Date: Wed, 24 Oct 2007 06:58:06 +0000 From: Tommy Evans Subject: Uriel and Jon 20 Dinner at Jon's was good. We all sat down and had a great conversation about what my plans where and how much they were thankful I was Jon's friend. I assured them I was going to be there for Jon until he was married and then a few more years later. After dinner, Jon and I went to his room. "Aaron, so what happened with Oscar?" he asked. "I don't know okay. I wish I knew. He, betrayed me" I said. "Well I mean, so he's Alex's friends. What's the big deal?" "Jon, the guy is an ass hole." "Well sometimes yeah. But he's my coach man, I got used to it" "Yeah Jon, exactly. So how the hell did Oscar get into all this?" "I don't know. I didn't even tell him about the game. I really didn't. he just showed up there" "Don't worry about it okay man" I said. We lied down on his bed and we were watching TV. We heard a knock on the door. "Jon you have another visitor" Jons mom said. "Well, we're in the room" Jon said. Seconds later we saw Oscar walk into he room. I felt weird. I felt anger, sadness, but I still felt love. I didn't know what to do. "Hey, Jon, umm...hi Aaron" he said. "Hey" me and Jon said at the same time. "I didn't know Aaron was here" Oscar said. "Well, I'll leave if its important" I said. "No, wait, this, is for both of you" Oscar said. "What?" Jon said confused. "Look guys. I'm sorry you guys are mad. I know you don't like Alex." Oscar told us. "Well, he's my coach. But he's not so cool" Jon added. "Aaron, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to lie to you. Its just, I didn't want you to get mad at me because I was his friend. I guess you got mad anyway" he said as he looked down. "Oscar, Aaron would have found out. I probably would have told him you were there if he didn't go" Jon said. "Jon, we forgave you when you messed up with Danny. Why don't you listen to me this time around?" Oscar asked. "Oscar, if you realized that Danny was nothing but bad news, wouldn't you see that maybe Alex is bad news too?" I asked. "Look I just wanted to apologize okay. I guess you guys don't get it" he said as he walked the other way. Jon looked at me. I looked at him. I hugged him. "Let me talk to him" I whispered to Jon. He nodded yes and I got up and followed Oscar outside. We walked to the front and he turned around to look at me. "Aaron, don't yell at me okay" he said as soon as we walked out of the house. "I'm not going to yell. You can make your own decisions man" I said. I was just waiting for him to explain everything to me. "Can we go to your house to talk?" he asked. "Sure" I said. We walked to my house and walked into my room. Jon texted me to ask me if he could come over at in a little while and sleep over. I said yes. But I wasn't too focused on that at the moment. I turned to Oscar who was now sitting on my bed. "Aaron, I don't know why you are so mad about me being his friend" "Oscar, I don't know okay. I sense something being wrong okay" "Just forget it okay. Just forget it. I wont ever talk to him again okay. I promise" "No Oscar, you can talk to whoever you want. Just don't, hurt me okay. don't betray me. You know what I'm talking about" "I wont. I promise" he said. The blood inside me was boiling up. He was lying to me. He was telling me nothing was wrong, when he knew deep inside that he was messing around with Alex. Part of me wanted to tell him that I knew, that I heard. But the other part of me just wanted to wait for him to tell me. "Aaron I have to go. I have to go help my mom do some stuff. But I'll see you around okay?" he asked. "Yeah, I will. I love you Oscar" I said as I hugged him. He turned away from me. "Me too" he answered. I picked his face up with my finger, and kissed him. But, it didn't feel right. He didn't kiss back. He gave me a sad look. "Okay. What's wrong?" I asked. "Nothing, I just feel a little tired and still shocked at how you reacted" "Oscar, I already told you man. We can work it out. We can't let this ruin our relationship" "yeah...I know" he said. He got up. He hugged me. Then I saw Jon come through my door. Oscar turned to see him. "I got to go" Oscar said. He walked out. "So, whats wrong with him?" Jon asked. "We talked. Lets just say it didn't go so smooth. But we're cool" I said. "Aaron, what is going on?" he asked. "Jon, we're just having trust problems. You know" I said. "Aaron, do you think I should quit basketball?" he asked. "Jon, your parents wouldn't be okay with that. You can't just quit that. They paid for the stuff right" I said. "Yeah, but I mean if Alex makes you that mad. Why even bother going back? What if I become his friend, then you'll get mad at me too" "Jon, as long as you promise to take care of yourself I would never stop talking to you" "Awesome. That is awesome Aaron" he said as he hugged me. We sat on my couch and began watching a movie. A lot of things were going through my head at the moment. I kept wondering about what Oscar was up to. I just couldn't handle this. Why did the story keep repeating itself? Was I not supposed to end up being happy with anyone? Was my destiny just to suffer. We watched the whole movie and I was holding onto Jon through it all. He knew I was a little tense and he didn't say a word. He just let me hold onto him. When the movie ended, we both went to the bathroom and while he peed I washed my face. Then we both brushed our teeth and headed to bed. I hugged him good night. He smiled and we got in bed. We both fell asleep pretty quickly. Even though we didn't do much, and we didn't really have fun, I know we both enjoyed just keeping each other company. The next morning we couldn't do much again because his mom called at 9 so he could come home and go to church. ***************************************************************** A whole month passed by and my relationship with Oscar was getting worse. We saw each other less and less. He spent a lot more time at indoor soccer practice. We had stopped messing around since that weekend when I found out about him and Alex. We both just kept telling each other we were tired, or that we didn't feel like it. But I felt that the end was coming. For the first time I was in a relationship that came to an end. But it wasn't a bad one. We weren't arguing. We still slept together but that's it. We just slept. We still held onto each others hands and hugged a lot, but it was just weird. I still loved him. I just wish he would tell me about Alex. And every day that passed by I hated Alex more and more. My friendship with Jon was still going great. We spent a lot more time together and we were developing an actual brotherly friendship. He trusted me completely and the weird sexual tension was gone. It was almost Christmas and I didn't feel happy or warm as I used to feel when that time came around. I had been thinking about what to buy Jon and Oscar. They both meant a lot to me but I felt as if any day now my relationship with Oscar would come to big bang. As much as I hated seeing Alex pick him up for practice, I decided to let Oscar make his own decisions. I was shoveling some snow from my driveway on a Saturday morning. It was 10 days until Christmas. I felt someone tap my back. I turned around and saw Oscar. "Hey" I said. "Hey" he said. But I noticed he sounded different. "Is something wrong?" I asked. "Can we talk?" he asked. That's when I knew. My heart stopped. But why? I saw this coming. Why was I so mad. He followed me to my garage. We sat on the little couch in there. I closed the garage door and he looked at me. "Aaron, I think..." he paused. "Oscar, do you still love me?" I asked. "I don't know aaron. I don't know" "Oscar, please don't tell me that...you...want to...break...up" I said. "Aaron, im sorry. I know I promised you I wouldn't do this. But I cant be your friend anymore" "MY friend?" I asked. "My boyfriend I guess." he said as he turned away. "Alex?" I asked. "I'm sorry okay. I'm sorry. I fucked up. Aaron I fucked up a long time ago. I wanted to tell you. But I couldn't. I just couldn't" he said. "I...don't know what to say." I said as I got up. "Well...thank you for everything" he said as he hugged me. "Oscar, be careful okay" I said. "I'm a big boy I can take care of myself okay" he snapped back at me. He opened the garage door and walked away. When he left, I broke down. Tears began to flow from my eyes. I was in so much pain. I guess deep inside I wished for Oscar to realize he loved me more and Alex and would stay with me. But I guess I was wrong. The next couple of days I felt like shit. Jon was busy with basketball and he tried to make me feel better by making me laugh. But I was hurting. I was hurting more than I had ever hurt in my life so far. I loved Oscar. And I looked down, I thought about it. I asked my self, where did he come from? What happened to my love for Jon and Uriel? Wasn't I supposed to focus on them? And now look at me. I fell for someone I shouldn't have. I stopped seeing people I should have never left. I hadn't heard from Luis, and Uriel and I were still okay but not great. Jon and I were awesome friends, but just that. It had been months since anything happened between us. All because I believed Oscar was the right one. I couldn't just let it die. I ran outside, I ran to his house. I rang the door bell and he actually came out. He walked with me to the tree house. No one said anything, I grabbed him by the arm and turned him around. I kissed him. He just received the kiss. "Aaron, why did you do that?" he asked. "Oscar, I love you" I said. "Aaron, I know you do. But I can't do this to you okay. Just let me go. I don't love you. Not anymore. I love Alex" he said. "Oscar, he's going to hurt you. He's going to use you. I know it. I know someone who got hurt by him" "AARON! don't say that! If you love me then let me be happy with him. Just BACK OFF!" he yelled. "OSCAR! I love you damn it. I'm trying to help you. Please listen to me!" "NO AARON! I don't love you. I love him. And I trust him!" he said as he turned away. I watched him walk away. And I felt my heart break into a billion pieces. I ran to my room. I jumped on my bed and began to cry. I couldn't do anything but cry. I felt like shit the rest of the week. I only got to see Jon once. He knew I was sad. I told him Oscar and I got into a fight about Alex and we stopped talking. He was mad at Oscar but I told him to not let that hurt their friendship. On Monday morning, the last Monday before winter break, I found a letter from a private school on the kitchen island. I opened it. It seemed as if my mom or dad had already read it. They walked into the kitchen. "Hey" my mom said. "Whats up?" I asked. "Well, umm...we were thinking if maybe you'd like to go to that school" my dad added. "The year is almost over. And then I graduate" I said. "Well this school continues after 12th grade. Its kind of like combined college. Its really nice." my mom said. "Mom...I just don't know" I said. "Well, there's just one little tinsy bitty problem" my dad jumped in. "What?" I asked. "It's about 45 minutes from here" he said. "I guess its okay. But I don't know if want to drive that much" I said. "The thing is, you wont be driving back, only on weekends and that's on special weekends" my mom said. At first, my mind quickly said no. I couldn't deal with being far away from home. But then again, that meant being away from Oscar and the pain. Could it be a good thing for me to go away? I could go to school focus on my future and forget about all my issues. "Can I think about it? Do I have a deadline?" I asked. "Yeah, before winter break ends" my dad told me. "I'll be in my room" I said as I walked up to my room. They looked confused. They had no idea of what was happening with anyone so they thought I didn't want to go because of my friends. I had until Wednesday then we went on winter break. Then I didn't have to go back until the 2nd of January. Wow, a whole new year. I was on my bed thinking about this year. In the beginning of Summer, I fell in love with Jon. Then came my Re-falling in love with Uriel. Then came Luis, then, after that came Oscar. Then Uriel and Oscar and Jon. Wow, that was bad. Then towards the end of the year it was just Oscar. I got beat up twice, one of those landed me in the hospital. I've had so many fights with my friends. But what do I really have to show for this year? If I think about it. This year has been a roller coaster for me. I discovered love, I discovered passion, lust, jealousy, and pain. But the only thing I can say I have really gained, was a little person named Jon. So far, he's still with me. I don't know how long I can keep him for. Maybe I'm going to lose him too but I shouldn't be too negative. I stopped worrying about that for a little while and I got changed and ready to go pick up Jon for his basketball game. His games were fun to go to but also hurt to go to. Oscar was always at the games sitting next to Alex. It hurt a lot to see them together, but it also made me feel a little better to know that Jon was still my friend and that he wanted nothing to do with Alex. I picked Jon up and he seemed very tired. "hey dude whats wrong?" I asked. "Nothing." he said. "You know you can tell me anything" I said. "Aaron I'm fine okay" he snapped. "Jon, what is wrong with you. Are you going to be okay?" I asked. "yes, I'm going to be fine!" he yelled at me. "Okay, just wondering" I said. Great! Just what I needed. Jon mad