Date: Sun, 3 Nov 2013 11:05:06 +1300 From: bob charles Subject: Washed Up (Gay / Young friends) chapter 21 Washed Up. Disclaimer: Warning: this story contains sexual content, contact between young boys, and other themes that may offend. If the subject matter offends you, is not to your tastes, or if you are under legal age for your area, then find something else to read. In the following story all names and events are completely fictional. Although I may mention a specific location, place, or person any resemblance to said people, location, or places is completely unintentional. Chapter 21: Sarah ensures to close and lock the door on her way out, leaving Pierre and I still cuddling on the bed. With everyone gone I now start to appreciate just how comfortable the bed truly is. It is as soft as a cloud, making me surprised that we hadn't drifted off to sleep before now, but with all the noise and commotion in the room I think that was near on impossible. We decide that we should probably think about going to bed properly, because we are both feeling dead beat. Reluctantly we release each other from our cuddle and crawl out of bed. Then we take turns to strip each other, before pulling back the covers and climbing into bed. I snuggle up close to my lover, enjoying the skin on skin contact and stare lovingly into his gorgeous hazel eyes. Pierre then takes the lead and tenderly and lovingly kisses me, producing all those wonderful magical feelings which surge through my body and put me in a good happy place. I have never taken drugs before, but I still doubt that any high you get from those things can compare to the high I'm feeling right now. It is out of this world, because it is so great, but pretty soon it leads to both of us being zoned out totally as the sleeping bug bites and we both crash. ************ I awaken the next morning from yet another blissful night's sleep. I can't remember ever sleeping so well for so long before I met Pierre. I feel so refreshed every morning now after having had an awesome sleep, and I'm ready to tackle anything the day throws at me, but first I just want to lie here and gaze lovingly over my boyfriend's features. I love doing this so much, just lying beside my lover, admiring his beauty. He is still asleep, but I know he won't be for too long. I'm sure he is able to sense me gazing over him, because he starts to slowly awaken. He reaches for me and pulls me in close, before he has even managed to open his eyes. It feels so nice having him holding me again, because despite our best efforts we always seem to lose our grip on each other during the night. We never separate though, because our bodies are always in contact, no matter how much we turn around in our sleep. Let's face it - no one can stay in the same sleeping position all night, at least I think, and we are no different. We roll around occasionally during the night like everyone else, but no matter what one of us does the other copies, which enables our bodies to stay in contact all night. We seem to read each other's minds, even when we are in a deep sleep. Pierre continues to hug me, content with still having his eyes closed and being half asleep. He just wants to hold me while he slowly awakens to a bright and cheerful new day. His beautiful eyelids eventually start to flutter as he shows signs of finally starting to wake up properly. While he comes back to the land of the living, he clutches me tighter and pulls me closer to him. He wants the same thing that I love, and that is waking up as close as I can to him and enjoying those magical sensations he creates while I awaken. I stare at him intently while he wakes, desperate to see his beautiful sparkling hazel coloured eyes the moment he opens them. I'm sure he is deliberately toying with me by keeping his eyes closed as long as he possibly can, but I'm willing to wait as long as it takes to see the essence of his soul. He accidently gives away that he is teasing me, by producing a big grin and then giggling to himself, while he keeps his eyelids clamped shut. Two can play at this game I figure and reach down to his sides and give him a tickle. His eyes open in a flash, before he starts to laugh even harder. He soon loses his hold on me as he squirms around the bed trying to escape my torture, but I'm not going to give up now, not after he decided to tease me, so I tickle him even harder. He starts to laugh hysterically, and thrashes about like a bucking bronco. His face has become red through laughing so hard, and not being able to breathe properly, while he also has to try to hold his sides because they are starting to ache. I have moved my tickling to his stomach, because it's a much larger target to aim for, especially given how madly he is writhing around. If I had kept trying to tickle his sides then I would have lost my hold on him by now. Pierre suddenly clamps his hands hard on top of mine, which immediately stops me tickling him. He is still giggling uncontrollably, but without giving me a chance to start up again, he lets go of my hands and scrambles out of bed as quickly as he can. He then bolts off into the bathroom, and seconds later I hear the familiar sound of pee hitting the water with tremendous ferocity. It seems his laughing fit almost made him piss himself, which gets me giggling to myself just from thinking about it. I lie there waiting in expectation for his eventual return, so that I can ogle his sexy body while he walks back to me. I know how desperate he must have been for a piss, because he spends forever in there taking his leak, but I'm in no rush because it is still early in the morning, and I know mum won't leave until nine. I rest my head against my pillow, with my hands behind my head supporting it, while I wait for him to finish up in the toilet. Finally I hear the toilet flush, making the butterflies start to flutter in my stomach. I'm looking forward to being able to spend some quality time with Pierre without any chance of interruption. In hospital there were always nurses and doctors coming and going, which cut down on the time we had privately together a lot. There is no risk of that here, so I'm looking forward to being able to cuddle and kiss my lover without fear of intrusion. "Wow, come and look at this, we have a spa!" Pierre says excitedly. He disappoints me by only poking his head around the doorframe as he says this, meaning I can't see the gorgeous body that the head is attached to. He disappears back into the bathroom, leaving me to feel even more disappointed. I know he isn't going to be back any time soon when I hear the water start running in the bath. I decide that seeing as he isn't going to be coming back to bed, I might as well join him, so I wriggle my way out from under the covers and climb out of bed. By the time I make it to the bathroom Pierre has the bath almost full, and has got into the beautifully warm water. He gets to do what I was hoping to do to him, and ogles my body while I head over to the bath to get in. His eyes cover every inch of my pale almost white body, which looks even whiter under the lights in the bathroom. I climb into the spa bath and submerge my body, feeling instantly relaxed while I do so. The water is superb and at the perfect temperature, but there is better to come, which I find out when he turns on the spa jets. The water instantly starts to bubble and froth into life as the jets start working, and the water becomes so much more relaxing to be in. Pierre scoots across the bath and cuddles up beside me, which makes the spa so much more enjoyable. I wrap one arm around him, while we both sit in the bath enjoying every moment of it. I have been in spa baths before, but none of them have felt anywhere near as wonderful as this one does. Having Pierre cuddled up to me makes it perfect in every sense of the word, and to emphasise how awesome it is I decide to kiss him tenderly on the lips. The kiss is so magical it sends my head into a spin. There are no words to describe how great I am feeling right now, but it is one of those beautiful moments which will forever be engraved on my mind. I pull Pierre as close into me as I can while I continue to lovingly kiss him. I can't get enough of him at the moment, because he is the best thing that has ever happened to me, and I want him to know exactly how much he means to me. I don't need to, I know, because he already knows. I mean the same to him, which is why our love for each other is so strong, but still seems to be getting stronger by the day. We are so close to each other that I can feel each individual beat of his heart against me, as well as feel him breathe out through his nose each time he needs more air. Physically I think that there is only one way we could ever get any closer than we are right now, but I don't need to go there yet because this is enough for me. It's not that I don't want to get closer, or experience what sex is like, but more because it is sex and I don't feel in the mood for it now. I'm just enjoying the pure unadulterated love which