I dare you to love me
This story is a work of fiction. If you are not allowed to read this in your country, please stop. If romance between two females bothers you, please don't continue to read, otherwise, please enjoy the story.
It is here, the dance is finally here, all my preparations and organizing will be revealed tonight. Along with some other surprises for my friends as well. Everyone wanted to know who was going to be my date for the dance and I didn't give any one an answer, as that would spoil my surprise. It is an hour before Shay is to pick me up, and I'm just finishing with my make-up. I decided on a black and red dress with thin shoulder straps and a pair of black heel shoes. Knowing that everything fits with black, I thought at least that Shay and I would look like we match.
My nerves was shot, I'm on my way to pick up Kelly, yet not knowing whether or not this was such a good idea. I was so excited to finally have Kelly in my life, and I didn't want to force her to do anything she wasn't comfortable with, although she assured me that she wanted to go to the dance with me. I was nervous about her changing her mind. As I pulled up into her driveway I saw her brother shooting some hoops outside, he looked so content with life and his sisters decisions that it gave me a sense of relieve. As I climbed out he came up to greet me, a firm handshake along with a smile. He introduced himself as Christopher and went back to playing hoops after leaving me with these words. Take care of her, I know that she loves you, and I don't want her to get hurt. I stood there, replaying it over in my mind until I reached the front door.
Ding, Dong... The moment of truth, I started walking downstairs as my mom opened the door, Shay looked even more beautiful than I can ever remember, and we even fit better than I thought possible. Shay had a pair of black pants, a red button down shirt with a black undercoat on, and it suited her amazingly. As I stood beside her for my moms picture opportunity I couldn't help but smile the biggest smile possible. We said our goodbyes to my mom and left for the car. This night might be better than I have planned.
"I guess I just got lost, being someone else, I tried to kill the pain, but nothing ever helped, I left myself behind, somewhere along the way, hoping to come back around to find myself some day. Lately I'm so tired of waiting for you, to say that it's okay. tell me please, would you one time just let me be myself, so I can shine, with my own light let me be myself, would you let me be myself"
I listened to the song as we pulled up to the school hall, thinking that this song is suited so well for tonight's occasions, wondering what my friends would say about me being myself. Shay stepped out, walked around to my side of the car and opened the door. She handed me her hand as she helped me. I felt as safe next to her as we walked into the hall. I knew that all eyes were on us, and the gasps from the people we passed confirmed the reality. My Secret was out, and I am willing to deal with anything coming to me as long as I have Shay next to me.
Although I knew what my coming out would do towards my friends, I still hoped that at least one or two of them will stick by me, the whole weekend no one phoned, that bothered me even if I pretended that it didn't. I think Shay noticed, but she didn't say anything. As I'm laying here on my bed trying to fall asleep, I decided to just stuff all of my so called friends, I knew that as long as I had Shay nothing else mattered.
We were the talk of the college the Monday after the dance. I didn't mind, my attitude was always to stuff everyone, I was a little concerned about Kelly though, although she said she had a nice time at the dance she was a bit distant the weekend, none of her friends called her, and that was strange, cause they normally phoned 5 or 6 times a day. I waited at the school door for Kelly to arrive, minutes felt like hours; finally she pulled into her normal spot. I didn't know what to expect so I just waited for her to come to me. She climbed out of the car, took her bag and headed to me, she had a smile on her face and I knew then that everything will be okay for us. We stood tall walking into the halls, I held her hand and we walked to our lockers, no amount of stares could stop us.
Monday morning I woke up in a surprisingly good mood, got ready for college and left, looking for Shay as soon as I stopped in my parking. She had a nervous look on her face; I smiled at her and watched as she relaxed. We walked hand in hand to our lockers, as I took my books out I saw Mari walking towards me. Mari was one of the cheerleaders on our squad, and through that we became friends. "I am so proud of you, I can imagine that it couldn't have been easy for you coming out the way you did, but I just want you to know that I am still here for you when you need a friend, and I know that Karen and Mel feels the same way. I just thought I'd let you know, anyway have a nice day." With that she gave me a hug and went on to her classes, I got a thumbs up from Mel and Karen, then I knew that everything will be okay, my friends was still with me. Things looked up from there, my friends accepted our relationship and even started warming up to Shay, she was part of our group now, there was a few people who made fun of us, or bad-mouthed us, but the encouraging words were more, so we concentrated on that.
It was the last day of the college for the year. As we stood at our lockers, one of Kelly's friends showed up and said that she supported Kelly's decision and will always be her friend, some other friends also showed compassion and things started looking up for her again. The rest of the year went by without any incident, I even went to her house for Christmas after our vacation, we were truly happy and I wanted to keep it that way
Shay and I had plans to go on a 2 week trip to the sea, with some schedule for shark surfing and some other adventurous outings. She even came over to my house to meet my mom formally and spent the Christmas with us, I thought I saw a bit of sadness there on Christmas day, but she hid it away quickly. Things were great between us, and I couldn't be any happier.
It was the start of the New Year, this one I wanted to start of on the right foot. I started my exercises for soccer early, hoping to make a good impression to the coaches; although I was there on a full scholarship I still tried to get better at my game. Kelly knew how important my soccer was to me and she stood behind me 100%. I was now in my second year in college and decided on my studies as sport management, thus my soccer played a big part in it. When soccer try outs came I felt confident about my chances.
As we got dressed, the freshman showed up, I looked at them one by one until my eyes fell on one of the players. She was of medium height, had shoulder length light brown hair, and green eyes. She gave me a look of acknowledgement, and then I knew... I stood before my past, before the one person who ripped my heart out, who shattered my life. I turned around and walked out of the dressing room, my mind once again replayed that night, the way she blamed me for everything, and then just left me...
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