they each woke up and when we were all awake we moved to the play room. Here, we relaxed and Uriel and Oscar began to play dominoes. I was glad we were making more of a connection as a group, although I still wasn't too fond of Oscar. Luis, Jon, and I were pretty much just sitting there enjoying the morning sounds. We kept a casual conversation of what had happened the night before. Of course Uriel and I still kept the secret and we were planning to keep it because if we were to tell right now, we'd be hated by the others for at least a good 3 hours. After we were finished discussing the occurrences of the night before, we decided to have a little swim. The sun was beginning to warm us up and since it was already 10am the sun was blazing at us causing us to quickly jump into the pool. It was fun to just mess around. We played a bunch of games and I felt as if things were happening very nicely. At noon Oscar had to go home and when he went to pick up his things he called Jon over into the tent. I knew Oscar was just trying to get him out of the pool so he could at least mess around with Jon for a little while. Jon glanced over at me as if to ask for permission and it's not like I could deny it to him. He got out of the pool and walked over to the tent. I knew I couldn't do anything about it and that it was best to let Jon decide what he wanted and who he wanted. To my surprise, Luis jumped out of the pool too and walked with Jon to the tent. I didn't know why Luis was doing this and well I didn't impede it. Uriel and I swam around in the pool until I felt that weird silence take over. I grabbed one of the balls and threw at him. "O what the hell!" he yelled. He jumped at me and attacked me. He was trying to drown me and what not. He started kicking me and punching, not hard of course, until I got fed up and picked him up and threw him. When he hit the water he quickly dove underneath and then came up really close to me and he grabbed my dick. "Hey, watch it" I said. "Watch what?" "Where your hands go" "Aaron, that was an accident" "Whatever, seriously dude I don't think we should be doing stuff like this. I don't want it to hurt our friendship." "How is it going to hurt it?" he asked. "Well, we're not having as much fun as we used to. Now all you think about is messing around" "We do have fun, and that's not all I think about" "Well talk about it later" I said as I saw Jon and Luis walking towards the pool. Oscar was heading the other way but I couldn't see his face, I didn't know if he was mad or what. They jumped back in the pool. "Did it take two people to say bye to him?" Uriel asked. "Yeah, well I was asking him something about a game" Luis said. "Yeah" Jon added. I looked at him because he had a fishy look on his face. I didn't want to give it too much thought and I knew nothing could have happened with Luis there, unless Luis was part of it. Uriel threw the ball at Luis and this started a pool dodge-ball game. This seemed to be our favorite pool game and it was the only game that kept us busy for over an hour. It got more interesting when I found some extra balls in the yard and I threw them into the pool. When the war calmed down we were just waddling around in the pool, Jon was sitting on top of a floating chair and Luis was holding onto it so he could float. "So what do we do now?" Luis asked. "Well, I have to go home soon" Uriel added. "How soon?" I asked. "Like, by 2" "Why dude?" Luis asked. "I have a soccer practice" "You're in soccer?" Luis asked surprised. "Yeah, I started last week." "How come you guys start so early?" "I don't know, last week was boring. All we did was learn the basics, today we have to learn cool stuff I hope" "Aaron aren't you in soccer too?" Luis asked. "Yeah" "When do you start practices?" "2 Weeks" I said. "Damn, we only have 3 weeks left of summer vacation" "Yeah, I know. It sucks!" Jon added. "Hey, your little kid swore" Uriel joked. "Yeah, well he's allowed to say some words, right my little baby?" I said to Jon. He sort of blushed when I said baby. "Sure" Jon answered. "All right well it's almost 1 so what do we do?" Luis asked. "Dude, I gotta go get my stuff ready cuz I gotta go. I want to keep hanging out with you guys but I really gotta go." Uriel said. "Okay, go get your stuff ready and I'll take you home" I said. "Hey, Aaron, why don't we go somewhere after we drop off Uriel?" Luis asked. "Where?" "I don't know, what do you think Jon?" Luis said as he threw the ball at Jon. "I don't know, want to go eat somewhere?" "That sounds like a good idea, think of where we should go eat while I go help Uriel" I said in a very casual way. I was trying to sound casual enough so that neither Jon nor Luis thought about coming over to the tent with Uriel and me. I walked into the tent and Uriel was just about to change out of his wet shorts. He saw me coming over and quickly took them off. "Hey, just cuz I'm coming doesn't mean you have to get naked" I said. "I'm changing, do you mind?" he said giving me a dirty look. "What's wrong?" "Nothing, I'm just in a hurry" "Uriel, you're not mad at me are you?" "Not really" "Are you sure?" "Positive" "Because that's what you said the last time and you stopped talking to me for months" "Aaron's its because I'm sick of you and Jon" "What do you mean, I thought you were cool with him" "I am! But I'm not cool with you and HIM together" "What do you mean?" I asked. "Can we talk about it later?" he said as he changed his shirt. "Yeah, when?" I asked. "Tomorrow, sleep over at my house tomorrow" "Ok, I'll do that" I said. "Wait, Aaron, can you give me a kiss?" "Hay, Uriel, I don't know. Look Luis and Jon are coming" "Just one," he said as he came over to me. I didn't even have time to answer before our lips were embraced. "There, one kiss" I said. Just then Luis and Jon opened the zipper of the tent. I quickly opened Uriel's backpack and started packing. When they opened the curtain to the room they saw Uriel changing his sox and I was putting his wet stuff in a plastic bag. "What's up?" Uriel asked in a cool way. "Ok, we know where." Luis said. "Cool, so then get changed and then we'll go" I said. "Change in here?" Luis asked. "Well, change in the empty room." I said. "O okay, I'll go first" Luis said as he grabbed his bag. Jon was still a little wet so he went to the outside part of the tent and sat on a chair. He was looking over at the pool. Uriel was sitting on the bed waiting for us to get ready. I was sitting on a towel right next to him and for a moment he grabbed my hand. It was a little weird because Uriel and I rarely hold hands. It wasn't like he was actually holding my hand, but our hands were just on each other. I felt really good when this happened but part of me felt guilty having Jon just a couple of feet away. I looked over and our eyes met. "Remember when we really became friends?" I asked Uriel. "Yeah, we went camping for my 10th birthday" "Yeah, and what was it about that tent that made us get so close?" "Aaron, it wasn't the tent. It was because we got really scared and you were the one that protected me. Plus I remember something happened and I got really mad and you and I took a walk all alone one morning and hung out pretty much all day" "Yeah, I remember, that was so cool" "Yeah, I know." "Uriel, you're really important to me, remember that." "I will" he said. Just then Luis came out. "Okay, your turn Jon" he said. Jon walked into the tent and went to change. "What are you two love birds talking about" Luis asked. He sat right next to me. "Nothing much, but you interrupted us" I said. "I'm sorry, I wanted to join in on the action" he said as he grabbed my leg. "Right..." Uriel said as he threw a pillow at Luis. "Hey, hey, that was uncalled for buddy." Luis complained. "Whatever, so what are you guys doing while I go run my ass off?" Uriel asked. "Well...don't run it off completely, I love your ass." I joked. "Ok...well we're going to go eat and then I probably have to go home" Luis said. "Man I always miss out on the food" Uriel complained. "Hey man, you're a soccer player you can't be thinking about food all day" I jumped in. "So are you! And you go eat almost everyday" "Yeah, I know I should cut that out huh?" I said as I got up. They lied down on the bed and they started talking about Uriel's soccer team. I sat there thinking about what was going to happen once Uriel and Luis went home. I wanted to be with Jon really bad but at the same time I was loving every second of having the three of them with me. It was as if all I ever asked for was right there with me. Grant it Jon and Uriel seemed to have a little competition going on at all times but it's not all that bad. It only pushes