Date: Wed, 29 Aug 2007 22:50:23 +0000 From: Tommy Evans Subject: Uriel and Jon 18 It was only around 11 a clock when we finished taking our shower. Oscar and I sat on my couch watching TV. "Aaron, you never called Jonny back" Oscar reminded me. "O shit I forgot" I said as I grabbed my phone. I dialed his number and Oscar just smiled at me. I knew he understood that a friendship like that can't be thrown away. Jon answered after the 4th ring. "Hello" I heard his sweet voice. "Hey dude whats up?" I said. "Nothing, I just finished cleaning. Did you guys finish working out?" "Yeah man. We're just watching TV now" "Cool. What did you guys do for workout?" he asked. "We ran on the treadmill and then lifted some weights why?" "I don't know you just sounded really out of air" "Yeah, I was running when you called so whats up" I said. "Well I was thinking that maybe now that im done maybe my mom will let me go stay the night" "O that'd be cool but isn`t it a little late?" I said. "Just a little but I'll make something up. Is oscar staying?" he asked. "yeah" I answered. Oscar winked at me. "O, well...I don't know let me go ask" he said. But I heard the change of tone in his voice. Oscar took the phone from my hands. "Hey nigga, you're coming no matter what okay" he said. "Okay" Jon answered. "Well you heard the chief" I joked as I took the phone back. "Okay hold up Aaron I'll call you back" he said. I sat back on the couch staring at the television but not watching it. I have been doing that a lot more often lately. Just staring at random things but not really paying attention. Too many things were floating around in my mind. Oscar was watching TV and I guess since he's younger he really doesn't have many things going around in that head of his. I mean what else could he ask for. He had just shot his first squirts of cum. If I was him I would be really happy. As far as I know I shot my first time in my room thinking about a friend. But shooting your first big load doing it with a person you like, nothing can beat that. A few seconds later I felt something warm reach for my hand. I looked over at Oscar and he gave me a little smile. "aww how sweet" I said as I held his hand. "Yeah, well i try" he answered. And then, it hit me again. The guilt. Once again I did stuff with a boy I cared about yet I felt bad about it. I know I like Jon and I like Uriel but Oscar had been the one who I think about more. So why do I feel so guilty? O I wish I knew. I didn't want to keep beating my head over this so I turned around and looked at Oscar again. He smiled at me. Then I grabbed him by his shoulders and pulled him to me. He was lying most of his body weight on me. I put my arm around his shoulder and I held onto him like that. Then I started paying some attention to the television but I mostly was paying attention to the warmth and the awesome feeling I got from holding onto Oscar. 15 minutes passed and still I hadn't heard nothing from Jon so I figured he wasn't coming. Oscar and I got more comfortable on the couch. Now I was lying on the couch and he was lying next to me. So yeah, we were spooning. I had my arm around his waist and his arm on my arm. It was nice to just hold him. I was really enjoying it. A few more minutes passed by and still nothing. Suddenly I had to go pee. I got up and ran to the bathroom. When I was peeing I distantly heard the doorbell ring. It was probably my parents being lame and not wanting to look for their house key. I washed my hands and then I went to grab a face wipe to get rid of the extra oil on my face. It was a treatment I have been doing for weeks now. But anyway, I walked out to my room and I found Jon walking through the doorway. Part of me was really happy to see him there, and the other was a little tense. "hey whats up lil bro" I said as I walked to him and put my arm around him. Oscar didn't even notice but Jon instantly shrugged my arm off. I gave him a questioning look but he didn't even bother to look at me. "So why didn't you call back?" oscar asked. "I forgot. Plus I didn't want to take more time. Maybe she could have changed her mind" Jon answered. "Yeah, you're right. Well lets go get something quick to eat because im thirsty" I said. "Yeah me too! For some reason I'm really hungry" Oscar added. I knew why he was hungry but, I wasn't saying a word. I just realized that after you have a great time(sex) you usually feel really hungry. I would have never have put those two together, until recently. Anyway we headed to the kitchen and I noticed that Jon made everything so much more complicated. He tried to stay as distant as he could from me. While Oscar didn't seem to care. He was so much better at hiding stuff like that. As we were walking to the kitchen I realized that Jon was in between Oscar and me and that he kept looking at both of us kind of to keep us separated. "So Jon, what did you tell your mom to let you come over this late?" I asked. "Well I told her that Oscar was here and that we were going to go out early tomorrow to go somewhere" Jon answered. "Didn't she know that I was a little ticked off at you?" Oscar asked. "Not really, I didn't tell her anything." Jon answered. The three of us sat with our bowls of cereal and we were chatting. I couldn't help to realize that Jon was trying to do everything in his power to be between Oscar and me at all times. And he kept looking at us when we were talking to each other. I felt as if Jon was trying to prove to himself that NO me and oscar weren't messing around. I also knew that Jon wasn't dumb and that just as any other kid would, Jon was getting a little jealous. I understand that it can be hard to try get used to having your best friends be best friends. I mean not too long ago Jon and Oscar were inseparable, and now, that had changed. "Oscar, im sleeping in the bed okay" Jon said out of nowhere. "Um so...your point is?" Oscar asked. "Im just saying because my back hurts when I sleep on the floor" "Well its okay, Aaron and I already got the covers ready to make a bed on the floor for us. That way you get the bed all to yourself" Oscar fired back. Jon's facial reaction was instant. "O. Well that's cool I guess" he answered. "Wait, couldn't we all fit in the bed?" I asked. "It be a tight fit don't you think?" Oscar asked. "Nah, I've done that before. Its not all that roomy but you can sleep comfortably" I jumped in. "Well, if it gets too hot or something I'll just move to the floor" Oscar added. I knew Oscar saw nothing of this. He knew Jon always liked the bed. The difference here is that now both of them want to spend time next to me, but its going to be hard to accomplish that with them being together with me again. After I washed the little dishes we used we ran back up to my room. I heard my parents walk in and they saw Jon going up the stairs. My mom smiled and waved hi to him. "Is Jon staying too?" my mom asked. "Yeah" I answered. "Okay well why don't you guys sleep in the basement. That way it wont be so noisy upstairs because we have to go to sleep" she said. "Um...okay I guess" I answered back. "Well that's cool, at least none of us get the bed" Jon smiled. "yeah, whatever" Oscar joked. I had no problem with the small competition but I started to realize that Jon was a very confusing kid. I mean sometimes I feel like he is sickened by me, and sometimes he just wants to be next to me or be held by me. What exactly was going on through that kid's head? Anyway the three of us grabbed some covers and pillows and we headed for the basement. Once we were down there and our bed was comfortably made, we began playing our usual video games. Every once in a while Oscar's foot would go near mine and sometimes under my leg and close to my dick. I'm not going to say Jon missed all of it but he missed most of it due to the action in the game. I didn't quite understand how Jon and Oscar never did anything together because I mean they both like to do the same things and it seems rather impossible to me that they NEVER talked about the subject. What if they did do something together? What if they both know they like doing stuff with boys and they are just not telling me? I tried to shrug it off but every time the turned to look at either one of them I realized how they both have been mine, and how they both have an odd smile. What was going on through their heads! I just wanted to find a way to jump inside of their heads and listen to their thoughts. "Aaron!" Oscar snapped at me. "Oo what" I jumped back to the real world. "You're not even trying. Jon just killed you again!" "Damn, sorry. I was spacing out" I said as I smiled to Oscar. "Well cut it out because you're not playing good" Jon added. "Okay geez" I said as I kicked Jon in the back. We killed each