Date: Thu, 13 Jul 2006 03:03:24 -0700 (PDT) From: chefjlu@sbcglobal.net Subject: When I Knew I was Gay Disclaimer: If you are not yet 18 years of age or if it is illegal to read materials of this kind where you live, then please stop now. This story contains descriptions of sexual activity between teenage boys and men. And is for adult eyes only! The acts are consensual and are a result of their love or lust for one another. This story is completely true, all personal descriptions, and names have been changed to protect people's identities and privacy. I would love to hear from you, so write to me about your experiences. I'm a 5' 9", teddy bear, dark blonde hair, fairly hairy, 6" cut, low-hangers with blue-gray eyes, and mid-forties now. I have many stories to relate about my early years of sexual experimentation. This story relates to my knowing I was gay. We were on our way to my mother's parent's house. They lived a little over an hour away in a small town surrounded by farms on Lake Ontario. I loved going there, there were horses to ride, some other farm animals, lots of fruit trees to climb, a couple of large barns to play in and quite a few farm hand kids to play with. Even though the farm had a large pool, we often went down to the beach on Lake Ontario to play and swim. In addition there was a large boat my grandparents owned that we could go on and if the weather was good my grandfather would have one the hands come down and take us out for a cruise on the lake! I was telling Joey about all the things to do and he was real excited about being at the farm. My brother and Pete were talking about getting together some of the other kids and playing some baseball. I always had more fun in and around the barns with the farmhands and usually could get one of them to saddle up a horse so I could go riding. With over 3400 acres there were miles of trails to ride on; I could head just about anywhere as long as I took a walkie-talkie along. When we got there my grandmother came out to meet everyone. My brother and Pete quickly ran over to grab a couple of bikes we kept at the farm and said they were headed to get a game of baseball going. My grandmother figured I wanted to show Joey the barns and horses and told me my grandfather was already at the horse barn getting a couple of horses ready for us to ride. Joey was real excited; he had never been near a live horse let alone ridden one. We walked over to the horse barn and I called out my grandfather's name, Jim one of the farmhands answered he was over getting us a fresh walkie-talkie and would be right back. When I walked into the stall area Jim grabbed me by the waist and threw me up in the air laughing. He was a big guy, about 6' 4" and muscular, he always helped me on the horses and generally horsed around with me and my friends when we were on the farm. He and his wife had lived on the farm for over 20 years. Their kids were at college now and they treated me and my brother like one of their own kids. My grandfather walked in and gave me a big hug and asked who my friend was. I introduced Joey and knew my grandfather was not impressed. It took him a bit to trust anyone and when I said he had never ridden a horse my grandfather got on the farm phone and called one of the other farm hand's houses and told them to have Jerry come up to the horse barn and go riding with us. I knew the routine and didn't even try to argue. Besides I knew Jerry well and he was a real nice guy, he always referred to me as lil'bro. Jerry was 20 or 21, attended a local college while continuing to work on the farm. He was a great horse rider and actually showed a couple of the horses in competition at state events and the State Fair. He was about 5' 10" with straw blond hair, blue eyes and tanned from being outside so much. When he came in the barn he shook my hand and mentioned how much I had grown in the past year. I took a different interest in him; he looked so hot in his faded jeans, polo shirt and square-toed boots! I introduced Joey, and then my grandfather took Jerry aside and gave him the speech. I knew the speech; my grandfather was very strict and didn't want any funny stuff on the ride. He warned Joey about not asking to rest every so often or he would be sore from riding. He went to say something to me and Jim laughed asking him if I would really pay attention. He replied he guessed not, but that mom would be mad at him if he let me run wild. Jim laughed and remarked it never stopped me before! So we mounted up and took off toward the back acreage and into the orchards. My horse's name was Bay Red and I rode him often. He was about 15 hands high and real gentle, but would really run if I wanted him to. Joey was riding Starlake who was about 14 hands high and older so he was very predictable to ride. Jim had saddled up Jerry's own horse, North Pointe who was jet black with a white patch on his head and stood at between 17 and 18 hands high. North Pointe was quite spirited but Jerry controlled him well. He was one of the fastest horses on the farm and commanded respect. We had been riding about 15 or 20 minutes when Jerry suggested we stop and take a rest. Joey said he was fine but Jerry insisted