Date: Sun, 11 Sep 2005 08:20:34 +0000 From: Tommy Evans Subject: Uriel and Jon, Chapter 2 "Aaron the tv is freaking out. And what are you doing sitting here all alone?" "I don't know. I just sat here to look at the stars man" "Aaron are you okay? Are you high? Did your friend just give you drugs?" "No! Are you kidding me! Who do you think I am" "Umm I don't know you just look out of it" I guess I did. I was the happiest guy on earth right now. Uriel just sat down right next to me. And for the first time in my life I didn't feel tempted to hug him, or get closer to him. For the first time I saw him as what he was, my friend. "Aaron?" "Yeah" "If I eve told you a dark secret, and it was probably bad, would you stop talking to me or being my friend" "No, never. Why?" "Well, it's because I did something bad in Mexico" "What did you do?" "Well I met this girl right?" "Right" Already I was starting to worry. "Well, to make the long story short. Tony dared me to kiss her and tell her I wanted to have sex with her. If I did I would get 10 dollars" "Did you?" "Hold on, let me tell you. Well I took her on a walk and she told me that she really liked me because I was American and that she didn't care if I was a little fat. So then I kissed her. Well I don't know how to kiss so I just like you know put my lips on hers and then like stepped back. Then she pushed me back on the floor, got on me and really started kissing me." I was very shocked and mad at how stupid Uriel can be at times. And then I started to get sort of jealous. Even though I had just been kissed by Jon, Uriel was still somewhat attractive to me and I still sort of wanted him. "You look mad, Aaron. You promised to not get mad" "I'm not, keep going" "So then she started to touch me down there. She said she wanted to give me a blow job and I got scared. I didn't want her to see me naked. Then she wanted to take my pants off and that's when I pushed her off and told her to back off" "So that's what you did?" "Well then I told her that I wasn't ready and went home. But I still feel bad because like even though it made me horny, I didn't want to do it" "Did you like the kiss?" "Umm... yeah I guess" "Did you like her touching you?" "Umm... yeah a little" I was using this story to try to see if Uriel liked girls, but then I realized all kids at the age of 12 get horny, no matter if it's a boy or a girl they are with. "Well, I think it was stupid that you did it for a bet and much more stupid for thinking about stuff like that when you are so young Uriel. You know how I feel about that" "Yeah but still, aren't you going to do that with your girlfriend?" "Of course not Uriel, you know me don't you?" "I was just asking" "Look, I really don't think it was that bad. Basically you made out with her. That's all. And you stopped when you felt scared, that's good." "Okay, I just wanted to tell you because I felt bad" "It's okay enano, you're a good kid. Just promise me you'll never do that again, until you're old enough okay?" "Okay" I put my arm around him and I signaled to him that we had to go to bed. We got into my king size bed, with extra space between us of course, and we talked about other things. He sometimes asked me who I was talking with outside, but I managed to evade the question every time. "Aaron?" "Yeah" "I'm sorry I let you down." "Don't worry about it, I love you, you know that. I'll never stop being your friend" "I know." "Is it okay if I hug you tonight?" "Umm I guess." So I pulled him to me and put my arm around him. We talked about how we would always tell each other things and how he was really sorry. I felt so special when he said that. It's like he felt as if he had really let me down. Which he did, but I was really proud of him because he didn't let the situation get bigger. As we started to get sleepy, Uriel turned to face the wall. So that now I was right behind him and I still had my arm around him. I couldn't help to realize that I had Uriel like I liked it. But then I started thinking about Jon. I think I'm really starting to fall in love with Jon. But I still love hugging Uriel. I'm getting so confused. Just then, Uriel said good night to me and he snuggled back on me so that his butt was right on my penis. I was hoping so much that I wouldn't get hard, which I worked for a little bit because I managed to think of something else and I moved my tool to another part of his butt, not his butt crack. I could really feel his crack through the thin layer of material the pj's are made from. 10 minutes later when I felt his breathing get slower and with more of a pace, I realized he had drifted off to sleep. I lowered my hand so that it was right bellow his waist. Right above the opening of his pants. I repositioned my penis on his butt crack, and I started to press against it. I instantly became hard. I was really tempted to put my hand through the opening to touch his little tool, but I told myself to at least wait an hour until he fell really asleep. I started thinking about Jon and how I didn't really got hard when I was with him like this anymore. I mean I liked being with Jon like this, but as time passed by, I didn't get as hard as I get around Uriel. I started to think more and more about Jon and before I knew it I fell asleep. The next morning I woke up and I was shocked. Uriel's mouth and my mouth were just centimeters away from each other. My arm was around him, right under his armpit, and his leg was right over me. I could feel his hard little penis on my stomach. I stayed liked that enjoying the moment. I pretended to be asleep again just in case he woke up. I wondered how long had we been like this. Just then Uriel moved closer to me and our lips were touching. He twitched a little when our lips met but after a little bit he just drifted off to sleep again. I couldn't believe this, our lips were touching. I could kiss him so easily, but I chose not to. Instead I just enjoyed the moment. Moments later he moved his leg more to me and now he was almost literally on me. And that caused his lips to get closer to mine. Now they were on each other. As if we were really kissing. I just tried to not breath so much or else he'd wake up and move. I enjoyed this for about half an hour. When he woke up, I felt him open his eyes, and look at me. He must have been very puzzled. When he realized it was him who had a grip on me he just let go and moved a little farther away. But we were still pretty close to each other. When I felt his arm move I pretended to "wake up." "Woah, how did I get here" I said. "I don't know." Uriel answered. We looked right at each other. "If anyone walked in right now, they would think the most wrong thing in the world" I said. "I know. But aren't we alone?" "Yeah" "Good" he said. We laid there for a couple of seconds and then I felt his tool begin to rise. "How come we're still hugging" I asked. "I don't know. You won't let go" "Uriel are you getting hard?" "Umm maybe" "Why?" "I don't know it happens a lot" "O,yeah you're 12" "Hey, I'm almost 13" "Okay?" "Aaron, seriously it's not like I want it to happen. It just does. Dude you know I'm not like that" "Did I say you were like that?" "Umm... no" "Then why get so defensive about it?" "Because, anyway Aaron, who were you talking to last night?" "A friend, I already told