other in a war type game for a very long time. Then we decided to play a little soccer and I of course was unbeatable. And then we played a little bit of wrestling. I was really happy about being with them. After a long time of arguing and not getting a long, a missed these two awesome boys hanging out with me and making me smile. We cracked jokes at each other and made fun of each other, and it was just awesome. We didn't even care about the time. It wasn't like we had school or anything. And I guess I was sort of celebrating going back to school. When little by little we started to get tired of playing video games I started to make conversation with them until eventually they just turned the game off. "So are you guys good now?" I asked. "What do you mean?" Oscar asked. "Not mad at each other?" I answered. "O, no not mad" Jon smiled. "Well that's good. Because I was getting really tired of dividing my time between both of you. Now we can all hang out again" I said. "What about Uriel?" Oscar asked. "What about him?" I asked. "Well, weren't you his friend now Jon?" he asked. "No, we talked for like 2 days at the hospital and that's it" Jon answered. I was happy those two didn't become friends. I didn't want any more risks of information leaking. "What about when you guys went to florida?" Oscar kept the interrogation going. "Well he was with Aaron most of the time. We got along but its not like we're friends or anything" "OKay guys I don't know why Uriel intimidates you but whatever. Just let it go okay" I jumped in. I headed over to the bed on the floor and I started to get comfortable. I didn't even care where I slept. I knew that either way I'd end up next to someone warm and cozy. Jon and Oscar gave each other weird blank looks. "I got one end" Oscar called out. "I got the other" Jon jumped up. "O heck no. I hate the middle!" I pretended to not like it even though I loved the idea. "Well too bad, we called it first" Jon told me as he got in next to me. "O yeah I forgot the rules of calling stuff. I mean there's calling the front seat in the car, calling the couch or the bed, calling the control for the television. Man do you guys call out for everything?" I asked. "yeah just about. Didn't you do it when you were young?" Oscar asked me. "Not exactly, when I was young the first person to get it was the keeper. I think your generation just got lazier. You skipped the getting to it first, now its calling it out loud first. So then you don't have to move extra fast to get to the object. You guys should be ashamed of yourselves." "Yeah, well im not ashamed" Jon smiled as he turned to face me and he put his leg on mine. I was glad Oscar hadn't make a move yet or else there would be problems too early in the night. Then I felt Oscar's hand reach for mine on my other side. His little fingers found my fingers and I looked to the side. We smiled at each other. I lied back, thought about it and realized that I really wasn't cheating on anyone because technically Jon and I were nothing. We were just friends. He wasn't holding onto me or anything he just had his leg on mine. Maybe he wanted a bit more space. Maybe he just wanted to feel a little protected. All I knew was that I was lucky enough to have these two beautiful boys next to me and I would be stupid to not enjoy the moment. "Good night guys" oscar said. "Yeah good night" Jon added. "Don't let the bed ghosts scare you guys. And if you see anything scary tell it to not leave and wake me up so I can see it" I joked. I felt Oscar's grip get a little tighter. Then, the weirdest thing happened. Jon turned to face me and put his arm around my waist. Good thing that Oscar's hand wasn't near my body at all, actually it was in between us. But I knew that Oscar noticed the sudden movement. I couldn't really do or say anything. I just simple smiled at Oscar and he smiled back. Then I felt his foot tap mine and I guess we were holding our feet too. Weird but it felt good to know that we felt the need to hold onto each other. I felt Jon's eyes on me, I wanted to tell him that maybe this wasn't a good idea but I didn't want to hurt him. I knew he was starting to be more open and more confident so me telling him to back off would totally kill that. I just sat there sort of holding onto Jon as well but not really putting much effort into it. Little by little our breathing slowed down, yet I was wide awake. I was really good at relaxing and not falling asleep. To my surprise I felt Oscar's grip loosen up and little by little our hands were separating. I didn't quite know what the deal with Jon was but I didn't make a move. I pretended to be deep asleep. Slowly, he began to move even closer to me. I wondered what was going through his mind and how close he was exactly getting. About 10 minutes passed by before I finally felt him get near my ear. "are you still awake?" he asked. "A little" I answered. "Is Oscar asleep?" he asked. "I'm not sure why?" "I just want to know that's all" Jon answered. "Okay..." I said as I closed me eyes. "Aaron I thought about stuff and I think that you're right. Maybe we can be REALLY good friends" "What do you mean by that" I whispered back. "You know...Good Friends. Like, we used to be" he answered. I didn't know if Oscar was asleep or not so I didn't want to take any chances. On the other hand Jon's suggestion was not bad but why the sudden change of opinion? Did he really realize that he felt something different from me? Or did he just like the feeling of being touched and such? "I don't think we can do stuff like that Jon. It's just, not right." I finally answered. "What do you mean not right?" he asked. "Can we talk about that another day?" I asked. He slowly let go of my hand. "SURE" he answered boldly as he turned away from me. I felt bad because it was an awesome thing for him to tell me himself that he wanted more from our friendship but I didn't like the fact that he had to tell me when Oscar was right next to us. I started thinking about how it all begin, in my backyard, with a simple hello from Jon. The next thing I know he's playing video games in my room, and then, we're sleeping together, and then weeks later we're in florida and then it happens, and then it gets fucked up. WOW, we've had a short but adventure filled past. I'm never going to forget that wonderful first time with Jon, but still, he sort of betrayed me while Oscar has always been loyal to me. I guess the best thing to do was wait until the morning. I drifted off to sleep while I hugged Oscar. Jon seemed to be ticked off and moved a little away from me. Later in the night, I felt something poking me. It took a while before I could fully wake up. It was coming from Jon's side. I turned to him and I opened my eyes a little. "What is it?" I asked. "Can we talk?" he asked. I looked over at my clock and it was 4am. What the hell was he doing awake at that time! "Um...sure." I answered half asleep. He got up and I stumbled to get up. Oscar was off in dream land so I didn't worry about him. I followed Jon to the cushion room where he sat by the window. I closed the door behind me. "What are you doing awake so late" I asked as I tried to open my eyes. "Aaron, can I ask you a question?" he said as he looked at me. When I opened my eyes and looked into his, I felt something weird. He, was, so cute, I felt so, good. Those feelings of love, lust, and want all came back to me. "Sure go ahead now that you woke me up" I answered. I sat down on a cushion at least a foot away from him. Something told me it was best to stay away. "Do you still love me?" he asked. I felt shocked, amazed, and confused all at once. "Umm...", I hesitated, " yeah...just not the same." I answered. "What do you mean?" he asked. "You're like my little bro." was the best I could come up with. "Just a little bro?" he asked. "Jon, what else can you be?" "Don't you love me anymore?" "Jon, you're only 11" "Yeah, and you missed my birthday by the way" "HEY! You hated me and I didn't even feel like being there on your birthday when that IDIOT was there!" "Yeah...but...still" "Jon you were mad at me remember!" "Okay, Aaron the point is, first you show me all this feelings and now you say we can't do anything?" "Jon, when you can look at me in the eyes and tell me you love me, then we can do stuff. Until then, I'm only your bro" "But...Aaron...I do love you" those four words, which he said so crisp, clean, and fluent, they sounded so...AWESOME. His eyes, sweet and loving, they were showing me that he was being honest. I just was too scared to accept it. I mean it hurt a lot to have missed his birthday, and I know it hurt both of us. And then, he brings out that he does love me. WOW this boy is indeed changing and growing. Amazing what a few