and we stopped and got a soda out of our saddle bags. Jerry asked Joey some questions about where he was from and Jerry remarked he had gone to the city to see the Yankees play last year. He couldn't imagine living in the city it was so big. We finally got back on and began riding some more. I was eager to show off a little and began circling some trees and riding up ahead, stopping while they caught up. Jerry told me to be careful he didn't want to have to answer to my grandfather if I got hurt. I laughed and told him not to worry. Just up ahead Jerry suggested we head over to one of the ponds on the farm and take a swim. This sounded like a great idea as it was about 90 and sunny out so I for one was hot. We tied the horses to a tree and my saddle always had a pair of swim trunks in one of the saddle bags which I quickly got changed into. Without being obvious I was trying to keep an eye on Jerry while he changed. I had seen his chest before, lightly dusted with hair on his pecs and a trail running down the middle of his stomach to his belly button and beyond. When he pulled his briefs off - WOW! His cock was huge! At least 6 or 7 inches hanging straight down and thick as a soda can. It was surrounded by dark blond hair and his balls were the size of large limes barely hanging in a hairy sack. Joey looked lost wondering what to wear when I reached into one his saddle bags and found the swim trunks I knew would be there. When I turned back to look at Jerry he had pulled up his trunks, but I still admired his full ass. It was a real athletic man's ass. Square cut, full and protruding out moving up and down as he walked to the water. Joey pulled on his trunks and we ran into the pond diving under the water. Jerry remarked that the water was warm, almost like bath water. We swam out to the center about 20 feet and Joey asked how deep it was. I told him maybe 15 feet, you could easily swim to the bottom and back up holding your breath. Jerry was swimming casually back and forth while Joey and I began diving trying to see what was on the bottom. We began doing some foot dives and splashing around when I noticed Jerry had gotten out and was lying on his towel on his back. His cock was big enough to cause quite a bulge in his trunks and as he lay there it appeared to get larger. We soon got out of the water and Joey went to get another soda for everyone. I didn't realize that Jerry had his eyes open slightly and remarked it wasn't nice to stare. I apologized but also remarked about how big his cock was. He didn't respond as Joey returned with a soda for everyone. Jerry asked Joey if his legs felt okay and he nodded yes. We told him we better head back, that this was enough riding for a first timer. He acted tough and said he would be fine. Unfortunately Jerry and I knew better. When we got back to the barn I told Joey to head back to the house it was close to supper time. I was going to stay and help unsaddle the horses and put things away. As he walked away Jerry remarked that he seemed like a nice kid, but being from the city I better be careful. Jim was heading home to eat and asked if we needed help, we replied no. Once we were alone Jerry brought the topic of his cock up. He remarked to me that he did have a big cock (not bragging) and that it was more of a curse than a blessing. I figured every girl would be after him. He told me about being picked on in the locker room at school. One girl he dated laughed when he suggested they have sex and told him it was too big to fit in her! He was 21 and still a virgin except to his hand. He had me follow him into the barn shower room, a room with 4 shower stalls in it for the hands to use. A door at the end lead into a couple of toilet stalls. Once we were in the changing area he dropped his pants and briefs and asked if I wanted to see just how big his cock was. A bit scared I said yes. He began jacking on his cock and it began to get hard lengthening as he beat his meat. He told me to go get a measure and bring it back. I found a tape measure in the tack room and brought it to him. He pushed it back in my hand, leaned out on the bench on his back and told me to measure his cock on the top from his pubes to the tip. I put the measure at his base and pulled it along his cock grabbing his cock to steady it. His cock was almost 10", just under and I couldn't help but stroke his cock up and down a couple of times just to feel it. My hand wouldn't reach all the way around it. I asked him if he had jacked off with other guys and he quickly replied never. The guys in high school, even his friends teased him about his cock. They had all kinds of names like peg-legged Pete, Donkey man, Tripod and more. Besides he wasn't a faggot. I told him I wasn't saying he was but a lot of guys play around to get them off when the girls are scarce. He said he knew of some guys who it was rumored did stuff like that, but he was too afraid of being picked on. I told him I would do him if he promised not to tell anyone. He thought about it some and said he thought it would be okay. I had a hard-on that wouldn't quit in my pants but was afraid of a negative reaction if I took it out. I could smell the clean sweat