I get from him all the time without the sexual aspect being bought into it. It is a magical tender loving feeling being cuddled up to him, with no thought about going any further than kissing, and I enjoy this more than the sex in a lot of ways. We must waste away a large part of the morning being in the spa hugging and kissing each other, because before we realise it there is a loud banging on the door, followed by mum yelling at us to hurry up. We are both gutted to have this magical moment destroyed so abruptly, but we know that we will have plenty more of these in the future, so decide not to antagonise her by staying in here any longer. Slowly and reluctantly we stop kissing and release each other from our embrace, before Pierre scoots back across the bath to turn off the jets and we both climb out of the tub. On my way out I pull the plug to allow the water to drain away. Any stress either of us had left seems to follow the draining water into the depths below, making us feel totally carefree and at peace with the world. The hard part now is drying ourselves and putting on clothes, without taking too much time checking each other out. I know this is going to be exceedingly difficult, because we are already standing there in the middle of the bathroom gazing over every inch of the other's beautiful glistening body. Pierre glows in the light and his wet frame looks so much sexier with a thin sheen of water on it. I know I could spend all day standing here admiring his beautiful sexy body, but I also know that mum won't wait for us if we do, so I take the initiative and get the towels off the towel rack and throw one over to him. He is a little more onto it than I give him credit for, because he catches the towel in his hands with a cheeky grin on his face because he knew what I had been expecting. I had expected it to smack him in the face instead of him catching it. We quickly dry ourselves off, taking the occasional sneak peek at the other while we do so. Once we are satisfied that we can't get ourselves any drier, we head back into the bedroom to search for some clothes. We hadn't even thought about that side of things last night before we went to bed, so we aren't sure where to start to find our bags of clothes, providing of course that they are still in the bags. Thankfully the search is short lived, because we spot the bags beside the large dresser in the room. We pick up our own bags and place them on the bed, before rifling through them to find a set of clothes we are happy to wear. It doesn't take either of us too long to locate some decent enough clothes, because all the clothes in our bags are clean, meaning we have a lot to choose from. Due to it now being summer here in the south of France, we both opt for lightweight clothing, knowing it can get pretty hot. I pull on a blue tee shirt, with a surf graphics design on the back, and follow that up with some black rugby league shorts, which have two grey stripes along the sides. I don't bother with undies, but in hindsight I probably should have put some on, because these shorts have very short legs to them so don't hide what's under them very well. Pierre goes for a dull orange singlet, and the same style and colour shorts that I have on, because we both know we are going swimming, so presume it's going to be somewhere outside. We are pretty much in Provence now, so Pierre knows that there are lots of areas to swim outdoors here, not to forget about the Mediterranean coast not being too far away either. With this knowledge we decide to go for full casual clothing instead of something a bit more formal, because we don't want to feel overdressed. We also put our feet into our jandals in order to complete the summer look we are going for. Once dressed, we pack our bags again and head out to the hallway to meet up with the others. After leaving our room and closing the door, we are surprised to see that no one else is out here yet, making us think that we have already missed them. I don't know whether to stay put and wait to see if they come out of their rooms soon, or whether we should head outside to see if they are waiting for us there. I don't believe that they would have just upped and left us, because we didn't take that long to get out of the bath and dressed. "Oh good, I was hoping that my early call to get you two to hurry up was going to work, and it did by the looks of it!" mum says cheekily, as she leaves her room followed closely behind by Manuel's dad. I don't know how to react knowing that we had been set-up, but I decide it is best that I bite my tongue and not say anything about it. I give her a weak forced smile to tell her what I'm thinking, but she doesn't take any notice. She goes around to François and the boys' room and bangs on the door, before doing the same on Sarah's. I suppose at least because of what mum did they aren't waiting on us for once, but I would have preferred her to be more open about it at the time instead of having us panic over being late. I soon forget all about that, when everyone else starts to pile out of their rooms. What surprises me the most is how refreshed François looks, given he has been effectively babysitting the two youngsters for a while. I know Callum usually isn't too much of a handful, but even so he has put up with my brother for long periods of time, and that is leaving Manuel out of the equation. The two boys together surely must wear François down, but it doesn't show in his demeanour at all. The boys as per usual seem to be boisterous and full of life, but François seems to be almost as happy as they are. I wonder whether the boys' enthusiasm and exhilaration for every moment of every day has rubbed off on the older man. I think the boys would have driven most people to the verge of insanity by now, but François seems to be much happier now compared to when we first met him. The good thing is that everyone is dressed in casual clothing like we decided to, so it means that we aren't underdressed for today's events. I still wish I knew what mum's plans are, but I guess sometimes the surprise is the best part about a day. I have noticed though, that everyone else is carrying a towel, which is something Pierre and I overlooked, meaning we are going to have to dig around in our bags at some stage to find them. Mum leads the way and we all follow, heading down the twisting staircase to the ground floor. She stops briefly to hand back the keys, and get her deposit back, before we all pile out into the gloriously warm and fine Nimes morning sunshine. The sun is pleasant at this time of the day while it slowly rises and starts to bask everything in its warm iridescent glow. The main problem is that it isn't very tranquil here despite the glorious morning. Nimes is a busy city and it is a weekday, so the streets are clogged with cars going here, there and everywhere. The noise pollution is horrendous, blowing any tranquillity out of the air. Things back in New Zealand seem to be so much quieter, unless you live in Auckland, but even there you can still hear the birds chirping in the trees at this time of the morning provided you aren't on a main road. France on the other hand is a lot bigger and busier than what I'm used to from life in New Zealand, and I'm still struggling to adjust to that aspect here. I still expect to be able to wake up in the morning and hear the birds, but it is a lot noisier here. In saying that, back in Vichy the singing of birds could be heard, because that town is smaller and quieter than the cities of France, but I still love the place despite its differences. Mum unlocks the van and gets in, while the rest of us load the bags and pile into it, then starts it up and prepares to leave. She has one last look at the map she has, to ensure she knows exactly where she is going, but Manuel's dad is there to help her should she get lost. Once we are all in the van and belted in, she puts the van in gear and tries to smoothly merge into the traffic, which she does successfully and safely. We are on our way, for most of us into the unknown. Mum negotiates her way through the traffic clogged streets of Nimes, heading towards the outskirts and hopefully quieter roads. It takes quite a long time to get to more free flowing roads, but once we do it's all easy sailing from there. Before long we have cleared the urban sprawl of the city of Nimes and are out in the countryside, heading towards, well, only mum and Manuel's dad know the answer to that one. No-one in the van seems to be particularly concerned to know where we are going. Callum and Manuel are animatedly talking to one another, while constantly getting told to quieten down by either François or Sarah. They are also trying to have a conversation between themselves, but it gets pretty hard to hear when the two youngsters get so excited that they start to yell. I'm not worried about talking to anyone, because all I want to do and am doing is cuddling up to Pierre, enjoying the ride and watching as the scenery passes us by. It is a beautiful part of the