Jon to be closer to me and to never let his guard down. It's been helping him out in a way. It wasn't after he realized that Uriel was really close to me that Jon really started getting closer to me. When Jon came into the little room I quickly went to change. I didn't take long and in no time I was changed. I noticed Jon left his wet shorts in a bag next to Luis' and I grabbed them. I put Luis' stuff in his bag and then I gathered Jon's things. I placed them next to mine since I knew he wouldn't bother to take them home today. When I cleaned up the tent I told the kids that we were leaving. They all got out and headed to the car. Luis and Uriel both had their bags and the tent seemed a little emptier, but still it was full of junk. I looked inside before I closed the zipper and I realized that it was really cool. We had all we needed in that tent. I was a little mad that we hadn't done this sooner. I walked with them to my car and they had were flipping coins to see who would get to rid shotgun with me. I solved that problem by telling them that Uriel should be in the front anyway cuz he's going to be dropped off first. Then Luis would ride shotgun until I dropped him off and then Jon would ride shotgun from there. It was so simple but being boys, they always want to compete. In the car ride to Uriel's house the boys were going crazy with the top down. At one point they were waving hi to a school bus which was stopped right next to us. I guess it was a school bus for the summer activities groups at school. It was a very interesting ride because they played games like name that car. When I pulled up to Uriel's house both Luis and Jon complained because they didn't want Uriel to leave to he said he had to and that he'd hang out again in a few days before school started. I told him to call me and then he walked inside. Luis quickly jumped up to the front seat. "What are we eating then?" I asked. "We've made a unanimous decision of going to eat to...drum-roll please" Luis said. Jon made the drum-roll sound. "Portillos" Luis continued. I started laughing. "What, did I do something bad or something" Luis asked. "No, it's just that you made such a big deal out of it, you could have just said Portillos" I said. "Well what fun is that!" he said as he turned up the music. We were singing along to this song that both Luis and I knew and Jon was sort of bobbing his head to the music. He wasn't used to this type of music because he mainly listened to hip hop and R/B. But he's the type of kid who likes whatever his friends like. Soon he was singing along to the song by just guessing what was coming next. Part of the song said something about keeping a secret and Luis looked over at me and winked at me and smiled. This made me happy and worried at the same time. When we arrived at Portillos the 3 of us got out and when we walked in I found a bunch of my friends sitting in the first table. I sort of freaked out because they were most likely going to start bugging me and ask me to sit with them. Then this girl I was dating for a while came up to me. "Hey, babe, how you doin" she asked as she touched my arm. "I'm ok..." I answered. "Who are these cuties?" "My brother and his friend" I quickly said. "Aaron, can I talk to you real quick?" she asked. "About what...I thought you were done with me, or at least that's what you said last time we talked" "Come on Aaron, don't be like that, it's about Nikki" "Ok...hey guys go get your food, get me like a burger, fries and soda" I said as I handed them a 50. Luis took the money and gave me a hard look. He also made thumbs up sign with his hand. I didn't understand this but I only waved for him to get going. I sat with the girl at a booth. "What do you want to tell me?" I asked. "Okay, well first of all...where's Nikki?" she asked. "She's still on vacation, she comes back next week, why?" "I heard a rumor that she hooked up with my cousin on her vacation" "Well...rumors are rumors" "Aaron, you really think she likes you, she's miss popular now. Don't take me wrong, you're well known too, but, I think this is one of those times when the loser overcomes the popular guy" "I don't get you" I said. "She's becoming more popular than you...and I can help you" "You're going to help me?" "Yeah, cheat on her with me. Join our little group, you'll fit in great. You're rich, we're rich, we'll rule the school" "Right, well I'll get back to you on that one, I'll see you around" "Think about it, no one else can help you" she said as she touched my leg under the table. "Okay, bye" I said as I walked off to find Luis and Jon. They were walking with a tray with our food. They seemed to have ordered plenty of food. We found an empty booth and sat down. Luis sat next to Jon and I sat in front of them. "Who was that?" Luis asked. "Some whore" I answered. "She's hot" Luis added. "Yeah, but it's not all about the hotness, but about what's inside" "Yeah, but damn she's hot! Isn't she hot Jon?" Luis asked. "Yeah, I guess" was all Jon said. I noticed Jon was a little weird after that little incident and well he's younger and of course things like this would only throw him off. I changed topic completely and the rest of the lunch we talked about our future plans for the last 3 weeks of school. Jon was a little quiet but he didn't' seem to be too affected. It was a fun time hanging out with them. For a while we totally forgot about the girl and focused on the great time we had the night before. They both ate a lot of food and they were completely full when we were heading out. When we passed by the table where I saw my friends, they were gone, I felt better when I saw it empty. When we walked out the door I saw them hanging out by their cars. The girl was standing right by my car. We walked by and then she came walked over to the drivers seat door. "Aaron, can you give me a ride home?" "Hey, I gotta take my brother and his friend home...don't fuck around now please" I said. "O come on. Don't be lame. You know you want me. Just take them home and then we can go have some fun" Jon and Luis gave her the dirtiest look and I looked over at them trying to say sorry. Just then Jon walked up to me and stood next to me. He seemed to be thinking about something, it took him a little while and then he walked up to her. "MY brother doesn't like dirty whores. So just fuck off", he said. "Woah, your little brother has a mouth" she said. "Yeah, and I have two legs, if you don't walk away from here I'll kick you!" he said as he swung his leg at her. Luis started laughing and I stood there I awe. She walked off and seemed to be pissed off. Her friends started laughing at her. The three of us got in my car and I drove off but I just had to. I passed by her and my friends and revved my engine. They said bye to me and then I drove off. "Damn Jon, I didn't know you had that in you!" Luis said. "Yeah, that was so funny, lil bro" I said. "Well she pissed me off, being all slutty and all" Jon said as he giggled. Just then I noticed something else in his eyes. He kept surprising me every day, and I was loving it. Luis kept asking me about how school is for me and how popular I am and stuff. When I dropped him off at his Jon came up to the front seat next to me. Just after I put my hand on the gear shifter Jon's hand slowly tapped mine. I simply turned my hand over and held onto his. I didn't say anything, I just started driving. I was thinking about what I was going to do with Nikki when she returned. I didn't even know where the thought of her came from, really. I guess I should have been thinking a lot more about Jon and what was happening. I decided to leave the whole Nikki thing in the back of my mind until she actually came back. I shifted my attention once again to Jon. I was focusing on the movements of his little fingers between my fingers. He was obviously applying more grip to my hand, more than he ever did. I was thinking about what could have changed this. So many things went through my head. Just when I was thinking that maybe the whole situation with Oscar could have cause the sudden change in the way Jon was holding my hand, he broke the silence. "Aaron, are you still going out with your girlfriend?" "Yeah, at least I was the last time I checked, why?" "Just wondering" "Yeah, I still am. But why does it bother you so much?" "It doesn't bother me Aaron" "Well, look man, I really trust you. I want you to trust me. So if there's anything you think or feel, please tell me. We should always try to be very honest with each other" Just as I finished saying that I pretty much shot myself in the head because I was obviously being stupid. Of course I wasn't being completely honest with him. "I