odor of his crotch and it was really turning me on. As I began jacking on his cock I couldn't help but lean down and begin licking at his ball sack. It was clean from the swim, but wet with sweat from the ride back to the barns. I began licking on his cock shaft and with a shaking voice he told me to stop that was queer. I did for a minute but taking a chance when I stroked my hand down his cock I dove down and engulfed as much of his cock as I could. His eyes went wide and he sat up asking loudly what I thought I was doing. I told him I was sucking his cock. He said "I know that, but we're not queer!" I said "maybe you aren't but I have found out a lot about myself this summer, and I like guys"! He looked at me a second and begged me not to tell anyone and said he wasn't going to ask now, but sometime we were going to have a long talk. He then looked me straight in the eye and sternly asked if I really wanted to do this? I eagerly told him yes and he said okay but it is just between us! He lay back to take in the sensations coursing through his body and I made another move lightly probing my left index finger into his ass cleft between his legs. His ass cleft was hairy and hot to the touch. I brought that finger up to my nose and took a good whiff which sent my head reeling. The musty smell of a man's ass and crotch was such a turn- on. I probed his ass again, a bit more forcefully and felt the tip of my finger enter the beginning of his asshole. When I brought this to my nose I saw his eyes open and just stare at me like I was a crazy pervert. I put my finger to his nose and heard him take a sniff and felt his cock actually harden. I moved down to lick on his balls again and pushed his legs a bit wider so I could begin my move down to his ass cleft. When I licked behind his ball sack I heard and felt a deep moan escape him. I nibbled lightly on the area just before his ass cleft started and when I felt him relax a bit I moved on to lick up towards his asshole. I thought he was going to jump off the bench straight into the air. With a touch of anger in his voice he told me "nobody is going to fuck me!" I moved away from his crotch for a moment and explained I wasn't planning to fuck him; I just wanted to lick his ass. His nose crinkled up and he looked a bit bewildered asking me why I wanted to lick his ass! "That's dirty! That's disgusting! Who in their right mind licks another guy's ass?" I told him to give it a try, after all dogs do it and seem to enjoy it. Don't really know where that argument came from?! Then I told him it felt really good and if he didn't like it I would stop. He finally gave in and turned onto his stomach presenting me with his full-sized man ass. I stared at it memorizing it for future jack-off sessions. It was lightly haired in blond and medium-blond hair that grew thicker as you moved towards his ass crack. Something else I noticed was a patch of hair on the small of his back just above his waist. I hadn't noticed this on a man before but found it so sexy. I leaned up and began licking this hair above his ass. It was salty and wet with sweat. I began moving down into his ass crack kissing, licking and nipping at his ass cheeks. As I began moving my face into his ass the musty musk scent of his sweat and ass intensified. As I moved to plant a kiss on his asshole I felt him arch his ass up and groan. His hole tasted great and I attacked it with a fever. The heat between his cheeks was incredible! I pulled my face out of his ass and admired the look of his asshole. A tight donut ring surrounded by long brown hair matted down with my spit and saliva. I blew lightly on his asshole and watched it spasm in and out, beckoning me to continue my ministrations on his ass. I dove back into that lovely ass and planted my lips on his hole sucking hard to open that hole up. I did this 3 or 4 times watching his hole open and push back before "snapping" back in. On the last suck I probed his ass lips with my tongue feeling my tongue tip enter his ass! This sent him over the edge and he looked back my way asking where I learned to do this? I thought about it and replied I didn't really know, I had only licked a couple of asses before his. He reached back with his right hand and placed it behind my head pushing me into his ass moving his ass up and down and wiggling it trying to somehow shove my face up into his asshole. At this point he somehow figured out how to open that rosebud of an asshole up and let me tongue in. With an intense rapid tongue fucking of his asshole he was moaning and lost in his orgasm as I felt his hole tighten and begin to contract in spasm around my furled tongue. His cock was shooting out a thick, creamy load hitting the bench and floor. He collapsed and turned onto his back, leaning up to grasp me in a hug. Out of nowhere he kissed me directly on my lips! He was saying "thank you", "thank you" over and over. I was a bit confused but enjoyed to intimate contact with him. I kissed him back when he pushed his tongue into my mouth. Our tongues battled one another while he continued to suck on my lips, tongue and mouth. He looked at his watch and said we better get a move on before a search party came