at me too. "Aaron, I'm sorry I yelled" he said as he grabbed my hand. "Yeah, okay" I said as smiled at him. Why was he like this? The game was okay, I ignored Alex and Oscar as much as I could. There was the occasional stare from Oscar and the occasional grin from Alex. I didn't like the fact that he thought he was better then me. So what if he took Oscar from me. That doesn't make him a better person. The game was interesting. I cheered Jon on. He was doing great. I was amazed at how much he got better throughout the season. I mean he's not basketball star or anything, but he was sure looking good out there. I loved the fact that he was number 10. That was my favorite number. Jon's team won the game and they all celebrated when the buzzer went off. I noticed Jon celebrated a little bit but before Alex could get to hug Jon, he walked towards me and smiled. I walked down to the court and I hugged him. "Jon you did great" I said. "You think so?" he asked. "I know so" "Aaron are we going to celebrate?" he asked. "you bet we are" I said. "Okay well let me go get changed" he said quickly. He ran to the locker rooms and I sat down on the bleachers. I was looking down at my phone when Alex came up to me. "you're a lucky guy" he said. "what do you mean?" I said as I looked up to him and gave him a very mean stare. "You have Jon as a friend" he smiled. "Yeah, I do." "Hey, no hard feelings right?" he asked. "For what?" "Oscar..."he said with a weird tone of voice. "Well friends come and go" I answered. "Friends? He was just a friend?" "What is it to you?" I asked. "Lets not bull shit ok." "Alex, just don't hurt him okay" "Aaron, I don't know what you heard about me. But I love Oscar, I wouldn't hurt him" "Right, well, I hope you two have a great time together" I said as I got up. "Hey, just don't get in between anymore" "Alex, fuck off. You got him. Ok. What else do you want from me?" I asked. "I don't know, Jon?" he laughed. "No. he's not a toy. And if you love oscar, stay with him" I said. "I was just saying. And don't worry, I feel great knowing I took Oscar" he said with a smirk. "Look ass hole, Oscar is a great kid. But, you push him the wrong way and he'll let you hear it" "Nope. I have him all under control" he said as he called Oscar over. Oscar walked by, and Alex put his arm around him. Of course it wasn't too touchy because there were people around us. But Oscar and I shared a weird eye to eye connection. "Well you two have an awesome time okay" I said as I walked over to Jon who was now walking towards us. Oscar seemed to be, happy yet, a little distressed. I decided to not worry myself over it. I gave them both another look, then I smiled. The best I could do was wish Oscar the best and hope Alex was being honest when he said he loved him. "What was he telling you?" Jon asked. "That you are an awesome player" I said. "O well whatever. He can suck a wiener" Jon said. "Umm...Jon?" "Sorry. I just think he's an idiot. He made you and Oscar not be friends. Oscar doesn't even talk to me that much. And he's almost at every practice" "Well Jon...shit happens" "I know, well I'm never going to be an ass hole to you again okay" Jon said as he hugged me. "Okay" I said. I knew both Oscar and Alex saw us. I knew maybe both of them had some sort of envy. We walked to my car. When we got in, I felt weird. Like something had to be said. "Jon, are you okay?" I asked. "Yeah" he said softly. "Okay spill it out" "Aaron, I'm going to another school next week" he said. It shocked me. Why him too? So now I wasn't going to see him either? "Jon, that's weird. Why? And how does that affect me?" I asked. "I guess it's a private school. I need to stay there and come home on the weekends" he said. "Well I'll still see you right?" I asked. "Yeah on the weekends" he said. "So its not that bad right?" I asked. But I knew it was. That meant he had the whole week to make new friends. Possibly even replace me. "Not really. But I don't know. I don't want to have to, be there all alone" "Well man, you can call me anytime. Is that why you were acting so weird earlier?" I asked. "A little. I don't want to be away from you" he said. "Jon, I'll never EVER let you forget me okay" I grabbed his hand. We went to the nearest burger place to have some celebration dinner. Even though I just found out I was not going to see him as much, I realized I couldn't stop him. And then, I realized, I could do the same. I know the schools are different ages and stuff, but maybe we could sort of share the same experience at different schools. "You know Jon, I could go to one too. A private school. My parents just told me about it too. My mom wants me to go" I said. "If you go, and I go? Then, we both going to find friends. Promise me you wont stop talking to me okay" he said. It was the first time he had ever said anything like that. "I would never do that." I said. We finished our dinner and we headed home. On the way home, he didn't do anything but hold onto my hand. It was so cool. We listened to the radio and I kept noticing how I could related to almost every song that played. I had been hurt quite a few times, and I have definitely been in love quite a few times. When we got to his house, he wouldn't say anything. Then he finally broke the silence. "Aaron, do you want to sleep over?" he asked. "But it's a school night" I said. "I know, but still. Please?" he said with his puppy face. "Umm sure. But are your parents going to be okay with it?" I asked. "I don't see why not" he answered. "Okay..." I said. "Come on" he said as he walked inside. We walked in to his house and his mom waved hi. Jon went up to her and gave her a hug. "Mom, can Aaron sleep over today?" he asked. "In here? You don't want to stay at his house? that's a first. Sure why not" she said as she smiled. "So what made you guys want to stay here?" she asked. "I don't know. He just came up with it" I said. "Well, you guys can go ahead and go upstairs. What about school tomorrow?" she asked. "Tomorrow we have late arrival. Some meetings" I told her. "O yeah I forgot about that. What time do you guys go in?" "I think 11" Jon answered. "Okay. Well I have to go out early to the doctor and I'm taking your brothers. Are you guys going to sleep in your room or in the TV room?" she asked. "In my room" Jon said. "Well, Jon go take a shower your all sweaty" she said. "Okay I'll be back" he ran upstairs. I sat there in the kitchen. His mom came up to me. And she hugged me. "Thank you" she said. "Well that's nice. But for what?" I asked. "You helped Jon with everything. He has been so nice lately. Really happy" "Well I'm glad to help. Anything for my lil bro" "You know, I believe sometimes, angels come from above. And your probably one" "No, I don't think so" I said. I really didn't. angels, they are not like me. "Well, I think you are pretty close to being one" she said. "Thanks. I just, want the best for him." "I know. And it kills me to see him when you guys aren't talking. I know it. He thinks I don't notice. But when you and him don't talk, he gets so moody, and sad. I just wish he didn't have to go through all the growing up changes" "Trust me, I know how they work. Which is why I never get mad at him. I accept everything he says, because sometimes its just hormones talking" "I know. But you don't know how good it makes me feel to know that you are there for him" she said. "I know, but, he told me he's going to a private school. My mom told me I was going too. That sort of scares us. I mean I know im going to see him on the weekends, but its going to be hard for us" "I know Aaron. And I thought about it, but he needs more then just public school and so do you. I think that if you guys care about each other you'll still make it through. Besides he can still call you at nights" she said. "I know." I said. We continued talking about how it was going to be different but how we can work it out. It was amazing how she was being so helpful with the situation. She really liked me around Jon. She said that as long as he spend time with his family on Sundays, that he could spend Friday and Saturday with me. Its going to be hard though. But the fact that we are neighbors helps a lot. Soon Jon came running in the room. We had some night snacks and his mom said good night to us. We sat in the living room. His dad came into the room. "hey champ. How was your game?" he asked. "Good. We won" Jon said excited. "hey Aaron. Whats up. Hows everything?" he asked. "Good. How's work?" I asked. "Great. Thanks for the help. The paperwork you did was perfect. If you didn't have a job I'd offer you one" he said joking. "Thanks" I said. "Anyways, what are you guys up to tonight?" he asked. "Well just watch TV, talk, play games" Jon said. "Okay well don't party too much guys. I got to go to sleep." he said as he played with Jon's hair. "Good night dad" he said. "Good night champ" his dad walked away. "Champ?" I asked. "It's my nickname okay." Jon answered as he blushed. I don't know why it was so embarrassing. We continued to watch TV. By now he was lying on me and I had my arm around him. "Aaron, lets go watch TV in my room" he said. We turned off the TV. We turned off the lights, and headed to his room. I felt odd being in his house at night. I always wore shorts underneath so I wasn't worried about what to wear, yet I felt weird. I didn't know why. For once, Jon was, sort of in control. It was his house. We got up to his room and as soon as I walked in I felt, awkward. I was in his room. In the place where he spent most of his time. The place where he went to when he was mad at me. He took off his shirt and his shorts. He was just in his boxers. I didn't say anything about it. I sat on the bed, and took off my shirt and left my undershirt on. Then I took off my pants. I was in my shorts, and I walked to the bed. He was just lying there. "Aren't you going to turn on the TV?" I asked. "Aaron, do you think, Oscar is cute?" he asked. "Umm...why?" "I just want to know" "Yeah, I guess. He's cute" "Am I?" he said as he turned to me. I had Jon, half naked, in front of me. Soft skin, cute boyish stomach, cute nipples, and just the right amount of baby fat on him. "Yes Jon, you are REALLY cute" I said. He smiled and then he turned away from me. Then I felt his hands look for my arm and he put my arm around his amazingly cute stomach. "You comfy?" I asked. "Yeah, almost" he answered. "Jon, I don't want to go away for school." I said. "Neither do I. why do we have to go anyway?" he asked. "I honestly don't know. Maybe, for safety, both your dad and my dad are going to make more money soon and maybe its for our safety" I said. It could be true. My parents and his parents don't really tell us anything about that. But I know money will be really good soon. "Well, what about our friends?" he asked. "We can make friends wherever we go. Plus I mean, Oscar is being retarded. He's the only one we really talk to" "Yeah your right. Well I mean we'll be back on the weekends right?" "Yeah Jon, every weekend. I will see you every weekend" I said as patted his cute belly. "Can we skip school tomorrow?" he asked. "What for?" "I don't know. To have fun." "No dude, we gotta go to school. We'd get in trouble if we didn't. plus we don't even have to be there that much. Just a little bit tomorrow, then Wednesday, Thursday, half day on Friday and then we are off for the rest of the month." "Aaron, but these are our last days. After that, we have to go to different schools" and he was right. I hadn't thought about that. I mean I told my parents I'd think about it. But it would make sense. If Jon was going soon then I guess I'd go to. "Well, dude, make the best of them. Be extra nice to your friends and make sure you say good bye" I said. "Well, what if I just don't say nothing. That way it wont be sad" "Jon, but you will be sad" "No not really. The only friend I need is you" he said as he squeezed my hand which was on his tummy. "Well, then do whatever your little brain tells you to" "Umm...really?" he said as he turned around and looked at me. "As long, as it is the right thing to do" I added. "O" he said as he turned away. I didn't know what he was trying to do. But I guess it wasn't the right thing to do since he turned away. "Well you should sleep its late" I said. "Okay, good night" he said. He held onto my arm tighter and I held him closer to me. I sniffed his soft hair. Smelled so good and clean. My baby was in my arms, in his little boxers. He kept moving around and he positioned himself right on my dick. His little butt hole was right on my dick. I could feel it through my shorts. And he knew it too. Then he began to slowly rock back and forward. I didn't stop him from doing anything. Part of me wanted to see where this would go. Then, he lifted my hand from his stomach and moved it down to his little boy dick. He put it right on it. It was really hard. "Jon, what are you doing?" I asked. "nothing" he answered. "You know this isn't the right thing right?" I asked. "Yeah, and I don't care" he answered. "Jon, why are you doing this?" I asked. "because it feels good" he answered. "Umm...well not just because things feel good you can do them" I knew I didn't make much sense. But I was getting too many sensations to focus on my speech. "Aaron I love you. Sex is ok as long as I love you isn't it?" he asked. I couldn't believe my little Jon was talking about sex in such a calm way. "Jon, I love you so much. That