world with lots of pretty scenery, but we don't get too long to enjoy it. Before we know it mum is pulling the van into a tiny dirt car park, meaning our trip has come to an end. The trip was quite short once we escaped Nimes so I know we haven't gone too far from the city. Mum parks the van and kills the engine, before unbuckling her seatbelt and getting out. We all follow suit, and pretty soon the van is empty and we are all standing outside in the glorious sunshine. I still have no idea where we are, and as I look around I can't see anything to help me out in that respect. The car park is lined by beautiful green trees, which act as a good windbreak, but at the same time block any potential view to what is around. I notice that everyone else have their towels out, so I know now is the time for Pierre and me to find ours. I pull him along with me, as we locate our bags again so we can search through the contents to find what we need. It takes a lot longer than I anticipated finding my towel, because as luck would have it, the stupid thing is buried right at the bottom of the bag. Finally, after a huge struggle, I try to pull my towel out. Pierre has already located his towel and has been watching me while I locate mine. Well, he isn't so much watching me, but it is more what he can see because of the way I am positioned while I search my bag. Because the bag is on the floor in the far back corner of the van, I am half lying on the back seat to be able to get to it, which allows Pierre an unobstructed view straight up the leg of my shorts. My sly lover decides to tease me, while I am trying to rip the towel out of my bag. He reaches his hand up my shorts leg and fondles my exposed package. Instinctively I curl up my body, in an attempt to restrict access to my jewels, but all I do is trap his hand there. This allows him to continue to grope my dickie, which starts to do its normal trick of starting to harden up. This is the last thing I need, given I don't know where we are, or how far we have to walk. I don't want to be walking around for ages if I have a boner, because I know that it won't end well for me, given it will be rubbing against the soft silky fabric of my shorts. The other thing is that I know everyone else will know I have a boner, because it will tent the flimsy fabric out, making it very noticeable to anyone who sees me. I know I have to stop Pierre before I get a full blown erection, but before I get a chance to he lets go. He knows that I don't want to get a stiffie so he stops playing with my pecker before that happens. He would remove his hand as well, but I still have it trapped because of the position I am in. I soon realise this, and to a certain extent, my predicament, so I uncurl myself in order to allow him to remove his hand. I am hoping that Pierre is able to remove his hand without accidently touching my pecker, because I already have a semi, and I know that just the slightest touch from him will be enough to give me a full blown boner. He knows this as well, so he extracts his hand from my shorts with the greatest deal of care and precision. He knows the problems I will have if I get a boner, so he does all he can to ensure I don't get one, but I wish that he hadn't decided to play in the first place. I suppose some opportunities are too good to pass up, and that was one of those as far as he was concerned. I have to admit that I would have done the same thing if it had been the other way around, so for that reason I'm not mad at him. I couldn't be mad with him anyway, because I love him too much and he was only playing around, like I would have done. With that situation now resolved, I finish pulling my towel out of my bag, before zipping it up. We both casually make our way out of the van and over to the others, trying to make out that nothing went on in the van. It doesn't matter though because no-one is paying any attention to us in the slightest. They only seem to notice us when we get to them, but they don't bother to ask us where we have been or anything. In fact I almost get the impression that they had been expecting it, because whatever it was that they were talking about seems to have concluded by the time we reach them. Mum, who seemed to have been doing all the talking, now makes out that she is doing a head count and ensuring we all have everything that we are going to need. I am starting to get a little suspicious with what is going on, but before I can ask anything, mum heads back to the van to get her stuff and lock up. Once she has done that, she wanders back over to us, takes Manuel's dad's hand and they lead the way to wherever it is we are going. They seem to be heading towards this small clearing off to the side of the parking area, which looks like it is a walkway of some description. When we get to the clearing I see that it is indeed a walkway, but it looks pretty steep and not particularly easy to tackle, which makes me wonder about François's ability to come with us. Now that we have reached the pathway, mum releases Manuel's dad's hand so that they can both safely negotiate their way down the path. It is a dirt path, which due to an extended time of dry weather, has become dried and dusty making it relatively slippery, so extra caution is going to be needed during the descent. Manuel's dad goes down first and slides on loose dirt about half way down, which gets me even more worried about François' ability to take this on. Thankfully for Manuel's dad he recovers and doesn't injure himself, but it is still enough to send the shits up Pierre and me. Neither of us want to get hurt in any way during the climb down because we are both sick to death of hospital, so we do not want another trip back there for anything. François decides to go next, which is not what I wanted, because I need more time to think of a safe way to help him down. I try to protest, but he doesn't listen and before I realise it, he has made it to the bottom as easy as anything. In fact he made it look a damn sight easier than Manuel's dad did. Pierre and I are both flabbergasted after seeing that, because we didn't expect him to make it in one piece without assistance. I should have paid more attention to everyone else's reaction, because no-one other than Pierre and I seemed concerned in the slightest about François making the descent unaided. Callum and Manuel don't wait for the go ahead from mum, instead they just run straight down the hill like there is nothing to it. Oh how I wish I was their age still, so that I was still as fearless as they are, but I'm not, and with everything else that has happened I keep thinking the worst about this descent. Sarah is the next one to go, but unlike the others she is ultra-cautious because she has never been an outdoors sort of person, so something like this scares the hell out of her. Like everyone else she makes it down in one piece without any hiccup along the way. Even with how timid and cautious she was she still did it easily, which should give me confidence, but it doesn't. Mum indicates to Pierre and me that it is our turn, but I'm not sure that I can go through with it. I have so talked myself into seeing the worst case scenario, that I have pretty much talked myself out of going through with this. Pierre isn't as worried about it as I am and almost goes headlong down the hill like Callum and Manuel had, but he notices my reluctance to go, so stops and comes back to get me. Pierre does exactly what he knows is going to work. He comes over and takes my hand, before he plants a tender loving kiss on my lips. He does this right in front of mum, but he doesn't care and it also shows how much she has changed as well, because she gives Pierre a big smile since she knows what he is trying to do for me. The kiss is so magical that it numbs my mind of all thought, so all I can see is the love of my life kissing me in the most wonderful way. He suddenly breaks off the kiss and pulls me by the hand. By the time my mind has caught up with me and returned to reality, I'm hurtling down the hill at what seems a million miles an hour. Before I know it we are at the bottom of the hill and Pierre is pulling me backwards while we try to come to a sudden stop. We both almost over run the track and end up in the bushes, but he does extremely well to stop us both. Once we have come to a stop and I have realised what Pierre has just done for me, I plant another huge tender loving kiss on his lips. He eases my trepidations so easily too, so kissing him is the only way I can think of to thank him. I can vaguely make out the sound of two little boys giggling, while I'm lost in the moment kissing, but I pay them no attention. Just like I pay mum no attention when I sense that she too has made it to the bottom of the hill, well, not until she gives me a light clip on the back of the head. "Come on love birds, we've still got further to go," she tells us, before re-joining the rest of the group. They don't bother to wait for Pierre and me to stop kissing, instead they continue along the track