months does to a kid. "And...I love you." I said. "But I don't want to hurt you." I added. "How can you? You already fucked me, and it didn't hurt anymore" he sort of chuckled. "Not like that dummy!" I snapped at him. "Then how?" "Jon, what happens when you grow up and meet another person. Another person like Danny who makes you happy. What if you do the same thing to me again, and then I really end up leaving you completely" "That's not going to happen Aaron" "Can you promise that?" "Yeah, I can" he said. A silent moment followed that. I didn't know what to tell him. In front of me I had the sweet boy who I thought I loved, and now was confused about it. Where was Uriel now? I wasn't even sure about Uriel anymore either. It was as if my whole life was changing. When I thought my world was only going to revolve around Uriel and Jon, Oscar had to come in the mix. Not only come in the mix but BECOME the most important ingredient in the mix. O boy was I confused, and then I looked at Jon. My sweet, little angel. The boy who brought out the sweet side of me. The boy who erased the mean, angry Aaron. I couldn't keep pushing him away. I smiled at him and with my index finger I signaled for him to come to me. He smiled back at me and he wiped his tears from his eyes and then he got up and walked towards me. I opened my arms and he fell on me. We held each other lying down. He cried on my chest. I heard his whimpers and his sniffles and I felt his heart pounding against both our chests. "Don't cry Jon" I said to him as I put my arms around him. He kept on crying. I couldn't take this. I had hurt him. The one person I promised to always protect and help, I made him cry. "I love you with all my heart. And that's never going to change no matter what, but you`re my little brother." I said. When I said that his eyes got sadder. I knew that deep inside this was the best for him. He gave me some of the best experiences of my life, but if I want to be fair to everyone, I have to prevent any more accidents between me and Jon. I held him, and I felt his body relax and let go of some of the tension he had built up from before. "Just because you're only my little brother doesn't mean I don't care about you enough, or that I stopped thinking you're a nice person. Its just that I think its best for both of us, and specially you, if the stuff that used to happen before, doesn't happen again" He slowly looked up and the way his eyes pierced into mine, it was sort of sending chills down my spine. Why was I so stupid, why had I let my feelings get the best of me and why had I betrayed all of these boys! "Aaron I guess" he said very sadly. "You guess?" I asked. "Yeah, I guess." he said as he tried getting up. I couldn't take it at this point. I grabbed his body again, I pulled him to me and I kissed him. This kiss was the first kiss in a very long time that we shared, and o man it brought so many good feelings back. I held onto his young body as our tongues exchanged vows and our hearts reached for one another. "wow" he said after we slowly separated and he sat down on me with his legs around my waist. "I'm sorry. I shouldn't have done that" I said. He smiled at me. "why not?" he asked. "Jon, I feel like I'm betraying you. What if you don't love me really. What if you just think you do because im the only cool guy you think you know" I asked him. "NO Aaron. I do love you. And you're not the only cool guy I know" he said as he smiled again. "You know what, Jon, im going to just let my heart decide from now on. And you should do the same. But come on please no more fighting, not again, I don't think I can handle another fight okay?" I asked. "No problem. I wont fight with you again" he said as he hugged me. "We should get back to bed" I said as I got up and carried him as he held onto me. Oscar was still sound asleep when we reached the bed we made on the floor. He was holding onto the pillows. When I jumped in and Jon followed, Oscar immediately reached for my arm, I guess it was an instinct of his now. Jon too reached for me and the three of us held onto each other for comfort as Jon and drifted off to sleep. The next morning I felt one of my sides get heavier and then I felt something really on me. I opened my eyes and I found Oscar on me looking down at me. "Good morning" he whispered. "Um...hi. What you doing up there?" I asked. "Woke up and was bored" he answered with his devilish smile. "Well, you better get down before someone sees you up there" I smiled at him as he leaned in and gave me a soft kiss. "Okay if you say so" he said as he plopped down next to me again. I put my arm on his stomach as he looked at me and smiled again. I knew Jon was going to be out for a few more hours since he barely slept the night before, so I wasn't too much worried about Jon waking up but you can never be too careful. "Did you sleep good last night?" he asked me. "Of course I did, I was next to you remember" I said as I massaged his cute boy belly. "Yeah, if you say so. You know, I'm a little excited" he said as he grabbed my hand already on his belly and he moved it down to his dick. I felt his hard dick poke my palm and I instantly gripped around it. "Are you now?" I asked him as I massaged his dick now. "VERY" he replied. I slowly played with his dick on top of his shorts his breathing became a little more heavy and he began to slightly moan. I knew he wasn't into the whole yelling and you know really being loud thing, but o man was he making the fun a lot better with his cute groans. I could have sworn this kid was a pro at seducing other people. The way he smiled at me and the way he looked at me, he could make me do things I wouldn't do for anyone else! His dick began to get even harder as I slowly jacked him off even with his shorts on. After playing with him for a while I slid my hand down his shorts and now I was massaging his tool with only the thin layer of his boxers between us. I could feel his dick even more and it was really warm and I knew he was ready for more. I did this to him for quite a while as we talked about little things and some occasional dirty talk came out of his mouth but not much to alarm me. When I felt Jon stir I quickly took my hand away from Oscar and put it on my said. Both Oscar and I closed our eyes. Jon moved to face me and he held onto me with his arm. His mouth was inches away from my face, and it was quite weird because I know Oscar was paying close attention. Since I was now facing up, the air from his mouth and nose were hitting my neck head on, and to be honest it was quite a turn on. Oscar opened his eyes and gave me a questioning look. After a few seconds of nothing but Jon's breathing being heard, Oscar got close to me. "What's up with that?" he whispered. "No clue" I answered. "Talk about being too comfortable huh" Oscar said as he moved closer to me and he put his hand on my dick. He just left it there. I didn't say anything. "hmm...ok" I finally told him. "Just to protect whats mine" he smiled. Then he got real close to me, and I turned my face slowly so I could see him. This boy, he was captivating every part of my heart. I honestly was getting scared. What if in the end I end up loving ONLY him, and what will I tell Jon then? Or even Uriel?! We looked into each others' eyes, looked deep inside, and then, he kissed me. It was a nice kiss, but I couldn't help comparing it to Jon's kiss. I couldn't decide which one sent more shocks of excitement through my body. After our kiss I just lied there thinking for a while. He didn't say anything, we just lay there, both thinking, both enjoying every minute of this. We were suddenly interrupted by the sound of Oscar's phone ringing. He reached for his small bag that was next to the pillow on the floor. He answered and he didn't seem to happy with whoever he was talking to. After what seemed to be him complaining to his mom, he hung up and looked very mad. "I got to go to my aunts house. Stupid party" he said. He then looked over at Jon again, and he was still asleep. "Well I'm sorry, its okay we got all week to hang out geez. Its not like you live a billion miles away" I said. "Yeah I know. I just hate parties like those. They are so boring" he pouted. "O I'm sorry man." I said. We slowly got up, I was careful not to wake Jon. I looked at the time and it was 9am. Well quite early for me to be awake, but whatever. Oscar and I got his stuff packed and then we walked upstairs to the kitchen door. When we were in the kitchen and we looked around an saw no one, we held each other in a hug and then we kissed. I felt so good. I felt as if finally I had something real going. Then he walked out and told me he'd call me later. Wow its incredible what can happen in just one day! I had to