is why I can't do that you again" "Aaron, I don't get it! I don't GET IT!" he said as he got up and sat on the bed. I sat up with him and looked at him. I hugged him. He pushed me away. "Jon what's wrong?" "You been doing this a lot. You keep telling me it's not right. That you can't and I don't get you Aaron" he said angrily. "Jon, keep it down" I said. I caressed his face, he turned away. "Jon, you are younger okay. I love you too much. I cant hurt you." "You wont be hurting me! You didn't care about it when you had sex with me before why do you care now?" "because Jon. I realized I loved you too much. I don't know if that's what you really want. What happens when you grow up and realize you don't like it anymore?" "Aaron, that's what I want NOW. Why does it matter what I'm going to like later. If its what I want now don't worry about what I want later" he looked straight into my eyes. "Jon, ok look. every time I see you, naked, or touch you down there. I think of what happened ok. I cant help it. I think of that ass hole doing stuff to you. And it hurts me okay. I don't want to be that okay" "But your not. You love me, right?" "Yes I do" I answered. "Prove it" he said. The kid was making so much more sense then I was. He knew what he wanted. He knew what he felt, for the moment at least. Why couldn't I be so simple minded. Why couldn't I just put everything behind. "Jon, I love you" I said. I grabbed his cute face, and I kissed him. He softly let himself fall on the bed with me on him. Our tongues were wrestling and he was using his mouth in ways he hadn't used it before. Something felt different. I started touching his little stomach and I was massaging parts of his body. He was putting a lot of effort to. It was not just me doing everything any more. I had to stop for a little while and look at him. "Jon, what happened. Who changed you?" I asked. "What do you mean?" he asked. "You never kissed me like this before" I said. "That's because I didn't know I loved you" "Jon, please, what if your parents walk in?" "Why would they? They are asleep." "And if they do?" "We can hear them coming Aaron" "Jon, do you really want to have sex?" "I don't know. Sometimes I do, sometimes I don't. but when I'm with you, like this, I get so weird" "Jon, can I just hold you?" I asked. "Yeah" he said. I flipped him so that he was lying on top of me. He hugged me and rested his head on my chest. I held him tight to me, in a few days, I was not going to have him as much as I would like to. "Jon, I don't want to loose you again okay" I said. "Okay you wont" he said. I massaged his back, and played with his hair for a long time. When I felt his body relax and his breathing slow down, I just held onto him. I kissed the top of his head. I loved him so much. I relaxed and thought about how maybe it wasn't too bad for Oscar to not be with me. I mean after all, Jon did prove that he wasn't going to let anyone else mess up or friendship. I fell asleep with the boy of my dreams in my arms. The next morning when I woke up, he was still in my arms. He was still asleep and both him and I had a boner. I could feel his on me but mine was between his legs. I sort of worried about maybe his mom coming into his room. I looked over at the door, and his shirt was still in front of the door so I knew his mom hadn't been in the room. My boner went down after a little bit but his was still up a few minutes after mine went down. He was a little bit more upwards from where he started, but he was still holding onto me. I slowly tapped his shoulder, he didn't wake up. I rubbed his back and then after a little bit, he looked up. "Good morning" I said. I looked at the time. It was only 9. We didn't have to be at school until 11 so decided to go home and make him some breakfast. "Jon, why don't we get ready and go to my house and have some breakfast." I said. "Lets just get ready over there" he said as he sat up. The thing is, he sat with his ass on my dick. "Um...okay lets go" I said. He sort of jumped up and down slightly, and it got my senses going. He got off real quick though. But still smiled at me. He threw some shorts on and a t shirt. I got dressed quickly and grabbed our stuff. Well his backpack and my clothes. We sort of cleaned his room up and headed down to the door. When we got to my house, I started some eggs with bacon while he sat and watched me. Then he grabbed place mats, forks, and juice for both of us. I smiled at him. He was making me fall deeply in love with him. Why did we have go different ways just when we were getting along so well. I served our plates and he hugged me out of nowhere. "You are the best chef I know" he said with a huge smile. "You are the BEST customer I have" I answered him. We had a good time just having breakfast. We both knew we were enjoying our last morning meals before school. It was so odd. We weren't leaving each other because we were mad at each other. We just had different futures I guess. I guess we both had to go learn how to handle our fathers' businesses. I know that we had the weekends together, but come on, lets be honest. He has 2 days to be with his family. I'm sure that our hanging out days are going to be counted. "Jon, no matter what happens, I want you to know that you'll always be my brother and that I'll always be there for you." I said. "I wont ever forget. I love you" he said. I looked into his eyes. We both smiled. After washing the dishes and cleaning the kitchen, we went up to my room to get ready for school. He jumped into the shower while I shaved and washed my face. We kept conversation about both of us still calling each other every night just to say good night. And we promised each other to never forget about one another. When we did the switch, he didn't even bother to move out of the shower. He stayed with me. "You know, the switch, usually means one comes in, the other goes out" I said. "No Aaron, remember when you said to tell you when I trusted you completely?" he asked. "Yeah, I do" I said. "Well I trust you. I don't care if you see me naked, or if we shower together, or nothing. I love you" "Well I'm glad you trust me. But you already took a shower, why don't you go get dressed?" "Aaron, can I stay in here with you?" he asked. "Um...why?" I asked. "I don't know. To talk to you" he answered. I guess being there, in a shower stall, with him, naked, sort of made us feel as if we were finally sharing everything. Like we could tell each other everything. "Jon, I don't know, I feel bad" I said. "Why?" "Jon, I wasn't completely, honest with you" "What do you mean?" he asked. "Well, I, didn't do it with you for the first time" "You mean, sex?" "Yeah, that" "Hmmm...Uriel?" he asked. "Yeah..." I said as I looked down at the floor. "And Oscar?" he asked. "Um...yeah" I said again. "O" he said. "Are you, mad?" "No" he answered. "You aren't?" I was surprised. "No, Aaron, I did do it with you for the first time. But then I also did it with Oscar. And, well, Alex, he sucked my thing" he said as he looked down. "Wow, well I sort of saw Oscar coming, but Alex, why and how?" "Oscar, well, it just happened. I was mad at you, and then, well Alex, I don't know. He talked me into it. But I promise, I thought about you right after. I felt bad, and I told him to never talk to me again" "Jon, did you like it with Oscar?" I asked. "A little, we didn't really do much. He just, you know, got on me, and well yeah, but it wasn't all that cool" "Jon, I'm sorry. I really am" "Me too, well, we're even huh?" he asked. "Yeah, we are" I said. I hugged him and he hugged me. The water was hitting our bodies as we held onto each other. It was the best feeling in the world. I had Jon, my love, in front of me, in his birthday suit, and yet, all I wanted to do was hold onto him. "Well lets finish our shower" I said. He nodded his head yes. We finished up and he helped me clean myself and I helped him too. It was amazing. We got out real quick and got ready for school. We spent just a little too much time talking and hugging in the shower that we forgot about school. We literally ran to the car and I sped just a little bit to get him to school. I didn't care if I didn't make it on time, I had my ways around the school. When I dropped him off, he gave me a quick hug. "I'll see you after school?" he asked. "Am I picking you up?" "No, I'll meet you at your house okay" he said with a smile. "Okay see you then" I said. He got out of the car with a huge smile on his face. I couldn't help but to smile. Sure, I was going to go to a school far away, I was going to be far from my little buddy, yet, I felt as if everything was going to be just fine. Maybe that saying about you got to let go of what you love to let them be happy, maybe its true. Ever since I let him go, he's been coming back every time. Yeah, he slipped here and there, messed with Oscar and Alex, but I was not anyone to talk. He only slipped twice by choice, and once by pressure. Me, I've slipped one too many times. I got to school a few minutes late, but since I knew the guards, they let me in and I just had a fake not to my first class. The periods were shorter anyway. When my last period came, I sat next to Josh as usual. He seemed a little happier then usual, I didn't know why, but I just ignored it. Figured I'd find out anyway. We learned our subject for the day, then we had lab time for free. I went to my lab room and sat on the computer. I was going to work on my project when I realized I had a few days left anyway. What did I worry about. Josh walked into the room. "hey whats up" he said. "Not much" "Aaron, every day, I come in here, you talk to me. You are nice to me, yet, you wont ever give me a chance" he said. "Josh, we always go over this. We have different paths. And anyway, dude, I'm going to another school. A private one" "Like, a boarding school?" he asked. "Yeah, I guess. I come back on the weekends" "Well that sucks, who will I talk to, our touch during class?" "Well hopefully someone who will actually give you a chance" I joked. "I guess, well man, we'll keep in touch right?" he asked. "Yeah, I hope so. Well at least I will try to keep in touch" I said. "It's all I ask" he said as he came and gave me a friendly hug. "For the record, I think you are nice guy and you'll eventually find the right person ok" "Thanks, and I hope you find the right person too" he said. "Thanks, I think I might have, but I'm not sure" I said with a smile. "Oscar?" he asked. "Umm...lets just get back to our project okay" I said. We finished right before the bell rang. Josh and I walked to our lockers and talked for a while. Then I walked him to his bus, and headed to my car. I wished I could have a better friendship with him, but the truth is that he might be another temptation. I couldn't have him around me much, because truly, he was really cute. I wouldn't mind messing around with him, so I guess the best thing to do is keep him at a distance. I was driving past Oscar's house for no reason, I just felt like driving by there. I didn't see him around, but then, as I was passing by the park, I saw him hugging Alex. I was infuriated at this. I gave him my all. I trusted him, I gave everything imaginable, I offered him my true love and friendship. And how does he repay me? By completely betraying me. I couldn't take it. I really wanted to go beat the snot out of Alex. But I held myself back, why waste my time. Lets be honest, he beat me. He must offer better things than I could offer. I drove around the block and I got to my house. I went inside, my parents where waiting for me. "Hey, so the school is waiting for our decision" my mom said as soon as I walked in. "Well, nice to see you too mom." I joked. "I'm sorry, we just really need to know." she smiled. "Yeah, I'm going." I said. I tried looking really excited. "Really? Are you really doing it because you want to go or because you think we're forcing you to go?" she asked. "No, I think it would be a good idea" I said. "What about leaving Jon behind?" "Well he's going to another school too. We'll see each other on the weekends I guess" I said. "O baby, if you guys are really friends you'll make it through this okay" she said as she hugged me. "Yeah, we will ma. He's my bro" I said as I smiled. "I know you will" she hugged me. "Well I'm going upstairs to my room okay" I said. "Okay we'll call you when dinner is ready" she told me as I walked upstairs. I went up to my room and I just relaxed for a few minutes. I thought about how everything could turn out. Man, its not like im going to miss anyone else at school. Yeah I talk to a lot of people but I can't really call everyone I know friends. In fact, I don't really have that many good friends at school. I'm realizing that maybe, I wasn't living to infamous high school life. I couldn't play soccer for a while, I wasn't really around for much, so, I lost any popularity I held at any point. Maybe a new school would be good. Fresh start, a chance to meet new people, I guess. Even though its an all boy school, I'm sure I can make lots of friends. Around 5:30ish my mom called me down for dinner. It was good to have dinner with mom and dad for a change. Usually I eat alone or out with Jon or someone. My parents were acting really cool again, I guess they feel weird to know that I'll be gone a lot now. I hate the idea of having to go so far to go to school. I have to pack my stuff and MY PARENTS have to drive me there on Monday