Date: Sun, 06 Apr 2003 01:58:03 -0500 From: Jeff Wilson Subject: W.A.R. Part 3, Chapter 7 W.A.R. Part Three - Self Destructive Tendencies Chapter Seven: The Battle for William Roberts by Jeff Wilson Easter Sunday came and with it all of the usual Easter activities, except for me having to go to Brett's to feed the fish. I did that late in the day and returned home to find out that Brett had called and that they would be back on Monday night. Sunday turned to Monday, and Monday to Tuesday, and it was time to go to school. Brett wasn't on the bus that morning, and he never showed up at school. It was a long day. The whole day I wondered what Brett was doing and where he was. Dustin was telling Bobby Rush about how I had come over and helped his neighbor move in. "And man, he's got more computer parts than you could ever imagine! And computer games, and video games, and a bunch of awesome CD's and DVD's. I'm telling you what, Bobby, He's fuckin' awesome. You gotta come meet him some time." "He sounds really cool," Bobby replied. "What did you think of him, Billy?" "Huh? What?" I responded, not really listening. "Oh, that's right," said Dustin, "You-Know-Who isn't back yet." "What's that supposed to mean?" I asked crossly. "Nothing. Just saying is all." Dustin replied. "You really are an asshole sometimes, Dustin." I said. Dustin's face changed. He wasn't mad. In fact, he would usually laugh at that statement. He was looking behind me. Curiosity got the better of me and I turned around to see what he was looking at. I saw Amanda and Max sitting two tables away from us. Jerry Freemont was with them, along with a few other losers. I turned back to Dustin. "You want to leave?" I asked. "No," Dustin answered, "I'm not running away from those jerks anymore." So we sat there and ate our lunch without incident. After school was over, I couldn't wait to go past Brett's house on the bus. We rode by, but there was no sign of anyone being home. Where were they? What if something happened? What if they got in a car wreck? I tried to calm down, but I had to find out what was going on. When I got home, I threw my school things on the couch and walked right out the back door and through the woods. I saw Mrs. Fox when I came out on the other side. "Hello Billy!" She waved and smiled. I waved back and walked on. She shouted something else to me, but I couldn't hear it. I was determined to find out where Brett was. I walked to the back porch and opened the door with my key. I started to walk through the house. I walked up to Brett's room. It was empty. I walked to the kitchen, empty. I walked downstairs, empty. Finally I just went to the living room and sat down on the couch. "Hey!" I jumped about three feet off the couch. I turned around to find Brett standing in the doorway of the house. "Brett!!!" I shouted and ran up to him. We hugged there in the doorway and I just had to kiss him over and over. "Whoa! Easy there." Brett said. "I have neighbors, you know." We walked back into the living room and closed the outside door. "Where were you?" I asked. "In bed most of the day. Then I went over to help Mrs. Fox a few minutes ago. Didn't she tell you I was over there?" "OH!! I knew she said something, but I didn't hear." I said. "Well maybe now you'll listen to your elders." He said laughing. "I missed you so much! You wouldn't believe it." "You got a hair cut." I said. His dark brown hair was nice and short again, just the way I like it best. "Yeah, mom insisted before the wedding." He replied. "So how was New York, any way?" I asked. "Eh, it was okay, I guess. Kind of crowded. I wouldn't want to live there anymore. Too many people. I'm used to this area now. Plus you're here. So what happened while I was gone?" "Ummm... I need to talk to you about that." I said nervously. I was never nervous around Brett, this wasn't good. "What?" He said anxiously. "I went to Dustin's." I said. He nodded. "We kind of played cards... and we sort of ended up playing for clothes... And... Umm... We sort of ended up naked." "Was he hot?" Brett asked. "What?" I asked, not believing my ears. "I said, was he hot? You know, good looking, attractive, hot." He said smiling. "You're not mad?" I asked. "No. It's not like you had sex or anything. So you saw each other naked. You're not a bad person for wanting to see him naked, Billy. I mean, I was to see him naked myself. I trust you more than I trust anybody. I know you wouldn't do something to hurt me. I love you, and you love me." "Are you sure?" I asked. "What do you mean? You mean I can't trust you?" "No. I mean, what if we're not in love? What if it's just curiosity? What if we only think we're in love but we're really