know. But Aaron, what if you get mad?" "I won't get mad dude" "Okay...well...I just don't think you like her" "You think I don't like her?" "Yeah" "Wow, what makes you say that?" I was really surprised, but I did want to know how he was going to back up his statement. "I just do. You're my big bro remember" "Yeah, but how does that make you think I don't like her" "Because if you did, you'd be really happy and you would talk about her. And you don't talk about her and stuff. Plus you hang out more with Luis and me than you hang out with her. And remember, you love me" "I think you might have a point there. Look Jon, I really care about you and Luis. But sometimes, I have to live my life away from you too. Just like you hang out with Oscar, I hang out Nikki. I don't know him too well...and you don't know Nikki too well" "But, that's different" he said. "How is that different?" "She's your girlfriend and Oscar is my..." he stopped when he reached those words. "You're what?" "My friend" "Are you sure?" "Aaron, is it possible for him to be my...?" "Your boyfriend?" "Uh...yeah" "I guess it is. But I thought you weren't with him?" I wasn't too happy about this but I figured that if he really liked Oscar, I shouldn't get in the way. "So...what is Luis...to you?" "He's my friend" I answered. At some point or another I did want to let him know that I really cared about Luis...but I wasn't sure it was the right moment. "Aaron, you're okay with Oscar being my...you know" "Jon, it's not up to me. It's up to you. You like him, I don't." "But...does it make you mad?" I was noticing that Jon was asking questions he wouldn't normally ask. Part of me wanted to just tell him it did. I wanted to tell him that I loved him and that it wasn't fair for him to be with Oscar, but it probably wasn't the best thing to do. "Jon, if you're happy, I'm happy. I don't have to be okay with it, as long as you are ok with it got it? But it does bother me that last night you said something else" "Yeah" he said in a shaky voice. "But don't forget that no matter what...I love you" I told him as I turned to look at him. "I won't" The rest of the way home it was pretty much silent, except for little questions he asked. they were mostly about games and stuff. But as I pulled into the driveway of my house his cell phone rang. I didn't even bother to listen to see who it was until we had already walked inside the house and he sat in the family room. I walked into the kitchen to drink some water and the check the phone. I walked back into the family room and sat next to him. I put my arm around him and looked at him as he talked. "I can't dude, my mom left to a party and right now I'm with Aaron" I couldn't hear what the other person was saying but I guessed it was Oscar. "Dude, I can't and stop asking." He was quiet again, he looked over at me. "No, we're leaving to the movies. I got to go, I'll call you later" Jon said. He hung up and I only looked at him. "What's up...why were you so mad?" I asked. "It's because Oscar keeps telling me to go over and I can't" "O...well didn't you just see him?" "Yeah, but since my mom told his mom that she was leaving he thought I should go sleep over at his house" "Do you want to?" "Well...yes and no." "Well...why yes and why no?' it sounded like a stupid question but I knew he got it. "Because I'm with you and because he keeps...never mind" "No, tell me" "He just...makes me mad because I said no and he keeps asking" "Well...lets forget about that and lets go have some fun" I said. "Where are your parents?" "I really don't know. Usually they are here by now" We walked up to my room and I sat on the couch. He went to the PS2 and put in whatever game he wanted. I looked over at the clock and it was a little after 4. He came and sat next to me while we played a game. I liked playing games as much as he did, but sometimes I think that maybe we should do more that sit in front of a TV screen with a control in our hands. After we enjoyed an hour of random games, most of which I won, I decided to break the habit and for once do something out of the ordinary. I looked at him and he looked at me. "Want to do something more fun than this?" I asked. "Like what?" "I don't know...go karting, movies, arcade, mini-golf anything. We always play games, we should do something more fun" "Yeah, but what though, we just went to the arcade" "So then lets go go-karting." "Yeah!" he agreed very enthusiastically. I called my parents just to let them know and stuff and then we went go-karting. I really liked the happiness in Jon's eyes as we approached the place. Again we were holding hands and well...of course he was really excited. He always told me he loved go-karting and that Oscar and him went all the time and well I guess I never took Jon because it reminded me of him and Oscar. We had a blast. We tested out all of the different tracks and I won most of the races, but Jon was always real close to beating me. I guess he was good at it because of all the times he had been here with Oscar, much to my dislike. We stayed at the go-kart place until 7:30 and then we were beginning to get hungry again. We were leaving the parking lot and we saw that nearby there was a Portillos and we stopped there. Nothing really interesting happened there except for a guy who tripped and spilled all of his cheese on his white shirt, that must have sucked. Jon laughed about that all the way back home. When I arrived home, my parents were just having dinner. We walked into the kitchen and well they of course asked us where we went and what we did. It was something natural, sometimes it annoyed me but well...they're parents, it's their job. After I told them what we did and after my mom asked if I had cleaned my room, Jon and I went up to my room to chill. I really didn't know why we always ended up in my room because well...we could always watch movies and stuff down in the movie room, but I guess he liked being in my room better. We had just recently begun watching the Halloween series and we were going to watch Halloween 3 since we had nothing better to do. I closed the blinds in my room and put the curtains over them so that it would be completely dark in my room. It wasn't really all that scary of a movie, honestly I really wouldn't have nightmares with this movie, but I just liked watching movies in the dark. Once the room was completely dark I sat next to Jon and put my arm around him. He made himself comfortable and with my free hand I grabbed hold of his right hand. It was a little complicated since we couldn't hold hands as we usually would since I was holding his right hand with my right hand so I just held onto the back of his hand. Either way we were still very close and well, if he were a girl, we'd look like a couple. When our hands got tired of stretching out to hold each other, I paused the movie and told him to get up. Then I lied on my side with my back against the couch and then I signaled him to lie down the same way. He did and well now we were like we usually slept, his back against my front. This gave me the opportunity to hold him while I held his hand more comfortably. We watched the rest of the movie like this and I guess we were lucky that my parents didn't enter the room at all. Not that they would make a big deal out of it, but I'm sure it would catch some attention. Sometimes I would really get to feel put pressure against his ass but he never said anything, and well other times he really pushed back against my dick so I didn't know what to think. I was almost positive that Jon really didn't know much about sex, nevertheless gay sex so I just let the moment slip by. When the movie ended I simply turned off the TV and well I still held onto him. "Are we going to sleep here?" he asked. "No, I just like relaxing in the dark" I answered him. "Oh, don't you get scared?" "No, well, usually I don't. And well the movie wasn't all that scary. Maybe if it were a scarier movie I wouldn't' be in the dark now, but well I'm not scared. Are you?" "No, and specially if I'm with you" "Aww...yeah I'll protect you from anything" After a little moment of silence I got up and we both changed into our pajamas and jumped in bed. Again we were spooning and holding hands but we were more comfortable here. "What time is it?" he asked. "It's like 9:40...are you tired?" "A little" "Yeah, swimming makes you tired" "Yeah I know, well usually I don't get tired but with Luis, Oscar, and Uriel and the fighting, I got tired" "Jon, remember what you asked me after I dropped off Luis?" "Yeah" "Why do you keep asking questions like that, and don't say you don't know" "Aaron, I just...I just want to know." "Can I tell you a little