take a step back to quickly recap about what had happened in that one day. I then walked downstairs to where Jon was sleeping. I took one good look at him. I couldn't to smile when I saw my little boy lying there. So cute, so defenseless, but just mainly, so cute. I felt as if I NEEDED to be there next to him protecting him. I lied back down with him and this time I really held onto him. He instantly embraced me, even in his sleep. Our legs were twisted together, and so were our arms. I was facing him and he was facing me. I couldn't believe that at one point I felt even the smallest feeling of hate towards this boy. I watched him as he inhaled and exhaled deeply in his sleep. I closed my eyes and I thought about all the good times, all the times he made me smile, all the times he made my emotions flourish. Why on earth did I have to be put in such a spot where the simple action of falling in love felt wrong. Its just not fair sometimes. I mean I love them all! I wish I could keep all of them, and making each of them happy. Then I felt him stir, he opened his eyes a little bit. He looked straight at me, he closed his eyes again but he snuggled with me more. "Wake up sleepy head" I said softly. "No, its too early" he complained. "WHAT! By the way Oscar had to go home" I said. "O that sucks. Lets sleep more now" he said as he hugged me. I felt the warmth of his body and I instantly felt right at home. O wow, I could lie with him like this for a long time. Of course I'd have to get up to pee and eat everyone once in a while. But I'd come back to him. Little by little I began to relax, and my breathing slowed down to his pace and soon enough I fell asleep. Later, I felt someone shake my arm. Then I felt something poke my leg so I woke up. I looked at him. He smiled. The thing poking my leg was his boner. He had his groin right on my leg and he woke up with morning wood I guess. "Well, good morning to you too" I said. "Yeah..." he said as he blushed a little. "Now you want me to wake up?" I asked. "Yeah, I'm bored" "Well, now its my turn to say no" I said as hugged him. "But I'm hungry" he complained. "Fine lets get up then!" I said as I got up. He got up as well and he followed me to the kitchen. I signaled him to sit in the chair while I grabbed some cereal. I served cereal and a glass of juice for both of us and while I was doing so I had a flashback. This was the past. This is what we did every morning back when we met. It felt nice to be back to those times. I sat next to him and he put his head on my shoulder. I don't know why, but it felt nice for him to feel comfortable with me again. We ate our cereal in silence for the most part. Just thinking. Until he broke the silence. "So what are we doing today?" he asked. "I don't have anything planned. Just relax man. that's all I can think of right now" I answered. "Sounds good to me!" he said excited as he put two spoons full of cereal in his mouth. Boy did I love his cute smile. Part of me felt better to know that yeah Danny did have him at one point, but not his heart. His heart, remained with me. As corny as it sounds, it makes me feel so much better. To know that even though Jon did make a mistake, I know now that he never stopped caring about me and that he missed me that whole time. If only I could see Danny again to give him a little payback. To give him what he deserves. "Aaron, I missed hanging with you" he said as he put his arm around me. "Awww Jon, I missed you too. So much" I got up and cleared the dishes. He just watched peacefully, waiting for me to finish washing the dishes. When I finished I walked towards him, grabbed his hand and we went back downstairs, hand by hand. I lied back down on the covers and he followed. This time though, he lied on top of me. I was looking up at him, we were nose to nose basically. He kissed me. Then he put his head next to mine and held onto me. I loved the way I didn't even feel the need to have sex with him then and there. I just loved being with him. I loved protecting him. I knew we had to get the place cleaned up so that we could do something because I didn't feel like coming back later to cleaning up. I tapped his head and he looked up. "What?" he asked. "lets get this place cleaned up so we can go somewhere" I said. He smiled. "Okay" he answered. We had so much fun picking up all the covers and folding them. The room was full of laughter and smiles. I got that feeling of being a boy again. I felt as if we were the same age, not 11 and not 17, but somewhere in between. After the room was picked up and all the covers were in their place we went to my room. We sat on my bed, side by side, he was holding my hand. It felt as if he never wanted to let go of me. It was actually scary because he had never been like this. He was caring and all but not so touchy. Maybe the whole Oscar thing was pushing him to be extra attentive towards me. Part of me wanted to ask him if he thought there was something going on with me and Oscar. But I didn't want to get into that again with him. I just wanted to enjoy these amazing moments we were having. "Hey Aaron, can we go to the mall again?" he asked. "Umm...sure, but first let me take a shower" I answered. "hmmm...maybe I should take one too" he added. "Its up to you. Think about it. Then if you feel like it you can take it" "No, I meant, with you" he smiled. "Um...I don't know" "Why not?" "Well, I just..." "Aaron, what, aren't you my brother?" he asked. Boy he was my words on me. That was a little too much for me. "I'm just saying what if someone walks in?" "Lock the door duh!" he said as he got up and locked the door himself. I grabbed two towels from my closet and I got up. I smiled at him and he came to me. He gave me a hug. "Jon, what's gotten into you?" I asked. "What do you mean?" "You're so, happy, and smiley, and you keep hugging me and stuff" "I don't know, why is it bad?" his eyes were wide as he asked me this. "NO! its not bad. Its just, I'm not used to you being like this. But its okay." "O okay. I just, missed you a lot. I missed my big brother" I held him by his shoulder and we walked to the bathroom. I locked this door too, just in case. I didn't how to act, I didn't know how handle the situation. I didn't want him to be a sex toy and I was done using him. But I still felt love for him. It was just different I guess. I guess all I can do is let fate decide. We walked into the bathroom and I went ahead and put the towels on the little handle that's on the glass door. I felt a little nervous and I hadn't felt like that in a while. What the heck was going on with me? Well I took the leap and I began undressing myself. He just watched and sort of smiled. I didn't say a word. I completely undressed myself and stepped into the shower. I turned on the water and let it heat. Then I saw him begin to undress himself and then he walked towards me. My heart was racing and I was totally out of it. When he opened the door and walked in he sort of pushed me back so he could get some water. "Are you okay?" he asked. I couldn't help to stare at his gorgeous body. It was the perfect mix of baby fat with some muscle. Well mostly baby fat. But he was so CUTE. I loved his little belly and his awesome bubbly butt. Not to mention his cute boy jewels hanging between his legs. "Um yeah" just thinking about what to do later. I lied. "Yeah. Man I hadn't been inside here in a while" he said as he started shampooing his hair. "Well...as long as you saw your own shower stall then I'm happy" I joked. "Funny" he said as he slapped me. Boy that little smack sent shocks through my body. I was in the SHOWER with a beautiful boy, not doing nothing bad, just showering. What more could I ask for? We continued to wash our hair and Jon was under the water. He rinsed his hair out and I watched the shampoo run down his body. I loved how his little dick got covered by white stuff and then it rinsed off to reveal his cute jewel. I wanted to touch him, I wanted to caress him but I knew I had to hold back, for our own good. When it was time to switch sides so I could rinse out his little dick slid across my leg and I felt goose bumps all over my body. I rinsed my hair and I noticed he was watching me and then he grabbed the soap and started soaping up his body. Then I noticed something, I was not completely hard. I was not limp, but I did not have a raging hard on like I used to every time I saw him naked in front of me. "Aaron, am I the only person you ever took a shower with?" he asked out of nowhere. I sort of froze when he asked this question. "Well...yeah" I tried to not hesitate much. "Cool. You're the only too." he said with a smile. "Jon, you're one special kid" I said as I gently caressed his cheek. "Thanks" We continued