not?" Brett's eyes started to get a little watery. Uh oh. This wasn't what I mean to happen at all. He asked, "Where is this coming from, Billy? I thought we were beyond this. What, was it all a lie?" "No." I said. "Were you just trying to make me feel better? I trusted you, Billy. I'd do anything for you. I gave you my heart, my soul. And you stomped on it." "No. It's not that! It's just... I... I don't even know who I am anymore, Brett! I thought that I had it all figured out. But then my dad told me to make sure that I knew what I was feeling. I thought it was love, but when I think about it, I don't even know what love is!" "Well maybe you should have thought about that before you dragged me into it!" "Brett... It's just that... I can't answer my questions. How can I love you if I don't even know who I am?" "I know who you are! You're William Aaron Roberts and I'm Anthony Brett Riley and I love you more than I love anybody in the whole world! I'll always love you and even if you don't know what love is, then I do. It means that when I wake up in the morning, I want to wake up next to you. When I got to sleep, I want you to be in my dreams. When you have sex, I want it to be with me. When you grow old and live to be a hundred I want to be sitting in the rocker next to yours. It means that when you're not with me I'm not complete. It means when I kiss you I get this feeling through my whole body that makes me feel special. And if you feel the way I feel then that means you know what love is, too!" I couldn't help it, I started to cry. "I'm sorry Brett! I'm so sorry! Everything you said is exactly the way I feel about you! I love you! I love you more than ever!" With that I kissed him, and he kissed me back. After all this time, I loved him more at that moment than I had ever loved him before. At last I felt whole again. I felt like a piece of my heart was missing, but Brett filled it in. The warm feeling that I got when we touched filled my whole being. It felt like it was going to shine right out of me. I had to go further. I had to show him right there how much I loved him. While we kissed, I found my way to his shirt and untucked it. I pulled it off over his head and went back to kissing him. He pulled my shirt off and threw it next to his. Our kissing grew more urgent. Our hands felt each other's body. His hands found my hair, mine explored his back and then his smooth chest. I broke the kiss and moved down to his nipple. I licked and sucked at it while he moaned and ran his fingers through my hair. He pulled me up to his face and kissed me while our tongues explored each other's mouth. Then he dropped down to his knees. He unbuckled my belt and he yanked down my pants and underwear. My hard dick awaited him. I felt like I was going to squirt right then and there. He grabbed my dick with his right hand while his left explored my butt and balls and all the new areas he had never felt before. He lifted my dick up and then slowly licked the bottom of it until he reached the tip. It felt so good! When he reached the tip, he opened his mouth and began pulling my dick into his mouth. He made it almost to the base of my penis, then stopped. His hands freely explored my body. I felt dizzy. I looked down and watched as my penis disappeared into his warm wet mouth. My hands found Brett's short brown hair and involuntarily I began to thrust myself deeper into Brett's mouth. Brett just kept on sucking and swirling his tongue around on that spot under the head of my dick that feels so good. I couldn't help but groan as he ran tongue under and over and around my dick. Finally, my knees began to buckle. "Brett, keep going. I'm gonna shoot." I warned him. Brett didn't stop though. He kept on sucking me into his mouth and his lips were passing over the sensitive skin of my penis over and over. I felt my dick get even harder. The warm feeling that had spread through my whole body needed to be released. My balls had pulled themselves up to my body. My penis and butt hole tingled. Then I felt the dam burst. I closed my eyes and I thrust myself deep into Brett's mouth and filled him up with my cum. Brett tried to swallow it, but a lot of it ran out of the corners of his mouth. He kept me in his mouth as I rocked my hips back and forth a few more times. I reached down and picked him up to his feet. Then I kissed him full on the mouth, tasting my own semen mixed with his sweet saliva. When I pulled back, we both had my cum smeared on our chins. "You love me?" Brett asked, almost out of breath. "I love you." I said, completely out of breath. I wiped off his chin with my hand. Then I noticed that the front of his pants were wet. "Did you cum too?" I