mornings and get me on Friday nights. I think that's a pain in the ass. They were telling me how good this school was, and how I'm going to have my own room and stuff. They also told me I would have a room mate, but they wouldn't know who it is until I got there. But they told me that since they know I'm high maintenance that they are going to make sure the room is with someone I like and that its up to my standards. At least that meant a big screen TV and a computer and video games. I could live anywhere as long as I have that. After dinner I went up to the cushion room, I don't know but I just lied there. I didn't feel like doing anything. I didn't feel weird about not seeing Jon yet. I knew he probably was getting stuff done. We only had a few days before we had to get going to these new schools. I lied there thinking about how my life has changed in the past days. Why couldn't I live a life that almost never changed. I mean I didn't mind it, but I did mind the big drastic changes that usually occur in my life. Either way, I had to look forward to meeting new friends and trying new things out. A few minutes later, I heard the door open. I figured it was my mom coming in to say something so I didn't bother looking around. Then I felt someone jump on. I looked up and it was Jon. He smiled and giggled. "Hi" he said happily. "Hey! Why you so happy?" I asked. "I don't know. Because I'm here with you" he said. "Well, you're definition of happiness is messed up little man" I said as I hugged him. "Nope, as long as I get to see you at least once a week, I can be happy forever" "Do you really mean that?" "Yeah, why wouldn't I?" "I don know Jon. Sometimes you say things, and I'm not sure you know what the things you say mean" "I know exactly what I mean when I say things" he said as he held onto me tighter. "What are you going to squeeze me to death?" "Yeah, something like that" I looked at him, his smile, it sent shocks of energy through my body. He seemed to be happy. He didn't seem too affected by the change of schools and environments. "Jon, I'm going to miss being able to be like this with you" "You will Aaron, trust me. I will see you still okay. I'll see you on the weekends I promise" he said as he rested his weight on me. "Yeah, but what if you find another brother while you're in school" "I won't they are mostly all my age. I don't think they can be my big brothers" "Yeah, well you better not be messing around with all them boys okay" I said as I smacked his ass. "Hmm...no, my ass is all yours" he said joking around. "Are you serious? All of it" "Yeah, all of it. Butt hole and everything" he said as he giggled. I couldn't believe he just said that. "Well make sure you keep that butt hole away from everyone okay" I said. "Okay, only for you. If you ever want it" "Jon, why do you say that" "Because. You don't want it right now. Maybe when I'm older right?" he asked as he raised his head and looked at me. "Yeah, maybe when you are older" I agreed with him. "A day older? A year older or what?" he asked. "I don't know. Lets just say older" I said. "Okay" he said as he lied on me again. We stayed like that for a while. Just holding onto each other. Listening to each other breathe. Feeling our bodies inhale and exhale. I think I could stay with Jon like this forever. We took a half hour nap like that. I felt him fall asleep first and then I fell asleep myself. I woke up at like 7 and I looked at him sleep. Man, we had just made each other comfortable enough to fall sleep in the middle of the day. I heard the door bell ring from a distance. I hoped it wasn't anyone I knew because I just wanted to stay here with Jon. I heard footsteps towards the room. "I think he's taking a nap with Jon" my mom said to someone. "Thanks" I heard a voice say. It took me a while. Then I recognized it. It was Uriel. I shook Jon. He wouldn't wake up. Then I shook him again. He slowly opened his eyes. I pushed him off and he woke up completely. He smiled. "Why you push me" he asked. "Cuz..." I began to say but then Uriel opened the door. "Wake up lazy asses" he said. "We are awake, now at least" I said. Luis and Uriel sat down with us. They looked at both Jon and I with telescopic eyes. "How can we help you?" Jon asked. "Nothing, my mom came over to see your mom and we wanted to visit" Uriel said. "O wow that's cool." I said. "What are you guys up to?" Luis asked. I hadn't seen him for a while, so I noticed he was growing up. His face looked older, voice sounded a little older, he was still short, but overall, I could tell that puberty was kicking in hard on him. Uriel looked a little taller, his face a little more round, but overall, he still looked cute. "Nothing much really. We were worn out so we just took a nap" I said. "That's cool. Do you guys want to go play or something?" Uriel asked. "Sure, but what?" I asked. "I don't know. A video game or something. Unless you want us to join you guys and take a nap" he said with a grin on his face. I hope he didn't mean what I thought he meant. "I guess we can go play a video game" I said as I got up. Jon wasn't saying much. I guess he was still tired. Then it hit me. It was ironic that now that I was going to take a drastic step in my life, I had 3 of the most important people in my life in front of me. I just had to say something. "Wait, guys, I need to tell you something" I said. "Okay..." Uriel and Luis said in unison. Jon just looked at me. Then he got closer to me when I sat down. "Look guys, I'm going to go to a boarding school. My parents want me to go to a better school I guess. I guess I'll be gone Monday through Friday and well on my weekends I'll try to squeeze everyone as much as I can. But I just want to say that each of you mean so much to me. And I want you guys to know that even though I might not be able to see you guys as much as I would like to, I still love you guys with all my heart" I said. "Aaron, we don't really see each other anyway" Luis added. "I know, which is why I feel bad in the first place" I said. "No don't feel bad, its not just your fault that we don't see each other" Uriel jumped in. "And don't feel bad about me Aaron because I'll try my best to see you as much as I can" Jon jumped in too. "You guys, I love you so much" I said. "Okay cut the gay shit Aaron. You'll see us okay" Luis said. "Okay...well I guess. But, you know it'd be nice if I had you know, a hug" I said as I gave them a big smile. Uriel looked at me straight in the eyes. I didn't know what he was thinking. But, to my surprise, Uriel got up, came closer to me and hugged me. "Aaron, I'll be here for you whenever man, plus its not like you're going to like real boarding school that's like in another country are you?" he asked. "No, of course not. Its like 45 minutes or so from here" I said as I hugged him back. He smiled and then sat down. Then, out of nowhere, Jon jumped up and hugged me. "I'm your neighbor, so I'll see you no matter what okay. I promise" he said with a smile on his face. Then, Luis got up, and he pushed me down. I fell on the cushion and he jumped on me. He hugged me too. "If you ever call me, I'll be there. But since you NEVER do that's why I don't see you. So, if I call you and tell you to go visit me on the weekend, YOU BETTER DO IT" he said as he jumped on me and choked me. Both Uriel and Jon began laughing and then they both jumped on Luis. Now I was on the bottom getting crushed by 3 gorgeous boys. We all started laughing and play fighting. It seemed amazing to me how these 3 boys, who in a way had a competition, were laughing and playing around together with me. Its hard enough for Uriel to accept Jon around us, but I'm happy that now they are laughing together. Maybe things wont turn out to be that bad after all. "Okay, can we like go play now?" I asked. "O yeah, that!" Luis said joking around. "Yeah, I know you all want me, but come on, get off me" I said. The tree of them looked at me funny. I know they each thought of something different, yet, they all smiled. We got up, and fixed our clothes, and then headed down to the play room. I saw my parents having coffee with Uriel's parents, they seemed to be having a good time. Sometimes I wished that they could have been friends a lot sooner, that way me and Uriel could have spent MORE time together. But I learned that things happen for a reason, and they happen when the time is right. The four of us had a good time playing soccer on the xbox. We had a good conversation about whatever they brought up. Sometimes, they would bring up topics like kids or love, and I was amazed at how well they each understood the subject and how they all said that the didn't know what love was yet. But I was amazed when I noticed the looks on their faces as they said that. Each of them had been with me through stuff, they each knew a dark part of me, they each shared the most personal parts of their bodies with me, but most importantly, they each had a special place in my heart. I couldn't forget these boys. They each taught me special things, and a probably will continue showing me new feelings, I just have to learn how to not abuse of their own personal feelings. After a while, we stopped playing and just sat there talking. "Aaron, so, you don't feel scared of being in a new place?" Uriel asked. "Man, I'm so freaking scared. But, I got to be strong. Jon is going to do the same thing, and well, sometimes, new places mean possibly better things" I said. "Yeah, but it also means, new friends" Luis added. "And there are no girls...so..." Uriel said with a smile on his face. "So, there are girls at home." I said. "You don't really need girls anyway" Jon jumped in. "Yeah you do. Who are you going to fuck then?" Luis said. "No one dude. You don't need sex to be happy" Jon replied. Both Uriel and I were surprised at his answer. "You don't? so tell me. If you are dating, or if you ever dated a person. Have you fucked them?" Uriel asked. "Jon, don't answer that. And Uriel why would you ask him that sort of thing" I said. "No its okay. And Uriel, I haven't had sex, but I've done other things. And yeah its cool, but its not all about that dude. Its about caring about the person" Jon said. I was shocked and surprised, and honestly proud of him. "Wait, who have you done things with?" Luis asked. I hope he wasn't trying to make any connections. "This one girl I knew" Jon answered calmly. "You dated a girl?" Uriel asked. "Yeah, she gave me a bj, I touched her boobs and pussy" Jon said. "What! You did?" I asked. I wanted to know how he reacted. "yeah, it wasn't all that cool you know" he said. "How did it feel?" Luis asked. "You've never touched a girl before?" Jon asked. "Well, no not really." Luis blushed. "I have, its not that great" Uriel added. "Woah! You too?" I asked him. "Yeah, you weren't the only one I touch" he said smiling. "kidding just kidding" he added a few seconds later. Both Jon and Luis gave him a weird stare. I didn't know how to react. "Your sick man" was all I could think about. "Just playing. But for real. You guys, careful. don't mess around with guys. Even you get tempted" Uriel joked. I knew he meant what he said. At least towards me. "Don't worry we wont" I said. "right Jon?" I asked him. "Right" he agreed. We changed the subject to hanging out together on the weekends or something. I found that cool. Having Jon, Luis and Uriel together, hanging out, having fun. That would be cool. Uriels mom called his name. he knew it was time to go. He got up, and Luis followed. He came up to me and shook my hand. "Good luck I guess" he said. He did the same to Jon. Luis did the same. They both made me feel weird. As if they were trying to tell me something. I had no clue what. But I was just happy they wanted me to be happy. They just wanted me to be okay. What else could I ask for. They walked up the stairs, they both looked back at me. I loved their cute faces, smiles, and eyes. I couldn't believe, they both gave me everything they could possibly give. Then, when they were gone. I turned around, looked at Jon, and I hugged him. "Don't you EVER talk about a girl like that again!" I said. "I had to say something. I couldn't say it was you" he said with a smile. "So you never done that?" "Of course not! Ewww!" he said. I couldn't help but smile. "I love you so much" I said. "Do you really?" he asked. "Yeah I do" I said. "Okay, well so do I. but I got to go home now. I'll sleep over tomorrow okay" he said. "yeah" I said. "can you let go of me now so I can go?" he asked. He looked up at me and I stared at his beautiful face. "No, can't I keep you like this forever?" I asked. "I don't know, maybe" he smiled. I let go of him, he hugged me quick again, and ran up the stairs. I heard him say bye to my parents and I just sat down on the sofa. That was not bad at all. I felt as if I was saying good bye because I was moving away or something. In reality, I'd be back every now and then. I'd still see everyone. Its not that bad. Sure it'd take some time to get used to, but come on, maybe, I could find a real good friend at this school. I was a little tired, and I felt mentally exhausted. I don't know why. I felt as if I had just gone through a roller coaster of feelings. I was trying to be positive, yet negative things came to my head. I couldn't afford to loose Jon. But in a way, it could really test our friendship. I took a quick shower, did some homework, and I jumped in bed. I must have lied there