expecting us to catch up. Knowing that mum was serious and that they aren't going to wait for us, I grudgingly break off the kiss. By the time we have done that the others have all rounded a corner so are out of sight. We scramble to catch up with them because we have no idea whether this path splits at some stage, and we don't want to risk getting lost. Come to think of it we are already technically lost because we have no idea where the hell we are, but we still don't want to lose everyone else, so we know that we had better hurry. The track is a lot flatter now, but it still goes downhill. It is also still dirt, but is covered in fallen leaves from the trees towering overhead and the bushes making up the undergrowth. The path is nice and pleasant to walk or run on now, because the leaves add a cushioning layer to the hard ground underneath. By the time we reach the others, they have made it to the end of the track and seem to be staring at something in awe and amazement. I know that they are all staring at the reason we are here, but I can't quite see it past the trees and everyone else. Pierre is jumping up and down to try and see past everyone in order to get a glimpse at what they are all staring at, but all to no avail. We are starting to get frustrated now at not being able to see, so we try to force our way through everyone else to get to the front, but we only make it half way before we too stop dead in our tracks. Towering high above us and crossing over the Gard River is a huge block construction, which initially I take to be a bridge. On closer inspection I realise that it can't be a bridge, because it has three distinct tiers to it and each tier is made up of a whole lot of archways. On the bottom two tiers the archways are huge, making the top tier look tiny in comparison. The magnificent structure takes on a golden hue, due to the way the late morning sun shines on it. Knowing that it isn't a bridge leaves me stumped as to what its purpose is, but I'm sure that I will find out soon enough. "Huh...? I... I... I think I've been here before!" Pierre stutters in disbelief, while he trawls through his memory trying to work out why it is that he thinks he has been here. It suddenly dawns on me where we are, as I think back to some of the stories he has told me. This is the Pont du Gard which Pierre told me he had gone to see before the accident in which he lost his mum. I know why mum has brought us here now, because she is trying to jog Pierre's memory about that day in the hopes he will then also remember about his dad. She is actually trying to help him out, which I am surprised about, but then again it may have always been on her agenda, because she has never told us where she had planned to take us. I see that Pierre is still trying to recall where he has seen this structure before, but deep down in my gut I know that he won't make the connection between this and the fate of his mother, well, not yet anyway. I don't know why, but I know that by the end of the day Pierre will have remembered about his mum. It is a feeling I have, but I can't explain it, I just know. Pierre will remember about that horrible accident which killed his mum today, and I'm willing to bet all my money on being right. "Yes Pierre, you have been here before. This is the Pont du Gard, but I'm not going to tell you any more than that, because I need you to remember for yourself," François tells him, while trying to contain his emotions at the same time. Being at the last place his sister was to ever enjoy, is tearing François apart, but what is making things worse for him is seeing his nephew with no recollection of the day he lost his mum. The whole situation is rough on him, because he knows that up until the accident the day had been one of the best for them. It should have been a great day because it was Pierre's birthday, but a twist of fate stuffed that up and now his nephew can't remember any of it. I have no idea what to do, because I want to be with Pierre trying to help him recover those lost memories, but I also want to be there for François who is struggling to hold himself together. Both of them need me, well, so I think. In reality I want to be there for both of them because that is the sort of person I have become, but it is only Pierre who needs me, because François has everyone else to help him. In the end I know what I have to do, because Callum and Manuel have picked up on François' mood and gone over to comfort him. So I go over and give Pierre a hug to encourage him to remember, while at the same time I am feeling so much pride towards the two youngsters because of how caring they are. They don't need to get asked to help, because they seem to know when someone close to them is in need of it and they react, based on their instincts. I know that Pierre won't remember much more about that day right now, because his brain can't work out the connection between here and the trip back to Avignon, because we haven't travelled that road, so he only knows that we can get here via Nimes. I know that we will be taking that road later on today, because mum won't just take us here unless she is planning on going through to Avignon, so he will hopefully make the connection between the two places then. "Well come on, don't just stand there staring, let's have a swim and then we can take a better look at the Pont du Gard later," mum says cheerfully, trying to lighten the sombre mood that has enveloped us. It doesn't work quite as well as she had hoped, but we all follow her and Manuel's dad further upstream of the river to a nice swimming hole. Callum and Manuel are still holding François' hand while they are trying to comfort him, and I have my arm wrapped around Pierre. It is strange because my mood is more sombre than his, because I know what this place should mean to him. He is getting frustrated more than anything, because he still can't remember why he has been here before. His memory does not want to co-operate with him one little bit and it's starting to drive him crazy. We make it to the swimming hole, which like the river is running a tad low, due to the extended period of beautifully fine weather the region has been experiencing. There is still enough water to have a good swim in and it looks lovely and warm, and most importantly, inviting. Mum, Manuel's dad and Sarah drop their towels, remove any unnecessary clothes and run into the water, before they flop over to submerge themselves, leaving the rest of us standing on the river bank. Before any of us realise, they are in the middle of the swimming hole, having a ball of a time. It is the most fun I have seen mum have, since the day dad lost his job. I am glad to see her having fun, but I still can't get over what this place means to Pierre and me, even if he can't recall it, but it makes it hard for me to fully enjoy it. Well, I should say, what it is supposed to mean to Pierre, but due to his head injury he has forgotten the significance of the place, so to him it is just another place in our French adventure. "I can't remember anything about here and I'm sick of trying, so let's go and have some fun!" Pierre blurts out suddenly, frustrated as hell that he can't remember why it is that he has been here before. He then strips off his singlet, and since he notices that I still haven't moved a muscle, he also pulls off my tee shirt. Then he throws the items of clothing on the ground before kicking off his jandals. Knowing I have no choice in this, I kick off my jandals as well and not a moment too soon, because Pierre then grabs me by the hand and pulls me while he runs towards the swimming hole. He drags me all the way to the water's edge before he lets me go, running in the water until he can run no more and then dives under the surface. I follow him, unable to stop myself because of the momentum I have gained, not that I try anyway. I go hurtling into the water not far behind Pierre and then dive under the surprising warm refreshing water. I decide to try and stay under water as long as I can, to see whether I can swim up to Pierre without him noticing. It is easy to do, because the water is so crystal clear that I can see everything pretty clearly whilst submerged. The problem I have is that Pierre is still under water, but he is slowly starting to resurface. Once he has resurfaced, I slowly swim right up underneath him. Being in this position I can see right up the leg hole of his shorts, but I can't see his pecker, because it is in a dark shadow. I'm not worried that I can't see it, because that isn't too important and I can clearly see what I am after anyway. Then I gently reach up, trying desperately not to disturb the water too much and give away my position. I then grab the bottom edge of his shorts, one hand on each leg hole, then quick as a flash I rip them down as far as I can before he realises and does everything he can to stop them coming off. He panics when he feels his shorts sliding down his legs, so does the only thing he can do and that is spread his legs as wide as