Date: Wed, 23 Aug 2006 23:52:18 -0700 (PDT) From: Jeffrey Uher Subject: When I Knew I was Gay! Part 9 Disclaimer: If you are not yet 18 years of age or if it is illegal to read materials of this kind where you live, then please stop now. This story contains descriptions of sexual activity between teenage boys and men. And is for adult eyes only! The acts are consensual and are a result of their love or lust for one another. This story is completely true, all personal descriptions, and names have been changed to protect people's identities and privacy. I would love to hear from you, so write to me about your experiences. I'm a 5' 9", teddy bear, dark blonde hair, fairly hairy, 6" cut, low-hangers with blue-gray eyes, and mid-forties now. I have many stories to relate about my early years of sexual experimentation. At this point in my life I am in Junior High. My time with Barry was a pinnacle. Before they left to go back home on the Sunday after Thanksgiving we got together twice (I'll relate these stories later). I realized during this that my infatuation with Barry was based more in lust than in love. I adored Barry and absolutely enjoyed every minute we spent together but somehow I knew it wasn't love. My time with Peter was much more based in love. I was truly concerned about Peter and interested in what he thought and what he was doing, I missed him. With Barry I realized I didn't have that deep emotional connection it was built more on fun and fantasy, I cared about him like a brother. I was beginning to realize what love at this level was all about. One thing that did concern me was Barry's issue with being homosexual. I accepted the feelings I had for other boys and men but Barry was wrestling with them. He needed someone to help him through this period in his life if he was ever going to be happy. I took it upon myself to approach his brother to see how his brother might handle the situation. On Thanksgiving when we all got together for dinner I mentioned to Craig I needed to talk to him. He asked what about and I said I would tell him when we were alone. He said fine and we went down in the basement on the pretense of Craig helping me bring something heavy up the stairs. In the basement I told Craig this was very secret and I wasn't sure what he was going to say or do, but please don't get mad. Please listen and try to understand. He replied quizzically that he wouldn't get mad just tell him what the problem was! I started out saying he might not like me much after I told him the problem but I was concerned about Barry. He stopped me and stunned me by asking if this had something to do with us having sex with each other. I was shocked and didn't know quite how to reply. He grabbed me by my shoulders and said he realized what was going on between us, he could tell by the way I looked at Barry. Then he surprised me even more by telling me that when he was younger, around our age he had a friend and they fooled around together until they got a little older. It was just part of growing up. I looked at Craig and told him I had a million questions. He asked why I didn't talk to my brother and I told him we weren't that close to discuss such a topic. Besides I told Craig I was sure my brother hadn't done anything with any of his friends. He said that may be so, but he wasn't sure he could answer all my questions. I told him that was okay but I was concerned about Barry. He asked me why I was so concerned. I explained to him that I knew I was homosexual and he looked at me saying that was quite a step to take at my age. How could I be so sure? I explained my being turned on by guys and not by girls and he said I should probably wait to finalize that decision. When I got a little older that may change. Was the problem with Barry having to do with him thinking he was homosexual? I said sort of but it really had to do with Barry wrestling between being homosexual or not. This situation was weighing heavy on Barry and it seemed to make him sad and angry. Craig said he understood what I was saying. Barry was probably having a harder time with this stage of life because he was such a jock. Craig didn't play sports in school and he said he knew the trouble being around a bunch of jocks could bring. They usually have a larger sense of themselves than others acknowledge and the machismo that developed around a locker room could be quite intimidating. Any less than masculine behavior was seen as a weakness. Craig told me he had a couple of friends who were homosexual and they were just as masculine as any other guys he knew, but when some guys found out they were homosexual they would talk behind their backs about how they "knew". You could tell by the way they walk they would tell people. They talk differently, they eat funny, they only have female friends. Funny part was before they found out they were homosexual they never noticed these "dead giveaways". Craig said he would talk to Barry and try to give him some understanding. Craig said once he started discovering girls he never thought about guys again. The same could happen to both of