our shower. I washed my body, he washed his, and then we rinsed. We had about a minute of silence. Then, when I turned around to grab more shampoo I felt his arms go around my stomach. He hugged me. "Aaron, how come you won't do anything to me?" he asked. I turned around as I took his arms off. "What do you mean?" I asked. "I'm taking a shower with you and you haven't even touched me" "Why would I touch you?" "Because, you want to? I don't know Aaron. You used to like touching me" he said as he looked down. "Jon, I love you with all my heart. But you're my little bro. I can't do that to my little bro. not anymore" I said as I hugged him. I felt good hugging him, skin to skin. "But I was your little bro before too and we still did stuff Aaron" "Yeah, but Jon, I don't like to do that anymore." "You don't? why?" "Because I want to take care of you and if I do that to you then I wont be taking care of you" "Aaron, kiss me" he said as he held my hand. "NO, I can't" I said as I looked away. "Aaron, don't you love me? Am I ugly? Did I get fat?" his voice broke. Why in the world was this beautiful boy asking me this. Of course he wasn't ugly or fat! He was perfect. What had Danny done to my little Jon. "Jonny! No! you're beautiful! You're the cutest boy I've ever seen. I just...I can't" I said as I held onto him. "I don't know what I did Aaron. But I love you. Please don't be mad" he said. "Of course I'm not mad. Jon, you're so sweet, but I don't want to hurt you" "HOW CAN YOU HURT ME! I'm not a baby anymore!" he began to get loud. That was my limit. He was yelling it! He loved me! What more can I ask for! WHAT MORE! I'm sure im going to hate myself for doing what im going to do. I used my finger to pick up his face which was facing down. I looked at his beautiful angelic face, and kissed him. The water, our skin, and his tears made that kiss one of a kind. I felt like I had just won a bizillion dollars or something worth more than anything anyone can ever imagine. "I love with all my heart. Don't ever say your fat or ugly! Because you are beautiful Jon" I said as I hugged him. "I love you too Aaron" he said as he kneeled down. He took my dick in his mouth. I felt the warmth again, he began to lick it, but I used all the energy in my body and I grabbed his head and pulled it away. "No Jon. Not now" I said to him. He wiped his mouth. "How come?" "Because, it's not right okay" "AARON! I don't get you! You just said you loved me and then you don't want me to suck your dick" "Jon, how much do you care about me?" "A lot" he answered. "Okay well, then I'll give you a challenge. Can you prove to me how much you love me?" "yeah, I guess why?" "Ok, well, if you love me, let's promise to not have anything sexual for 2 weeks." "Like nothing? Not even kissing?" "Hmm...yeah, not even kissing. Let's be best friends. If we can be best friends again, then we can do anything" it seemed like a good idea to me. I just hoped he'd go along with it. "Hmm...okay we can do that." he said with a smile. Then he went along and started cleaning his body. He started to sort of play with his boy dick with soap. Why was he doing this? Why was he pushing me? Well I had made a promise and I intended on keeping it. I too started washing my body again. And I admit that I was playing with myself too, just to even the playing field. Then it happened. What I had asked for. Jon dropped the soap and bent down to get it. He smiled. "Hmm...I'll just get down to get that" he said with an evil smirk. "Well...don't. I'll get it for you" I said as I bent down and looked up, as I came back up I stopped when I was face to face with his dick. "You missed a spot" I said. "O let me get it" he said as he grabbed his stuff with his little hand. "All gone" I said as I came back up and handed him the soap. We both started laughing for some reason. And then, we ended up talking about other stuff. We took a 40 minute shower. We talked about everything. It was as if the fact that we were naked in a shower, let us reveal stuff about us that we wouldn't share otherwise. When we shut the water off, he came to me again, and gave me a hug. "I'm glad you're my best friend and my big bro" he told me. "So am I lil man" We stepped out of the shower and I handed him his towel. We dried ourselves while we still talked about our plans for the day. He even mentioned that he was sort of happy Oscar wasn't around because he missed spending time alone with me. That way he could tell me anything and not be worried about Oscar. But he also said that Oscar was a good friend and that he felt bad that stuff happened and it sort of killed their friendship. When we went into my room to get changed, he walked into my closet and I followed. It was cool because we both dropped our towels, without much hesitation, and we were choosing what to wear. It was also cool to know that finally we were starting to see what it felt like to completely trust someone. I guess that's what I really wanted. I wanted to have a friend who I could trust with my life and who I could really love. So finally, I chose my pants and shirt and I got dressed. When I turned around, I was surprised to see that he chose almost the same. Grant it that the clothes he had were almost all like mine because we bought them together, but still I sort of liked it when he chose to look like me. I grabbed my wallet and my cell phone, and I noticed I had a message from Oscar. He said he probably wouldn't be able to see me until Monday morning when we went to school. I answered him and told him that was cool and that I couldn't wait. I was still excited about seeing him, but I was very happy about my friendship with Jon as well. Jon was getting some things from my drawer and then he came up to me and grabbed my hand. "Are we leaving yet?" he asked. I gave him a weird look. I was looking down at our hands. "WHAT! Brothers can hold hands!" he barked. "Yeah...I guess so" It took us a little while to get to the mall and I was surprised that Jon kept on wanting to hold my hand. Sometimes I would pull it away and he'd stop but then little while later he'd look for it. I kind of liked his behavior but at the same time it sort of bothered me. How did he change? Was it just his hormones? Or did something that happened with Danny cause this sudden change in Jon's behavior? Also, his conversations were a lot more deep and didn't focus so much on himself but rather on things that were on his mind. He went from talking about sports, to money, to jobs, then buying houses, and even asking me if I ever planned on getting married. I managed to keep a good conversation with him, not making it too complicated or too simple to make him feel dumb. It was just, nice over all. At the mall, we had a blast. We went from store to store, only buying what we really liked. It wasn't like the last time we came and we bought whatever came across us. Again, we chose to dress somewhat alike, but what surprised me is that he didn't want to have the same exact thing, just the same style and colors. He asked for my opinion on lots of things, and not just the, "DO YOU LIKE IT" question. But the how does this look on me, and then he asked what looks better. I was beginning to REALLY like this new Jon. We did end up buying matching shoes and basketball jerseys just because they were really cool. After we had too many bags on our arms we decided to go drop them off at the car. When we were putting the bags in the trunk, Jon looked at me, and smiled and then he hugged me. "You're the best big brother Aaron. I love shopping with you. I hate going with my mom for some reason. But I love coming with you" "Well same here. I don't normally like shopping and can you believe we were in there for 4 hours?" I asked. "really? It didn't feel that long" "I know. So are you hungry little man?" I asked. "YEAH! Starving! Can we go eat Hooters?" he asked. "Sure" I said as I grabbed his sweater and zipped it up for him. The weather was getting a little chilly. It was the beginning of November and winter was just kicking in. We drove to the restaurant and he held onto my hand like he used to before. Except this time, it felt better. It was because he who chose to do it, not me. I'm not going to lie, I felt a lot different now. But I was scared to find out how I'm going to feel when I see Oscar again. Will my feelings for Jon fade again? Or will my feeling for Oscar begin to fade? It was a very scary thought and I chose to hide it in the back of my head for now. When we walked in to the restaurant Jon was very happy. It had been a long time since we spent a day together going out and having fun. We had to wait a little while being a Saturday afternoon. But once we sat we had a great time. Jon talked about plans for school. He