for at least half an hour and still couldn't sleep. I didn't know what was wrong with me. I looked at the time and it was 10:30. Not too late actually. I sat on my bed listening to music, I guess it was too early to sleep anyway. My mom opened the door, she smiled, and sat with me. "How you feeling?" she asked. "Weird mom, I can't believe I'm..."I began to say, but I saw Oscar at my door. "You have a visitor" she said. "Okay" was all I could say. She walked out of the room and closed the door. Oscar walked up to me, and just stood there. "Um...how can I help you?" I asked. I didn't sound mean, just, surprised. "My parents had something really important to do. They called your parents, they said I could sleep over" he answered. "They didn't have Alex's number?" I asked. I don't know what took over me. "Aaron, he's not like you. They don't really know him that much. it's a school night. The only one they ever let me sleep over at was with you" "O I didn't know that" I said. I honestly didn't know what to do. I mean, we didn't really break our friendship, just, decided to go separate ways. It wasn't all that bad of a break up. "Aaron, I'm sorry okay. I know I fucked up. But why couldn't we just be friends?" he asked. I signaled him to follow me to the couch. I sat on the floor, he sat on the couch. "Oscar, when you love someone so much, its not easy having them near you, and not wanting to hug them, or kiss them" "Aaron, I know. But I thought we were better than that" "Yes Oscar, but look. How is he treating you now?" I asked. "Great. He's amazing." was his reply. "You guys fuck a lot?" I asked. "Yeah" he answered shyly. "Well, as long as you keep doing that, he'll by nice. The moment he gets sick of you or you sick of him, he'll treat you like shit" "Aaron, why don't you want me to be happy?" "Oscar, I don't want anything BUT THAT! I couldn't think of anything else I'd want for you but happiness. I love you man" "Dude, come on. I'm only a kid okay. I don't know what love is" "Yeah, I guess. I should have thought of that. Look oscar, it doesn't matter okay. I guess we can try the whole friends thing" I said. I knew it didn't make a difference. I was going to go to school anyway. "Really? Are we going to hang out again like we used to?" he asked with some excitement on his face. "Yeah...im not sure about that. See, I'm going to this school, I wont be here Monday thru Friday I guess" I said. "You are going too?" he asked. "Well if you're referring to Jon, yes me too. Different schools, but same concept yeah" "That sucks. Do you really have to go?" he asked. "Why not? He's leaving. He's the only one who cares about me right now, so why should I be here" "Aaron, I care about you too you know" "Not as much as you care about Alex" "Aaron, you were awesome. I wont ever love anyone like I loved you" "Cut the crap okay. You chose him, you hurt me, you obviously like him better" "No Aaron, I don't. and believe me, sex was WAY better with you" "Why do you have to tell me that!" "I don't know. I'm sorry okay. I just wanted you to know" "Oscar, I'm sorry I wasn't good enough okay" was all I could say. I got up and went to my bed. He followed me to my bed. "Aaron, you were the best" "Ok, well then why did we break up?" "Because, Aaron, you don't love me. I don't love you" he said as he sat on the bed with me. "You don't know that" I fought back. "Yes, I do" he said. "I gave you my all" "Not your love. You love Jon" he said. "What? Where do you get that?" "Aaron, you called me Jon once. You dream about him. You say his name while you sleep" "I do?" I was surprised. "Yes, and I can tell okay. You are super happy when he's with you, and super sad when he's not. You and me broke up, yet you are okay, you are happy, but if Jon stops talking to you, your world ends" he said. The kid had a point. "Oscar, that doesn't mean I love him okay" I said. "Aaron, yes it does. Just fucking tell him you love him. He loves you back" he said. "You don't know that" "Yes I do. He told me before. He's just scared" "Why are you telling me this?" "Because Aaron, think about it man! Why would I be with you if you don't love me. If you love Jon, he loves you, then you should be together" "You are one weird kid" "Well, I just couldn't tell you that. Plus, Alex really cares about me" "You sure about that?" I asked. "We didn't have sex until after I said I was ready. He never pushed me" "Okay, well that's cool I guess. I just don't, get it man. I thought we loved each other" "Yeah me too, but then Jon told me he loved you. Then I noticed weird things, and well you know" "Oscar, I'm sorry I was an ass" "I'm sorry I should have told you in the first place" "Well, too bad I'm going to be gone a lot" "It's okay, we can work something out right?" he asked. "Yeah, of course." I agreed. I felt so much better. "So, what do I have to sleep on the floor?" he asked. "No, jump in" I said. I turned off the lights with a cool new remote I had installed. He took off his pants and he had shorts under. I grabbed him and hugged him when he got in the bed. "Aaron, I'm taken" he said. "But I'm not" I joked. "True..." he looked at me with, questioning eyes. "But...its not right" I added. "Yup" he smiled. I still held onto him though. Wow, he was gorgeous. But what made him even more gorgeous was the fact that he sacrificed what he believed was love, in order to let me and Jon be happy. Of course, he has no clue that me and Jon know about each other, but still. Either way, I felt good holding onto him, and feelings his beautiful body. I just hope that Alex was taking care of him as much as I did. We talked about school, and winter break, and what we were doing. I told him we'd be leaving right after new years ever. In fact we had two weeks of hanging out if he really wanted to. The thing is he told me he was going on vacation so he wouldn't be able to. Eventually we fell asleep, once again, in each others' arms. It felt, so good. ********************************************************** The last day of school was nothing special. Well, last day before winter break. It was half a day and it wasn't all that great. Oscar and I began talking a lot. It was a lot different. We called each other a lot in the last few days. He told Alex that it was okay for me to know, that I would help out if it be needed. In a way, Alex turned out to be, pretty cool. I guess, everyone changes, and well he's one of those people that changed. I spent a lot more time with Jon, we went Christmas shopping together, got new outfits. We tried to spend as much time as we could together. We even spent some of Christmas eve together, and Christmas day we hung out in the afternoon. He bought me a shirt that said, the worlds best big brother along with a watch and a shirt. I bought him a customized iPod video and customized jersey. He loved it. But as I was fearing, the time for us to be alone, together, was becoming, rare and rare. It was now 2 days before we left to the new schools. Tomorrow was new years eve and the party was to be at my house. Everyone was invited. My parents went all out and rented out heated tents to be outside. I swear the tents held a temperature of 70 degrees inside. I was amazed. I mean outside it was almost below zero. Anyway, I was sitting in my room, it was late at night, and I was thinking of who I was going to be with more. Of course, Oscar was going to be here, Jon was going to be here, I knew Uriel might show up with his family and maybe Luis. I wasn't too sure though. I knew the party was going to rock. Then I looked over to the side of my room where my bags were all packed and ready to go. It honestly, hurt to see them. I was, so good up until I realized it was only a few days away. Then I sat there and thought about my year. It had been, full of surprised, amazements, sadness, happiness...but most importantly, of love. I had discovered the wonders of love. In the course of a few months, I realized how fast things can change, and how much you can mean to someone and how much they can mean to you. That night I went to bed rejoiced. The new year only meant better things to come. that's the way I had to think of it. I can't go around saying its going to suck. No. hopefully, it will all be alright. The next morning, everything was chaos. The catering people were here, the DJ, the decorating people, EVERYONE. I was really busy. I helped around doing everything. I had to go do some last minute shopping, but it was all good. The house looked amazing. Plus some people came in to put plastic all over the floors and carpets to take care of it. But the tent outside was more then big enough to hold the people. I mean we even covered up the pool, and it had some special flooring on top capable of holding up to 300 people. So we actually used that space to put the food there. Plus we used some of Jon's backyard too. It was going to be the party of the year I guess. Or what was left of it. Around 5pm, my parents went up to their room to get ready, and I went to mine. I went into my bathroom and got into the tub. I wanted to relax. A few minutes later, I heard someone walk into my room. I figured it was my mom. I didn't really care to lock my room since no one really came upstairs. I was surprised when I saw Jon walk into the bathroom. "Hey" he said with a huge smile. "Well nice of you to show, while I'm the tub." I joked. "Yeah, I locked the doors for you, that way no one else walks in on you" he said. "Thanks" "Aaron, can I get in?" he asked. "I'm naked in here man" I said. "So?" "Well...Jon..." "Aaron shut up" he said as he started undressing. I couldn't help but to watch. I'm not going to lie. The boy is beautiful. He's a work of art. The perfect amount of ass, the perfect skin, cute belly, and cute chest. What else could I ask for. He was in his boxers, and he dropped them. The most beautiful set of jewels were uncovered. "Stop staring, you'll make it shy" he said. "Sorry" I said as I blushed. He walked into the tub, but he did something I didn't expect. He instantly, got on me and kissed me. "Jon, what are you doing?" I asked. "We're going to do it on the last day of the year" he said. "We are?" I asked. "yep" he said with a devilish smile. "okay" I finally broke my defense. We kissed for what seemed to be seconds, but turned out to be minutes. I enjoyed having his skin on my skin, his body on my body, and his lips on my lips. We made love like we had never done it before. There was no rushing, just relaxed, tender, love. He never once complained, never once hurried me up, just enjoyed it. I had never felt anything like it. I also had the best orgasm ever imaginable. He was doing things that, for some reason couldn't be done before. He had me going for a good 20 minutes. But I loved the fact that it was nice and slow. It was just the right way. I couldn't explain what made it different. It could have been the dimmed lights, or the warm tub, or the simple fact that it was the last time we did it this year. Or maybe it was the fact that know we both understood that we loved each other. Either way, after we finished, we weren't tired, we weren't gasping for air, we were just lying in each others arms, taking in the great sensation that was tingling our bodies. He was in my arms, holding me. "Aaron, that was amazing!" he said with excitement. "Yeah, I know" I said. "Wait, does this mean that we are together?" he asked. "like, dating?" "Yeah, are we?" "Jon, I wish I could have an answer to that. I want to say yes, but is it the best thing to do?" "Why not?" "well we are going to different schools, only see you on the weekends" "Yeah, well, that's good enough isn't it?" "What about once we are at the school. What if you meet someone else?" I asked. "Dude, that will never happen. You are my favorite. You are my best friend. My brother. I will never find anyone better than you" he said with his awesome smile. "Jon, I love you with all my heart, but I'm scared that maybe being away from each other will not be good for a relationship" "what do you mean?" "We can be great friends, great brothers, but I don't know if we can...date" "Aaron, didn't you give Oscar a chance?" he asked. "Well...sort of...yeah..." "So then give me another chance. I won't do that Aaron" "How am I sure of that?" "Because I love you with all my little heart" he smiled again. "really?" "If I didn't, do you think I'd be in the tub naked with you?" "Well, I don't know. Jon, lets do something ok, lets just make a promise to each other. If we go to the school, and we see that we can work it out, then we can be whatever you want us to be. Until then, we're just best friends okay?" "Best friends...okay that works. But we can still do stuff?" he asked. "Yeah...we can still do stuff" I agreed. I just couldn't say no to him. As soon as I said that, he got up, pressed his body against mine, making his dick plop up right in front of my mouth. "Suck it" he said. This was the first time that he took charge. I had it right in front of me, legs open, leaned forward, I just couldn't resist. I took his almost 3 inches in my mouth. I played around with it in my mouth, making him moan slightly. I enjoyed every inch of his young penis. At that point there was nothing better to have in my mouth than Jon's sweet dick. He began doing humping motions and I began to play with his hole with my right hand. He started fucking my mouth and he even used his hands to make my mouth go faster. I'm going to