he can to prevent them coming right off. From under the water I get a perfect view of his package as his shorts come down. I only get them down to his knees but that doesn't matter, because I already have what I want. I reach up and grope his exposed dick and balls, and play around with them for a moment, before I realise that I desperately need to get a good breath of air, so surface. I gasp in a huge breath of air upon breaking the surface, filling my lungs as quickly as I can with precious oxygen. On taking my first look after having got into the water, I am totally awestruck. Standing tall and proud about two hundred metres downstream is the magnificent golden structure of the Pont du Gard. The structure reflects magically in the calm waters of the river, only being slightly distorted due to the ripples on the river's surface. It is a sight to behold and it has caught me in a hypnotic trance, while I take in the full beauty of the enormous structure. A result of the strangely magical sort of hold the structure has on me, I've forgotten all about Pierre and what I did to him, well, that is, until I feel my shorts getting pulled down my legs. I am far too slow to react, because my mind is elsewhere, meaning Pierre is able to pull my shorts right off and then hold them up in his hand, once he has resurfaced. He holds them high, like he is boasting about having a big catch or something. My mind finally catches up and I decide to give chase, not so much because I want my shorts back as I am enjoying the skinny dip, but more because I feel I have to and I want to have a bit of fun. Pierre notices out of the corner of his eye that I am making a lunge for him, so quickly dives back under the water and swims away. We have a ball while I pretend to try to get my shorts back and chase him all over the place, and our raucous behaviour must have caught the attention of François, Callum and Manuel who are still on the river's edge. The two boys are still trying to comfort the man, who is still struggling to come to terms with the significance this place has on him. Seeing Pierre and me having an absolute blast in the river reminds François why we are here, and that is to let go of the past and have fun, because that's what his sister would have wanted. François then gives the boys a quick hug, before he rips off his polo shirt, which lets the two youngsters know he is fine and it is time to go for a swim. The two boys don't need a second invitation, because they had been hoping that the man would get over his sombre mood and have a swim, so as quick as a flash they too have their shirts off, and all three of them come running into the water. They all swim over to join us in our game, since what Sarah, mum and Manuel's dad, are doing looks boring. They have no real idea what we are playing at, but it seems like fun so all three of them are keen. Well François was, until his nephew lobs him my shorts and he realises what is going on. The man has a comical look on his face when he catches my togs and puts two and two together, but instead of being like a prim and proper adult about it and giving them back, before telling me to put them on while scolding us, he continues the game. Now it is four to one on me, as they all play a game of keep away with my shorts, but I decide to try and even up the teams and do a bit of underwater swimming again until I find Pierre. This time I rip his shorts off so fast that he doesn't have any time to react, so before he has quite cottoned on to what I have done, I have already thrown his shorts to Callum. Needless to say Callum looks a little bemused, because at the same time he receives Pierre's shorts François has also thrown him mine. Now the little tyke has both our shorts and he doesn't quite know what to do, especially since we are both bearing down on him at a great rate of knots. Callum quickly discards one of our shorts over to Manuel, but realises that he isn't going to have time to get rid of the second pair, so he panics and throws it straight at us. We have other plans though, so dive underwater, totally ignoring the shorts that have just been thrown at us. Callum is miles too slow to work out what is about to happen, so doesn't get a chance to try and escape until it is too late and he has lost his shorts as well. He yelps in surprise and panic, once he feels us tug on his shorts while in the process of trying to remove them, but his cries go largely ignored, except for Manuel who quickly realises what is happening. By this stage Manuel has swum out and re-gathered the other pair of shorts which Callum had biffed at us. The sneaky sod isn't done there, because he swims over to where he expects us to resurface and rips Callum's shorts out of Pierre's hands the moment he surfaces. Pierre had been the one to take the shorts off Callum, so he also was the one to come back to the surface with them. Neither of us expected the cheeky bugger to be quite so brazen, given he must know that he is our next target, so Pierre didn't have a good enough grip on the shorts to keep hold of them. Manuel then makes his overall plan loud and clear, when he starts swimming frantically towards the riverside. It takes a moment or two for any of us to work out Manuel's plan, so by that stage he is already halfway to shore. Finally cottoning onto his evil plan, I set off, giving a desperate chase to try and catch him before he makes it. Despite being a good swimmer I still can't get enough speed to catch the boy over such a short distance, so Manuel makes it to the shore easily, and throws all our shorts high up on the bank out of our reach, which means if we want them back we will have to climb up the bank buck naked to retrieve them. I give up trying to chase him now, because there is no longer any point. I also don't stand any chance of being able to swim underwater to get his, because the river is too shallow at this point to be able to do it, so I turn around and head back to the others. Pierre and Callum give up without a chase and have decided not to worry about it and just have fun, so they are busy splashing each other like nothing is out of the ordinary. François on the other hand has mixed emotions, because I can tell he is trying his hardest to give Manuel a disapproving look, but he is also trying to stop himself from giggling. I decide to join the other two and continue playing around like there is nothing unusual about what we are doing, but Manuel knows that he is stuck. He can't come and join us because he will get ganged up on, and he doesn't want to join anyone else, because they are just boring, so he doesn't know what to do. Manuel decides there is only one thing he can do, so removes his own shorts and throws them up with the rest, before swimming back over to join the rest of us. None of us had seen him take off his own pants though, so as soon as he comes within reach, we all go for him. Instead of any of us getting his shorts, I get hold of his long appendage which surprises the hell out of me and Manuel, while Callum and Pierre get and arse cheek each. Manuel squeals loudly from the unexpected groping, well, he sort of expected it, but thought we might have been paying more attention to him and noticed that he had taken off his shorts. Needless to the say the rest of us blush bright red knowing we are groping Manuel out in the open because the bugger doesn't have his shorts on any more, so we quickly let the boy go and go back to playing. It takes a little while for us to get back in the swing of things, because we are all feeling a bit awkward over what happened. I don't know why we are so awkward over the whole incident, because it's not like we haven't done things like this before, but I suppose it was more because we never intended to fondle him like that which made us feel uncomfortable doing it. After all it was supposed to be semi-innocent, because we only meant to take off his shorts, not play with his anatomy. Typically though, as soon as we get back into the spirit of things, mum decides to kill our fun, by telling us all that it is time to get out so that we can have a better look at the aqueduct, before moving on. The adults, François included, have all waded back to the spot we had got in from and are getting out of the water. The spot they are getting out from is the easiest place, because there is a little rocky beach there, whereas everywhere else the river runs right up to a clay bank, which is very steep and difficult to get out from. This is the part none of us had really thought about, and Manuel knows he is the biggest culprit now. We are all going to have to get out of the river starkers. The only thing that is running through my mind at the moment is how surprised mum is going to be. François is on the verge of giving us away before we even get out, because he is struggling like crazy to supress his laughter. I decide that there is no point in making a fuss about it, so I get out of the water as naturally as possible, like I have everything on that I'm supposed to. Pierre and Manuel