was also chosen to be the captain of the community basketball team and had to join basketball camp that was every Monday, Wednesday and Friday. He seemed very excited about it and well it was nice for him. He had gained a few extra pounds and basketball would help him lose them again. Not that I didn't like it, he looked super cute, but being in shape is good for everyone. The waitress we had was very nice. And she was surprised that we were so polite to her and that we weren't ass holes like the other guys in the restaurant. Jon was actually very nice to her and unlike other times, he wasn't shy when speaking to a stranger. He usually was shy around people he didn't know and he was being totally talkative. He even asked her if she made a lot of money working here and then he told her maybe she could work for my parents. She blushed when she heard that from him and she also said I had a very cute and polite little brother. I just smiled and thanked her. "Aaron, I love the cheese fries!" he said as he shoved some fries in his face. "yeah, I can tell" "That girl is a really good waitress you should really hire her" "Yeah, well she didn't seem to excited about the idea" "Maybe because she thinks your cute" "O shut up. She's way too pretty for me" "Well you never know" he smiled. "Yeah...I guess but I mean my significant other might not like it if she likes me" "You have a girlfriend?" he asked very surprised. "Nope" "A BOYFRIEND!" he asked VERY surprised. "Ha ha No. I just wanted to see your reaction" "Well you freaking scared me" "Why did I scare you" I said. He swallowed whatever he had in his mouth and he looked so cute because he looked so surprised and shocked. "Because, you didn't even tell me" he said sort of worried. "Well dude, sometimes, you can't handle the truth" I said. "I can handle almost anything from you Aaron" he said with a smirk. I don't know if he really meant it literally or if he had some...sexual humor in that. It seemed too much for him, but the way he's grown up, I don't think I'd be surprised. "What do you mean by that?" I questioned him. "Well, I trust you, and I would be able to understand almost everything" he said smiling. "O...I thought..." I began to say but I stopped myself. "That I meant I could handle, your thing?" he asked. "Um...no" he cut me off before I could make up an excuse. "No Aaron. Don't lie. You thought that, and well yeah I guess, it was just a joke though" he said smiling. "I can't believe you're my little Jon. In just a few months, you grew so much" I said as I softly tapped his fingers on the table. "I am a year older you know" he said. "Jon, but I just met you at the beginning of the summer. It's only been 7 months. In 7 months we went through so much man. Can you believe it?" "Yeah, I wish we didn't have to go through all that stuff. Well the bad stuff" "Jon, let's just put that behind us okay" I said. "Fine" he said as we continued our meal. Then I saw a group of basketball players from school come into the restaurant. They were with their dads, and they all looked spoiled. One of them looked over at our table and smiled. What the hell? I don't think I knew him. I was about to turn away when he started walking towards us. I hoped he would keep walking towards the bathroom or something. But no, he stopped right at our table. "Your Jonathan right?" he asked Jon. "Um...yeah" he answered. "Hi my name is Alex. I am one of the leaders at the basketball camp. I was the one who decided to make you captain of your team. I saw went to a couple of your games at school" "Well thanks. Why did you choose me? I'm not that good" Jon asked. I didn't like the guy already. He was a little shorter than me, but not by much. He was starting to show signs of muscle, and he seemed really weird. I don't know. And I didn't like the fact that he came up to Jon and basically tell him it was his decision to make him captain and if so why choose a kid who doesn't even know how to lead a team? "Well, there's something about you. And is this your brother?" he asked as he looked at me. "O yeah. This is my brother Aaron" Jon said. "Hi, nice to meet you Aaron. You're brother is going to be a great athlete one day. As long as he continues to work with us. He did great with baseball, hopefully he can do as well in basketball" "Nice to meet you too Alex" I said. I kept my sentence simple. I didn't like the guy and I hardly knew him. That was a bad sign. "Well hey Jon, camp starts this coming week, can't wait to work with you. I'm going to be your helper. See you around, nice to meet you Aaron" he said as he walked away. "Um...that was weird" Jon said. "Yeah, I don't know how he knew you" I said. "Me either" "Well, whatever, just don't get all weird looking and weird acting like him. Okay" I said to Jon. "I wont" he answered. We kept talking about how happy he was about basketball camp and how he hoped he'd be an okay captain. Then we ordered a small desert but I couldn't help studying this Alex guy. He was still waiting to be seated at the front, and he kept looking over at Jon. I hope he wasn't thinking what I think he's thinking. If there was anything I knew it was that I would not let ANYONE else hurt my little Jon. If this Alex guy was the next Danny, he'd better watch out. I paid the bill and I left the girl a really good tip. I accompanied Jon to the bathroom. But he needed to take a number 2 so I waited outside by the door for him. Then I saw the Alex guy come towards the bathroom. He saw me standing there and he stopped. "Hey Aaron, you're lucky to have a brother like Jon" he said as he stood in front of me. "O yeah? One question, how did you know about him really. He's never seen you" "My brother goes to his school and I go to almost every one of the sports games. They were in the same baseball team but they didn't really talk. But Jon was really good and he caught the groups attention. He has potential." "Yeah, well, that's nice. But I don't know if he's going to be well suited for captain. He's a good kid, and he loves playing, but he's not all into it. I don't want him to get all happy and then feel like crap if he isn't capable of handling that much pressure" I said. "Don't worry. I'll be there to help him every step of the way" he said. There was something about him I just didn't like. And I hated how he really emphasized the EVERY STEP part of that sentence. "Yeah...well so will I. I'll see you around" I said as I walked away. I wanted to see what he'd do once I left. I walked towards the front of the restaurant. The waitress found me and she really thanked me. I guess 20 bucks is a really good tip for her. Anyway, I walked back to the bathroom and I stood by the entrance to listen. "Hey, Jon, can't wait til Monday. There's so much for you to learn" I heard Alex say. "Yeah, me too. But I'm still not sure about the whole captain thing. don't you think there are other better kids for that?" "Don't worry. I'll be there to help you. This team is not like the schools team. We really focus on our key players. And we believe you are the right kid" "Umm...if you say so. But I'll see you around. Okay" Jon said. "Hey Jon, here's my number just in case you ever need any help. I could come and practice or anything. Even if you need help with homework. I want you to be able to come to every practice and sometimes parents don't let their kids come because of school" "Yeah, thanks. See you around" "Bye, Jon." I walked back to the spot where I originally was. But this Alex guy was really starting to irk me. Why did he talk to Jon like that! Jon didn't need his help. And who da fuck is WE? Its just a stupid community team. Its not a big deal! He saw me and he walked next to me. "That Alex kid is really cool" Jon said. "Yeah, if you say so" I tried for my sarcasm to be as hidden as possible. "What, you don't like him?" Jon asked as we were reaching the door. Alex waved by to Jon. Jon waved bye back. I was really mad and probably beamed the meanest look towards him. "I don't like his type. The little rich jock guy who thinks he's da bomb just because he can run up and down a court and put a little stupid ball into a hoop." "Aaron, its just like soccer!" Jon complained. "Yeah, not really. There's a lot more going on in soccer. There's a lot more players at the court, there's someone guarding the goal so its not easy and I think it takes a lot more stamina" "If you say so. But don't get mad Aaron. I'll still see you a lot. Just because I have practice and stuff doesn't mean I'm not going to see you" "Okay, well you promise?" I asked. "I pinky promise" he said as he held onto my pinky with his. The drive home was a little more quiet. He didn't say much to me. He talked a little about how cool it was to go shopping with