have to say that I was very surprised at this. He was doing stuff that he'd never really done with me. I know for a fact that I didn't teach him this, and I don't want to even think about who did, but either way it was good. Since he was uncut, the tip of this dick was always covered by skin. But this time, I don't know how, his skin actually went back. Every other time he tried to pull it back, it hurt. But this time, I noticed that it went back without a problem. He began moaning louder which meant that he started to feel the difference of not having his tiny head covered up all the time. He fucked my mouth even faster until he started shaking all over. He gave out a small yelp as well. He pulled out of my mouth and noticed that his dick looked different. "what happened to me?" he asked. "Your skin went back for the first time" I answered. "I didn't even feel it" "I know you didn't it. But did you feel the difference?" "I don't know, all of a sudden it felt better then usual. Did I cum? Because I felt like I did." "No sorry, not yet Jon" I said as I hugged him. I kissed his ball sack and then he sat on me again. He hugged me. "I love you so much" he said to me. "You've said that so much lately, it really makes me feel like you meant it" I said. "I do mean it dumbass" he said as he kissed me. Then I looked over and grabbed the towel. "We have to get out of here man" I said. "Okay" We hurried up and got all dried up. We kissed each other quite a few times. We quickly ran to the closet and got dressed. We chose the nicest thing to wear since it was New Years. We didn't look all the same, but we were both wearing striped polos and jeans. We did our hair alike, and put on the same cologne. When we were in front of the mirror, he looked at me. "You're really hot Aaron" he said. "Um thanks. You're very cute too" I answered. "I hope I can be cool like you when I grow up" "Jon, as long as you make yourself happy...its all good" I said. "Then just always be with me okay" he said as he hugged me. "I will try my best bro" I answered. We put on our matching shoes and headed downstairs. We grabbed 2 drinks from the drink fountain and walked outside. Everything was decorated so nice, it almost didn't look like my house. He was so excited when he noticed all the cool little things. We sat outside at a table right by the door. We sat there looking around, the only people around were the DJ and his crew setting everything up. Jon kept asking questions about how all the different equipment worked. I answered all of this questions, but I couldn't help to loose focus. I kept looking at him, so cute, so handsome, and so sweet. He was mine. He had just given himself to me, and it felt like he was waiting forever to do so. I couldn't believe how lucky I was to have him by my side. Most importantly to have him tell me that he wanted to be by my side forever. We sat there chilling. We grabbed some snacks and just sat there talking. Sometimes, I'd have my hand under the table and he'd look for it and hold onto it. I thought that was totally cute of him. I looked at the time and it was 8pm. In about an hour people would begin to arrive. Jon and I walked up to the DJ and he let us play with some of their stuff. We even created our own light show and the guy said he'd use it tonight. We were both super excited. Then my dad had me call some of the neighbors to make sure that it was okay for the music to be played. All of them said it was fine, and some I didn't have to worry about because they'd be with us at the party and well of course the back door neighbors were Jon's parents so that wasn't a problem. Jon's parents arrived shortly and my dad and Jon's dad started getting some food ready for the early guests. Our moms were finishing up decorating some stuff. His brothers were sitting at a separate table drinking juice and playing video games. It was then that I realized that the life that I always dreamed of, came true. Yeah it came a few years too late, but it still came. When we were back at our table, Jon surprised me. He grabbed my dick under the table and started tickling me. I began to laugh. "Cut that out man" I said. "Well, then get me back" he joked. I discretely went under the table with my hand, and grabbed onto Jons little balls. I began to massage then and sometimes tickle him. He smiled, but he never laughed and no one even noticed a thing. Then he turned to look at me. "That's all you got?" he asked. when he said this, i looked around. no one was in view. I unzipped his pants, stuck my hand in there and began playing with his dick. He had a huge smile on his face, but then, I began to tickle the lower part of his balls. He insntantly jumped up a little bit and began to laugh. I quit that before someone noticed while they were walking by. We just chatted and snacked on a few things we found around the tables until we saw Oscar come through the door. He sat with us at the table and more and more people arrived after him. "Whats up guys?" he asked. "Not much, just chilling and you?" I asked. "Same man" he answered. "Well, who else is coming?" "Is Uriel and Luis coming?" Jon asked. "Uhh...yeah I don't know about that. I mean they have their own thing going every new years" i answered. "Okay, well that's cool" Oscar said. I knew he didn't get along ALL that great with them so it wasn't that much of a difference to him. "So what do we do?" Jon asked. "I don't really know. It's only like 10, the real party doesn't start until later, do you want to go up to your room to hang?" Oscar asked. "Yeah, that's cool" i answered. We passed through the kitchen and a lot of people were beginning to arrive. A lot of my cousins. They went straight outside and started playing with whoever they found. Oscar lead the way to my room. I don't know why but he looked really good today. I mentally smacked myself. How could I be saying that after our conversation not too long ago. As soon as we got to my room, Oscar sat on the couch and I sat next to him. Jon went straight for the computer and began playing games. He seemed comfortable. I liked this, the beginning of the year and i'd be with the two boys that meant so much to me. I don't mean that Uriel wasn't important to me, but it seems as if, he was the window that opened everything up. If it wasn't for me falling in "love" with him, I would have never noticed that i could love Jon or Oscar as well. "Aaron, did you like this year?" Oscar asked. "Dude, this year was amazing. I got to meet you, Jon, and I went to Miami, I think it's been one of the best years i've ever had" I answered. "Yeah, but you also got into some trouble. You got jumped by my stupid cousin, you ended up in the hospital because of Danny, and well the whole Alex thing" "Oscar, that stuff...it's just tests. I overcame them, now i'm here. I'm stronger and healthier." I looked over at Jon, he seemed to be weirded out at the fact that Oscar and I were talking about what had happened. "Aaron, if you could go back in time, and change things around or I don't do, do something a different way, what would it be?" he asked. I honestly thought about it for a bit. I couldn't find anything I would do different, I mean i made mistakes and i ended up getting hurt, but i think all that stuff was necessary for me to learn things and to experience things that would teach me valuable lessons. "Oscar, i don't think i would do ANYTHING differently. everythign i did, i did for a reason. There is absolutely nothing i would change. Because, if you think about it, in the end, i have not one, but two great friends who will hopefully stick with me til the end" i said as i looked at both Jon and Oscar. Just as i said that, Jon got up and quickly walked up the couch and he jumped on me. I sort of caught him and he sat on me. Oscar just smiled. "Yeah, thats right Oscar. He's mine" Jon joked. "You faggots!" Oscar joked. "No seriously, he's mine" Jon said. "No huh? Really?" Oscar asked. "Yeah, today, we started something new. Right Aaron?" Jon asked me. I didn't know what to say. This was Jon talking to my EX. Telling him that i was his. Its kind of weird if you think about it. "Umm..." was all that came out of my mouth. "Aaron, it's okay. Jon and I already talked about it. We had fights over it. Thats why sometimes we didn't talk. He kept telling me that he loved you, then he kept saying he didn't know. Until i told him i loved you, and then, we got mad, we said the best one wins. I WON. But you know, i felt bad for him so i gave you back" Oscar said as he laughed. "Shut up! you didn't win. i just fucked up" Jon said as he hugged me. "Okay, you know guys. I'm not just a toy. What you think you can just pass me around" i said. "Why can't we both have you?" added Oscar. "Because, it's wrong" Jon jumped in. "Yeah, i guess" Oscar agreed. Just then we heard a knock on the door. My mom came into the room. "You guys go downstairs. The party is downstairs" she said and closed the room. "Well, lets go downstairs" Jon said. He got up and grabbed my hand. Oscar just started at us. "You know, that's going to take some time getting used to" Oscar said. "Shut up. You know you do stuff with Alex" Jon fired back. "Yeah, but none of you EVER did stuff with Alex. And its weird seeing people i did stuff with together" Oscar answered. "Wait,,, you two did stuff?" i asked. "Well...it was at that time when...well you know...we didn't talk to you." "At least, i know your both nice kids and didn't hurt each other" i said. "What...Jon hurt me? with his thing? Please" Oscar joked. "Shove it!" Jon fired back. Jon walked next to me until we were going down the stairs. Then he went in front of me and pretended like he was quickly going down the stairs. By now there was plenty of people walking around and talking with each other. I had never seen so many people in my house at one point. Well i know most of them were outside but still, it looked packed. Outside there was tons of cars parked around the block. I didn't know that my parents knew this many people. We walked to the outside and looked for an open table. To all of our surprise, we saw a table where Uriel and Luis were sitting. "Dude they did come" Jon said with excitement. "That's cool" Oscar said. I knew he wasn't so happy with the news. We walked over to the table and i sat next to Uriel. Later on some of my cousins joined us. I knew that eventually the blood between Oscar and Uriel would thin down and they could possibly have a good time together. As we were sitting down and doing our handshakes and what not, my dad walked up to the DJ booth and grabbed the mic. "Good night everyone. I want to thank everyone who came over to our new years party. Nothing makes me happier then having the people I love with me at such an important day. I hope you enjoy everything i have prepared for you. Thanks" he said. Then, a lot of people dressed in all white stuff came around with dishes of food. They placed cups of drinks and plates full of yummy food in front of people. I noticed that it was cooked at our restaurant because i recognized every single one of the plate. i knew what each had and everything. Dinner with the boys of my dreams was amazing. It wasn't just one boy, nor was it just 2 boys, not three...but all 4 of them. Sitting a few inches away from each other. without saying anything bad to each other. I mean of course there were a couple more boys but they were cousins of mine so they didn't count. The conversations kept changing topic and everyone was having a good time. I don't think that I've ever felt so comfortable with the 4 of these amazing boys being so close to each and talking to each other. I took one look at Jon. He was glowing out of all four. There was something about him. His smile, his cute nose, the way he blinked his eyes when he talked, his cute cheeks, awesome eyes, or just his cute ears. I don't know what it was about him. He just caught my eye. Then I realized I never really had all four of these boys, together, well dressed, having a good time and talking to each other. I've seen them together, but they all had their own thing going, they didn't exactly interact with each other much. I always felt tension, but today, was different. After everyone finished eating, my dad made a toast. Everyone got up. It was a weird, nostalgic feeling that took over me. This year was so important to me. I looked around me and I smiled when I saw Uriel, Jon, Luis and Oscar. They all smiled back at me. I'm so glad I met every single one of them, and shared something special with every single one of them. The party lasted forever. We were laughing so hard. Everyone was drunk and having a great time. The actual turn of the year was also amazing. Nothing but whistles and hugs and people cheering. It was like nothing I've ever seen before. I hugged every single one of those boys, and each one gave me a warm and cozy feeling. We were having a great time. At one point we all got up and started dancing for no reason. We weren't even dancing with partners until some of my cousins and friends started making us dance with them. The funniest one was Jon because he was so scared. It was the best party ever. Time just flew. All of us hung out all night and joked. Uriel and Oscar actually developed a pretty good friendship. They were joking and chatting all night. It was as if they never disliked each other in the first place. While everyone was dancing and having a good time, I went inside