secret?" "Yeah" "I really love you" I said softly in his ear. "I know" "No, I mean, I really love you." "O" "Jon, I really want you to be happy. But look, answer this. Do you love Oscar?" "Love him...how?" "Like...who do you love more...Oscar...or me?" He didn't say anything for a good minute and then he said it softly. "You, I guess" "You guess?" "No, I know" "So you love me more, but how...as a brother...or how?" "Uh...Aaron...what if I don't know" "Can you honestly say you don't know?" I asked. "Yes, I can" "Well...okay then, but I don't know how to describe what I love you as. I know it's more than a brother or a friend. But honestly...I think I love you as a boyfriend" "You do?" "I think so...I just...I couldn't tell you. I was so scared" "Scared of what?" he asked. "Losing you, I never want to lose you Jon, I really love you. I love you like I've never loved anyone else" "O" "But, you don't have to be scared. You'll never lose me. I'll always love you. Don't feel like you HAVE to love me. I know you're young and all, but love is something that grows, it can't just appear. So don't pretend to love me if you don't" "I won't, but Aaron, can I ask you something?" "Yeah, anything" "Did you love Uriel?" "Man, you really won't drop that will you?" "No" "Jon, since when do you really want to know all this?" "Since you told me I was too young to understand. I really want to understand" "Jon, baby, look. Some things are just too complicated, just know one thing, I love you. That's all you need to know" "But what about Oscar, do I have to like...stop being his friend because you love me?" "No, of course not. But, look...do you feel okay kissing him and stuff?" "Not really" "Then tell him you don't want to be his boyfriend" "I will, but wait...are you boyfriend with Luis?" "No, I'm not. We're just really good friends" "I thought so" "But, Jon, tell me, are you really going to end this whole thing with Oscar?" "Yeah, I'll try" "And then what?" "I'll be with you" "Are you sure about that?" "Positive" "Jon, remember when we met?" "Yes, you were playing outside" "Yes, remember what you said?" "No, not really" "You said I was sometimes mean" "Yeah, I remember that" "Do you still think so?" "No...you're the coolest!" "Remember the first time I kissed you?" "Yeah" "Did you like it?" "I think I did, but I wasn't sure I did. I was scared" "How do you feel now?" "Not scared" "Really?" I was surprised at how much Jon had changed in just a couple of months. I mean it seemed like I was talking to a teenager. Not a 10 year old boy. "Yeah, I'm not scared anymore. I know that you love me and you wouldn't hurt me" "Aww...Jon, if only I could show you how much I love you. You're the best thing that ever happened to me" "Why don't you?" he asked. The way in which he said that really surprised me. He sounded so sure of what he wanted, so patient, yet really intrigued. "Turn around" I said softly. He slowly turned around and he faced me. I was probably an inch or two away from his lips, and we were looking into each others' eyes. "Jon, do you know how much you mean to me?" "A lot" "Yeah, I love you from here to the moon and back, maybe more" "I love you too" he said. I couldn't resist. His eyes were locked into mine, just waiting for that moment. The moment where I kiss him and well...I did. I slowly moved in and gave him the sweetest most passionate kiss. Both our eyes' were closed, we were holding each other, and it was like we were floating on top of a cloud. It was amazing, this was truly the best kiss I had ever received and or given. The kiss lasted at least 20 seconds. But there was no tongue action, mainly because Jon didn't know how to do that yet and I didn't want to push him too far. He slowly pulled back and then he stayed like that, he looked at me. "That was really cool" he said. "Yeah, I know" "Aaron, wait, you're not going to tell anyone right?" "Jon, No. It's going to be a secret" "Aaron, I'm really glad I met you" "I'm really glad I met you. You're really a special boy. I don't think I will ever meet anyone like you" "I won't meet anyone like you. You're the coolest and nicest big brother slash friend I'll ever have" Right after he finished saying this I gave him another kiss. I was loving every second of the night. I just couldn't believe I was kissing Jon as I pleased, and better yet, he felt the same. I guess I now know what it feels like to really love someone. I mean the kisses I get from Jon are so different than the one's I've gotten from Uriel and Luis. "Aaron, why don't we go sleep outside in the tent?" he asked. "You know, that's a very good idea, let's enjoy it while we still can" "YEAH!" he said. We walked outside and my parents were still in the kitchen talking, I told them we were sleeping outside and they just smiled at us. I don't know why. When we were in the tent, and I had closed the tent, we slipped into bed. "Let's go to sleep baby" I said. "Yeah" he agreed. He put his arm around me and I put my arm around his. We were sleeping with our lips almost touching and our bodies conjoined. I felt, smelled, and watched him slowly fall asleep. I watched my little angel sleep. Little by little I fell deep asleep as well. When I awoke in the morning I was spooning him and we were holding hands. I didn't move at all, I just enjoyed the beautiful morning and the boy who was now, mine. When he started moving and waking up, he turned again to face me, and flashed his killer smile. I pretty much melted right then and there. "Good morning, sunshine" I said. "Hey" he said half asleep. "So how's my favorite little boy feeling?" "Good" "Alright so what time do you have to be home today?" "I don't know...my mom said to be home before 12" "o okay, it's only 8" "What are you making for breakfast?" "What do you want?" "I want pancakes" "Hm...I don't know how to make those...I'm not a cook...how about we go out to eat huh?" "Yeah! Aaron, there's this cool game I want, can I please get it?" "Sure" "I'll pay you back I promise" "You know you don't have to do that" "Yes I do, I'll feel bad" "Just give me a big hug and we're even" I said. He turned around and gave me a hug. I looked in his eyes, and I could swear there was something different about them. We got up and walked into the house. While we were walking up to my room to get changed I thought about learning how to cook pancakes, how hard could it be? "Hey, Jon, why don't we just learn how to make pancakes, I'm sure they have instructions on the box" I said. "Yeah, why not" he answered. "It should be fun" I added. We quickly changed into something a little more warm because in the morning my house felt really cold. We went down to the kitchen and I got everything we needed to make the pancakes. He sat there reading the box. He seemed to be really concentrating on how to make them. "Hey, don't crack your head on that. If you don't understand it's okay, I'm sure we can manage to make them, don't you worry." I told him. I read the box and after reading the instructions over and over, I was sure I could do this. He helped me by mixing stuff and measuring things. IT was really fun, and well messy. I knew it was going to be really annoying to clean this place after we finished but so far it was fun. When we finally got the mix ready I turned on the stove. I noticed Jon had a little bit of powder on his nose and I got close to him. I held him in my arms and I kissed his button nose. He smiled and then told me to hurry up cuz he was hungry. We started making shapes with the pancakes, it just didn't turn out so great. We had to settle for regular, round-like pancakes. We even made a huge one just to see how big it would get. After we made plenty of them we grabbed milk, syrup, butter, and jelly to accompany our good pancakes. We ate our creations and we couldn't feel any better. We had just learned how to make pancakes without any mistakes. We were laughing about all the stupid things we said and did to get this to work out. Jon was really happy. After having breakfast we took forever to clean up the kitchen but we left it spotless and I could even say it was sparkling clean. I knew we couldn't have done a better job. We walked over to the living room where we realized it was 11:30 and he had to go home in half an hour. I was a little sad. I was enjoying sitting down and watching TV with my little Jon. I was hugging him while we watched TV. When the clock turned 12 he turned to look at me. "Aaron, I have to go home." He said softly. "I know, I'm going to miss you" I answered. "Yeah, but I'll come back later. I'll read, clean my room, and then I'll come back. I promise" he said. "Well, I think that maybe you should spend time with your mom, she