looking. I watched him redress mentally taking pictures of his cock, balls, ass and face! It was puppy love, but I know I had a crush on him. I headed to the house and he headed home. When I walked in my grandmother said I was just in time as dinner was just starting. Grandpa asked if everything was put away and I told him yes. My mother asked how Jerry was and how were his parents? I replied fine and that his mom wanted to see her before she left since they hadn't seen each other in a while. Dinner was great and afterwards Grandma set all us kids up with ice cream sundaes to watch some TV in the den. Around 9pm or so Dad announced it was time to head home and we piled into the car. It was an 8 passenger Custom Cruiser and Joey and I sat in the far back seat, while my brother and Peter sat in the middle seat. Joey said he had a lot of fun and maybe we would come back up before he had to leave. I said maybe and we fell off asleep. At home I told Joey we would sleep in the house tonight and we went to bed. With the nap in the car coming home neither one of us was sleepy now so we lay in bed talking. He asked about Jerry and I kept my word not telling him anything. I said Jerry treated me like a kid brother. He said it seemed we took a long time and I said that was because we had to unsaddle and clean 3 horses not just 2. We quickly fell asleep and mom let us sleep in a bit the next morning before waking us up. When we went to get out of bed I saw Joey wince some when he walked over to the bathroom. I chuckled and told him we said he would be sore from riding the horse. He smirked and said he was more than sore! What should he do? I told him to take a warm bath and soak for 15 or so minutes. That would help and to take a couple of aspirin or Tylenol. He was so sore he didn't feel like doing much of anything. So we hung around the house playing cards and watching TV. After we ate dinner we headed outside to the barn and it was evident that Joey was still stiff and sore from his horse ride. Once I finished my chores I suggested we watch some TV in the camper and I would rub his legs to get the soreness out of them. My massage of his legs turned both of us on and I could see his cock hard in his shorts and mine was hard as well. I suggested he take off his shorts so I could rub his thighs better. He was wearing a pair of Hanes briefs and they molded to his ass cheeks perfectly. I couldn't resist reaching up and rubbing his ass while I worked on his legs. For a bit of fun I leaned into his ass and pushed my face into his ass crack taking a deep breath of his scent. He had an incredible smell, sweaty yet sweet and musky. I couldn't stop now; I grabbed onto the waistband of his briefs and pulled them down before returning to lick up and down his ass. My taste buds exploded with the taste of sweat mixed with an indescribable taste that made my cock hard as steel. Joey was moaning and moving his ass upward begging me to continue licking his ass! I began licking his ass cheeks in long broad strokes and every so often nipping them. I pulled his cheeks apart and just stared at his asshole surrounded by dark hair. It was different from Jerry's hole. Joey's was darker and looked like a small slot between his cheeks. I licked around it lightly fluttering my tongue tip at its center. It seemed to relax, open a bit and then close up. I did it again and the response was the same. I continued to lick and kiss his hole watching it open and close slightly with each ministration. Then I blew lightly on his hole and it clenched up tight in reaction. I decided to try something else and pulled his ass tightly against my face and pursed my lips sucking on his hole. He actually cried out and asked what I was doing. I did it again and felt his ass push back hard on my face. When I pulled back and looked his hole had opened up and I quickly thrust my tongue into his ass! I could have sworn I heard him squeal. Anyway I began tonguing his hole inside and out and driving him insane. He managed to get himself up on his knees while I continued to lick and work on his ass. He pushed my hand off of his hard cock and began jerking himself off. I pulled out of his ass and got on my back pushing between his legs to suck on his cock. His cock tasted great and he was close to cumming. When I reached back towards his ass I found his hand playing with his asshole. He actually had a finger stuck up his asshole and was moving it in and out fucking himself. Suddenly he said he was going to nut, pulled his cock out of my mouth and began jacking on it shooting his load in my face! I stretched my tongue out trying to get a taste of his cum. I felt my own cock spasm and I had an orgasm with a small amount of cum shooting out on the first shot. I relaxed some and then felt Joey collapse on top of me licking on my face to eat up his own cum. He began kissing me and rubbing his body against mine. We fell asleep holding each other. When we woke up we were still intertwined in each other and both our cocks were hard. He began humping against my cock and we soon felt another orgasm hitting both of us. He remarked he was going to enjoy the rest of stay! I concurred with this observation. We