us, but if it didn't that was fine too. Then he asked me what some of my questions were. We talked for a while longer when Barry came down in the basement to see just what we were doing. I said not much, just talking about nothing in particular. Barry said we had about a half hour before eating. We grabbed the extra bench seat we had and brought it upstairs for extra seating. Then Barry and I helped set the table. He asked me again what Craig and I were talking about and I told him it was about him. Barry got mad and punched me in my left arm telling me I shouldn't have done that. Craig saw this as he was helping my mother get some food out of the oven. He closed up the oven and grabbed a hold of Barry by the neck and walked him outside. He told Barry to apologize to me as I was only concerned about him and not trying to hurt him. Barry said he was sorry and Craig said they needed to talk later and left it at that. My brother asked what was wrong with Barry. The two of us never fought. I told it was never big and we would work it out. After dinner our parent's began cleaning up while we kids headed out to the barn to play a little basketball. It was a crisp autumn day, about 55 degrees with a few clouds in the sky. Darryl called my brother and they were going to meet up and head to the movies with some friends. This gave Craig the chance to talk with Barry. As we sat around in the barn and talked I could see the shock on Barry's face when Craig said he fooled around with another guy when he was our age. Craig explained a lot and this talk was certainly more enlightening than the "sex education" talk the health teacher and gym teacher had with the boys in school. It calmed Barry's nerves and he appeared much more relaxed. Craig did explain that not all guys understood these feelings but they were quite common and part of growing up. All most all guys idolize or develop feelings of infatuation for other guys they would like to be like. Don't broadcast but don't think there is something wrong with you. It all gets sorted out as you get a bit older. However, be aware that some guys way of defending who and what they are is to beat up guys they think are different. We should feel lucky that we are so close and can discuss things like this together. He ended it by telling us that if we had any other questions to ask him and he would do his best to answer them. After Craig went back inside to join the other adults Barry looked at me and said he was real sorry. I told him it was okay I just had a feeling his brother would understand. He said he felt much better now and hugged me telling me he never wanted to lose me as a friend. It was getting late by now and we went back inside. Food was set back out to make a sandwich if you liked and our parents were playing bridge. We headed to the TV room where Craig was watching some football game and Barry immediately sat on the couch next to him to watch the game. I'm not a huge football fan and sat on the other side of the room and ate my turkey sandwich while watching the two of them. Barry was turning into a near double of Craig. Craig must have felt my stares at him because at one point he looked over at me and smiled broadly. I smiled back and he got up to go the bathroom asking if he could bring either of us a piece of pie. We both said yes and after he left Barry patted the couch next to him and asked me to join him on the couch. I moved to the couch and after I sat down he gave me a quick kiss on the cheek and told me he was sorry again. We were leaning against each other's shoulder when Craig came back. He saw us sitting together and smiled saying we looked like we had made up. Barry looked at him and said he would never get angry with me again. Craig sat on the other end of the couch watching the game again. Barry grasped my hand and held it while talking with his brother about some play or something the other team should run. I started asking him what certain things meant when the refs called penalties and some really basic questions about football. Barry seemed a bit annoyed with my questions, but Craig responded by answering my questions without a hint of annoyance. He was a perfect man in my eyes and I really admired him. I spent more time staring at Craig than watching the football game. Barry got up to go to the bathroom and Craig mentioned my staring. I told him I thought he was the perfect man, he was kind and caring, very attractive and everything I wanted in a man. He responded that he was flattered but first he was too old and second he was dating a girl and near asking her to marry him. I had plenty of time ahead and I would find the person for me. Don't push it and be careful, if I said that to the wrong guy I probably would get punched out. When Barry came back he said their parents were heading home. They could stay if they like and come later or go home with them. Craig decided to leave as he had a phone call to make and Barry said he might sleep over. Craig gave him a kiss on his forehead and jokingly said to him "don't do anything I wouldn't do!" Barry told him goodnight and