follow me closely behind, because neither of them are worried about being naked either, but Callum on the other hand lags behind us a little, because he is worried about mum's reaction. "Why the hell have you lot got no clothes... ahh... don't worry, never mind," mum says a little bemused at seeing us all starkers, while we get out of the river. She gives up worrying about it, because it is all said and done now, so there is no point to making a big fuss about it. I know she really wants to tell us off for being naked, but it shows how much she has changed by the way she doesn't. In the end she shrugs her shoulders in a manner saying that boys will be boys and leaves it at that. Callum feels a lot more comfortable knowing that mum isn't going to go nuclear on us, so comes out of his shell and starts acting normally again. "You had better go and get your shorts, but don't get them dirty because I don't want to waste any more time getting you all cleaned up," mum says, trying to sound as threatening as possible. We know that we aren't in any real trouble for the moment, providing we don't push her, so we do as we are told without saying a word. We all make sure to slip our feet into our jandals before we go on our way, to ensure we don't cut our feet up by standing on something sharp. The main problem we have is going along the bank towards where Manuel threw our shorts, because despite all the fine weather the bank is slippery as hell. We have to be ultra-cautious as we make our way along the river bank to ensure we don't slip over and end up back in the river, or even worse, get ourselves dirty. Somehow we all make it to where our shorts are without any of us slipping up. We almost walk straight past our shorts, because the whole time we had been searching the ground for them, but somehow when Manuel threw them, they ended up getting caught in the branches of the bushes growing along the bank. Callum and Manuel have no problem picking out their shorts because theirs stand out more than Pierre's and mine. Callum picks his blue board shorts, which have a white floral pattern on them, out of the bush that they are hanging from and puts them on. Manuel had bright orange knee length cotton shorts, which acts like a beacon with the way they reflect brightly in the summer sun. He quickly pulls them out of the bush and like Callum, puts them on to cover his dignity. Pierre and me have a little more problem finding ours, because the black league shorts don't stand out as much as the youngsters' brighter coloured ones. Once we have found them after a pretty decent search, we then have to work out which ones are whose. In the end it is a little easier to work out which ones are mine, because they have the grey stripes down the sides, whereas Pierre's don't. Instead of putting them on like the youngsters have, we put them on our heads, sort of like a hat. We haven't done this so much because we want to be stark naked, it is more to ensure that they stay clean on the off chance we slip over on the journey back. The two younger ones think we are messing around and laugh at us for putting our shorts on our heads, until Manuel slips and almost gets his shorts dirty. Callum is the one who picks up on it first, because he knows how serious mum is about not getting dirty, and he has also figured out that is the reason we have our shorts on our heads. Without thinking twice about it he pulls his shorts back off, and puts them on his head as well. Manuel gives him a funny look, because he still hasn't worked out why we all have our shorts on our heads. "Manuel, put your shorts on your head, so that they don't get dirty. You don't want mum getting angry if you slip again and dirty your shorts," Callum tells him , because he doesn't want to see his friend, and by the looks of it, soon to be brother, get in trouble. Finally seeing the reason we have put our shorts on our heads, Manuel quickly follows suit. I do have to say that it must look hilarious to anyone who might have seen us. I mean four naked boys wandering around the edge of a river with shorts on their heads, wouldn't be something you would see every day, and looking at the way the others look makes it hard for me not to crack up laughing. It takes us just as long to wander back as it had to find our shorts in the first place, but we all make it back clean and relatively unscathed. I say relatively because we all have numerous small scratches on our arms and legs, caused from rubbing against branches of bushes which overhang too close to the river's edge to get past without brushing up against them, but in general we are fine because none of our scratches drew any blood. As soon as we know we are safe from the risk of slipping and getting dirty, we put on our shorts again. At this point I wonder why Pierre and I didn't put them on in the first place, because they are so short that the risk of them getting dirty was minimal. Oh well, it was still good to be naked, even if there was no need for it. We make our way back down onto the rocky beach where everyone is waiting for us. They all look surprised when they see us coming back, because none of them expected us to have put our shorts back on, but I'm pretty sure that they are glad we have, because they have that look to them as well. Once on the beach we all locate our shirts and towels, then sling them over our shoulders. Pierre and I desperately want to get some colour back into our skin, so want as much of our bodies to be exposed to the sun as possible. I love the sun here in southern France, because it's nowhere near as intense as it is back in New Zealand, meaning I should be able to spend all day outside with no shirt on and still not get sunburnt. Back home that isn't possible during summer as the UV levels are extreme, because the country is within close proximity to the hole in the ozone layer. So if I had been out in the sun for this long back home, with no sunscreen or shirt, then I would be burnt to a crisp by now. The biggest advantage of the high UV levels back home is that I tan a lot quicker. With the amount of time I have been out in the sun today I would have expected to see some obvious results tan-wise, but alas I don't notice any difference to how I looked this morning. Even Pierre hasn't got noticeably darker, and he grew up in this climate, but I suppose to expect instant results are unrealistic no matter where you live. Once we are all ready to go, mum and Manuel's dad set off, taking the lead like normal. I am instantly caught off guard and so is Pierre, because mum doesn't go the same way back. Instead we end up on what looks to be a better maintained pathway which heads along the river bank towards the Pont du Gard. The pathway is so easy going compared with the one we took to get here, and it gradually ascends towards the top of the hill. Once we make it to the top and out of the bush, we are greeted by a huge sealed parking lot. The first thought which comes to my mind is `why the hell didn't mum park here', but I quickly realise that it would have given away our location, and mum wanted to see if Pierre could remember or not. That has to be the reason mum used the other car park, because I can think of no other logical reason for it. From the car park we wander along another walkway, through the Mediterranean bush to the aqueduct itself. During the walk we learn a lot about this wonderful and magnificent example of human engineering which was built by the romans way back in nineteen BC. The uppermost tier of the aqueduct is two hundred and seventy five metres long and contains thirty five arches. The structure stands fifty metres above the Gard River, and used to carry twenty thousand cubic meters of water per day from nearby Uzès to Nimes. We spend a good hour walking about, enjoying the sights and sounds, and especially taking in as much of the magnificent structure as we can. By the time we have made it back to the car park we are all pretty bushed from the exercise, as well as the heat of the day, and starting to get hungry. We walk through the car park towards the main road, which once we get to it confirms my thoughts. Opposite the parking lot is a big sign indicating that this is a parking area for the Pont du Gard, so it definitely would have been a giveaway if we had come to this lot. We continue to trundle along the side of the road back in the direction of Nimes, but due to there being no proper sidewalk it is awkward and slow going. About five hundred metres further down the road we pass another sign indicating that the parking lot for the Pont du Gard is approaching, which allows enough time for motorists to slow down safely to pull into the lot if that is where they are heading. We walk for another two hundred metres before we round a small bend in the road, and around three hundred metres past that is the parking area which mum had used. We get back to the van all tired and sweaty. Despite having no shirts on, the heat of the sun mixed with the heat radiating up from the ground is sweltering, making us