you" "And this friend is a boy or girl? I think it was a girl because you were really happy when I found you `looking at the stars'. You know I don't believe any of that, I think you did something with her" "Uriel, first of all you know I wouldn't do anything like that, and second of all it was a boy. My neighbor, he came to tell something." "Well that's cool I guess" "Yeah, I get to hang out with him when you aren't around. Plus you're not really that fun to be with anymore" "Oh I see how it is." "I'm just playing, you know I love you" "Yeah you keep saying that all the time but you don't mean it" "What do you mean?" "I mean, you still care about other people more than me" "You really think so?" "No, not really I'm just saying things to make you mad" But when he said that I felt as if he sort of meant it but he was trying to sugar coat it. I know Uriel has never liked to reveal his deep feelings, especially if they make him look `fruity' as he calls it. "Anyway, you're still my enano. You'll always be my enano" I told him as I put my arm around him. "Okay lets go eat, I'm hungry" and it was true because I could hear his stomach making those weird noises it makes when it's hungry. We hurried up and made the bed and then we sort of picked up the room. I felt weird just to think about how badly I wanted Uriel to spend the weekend with me before last night. Now I don't really know what I want. One side of me knows that I still love Uriel, he was the first person I actually cared for and loved. He's like the original. I felt as if he had more experience with me and more history, I mean I did know him since he was a little kid. I watched him grow up. But now I'm getting mixed feelings because Jon and I have gotten really close in a really short period of time. It took years before me and Uriel got to do things Jon and me are already doing. And then I remembered the kiss, not that I ever forgot. I probably dreamt about it during my sleep. We made ourselves some eggs with ham and ate our breakfast. We were watching tv and I couldn't help but to every once in a while glance at the direction of Jon's house. I know I couldn't really see anything because it's far away, but I could still imagine Jon by the window. "Aaron why are you so thoughtful this morning?" "To tell you the truth I don't know" "Are you mad because of what I did in Mexico" "Well, yeah, but I mean it's not like killing me" I looked at him and I didn't really understand. I wanted to think that he really did this with the girl because he wanted to. But then again, part of me thought that Uriel only did it to come home and tell me and see what my reaction would be, or he could just be making this whole thing up. "Man, it feels weird to see how you live now" "What do you mean?" "Well, remember the first time I slept over at your house... you lived in the yellow house on Gates street and it was right across a park. The house was like okay in size, the basement was like your brother's house and you had two rooms. It was weird because you lived a normal life, but I do remember you didn't have a couch in the living room because you were supposed to move but it took forever to sell the house." "Oh yeah, I remember that. You were like 11 or you had just turned 11" "Yeah, and then when you moved into that town home, it was cool, but you only lived there for like a year. But I remember you had like an okay room, and you had a huge closet. But the house was smaller than the yellow one" "Yeah, you slept over quite a few times when I was living there" "Yeah, and now, you have this huge house, it's really nice, but you seem to always be alone. Or with like your nephews" "Well, if I'm not at school or at the restaurants yeah" "Or at my house" "True that" "We have a huge history of knowing each other huh Aaron?" "Yeah, I really am lucky to have a friend like you and your brother." "Yeah, he said hi, and sorry he hasn't been able to see you." "It's okay I'm used to it by now." I glanced out the window again to see if Jon was outside or something. "Why do you keep looking out the window?" "No reason really" He just gave me a questioning look but he gave it up. I felt like I needed to see Jon. But I also knew that it wouldn't be fair to Uriel. I mean Uriel had been going for a long time and I don't want him to feel like he leaves and when he comes back I have replaced him. We went to the entertainment room where I had a huge tv and really comfortable seats. Uriel lied down face down on the couch and I was sitting right next to his legs. He places his legs on top of mine. I noticed his foot was right above my crotch but I didn't say or do anything. We were watching the usual morning cartoons he watches and I couldn't help but to glance every now and then at his butt. He had a very big and well rounded butt. His sister and I called him U-lo. His butt was one of the things that really appealed to me. I'm not all about the body or anything. Of course the best thing about Uriel is that he's Uriel. He is funny , smart, sensitive, and sometimes can be very sweet. He just likes to pretend he's this really tough kid, but I know it's just to hide the fact that he's actually very sensitive. I started to massage his feet. It was a habit I've always had. I've done this for about 3 or 4 years so he's pretty used to it. I usually focused on his feet or his hair. I loved giving him hair massages. He didn't really like it, I don't know why. I got bored after a while, and I was thinking about what I would do if Jon wanted to come over, or if Jon got mad at me because he thought I liked Uriel better. I didn't even notice I had moved up to Uriel's lower legs. "Aaron, that tickles" "Sorry" I stopped massaging his legs and I just went back to his foot. I just liked to touch Uriel anyplace I can get a hold of really. Just then, my phone rang. And I instinctively knew who it was because the ring tone I had put on it was Jon's favorite song. I knew it had to be Jon. The problem was that my phone was too close to Uriel. He picked up my phone and looked at the screen. Since I have a photo caller ID, he saw the picture of Jon. He just looked at me funny and handed over the phone. "Hey whats up" I answered. "Hey, are you awake, or did I just wake you up" "No, I've been awake" "So, what are you doing with Uriel?" "Nothing, really, we're watching tv. We might go rent a game or something." I saw Uriel looking at me and he was probably trying to figure out who the kid was. "Why, do you want to hang out with me?" "Well, yeah I guess. But it's okay if you want to hang out with Uriel, I'll just go over to Jacob's house." "No, it's okay. You can come hang out. Look, we'll call Ryan over and we'll all have a swim in the pool" "Really?" "Yeah" "Awesome. I can't wait until I meet Uriel." "Cool, just let us get changed and I'll beep you when we're ready" "Okay, bye dude" "Bye" I felt so special because he called. He called just about every morning but I felt like it was different. Now I know we aren't like dating or anything because as far as I know, Jon could have just kissed me because he wants to show me that he trusts me. Which in a way makes me feel bad, I don't want to make him think he likes something, when really he just feels like he has to do it. "We're going to swim?" Uriel questioned me. "Yeah, why