leaned back next to me. His parents popped in the room to say goodnight and then my mom told us they were headed to bed. Don't stay up too late we were heading to our grandparent's farm tomorrow and Barry's parents said he could come if he wants to. I yelled back okay and Barry punched me lightly in the arm saying we were going to have such fun. He had gone to their farm several times when we went up on Sundays during the summer. Barry snuggled up next to me as we watched the rest of the football game. We watched the beginning of Johnny Carson and went to bed. As I got into bed Barry came back in from the bathroom and I felt him get into my bed with me. He grasped me around the chest and pushed up against my back and butt. We fell asleep almost immediately. I woke early and we were in the same position, except I could feel Barry's hard cock poking into my ass crack. I carefully turned and pulled away moving down under the covers until I had my mouth just above his tented briefs where his hard cock was poking them out. The smell under the covers was a mix of sweat, piss, male funk and musk. I placed my mouth over his cock head and briefs and worked his cock, gently biting at it and licking out at the fabric of his briefs. I could taste some of his cum dried into his briefs as well as some of his piss where it had dried also. I felt him stir and before he was fully awake I pulled his briefs aside at his right leg to let his cock out of his briefs. I heard him groan as I slid down his shaft taking in the scent of his crotch. I suddenly heard him whisper "what a way to wake up!" He pushed the covers down and said "good morning sexy!" I replied "good morning to you sexy!" He shifted around and moved his face into my crotch pushing his nose in between my legs and inhaling. He grabbed the waistband of my briefs and pulled them down and I kicked them off onto the floor. He began licking my balls while I resumed sucking on his cock. I felt him move his tongue up my shaft while at the same time he began fingering my asshole. As he began sucking on my cock he turned up onto his knees straddling my face. I never tire of looking up between a guy's legs and seeing his cock, hanging balls and ass just within reach. I grabbed the cheeks of his ass and pulled his ass down to my face. As he sat his ass on my face I pulled his cheeks wide and began licking at his ass hole. He moaned his approval and began working his ass on my face. He was rubbing his crack against my tongue back and forth and then pushing down hard against my tongue as I stabbed at his hole. I pushed my face into his ass hard and let go of his cheeks and sniffed at his intoxicating scent. Then my stabbing at his hole paid off! His ass hole opened up and let my tongue in. When he felt my tongue inside his ass he began bouncing up and down on my face fucking his own ass with my tongue! I reached for my cock and began stroking it. I felt his hole begin snapping around my tongue. He was ready to cum. I began stroking my cock harder and faster and he realized I was near shooting my load. He leaned over and pushed my hands off of my cock and engulfed it all the way to the base sucking hard. As he did this he pulled his ass off of my face and his cock brushed against my lips. I grabbed a hold of it and pushed it into my mouth. I sucked on the head of his cock and began rubbing his balls which were now pulled up tight against the base of his cock. With my right hand I wet my middle finger in my mouth and pushed it into his ass hole fucking his hole. He was sucking my cock fingering my ass. We shot our loads at the same time directly into our mouths. He collapsed next to me stroking my ass and inner thighs. I kept his cock in my mouth sucking out all of his cum. As we headed into the bathroom mom yelled up for everyone going to get a move on! We hopped into the shower together and washed each other before getting dressed and heading down to get breakfast. Mom asked if Barry was going and he quickly replied yes. He hadn't been to my grandparents in over 2 years and was looking forward to going for a horse ride. Darryl was going along with my brother. We packed up the car and headed out. Barry and I sat in the third seat of the wagon and basically fell asleep for the ride with my head falling on Barry's shoulder. When we reached the farm my brother turned and woke us up. We piled out of the car, Barry and I carried in some boxes with food from Thanksgiving dinner. My grandmother saw Barry and immediately she remarked how much he had grown. She grabbed me in a big hug giving me a kiss. Out of the corner of my eye I could see Barry smiling almost laughing at the affection my grandmother doled out. When she broke the hug to greet my brother and Darryl he said he couldn't help but laugh as his grandmothers were much the same. She hugged my brother and quickly told us where to put everything in the kitchen. Then she whispered in my ear that she had made cookies in the morning and they were out in the backroom, we could help ourselves whenever we wanted. Barry and I headed out to grab a couple and