to go to the bathroom. I went to the bathroom in the basement because I felt more comfortable there. I didn't notice anyone following me until I was about to walk into the bathroom. "Aaron" I heard Jon's voice. "Yeah?" I turned around. "I need to pee" he said. "Well...go" I said. "But you're going" "We can share I guess" I said. We both looked up the stairs and no one was coming. We walked into the bathroom. He turned to look at me. "I'm so glad I'm spending this time with you" I said. "Me too" I just couldn't hold myself back. I hugged him, and that lead us to a kiss. Our first kiss of the year. I didn't care if it was in a bathroom. "I love you" he said. "I love you too" I said back to him. I gave him another hug. Then we both stood by the toilet and did our business. It was so cool that we no longer felt that weird barrier between us. It was amazing to feel so comfortable with each other. Who really gets to share a bathroom with someone and truly not be bugged about. I'd say no one. He didn't exactly shake all the liquid off so I took some toilet paper and dried his thing for him. He just smiled. We washed our hands together, then I told him to wait. I slowly opened the door. There was no one coming. I signaled him to come with me and we walked up the stairs. It was still hard to deal with the fact that yeah, I'm finally feeling that connection with Jon, but in a few hours, we'd be far away from each other for long periods of time. Could we really make our friendship slash relationship work? I couldn't help but feel a little sad at the fact that I was going to have to not see the boy I love so much and then when I do see him to know that eventually we have to pack up and go split ways again. That was a scary thought for me. Jon and I joined our table again. "So where were you guys?" Oscar asked. "We went to get something inside" Jon answered. "Right" Luis joked. "Hey Jon, you still have your zipper undone" Uriel pointed out. Jon fell for it though and well, I had to jump in. "Well, why were you looking there?" I said. I knew it would turn the heat on him rather then the heat on Jon and me. "Yeah you faggot" Luis yelled at Uriel. The party went on and everyone was trashed or close to being trashed. I don't think that I had ever danced so much with random people, laughed or joked around as much as I did that night. It didn't matter that I was hanging out with a bunch of little boys. They were like family to me at this point. At roughly 5am in the morning some guests began to leave. The other ones were either too drunk to leave, or having too much of a good time. By that time only Uriel and I were fully awake. We were lying on the couches in the living room so it was comfortable for them to sleep. Luis was starting to snore and Oscar and Jon were both already half asleep and my cousins were mostly on the floor lying down snoring. My mom came into the living room looking for something. "It's late, why don't you guys grab some blankets and sleep upstairs in the loft" she said. "Umm okay" I agreed. I looked over at the now sleeping guys and I kicked some of them. "Well lets go get some blankets" I said as I turned to Uriel. "I guess" he agreed. We both got up and went upstairs to the closet. "Aaron, do you really have to go to this school?" he asked. We were in front of my room as he asked this. "Yeah, I guess so why?" "Just curious" "What, are you going to miss me? Haven't you found anyone else to play with?" I asked. "It's not about that. I haven't really done anything with anyone since the last time with you" "How come?" I asked. "It hasn't come up." "What?" I was surprised. "I'm not going to mess around with anyone you know. I'm not a slut" "O I'm sorry. I didn't mean it like that" "Aaron, sometimes I wish that we could have worked it out" "why do you wish that?" "Because I loved having you around me all the time" "Well, we tried and realized it wasn't for us. Hopefully soon you'll find someone you really care about" I said. "I care about you...just not like WOAH I love you so much" he said as he smiled. "Well I love you don't get me wrong. Just not as a partner" "Do you want to kiss for the last time?" he asked out of nowhere. "Uriel, I don't really want to." "Am I not hot enough?" he asked. "Uriel, you're beautiful. Its just that I have learned to have other feelings for you. Not just lust" There was no one around and I knew it was a little weird for us but I don't know, part of me wanted to be with Uriel again. He was honestly beautiful. I still couldn't forget the awesome sexy ass he had on him. I smiled at him, he smiled at me. Then out of nowhere he pushed me to the wall. He got real close to me, I just started into his eyes. Those beautiful hazel eyes. He moved into me, our lips touched. We kissed. After a little bit I pushed him off. "No dude, its not right" I said. "it was just one last kiss Aaron" he said. "Okay well there you go. Last kiss" "Hey, answer something. Is Oscar really the one you love?" he asked. "No he's not. Me and Oscar are not together" I said. "O just thought I'd ask" "Let's grab the blankets" I said as I opened the closet door and handed him 2 blankets. We walked over to the cushion room and he helped me push a lot of the little couches and stuff to make a comfortable sleeping place. There was at least 8 of us so some of us were going to be near others. When we were done setting that up, he came up to me. "No matter what Aaron, I still think you are awesome. I love you" he said. "Uriel, you're awesome too. I just wish you can find someone who can really love you" I smiled. "Yeah, me too" he agreed. We walked downstairs to where everyone was knocked out and we woke up every single one. The hardest to wake up was Jon. Uriel went ahead and led the rest of the sleeping guys up to the room and I stayed behind to wake Jon up. "Hey wake up buddy" I said. "What?" he asked all lost about it. "Wake up" "Carry me" "Umm...okay" I said. I slowly picked him up. He held onto me and wrapped his arms and legs around me. I held onto him by his butt. I walked up the stairs into the room. Everyone was pretty much on a spot on the floor with some blankets. Uriel was by the door and when he saw me come in with Jon he moved a little to make space for us. I set Jon down and then headed up to close to door. Uriel didn't do anything, he moved away from Jon and he patted the floor next to him so that I'd sleep there. I took a quick look around and found Luis with my cousins and Oscar with another one of my cousins on the couch. It was weird that everyone separated yet we were still all together in the same room. I got in between Jon and Uriel, the place where I guess I belong. Jon quickly went back go sleep and he held onto me by my waist. Uriel could see it and he just smiled at me. "You guys make each other so happy" he said. "Um... I guess" I said back. "Aaron, sometimes I wish that I could be Jon" he whispered. "Why?" I asked. "So that I could be that age again know that you will take care of me and make me happy" "Well I can still do that" I said. "Not the same anymore" "Uriel, you're cute, your sweet and you have an AWESOME ass. I'm sure you'll find someone okay" I said. "What if I already did?" he asked. "What do you mean?" "What if that someone is you?" he asked as he got closer to me. I looked straight into his eyes. What was happening. No it couldn't be. Not again. No, I had just shared an awesome feeling with Jon not so long ago. I couldn't be cheating him on already. No, no, I couldn't. "Uriel, I can't be that one. I don't think I love that much" "But you do love me a little bit right?" "I think you're nice and sexy and cute, but I don't that I'd like to be in a relationship with you again. Specially not a long distance one" "I don't get you. You did this to me last time! Why the heck not?" he asked. "Shhh..." I hushed him. "well why?" he whispered. "Because, I don't want to be your fuck buddy" "You're not my fuck buddy okay" "O really? What do we do every time we are alone?" "Talk..." he answered. "No we usually end up fucking" I said. "Okay, so we might just like fucking a lot" "Uriel, look, why don't you hook up with Oscar?" "Oscar? Is he...gay?" "Yeah, didn't you know?" "I sorta did. I thought you and him were together" "No we are not. You guys can work it out" "No, I don't think I can do that. It will remind me of you" "Exactly." "Wait, how did you find out he was... did you guys?" "Well...long story okay. But yeah, we experimented" "I knew it! I knew something fishy was going on!" "Well...you can talk to him about it but just be very discreet okay" "Okay...well he is kind of cute" Uriel said as he looked over at Oscar. "Kind of?" I asked. "Okay he's very cute." he smiled. "You know usually I'd freak out if I heard you say someone else was cute, but you know what, I care about you so much that I'll I want to do is see you happy" I guess nothing would make me happier then for those two to make each other happy. "I'll see what I can do about that okay" he said as he smiled. "Yeah that's cool. I hope it can work out" I said. "But...until then..." he began to say something but then he surprised me with another kiss. This one caught me completely off guard and his hands quickly went down to my private area. "Uriel...what the heck!" I said as quietly as I could. "Sorry man. I just can't help it" "Right okay" "I can't Aaron. Your sexy" he said with a smile. I couldn't believe he was still trying to do that to me. What was going on in his head. I thought we had just agreed to not do such things. "Uriel...I don't get you man. Why are you doing this?" "I don't know Aaron. I just do. I get these weird feelings okay. I just wish I knew who the heck took my place" "No one did. You just let your place go" I said. "I did? When?" "I don't know. You just did at one point" "Is it because I grew up?" "No, its not. I just think that maybe we have different paths to go through. I'm not saying that you and I aren't going to be friends. I just want to stop the touching and stuff. It's not good for either of us" "Just be honest Aaron. Is there someone your with right now?" he asked. "Yes...there is sorry" "Is it a girl?" he asked. "Yeah" I lied. I couldn't tell him it wasn't. he'd find out it was Jon and then I was in nothing but trouble. "Well I'm glad you found someone to be with" he said. "Uriel, what do you really want?" I asked. "I don't know. I guess I want someone to be with me and care about me" "Well...I think you'll find one soon okay" I said. "Yeah, but I don't know if that person will care as much as you did" "DO. I still do" "Okay...so still brothers?" he asked. "Brothers til the end" I said as I hugged him. He smiled and he hugged me back. We repositioned ourselves so that he was holding me from behind and I was holding Jon from behind. It was two different feelings I can't describe. Holding Jon was amazing, and being held by Uriel was also great. I lied on the floor thinking about everything that was in the room. Not to far from me was Luis. A kid who taught me that sometimes love can come and go. Then there is Oscar who gave me one of the best relationships anyone could ever have. And on both my sides were the two boys that changed my life. The two boys that taught me what love is. I guess...things happen for a reason. I just hope that Jon isn't just something that needs to happen in order for me to understand something. I really want him to stay around so that we can share our love forever. That night was amazing. I never felt more comfortable in my life. I also felt better when I woke up and felt Oscar at one side of my feet and Luis almost on my leg. It was weird being surrounded by 4 of greatest things that ever happened to me. When we all woke up, we started talking about the party and stuff. It was just relaxing because every one of us was still tired and worn out. My mom came into the room a few minutes later and told us to come down and eat some lunch. Slowly we all walked down to the kitchen. Some people were there but most were gone. We sat at a table outside and my mom served us some warm soup. After we all finished having some lunch my mom said that someone was here to pick up Uriel. He got up and he signaled me to follow him. Luis said bye to everyone and walked to the door. Uriel and I walked to the kitchen. No one was around and he pulled me to the family room. "What up?" I asked. "Just wanted to say good luck okay" he said. "Thanks man. It means a lot to me" I smiled. "And I also want to say that I'm sorry for what I did. I just don't know what I want" "It's okay man. Friends like us can get through anything" I said. "Okay" he said. "Hey don't get sad alright. I'm still going to see you" "Its not that Aaron. I know you're going to find other friends. You're going to mess with them. And what...I'm just going to be here waiting to see when you call" "Uriel, you're my bro. you're my best friend. I'm going to call you every time I can" I said. "Okay whatever" he said. "Hey...come here" I said as I hugged him. He looked up at me. "I promise" I said softly. "Okay" he said softly. Then he turned around and walked away. I went back to the table and Oscar was on the phone. He too had to go. "Well, you guys good luck. I hope you don't find better friends wherever you go" he said. "Thanks. And I promise I'll still keep in touch" I said. "Me too" Jon added. Oscar got up and walked inside the house. Jon followed us. "Well Jon have a good time