me. And then little by little he dozed off to sleep. Every once in a while I turned to watch my little baby sleep. His face was so cute when he was asleep. I was beginning to get the feelings back. And just when I was about to put my hand on his I felt my phone vibrate and I got a text message from Oscar. It read: Aaron I can sleep over tonight but I'll be there late like at 11. I answered and told him cool and that I couldn't wait. It was not late at all when we arrived home. No one was home yet, as usual, and I brought all the bags down from the trunk into the house before I went to get Jon. Since I put the car in the garage I took the freedom to unbuckle his seatbelt, and carefully tried to carry him out of the car. It was a little tricky and I couldn't do it so he woke up. "What are you doing?" he asked. "Trying to get you out of here" I said. He slowly got out of the car and then he stopped and looked at me. I quickly crouched down on my knees and he hugged me. Then I got up and he clung onto my body. Now I was carrying him. He held onto me very tight as I walked up to my room and placed him on the bed. I lied next to him and held onto him. We just laid there for a good while, staring at each other mostly. I looked over at the time and it was a little past 8. He then slowly moved his hand to my groin area. I felt his warm little hand try to massage my sleeping dick. "Jon, what are you doing?" I asked. "Ummm...looking for something" he said as he smiled. "and why would it be there?" "I don't know. I think I left it there" "Well, that's not what friends do" I said. "Really good ones yeah, and bros do too sometimes" he smiled again. "O really?" I said as he grabbed a hold of my dick through my pants and he sent goose bumps all over my body with his little hand. "Aaron, can you check mine, I think it might need some, oil" he smiled. "Why would it need oil?" I asked. "I don't know. Because it's been really dry maybe" "Oil? Where did you get these words?" I asked him. "I don't know. I just, did" he said as he kept playing with my now hardening tool. "Jon, remember we can't really do this. Its not right man. I want to be your best friend, your brother, and this wont help. This will only cause problems" I said but I didn't really try to stop him physically. "Aaron, how is it going to make problems?" "Well, I don't know man. Just think about it. When we were just friends we were happy weren't we? And then jealousy separated us for a while" "No Aaron. We were really happy when we were doing stuff. And then Uriel came into the mix. And then Oscar. And you never really explained nothing to me" "Jon, I'm sorry. They're my friends. Really they are." he was still playing with my dick. I was really hard by now and he was making me feel so good. "Aaron, I know im only 11 but I'm not a baby anymore. I changed a little okay" "Okay, yeah you changed but I don't want you to grow up and hate me or something" "Aaron, I don't hate you okay and I don't think I will ever hate you" and just then he stopped touching me. He looked at me. "When you and I were mad at each other and you were with Danny, I felt horrible Jon. I don't know if I can handle that again" "Aaron, I'm really sorry. I just, got confused okay" "Confused or not you made me realize that maybe you weren't really meant to be with me. Sure we can be the best of friends. We can talk and trust each other, but lets not do stuff like that, please. It's just not good for our friendship and don't forget about our challenge" "I guess. Well, what do we do now then?" he asked. "Let's, camp out" I said. "YEAH!" he agreed. Then he looked over at his house. "I have to go ask permission from my mom. I'll be back in a few minutes okay" he said. I walked with him down to the kitchen where my parents were sitting and talking. They smiled at us and we went outside through the back door. Jon quickly ran to his house. I sat outside for a while to think. My friendship with Jon was working out, we felt really good around each other. Did I really want to mess it up? No I didn't I really didn't. Then, when I turned to my right I saw Oscar walking towards me. He smiled and I couldn't be happier. It seemed as if every time I saw him I could forget the confusion in my mind for a little bit. I could just be with him and enjoy it. "Hey dude" he said as he sat next to me. "Whats up. Man I haven't seen you all day" I said. "I know I was at the store and stuff. I asked my mom if I could come over and she said sure because I was good at the store" "That's awesome dude, me and Jon going to camp out. You going to join us?" I asked. He looked inside the house. I guess maybe he was looking for Jon. My parents weren't in the kitchen anymore and we could see the light in their room on. He grabbed my hand. "Yeah, I told my mom I was sleeping over" he said. "What if I wasn't here?" "Then I'd find you duh. So what did you do with Jon today?" he asked. "Went to the mall and to eat. that's pretty much it. We woke up late" "O lucky bastards. I had to wake up super early like at 9 to go out and do all these things with my family" Then my phone rang and I knew it was Jon. I looked at the picture id and showed it to Oscar. He sort of shrugged his shoulders. "Hello" I said. "Hey Aaron, I guess I can't go because I spent the night yesterday. I guess I'll see you tomorrow after church okay?" he asked. "Sure kiddo. I'll see you tomorrow good night" "Good night, my big bro" he said. "Good night, my lil bro" I said as I heard him click the phone. "So I guess he's not coming anymore?" Oscar asked. "Nope, I guess his mom said he already stayed last night so he can't stay today" I answered. "O well, it happens man. I could stay and I stayed here last night too" "yeah, but they actually like him at home" I said as I hugged him. "Stupid ASS!" he said as he pinched my leg. I got up and he got up with me. We walked inside and I closed the kitchen door. I swear that I could see Jon peeking through his window. I felt something weird inside of me, like a sudden rush of sadness. I don't know if it was my sadness, or maybe, possibly, Jon transmitted some sadness to me. It was so weird. Oscar sat on the kitchen island and he stared at me. Then he smiled. "are you thirsty?" I asked. "yeah a little" he answered. I served him some grape juice I found in the fridge and I sat next to him. "Oscar, today, I felt sort of bad. Jon kept being so nice and I feel so weird that you and I are together I guess" "Um...first of all Aaron. You haven't asked me out. Second of all, how the hell does it affect him. He doesn't have anything to do with whatever you and I do in our private times" "I know but doesn't it feel weird to you that he's both our best friend and we're hiding something from him?" "Aaron, who the hell knows what he did with Danny. He never told us anything. He was just always with him. What if they were fucking huh?" "I don't even want to think about that" I said. "Anyway Aaron, stop feeling bad. You hung out with him. You talked all day and had fun. I'm sure he feels happy now" "yeah, you're right man. And by the way, do you want to be my boyfriend?" I asked as I held his hand. "um... let me think about it" he smiled. "Okay..." I said with a little bit of sarcasm. "yeah, I guess I can give you a shot" he said as he giggled. "Okay, so um lets go watch TV in my room" We cleaned up or cups and turned off the lights in the kitchen. My parents were in their room and we went to say good night. Then we walked to my room. I wondered what was going through his mind. Did he come with the intention of doing stuff? Did he come just because he loves being with me? Well I guess I would let time show me the answer to that. We sat on my couch and he lied down putting his head on my legs. I held his hand and we just watched TV. "Oscar, do you really love me?" I asked. "Yeah, why do you ask?" "I don't know man. I just felt like asking you that" "Aaron, look I don't know what's going to happen in a year or 2. Or even a month or two. But I do know that right now, this moment, I love you" I sort of understood him. He's so young, he doesn't know what could happen. And I guess I could really appreciate his honesty, and I feel good to know that for this moment, he did in deed love me. "I love so much man. But im scared to lose you." "Aaron, you'll never lose me. Even if we EVER broke up, we'd be friends. I know we would because we're not just stupid people. I know we'd get through it" "I hope so" I said as I looked down at him and smiled. "Aaron, stop worrying, enjoy the moment. We're still young man, don't think about the future a lot it will only freak you out" I loved this. I loved sitting with the boy who could really keep a conversation. Who could sit with me and NOT have