told my mom we were headed over to the horse barn. On the way over Barry remarked that my grandma didn't say anything to my brother about the cookies. I told him that was because I was one of if not her favorite grandchild. He said he hadn't really noticed that before although every time he came to the farm he did notice that my grandma would always cook my favorite stuff, such as certain cookies, cherry or apple pie and especially these old family recipe cookie bars. I told him my mom realized it as she was my grandparents' favorite child. It wasn't that she ignored my brother or my sister when she came with us, she just put more time into making two or three things I really liked. As we approached the barn I didn't see my grandpa's car. In the barn we found Pete (a farmhand who lived off the farm, about 30 or a little older and good with the horses) and Mr. Hendrick who was basically my grandpa's right hand man. When my grandpa wasn't around he oversaw things and took care of the business. Mr. Hendrick knew Barry and said hi and I introduced Barry to Pete. Mr. Hendrick told me my grandpa had gone down to the marina to check on something regarding the boat storage for the winter he'd be back in a bit. He asked if we wanted to go riding and when I looked at Barry he quickly replied yes. So they saddled up a couple of horses and off we went. Pete warned us to not head out into the cherry orchards they had been doing some trimming and other work and the branches weren't cleaned up yet. So we headed down the field trail instead. As we rode along the ridge it looks out over the lake and it was beautiful, although a bit cold with a brisk breeze blowing in off the lake. We turned down a trail that led across a couple of open fields towards a couple of farmhand's houses and then we could follow the road back to the house. As we neared the road I saw my grandpa driving up the road, he tooted the horn and waved before stopping. We walked the horses up to the car and when he saw Barry he gave him a big hello telling him he looked good on the horse. Maybe next time he came he might try riding with an English saddle. Barry had seen me ride on an English saddle but never tried it, he felt safer having the horn on a Western saddle. Grandpa looked at his watch and told us we'd best get back to the house soon as Grandma probably would have dinner ready soon. We saw him drive on up the road and Barry and I decided to gallop on back to the barn. Horses like it cold and they really seemed to enjoy the workout. When we pulled up in front of the barn Pete told me he'd take care of the horses before he headed home. Everyone had started eating already as Grandpa told them we were on our way. We grabbed a plate and loaded up and headed in to the back den to watch some TV. After dinner my Grandpa and Dad took us kids down to the lake so we could help clean up the cottage before it got closed up for the winter. My Grandma told me to make sure we cleaned out the refrigerator real well as one of my older cousins had been staying there recently and he probably didn't empty it out. Barry and I cleaned up the kitchen and the back porch area of the cottage and were sitting around while my brother and Darryl helped my Grandpa and Dad close up the shutters and seal them on the windows. I told Dad we were headed over to the park and he said fine. There were quite a few people walking around and even some out on the main pier into the lake since it was a school vacation. I had to take a piss and went into the public rest room which would get closed up this week as well, but luckily was still open. Barry said he was heading out on the pier and I told him I would catch up with him. The park rest room was more like a glorified outhouse by most standards. There was one for men and one for women. Once inside there was long trough, like a sink along a wall to piss into and benches with rentable lockers across to change into swimsuits and store your clothes or towels. A door at the end led into a room with 10 toilets, 5 on each side divided by wooden partitions. There were a couple of guys pissing into the trough, one about 30 with just a bit of his cock sticking out of his fly pissing a yellow stream into the trough, another about 40 had his jeans pushed down to just below his butt with a large cock jutting out pissing. I averted my stare and headed to the stalls as I was developing a hard-on from seeing their cocks. As I passed the older man I noticed his ass was pale and covered with a smattering of black hair, it was firm and dimpled on each cheek. I stepped into the second stall on my left, latched the door pushed down my pants and briefs and sat on the toilet. The seat was cold and I shivered slightly from the coolness and began to piss. As I looked up towards the ceiling I noticed lots of graffiti on the walls. Then on my right I noticed the hole, just like at home! I got excited and scared all at the same time. I also noticed someone was in the stall to my right. I carefully looked through the hole and saw a man stroking his cock. It was hard and I could tell he was uncut