not?" "I don't know. I mean it's okay with me. But who was that kid?" "Oh, it's the neighbor I told you about" "He looks small" "Yeah, he's only 10" "Oh" "What do you mean `oh'?" "No nothing" "What is he like your new friend or something?" "Yeah I guess. We hang out a lot. I mean he lives right behind me" It's on times like this when I don't know what Uriel wants or thinks. He is starting to act like he doesn't care but in reality he cares a lot. It would be a lot easier if he just told me what he thought and felt. "So you expect me to hang out with a 10 year old?" "Uriel, come on. I hung out with you when you were 10. I was 14 turning 15" "It's different. Times change Aaron" "No, time doesn't, people do" "Okay whatever, I guess we can swim" So we finally got our lazy asses up from the couch and we went to my room. I found Uriel some swimming shorts he could use and a nice muscle shirt to wear. While Uriel was changing in the closet, I beeped Jon and told him to meet me outside. He told me he had already told Ryan and that Ryan was on his way here. Uriel and I took a while to get downstairs because I kept having to tighten and loosen the shorts Uriel was wearing. I finally got the right fit and when we went outside, Jon and Ryan were already in the pool. "Hey guys, Jon, this is Uriel. Uriel this Jon" I introduced them. Of course Uriel knew Ryan. "Wazzup" Uriel said trying to act as if he didn't really care who it was. I knew it was just a trying to be older kind of thing. "Hey dude" Jon answered. So Uriel took off his towel and he started to walk to the pool. Ryan was talking about all the things we had done over the summer and how Jon and me were like really good friends. I knew Uriel was half ignoring him and probably only catching the parts about me and Jon being good friends. I quietly sneaked behind Uriel and pushed him into the pool. Of course Jon and Ryan laughed and as soon as Uriel emerged, he immediately came after me and eventually got me to jump into the pool. Things seemed to be a lot less tense after we were all playing in the pool. Eventually, we were playing water soccer, which is a game we invented. Jon wanted to be on Ryan's team but of course Ryan chose Uriel first. And for some odd reason Uriel didn't mind. I was sort of shocked Uriel didn't want to be in my team. Maybe he just wanted to even things out. So we played for what seemed to be minutes, but it was actually 3 hours. When we finally got out of the pool, I couldn't help to notice Jon had a little tent forming, and that Uriel had been watching Jon and me. I still didn't know what Jon thought about last night's event. And I sure as heck didn't have the time or privacy, yet, to talk to him about it. I called the pizza place and the Chinese place and ordered a bunch of food. We waited for the food outside of the pool, and we were all talking. I had Jon on one said and Uriel on the other. Of course Jon was closer to Ryan than to me, for that moment at least. When the food got there, Jon told me he had to go to the bathroom and that he needed to get cups. So I got up to get the cups and he got up to go to the bathroom. I quickly grabbed the cups and literally threw them out the window at Ryan. I told them I had to get napkins and I waited for Jon to come out of the bathroom. "Hey Jon, I got to talk to you real quick" "What's up" "What did you think about last night?" "Nothing" "Didn't you like what happened" "I guess" I was getting tired of his guesses. I wanted to know if he liked it or not. "Well, tell me. Don't guess" "Well, Aaron, I don't know. I mean it was a kiss. I felt weird. I did it so you knew I trust you" "Just because of that?" "Well, yeah why else?" "No, nothing" "So, does Uriel kiss you?" "Why do you ask?" "I don't know, I just thought about it" "Well don't think about that, hurry up and get some napkins" We both went out there and all of us ate a little bit of everything. I'd have to say things were going really smooth. The four of us were laughing and joking around. Of course Ryan was the one usually saying stupid stuff. Jon and Uriel were also talking to each other and I helped out too. But of course, every once in a while I took a chance to compare the two. Of course Uriel is a lot bigger than Jon in size, 3 years really makes a difference now a days. Jon, though, has a very nice even body with a nice ass. While Uriel is more filled in with a huge ass. I'd have to say that they are equal in looks because they both have their own thing going. We basically talked about whatever came to our minds for the rest of the time. Until it began to get a little cold. We were really having a good time. Eventually we had to go use the bathroom, so we all went inside, we were dry by now. I went to my room because I was going to change shirts, I was sure I wasn't getting in the pool anymore. As I was finishing putting on my shirt, I saw Jon come up the stairs and come into my room. "I have to go home Aaron, my mom said I can't sleep over tonight because tomorrow in the morning I'm going to my aunts house. I hope I don't stay there for the night because I want to come back to play with Uriel again" "Well that's cool man." I answered. Even though I really wanted him to stay with me. "So I guess I have to go" he said sadly. He was going to turn around but I knew I had to win the boy over little by little. I pulled him to me and put my arms around him. "I'm going to miss you" "Yeah, me too" "I'm so happy we can hang out all the time" I said as I looked straight into his eyes. "Yeah, I know" I noticed he wasn't exactly looking at me as he was talking and I guessed that was because the last time that happened, we kissed. "You know you don't have to avoid me" "What do you mean?" "If you don't want me to kiss you just tell me" "Well, it's cuz I don't know if I want you to kiss me" "Well lets find out" I said as I once again pulled him closer and gave him a kiss. The first kiss was just a little one. "So?" I asked. "So what?" he asked. "Did you like it?" "I guess" "Good" I said and this time I really kissed him. I took it as far as pushing him down to the bed where I got on him and kissed him there for a good 10 seconds. I could feel his little tool begin to rise beneath our shorts. Then I heard some one running up the stairs so I immediately stopped doing that and pretended like we were play fighting. "What are you guys doing?" Uriel asked. "Jon was making fun of me so I just took him down" I answered. Of course Jon didn't know what to say. But he was happy just to know that Uriel didn't know anything. I'm sure he would have felt embarrassed if Uriel had seen us kiss and stuff. "That's not fair though, he's smaller" Uriel told me as he pushed me. "Hey, chill, you're smaller too" I added. "Well I got to go Aaron, bye. See you tomorrow, bye Uriel, bye Ryan" Jon yelled as Ryan was walking out of the bathroom. Ryan went downstairs to watch tv. "Why were you on Jon?" Uriel began to interrogate me. "I get on you sometimes, we were just playing. Why?" "It just looked, odd" "Don't worry about, it." "Umm. Ok. So, I find a 17 year old guy, on a 10 year old boy, and the boy just runs out of the house as if he was caught doing something bad, and I'm not supposed to worry?" "Uriel, chill. It's okay, we're just friends, why are you getting crazy ideas?" "I