began talking with him lying on top of me and he asked me what it was like to lick another guy's ass, he had never done that. He had only sucked a friend's cock and had his sucked, although he had heard about guy's licking and fucking other guy's asses. I told him I didn't know why or how I developed an affinity to enjoying licking a guy's ass, but it turned me on like nothing else. I liked sucking cock and didn't know about fucking I hadn't tried it, had he? He said no, but a friend told him it hurt the first time but after that it felt great. We continued talking about what turned us on and what didn't. He said he loved looking at guys with really big cocks. I said it didn't really matter much to me, I just liked cocks anyway they came. I thought back to what Jerry had said about his being a curse and mentioned to Joey that I bet some guys with big cocks wished theirs weren't so big. He said maybe, but he liked playing with a big cock and it was a challenge to suck on one. I mentioned that his was pretty big and he blushed but said he had seen one of his older brothers with a hard-on and it was huge! It had to be a foot long and there were lots of guys who wanted to suck and get fucked by his brother. I teased him that his would probably be the same size when he was older and he remarked he could only hope. I mentioned I really got turned on by a guy with a hairy chest, hairy ass and hairy cock and balls. I liked the smell these guys had when they were sweaty from playing sports or working hard. He said it didn't really matter to him but he did like the smell of a locker room when a bunch of sweaty guys were in it. He already knew that asses turned me on and I mentioned to him about sticking his finger up his ass when I was sucking his cock. He said he learned that from a letter to Penthouse Forum he read once. The letter was from a guy asking if it was normal for a guy to like something stuck up his ass when he was ready to cum? The answer said that up inside a guy's ass you could massage something called a prostate and it was a turn-on for most guys. He tried it when he jacked off and found it a big turn-on. He also caught one of his brothers jacking off and he had two fingers up his ass and when he asked him about it he told him his girlfriends played with his asshole when he was ready to cum and it intensified his orgasm! This led back to discussing my predilection to licking guy's asses. He wanted to try it but afraid of what was back there, if I got what he meant. I said I wasn't into dirty guys in that way and you could tell by giving an ass the smell test. I told him I was clean if he wanted to give it a try. He looked at me with some trepidation before moving down my body while I turned over on my stomach. I told him to just start licking my ass cheeks and then proceed from there. I felt him lick on my left cheek and then he moved down between my legs and licked at the back of my balls with his nose just touching the edges of my ass crack. He inhaled lightly and then he moved to my right ass cheek. After a thorough licking of my cheeks I felt him pulling my ass crack open. He probed at my hole with his fingers and then I felt his tongue near the top of my ass crack licking very lightly. He pulled back and continued toying with my asshole with his right index finger and remarked that he didn't smell anything offensive. I chuckled and told him again that I was clean back there. Then I felt him lean down and lightly lick on my hole. He must have liked it because he kept his face down in my ass and began licking with a bit more gusto. Soon he was literally eating my ass something nobody had done. He was nibbling, licking, kissing and lightly sucking on my ass and asshole. I was in ecstasy bucking my ass up into his face and telling him not to stop it felt so good. My cock was hard and trapped between the bed and my stomach and as I bucked my ass it fucked into the sheets. I felt another orgasm moving through me and when it subsided I relaxed and just lay there for a bit letting Joey eat my ass. I didn't even notice when he stopped. He moved up and lay on my back pushing his cock into my ass crack. We must have lain like that for a while when I heard a knock on the door. It was Barry and he had some new magazines. He stepped into the camper and smiled when he saw we the positions we were in. Joey was embarrassed and had pulled a sheet up over him, I just stayed on my stomach with a sheet blanket pulled over my middle. He asked what was up and I told him we had gone to my grandparents and Joey was sore from riding a horse and I was massaging his legs to get the soreness out of them. I asked him what kind of magazines he had and he pulled out some small booklet types. They were titled Penthouse Forum and he said he found them in his brother's room. I asked if his brother was gonna notice them missing and he told me his brother went back home for a couple of days, so as long as he returned them by then it was cool. He said they contained letters from people about their sexual experiences and sometimes questions to a sex advisor. He said he'd read one out loud and we would see what they were about. The first letter was about a guy