man. Good luck" Oscar said to Jon. They did their hand shake and then Jon walked back outside. It was funny how their friendship was that simple. "Well, Aaron, I hope you have fun man." he said. "Dude, I'll still see you okay" I said. "Yeah, I know but it wont be the same. I just hope you and Jon actually stay together" "Well...thanks." I said. "Thanks for everything" he said. "No...thank you" I said. We looked into each others eyes. I looked around...no one. He looked around...no one. We both leaned in and kissed one last time. It lasted one second but it touched every part of my tongue. "Well...thanks for that last kiss" I said. "It was...my pleasure" he smiled. He grabbed his coat and walked away from me. I touched my lips. Why did that kiss feel so...different. We hadn't kissed in a while but it made me feel as if we shared our first kiss once again. I shook my head and walked outside again. Jon and I spent the whole day with my family talking and laughing and stuff. His parents came back for the reheating of the food and we partied once again. No one left until around 9pm that night. The last to leave were Jon's parents. They were talking to my parents about the big day tomorrow. Neither Jon or I were that excited about it. We were sitting in the living room while my parents and his were helping the cleaning clew clean the party leftovers. "Jon, how do you feel?" I asked. "Scared" he answered. "Me too" I said. "Aaron, please don't forget about me okay" he said. "I wont EVER forget about you little man" "Okay I wont either" he said. Just then my mom and his mom walked into the living room where we were sitting. They were whispering something between each other. I couldn't really make out what they were saying. They were smiling though. "So Jon, are you going to sleep over?" his mom asked. "Can I?" he asked. "Sure, we are going out for late dinner. You think you guys can handle being home alone and not throw a party?" my mom asked. "No mom, I think I'm all partied out" I said. "Okay well don't you party too hard. Remember tomorrow is your big day" my mom said. "Yeah, we're not forgetting" I said. We walked up to my room and sat on my bed. "Jon, it feels really weird knowing that tonight is one of the few nights that we will be able to spend together" I said. "Aaron, what was going on with you and Oscar today?" he asked. "What do you mean?" "I don't know, it was like, you were talking secretly." "Jon, we had a very long friendship, and we were just talking about how it changed" "Well, umm why did it change?" "I don't know. I guess we let someone get in between" "Alex I know." he said. "Yeah, well I'm going to shower so that I can sleep better" I said. He just sat there thinking. I walked up and went to the closet to get some clean pajamas. I looked outside the window and saw the sparkling white snow on the floor. It was beautiful. The last few days, they were full of realizations. The most important thing was that I know now that Jon feels the same thing I feel for him. I grabbed my towel and walked into the bathroom. I didn't even realize that he wasn't with me. I started undressing when the door opened slowly. He poked his head in. "Can I take one too?" he asked really sweet. "Sure if you really want to shower" I answered. "Yeah" he said as he walked in and locked the door. I stopped undressing and grabbed some candles from the closet in the bathroom. He helped me put them around the bathroom. Then we lit them all. We turned off the light. Funny thing is that neither of us really spoke, we just lit the candles. After they were all lit, we turned off the lights. Now the bathroom was lit by nice, gleaming light, not too bright, but not too dark. We finished undressing and I turned the water on. It was nice and warm when I stepped in. he followed me. "I like it better now, its not too bright" he said. "I know, and they relax you I guess" I said. We let the water hit our bodies, we relaxed and said nothing. We started washing our hair and our bodies. "So the party was pretty cool huh?" he asked. "yeah, it was pretty fun" We talked while we showered. And neither of us had a boner or anything. We were just completely comfortable taking a shower together. Then it hit me, it was the last shower we'd probably share for a while. "Did you like that everyone was together?" I asked. "Yeah, I think its cool that Uriel and Oscar are good friends now" he answered. "Jon, do you realize this is probably one of the last times we'll be able to shower together" I said. "I know. So maybe we should, you know, enjoy it" he said with a grin. "But we are enjoying it" I said. "No...but I mean, really enjoy it" I got the hint. "Hmm...okay. Hold up" I said. I closed the tub drain and I sat down. "Here, sit here with me" I said. He sat on my legs but he sat facing me so our dicks were touching. It was an automatic hard on for both of us. We looked into each others' eyes and smiled. It was quite comfortable. "Aaron, I don't want to be far from you" he said. "Hey, remember what we promised. No matter what, we're still going to see each other" I said. "yeah but how do I know that I'll mess up. What if I make friends and you get mad" "Jon, you can make as many friends as you can." "Yeah, but I don't want to lose you. I don't want to talk to any other friends" "Look, I love you. But I wasn't you to be happy. And if you EVER meet anyone else who makes you happy then I would rather you be with that person" "Well you make me happy. You are the only one I want to be with" he said as he hugged me. When I felt his little arms go around my body I used my arms to pull him to me. Now we were completely on each other and we kissed. We played with each others' tongues for quite a while. I couldn't get enough of that sweet mouth or those sweet lips of his. Top that off with having his soft body on my legs and his hard dick on my dick, it was like nothing I had ever felt before. We didn't stop making out until the tub was almost full. I slowly pushed him off. "Turn the water off" I said. He got on his knees and crawled and turned off the water. But when he turned away I saw his sweet ass. I couldn't wait. He turned around and again we were kissing. But this time he was in between my legs. We kissed for a long time again. There was just something about his lips and tongue that made me want to breathe through his mouth endlessly. I signaled him to get up and he did. Now I was on knees. He knew what was going to happen now. He slowly grabbed onto my head and I took his boy dick in my mouth. I licked it all over and he was shaking with pleasure. He fucked my mouth faster and faster and I began to massage his butt hole. While I still was sucking his boy tool I grabbed the soap and began to lubricate his hole. He began to moan even louder when my fingers were around his hole. "OOOO Aaron, I love you" he said. "Mmmmm...mmmmm" was all that could come out of my mouth. When he began to go too fast and start to shake I stopped sucking and licking and I got up. I kissed him and he had a big smile on his face. "Woah! That was soo good please do it again" he said. "You almost finished" I said. "No I didn't. what are you talking about" "Nothing" I said. I forget he didn't know the right sexual terms. Then, he got on his knees. Usually I didn't make him suck me because he didn't' like it all that much. But he went right to work. As soon as his mouth engulfed my dick I felt like I was in heaven. The warmth of his tongue and mouth made my whole body tingle with pleasure. He bobbed his head back and forth and he was really working his those lips. He hadn't been blowing for more then 2 minutes before I was ready to blow. "Stop stop" I said as I pulled his head away. "Why? Did I do something wrong?" he asked as he looked up. "No of course not. You just did it SO good that I almost cummed in your mouth" "Why didn't You!" he asked. "Because" I said. I lied back down on the tub. "Now, let's get down" I said. He smiled again. He slowly positioned himself on top of my dick and he plopped down as soon as he felt the tip. "AHHHH" he yelled quietly. "Take it easy" I said as I held him. I repositioned myself so that I was sitting and leaning against the tub. This made him be real close to me and his dick was on my tummy. His hole felt so good. It made me feel as if it were specially made for me. We kissed and made love like this for at least 15 minutes. We got a good pace going but he still didn't get why I would stop every once in a while. We were going pretty fast at one point and he was working with me so well that I just let loose and I exploded inside of him. He must have had his first strong orgasm because he moaned so loud. "Aaahh...FUCK ME FUCK ME!" he yelled. He moaned more and more until he finally just fell onto my arms and panted. I felt my cum drip out of his hole even with my dick still inside. I kissed him. We both smiled. "WOW!" he said. "yeah..." I agreed. "Let's do that again please!" he said really excited. "Woah, wait little man. I'm not a robot" I said. We drained the tub and finished our shower. When we cleaned up really good and made sure that his hole wasn't dripping anymore we turned around and hugged each other. We held each other for a little bit as the water hit our bodies. "I love you" I said to him. "Me too" he said. We got out of the shower and dried each other. Then we went to my bed all dressed and clean and we jumped in. that night felt so much different. We just held onto each other and kissed every once in a while. There was not much left to be said. We already promised each other that we wouldn't forget each other. We already shared the best love making I had EVER HAD. It even topped Oscar. Nothing to this point had topped Oscar. Until now. "Well good night" I said. "Good night" he said as he smiled. I held onto him all night. I was so scared to know that when we woke up, we'd go our separate ways. I watched him fall asleep and eventually I fell asleep. But not before promising him that I would always love him. ************************************************************ The next morning we didn't really do much when we woke up because he had to go home early. My dad packed all my stuff and I went over to help Jon's dad to pack his stuff. Everyone knew that both Jon and I were really sad at this point so they tried to make us smile the most they could. Jon had to leave first so I went over to his house when his mom called me to tell me he was leaving. I literally ran over to his house. When I got there, his mom told me he was in his room. I went up to his room and found him sitting on the bed. "How you doing?" I asked. "I'm mad. Please don't let me go" he said with a frown. "Baby, you gotta go. I promise you'll be okay" I said. "No I won't. I don't want to be away from you" he said. I saw tears flowing. I couldn't handle it. I wiped them with my finger. "Jon, I promise you. We will be okay. I will call you every night" I said. "You really promise?" "I promise" I said. I took his face, held it up, and I kissed him. It tasted a little salty because he had tears around his lips. "Come on" I said as I walked him downstairs. His dad was already in the car and his mom was waiting outside. "Aww...my poor baby. Don't cry. You'll be fine okay. Trust me" she said as she hugged him and kissed his cheek. "Okay mom" he said. He hugged his mom, he hugged me, and then walked to the car. When he got in, he looked back once. Then twice, our eyes met, his mom knew we were both hurting. As the car drove away, I couldn't stop watching. That was my little Jon, he was driving away. Far, far away from me. "Aaron, he'll be fine okay. Don't get sad" she said. She also hugged me. "I know" I said. "No get going, or your going to be late to your school" she said. I turned around and headed home. I knew I had to be strong, but still it hurt and it hurt a lot. I went to my house and my parents were waiting for me in the living room. "Ready?" my dad asked. "Yeah I guess" I said. My mom kissed my forehead and hugged me. "Aaron, you'll be fine. Okay" she said. "yeah, I know." I said sadly. "You have no idea of how much fun its going to be" she said. "I hope so" I said. We all went to the garage and got in the truck. As we were driving away, I kept looking back. I felt as if I was leaving forever when really I wasn't going that far. I don't know what it was but every time I looked back I saw different memories of me and Jon. I saw us riding our bikes, having water balloon fights, and just swimming in the pool. I tried so hard not to cry. I really hoped everything would be okay. I couldn't believe it. After all this time, after all the trouble, it was Jon who I really loved. All I can do now is just smile and be happy from all the good moments he gave me. Plus, I' d hopefully get to see him every once in a while. The year, was just full of surprises...but it was all good. I guess it just taught me that just when you think you know it all, life can take a spin and throw you off balance. I looked ahead and I focused on the future. Who knows what is has in store for me and Jon. The End ************************************************************* Thank you very much for reading all of the chapters. Thank you for the e-mails. I hope you liked the story. I put a lot of hard work and heart into it. And I apologize about this chapter being so long. I will be very happy to read your emails and please tell me what you think of the ending. Tommy