Date: Tue, 16 Sep 2003 16:45:23 -0700 From: L.L. Subject: highschool times 4 The following day Cindy and I had decided to go shopping together. While we were shopping we went into a cd store. While I was there I found a cd by larger than life. They're a band that's not to famous and they sound pop punkish. Anyways, I stood there listening to the cd and out of nowhere cindy snuck up behind me and wrapped her arms around my waist and kissed me on the neck. I returned her the favor and we both stood there smiling at each other. Right when we were about to leave I had told her I had to go to the music shop. So we went to the local music store and I had to get some basics. Some picks, strings, drumsticks for frank and some other things. While we were in there I hear a familiar voice. " hey sam, what's up?" As I heard this I looked up to see my ex. "Hey Julie. What are you doing here?" "I'm here with my boyfriend Rick. He's in a local band and he needed to pick up some things." "oh that's cool. Same here, except I'm here with my NEW girlfriend. So how have you and Rick been? Good hopefully. What , you two have been dating since for about 6 months? Am I right? You started to see him during our relationship?" As I said this I had the bittersweet tone and I knew I was pissing Julie off. "Um yea...we're doing great." as Julie said this cindy had walked up and I grabbed her hand and pulled her towards me and said, " Julie I want you to meet my girlfriend Cindy. Cindy this is my ex girlfriend Julie." With that Cindy just nodded an whispered to me that we should leave. So after the little ordeal Cindy and I headed to star bucks to get some coffee. I was pissed off when I saw Julie with Rick in there, but knowing Cindy was with me made it all better. "So sam, what was with that whole thing back in the music store?" "oh, she was my Ex. She hated cheated on me with that crapy guitar player named Rick." " Oh I see. So how long did you two date?" " Bout a year. I don't know what I was thinking but it's the past." After I had said that we changed the subject and just talked for hours. Next thing I know it was getting late. "Hey, do you think we should get going?" " sure, but sam do you want to come over tonight?" I couldn't pass this up . So once we had got to her house we rested on her couch. We picked out a few movies we were gonna watch. But first I had to go back to my house and get some clothes. I was gone maybe for an hour. Once I had gotten back to Cindy's house we just snuggled on her couch that night. " Hey cindy, if you don't mind me asking, where's your son?" " Don't worry, he's at my parents house." "oh, ok, just checking." During our second movie which was "how to lose a guy in 10 days" we had started talking bout what we want in the future. I had told her that if my band didn't work out I would want to go to San Diego state for college and become photographer. She had told me that the band would be great and that I would be able to go to college and become a photographer. With that said I kissed her forehead and we were in a trance. " I love you sam." " I love you too cindy." I then leaned in and kissed her. We kept kissing passionately and she then rolled over and got on top of me. I ran my hands over her back and kept kissing her neck. She took my shirt off and my boxers off. All I had to do was take her top off. We kept kissing and I would grab her ass while she would kiss me from the neck down. She went down on me and brought me to numerous orgasms. I returned the favor to her a few times that night also. We Fell asleep a few hours later. When I awoke I felt her breathing against my chest. I just smiled and thought "how lucky am I?" I just laid there until she woke up. Once she did we kept talking about what we should do later and those sorts of things. I told her that this upcoming weekend I would be out of town because the band and I had a gig and I couldn't miss it. So that week went by and I was enjoying life. It was the greatest. Friday had arrived and I had called her once more before I left. "hey cindy, I'm leaving in a few minutes and I just wanted to call and tell you I love you." " I love you sam. I'll miss you! Bring me back something!" I laughed and headed out the door and on my way to L.A. That night before the Gig I had told frank about me and Cindy. He supported me and said he was happy for me. Well I was nervous as all hell. This was it. If all goes good I could get signed. So I picked up my bass and played the hell out of it. At the end of the gig my fingers were blistered and bleeding. I knew we had done a good job. " Hi, my name is Christy and I'm with Bleed Fire records. You guys were awesome tonight. I just wanted to talk to you guys about signing with us." That night after talking about all the negotiations and the legal crap I had to call and tell family that the band had gotten signed. I wanted to call and tell cindy but I'd rather do it in person. So the next day I booked a ticket home. Once I got home I went to the store to pick up some flowers and of course a box of chocolates. I drove over to cindy's house and was excited about telling her the good news. I got out of my truck and I found the door unlocked. So I let myself in. I didn't see her so I walked through the house . I was surprised when I saw Jason there. Jason is her son. He's three years old, and he's damn smart form that age. I asked where his mommy is and he replied, " oh she's in the bedroom right now with daddy." He then giggled and said " I think they're kissing." With that said I just smiled and said thank you. He then waved good bye and so did I. I ran outside and just sat in my truck. I had sat there for a few hours. I didn't move at all. Then cindy came outside. Boy was she surprised. She came up to the truck and asked why didn't I call or tell her I was in town. "Cindy, I know your ex is in there. I walked in earlier and asked Jason. don't give me bullshit." " what?! I mean... What are you doing in town early?" " I came to tell you that I had gotten signed by bleed fire records, but as if that matters any more." I then started my truck up. " sam, don't do this! Let me explain! He came over here with Jason to talk about how he was sorry and how he wasn't gonna try to take him away. Then one thing lead to another." She had the face of someone who was truly sorry, but me being the bitch I am threw the flowers at her and the candy, I then rolled up my window and took off. I was lucky. I didn't have her for a teacher for awhile because I would be out of town due to recording. So I had a tutor. Weeks had gone by and I would