sweat profusely and zapping our energy levels. We make it to the van which mum promptly unlocks, allowing us to open the rear sliding door and pile in, crashing into our seats. The van is surprisingly cool given how hot it is outside, but we have mum to thank for that, because she figured that the day was going to get pretty hot, so she ensured that she parked the van under the shade of a couple of tall trees. Once we are all slumped into our seats, mum starts to hand out some sandwiches and drinks to everyone, which impresses me to know that she planned so far ahead to get this for us. What impresses me most is that the juice is still ice cold, because mum had talked the hotel manager into putting them into the freezer overnight. The ice cold liquid feels wonderful as it slides down my parched throat, and I instantly feel a heap better for the drink. The sandwiches are nice too, but don't last anywhere near long enough, because I have scoffed them down within a matter of seconds. All in all I'm feeling a lot better after the food and the drink, because my energy levels seem to be increasing again and I don't feel like I'm cooking so much any more. The shade helps in that respect too, but I almost wish that we could go for another swim to cool off properly again, but I know that isn't going to happen when mum gets in the van and starts it up. `Oh well, maybe another day', I think to myself while putting on my seatbelt. Once everyone is belted in mum drives out of the car park and continues down the road away from Nimes. I am glad that we aren't going back to Nimes because I want to see Avignon, well at least if that is where we are going. I don't know the roads around here, so we could still end up going somewhere different, but I doubt it. I mean surely mum wouldn't bring us all the way down here if she didn't plan on stopping in Avignon, but then again this is mum I'm talking about and she is capable of anything. Pierre decides that he wants to lean against me, given he has taken the middle seat, leaving me with the window one. So he rests his head against mine, before the rest of his body follows. At the same time he wraps his arm around me, so I do the same thing. It feels so nice having him so close to me, especially during a beautiful drive like we are on now. The scenery is gorgeous, being beautifully green Mediterranean bush and scrub everywhere you look. We suddenly burst out of the bush, as we cross a bridge over the Gard River, but the scenery doesn't die away now we are on the bridge, instead it gets even better. We are now right beside the lower tier of the Pont du Gard aqueduct, which towers over the bridge we are on, like we are insignificant in comparison. The structure looks so close, as I gaze at it through the window of the van, that I believe I could almost open the window and reach out and touch it. It is a truly magnificent structure, one that I am so glad that I have had the opportunity to see, but all too soon it disappears as we careen back into bush on the other side of the river. I am disappointed that it has gone, because I know that I will probably never get the chance to see it again, well, at least not for a long time, but I thoroughly enjoyed it while it lasted. The trip goes smoothly, as we head presumably towards Avignon. The bush has all but gone now that we have got away from the Gard River, and has been replaced by countryside. There is a huge range of different uses for the land; some have been set up as orchards, others graze cattle or other livestock, then there is the occasional small vineyard, but the biggest thing I have noticed is the amount of lavender growing around here. The herb gives the air a pleasant aroma, which blasts into the van through the open windows in front of us. Everything seems to run well and the trip goes smoothly, up until we round one last bend which puts us onto a massive straight piece of road, then things quickly get really weird. Not long after we round the bend I start experiencing problems. My mind keeps flashing these strange but brief images in my head. They only last milliseconds, which isn't enough time for my brain to understand anything about the pictures flashing through it. The further along the straight we go, the more intense the images become as they flash through my head. I still can't make any sense of them at all, but it is making my head spin, and I'm starting to feel nauseous. I have noticed just how bouncy the back seat of the van is too, which isn't helping my stomach on little bit. Instead it makes it ten times worse and I am starting to sweat profusely, because of how sick I'm feeling. All of a sudden Pierre lets me go and sits bolt upright. He is in some sort of a trance, because something has got into his mind. His body all of a sudden starts to shake violently, making me scared that something is severely wrong, especially given how crook I'm feeling right now. The images in my head seem to be piecing themselves together, but I can't handle it any more because I feel like I'm on the verge of throwing up all over the place. "Mum, stop the car now, cos I think I'm going to be sick!" I scream urgently, hoping to hell that mum can hear me from all the way up the front. She does because I feel the van swerve to the side of the road and then brake heavily, almost to the extent that I'm expecting to hear the tyres squeal, as they come to a skidding stop. "Maman, maman, ou es-tu maman?" Pierre screams in a panic, once the car has come to a dead stop. He is not in the van, so to speak, because his mind is definitely elsewhere. I know where his mind is, because mine is in the same place. I'm not sure whether I have lost consciousness or not, but that isn't too important. All I know is what the images which had been flashing through my head are. It seems that Pierre had started to recall the accident in which his mother was killed, and that's what the pieces of information flying around in my head were. Once Pierre had finally pieced them all together it was like I was at the scene of the crash, because I can see every little detail like it had been me in Pierre's place. The crash was horrific and being able to experience what Pierre went through has made me aware of why he struggled so long with violent nightmares. I know that it is going to leave its mark on me and I didn't even experience it first hand, although this dream I'm having makes me feel like I had. It is surreal and hard to explain properly, but somehow I am able to see what Pierre is, and I too at the moment am looking around, desperate to find Pierre's mum. Everyone turns around immediately after Pierre's outburst, looking extremely worried about what is going on with us. Their concerns are not eased one little bit when they see Pierre in a trance-like state, and me pretty much comatose beside him. They have no idea what is going on, which has them worried that we all might have eaten something bad. Even François hasn't picked up on what is happening, yet he should have been able to understand what Pierre had screamed. Mum and Manuel's dad quickly unbuckle their seat belts, throw open their doors and sramble to see what is going on with us. Almost as soon as Manuel's dad gets out of the van, he trips on something, but pays no attention to it and continues on. He throws the sliding door open and climbs into the back of the van and heads over to us. Using the back of his hand he feels our foreheads to see if we are running a fever, which we must be because his hand doesn't stay in contact too long before he pulls it away in a hurry. "They're both burning up, something must be seriously wrong!" he says, rather freaked out. It makes everyone else even more worried, because whatever we have come down with they are likely to get too, well, so they think. "Jean, did you notice this cross down here when you got out of the van?" mum asks. Her expression has changed from worried about our health, to wondering whether there maybe something else at play here, but she doesn't know how to confirm it. "Yeah, I saw it, after I tripped up on the damn thing," he replies, a little annoyed at himself for missing the bright white cross on the side of the road. "François, do you have any idea whereabouts... well... um... you know... your sister died?" mum asks, stammering along because she doesn't want to upset him all over again. "Huh...? You don't think... is there a name on the cross, because usually they put the names on them?" François replies in total disbelief with what mum is implying. Mum gives him a sheepish look, because she hadn't even thought about that. She then crouches down in front of the cross and brushes aside the long grass which has partially covered it, while Manuel's dad continues to gently try and bring us back to the land of the living. François and the boys are undoing their seatbelts, because they want to see if they can be of any assistance to either mum or Manuel's dad. "Was your sister's name Sonia Lacroix?" mum asks, while she reads the name which is inscribed on the cross, although