dunno, it's just weird Aaron." "Fine then I'll make it so that it's not weird" I said as I jumped on him. I started to push him down against the bed until I was right on top of him with his arms pinned back and my body holding down his body right on top of his tool. "Does this even things out, is it still weird?" "Umm... yeah. Why are you on me now? Are you like a boy predator?" "Maybe I am...maybe I just like you" "Or maybe you like Jon" "Maybe" I grinned at him. Of course I was being careful as to not look like I was being serious. I kept hitting him and doing things to make him belief we were just fighting. I never really felt if he got hard because I didn't even get to think about it. When we got tired of wrestling around on the bed we went downstairs to chill with Ryan. Ryan doesn't really do much at my house, just watch tv, swim every once in a while, and visit his friends. Mostly Jon I guess. But now since Jon comes to visit me a lot, he doesn't have to visit Jon as much. I remembered my parents were going to be here tonight and they would probably go out for dinner. We hadn't really had a family dinner in a while at our house. My parents only cook every once a full moon. I mean they are like owners of a restaurant and know all these great foods, but when they come home they are always tired so they go out to eat somewhere else. It was beginning to get annoying. I mean every other weekend I had to go have dinner with all of these boring people who talk about how to make more money. I am not really liking this having tons of money crap. I used to think that maybe being rich was the best thing that could happen to me, but now I was thinking otherwise. I see my parents less and less. They spend their days at the restaurants and at the office. They still come home every night, at least they try to. They really hate travelling. This is all new to them too, this just happen in like a year. Anyway, I called my dad just to see what was going on tonight. He told me that we were going to have dinner with an old friend of his at this really good Mexican restaurant. He also said that I didn't have a choice, and therefore Uriel had to go along with me and that we should get ready by 7 because that's the time they were picking us up. "Hey, Uriel, we need to be ready by 7. My parents are taking us out to dinner" "Funny, at your restaurant?" "No you dork. Somewhere else I guess. I really don't want to go but my dad said I didn't have a choice" "What about Ryan?" Uriel asked. This surprised me because Uriel hardly ever worried about Ryan. "He will probably be picked up before 7." I answered. "Yeah, my mom said she would pick me up at 6" "What time is it now?" Uriel asked. "Like 5:30" Ryan said. "Damn, we should take a shower and stuff. That way we can have enough time to play that new game you got Aaron" "Okay" I still was thinking about Jon. I don't know why I said okay when really I wasn't paying attention. But I saw Uriel walk to my room so I just followed him and focused on what I was supposed to be doing. "What is up with you Aaron?" "Nothing, why?" "You just seem different" "Why do you say that?" "I don't know. You are just different. Like your off in space when people talk to you" "O sorry. I don't know, I've just been thinking about things" "What kind of things?" "O just your brother, Ale, and you know our friendship" "Oh, okay. Well I'm going to take a shower, are you going to shave while I take a shower like you always do?" he asked. Ever since I turned 16, whenever Uriel spent the night, I would use the time he took to take a shower and shaved. We used this time to talk about whatever we didn't want people to hear us talking about. Like secret plans and thoughts. But really, Uriel just talked about normal things, I was usually the one talking about serious stuff. In reality, Uriel isn't too open about his personal life, I know I'm his best friend/brother, but I also know there is still a lot of things and secrets that I don't know about. "Umm,,, sure I guess." I answered. So he got his clothes and I got mine. He got into the shower and I gave him like a minute to get into the shower before I actually went inside my bathroom. This bathroom I have now is way different then when we started this thing. My old bathroom used to have the weird glass that would distort things, the one I have now doesn't. This one gives a clear view, but it's positioned away from the sink, but if I walk a little backwards, I can see everything. "So Aaron, do you know the people we're going out to dinner with?" "Umm... actually no I don't" "Well, you have a tv in the van right, and a ps2?" "Yeah" I answered. "If we get bored, we can go out and play" "True that" I answered. I had to be very careful about my hand movements because I seem to have a habit of always cutting myself at least once a month and it sucks. Plus my skin is sensitive and every time I shave a little blood comes out. "Aaron, can you come fix the freaking water, I keep trying to make it nice and warm but not too much and it either gets too cold or too hot. Why is this so complicated!" "You've been here more than 10 times and you don't know how to work the shower?" "Well before you would always get the water ready for me, you forgot today because you were daydreaming again" "Oh I'm sorry" I said as I walked to the shower stall. I thought Uriel would cover himself up or something but I guess he just expected me to not look at him. And amazingly, I wasn't really tempted to see. That surprised me. I got his water the way he liked it and t hen I went back to shaving my face. "So Aaron, what are we wearing?" "Anything we find you know that's how I always am" "True that" "Hey I say that." I complained. "Well, I'm your brother so I get to copy you" "Oh NOW you're my brother" "Yup" It took a while before I finished and then he got out and while he was dressing I got into the shower. I wasn't really embarrassed of him seeing me take a shower. But part of me knew that Uriel would never want to see me naked. After he got his boxers on and his undershirt, he sat down on the toilet seat and just kept on talking to me. "You know, if people saw us in the same bathroom, they'd think really bad" I told him. "Well, I mean lots of guys take showers together at school and stuff, they never get called fags or anything" "Well yeah, but there's like a bunch of them. We're like locked in and alone" "But we're not doing anything. We're just talking" he assured me. "Well, yeah, but what if we were?" I wasn't trying to be a perv, but I usually throw these kind of jokes at him. He's sort of used to it. "Well, there is no way that we would do stuff. I mean we're not like that" he said. "Yeah" when I said this I didn't really mean it, but I knew he wouldn't catch my change of tone. So I finished up taking a shower and I got the towel to dry myself. I didn't really care if he saw me, but I don't know something just told me to just walk out of the shower with a towel, just in case. I didn't really check to see if he was watching, which I should have done, but I didn't. I put on my boxers and undershirt while Uriel was talking about our favorite soccer team. We both enjoy watching Mexican soccer, and our favorite team is Chivas. I put on my deodorant, and he came up to me and grabbed some as well, just