to be touched or anything. I loved just enjoying a nice relaxing talk while we watch TV and in a way hold onto each other. "Aaron, don't always be scared of loosing people. Because then you won't really get to know them. that's why I don't care about it. I don't worry about loosing you to another person for now." "Well, what if, per say, someone else wanted me?" "I don't care. Dude, anyone could want you. I don't see why not. Ur freaking cute. But the thing is, do you want them?" "Nope. I got my lil Oscar waiting for me at home...well u know what I mean" "yeah I do" he said as he smiled for me again. "Man Oscar, I never thought you and I could be this close. Who would have thought I was mad at you because I saw you kissing Jon" "First of all that was his freaking idea. Second of all we didn't kiss. He was the one who held my hand. And the worst thing is, he only did it to piss you off and why? He thought by making you think he was gay you'd stop talking to him?" "Something like that yeah" I said as I went back to those days in my head. "Either way Aaron, I told you the only one I messed with was Luis. But that was like really quick and we never really kept talking. It was like a one or two night thing" "So you never went to his house or nothing?" I asked. "NO man, I don't even have his number. We only saw each other at your house" "O well it shows how much I paid attention" I said. "Aaron, did you and Uriel ever, mess around?" he asked. "I don't know, why?" "Aaron, dude, come on be honest. I don't care. I just told you I messed around with Luis" "Okay, well, yeah, once or twice. But it was long ago. That stopped, we just became best friends, but even yet, we barely talk now. We have this thing where we become real close for a while, then we go our way, then come back. Its like a cycle" "Aaron, so, you weren't a virgin when you had sex with me?" he asked. "Um...I didn't say I wasn't. you said mess around, not really have sex. You mean to say you fucked Luis?" I asked. "Uhhh...it was his idea! Besides, it wasn't like we did it a lot and it was only once. It happened the second time we saw each other, we were in the tent, you were asleep, and I fucked him because he told me to. But I didn't cum. I couldn't back then" "Wow, I can't believe I was asleep through that" I said. "Yeah...speaking of...cum...why don't...you know...we...make some" he said as he had a grin on his face. "I guess" I said as we turned off the TV and went towards my bed. "No, Aaron, wait, what about in the shower" "Yeah...we could do that. My parents are probably asleep by know and even if they're not, they would just think we're taking turns. As long we shut the water off for like 5 minutes and then turn it back on. But we have to be quiet" I said. "Well not totally quiet right. Their room is pretty far. And we could put the radio of to mix with our sounds" he said. "Yeah...I guess. Let me lock the door" I locked the door and turned off the lights. I also turned the TV back on, just to give the illusion someone was watching it. Then we both walked to the bathroom and for some reason I dimmed the lights really low. It made it feel more, secret or romantic whatever comes first. We both got naked at the same time. I loved his body, and he loved mine, yet we were really comfortable and didn't even touch each other until we were in the shower. I turned the water on and we let it get to the right temperature. We even washed our bodies a couple of times while we just looked at each other. Then, after a good wash, he finally turned me around, and kissed me. "Well, I can't say no to that now can I?" I said as I gripped his ass. "Aaron, make fuck me" he said softly. "Okay" I said. We pretty much skipped the first step to sex, at least in our rule book. We usually massaged our bodies, then played with our dicks, then sucked each other, and THEN fuck. But this time, he wanted to go straight to the good stuff. He opened his legs enough to reveal his pink tight hole. I got on me knees and began to eat his boy hole out. He kept his moans really low and that caused his body to shake more than usual. I never really thought licking someone's hole was going to be that enjoyable, but Oscar was the ONE person that really made it good. He was so good inside. Of course after he was all clean. I could see and smell and touch the inside of his hole. So sweet. I don't even know how long I licked him but I knew it was long enough because I felt his body start to tense up so I decided to stop. I sat down in the little bench and the water hit me perfectly so it was like a massage. Then, I signaled him to sit on me. He slowly lowered himself onto my dick. The moment I felt the warm, slippery hole, my dick sprung to full hardness. I put my arms around him and I played with his now hard dick while he slowly adjusted to the position. "Aaron, I love you so much. I love your dick inside my hole" he said to me as he lowered all the way down and leaned back on me. "I love so much too Oscar." I loved the feeling of being inside one of the boys I loved so much. I started to meet his fucking movements. We got a rhythm going, something we just started developing. It was not the same `lets just fuck really fast' thing. We had a good rhythm and enjoyed making it last. It was so GOOD. We fucked fast, we fucked slow, we stopped, started over again. Then I turned off the water just to save some for later. Now I could hear that squishy sound my dick made inside his ass. It turned me on so much. Out of nowhere he stopped me. "Aaron, get on the floor I want to sit on you" he said. "okay" I agreed. Once I was lying on the floor, he spread his legs, and plopped himself on me. His face showed a little bit of pain. My dick felt different, I definitely was in deeper than usual. It felt a lot tighter for some reason. He showed more signs of pain when he moved. "Are you okay?" I asked. "yeah...I'm fine" he answered. I even noticed his dick went limp. "it's a lot deeper huh?" I asked. "Just a little bit" he said. Then, out of nowhere, he bounced on my dick. His dick sprung back to life and it was on. It was amazing how it took him a few seconds well maybe a minute to get used to it. This was a lot better. I felt totally good knowing that he was mostly in control and he mostly called the shots from that position. It felt even better when he just moved around in a circle. I could tell he loved just as much as I did because he was moaning with a lot more feeling. We built up a pattern again but then I started meeting him half way and it felt even BETTER! In little time I blew my load inside his hole and that made him hit the top and soon I felt his load of cum hit my stomach. It wasn't that much but it felt really warm. He lowered himself down to kiss me. We shared one of the most intimate kisses. We held each other for a while. Then we turned the water on again so it could cool us down. My dick slid out of his ass and I could feel my cum drip down onto my balls. It was quite a turn on. After a good while he moved around and licked my stomach clean. He got on his knees and exposed his hole to me. It looked white, and I saw the cum oozing out. "you know what to do" he said. I followed his orders and licked his hole. The taste of him mixed with cum was so much better. I tongue fucked him but this time it was a little better because we both had released a big load and didn't feel one coming for a while. After a good while of me enjoying his boy hole again, he got up. "We should get out of the shower now so your parents don't suspect anything" he said. "yeah, you're right" I said. We cleaned our bodies one last time before getting out of the shower. We helped each other get all dry and cozy. "Aaron, that was so cool. It felt so much better then usual. O my gosh it feels so much better when I sit on your dick man!" he said with excitement. "Yeah I know! And when you just kinda move around in a circle! That felt awesome man!" We walked out of my bathroom into my closet to get some clean clothes. "Aaron, I don't know how it happened but I am so happy that you are my friend" he said as we hugged each other. When I felt our nude bodies touch, I had a quick flashback of Jon and me. I didn't even know what to feel or think. I opened my eyes again and I saw Oscar's face. All I could do was smile. "Me too man, me too" I finally said. We got dressed in our sleeping shorts and shirt and then went to my couch again to watch TV. I'm so sorry this chapter took so long to write. I honestly didn't write as much as I wanted to. I had a lot of stuff going on. I'd like to thank anyone who waited forever to read this new chapter. Send me some messages. Tell me what you think because I am thinking of ending this story. Give me some feedback please.