get calls from her and letters and then one day it just stopped. I felt like shit when the calls had stopped. I still loved her and I had to do something. But I knew it would be weeks before I could return home and she had probably moved on for all I know. So during the recording time I had found that song I wrote when cindy and I first started to date. I HAD to put this on the album. It was titled, "Past to now". So after a few weeks of recording they had let us go back home for a break. A two week long break. I wanted to go back to school to see my friends, and cindy. So the first day back I and the band mates were congratulated by the whole school pretty much. Yea we got our share of "oh that band, yea they're posers" but we got a lot of positive attention. The first day in cindy's class eh had seemed quite surprised to see me. " Hey sam, it's nice to see you again. I heard about the band and everything. That's cool." "yea, um whatever. Uh I need to know what stuff I'll have to make up or whatever because during that time I had a tutor so..." I said this like I was innocent but we both knew I wasn't. " you wont need to make it up. But after class can I talk to you?" " yea sure." So class had passed by hella quick and I had to see Cindy. " Yes ms. Wicfield, what can I help you with?" I had said this like a true smart ass. " Sam, cut the bullshit. You and I both know I was wrong for what I had done! I'm sorry and I don't know how I can make it up!" " how can you make it up? Well why don't you decide who you love, because I doubt your son and ex husband want to be dragged through this and neither do I." with that I had walked out the door and took off. Months had passed since we had talked , besides in the classroom. It was the end of the school year and our debut cd was about to come out. So I had traveled for that whole summer. Then starting Christmas we'd be going on a tour. It was gonna be crazy. When the school year came back and I was starting as a junior I had got my schedule and was happy to find out that Cindy wasn't one of my teachers. So the first day of school my friends and I walk in my 6th hour class to find Mrs. Snider being the teacher, except it was Cindy. She had gotten re married to her ex and changed her last name. I couldn't believe it. It hit me that it was over. She was MARRIED. So as I sat down by my friends , frank had seen my expression and he just gave me a hug and smiled. He knew that deep inside I was crushed. That day her and I didn't even say a word. Hardly looked at each other. I had tried to switch out of her class but nope . I had to stay. So a few weeks went by, I was still shocked that she was married, but I had to carry on. I started seeing this chick named Leslie. Wow, is all I have to say. She's my age, she has short blond hair and same height as me. She's a real firecracker for me. I met her in Cindy's class surprisingly. Leslie was a new student here and the first day I saw her, I knew she was mine. She had heard about my band and wanted to come to a practice so I knew I was gonna get her. We never showed that much affection in the classroom or at school, but I knew that Cindy knew that Leslie and I were in love and I think it killed her. So it was nearing homecoming and my band had gotten offered to play at the homecoming half time show. Of coarse we accepted it. We picked three of our favorite songs to play. One about being a jackass, one about high school life and one about falling out of love. Right before we played the love song I said, " This song should be named Cindy. And if your listening , thanks for helping write this song." With that said we began to play. We played the hell out of that. The crowd went wild . Once we packed up we went over to the bleachers to go and sit and watch the game. But first frank and I had to go grab some food. " so sam, how does it feel to be in love again and to have the band going great?" " My god it feels great. I mean I love Leslie, but still there's that part missing. I don't know. Maybe I still miss cindy. What am I saying, oh well come on lets get our food." Right as I turned around I see Cindy behind us with her son Jason. He waves to me and I smile and wave back. " Hey do you guys think you could sign this cd for me? It's for Jason. He loves you guys." "Yea sure, here let me get a pen." After I signed it I was about to walk off when I heard someone yell wait. I kept walking thinking it wasn't me they were talking to. It ended up being cindy. " Sam, I need to talk to you. I still love you. I don't know what I would do without you. My life has been so horrible without you. I'm going crazy. Each day in class when I see you and Leslie I'm torn up inside because that could have been me. I can tell you love each other by the way you look at her. I just wish you and I were back together." " Cindy... I don't know what to say. I still love you its just you're married, I'm always gone. I just don't know." " Sam, I'm not married! I changed my last name to my maiden name. Trust me, I'm not married." I had to smile. "Well cindy, if that's true then you don't mind meeting up later? Oh say to go get some coffee?" " I'd be glad to. Can Jason go along with us?" "You bet." So after that Cindy and I left the game early to go get some coffee. All night we talked. Jason seemed to have a good time until he fell asleep in her arms. So after that we had decided to head home. Not her house, not my parents house, MY house. Yes. I had bought my own house shortly after our first paycheck. It was a two story house, tile floors. Four bathrooms and 5 bedrooms. I had 2 acres of land. Part was built into dirt ramps for dirt bikes. That was my other hobby. So I once we headed towards my house and not hers she kind of freaked. That was until she saw my house. " So what do you think ? There's a nice pool in the back and enough rooms for a few other people." " Oh my god. You bought this yourself? I'm amazed." " want to go for a tour?" So after our little tour of the house I had brought her outside by the poolside. I had candles lit out because it seemed nice. The air was perfect, you could hear the crickets , you could hear the water from the water fountain, man it was nice. Out of nowhere I turn to Cindy and just grab her hands and smiled at her. " cindy, would you move in with me? Jason can too. There is enough room. Please?" " I don't know what to say. I mean..." she turned away and then she said "yes. I love you and I want to be with you Sam." She then kissed me and that night we just slept outside. Just like the first night we had our date. Slept outside.