in case he sweated. Even though I very much doubt that a 13-year-old could sweat that much. While we were getting dressed my phone rang. Uriel sat down when he heard it ring. I guess he didn't want to start getting dressed without me because I had to help him choose out his clothes. "Hello?" I answered. "Hey" I heard my girlfriend's voice on the speaker. "O hey baby, what's up?" "Nothing, I just came back from my grandmas so I just thought I'd give you a call." "Ahh, thank you. So how was it?" "Good, but listen Aaron. I got to talk to you about our relationship, it seems like it's not working. Is it okay if we take a break for a while, until school starts, that way we can like find ourselves and when we get back together we won't have as much troubles" I don't really have troubles, but I know she did so I had to understand that since I had talked her into relaxing and finding her inner self, it was sort of my fault that she wanted her time to be alone. "Umm, sure. I want you to be happy, if that makes you happy then it makes me happy" "Ah, thanks I knew you would understand. Is it okay if I call you later on, or maybe another day. I'm really busy unpacking and stuff." "Sure, that would be great" "Bye" "Bye" I heard the phone click and I felt odd. Uriel was just looking at me like I had just done an incredible trick. I mean he wouldn't take his eyes off me. "Who was that?" he asked. "Well, I guess it was my ex-girlfriend" "What do you mean?" "I think she just broke up with me. Anyway, what do you want to wear?" "Wait, you just got dumped and you say anyway?" "Well, what? Am I supposed to cry over a girl?" "Didn't you like her?" "Yeah, but it's not like I was in love with her" "Have you ever loved anyone?" he was looking at me in a challenging way this time. "Yeah, but that's different" "How, and who did you love?" "Well, I love you. And that's different" "How?" "Well, you're like my brother and stuff. I don't want to marry you. You'd cheat on me" "No I wouldn't. I'm not a cheater. But anyway, I want to wear, jeans I guess" I didn't want to notice the fact that he said he wouldn't cheat on me. Not because I want to marry him, that is surely not possible. But because if he meant what he said, it must mean that he wanted to let me know that he cared otherwise for me. Nah, that couldn't be. "Okay." I said as I walked into my closet and grabbed two new jeans and two nice dress shirts that went alone with the jeans. I also found two regular shirts to wear under the dress shirt, mine was blue and his was green, our favorite colors. So we both got dressed, in the same room too, and when we finished we decided to wear matching watches. We had bought these a while ago. "So, what are we doing about your hair today Uriel?" I asked. I like to do his hair. I gave me a chance to help him do something and to see how he looked with his hair actually done. And well it also gives me a chance to stand right behind him as I do it. Sometimes I get REALLY close to him that he sort of has to bend down to the front. But he just thinks it's for viewing his hair purposes. I just tell him that it gives me a better view of his hair if I'm close to him. "I don't know, just do it like yours I guess." "Are you serious, since when do you like to do your hair like me?" "Well, I don't feel like doing it myself, and I don't feel like telling you how to do it, so I figured this way you'd know what you're doing at least" "Well thanks a lot Mr. Thoughtful." "Well thanks a lot Mr. Cranky" So we were both ready to roll by around 6:30pm and we just sat down to watch tv for the free time we had. We actually just watched tv in silence, I guess we were both worn out of the swimming and playing. We've actually done this before. Some books say that a sign of having a good friendship is that you shouldn't feel odd when there are silent moments around a best friend. We definitely have a lot of these and we never have a problem, unless I'm talking to him and he doesn't answer something When my parents arrived to pick us up, it was around 7:10 or something like that. My dad told us to hurry up and to get in the truck. It's kind of funny how things turned out. My dad used to have all sort of crappy cars. We never really had a nice car. We had a nice big van when I was younger. I really liked it, it was cozy. Then we had a lot of crappy cars, we even had this little red car called a Geo Metro. It was tiny and crappy. It made all sorts of noises, but my dad liked it because it rarely used up gas. Anyway, now since our business is doing well, we have a truck, and two cars. My dad has a nice BMW M3, which he really doesn't like since he's not used to those cars, a Navigator, which my brothers encouraged to get, and my Mustang. Anyway, Uriel and I talked about how much things have changed. He's still not used to it. He was so used to riding in our little Ford Windstar minivan. We had that a year ago. And now we were riding in a nice big Navigator with multiple tv screens inside. My parents did their usual trying to ask how we spent our day, and I told my mom about how Jon and Ryan came over to swim and stuff. Then she told me that we had just bought a new place for another restaurant of ours. I was so mad about this. I knew that we did not need any more. We had 3 already. I don't want anymore because it just means less time to spend as a family. Of course my brothers help out with two of the restaurants, and I guess one of them is going to take over the new one. My mom also told me that I was going to start working every once in a while so that I got a little experience in it. I wasn't so excited about it. "Looks like you get to go back to work. Now you can remember all the fun times you had working with my brother at my uncle's restaurant" Uriel teased. "Shut up. That was only for like half a year, then my parents moved away from that place and I had to quit. I liked hosting there, it was cool" "I know, and you had like money all the time, I mean money that you made on your own" "Yeah I guess" "Now, you just take money from your parents, just like old times" I hated it when Uriel was right. I mean I was doing a very good thing by having my little job and making just enough money to pay the gas on my little old car and to get a cell phone and clothes every once in a while. It was actually cool to not take money from my parents. Now I'm back to my old habit, just spending my parent's money. I know they don't mind because their whole dream was about that. "So Aaron, what restaurant are we going to?" Uriel asked. "Yeah mom, where are we going?" I asked. "It's far from here, we still have another hour to drive. It's really good. You'll like it. It's only 7:30, we'll be there by 8 and we plan to be home by 2am" she answered. "O man, that's going to be a long ride" I whined. So we just popped a movie into the DVD player and we started watching it. The only movie I had in the truck was Scary movie 3 so we were watching it. Eventually, well actually right after it started, we both fell asleep I guess. I woke at about 8:20. I found that Uriel and I were resting our heads together and that we were actually pretty close to each other, my hand was almost right on top of his when I woke up. I was listening to my dad complain about traffic. I just relaxed and tried to go back