she pretty much knows the answer. She knows Pierre's last name off by heart now, because of all the documentation she was required to fill out as part of the adoption, so she knows that my boyfriend's last name and the surname of the person on the cross, are the same. "Yes that is my sister, god bless her. I still cannot believe what has happened though, because it almost seems like Pierre and Josh have just been through the same thing, and I don't think it's anything to do with food poisoning. I think Pierre remembered what has happened, and somehow Josh has been able to see what Pierre has," François says, unsure whether he is making any sense at all, because the whole thing sounds a little crazy. "I know what you mean. I've been thinking the same thing ever since I saw the cross. I still can't believe that their episode made us stop on the exact point where the accident happened," mum replies, to which François nods his head indicating that he can't believe the coincidence either. "I remember... I remember what happened!" Pierre cries suddenly, because he has come out of his trance finally, but this has led to his emotions taking full control of him. He starts bawling his eyes out, while the nightmare replays in his mind and he realises again what has happened to his mother. "Oh Pierre, I know what you have been through now!" I wail after what must have seemed like an eternity to everyone. I have been slowly waking from my comatose state for a while, but up until now my mind hasn't been working. I then grab hold of him and pull him into me for a tight cuddle, because I know how much he needs it, and to be honest after seeing what he has been through, I need it too. "Huh...? Did you see it too?" Pierre sobs, trying to fully understand what I said. I just hug him tighter and bury my head in his shoulder while I cry my eyes out too. I never do answer him, because I know that he already knows. Pierre and I cuddle together for a long while, crying together, but for different reasons. I'm crying because I feel the pain and agony he went through that day, while he is crying from remembrance. There is no grief behind his tears because he already has closure, it is purely because he now remembers the whole accident again which has him crying. He can feel the pain and the sense of loss he felt on that horrible day and it is more than he can take. "Is this the... is this the spot where mum died?" Pierre asks quietly, only sobbing now because he is starting to get his emotions back under control. I still can't get mine in order because the feelings are all too new to me, and I feel the loss he experienced that day like I have just lost my own mother. "Yes Pierre, you two managed to get us to stop in the exact spot where the accident happened," François replies sombrely. Pierre nods his head in understanding, because he had a gut feeling that is what happened. He also wants to get out and witness the place where his mum died all over again, but he isn't quite ready for that. He needs me to be there with him, but I'm still too much of a wreck and he is too scared to go on his own. He tries to sooth my mood by gently stroking my back, while he continues to hug me, but he isn't going to try and rush me through it. He knows why I'm so upset and he also realises that I have just experienced the crash he was in, like I was there myself, so he knows it's going to take a bit of time to get me to settle down again. "Josh, I want to get out and see the accident site again," Pierre says, once I have started to take control of my emotions again. I had expected him to say this, so all I do is nod my head in agreement. "Are you so sure about this?" Manuel's dad asks, because he is a little worried about how well we will handle it, given we have spent a good part of an hour in tears. He is still in the seat beside us, where he has been since we made the van stop and he took it upon himself to be our nurse. We both nod our heads in unison, knowing that this is something Pierre has to do and I'm going to be there for him. Manuel's dad doesn't try to argue, instead he gets out of the seat and backs his way out of the back of the van, to allow us to get out as well. Tentatively Pierre unbuckles his seatbelt and I do the same, and he slowly gets up and walks towards the door. I take his hand to remind him I'm with him all the way on this, but he still gets slower and slower the closer to the door he gets. Once at the door, he takes a big deep breath in, and jumps out of the van before his mind has a chance to tell him not to. I follow immediately behind, because I'm still holding his hand and behind me comes François. The boys and Sarah all stay put in the van, because they know that this is a moment for Pierre and François, and they know the reason I'm there is to support my lover. Mum and Manuel's dad also decide to allow them a bit of privacy to pay their respects, so they both climb back into the front of the van, leaving us three out by ourselves. The first thing we come across once out of the van is the cross, which causes both Pierre and François to crumble to their knees. I decide that it's best to do what they do in order to be totally respectful for their loss, so I also get down on my knees. The three of us kneel there staring at the cross in a trance. It's almost like it has us hypnotised under its spell, and causes us all to lose ourselves in our thoughts. What the cross means to us all is effectively the same thing, and that is the end of one family, but the start of a new and wonderful one. It is hard to fathom that someone's death could spur something so much bigger and so magical, but that is exactly what seems to have happened because of the death of Sonia. Subconsciously François and Pierre hold hands, while they both pray together in remembrance of Sonia's life. I pray alongside them, because I feel that she is as much my family now as she is theirs, due to the way Pierre and I love each other so much. The prayer is short and sweet, but from the bottom of the heart. François and Pierre both make sure that they say their prayers in English because I am with them and they regard me as close family. I surprise both of them by saying a prayer of my own, which is effectively thanking her for giving birth to such a wonderful child, and being a great sister to my new uncle. I also tell her how much I would have loved to have met her, but realise that things would be a lot different if that could have happened. It is a hard thing to say, especially in front of her son and brother, but they are both fully aware that her death led to us being together. Once I have finished my prayer, we continue to kneel in silence for a couple of minutes, before standing back up. All three of us cautiously walk around the van so we can see the piece of road which the accident took place on. I have to say that it is hard to imagine such carnage taking place here, because we are almost in the middle of a long perfectly straight piece of road. It is not the sort of place you expect a major accident to occur on, but stranger things have happened and to a drunk it doesn't matter how straight a road is; if they are going to crash it could be anywhere. Slowly we start to head back around the van, then climb back inside and take our seats. François slides the door closed behind him, then takes his seat. Once all three of us are seated and belted in, mum starts the van back up. Thankfully she had been wise and killed the engine shortly after we stopped, otherwise we would have wasted a lot of gas with how long we have been here. Mum lets the van gently idle away for a few minutes, while she gives her own prayer and blessing to the spot. She feels that it is something she should do, given she is the mother to the other half of the family. Pierre and François both appreciate the thought, especially because it shows the unity of the two families once and for all. I am thrilled with it too, because it shows that she has fully accepted our relationship, otherwise she would never have done such a thing. After that mum slowly and respectfully starts to accelerate the van away from the spot and merge back onto the road. She does so with absolute grace and the utmost respect to the deadly site, and she also makes sure that she does it safely because she doesn't want to cause another major accident here. Pierre and I turn around and look out the back window, watching the white cross get smaller and smaller, before it finally disappears. It is a strange sight seeing this lone white cross on such a long straight road, but I suppose that is the way life works out at times. Once the cross has disappeared, we turn back around to sit in our seats properly and embrace each other in a loving hug. ************ Comments are always welcome at (pennywise3636@gmail.com). Please keep all comments clean. If possible please kick in a few bucks at the Nifty Website, to keep it up and running. The site puts in a lot of effort and work so that we all have a place to come and contribute or read some fine stories.