must miss you" "Yeah, I'll be with her, then I'll come back" he said happily. We got up and I walked home with him. We both glanced over at the tent, it was really cool. When we got to his back door his mom saw us coming and greeted us. She prompted me to come in. The three of us sat on the kitchen island and she talked to us. We talked about what we did and stuff, Jon was really happy and I knew his mom could see that Jon was really happy with me. She smiled at us. "I'm glad you have tons of fun with Aaron honey" she said to Jon. "Yeah, he's the best big brother! Mom can I go over later, after I do my chores?" he asked. "I'm sorry hon, we're going to your uncles house in Indiana, we won't be back until Saturday" "What, that's in 5 days!" Jon complained. "Yeah, I know" I sat there watching Jon complain and I couldn't help but smile at his attempt to be with me. "But ma, can't I just stay with Aaron?" "No Jon, it's too much. Plus it's your cousins birthday. I'm sorry Aaron, but we have to go get ready. Jon will call you later okay?" she said. "Yeah, no problem, and Jon, quit complaining have fun. When you come back we'll have a great time, I promise" I said. "OK, bye big bro" he said as he walked over and hugged me. His mom only smiled. I walked home but not before making sure all of the gates into our backyards were closed. Since Jon was leaving, there would be no one to watch over our tent when I left to Uriel's house. I knew I had to explain to Uriel that he had to move on, we had to protect our friendship. I went inside and watched TV for a while. I was starting to get that lonely feeling, it sucked. I hated when I spend so much time with my friends and when they leave I feel really lonely. I was on the couch watching movies until 3pm when Uriel called. "What's up Aaron" he said. "Hey, I'm so amazed you called. You hardly ever call" "Yeah, well you told me to" "I always do, you never do it" "Well, I just got back from practice, are you coming to sleep over?" "Yeah" "Well, what time?" "I don't know, you tell me" "Now, I want you here now" "Ok, I'll be over there in a few minutes" "You mean hours, you always take forever" "No, I'll be there" "You better" "Wait, who's there?" I asked. "My mom, my sister, as usual" he said. "Okay, so its just us two?" I asked. "Yeah, pretty much, until my brother gets home." "Ok, I'll be there" I quickly got up and ran up to my room. I grabbed a backpack and I stuffed it with extra clothes. I called my mom and let her know I was going to go over to Uriel's for the night and then I was on my way. Later that night after Uriel and had dinner with his parents and his sister, we went up to his room. We relaxed on his bed while we watched TV. His sister came into the room to hang out with us. It was a normal thing for us to do, she loved to hang out with us and talk. She stayed with us until her friend called her. Uriel sat up and I did too. He looked at me. I looked at him. "So, what do you want to talk about?" he asked. "Uriel, the whole Jon and me thing" I answered. "What about it?" "Uriel, you are really special to me. But I don't think we should be doing any more things. Really, I think we should be friends, and only friends" "Yeah, you've told me before, and then you kissed me" "No, I didn't, it was an accident, something that should have never happened." "Aaron, why do you want to end this so quick, who are you with?" "No one, Uriel, I just don't want to mess up our friendship" "It won't mess up our friendship Aaron, if anything it will be better" "Uriel, what happens when you find someone, or I find someone" "Then, we tell each other, or something, I don't know. Look, the thing is Aaron, first you tell me you love me, then you change your mind, and then we have sex. What the hell is going on!" "Uriel, I wish I knew. Look, sex is great, I know. But we can't just have sex without loving each other, because I know you don't love me. Do you?" "Well...you're a great friend" "Exactly. See, I think you are better off, finding a boy you really like, maybe even a girl" "Yeah, you could be right, but not completely right" "The point I'm trying to make is that, I don't love you like that, and I don't want to hurt you. This better stop before it gets any worse" "Aaron, what about Jon?" "What about him?" "Do you love him?" "Yeah, like I love you, he's my friend, like a brother" "Sometimes I feel like you two are up to something" "Uriel, nothing is up. We're just very close to each other, that's it. Besides, you better than anyone should know when something is up" "Yeah, I guess, so we're like best friends now?" he asked. "Yeah, best friends for life" "Right" he said. "I mean it" I said. "So do I" "So I guess, no sex today" he laughed. "No, no sex today, or any day." "Yeah, true that, I'm glad we decided that. Hey, Aaron, can we do something now, it's getting real weird just sitting here, lets go play soccer with my friends" "Yeah" We went next door and we played soccer with most of his friends. It was pretty cool. In total there must have been like 10 of us. I was in Uriel's team and we did pretty well. I scored 4 and he scored 6 goals. I enjoyed getting to know his friends. Most of them were pretty cool, some where really cute. At 9:30 Jesse came home so Uriel and I went inside to chill with him. We sat in their kitchen for a while talking about movies and soccer. I liked it when Uriel and I were around Jesse because things sort of changed, there was nothing going on under the table anymore and Uriel stopped hinting things at me. We ended up going out to the movies and enjoying some time together, just the 3 of us, like it used be long ago. I knew deep inside Uriel missed moments like this. Back when I first started hanging out with Uriel, this was how it was. The 3 of us would hang out all the time, going to movies, parks, restaurants, ice cream places, and well we just had a blast together. But little by little that changed and it ended up being 2 at a time. Either Jesse with Uriel, or Uriel and I, or Jesse and I. It was never the 3 of us combined anymore. That night we got home late and we just all crashed in Jesse's room. The three of us fit in a bed and for the first time in a while, Uriel and I shared a bed as brothers/friends. We joked, played, talked and overall had a blast. The next morning Jesse decided to invite his sister with us too and we went out for breakfast at IHOP. This was something else that rarely happened. The four of us hanging out. The four of us combined usually means disaster for who ever else is around us. We just have a blast and tend to forget about everybody else, just us in our own perfect little world. I was really sad when we got home and Jesse had to go to work. Things were okay, but they weren't the same. Uriel and I sat in the living room playing soccer while his sister chatted on the phone. "It was fun wasn't it?" he asked. "What was fun?" I asked. "Being friends" "Yeah, it was a blast" "Do you really love me as your little brother?" "Of course Uriel, I've always loved you as a little brother" "Yeah, but I still enjoyed whatever else we did, no matter what" "I know, me too. But not all things, no matter how good they feel, are good things" "True that" he answered. I stayed with him until 3pm that day. Then I headed home. I was glad things were better now for Uriel and I. It meant that we could be great friends again. I was a little sad that Jon was going to be gone until Saturday, that meant 4 more days. It was only Tuesday and I had nothing else to do. I sort of wanted to see Luis but then part of me wanted to just go home and be lazy, sometimes I get that weird feeling. When I pulled into my driveway I noticed my parents had arrived and they were in the back cooking something. I walked around the garage to meet up with them. My dad was cooking something on the grill. "Hey, what's going on?" I asked. "Well, we took the day off, and we're going to have a cook out" he answered. "Who?" I asked. "Well, your brothers and some family. Just a nice little cookout" "On a Tuesday?" I asked. "Yeah, plus there's a soccer game. Say, why don't you invite some friends" "I don't have any friends that can come" "What about Jon?" "He's in Indiana" "Jesse?" "Working" "Uriel?" "Just came back from his house" "Luis?" "I could invite him" "Yeah, then you guys can play with your cousins" "OK" I said. I walked inside and went up to my room. I checked my e-mail and I had received an email from Luis. He wanted to tell me that he had just bought this awesome soccer ball and wanted to show it to me. I called him up. "What's up Aaron" he answered. "Not much, just bored" "I heard you slept over at Uriel's" he said. "Yeah, yesterday night. It