to sleep. When we pulled up to the restaurant, Uriel woke up and when he realized how close we were, he automatically pulled back. He gave me a weird look though, sort of the look that says `I'm sorry but I have to'. I didn't mind since we were just pulling up to the valet parking. I wasn't used to this so I felt weird when my dad told us to get out and he just handed the keys over to the guy. I didn't feel so cool about that. But I saw a lot of other nice cars and I didn't get too mad about it. The place looked like a very high-end restaurant. I hadn't really been to one of these. "Wow dude. Water must cost us 20 bucks a glass here" Uriel joked. He seemed to be amazed at how nice the restaurant looked. It was classy. All I could see was shiny crystals, and people wearing really nice clothes. "I feel so out of place right now" I told Uriel. "Tell me about it! The most expensive place I eat at is Dennis" "That's because your parents like it, you know you can afford other things" "I know" "But don't worry dude, we never go to these places." "And we are just wearing jeans and a shirt" Uriel said looking down at our outfit. "Mom, what are we doing here?" I asked. "I'm sorry hon, but you're dad's friend likes it here, it was his dream to come here. So your dad invited him here. He even made reservations. We get a whole little room for ourselves" she sort of chuckle when she said the last word. "WHAT!!! How much us dad paying?" "Don't you worry about that, it's okay. We wouldn't be here if we couldn't afford it." "I hope you can afford it. I don't think me and Aaron want to wash dishes hear. We might break something and it might cost a fortune" Uriel told my mom "Oh it's okay kids. Just enjoy yourselves." So my dad told the host who we were and he walked us down to our little "room" as my mom called it. When we walked in I couldn't believe it. The place was big. It had a huge table, a couple of couches, a tv, and a private bathroom. Uriel and I automatically sat on the couch and we were about to click on the tv when my mom called us over. "You're not going to watch tv right now. You're going to sit down with us and celebrate." My dad told us. "Do we get to drink with you?" I asked. "No, you get pop." He laughed. "I saw that coming from a mile away you loser" Uriel teased. "Shut up. You get to sit down and `celebrate' too" I backfired. I know that sometimes Uriel and me can sound like little kids, but that's what we are sometimes. Well he is one at all times, being only 13, but I like to go back to my roots of being a little kid and once in a while I act like a little kid. We were drinking soda and playing cards when the door opened and my dad's friends came in the door. There were 3 people. An older man, a woman, and a guy that seemed to be just a little older than I was. My dad introduced us and stuff and then we all sat down. The guy sat right next to me. I felt a little odd, as there were about 4 other chairs available. But he sort of sat by us because we were away from the "adults". "Hi" he said. "Hey" I said and Uriel copied. "You're Aaron right?" he asked. "Uhh, yeah. Who are you?" "My name is Andrew" "Nice to meet you Andrew" "Well, you knew me since before. We were friends when you were like 7 or 8." "What... I don't remember. How old were you?" "I was 13." "So you're like 22 now?" "Yeah, just turned 22" "You look a lot younger, but I don't really remember you" "I know you don't, I probably know why too" "Oh. Well tell me then" "First tell me who this little boy is. The last time I checked you were the youngest" "Well he's my best friend" "You hang out with little kids?" he asked sort of surprised. "Well he's my best friend's brother. My best friend is my age. His name is Uriel" "Yeah, what's up" Uriel said. "What's up. So is Aaron nice to you?" "Uhh,,, yeah I guess." "What do you mean?" the guy asked. "Well, he's not mean to me or anything. He's really cool. He's like my brother and best friend I guess" "How old are you Uriel?" Andrew asked. "I'm 13, why don't you remember him Aaron?" "I have no clue" I answered. I really didn't. "Well I'll tell you later Aaron. Let's have dinner first" Andrew told me. So we had dinner and stuff, it was actually pretty cool. Andrew was actually a pretty cool guy. My mom and my dad were having a great time. I saw them actually laughing and cracking jokes for the first time in a very long time. After we finished eating some really good burgers, which is funny because Uriel and I always get burgers whenever we go somewhere. It was funny because Uriel kept saying that he could get 8 big Macs at McDonald's for the price of one of these burgers. After we had all our food and dessert, Uriel pulled me to the couch and we started watching tv while Andrew talked to my parents and stuff. They were talking about how big I had gotten and how the boy, Uriel, and I looked a like. I don't really think we do. Anyway, after a while. Uriel sort of fell asleep, and he fell asleep away from me. But little by little he kept falling and falling down and eventually I just pulled him down to my legs and he had his head on my thighs and his feet curled up. He was sleeping like a baby. I was playing with his hair so that he could rest better. Then I noticed Andrew coming to me. He sat in the couch near me. "So I see you really care about this boy" he said. "Yeah, he's my baby brother I guess" "Yeah, you've always been really caring" "What?" "Well, remember when I told you I'd tell you later about how we used to know each other?" "Yeah..." "Well, I hope you don't get mad, I know you probably are different now" "What..." I was getting anxious. "Well, when you were younger, I used to always hang out with you. After school we'd play, and during summer, you'd come over and sleep over all the time." When he said that I couldn't help but to think about Jon, and how me and Uriel almost had the same sort of relationship. "Okay, what about it. I mean I think that's cool, but I already told you I don't remember" "Well I think I know why" "Why?" "Well, you promise to not get mad at me?" "I promise, I hardly even know you, what can you possible tell me that will make me mad?" "Well, when you were younger, I used to suck you off and touch you. I even made you suck me off one day and I used to kiss you every time I had a chance. You never really liked it, but I kept telling you that it was what friends did" I didn't know what to tell him. I mean part of me probably liked that, I don't mind it at all now, but I guess when I compare it to Jon and Uriel, I felt bad myself about what I was doing. Or trying to do. "Well, are you mad?" he asked. "Just extremely shocked. Why would you make me do something like that?" "You were really cute, and you still are. I mean and you always got boners when I did stuff with you. You always said your body liked it but your mind didn't" "Well duh!" "Hey chill, we don't want our parents to know. The point of the story is, are you still up for that?" I was so pissed when he asked me that. I was just about to get up and beat the crap out of him, or at least try. Just then, he put his hand on my cheek and started to caress it. "You're still as cute as I left you. In fact your getting cuter, you look older but you keep that little boy essence." "Umm... stop" I told him. I was beginning