and maybe 6 or 7 inches long. He must have seen me looking as he stood grabbing at his pants and I thought he was going to leave. Instead he just readjusted them and stood before pushing his cock through the hole. I didn't waste any time and began stroking on his cock when he whispered "suck it". I continued stroking his cock and he whispered "go ahead, suck on my cock". I licked out at the head and tasted his cock and it tasted good. I sucked it into my mouth and began moving up and down on it. After a couple of minutes he began moving his cock in sync to my sucking and in another minute I felt it swell some when he pulled it back. He brought his mouth to the gloryhole and told me to put my cock through so he could suck it. He was really working on my cock when we heard some heavy foot steps headed into the room. We both sat back down and waited. I heard this person step into the stall on my left and my heart sank. I was scared of whom it was and why would he pick that stall. What if he knew what we were doing? What I hadn't realized was that there was a gloryhole in that wall as well. I looked down to see an eye peering into my stall. I leaned back to try and prevent him from seeing my face. Then his mouth was at the gloryhole and he whispered "jerk on your cock". I did and he watched for a moment before pulling his eye away. Suddenly I saw his cock coming through the hole and it was huge! (I'm not, wasn't then and still not a size queen. I just love cocks of any size but a large one can be fun to play with once in a while.) I didn't have a ruler but this cock had to be 10" and it was quite thick. I grasped the shaft and stroked on it a couple of times and noticed it was uncut as the skin pulled up and covered the head. I readjusted myself, got on my knees and engulfed as much of that cock as I could. It tasted sweaty and a strong musk odor was coming from his crotch. I pulled it from my mouth and slapped it against my cheek a couple of times before sucking the head back in. I pulled off and licked up and down the shaft and licked out at his hairy balls. The taste from his balls was an explosion of sweat and musk. I fingered at his balls trying to pull them through the hole when he leaned back slightly and pushed them through. His ball sack came through and dropped a good 4 or 5 inches just hanging against the wall. I attacked them licking and sucking on them eliciting deep moans and groans from him. At one point I had pushed both of his balls into my mouth and laved them in spit when I thought they could suffocate me it filled my mouth so completely! I let them from my mouth and returned to sucking on his cock. He was leaking a steady flow of precum that tasted a salty and bitter. I was able to get about half his cock in my mouth but he seemed quite satisfied. At this point he pulled his cock back out of the hole and told me to come into his stall. I replied I was scared and wasn't sure that was okay. He said nobody would care and we could have more fun. Whatever came over me I pulled up my pants and quickly stepped out of my stall and into his stall. It was the guy I had seen pissing with his ass showing. He smiled at me and said hi my name is Tom, yours? I told him my name and admired this handsome man. He had pulled off his shirt and the cool air had caused his nipples to harden and point out. His pants and boxers were on the floor to the side and he was "spread out" on the toilet. Nice hairy chest, bushy armpit hair and a real hairy crotch. His cock was hard and sticking straight up and since he was pushed forward on the toilet seat his balls hung down in their sack in front of the toilet bowl. He began stroking his cock slowly and said he was married so don't expect him to suck me or anything. He loved a good blowjob and guys were better than women. Besides his wife wouldn't suck on his cock! Then he suggested I start with his balls again, he really liked when I was sucking on them. I knelt down and went back to licking on his balls which were swinging freely from his crotch. When I licked at his balls from the front they pushed back against the toilet bowl and he chuckled a bit at the coolness of the porcelain. When I sucked in his right ball and worked it around with my tongue he moaned and slid forward even further on the seat. I used my left hand to push his left ball into my mouth and sucked on his balls. I heard him moan again before he lightly placed his legs around my back and basically locked me in place between his legs sucking on his balls. When my mouth became tired I released his balls and looked up at him. He moved his hand to the base of his cock and waved it at me asking if I was hungry for some man meat? I moved my face up some and began licking at the shaft of his cock. He took his hand off of cock and placed it on the back of my head and "guided" me around where he wanted to be licked. When he pushed me to the root and I licked at his inner thigh I felt him tense up a bit. Then he leaned forward grabbed me by the ears and guided his cock into my mouth holding my head still while pushing his cock in and out