was pretty cool" "Yeah, so um...what are you doing now?" he asked. "Nothing, I was wondering if you wanted to come over, we're having a cookout" "I don't know, my mom is being real mean to me lately, plus I just went over not too long ago" "I know, but my cousins are coming over and well, we could use your new ball to play soccer" "Yeah, let me ask my mom, hold up" he said. He took a little while to come back, I heard him faintly begging his mom to let him come. He finally came back and picked up the phone. "Yeah, it took some begging but I can come. I have to take a shower though. Pick me up in 20 minutes. "Okay, I'll be there in 20 minutes" I agreed. I almost made it to Luis' house in 20 minutes but then I got a little held back by the traffic and I there after 27 minutes, he was a little mad but he forgave just as we got into the car. "So Aaron, what did you go to Uriel's house for?" he asked. "Nothing really, just to hang out with him. I realized that I haven't really been spending time with Uriel lately, so I went over." "And you don't invite me!" "Luis, you stayed with us in the tent, which was like 2 days ago" "Yeah I know, I was just saying, damn your so bitchy" "I'm not bitchy, I'm just really, sad I guess" "Why?" "MY little brother is gone for until Saturday" "Jon?" "Yeah, Jon" "Aaron, what's up with you and Jon, seriously" "Let's talk about that when we get home okay?" I asked. "Yeah cool" he wasn't too worried about it. We began talking about other things, mostly soccer, we are soccer maniacs. It's like we have nothing else in the world we'd rather do or watch others do, soccer is our life, well sort of. When we got to my house not many people had arrived yet so we had time to go up to my room. I locked the door and then I sat on the couch. I motioned him to sit with me. He snuggled with me. "So what's up doc?' he asked. "Luis, have you ever noticed that Jon and I are really close?" I asked. "Uh..yeah. every time I see you guys together I realize that" "Ok, well, Luis do you love me?" "That came out of no where, but um...I don't know what love is Aaron, I can't answer that" "Well, would you cry if I told you that I don't love you?" "Not really, I know you don't love me. We're just, horny" "Well...at least you're honest" I laughed. "Yeah, what can I say" "Luis, I love Jon" I said. He stopped, and looked at me. "Does he know?" "Yes" "No wonder you guys were so weird that day! I knew it! Aaron so you're two timing me?" "No, Luis, listen, Jon is with Oscar" "When you say with, do you mean..." he sort of paused. "Yeah, they are together I guess" "Woah, those two, wow" "Yeah, but then that night, after you guys were asleep, something happened that made me and him realize that we love each other" "What happened?" "We just, all of a sudden realized it" "Did you guys do it?" "No dork, we haven't done anything. He's my friend, that's it, for now" "Well...so you're breaking up with me?" "I don't know how to say it, but yeah, sort of" "Wow, for Jon?" "Luis, I'm so sorry. I really care about you, really, I do. But I don't love you and I don't think it's fair for me to do stuff to you if I don't love you" "Yeah, I get it, plus, well...I got to tell you something myself" "What?" "I sort of messed around with Oscar" "WHAT! When!" "That night, in the tent" "What do you mean by messed around, and how did it happen" "Well look, he was sleeping next to me right, and then all of a sudden I felt something poking me in the ass, I thought it was you, but well it felt a little smaller so I was like what the heck. I turned around and I saw Oscar really close to me. Then I don't know why but I started getting closer to him and his dick was like really poking my butt hole" "What!" "Yeah, and then he was like, `are you awake', and when I said yeah he moved his arm around and he started playing with my dick while he humped me" "Wow, he's really horny then" "Yeah, and well...from then he sucked my dick" "WHAT! And where was I?" "You were sleeping next to Jon and Uriel, you guys were in la-la land" "I can't believe that, what else happened" "Well, then I turned around and he did too, I was humping him and playing with his dick. That's pretty much all that happened. That's why I got up at the same time with Jon when Oscar was leaving, that was the only way I would get to talk to Oscar without you freaking out." "So, you cheated on me?" I asked. "You cheated first!" "Um...no. well...so...what now?" I asked. "Nothing, look Aaron, I know you're cool with me and all, I knew you didn't really love me when you told me you did. We were just in the moment, but we're good friends, at least I learned something from it" "So, when Jon and Oscar end their thing, you're going to hook up with Oscar?" "It sounds weird, but yeah I guess" "You know Oscar is not on my favorites list" "I know Aaron, but you don't even know the kid, he's cool." "Yeah, he could be, but first he takes Jon from me, and now he's sort of taking you" "Aaron, who do you love? Me or Jon, honestly, tell me" "Well...Jon" "So then, get him back. I know you can get Jon, I think he loves you back. I always noticed something funny between the two of you" "You did?" "Yeah, you guys are always finding ways to make the other one jealous. Besides, Aaron, I can tell just by the way your eyes shine when you talk about him" "Are you serious?" "Yeah, Aaron, but don't you think we should go downstairs now? I mean I'm sure your family is probably wondering where you are at" "True that, okay let's go." I said as I got up and started walking to the door. "Hey, Aaron, no hard feelings right?" he asked. "No, no hard feelings. Don't worry, you get your boy, I'll get mine" I said. When we went outside there was a bunch of people hanging out, some kids where in the pool, some adults where also in the pool, and well...I was glad that my dad covered the tent with a blue protecting thing. Probably in case it rained, that way the little kids didn't have a chance to get into the tent. We found a table to sit at and eventually kids started coming over to us and asking us if we wanted to play soccer. Luis had forgotten his ball so we had to use one of mine. We didn't really play a hard soccer game, just a nice little work out. I didn't even sweat that much. The party went on for a while, I was sort of getting tired of these random get togethers, I really just wanted to sit back and relax. Luis and I were just sitting in my living room watching TV. We were sitting like best friends, no touching or anything, just two friends watching TV. I was a little quiet while Luis kept talking about the soccer game we were watching. He seemed a little upset when I didn't answer his questions. "Aaron, you really love him don't you?" he asked. "Luis, I've never felt this way about anyone" "I can tell, but look dude, just play it cool, at least for a little while. There's people around and well, don't let them notice." "You know, you're really smart, I don't know why you think you're dumb" "I just can't get good grades, that's all" "You're really smart, at least to me" "Thanks." "No problem, bro" "Hey, you know, we can be the best of brothers" "Yeah, we can. We're so alike, we love the same things" "Like what?" "Soccer, food, and well...uh...soccer" "Woah, that's a lot of things" he joked. We both smiled and well, I felt a little better. I mean it wasn't going to make me feel any better to just be sad, Jon was miles away anyway. It makes sense to just relax and wait until he comes back. The party ended pretty late, Luis and I managed to get through the night, mostly by playing on the PS2 with my cousins. It was alright I guess. When everyone was one and my parents were in their room Luis and I went to my room. We changed into pajamas and then sat on my bed. "Aaron, why does it make you feel so bad, you know, loving Jon?" Luis asked quietly. I looked at him, the light of the moon was lighting the room. "Luis, he's 10." "There's no age for love" "What if I don't love him? What if I have mixed feelings, what if I love him as my brother, but I think it's something else" "What if...you love him" he said. "It's just, so bad. He's so young, I'm taking advantage" "Aaron, chill. I know it sounds bad, and all, but look, you're a nice guy. I know you really care about him. He cares about you." "What makes you say that?" "Aaron, if I were Jon, I'd care for you too" "What do you mean?" "You do everything for him, everything. I'm sure you'd die for him." "Yeah, I know" "Trust me, he cares" "You're, so cool. I'm sorry for taking away your innocence" "Aaron, you didn't take it away, I gave it to you" "That's a weird way to put it" "Aaron, stop feeling bad for everything you do, really." "It's just...hard" "I