to feel scared. "Come on Aaron. Don't be shy, I know you're different. Or else why would you have that boy on your thighs and your hands in his hair?" "Dude, just stop. I don't like it" Just then he put his hand on my leg and started to rub it. I'd have to agree that I didn't really like this, I felt very embarrassed and scared. "Please stop." I said. I was beginning to act scared. I guess my little boy instincts kicked in. "O geez, it's just a little tease, it's not like I'm going to blow you here or you blow me here. Maybe in the bathroom" and as he said that, he put a silver bracelet on my leg. "Are you trying to bribe me?" I asked. "NO, it's just a gift. I want you to have it" "Umm no thanks. I'm not something you can buy. You might have made me do stuff before, but now I'm through with it." "Aaron, you used to always let me love you." "Well, not anymore" "Seriously man, why are you acting so weird. I mean you have a boy in your arms. You're playing with his hair, and you tell me it's nothing?" "Dude, he's like a brother to me" "Whatever he is. Aaron, you're 17 now. You should have grown now, you should want sex by now" "Whatever man. Just leave me alone all right. I'm tired" I just looked at my dad and I knew he saw me so I gave him the `I'm tired' look. My mom was really tired too, so I knew it wouldn't be long before we left. Just then, my parents started talking again and Andrew used that opportunity to reach down on the other side of my leg where Uriel wasn't, and he tried touching me between my legs. "Andrew stop!" "Why, don't you like it?" "No! Why don't you get it? I don't like it" "Come on,,, it feels great." "Look I said no and that's all there is to it. If you bother me again I will make sure you go to jail. Got it!?" I was getting frustrated. "Geez, okay. Sorry" he said as he backed off. Just then I heard my parents say their good byes and stuff. I softly woke Uriel up to tell him we were leaving and pretty soon we were out of that restaurant and safely back in the truck. When we arrived back at home, we changed into some comfortable pjs and jumped right into bed. I knew Uriel was really tired so I didn't suggest anything. We just went to bed without playing any games. That's something that almost never gets skipped. It seems like that's our must. We always have to do things like that. Anyway, I waited a little while thinking about what Andrew had told me and what he had tried to do. I felt a little odd since I put my self in the shoes of Uriel, or maybe even Jon. I mean Jon and I had kissed, Uriel and I hadn't. Anyway, after a while, I just decided to relax and go back to sleep. The next morning when I awoke and as usual, Uriel and I were in really close positions. I had my arm around his waist, and he had one leg between mine, and our mouths were almost touching again. I really liked to be like this with him so that's why most of the time when this happens, I just pretend to go back to sleep. But its not like I figure anything out because as soon as he realizes how close he is, he just backs off. I closed my eyes and started thinking about Jon. I wanted to see him but I knew it wouldn't be the best idea since tonight is the last night Uriel and I have together so we might as well enjoy it. After about 5 minutes of wandering through my thoughts, I felt Uriel begin to move, I pretended to be asleep. He just stayed like that this time though, and it was like he wanted for me to wake up. So I waited a couple of minutes, I didn't know if he was still asleep or awake, but I knew he was facing me. When I finally begin to open my eyes, I saw him staring blankly at me. Sort of like he was looking right through me. "Uhh, good morning" I said looking at him. "Good morning" "You look puzzled, what are you thinking about?" "Nothing" "I was somehow expecting that answer. You never think of anything it seems" "Yeah, I know" "Okay" I just stared at him. Maybe if I stare at him enough, he might tell me a secret or something cool. But I got nothing, all I got was a silent moment. "Uriel, what's up. Why are you staring at me? Is there something bugging you?" "No... not really" "Does waking up like this bother you?" "Waking up how?" "Close to me and with a boner" "Umm no it doesn't bother me" When I said that about a boner, he sort of turned red. Not much though. I mean of course I could feel his little thing. It kept pulsating on my leg. "You know I have to hug something, that's why I hug you" "Yeah. But hey, you know how you said that even when you're sleeping you know who you are with." "Yes" "Well, since you hug me and I hug you back, it's because we know it's us right?" "Yes" "And I don't really hug anyone else, and no one else hugs me. But you always hug me and stuff" "Yeah and?" "Well, do you hug anyone else?" "Well,,,,umm... Let me see..." I knew who else I hugged but I didn't really want to say it. "Do you hug Jon?" "Uhh,, o yeah. Why?" "Just a question" I knew by the way he was looking at me that he was thinking about something, but he didn't really want to tell me what he was thinking about. "So, why are all these things bothering you. It doesn't matter if I hug Jon. You're always going to be my friend, no matter what I already told you" "I know" "Then what's wrong with you" "Nothing Aaron, that's your problem you always think something is wrong. Nothing is wrong. I'm fine" "Umm okay then, if you say so" "Okay then" I pulled him more to me and I hugged him. I wanted to let him know that I wasn't mad and that he was getting too upset. But he pushed me back a little to kind of prevent me from hugging him. "Okay so you don't want to be hugged I guess" "No, you can't always hug me when you make me mad" "I made you mad?" "No, well sort of" "Why?" "Because" "Because what?" "Because Aaron, you always act as if I was a little boy and is if I didn't notice how we always wake up weird" "What?" "Why do you hug me so much. Why do you wake up so close to me?" "Uriel, I don't know. It just happens" "Aaron, why do you have a girlfriend?" "I don't know, I guess it's in" "What do you mean it's in.. so you are using her?" "Did I say that?" "No" "Then why do you say I'm using her?" "Because Aaron, you know that you don't love her" "How do you know that?" "Because I do" "How?" "I know you. You're my..." "You're what?" I was beginning to feel odd. Uriel was acting extremely weird this morning. "My best friend I guess. Aaron I don't think you care anymore" "About what?" "You always used to say you wanted to be my best friend and always be with me" "And I'm not? You're not really making sense you know" "I'm trying to tell you stuff and you say I don't make sense?" "Sorry. Okay tell me" "Well, you always like think about Jon, or when you're with him you are like so happy" "Is this what it's all about. You are jealous of Jon aren't you?" "No... I just think..." "You think that I care about him more than I care about you" "Did I say that?" He was trying to sound mean but I knew he was just putting up a face so that I couldn't see that he was stumped. "Uriel I love you. Don't you start saying I don't care about you" "No you don't. you don't even know what love is" "You think I don't know it. I've loved you ever since you were 10!" "Well, I don't car...what?" "You heard me" "What do you mean you loved me since I was 10" "I love