of my mouth. I was drooling some at this point and what didn't stay on his cock dripped down on the toilet bowl rim and floor. He got a bit excited and pushed in hard one time when I gagged and choked on his cock. He pulled out and let me catch my breath saying he was sorry, not many guys could take all of his cock let alone a younger guy like me. He grasped his cock again and told me to suck on the head while he jerked a load up for me. I had my mouth on the head of his cock when I felt it swelling like it was ready to shoot and got ready for his load. The first shot hit the roof of my mouth and then he spurted out 4 or 5 more globs reaching around and holding my head on his cock. His load filled my mouth and I began swallowing it down. When he was finished I let his cock from my mouth and watched it soften some and the foreskin cover the head. I etched the look of that cock in my mind. I sat back on my ankles and just stared at him noticing how handsome he was. He was so relaxed sprawled out on that toilet and I could see the sweat in his armpits and smell the male musk emanating from him. I don't know why but I asked him if I could smell his ass. He looked at me and asked if I rimmed? I had no idea what he meant and asked him what he meant. He said to get rimmed was to get your ass licked. Did I like to lick ass? I didn't have to answer, he said he could see it in my eyes. He pulled his legs up and pushed his ass towards my face. What a beautiful sight! He had some hair on his ass cheeks and it became thicker as it grew in between his legs and lead along the root of his cock and into his bushy crotch. His ass crack was filled with long silky black hair and surrounded a deep red ass hole. I leaned in and took a sniff of his ass and was rewarded with an even richer male musk and sweat. I pushed my lips against his ass hole and kissed it. He let out a groan from deep down in his stomach. Where his hands came from I don't know, but they grasped my head and pulled my mouth right onto his ass hole. He said in a raspy whisper "Eat my ass baby! Nobody's done that in a long while. Eat my ass and tongue fuck that hole!" I didn't even care that anyone in the room had to hear what he just said I went to work licking and slobbering on his ass hole. He ass lips pulsed against lips and tongue as I tongued out at his hole. I was gaining a bit of entry to his hole when I heard him groan "oh yeah, that's it, tongue that hole!" He still had a hold of my head and at one point to catch my breath I had my lips wrapped around his hole when I just sucked in hard. He almost fell off the toilet and responded with a "suck it, suck on my ass hole!! It's too much; nobody has ever eaten my ass like this!" I sucked hard on his ass hole again and felt it pulling inside out. I was able to pull back a bit and see his ass lips puckered up and pushing back at me. I drove at them with pointed tongue and felt those lips engulf my tongue. I pulled back and went back at his asshole lightly nibbling at his hole before pushing my tongue back inside. He let go of my head and when I looked back up to him he whispered "where the hell did you learn to eat ass?! You're a fucking master! A god! I'm going to shoot another load just from you eating my ass!" I was still tonguing his ass hole, slowly moving my tongue in and out of his ass tasting his maleness and inhaling his crotch sweat and musk when I heard Barry out in the outer room calling my name. I pulled away and said I'd be right out. Tom looked at me and smiled and I went back to tonguing his asshole while digging my hard cock out and beating it to get off. I felt Tom tense and then felt his ass lips pull in sharply as he began shooting his load. The feeling of his asshole contracting and releasing on my tongue was enough to trigger my cum. He had a few splotches of cum on his stomach and in his pubic hair and I licked him clean as best I could. His cum tasted great, luckily my load shot against the toilet and floor. As we got dressed he kissed me on the forehead and said that was the most fantastic rimjob he had ever had. Then he asked me if I was around here much and I told him sometimes and then he asked me how old I was and when I said 14 he apologized as he thought I was at least 18. He had a son my age! I told him that was okay I knew what was up. He said he'd stay a couple of minutes so no one would be suspicious and I left. As I passed the first stall the guy had the door open, he was about 20 and winked at me. I just got out of there quick. As we walked back to the cottage Barry asked me what went on in the rest room and I told him I'd tell him later. My brother and Darryl were finishing packing the car with stuff and it was just about time to leave. Barry looked at me and told me I probably should go wash my face before someone saw me. I said "and how would I do that, the water is shut off already!" Luckily we found some wet naps and I wiped my face off. We got back to the farm house, unpacked and sat down for a quick snack before heading back home. More to come..... I discover the advantages of looking older!