asked. "Yeah. I did it at the same time you did. I didn't even have to touch myself." Brett replied, panting. "Wow, that's fucking awesome. But I was going to do yours like you did mine." "That's okay... We've got the rest of our lives to do it. You know, you really had me scared there for a minute. You remember before I left and you said that you love me and I didn't say it back? That's been bothering me the whole time I was gone. I really, truly, honestly love you, William Aaron Roberts. Thanks for letting me show you how much." Just as I was about to speak, we heard a car pull into the driveway. "Holy shit! It's my mom! Quick! Put your clothes back on!" Brett said frantically as he tried to find his shirt. "Your pants! Your pants!" I yelled as I yanked up my underwear. "They're soaked through! Go change them!" Brett threw a shirt at me and ran upstairs to change. I quickly slipped the shirt on and buckled my belt. I was thought I was ready but then I remembered that my chin was still smeared with cum. I wiped it with a tissue just as Mrs. Reilly walked into the living room. "Brett there are some bags of groceries in the... Oh!! Billy!" She jumped with a start when she realized it was not Brett standing there in her living room. "Oh! You startled me! I thought you were Brett, especially since you're wearing his shirt." It was only then that I realized that she was right... I was wearing the wrong shirt. "Oh... I borrowed it." I lied. "I messed mine up." I wondered if she knew why I was sweating so much. "Oh... Well that was nice of him. Anyway, thanks for watching the house for us while we were gone. I know Brett missed you while we were gone. He kept mentioning how much you'd like whatever we were doing. Finally I just told him to be quiet and enjoy himself. You are a good friend to him." I smiled and thanked her. I was sure she knew what we'd done. Brett came downstairs wearing a new pair of pants and we got the groceries for his mom. We were both sweaty and I'm sure we smelled like cum. I was sure his mom could notice the smell as well. I felt awkward the whole time I was around there after that. I just felt like she knew what we'd done. There were a few times when I would look at her and it just seemed like she knew. Like she was reading my mind and somehow she knew that her little boy had sucked my dick. I know that's impossible, but really it's how I felt. I had to get out of there. "I better get home." I said to both of them, but looking at neither. "No, stay awhile! I haven't seen you in almost a week!" Brett whined. But I just had to get out. "No. I need to get home. It was nice to see you again Dr. Riley." I said. "Goodbye, Billy!" She said. I walked to the door, Brett followed me outside. "What's wrong with you?" He whispered. "Dude, I can't even look your mom in the eye, knowing what we did. It's like she knows something's different." I said. "She doesn't know anything. And if she does, who cares? She'll just have to live with it." Brett replied. "Did you see how she was looking at us? Like she thought we were up to something. I'm telling you, she knows something." "Billy, listen to me. I don't care who knows, alright? I love you, and I don't care if the whole friggin' world knows about it, alright?" Then he kissed me one more time. "I love you, too. But what if..." "Billy," he didn't let me finish. "Relax. Go home and I'll see you tomorrow in school, okay?" "Okay. Goodnight, Brett." "Goodnight, Billy." He replied. I walked slowly back to the woods. All the way home, my mind was racing. I had a lot to think about. For one thing, I had just had my first real sexual experience. But more importantly than that, I knew who I was again. And I knew what love was. I walked with a smile on my face, Brett's shirt on my body, and my white stuff in his belly. Not bad for a Tuesday. So it finally happened. The time was finally right, one thing led to another and next thing you know, they're in each other's pants. Just to let you know, this doesn't mean this story is going to turn into a fuck-fest. I've worked too hard to turn it into one sexcapade after another. There's still a story to tell and you deserve better for making it this far. However... Billy and Brett's relationship is now forever changed. They've taken the next step, but it's only a step, not the end of the journey. Before, they could always just pretend that it was only friendship that they were feeling and move on if need be. Now, they can't pretend. The boundary between friendship and something more has been crossed. Let me know what you think: vicioussquirrel@hotmail.com Next week's chapter, A Boy Like Me, deals with Billy at school, and Billy finally snaps at someone.