you... I really love you. And I know you're not going to want to be my friend after today. But please like, understand, I didn't know how to tell you. I don't want to lose you. But the way you are acting makes me feel like you think I don't care about you. When I do! I love you, I've loved you for a very long time" He looked really stumped. He sort of moved away from me. Now I only had my arm on his waist. But he was thinking about something, I didn't really know what. "You love me? Like real love?" "Yes. Like real love" "Like... you want to be with me?" "Yes. I know I'm a freak. I know you hate homos, I'll understand if you stop wanting to you know be with me like this, but please don't stop being my friend. I really care about you" "Let's just forget about what you just said okay. I'm going to pretend like I never heard that. But Aaron please, don't try to ever touch me or anything. I'm not like that. I don't want to lose you either" "Okay, deal" So we had another silent moment, and then I started thinking about what I had just done. I had probably just ruined a very good friendship. Just because I wanted to let Uriel know that I didn't care about Jon more than him. When in reality, I don't know who I really love. I love both of them now I guess. After about 10 minutes of having a very annoying and awkward silent moment, we both got up and we made the bed. We both started talking like nothing ever happened. And we even changed right in front of each other, but I could still feel Uriel a little separate from me. When we sat down on the couch in my room and we were watching tv, my cell phone rang. It was Jon. "Hey what's up" I answered. "Hey what are you doing" I heard Jon's sweet voice on the other end. "Nothing really. Watching tv" "Are you still with Uriel?" "Yeah." "Oh" I could tell by his `oh' that he sort of felt sad but he didn't want me to find out. "Why?" "I don't know, I wanted to play I guess. I haven't played with you in a day" "Well, we can probably play like later. We can swim and then we can maybe play a video game, the 3 of us" "Okay, well I'll see you later then. And Aaron, I thought about it, and like..." "Like?" "I don't care if you kiss me and touch me. I think I like it" "Aww,,, okay, then we'll then I can't wait to see you" "Bye Aaron" "Bye baby" "Why baby?" "You're my baby brother aren't you?" "Oh yeah" "Okay then bye" "Bye" I messed up when I said that because Uriel probably got the wrong idea when he heard that. "I guess it was Jon huH?" Uriel asked. "UH yeah" "Aaron, why did you call him baby?" "Well,, I was going to say baby bro.. I always call him that, but I got lazy so I started just calling baby" "Sounds wrong though" "Only to your dirty head" "Whatever" So I got up after he gave me his stupid `whatever'. It always means that he doesn't really care nor believe me. I went to my closet to find some clean shoes and when I turned around I saw him right in front of me. "What?" I asked. I was sort of irritated of his weird attitude. "Aaron, are you mad at me?" "No, you're the one who's mad at me" "I'm not" "Okay... well it sure looks like it" "It's just that..." he started to say, but he stopped halfway there. "What" I said. "It's just that well... here this will be easier" he got close to me and gave me a kiss on the lips. He placed his arms around my waist and then I put mine around his neck. He made me open my mouth and then we began tongue wrestling. I pulled away from him. "What the heck was that for" I asked. "It's just... I didn't know what to say. I've always felt weird about you. I always felt like I wanted to kiss you. But I stopped myself, I thought I was being stupid. But when I see Jon with you I get so mad" "When you see anyone with me you get mad" "Aaron, I don't want to be like this. I love you too but I don't want to" "What do you mean" "If anyone finds out, I'm going to die. No one even suspects that I'm gay" "I know, neither did I." "Wait, did you just say you love me back?" "Yes, since I was 10 I felt like you and me felt something weird." "So did I, we were really close" "Aaron, you're not going to tell someone are you?" "No one, I'll do anything to keep this a secret" I had to. Because now I had the two people I've always wanted. I don't know what I'm going to do. I mean I love Jon for his sweetness, and I love Uriel too. But I also knew that Jon was younger and all he could feel for me is respect. I mean he probably feels like since I'm older, he has to listen to me to not make me mad. I doubt that he really feels like kissing me is a good thing. "What are you thinking about Aaron" "No one" "Aaron, Jon is just your friend right?" "Yeah" I felt so odd saying that because I had no clue what was happening. How could my whole life change like this? I mean how come it took 3 years for me to have Uriel. All those late nights just staying awake to hug him and watch him sleep. All those nights that I touched him and fucked him over his clothes while he was sleeping. "I love you and all, but I ain't going to act all fruity and be all romantic okay" "Okay, works with me" I agreed. I didn't want to really be odd. "Lets go eat" he said. "Wait" I pushed him down on the bed. I wanted to do something I had been waiting to do my whole life knowing him. I got on him. I placed my butt right over his dick and once I was on him I kissed him. We kissed like this for minutes. I could feel him getting hard, and I got hard myself. Then eventually I just lied on top of him while we kissed. I started to softly move my butt up and down on him and I knew he was liking the sensation. But I knew we had to stop because my parents would hear stuff. "Wow Aaron. That felt awesome!" "I know, I had been waiting so long to do that" Then, while he was looking at me, I was still on him, so I pushed off and then I started to touch his dick over his pjs. "Awww" I saw him push his head back. I kept massaging his little raging tool. "Has anyone ever done this to you" I asked. "No... it's sooooo good" he said. When I heard my mom walking towards my room, I got off and he got the clue. We just sat up and started talking about whatever just came to our minds. We both talked to my mom about what we were going to do and then she told us to go down for breakfast. We were both very excited about what had happened. I told him to go ahead and I'd be down in a minute. I stayed back to think about what the heck I was going to do. For one part, I just got what I wanted for so freaking long. I had made out with Uriel! I had touched Uriel. But on the other part, I knew I felt something special for Jon. I felt as if I was cheating one them. I tried to forget about that and I went down to have breakfast. Uriel and I just had normal breakfast. We talked to my parents about what were our plans and what we were doing. But we would still send each other looks. And we were putting our feet together under the table. I guess we just figured out what playing footsies was. I'm sorry that this part didn't have as much action as most of you would have wanted. But I thought that it be best that you got the ideas and thoughts of the character instead of just jumping into what is going to happen. I will keep working on more chapters. I hope you liked the second chapter. E-mail me to tell me what was good and what wasn't. Thank you.