know, but hey, you'll be fine." "I hope so" "I know so" "Thanks Luis" "No problem, what are friends for" he said as he slowly hugged me. "Let's sleep" I said. We made ourselves comfortable in my bed. We hugged each other, but it was in a total different way, nothing sexual. The next morning we didn't do much except swim for a bout an hour or so. Time passed by really quickly and Luis and were soon becoming the best of friends. He pretty much got me through the dreaded days until Jon came back. Saturday finally came, I was pretty much anxious to see Jon. I didn't know if he felt the same way. I woke up that morning and looked at the clock. It was 10:30am. I looked out the window and sure enough, Jon's window curtains were propped open, I was so happy. I changed and washed my face, I kept looking at my phone, I wanted it to ring. I wanted it to be Jon. It didn't ring. I tried to watch TV but I couldn't, I just wanted to see Jon. I looked out the window and all of my excitement all of a sudden came to an end. I saw Jon walking through his back yard with Oscar. Anger rushed through my body. I didn't know what to do, I sat back down on my bed and fought hard to not let tears come out of my eyes. I was so angry, how could I fall in love with a boy, a 10-year old boy. He knew nothing about love, heck he was just living life. All of the good and bad moments that Jon and I had quickly rushed through my mind, they all made me sad. I sat in my bed, depression took over my body. I was still sitting in my bed, looking up at the ceiling, when my phone rang. It was Jon. He said he needed to talk to me. I told him to come to my house and he said he couldn't, he wanted me to meet him at the tree house. I quickly got my shoes on and in no time I was a few feet away from the tree house. I slowly climbed up the ladder and when I got up, I saw him sitting there. "Hey" I said softly. "Hey" he answered softly as well. "What's up?" "Aaron, I'm sorry" "For what?" "I can't see you anymore" so many fears went through my head when I heard these words. "Why?" "It's bad" "What's bad" "What happened" "Nothing happened" "Aaron, I don't want your kissed, I don't want your hugs. I just want a friend" "O" this was the first time I say o. I was in shock. "Aaron, I think I don't want to be your boyfriend" "Okay, well...that's your decision, and I'm sorry. I'm sorry for ever hurting you" I said. I was almost in tears. He only looked at me. "I'm sorry." I said again. "Aaron, we're still friends right?" he asked. "I'm sorry but I can't handle this. You're too young to understand, I'm sorry. I don't I'll see you again." "Why not?" he asked. "Jon, it's the best thing for both of us. You grow up, be something, make your family happy" he didn't look up. "I don't think I ever loved you" I said. I knew I was lying, but I needed to fix my mistake, I hurt him. I hurt the boy I love. Tears started to go down his eyes and I couldn't help it. With my hand I caressed his cheek, he looked up at me and his eyes were watery, tears going down his cheeks. I was breaking into billions of pieces in the inside. His eyes were full of sadness and probably confusion. I put my hand through his hair and then I backed away. "I'll miss you" I said softly. Again he didn't answer. I walked away. Until I couldn't take it anymore and started running. When I entered my house I slammed the door and then went up to my room. I punched my pillows endlessly and when I looked out the window I saw him walk by, really slow. He stopped for a second, looked at my window, and then walked inside. This made me even more angry at myself and for the first time in years, I couldn't hold back any more. Tears were flowing out of my eyes and I was lying on my bed, full of anger and sadness. I had lost the one person I truly loved, because of one stupid mistake. I shouldn't have ever fallen in love with him. I sat in my room and cried until I heard my parents enter the house. I put on a fake face and had dinner with them. I was a little quiet but when I was questioned about why I was so sad I told them I was just tired. The following days were hard for me. Just 2 weeks before school started again and I was still in depression. I still saw Jon everyday through my window, he'd walk with Oscar and play with his friends. It seemed as if what happened only hurt him for that moment, he seemed pretty happy to me. He was happy I was out of his life. This only made me even more sad. When soccer practices started I worked extra hard to make myself tired. I would come home and go to bed, wake up and go to practice again. I started working longer hours, partying with my friends, getting drunk. I even smoked a cigar. I was trying to forget about everything, trying to forget about Jon. One morning, just one week before school started, I heard the doorbell ring. I had a huge hangover and well, when I opened the door I looked like shit. Luis appeared behind the door. "Aaron, what happened to you" he asked. "Nothing" I answered. "You look like shit!" he said. I looked behind him and Oscar and Jon were waiting on their bikes. This made me so angry. "So you're hanging out with them huh?" I asked. "What, o them" he said. "Luis I'm really tired, can you come back later?" I said. "Hey guys, go to Jon's house, I'll be there in a few minutes" Luis yelled. Jon and Oscar rode their bikes around the street. I guess they were going to Jon's house. Luis walked in. "Aaron, are you drunk?" he asked. "no" I said. "Aaron, what the hell, what's happening to you. You didn't return any of my 40 calls, you're never home, you don't even answer Jon's calls" "I don't know where my phone is, and well...I'm just busy" "You've been drinking!" "No I haven't" I said. "Bull shit Aaron, I know what drunks smell like, and you smell like one" "Ok, so I've been partying a little" "Aaron, what the fuck, you said you loved Jon, what do you think he thinks about you" "He doesn't give a shit" "Aaron, he called me. He told me you were in bad shape" "How would he know, he's to fucking busy with Oscar" "Oscar is with me Aaron, Jon has nothing to do with him. They never did, they were just experimenting, Jon never really did anything" "Yeah okay" "Aaron what the fuck snap into reality! Jon loves you!" "No he doesn't! He was the one who said what happened between me and him was bad, all we did was kiss" I sat on my couch, he sat in front of me. He held my hand. "Aaron, you're not like this. You're trying to be someone you aren't. You're my big brother, I always looked up to you. Don't do this to me" "I'm sorry" I broke down and I felt tears building up. "Saying sorry won't cut it! Do something about it!" "What can I do! I fucked up." "Aaron, prove to him you love him. Prove it!" "What for! He doesn't love me! He's 10 damn it!" "Well then at least be his fucking big brother. You always said you'd be his big brother for ever, don't you remember. Or did you forget your promises!" "Yes, I forgot" "You know what fuck it, you want to live like this do it, I tried helping!" he said. Just then I heard a knock on the door. Luis got up and opened the door. I saw Jon walk in, Luis just looked at me and walked out. Jon stood at the entrance of the living room. He looked shocked. "Aaron, what happened?" he asked. "Nothing" "Why are you doing this?" "Doing what?" "Aaron, you're hurting me. I really cared, you never believed I did" "Ok" "Aaron, I'm sorry" when I heard him say that I looked up at him and saw him break down. Tears covered his face, he could barely talk. This honestly broke me down too and I quickly jumped up to hug him. "Baby, I'm so sorry. I never meant to hurt you. I love you more than anything in this life. I'd give my life for you. I'm a mess, I don't even know where I was at, but I love you. That's all I know. And I know you'll never forgive me for what I did, but listen, I really am sorry" I held him. "Aaron, I love you too" he said softly. I looked down at him, and when I saw his big brown eyes looking up at me, I started crying even harder. I held him tight and then I kissed him. I picked him up and he wrapped his legs and arms around me, I sat on the couch and he was still holding on to me. We both held each other for what seemed to be an eternity. I got up again and he held onto me again, I walked up to my room and I shut the door. I fell on the bed and he was still holding onto me, I heard the sniffles from his nose, and this made me hold onto him even more. We lay in bed together, holding each other, until we fell asleep. When we woke up, it was 2pm and I quickly jumped up. Jon was still sound asleep. I looked at my phone and Luis had left a message. I listened to it. "Aaron, I know Jon and you are still