and girlfriend having a "three-way" with the girlfriend's roommate. During the time the two girls licked each other's pussy and it turned him on to watch this. It described him getting a blowjob from both of them at the same time and then how he fucked one then the other before coming. We were turned on and you could see the tent in Barry's shorts. I tried to picture the two girls together and went and retrieved the magazines we had stashed. There was one that showed two girls getting it on and for me it did nothing. Barry didn't react too much to it either but Joey's eyes practically bugged out and he remarked that it was hot looking at the pictures. He started reading the next letter and it was about a guy in college that found himself at an orgy with some frat brothers. There were a bunch of guys and girls in one dorm room all naked having sex. During the orgy this guy was shocked when some guy shoved his cock up his ass and began fucking him before he could protest. Some girl was sucking his cock at the same time. He was scared and wanted to know if he was homosexual because he actually felt himself get harder and enjoying getting fucked. The response was that he probably wasn't homosexual just from this one experience. The anus was rich in nerves and many men are turned on by having their ass played with and with actual penetration the cock fucking him was stimulating his prostate. Something that is very stimulating to men! Being homosexual was more than just having sex with another man, it was also an emotional connection between them. About this time we all grabbed one of these little booklets and began reading the stories. Joey was rubbing his cock under the sheets and Barry kept grabbing at his crotch readjusting his hardon. I came upon a story that really caught my interest. It was about a guy in college who found his roommate attractive, even though he considered himself a complete heterosexual who had a steady girl friend that he regularly fucked. He was secretly spying on his roommate when he changed clothes, took a shower or got ready for bed. Lately he had even taken to sniffing his roommate's used briefs after he left the room, getting turned on by the smell of his roommate's sweaty crotch. Last night really scared him as he had a dream about sucking his roommate's cock! What was wrong with him he asked? The reply was that he might very well be bisexual and be attracted to both females and males. Or it could be nothing more than a "crush" on someone he admired and nothing would probably come of it and in time the dreams and sexual attraction would go away. However, the sex advisor told him not to feel guilty and that if something did happen it was a perfectly normal part of growing up. Many people experiment with members of their own sex while young and turn into perfectly "normal" heterosexuals. Joey got so caught up in the letter he was reading both Barry and I noticed him jacking on his cock frantically! We both were staring at him when he looked my way and froze turning bright red in embarrassment. Barry remarked it must be one hot letter as he was really beating his meat! Joey remarked it was and remarked we were in no better shape as our cocks were hard also. Barry removed his shorts and his cock was lying hard against his stomach. He started jacking on it saying he had to get off and Joey and I joined him. I conjured up images of Jerry and I in the shower room on the farm. I don't know what everyone was thinking of but soon we were all cumming with Barry shooting four or five good splotches of cum on his chest and stomach and Joey shooting a good pool onto his stomach and into his belly button. I shot only a small amount on the first spasm, but knew in time I would be shooting a load also. Everyone cleaned up and Barry grabbed up his magazines and headed home before it got too late. Joey and I grabbed a soda and watched some TV before going to sleep. When we awoke in the morning I fixed us some cereal and Joey brought up last night. What kind of stories did I find a turn on in the magazines? I remarked that I liked the stories about orgies or several people getting it on. (This was because many of these referred to sex between the guys of some sort.) He said the stories about two or more women getting it on turned him on the most. He talked about being able to fuck one while she licked the other's pussy or just sitting back watching them while stroking his cock. I didn't say it but this did nothing for me. The rest of the time Joey was there we jacked off together pretty much every night, but he didn't do much else to me, although he let me suck on his cock and lick his ass if I wanted to. We didn't get back to my grandparent's farm and when he left I was a little sad but really wanted Juan to return. It got a bit tiring hearing Joey talk about how sexy some girl was he saw, or how he wanted to play with some chick's tits. Barry had gone off to camp for a couple of weeks and Kyle, Tom and his brothers and family were on a vacation for a couple of weeks up in Canada. I knew one thing by this time - I was a cocksucker and really couldn't wait for school to start back up! The adventures of Junior High are next....