Date: Thu, 22 Aug 2002 13:31:06 -0400 (EDT)
From: nakae19992002@yahoo.ca
Subject: Katherine part 3 College

"Cassie, why are you avoiding me? And don't tell me
you're not because it's obvious you are.What did I do?
Tell me, please," Katherine said, sadly.

I don' t think I ever felt so much tenderness for any
one person as I did then. Her eyes pleading for
answers, she looked at me waiting. I didn't know what
to say.

*I'm madly in love you*

It had crossed my mind, albeit briefly, to just spill
the beans about my feelings. Of course, that's not
what happened.

She came up to me unhurried, and put her arms around
me loosely. Call me stupid, because if this wasn't the
moment of moments to seduce Katherine I don't know
what was.

She leaned into me, her blonde locks dancing on my
face. I could smell the faint scent of her Channel no.
5. on her neck. And then her lips, those luscious lips
grazed the top of my forehead. I wanted to stay like
that, with her, forever in that single pose. It felt
right. Everything just stopped for that mere second.

Katherine pulled away. I don't think she expected so
much emotion to transpire from that one action. She
seemed unsure of herself. For the first time since I'd
known her she looked positively vulnerable.

"I, huh^ĊI just wanted you to know that I'll miss you
while you're gone." Katherine said as she made her way
towards my tiny bed."

"Yeah! I'll miss you too."

I wanted to break the tension. I decided the best way
was to keep packing and hope she didn't notice the
awkwardness of the moment.

She sat down and watched me. Her eyes searched mine
for something. The truth perhaps.

"Do you need some help?" she asked.

"Nah, I don't think so. I'm almost done. But if you
want, you could be here bright and early tomorrow...If
you want, that is? You could help me bring this shit
to the bus station?"

"Sure, I'd love too! Maybe if you have time we could
go for breakfast or something?"

"Um, Cassie?" her voice trailed off.

"What's up?" I said looking up from the pile of
clothes stashed in front of me.

Brain one that I am, I figured she'd forgotten all
about her question and we could just move on from
there and have a regular chat. No such luck! This was
a conversation she wanted to have, and well I did too.
Just not now! My week away was too close for comfort
and this wasn't exactly the best conversation to be
having right then and there.

"Are you gonna tell me why you've been avoiding me?"

In that moment, the blood rose to my head, the room
started to get unbelievably warm. I'm sure my heart
rate increased enough to scare someone with
hypoglycaemia. I was stumbling to formulate proper
sentences. Everything I tried to say made me sound
like a three-year-old.

"Umm, well, I've just been, you know...trying to keep
busy and stuff. With school, work and the gym, I
haven't really had enough time to spend by myself. I
didn't think you'd notice? Besides didn't you want to
spend more time with your boyfriend and stuff?"

My voice betrayed me. We both looked up at each other
and attempted to smile. It wasn't an all-knowing kinda
smile. I think Katherine figured I wasn't going to
reveal anything to her that I didn't feel comfortable
revealing, and so she just left it at that. Maybe, me
not being mad at her was good enough reason not to
pursue the subject. Who knows, who cares but I was
relieved.


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