working things out. I just wanted to say I'm sorry for what I said. I know you're a good guy, you just need to get some things worked out. I hope you and Jon work things out, I'm going to stay with Oscar, call me if you need anything" I heard him say. I held onto Jon again. He woke up seconds later, he looked at me, then smiled. "I love you so much Aaron" he said. "Yeah, I love you too" I answered. That day we didn't to much except watch movies and have dinner. My parents didn't even notice there was something wrong with me before, mainly because they barely saw me. When they saw me with Jon of course I was in a good mood again and well, they didn't know anything. When it was getting darker, Jon decided he wanted to sleep in the tent, and I agreed to sleep out there. We grabbed our pajamas and we went outside. When we entered the tent, I felt odd. It was, so dark. Either way we both lied on the bed and held each other. "Aaron, remember when we went to Florida?" he asked. "yeah, how could I forget" "Remember how you gave me a shower, and then dried me?" "Yeah," "I liked that feeling" "Yeah, me too" "Give me that feeling again" "What feeling?" "Your hand touching my pee-pee" "Jon, I don't know if it's right" I said. "Aaron, just do it, please, baby" that was the first time he'd called me that, and well...that got me going. I slowly lowered my hand down to his camouflaged pants, over his pants I started massaging his little dick. I felt it spring to life in an instant. I looked up at him and he had his eyes closed. After I massaged his hard dick for a while I slowly began to lower his pants. When his pants where down by his knees, I massaged his dick through the thin layer of boxers. His boxers had a slit without a button so his dick was now popping out of the opening. I slowly started to take off his pants completely, and well, I took off my shirt and my pants. Now I was in my boxers and he was in his boxers and his shirt. Slowly, he took off his shirt and then I helped him take off his boxers. He was lying down with his legs spread open. I had my hand on his 2 inch dick and I was jacking him off. His dick felt so good between my fingers, and just seeing him completely naked in front of me sent total shock waves throughout my body. His eyes were still closed and he had one of his hands on my arm. I knew I could give him more pleasure, and I knew he wanted it. Slowly I lowered my mouth onto his little dick, he opened his eyes. "What are you doing?" he asked. "Shh...relax" I said. He watched me as I took his dick in my mouth. When my mouth touched his dick, he let out a small gasp. "Ahh" he gasped again. I knew he loved that feeling. I licked his dick over and over again. Then I licked his hairless balls and I kissed the skin above his dick. Then I really started sucking his dick, I moved so that I was lying between his legs, my mouth completely rested on his groin and my head bobbing up and down his dick. His hands eventually found their way onto my head and they were guiding my mouth onto his silky dick. As I sucked more and more I noticed his skin pulled back a little further than it used to and then he started making my head go faster and faster until his whole body started shaking. "Aaron get off, I'm gonna PEE!" he said. His dick began to pulsate in my mouth and his grip tightened on my hair. Of course no cum came out of his dick. When it was all done I got off and I hugged him. He was panting for air. "That was so cool!" he almost yelled. His dick was no limp and he was holding onto me. "Yeah, I know" I said. "Man, I didn't know that would feel so good" "There's so many more things I could do to make you feel good" I said. "Dude, make me feel more good, please, that feeling is so good!" he said happily. "Okay, uh...turn around, get on your stomach and open your legs" I said. "Ok..." he said a little worried. I looked for a bottle of lotion until I found it in a bag nearby. I got some on my finger and I started rubbing it in his crack. "Oooh" he said. "Feels good?" I asked. "Yeah, really good" he answered. I started to slowly put some inside his hole, which was so cute and pink. "Ouch, that hurts a little" he said. "Just relax, this might hurt at first" I said. Slowly I put in more and more until one of my fingers was sliding in and out with ease. "Ahhhhh" he gasped again. He was holding onto a pillow really tight. Then I added one more finger, and I slowly worked him while he got used to my fingers going in and out. When I realized he was ready I slowly propped myself on top of him. He looked back at me. he was shocked. "Are you going to do what I think you are?" he asked. "Yeah, just relax okay" I said. "Ok...but Aaron, will it hurt?" he said. "Baby, just a little at first, trust me please, you'll like it" I said. "Okay" he said. I slowly lowered myself and positioned my dick above his slipper hole. I felt my dick touch his ass and it sent shivers down my spine, I was so turned on. My dick touched his hole and it sent stronger shocks through my body. Little by little my dick entered. "AHHHH! Aaron please stop, you're hurting me....STOP!" he yelled. "Baby, don't yell, please, hold onto something" I said. "Okay" he grunted. I lowered more and more. My dick was being engulfed by his hole. It was so tight, and warm. It was definitely the best feeling I had ever felt. It also felt very slipper and silky. It was the greatest. When I felt his bubbly ass against the base of my dick I was completely on him. I grabbed a pillow and I told him to slowly lift up so I could put a pillow under his stomach, he did. He lifted and this caused him to apply pressure on my dick, I almost blew my load there. I relaxed. I felt his insides with my dick. "How do you feel?" I asked. "Weird, I can't feel much, it feels like I'm full and I need to take a crap" he answered. "Tell me when you feel really good" "Ok" I lied on him for a couple seconds, then he started moving around, I think this meant he could feel my dick now. "I feel, good now" he said softly. I slowly lifted up and half of my dick was out of his hole. I could see his hole stretched out. Then I bounced into his hole again. "Ahhh" he said, but this time with pleasure. "Aaron, this is awesome" he said. "I told you" "Yeah" "Are you ready?" I asked. "Yeah" he said. When he said that I picked up the speed and I started humping him faster. He began meeting my thrusts and in no time we were fucking wildly. I was literally bouncing off of his bubbly ass and the squishy sound coming from his hole was just making me lose it. I was going faster and faster until I realized I could make it better. I stopped. "Aaron, don't stop, it's really good" he said. "I know, but just do something for me. Flip so that you are on your back" I said. "Ok" he said. He easily flipped over. I then took his legs and raised them so that I could get a clear view of his hole. Then I pushed them back and I plunged in. "AAH!!" he yelled again. "Aaron, stop...it hurts like fuck! Stop!" he yelled. "SHHH..." I said. I knew he'd get used to it. He closed his eyes and held onto me tight. Eventually he let go and he smiled. I was between his legs now and I could kiss him. I started to plunge my dick in and out of him while we made out, I guess I hit his spot because he started a second climax and this caused his hole to apply pressure on my dick and I blew my biggest load yet, into his hole. I felt every single stream hit his insides. When we were both done, I slipped out and he lied on top of me, his dick on my balls. I held him. We were panting for air. "Aaron, that was incredible" he said. "Yeah, Jon, I love you so much" "Me too. And I feel your sperm inside of me. it's so cool" he said. "Yeah, I know. I told you you'd like it" "I know, but it hurt so much at first. Like if you were burning me" "Yeah, I know, but good thing you're a big boy" I said. "Yeah, I know" he said. He sounded tired. We fell asleep holding onto each other. The next morning I woke up with my dick right between his crack. We had sex again that morning and then we headed inside to take a shower. We cleaned our bodies really well and then we watched movies. It was as if we had totally changed overnight, we both had proved our love for each other that night, and it was honestly the best sex I had ever had. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Again, thank you for reading my story. This basically where the summer ends. I really want your comments on the story, not that it's done and all. i also want to know if you guys would like me to write another chapter. If you do want me to write another chapter, let me know what you would like to find out. write me at tommy199212@hotmail.com thanks.